GRATITUDE LIST

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-my fascia blaster
-showering
-latisse
-sleeping masks
-going for a drive and getting starbucks and talking about the D situation with M's husband
-my hair color
-beautiful things
-benzos and my antidepressant
-water
-the lingerie i got in the mail looking really cute
-a new post for a social media i decided was a great fit
-glycolic acid
-water
-botox
-pillows
-blankets
-compassion for self
-naps
-having a warm apartment
-slippers
-moisturizers
-entertainment
-deodorant
-baby wipes
-being able to laugh at myself
-having goals
-beauty
-my beauty
-botox
-interesting reflections
-having an artistic mindset
-de-cluttering and cleaning
-listening to crown chakra music tonight
-guacamole
-my strength
-trying to focus on the good things
-inspiration

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-my strength
-entertainment
-learning
-my sex appeal
-sleep
-being productive
-joggers
-drinking more water
-dancing
-stretching
-lighting
-self reassurances
-baby wipes
-showering
-my beauty
-fabric refresh spray
-fabric conditioner
-lint rollers
-latisse
-compassion for self
-my acupressure mat
-fascia blasting
-my pills i take shortly after waking
-beauty
-cleaning and decluttering
-makeup
-hand wash
-blankets
-pillows
-slippers
-nightskies
-those who try to make the world a better place
-my intelligence
-prayer
-having goals
-cuteness
-smiling
-inspiration
-romance
-changing my ringtone

[buttercup]

-that D didn't accept the cashapp
-that i healed and recovered from my nervous breakdown today
-my laptop
-starbucks
-buying myself flowers, a beautiful new vase, and a bottle of rose champagne to love myself after D and i officially ending things last night/this morning
-hyaluronic acid
-my dolce and gabbana sunglasses
-booking roundtrip tix to miami work
-getting my lips filled yesterday
-walking around and window shopping yesterday
-drinking more water
-botox
-M's husband getting more info on resources/ new plans to get H cat and W cat to vet
-flowers
-beauty
-my beauty
-my femininity
-being smart
-updating online things
-cleaning and de-cluttering
-standing up for myself after D's b.s this morning
-ideas
-having beautiful eyes
-joggers
-yoga
-dancing
-newness
-my lower body feeling more toned
-benzos
-ideas
-evolving and bettering myself
-reassurances
-M's husband saying today when i said it's officially over with me and D that it's never officially over
-cats
-cuteness
-my laptop
-deodorant
-my hearts desires
-inspiration
-trying to put myself in a meditative mindset
-being unique

[buttercup]

-art
-learning new things
-sleep
-self forgiveness
-compassion for self
-my rad milano hoodie
-getting my juvederm done
-moisturizers
-switching purses and wallets
-cleaning and decluttering
-benzos
-coming out of my breakdown yesterday and everything working out
-my pretty flowers i bought yesterday
-showering
-starbucks
-coffee
-botox
-the new vase i bought myself
-buying myself rose champagne
-caring people
-people who care about and save animals
-new ideas
-solutions
-blankets
-pillows
-talking to M's husband
-felines
-people checking on me today
-hyaluronic acid
-water
-cleaning and decluttering
-fashion
-cats
-my acupressure mat
-my natural beauty
-having a nice chest
-fashion
-laughter and humor

[buttercup]

-having nice glowy skin
-hyaluronic acid
-juvederm
-sleep
-getting B cat to his vet appt
-seeing something very strange that looked propped like D is messing with me, which if so, shows he still cares
-yoga
-people caring and checking in on me
-baby wipes
-drinking more water
-moisturizers
-coffee
-lemon pie
-lighting
-cleaning and re-organizing
-fashion and my sense of style
-getting a gift for B cat
-skipping meals
-my beauty
-compliments
-kindness
-blankets
-meditation
-beauty
-inspiration
-hot guys
-my upcoming work/get away trip
-newness
-projects and ideas im working on
-slippers
-talking to M's husband today
-cleanliness
-prayer
-sunshine
-those who help animals, animal activists, and animal heroes
-being smart
-being able to think for myself
-healing
-entertainment
-wellness
-love
-reflection
-pleasant life moments
-fun
-pillows

[buttercup]

