IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

In my Dreams last night I was in 2 different and challenging situations...first I was in a forest with wild animals attacing us, and I had Children and some grown ups to protect...we found a high Cage in the forest and I said, we climb up on the Cage roof and sleep for the night, the morning did come and I noticed that the side we climbed up to the Cage was very high, but on the other side it was low...the ground so to speak...it was horrible to notice that we where not at all protected as I thought, but not knowing about the true circumstances all Went well, but it did really make me Think in new patterns so to speak....


This seequence was me sitting in a car with a man, I can´t say who he was, he was the driver, and we was supposed to drive over a bridge but he refused to drive over it, and he said he want drive becides the bridge, I tried to tell him that it might be difficut to find a way to get back on the road again, and it might be obstacles we can not drive past...but he did want me to give him a go to drive his way, and I said...okay...all Went rather well and we ended up on the other side of the bridge but it was too steep the bank and I told him..see...we can not drive up here the car will not manage it to the road...so we looked futher down and noticed to see staires rather low so it would be managable to drive the car up to the road..but he now again wanted to drive backwards....he turned the car around but here I have had it...I did get out of the car and started to walk into the forest...suddenly I had a Child with me...but in somehow he dissapeared and I was all alone..now I did see a house on a hill and I was going there, I found a pathway and I was releved because Before that I was Walking in a high grass and it was difficult...now I felt something on my right leg on the caf but on the right side...I was too occupied to climb up to the house so I was thinking I will look into the leg later...now it was so steep and I was thinking...they can in no way drive a car on this road up to the house...I was totally taking all off me to get up to the house but I did manage...I got into the house and there was 2 women an older and a younger one...and some Children...I was so exhausted so she the younger said..lay on the couch for a minut...and I did...after a while I rose up and now I looked at my caf....it was 2 heded snake...not alive but like a braclese of some kind...the women did take it fast..and did not want to talk about it...so I only said...it must have bean on the couch where it did stick to my leg...and we did not talk more about it

There was more too but I am too comfused of the Dreams warying so much and so much of happening and strong feelings involved...I have to let it sink in....I might come back and fill in more if I see it nessessary....huh...what a night :-)

[IA56]

The night Before last I did have an experience what I did not record because I was asking John if it was him in my Dream and if he was aware of it...I do not know how John look like...but the feeling I had was that it was him...the feeling I have got from his Writings here...the Dream was like this...I woke up in the Dream when I noticed an energy entering my sphere so to speak...� looked at the right from where the energy was coming...and a Young mans face appeared ....I asked...who are you...he only smiled but did not say anything...Now a new energy approaces me from my front...and I at once see it is my first cousin M...and I grabbed her on her shoulders and said...Hi, it is me...do you recognize me...she did not...and is now looking total in fear at me...I started to Think...she does look like just as my cousing M but can not be her because she does not recognize me...so my thoughts go like this...do I not look like as me as I do in my flesch body??...how do I look like in my energy essence....so these questions did arise...but why did she look like her..but did not recognize me as me??....who can answere this to me...why it was like this??

[IA56]

Last night in my Dream I did have a bicysle...first I was so happy the bicysle being so robust...but when I started to sit on it I noticed being very hard to manuevre, it was Heavy, and almoste impossible to bike on...my son did sit behind me and where he was sitting was very odd too, we where like in a garage and I saw that the way out of the garage was very steep upwards, so the pedals Place was also odd...very front on the bicysle and when trying to pedal I had to stretch my legs so far away so it felt total impossible to make it...so here I awoke myself from the Dream

[IA56]

From last night Dream I only remember me saying...3/4 what kind of car is that??

[IA56]

Last night Dream I was with my teen bf...and his brother...my teen bf is no longer with us here but his brother is...so we where going to Movies, I had given them as birthday present tikets to Movies, and now they wanted to use them...when we where at the Movie theater I asked if they had theires tikets...the brother said yes...by my teen bf said no...I said...we try to as if I can come later with the tiket...he said the man at the door that there is only one spot left...I said..they have tikets, and that I will come with the bf´s tiket later..now it changed and there was no spots left so the both left (my bf´s brother and the bf) they did leave me at the theater...I did not even know where they had parked the car...so I tried first to find them..but gave up..and started to walk home...it was far a way...I saw it from bird´s perspective so I knew on what direction to take Walking...I come to a house and Went inside to ask for directions...when I come out to the street I saw a man..and his face expression did tell me..that he had bean the one to play the role of my decesed teen bf...he did give me the message that I must try to feel secure with other men too...I am Crying now here...it was so intence and off course true too....

