Korpo
16th May 2010, 04:00 PM
I've been practicing a variation of mantra meditation on and off lately. Eknath Easwaran recommends using a bit of scripture for mantra meditation, but instead I chose a few sentences dear to me as they have strong spiritual intent in them.
The instructions he gives are clear - stay with the words you recite, don't jump ahead. Speak each word inwardly in a way it has maximum effect, speak it consciously in your mind.
I found now several times that something odd happens. I feel a second voice following my usual "thinking voice," trying to say the words as well. This voice is quieter, almost quiet, and it is slower. So the first thing I tried is speaking the words so slowly that it can catch up. In fact this can become waiting for syllables. Several times I had to slow down my reciting as I found the thinking mind wants to skip syllables or go ahead, but when I slow down I start to get into alignment with that quiet voice.
In fact, as I spoke slower and let that voice catch up I felt greater effect with each word. As if each word had an inward impact. At this point it's almost as if I'm trudging along, each word is spoken against some resistance which it then dissolves, the words change something within me, I can feel effects in my body, I can feel energy on the move, my field of vision is full of bright energetic shapes, almost white.
And then I'm speaking the words through that voice instead. As I keep its rhythm I can stay with that voice, speak with that voice, which gives me unexpected strange effects. My field of vision is now full of this bright, white shapes, they almost fill it entirely, but I can see them forming and reforming. For a moment I feel like I'm choking while speaking the words inwardly, which panics me a bit, but I realise shortly after that this must be something in my throat chakra because nothing can possibly impair my breathing as I didn't change position. I just accessed a block wherever I am now.
My third eye region has been cleansed from tension that whole time I was reciting, and now there energy is moving much smoother, I can feel the ease with which it is moving. That must be the brightness I am "seeing" in my mind's eye. My meditation timer runs out, I finish my mantra for the last time and get up.
Brightness in my mind's eye has been more and more a feature of my meditations lately. Maybe it's a third eye effect, can't really say.
I should meditate more often, I've been lazy lately, finding excuses not to. When one came up today that's when I sat down to do it, to counter that tendency as it arose. The more often we counter such tendencies the less grip they have on us, I'd think.
Oliver
The instructions he gives are clear - stay with the words you recite, don't jump ahead. Speak each word inwardly in a way it has maximum effect, speak it consciously in your mind.
I found now several times that something odd happens. I feel a second voice following my usual "thinking voice," trying to say the words as well. This voice is quieter, almost quiet, and it is slower. So the first thing I tried is speaking the words so slowly that it can catch up. In fact this can become waiting for syllables. Several times I had to slow down my reciting as I found the thinking mind wants to skip syllables or go ahead, but when I slow down I start to get into alignment with that quiet voice.
In fact, as I spoke slower and let that voice catch up I felt greater effect with each word. As if each word had an inward impact. At this point it's almost as if I'm trudging along, each word is spoken against some resistance which it then dissolves, the words change something within me, I can feel effects in my body, I can feel energy on the move, my field of vision is full of bright energetic shapes, almost white.
And then I'm speaking the words through that voice instead. As I keep its rhythm I can stay with that voice, speak with that voice, which gives me unexpected strange effects. My field of vision is now full of this bright, white shapes, they almost fill it entirely, but I can see them forming and reforming. For a moment I feel like I'm choking while speaking the words inwardly, which panics me a bit, but I realise shortly after that this must be something in my throat chakra because nothing can possibly impair my breathing as I didn't change position. I just accessed a block wherever I am now.
My third eye region has been cleansed from tension that whole time I was reciting, and now there energy is moving much smoother, I can feel the ease with which it is moving. That must be the brightness I am "seeing" in my mind's eye. My meditation timer runs out, I finish my mantra for the last time and get up.
Brightness in my mind's eye has been more and more a feature of my meditations lately. Maybe it's a third eye effect, can't really say.
I should meditate more often, I've been lazy lately, finding excuses not to. When one came up today that's when I sat down to do it, to counter that tendency as it arose. The more often we counter such tendencies the less grip they have on us, I'd think.
Oliver