-having nice glowy skin
-botox
-juvederm
-hyaluronic acid
-doing some fascia blasting today and working with my acupressure mat
-drinking more water
-rest
-remembering me and D and D in general moments, like when he revealed he had been thinking about me and keeping tabs on me even before we first exchanged phone numbers
-romance
-love
-meditation
-chemistry between another
-sunshine
-compliments
-anxiety meds
-having great cheekbones
-my intelligence
-having dinner today
-my power
-the sound of the breeze and peaceful sounds when the window is open
-my accomplishments
-fashion
-my femininity
-showering
-connection
-cats
-colors
-flowers
-being unique
-decluttering
-beauty
-hot guys
-self renewing
-remembering fun and goals
-moisturizers
-having a unique sexy look
-having a large chest
-having beautiful eyes
-mobile editing apps
-blankets
-slippers
-being kind
-being assertive
-being kinder to myself
-pillows
-art
-heart warming videos, stories, and photos
-lighting
-sportsbras
-surrender
-intention manifesting
-working towards my goals

[buttercup]

-fighting for justice
-calming down
-tissue salts
-my beauty
-my hair
-getting underneath someone else to get back at D for not protecting me and feeling like he's not on my side
-being social last night
-embracing my truth and imperfection
-compliments
-seeing and experiencing new things
-getting an order of production
-fashion
-my style
-my resilience
-my faith W cat will find his way home
-getting some of my stimulus check
-being smart
-my pink pastel buttons bracelet
-how great my pink money robe looks on me
-sex
-makeup
-fun
-sleep
-calming down
-my determination
-using my pain as fuel
-booking hotel for my upcoming trip
-surrender

[buttercup]

-fashion
-botox
-fillers
-reflection
-my hair color
-trying to have faith
-hair ties
-my pink money robe
-tips and ideas
-sleep
-A talking to me and being a little nicer again
-fashion
-starbucks
-colors
-my acupressure mat
-deep stretches
-entertainment
-kind and supportive people
-animals
-animal activists, animal heroes, and those who make the world a better place for animals
-sweets
-moisturizers
-cleaning
-good skincare ingredients
-my resilence
-fighting for my rights
-finding away to fix my unemployment issues
-showering
-hyaluronic acid
-a new notebook for making to do lists
-colors
-my new gold marker
-newness
-my goals
-self awareness
-inspiration
-owning my crazy
-owning my truth
-slippers
-inspiration
-water
-pills to blank out
-showering
-being smart
-blankets
-creativity
-music

[buttercup]

-serendipity/synchronicity
-getting a manicure today
-reflection
-being high status
-being a kind person
-confidence
-my sense of style
-my hair color
-showering
-drinking more water
-self nourishment
-sleep
-the tenant getting a cease and desist that screamed at me the other day
-the other tenant getting her restraining order by now
-a lot of people coming out to support me and one colleague offering to get me story out there to several news stations
-kindness
-making others happy
-massage
-being strong
-my pastel buttons and fake pearls bracelet
-being productive
-compliments
-art
-inspiration
-soothing feelings
-love
-felines
-hairties
-hoodies
-my beauty
-talking to A.J on the phone today
-icons
-having a large chest
-colors
-trying to surrender
-nightskies
-the way the moon and trees looked tonight
-my dolce and gabbana sunglasses
-ideas
-dancing
-music
-baby wipes
-moisturizers
-tissue salts
-clean clothes
-appreciation
-empathy
-laughing
-working to better myself
-starbucks
-vegan food
-my new mint green notebook and the pink chanel gap tooth lips with drip sticker i put on it

[buttercup]

-trying to have faith it will all work
-looking for w cat with my good luck symbolisms
-remembering D and how we first met by texting him because it's been about a year now
-calming down and stabilizing
-my work accomplishments
-benzos
-compliments
-fashion
-getting a manicure yesterday
-my talents
-opportunities im being offered
-reassuring self
-M's husband's love for W cat
-my new gold marker
-burger king impossible burger
-hummus
-sleep
-lighting
-nightskies
-beauty
-art
-ideas
-colors
-meditating on my balcony
-working on feeling self empowered again
-coffee
-deodorant
-baby wipes
-my hair color
-my eyes
-my lips
-others being concerned for me
-a poetic mindset
-being a romantic
-love
-my new rose quartz heart
-jackets
-blankets
-glycolic acid
-setting positive intentions
-nourishing myself
-prayer
-hairties
-brushing my hair
-having a kind heart
-feeling my feelings
-looking for the good
-being reasonable and logical
-dancing
-music
-walking
-being a kind person
-animals
-animal advocates, activists, and those who help animals
-trees
-water
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