In this seequenze I was with the princess Madelaine of Sweden...I had bought envelopes to give her so she can send me photos..I said..I have not buy you any stamps you might use the Royal mark maybe....

[IA56]

Last night was very intence again....I was in a Place I did not recognize at all...I did see a Child and grownup´s, and I see a Cobra raising from the grass, I am backing away slowly from it...and I shout to the grownup´s...take the Child away...and they do..suddenly I have a Child with me and we go into a house...I read a name on the door...my aunt´s from fathers side...I re-check and yes it is her Place...I take the Child inside there but they do not want us to stay...so I take the Child with me and leave...

In this episode I am in a manage and I am hurt and lying on the ground...no one come to help me but the horse...my bf is talking with a women and I am amazed he did not come to my help...I go to him and ask if he could see what the horse did...no he said..no off course not..you was so occupied with other thing´s...so I walked away...and now he panic and tries to hold me in his grip, and I say...let go of me...he are not willing to do so...I have to say it many time´s...let go of me...and in the end he let me go...I am so dissapointed and hurt...I go to pack my things...now I am in a lo what they have in country side...and my son in talking through the door, and asking what is happening...I say that I have had it...I am leaving...now the bf have talked about me being so jellous and making a scean...and not at all saying how the reality was...so I am not talking to anyone of his friends anymore...and they are compelled...but if they do not see the truth, then I am not the one telling them...they will see it everntually.

Now in this episode I am bitten by the snake..it is not anymore Cobra...it is a very poisoned snake...a very Little one...I was accepting it in some way...like ..it was expected when me only Walking away and not fighting for my rights.

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was on a bridge with very much snow so you couldn´t see the bridge at all, it was snow covered. I walked on the snow and suddenly it did break and I fell down, someone was with me who did shout my name, I fell under the brigde but the snow did fell outside so it did not fell on me...I shouted..I am okay...but no-one lended a hand to me...I had to crawle by my own up to the bridge what was left of it...there was a lot of people but no-one did anything...so I started to say...to whom do we report this, they must come with a sighn´s that no-one will drive on this bridge...no-one cared..I could see politians too, I approached them but they only hided behind their Magazines....so I raised my voice and suddenly 2 polititians did rise and said...follow me...we Went into a building and they asked a man if he could report further, but there was a crisis in his office, and the co-worker did go home and he said...I will get new one first thing on the tuesday, so he was not willing to help...we Went further into the building and now they vanished...I enterd alone into a room full of people...I said...the bridge is broken, you need to allert someone to Close down the bridge...No-one said anything still they where hiding behind Magazines...Now I did for the first time speak up...and I noticed my voice to be broken...I was compelled to hear how strange my voice was...so I appologized for me having the Cold and my voice was not strong enough...but now I did allert people to listen...and I said...Now I have said it...if you do not do anything it is on you all...you are the one´s who can do something about this...I have done my part...

[IA56]

I have had some nights now different way to Dream than Before, I do not know how to even decribe it...but it might be more accurad to say...Before when I have said...I awoke in the Dream..it was a fake awakening...when now I am awake in the Dream, and it is therefore I do not feel I am dreaming, but I still say to myself...remember this....so I have felt total awake and I know I was dreaming when I woke up, because I was in my bed :-)
I in the Dream was talking and telling about how I with working with my memories and that my mother has confirmed my age, but off course she does not Believe me finding this memory because I was only like 7 months age...but nevertheless I have found these memories and some memories what my parent´s have hide from me, this is so delecate that I did not even preassure more to know about, did accept the way mother wanted to tell about it...whilst Crying her Eyes out...so I have in the last few nights being talking about memory work to someone who whas interested to hear...like Learning out how I did.

[IA56]

I have started new way to be in my Dreams..I wonder if it is what you call lusid...I can tell that the body or I am not the body but the air or maybe like a mist or a cloud material...and I can see me such as too...it is more difficult to keep me near a physical person so to speak...I am in this lusid state like a White air...I saw my grandchild A and I tried to talk to her...I know she did see me but I also felt she will never admit....so now I did go and visit her in my body so to speak...and I asked her...did you see me when I was invisible...she said first no...but then she said...I did see you when you where gray...so have I gone from gray to White??...It seams that I have.
It is rather interesting to try to keep me collected so to speak when I am this air or mist or what to call it...maybe eather...I still want to feel "collected" to feel secure...as we are collected in our body....so more training and all will change I am sure and get more interesting :-)

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt that I was watching energies how a girl did inhale them...I did not know if it was okay for her to do so, or if I should have done something to prevent that to be happening...so I observed and then I tried to blow air at her to see what happens and now the energies did not go into her mouth, but from her own mouth come an energy to stop me from breathing air at her, I was wondering if it was her own protection or if the energies did do that...I never found out what was what....

