Before I begin my question I want to say I am relatively novice to meditation.
During one meditation session, where I kept my eyes open and gazing for a period of time (about 5-10 minutes) I closed my eyes and suddenly felt the most powerful sensation during mediation I have ever felt. I experienced many of the projection symptoms I read about in your Astral Dynamics book, including a ringing in my ear, stimulated heart rate and a feeling that I was quickly rushing upward. I reclaimed my physical conciousness quickly not knowing what had happened, or expecting it to happen, to say the least. I was thrilled at the experience though, since OBE has been a keen interest of mine for a while. This experience occured while I was reclining in a chair, not fully supine nor fully sitting up.
Ever since that experience I have seen an "eye" in my vision. I have seen it everyday for about 4 months now. At first when I saw it I thought I was losing it. I had and have been going through a period of developing new belief systems and I felt strung out emotionally. I sarcastically thought, "great, now I see an eye blatantly on the wall with my eyes open." I thought I had a floater in my eye or had accidently poked my eye or something of the like. However, I continued to see the eye constantly. I would see it in the most innapropriate times. I compete in grappling sports and sometimes I would squint my eyes when exerting myself heavily and see it blatantly, in the middle of training. Seeing it during a time when I was so focused on something so physical really caught my attention. I have seen dozens of different eye symbols, I draw them all for record. I then see these same symbols on metaphysical archives online, with no previous awareness of them. I don't feel scared of the visuals, nor do I really want them to go away because it nows feels like an inate part of me, but I have little idea what this is. To repeat myself I see the eye whether my eyes are open or closed, although I see it in better contrast and frequency when my eyes are closed. I could write a whole book of other strange experiences I have had but I tried to keep this relatively concise as I could so I could hopefully get a response. I haven't told anyone about this and feel that I have to get through these questions myself but maybe you could shed some light over a path.
I would be very grateful if you had any insight onto this. I read your Psychic Self Defense book and am currently reading Astral Dynamics, I really enjoy them and find them helpful.
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