Robert, you need to know what's going on.

[orygbus]

Maybe a visit to the psychic self defense part of the forum will help

[DarkChylde]

Maybe a visit to the psychic self defense part of the forum will help

or a trip to the local psychiatrist and some much needed medication , or in the very least an (expert) psychological opinion to your current situation ; either way rule out the physical possibilities before you move on to the metaphysical ones - doesn't that seem like the right and the practical most way to move things along?
I don't say this with malice , only out of concern for your current well-being ; clearly none of the answers here have been of any help to you.
It is time seek other venues of help , single-mindedness to the cause of your concerns is sheer obstinacy , negligence and disregard to both your physical and more importantly mental well-being.
We are all given only one brain to work with.If it was an eye you could have seen out of the there , such is sadly isn't so with mental problems , one brain does it all , there is no simply no other recruitment when it comes to the mind and the brain , they worthy of our utmost respect and medical concern.

A simple trip to the doctor holds the capacity to end this whole nightmare for you - most very highly worth a shot , regardless of whatever reason stands in between.