In this seequence a women told me that after you die you can not do any gymnastic for 6 month...I did find this very odd but did not ask why, somehow I did accept it...

In this seequence I did help a women who was Crying she was sitting on the floor and I helped her into a bed...

In this seequence I did go to bathroom when I noticed my clothings to be embarresing, I had pink transparant knikers and a very short dress, I was wondering why I had not put leggings on me when the dress was so short...it was not me...and I was thinking who did influence me to dress this way...I did not find out...and I awoke myself....

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt that I had a very Little and odd looking baby, it had a very long back of the head and the skin was not as it usually are on Babies...darker and more rubber like. It was tiny but did understand all what I spoke to .....do not know if it was boy or girl...it did be more allert when I did put it down and I did put it on a table and it will at once crawl...and suddenly it did crawl backwards and did backed up on back of a chair and fell backwards on the floor...I was in chock. It did happen so quickly that I did not even react until it was too late. I did pick the baby up and Went out, I did find myself in a chelter for homless, and it was christmas time, I saw christmas present and food. One women did ask me if she could hold the baby so I can rest a bit, I was happy for the help. She hold the baby faced at me, and now it smiled and wanted to show me it was okay, I took it´s tiny hand´s and we laughed in joy and happiness....here I awoke myself.

[IA56]

Last night in my Dreams I was back to an old working Place I had between 1987-1990. I Heard co-workers say there was cake to take, I had just again started working and was Little bit unsure I had right to have cake too.
One co-worker said that the Owen must be moved and the background cleaned, he said it will be very nasty, all the oil is Heavy and on many layers...he knew I have my back injured so he did not want me to help him...so Before I knew anything he had removed the Owen and I could see that the background was not that filthy as he imagened.
Now I asked him if I can go and have some cake, and he said off course...I tried to find a plate but did not so I took a bowl and Went to the other departament where the cake was served. I asked where the cake is and they pointed up to a very high cupboard..I did not reach enough so the cake come down on the floor, I was embarresed but said, I will eat this anyway, I did not want them to feel I am new and spoiled for some not to have any cake, 2 slices did come down...I did take the cake with my hands and put it in the bowl..did not dare to look at anyone, Went back to my working Place, but did not feel to eat the cake at all.
I said to my co-worker in frustration...why did they have the cake so high up, no-one can manage to have it properly...why did I not take the cake and placed on the table....why did I not dare to make that change?? the thought did come to mind but I did not dare to execute it of fear what the co-workers would Think, me new at the work.....

[IA56]

Last night was a night what was strange....I did not get it...It was like looking at TV and noticing that the TV was not on but still there was program showing, and up on that noticing that the cord was not plugged in eigder but still there was showing TV programs...I was distrubed whilst investigating what is going on and I was dragged into a nother Dream and it was a horror Dream...
A girl was taken as a hosstage her hands was bound behind her back...I did rescue her...we ran out...after a while the man did spot us and he was in Company of a boy now...and he was taken as hosstage too, now I noticed that he was blind (he had forced the boy to be his eye´s to find us)...I did get more currage to be able to handle this and free both Children...we ran and whilst we ran I was making up plans, but suddenly the Dream was abrubtly end...and I woke up??
What is going on??!!

[susan]

IA, strange but one of my dreams last night was similar.
Someone was keeping me in a room and I was not allowed out.I was a prisoner. When I plucked up courage to confront this person I noticed he had a boy in another room being held. I talked and persuaded him to let us both go .That was all of the dream.
I wake up a lot through the night and have many dreams if nothing eventful happens.
Our dreams although different are similar.
I wonder if it's just a coincidence that we pm'd each other yesterday?
Or maybe mine is just because I feel I want to get out every night.
Maybe yours is your struggle to be set free from your troubles of the past and start new. Don't know just wanted to point out the coincidence.

[IA56]

IA, strange but one of my dreams last night was similar.
Someone was keeping me in a room and I was not allowed out.I was a prisoner. When I plucked up courage to confront this person I noticed he had a boy in another room being held. I talked and persuaded him to let us both go .That was all of the dream.
I wake up a lot through the night and have many dreams if nothing eventful happens.
Our dreams although different are similar.
I wonder if it's just a coincidence that we pm'd each other yesterday?
Or maybe mine is just because I feel I want to get out every night.
Maybe yours is your struggle to be set free from your troubles of the past and start new. Don't know just wanted to point out the coincidence.

Hi Susan,
I am not at all surprised, I did see your avatar so I was thinking in the Dream ....if you also was with me in the Dream...so we where in the same Dream...:-)....both strange and cool...and yes I Think it had to do that we connected yesterday through PM...so we where in each others energies :-)

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt that I have moved to Another Place, I did keep my old house and Went with friends to visit my old house, I hade a big bunch of key´s, I opened the door and the first thing I noticed was a steep stairwell up, and when I come up to the hall the first thing I saw was my son´s old Tonka car and all our furnitures intact, I said, I have left all here so if friends or relatives want to lend the hous for holidays it is okay, and my cousins mouth Went wide open of surprise how generous I am, so I said, off course everyone has to keep it Clean and tidy up after theires use.

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt that I was in a very high building and I Went out to the balcony and at the first time there was the balcony parapet and this sceen did repeat it self with small Changes everytime..second time there was no balcony parpet and then the balcony floor did get smaller and smaller and in the last one when I did see through it was no floor at all and I noticed it just Before I did put my feet on it, it was just plaine air.....it was the meaning me jumping out of it to kill myself, but i did see through and did copy in every change and survived....

Then I in one seequence I hear myself say,...Queen Christina

[IA56]

I had so many Dreams last night but I can´t get anything out of them ...The one I only want to tell about was that I had crocheted a yellow dress, and I wanted one of my male friends to try it on him...it fitted wonderfully and I did say to him to stand abolutely still I want to take a pic of him so he can see how it fit´s....then I noticed the only what did stick out was his gender bulding out ...when I was looking at the sholders I was so happy about the design and the dress in whole, ...I did not react as if anything was wrong, just noticed these things....
I do not still get what the Dreams was about...only thing come´s now in mind...if it was to check out my condemnation of to be appropriat or not...but as I do not Think in these values anymore...what is male or female...I go much what a person like´s or feel comfortable with is more important than anything els...more to dare to be em self from inside and not go by societies rule´s what is appropriate or not....in this case I did not feel it was wrong for him to have a dress if he wanted to ware a dress..
I Think I am working with these kind of issues deeply...to free me from cutural boundaries me Think :-)

[IA56]

Last night was a very clarifying night for me...it was all about edification and a clear Picture off how things are...now and for me to understand to keep my focus on my own stand Point so to speak. I have very long time felt powerless and hopless how to start to live my knowing, but still yet not clear how to do it.
The Dream was about first to get a clear Picture so to speak and then make a plan of strategi how to execute or live it...I have still much work to do but I have started to understand more deeply. I do fear the forces what is working against me...and that is my own ego...making old fear to bloom up and keep me in Place...this night did give me a more over view so I can Think about when fear do stick up it´s ugly face...and remember this night´s Picture I was given...it is more a total understanding than a Picture...it is a Deep knowing and experience ...like one soul at a time be saved....hard to explaine.

[IA56]

Mostly I do not write my Dream fractions more than if it feel´s some strong importance feelings what the Dream do recall in me...so was last night...this feeling of importance...the force or energy or what ever it was...was very clear to let me know how important my Life is...or all life´s and shall not be taken lightly ever...There is no GOD who say you shall sacrifice your Life for Him...that is an misguided missunderstanding and the Dream couldn´t stress it enough for me to really take it in and understand it´s depth of it...I do not even know what word´s to use to make justice to the meaning of my last night Dream....
What I also did feel is how religions have missunderstood so much...and my Dream about the broken bridge...is about this topic...how to mend the bridge so we all can go home...and stop all these meningless wars of religions ...we all are Brothers and sisters in LOVE...not in war....so just Think twice Before you raise your weapon against someone...

[IA56]

In last night Dream I Dream about an ex bf in the Dream we seamed to be togeather or the Dream was from that time...(I am working on lesson 5 in the book A Course in Miracles, "I am never upset for the reason I Think") ...this has to be said becuse I was aware in the Dream about this lesson...so the Dream was like this: I have wardrobe in the hall (I do not have this in real Life and I do not remember what appartament I have had on in the hall, maybe it is in the future?)...so he had the wardrobe dorr open and when I passed by him he turned around and had one pair of my knickers and smelling on them...but he dropped one pair of knickers what was not mine...here I started to Think how should I react...should I comfront him about the knickers what are not mine and how he has them...should I just go along what the situation tells me and trust on my guts....so these thoughts was on going in my mind when I hear myself say...WHOs knickers are these...I did at once feel Deep fear and I did go fast to the bathroom and closed the door...my heart was raising to a high uncofortabel level...and I said to myself....I want out from here....I want back home....(so maybe this was not my appartament but his?? but this ex bf did not have a wardrobe in the hall in his appartament)...here I awoke myself, it was too intence....

[IA56]

In my Dream last night I was tested of my trust on my son....he did pass the test :-)...or that I have not lost my trust upon him :-)

[IA56]

In last night dream I was living on a camping area with many houses...I heard that a big accident has happened and now everyone would be interrogated...I went out on a road and all car´s was stopped for the interrogation...there is several women officers but they have hard time to get the male drivers to stop at theire command...I see a car turnoround and drive away...so I take my bike and for to see where is it driving...they have to stop at the red light...so I catch up on them...and I tell them that if they drive away they will be suspected to have something to do with the happening at the camping...so I over talk them to come back for the interrogation..and I succeed...but I do memorize the license plate incase they will drive away and not return for the interrogation....

[IA56]

I woke up this morning from my dream when I hear myself say...How long time will it take to raise a man??...and I hear like 75...and I go...what...hour...day´s....minutes....and now when I hear my thoughts go like this...I get so scared so I let my self out of it and start to analyse...did I follow a written instructions...or a hearing instructions...I did become very unsure and I was thinking...for what reason did these instructions given to me....who did it...and for what...if not for more reason...it was very talkative that when thinking comes in the mind...you start to analyse and then the doubt invaded me...and I really could see the difference...by just doing it and when start to think...I did need a reason why I am doing it....but what I understand is..that many things can be done if you just do it...but then when it come´s to cause and effect it is here the difference is made...there will be consequenses...so here I do understand doubt deeper....and next question...what happens if you do without understanding the reason or the outcome caused by your doings...well I do understand where this is going...and I do stat to prepear myself for deeper responsibillity.

[IA56]

I did awake from my dream because I was unsure if I was doing something I would regret when understanding it´s outcome....so I did awake myself and saying to myself...I do not know what cause and effect this will make....and I really felt the fear of unsureness in my whole being...and the feeling that arise was...I want to be sure what I am doing, before doing anything, so it will be worth it....to be dragged into something someone els want´s for own agendas is not what I want to let happen anymore....I must be given time to think it over if I do ...I must be given time and all fact´s so I can choose if I do it or not...not to be dragged and lured into happenings of someone elses agenda and I must pay the price so to speak because I did it without understanding the effect of it ....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was hearing someone talking like my life was less worth than others...and I was hearing myself say...to clear up in this dumpster...and when I hear myself say this then I understand that it meant my life bean lesser...so this is typical ego fear....

[IA56]

In last night dream I dream about colored stings...have no idea what it was...

In this seequence I was waiting on a parking line for my friend, and what a surprise in what car she came....in a very little Morris Mini...the ordinary cars was so big in comparission to my friends car...but she had a car...I do not have any....

In this seequence I was watching a film on the computor with my son...I was leaning my head at his sholder and he did not have any shirt on him...I did notice the screen change and I asked my son...can someone take a pic through the screen...because I have coverd over the camera with a piece of paper...and yes he said you can....I felt devestated that I can not be secure anywhere if that is possible...

[IA56]

WoW what a intence night...I am not sure how to write about it...but the contents of the dream was...I was shown how much this world is about appearence and look´s....There was 2 persons who did read exact same text but the first one was very beautiful and so good looking you nearly did stop breathing...and the second was so uggly so you nearly was not able to look at it...but did read and tell exat same word´s....Non of them did reach out with the message as you would expect...but the beautiful person more than the uggly on....wow....I am working with right vision and there is much work to do...thank you for this lesson.

[IA56]

In last nights dream I was looking when 2 persons a man and a women was talking to a working place boss...She was so sure to get permanent job there but what he did say to her...that it is not certan she can get a job there...I was listening to what he answered to the man...but she came to me to get comfort..she said...this is killing me...I am devestated...I hear him to say to the man...I will be happy to forward your wish...but I can not promise anything...I will let them know your wish....
She is sitting on the window where you put the flowers, she is hiding behind the curtains...and I was starting to say...that she is more capable and do not need this job, she is bigger than this...but now my alarm clock went off and I was awakened from the dream....

[IA56]

Last night was a night of lifting the veil again...it went so fast that I only could notice...like I was in one scenary and then the veil was lifted and beneath I was in total another scenary...and in that split sek I did understand and wake up.....

[IA56]

Last night before I fell to sleep I did see RB breafly...I am sure it did happen because I am also waiting his answere to S I have bean active in that thread....

I did have very strange seequence ..it was a little baby and I knew it was my grandchild...I did take her by her hands and did let her walk and I said to her that I am going to introduce her for some aquitance to me...when we reached to the people I wanted her to meet I said....this is my grandchild..and I turned to her and said...say your name...she looked at me and said..I do not know my name...and I was flabegasted because I did not eighder know her name...I felt comfused and embaresed...and asked myself...how come I do not know her name??

It was many random scenary and I did have many physical experiences...like I felt like hurting myself..or that I did physically hurt myself??..I am sure this is from pre-lifes....

[IA56]

I went back to bed this morning at 7 and dream a whole ....The first dream was that I was in a very wonderful inviroment, like a casle...it was a cafee too...I did see my own image in a mirror and I was pleased of what I saw...my hair was white at the front haire and I was thinking I have diyed it and I was pleased, I look so young too??...but I did recoqnize to be me...the owner of the place did enter so quick that I raised my hands to protection of me...but he just kissed me..and that did surprise me even more..and I started to tell him that I thought I had to defend me ..and that I thought he would be violent against me...now I noticed a women having a for me never seen way to have her chockolade...it was like a praline on the top...firme but flowting chockolade beneath..she bite it and drank in...and I could feel the taste too...it was fantastic...

Then another women started to talk about if she would have her readings in here how much would he charge her...and he said like..if you take 33 and I take 33...but she did start to protest....and I did intervien and I said...but your own part you can charge what ever you like...but I was thinking backwards...because I first said you can charge less...but this way as he had sudgested it was plus minus nill...so when I noticed my bad...I said what I already wrote...but this last episode was after I noticed I was thinking backwards...

In this seequence I was going to my brother...but I had his name on a nameplate...it was bigger than usual...and it had something on it...some splash...and I was thinking if it was coffee...I was walking to a car because I was going to be picked up by him...but a for me unknown women did come and picked me up...I did feel right about the car..but surprised it was not my brother who was driving it....

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt that I was invited to a grill-party and when I arrived to the place the owner said...can you get me some skewers..I knew I had some in wood at home and went to get them...I did find them but when I handed them over they where cut in 3 pieces and one piece was missing...I was looking at them and said...who do this kind of things...so I said I will go to store and buy some new...and I asked if they shall be the short or the longer ones and he said...the long ones...

In this episode I did to become aware of something deep, I could now compare something...my whole body was tingeling after this episode, sad I do not remember it in detail, but I know it will come back, it was sure something I need time to accept.

[IA56]

Last night I was crying very very hard and deep, but I was not able to know about what, I just felt that one part of me was crying in agony and pain...but I was not affected by it..I just get to be aware that I did cry....I felt that that kind of pain I would not survive..or the body...heart...would not be able to hold....if I had to be awake and aware to....

[IA56]

Last night I was in a very old house complex, it was very low doors as they had in old times, it was little bit a casle feeling from the inviroment, old furnitures and stuff, I was there with a group of people, but I can´t say I did bond with them, but I was trying my best, so I do not understand the meaning of the dream at all....maybe that I do not feel at home at all anywhere I go, I just notice that I am as I have always bean, alone in miths of a crouwd...

In this seequenze I was at my grandfathers from fathers side, but it was much bigger house than in reality, I was just going to go inside when I see a group of people coming, I did look if I knew any of them...I did not...but one women was so warm and kind so I went to meet her and I did hug her, I said...I was just going inside to cry but then I saw you coming, and I laughed, and now you come with the sunshine, she smiled and asked If I want to join them, and I said why not...it seamed to be a dancing group...folkdance group of some kind....there was a man with a black hood and when I started to look around it was a very odd group of people, very different and not at all co-herent as usually that kind of group are, but it was a nice and warm hearted people, and I did feel secure and accepted, I did not bond but I did feel happy to be with them.

[IA56]

Last night I had several dreams, it is only fragments I remember...
I was talking with a man, it was like we where a couple, and he was going to let me meet his children, he have 2 children. He looked at me asked...Are you going to give us trouble? I was surprised of his perceiving of me, and I aswered ...No if you neighder do give me problems...I was trying to communicate...they get what they give...so to assume I was going to give him problems in my understandig was to project on me his own unsecurity, he ougt to know that a relationship is give and take, not only to take.

In this seequence I was talking to this man trying to give some information about my sons father before he he meet him (my sons father did kill him self for for 10 yrs ago) He would be 70 yrs old if he lived today, so I tried to tell this man that even he is old he look very young, and that he would like understand that it is an old man, and to have somekind of mercy on him.

In reality someone has steel some items of mine from my sons flat, so in this part of the dream I did get them back by post as a parsel, I was really surprised.

[IA56]

In last night dream I did get to understand about preayer...I do not know how to put it....I have bean fearful how to make a right preayer so it will make a difference in persons life whom I am makeing the prayer for...and it was written on the air with white letters....LOVE...I did understand....then I got to feel how hard it is to get out of own bad choices when it has gone too far...and I could also see that it needs God´s intervention...this did happen to my son...I can never be enough thankful and give enough grace to God....Thank you for loving us so much.

[IA56]

Last night dream started that I was looking at myself from the outside. I see me be dressed in a yellow dress and it was a sari/sarong feeling over the dress. I am in a sewing room, and I feel I have made the dress. Now I am in my body when a man approaches me, I do not give him my attention but calmly I start to pick up the sewing threds from the ground and they are in all colores. Soon the man starts to help me, we do not talk, now I have a bunch of threads in my hand and he grabs them to hold on to them too, and like jerks so he gets my attention and that I will be aware of his intentions...I am very surprised but I do accept the help. It is a nice feeling. I feel for the first time that a man is co-operating with me and really purely helping me without any other agendas. It felt utterly wonderful.

[IA56]

Last night I was pulled into darkness and horrible noices and sounds was heard, but it was pitch black....so I focus on a sunny beach with birds song and the lovely sound of the water breaking into the shore....and I was in total peace..I have no idea why I was kept into the darkness but they who pulled me into darkness was not able to controll my inner feelings and my inner thoughts, and I was total satisfyed with the peace I felt and kept my cool....

[IA56]

Last night in my dreams I was watching several cultures how they took care of children...like the Africaans they have the child near the mother the first years of the childs life...the mother carry the baby on her back wrapped in cloth.
And I saw also a father playing with his son, and I could see the humour in their connection, the father did pinch the sons nose and he like did gave him a face to get even on him...it was so nice but also how important the nearness and to see and acknowledge children in childhood is so important for theire adult life....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was back on one of my old working place...I did not last at that work because of all the heavy bullying of me, and I felt that no-one dared to be on my side...so I did confront one of the bully persons and everyone was surprised but no-one did still be on my side...so I did surprise them all by saying...I might come back here one day, because you all need help, but I am not sure I can last because of the toxic energies of ya all...so I said as I felt, I am not sure I can transform this negative energy to positive without me being sick again...I was leaving them and said good bye but not one said good bye to me...so I said...no off course not...and felt that no it is not worth to even try to make that working place to turn around to more positive...and I felt..No I am not going back there ever.....

[IA56]

Last night was adrenalin filled night...It was midsommar celebrating people who did awake my deep fear in me, I did have very hard to fall in sleep, and when I did briefly someone was screaming like someone was trying to kill em...this did go on sure until 4 o´clock this morning....then I fell briefly into sleep and awoke at 6.30 and still much worry and pain in both heart and body after the horror night.
I did have a dream or then it was a somekind of projection experience what was new to me....so hard to explain, but if have to try to say something...it was me waniching into a space and I was like the nothing after a bomb explosion, when the bomb is so big that it does not leave anytning more than like dust or small splinters, total vanisched but still something I can´t even describe....so strange....

[IA56]

Last night in my dreams I was looking down from a high building to the ground, my teacher was educating a bunch of people when she/he looked up on me and bend down with one knee on the ground and said...( demostrated ) ..I have litterally had hands on this treasure and looked up on me...I did know that when she/he was done with the education she/he will come to visit me...I hade my livingroom table full of the "treasure" and a cake and a big bag with candies, but I had to go to bathroom and I did have my childhood friend E with me and I said...tell that I come soon if the teacher will come before I am back....

[IA56]

I have had a very disturbed and disrupted sleep...I has bean awakened by persons ruching into my bedroom and awakening me...and I could both see and feel theires fear and that they where checking on me to be alive ore something likely?? and awakening a deep fear in me too, so like projecting theire own disbelief on me?? Hard to describe the contents of the dream....

[IA56]

In last night dream one man tried to force upon me a telescope wand?? I do not even know for what it be for so I did not take it...I felt that if I had accepted then something of an lie would bean said upon me....strange...

[IA56]

The night before this I did have a dream that I in the first place did not know if I should share it, because it is about my son and he do not like me talking about him openly. (He does not know yet about the inprinted things what was inprinted in him and how he has executed them out, as I know because I was there as a whitness to see what happens to a person when bad things occurs in early childhood)

The symbolism is total clear to me, ...the dream seequence was....Me feeding my son with silver sword´s and silver cross proximately 5-10 cm size, he did willingly swollow them but it was hard, but he did it to help him self to battle and win over his inner demons....these toolse was helping him to do the hardest part what was out of my hand´s so to speak...and for him also knowing that this was the only way for him to help himself....Thank you for giving me the tools to give my son so he can help himself.

[IA56]

I have not remembered my dreams for some time now, but today when I went to bed this morning for a nap, I was in such a clarity and brightness I have not ever before experienced, it was brief, then I went back to "normal" and I see in the air something coming towards me with a high speed, I feel I ougth to catch it, but it goes through my hands before I even made them together to catch it, and it went direct to my heart chakra...I was able to see it briefly, it was a figurin of proximately 10 cm and it looked like the Holy Mother??

[CFTraveler]

Fascinating. I've had dream visitations too, not that long ago.

[IA56]

Fascinating. I've had dream visitations too, not that long ago.

Hi CFT,
Yes the symbolism is so clear, we can´t catch it with hand´s we have to catch it in our heart :-)

I got a very good proof about the dream before this, about my son and the tools I got to give him, and as you can assume if you swollow that kind of tools it must bleed, right? To give me the answere that it did help my son the first real proof was that my son did feel something coming up from his stomach and he spit it out and it was pure blood, and I just said in my inner ...THANK YOU!!! ( The tools I got in a dream state and in a dream but the answere I got in day state )

I have not bean able to tell my son about this, I do not want to upset him...but I got my proof enough...all the help we get in our "dream state" will bleed into our awakened reality....I am in so big and total awe here and feeling so blessed and I am so greatful. My son is back compleatly.
:-) :-) :-)

[IA56]

In last night dream I only remember one thing, I saw a red rescue boat, I knew it was for me. Thank you!!

[IA56]

Last night in my dream I did threw away clothes with my left hand.

[IA56]

Here comes few of my last dreams...

I was badly harassed and I said...If you back off me now, I will not press charges against you. It was a group of people who had decided to harass me to death.

In this dream I was caught in a net, It was a horrendes ride, I closed my eyes and said...I have total faith that I will survive. I was dropped off and Angelina Jolie did rescue me, she did cut the net with a big knife and she said...this is total unexepted, they can not treat you like this. She gave me a towel, I went into the bathroom, I did pass by a beautiful man, with gourgeous body, but I was so in chock and tired that I was not able ot enjoy what I saw. When I entered the bathroom a "oridnary" man did enter with me the bathroom, I said...excuse me...I asked him..What do you want? He said: I just want to watch you shower..I said...(I was to tired to fight him out) If you do not have anything more useful to do....so be it....

In this dream I had got a new job...and I was welcomed by the boss with these words....Welcom R (my birth name) I said ...my name is ia...he/she said...I do not like that name....and I said...but I love it...with lot of enthusiasm and total happiness in my whole apearance :-)

In this dream I was back to my old profession (medicin feet care taker) I was assisted by my childhood friend E...She come to me and told me that one lady did not book time for a treatment...I saw a sewing needle fall to the ground, and I was thinking of the meaning...but did not get to know the meaning...
I was looking at the lady´s feet´s ..she was a diabetic...I did see she had a wound..and I started to heal it...she asked me if I am going to give her a treatment...I said...Not now...but after 2 week´s....I was thinking the wound will be healed until then....
I noticed that my booking calender was old...(I stop my profession at 2006) so I was thinking I have to get a new booking calender...so I said that the first lady who my friend E said did not want to book an treatment...I said so she would hear me...but that lady has a booked time tomorrow....and she said...can I change that treatment to the 18th of this month...off course you can I said...

[IA56]

This night I had a dream I was visiting some friends parents..We did end up into her room and I was surprised that the room was so small and it did only have a big bed, as big as the room was? and the walls and roof and the cover of the bed was in orange colore, we did lye down on the bed and the mother said...she does have the view of the big picture...and I was thinking that ...wow...she is tallented...coming from this upbringing and having an understanding for the big picture...I am not seeing it....and then I hear a voice saying...RAW FOOD.

[IA56]

WoW...again a night what I will have hard to express in word´s...but I give it a try....I was sure I was awake and I was conserned that I will be so tired because of lack of sleep, I was touched with a knock on my body, and it was a sleep...my awarness was awake not my body....well this was helpful...but now it started to spinn off to things what I have always hunched but never had the gut´s to stay in and try to get some understanding in...I have always given up...it is so complicated so I have felt it is no use...so it was shown like a lazer beam...I could see to some kind of horison line, but I was aware it did not stop there, it did continue even I could´t see futher...now the lazer beam did become like a measuring instrument/stick.....I did get to feel/know how much the knowing was and how much the feeling was...feeling was way more than my knowing yet I got to understand that it is the knowing what count´s to be understood, if I am not able to put my knowing into word´s the feeling will not be accepted as a knowledge....so how to withen and deepen and make the knowing spread along with the feeling...Feeling will help me to measure my knowing so to speak...it is very good teacher...but not enough.
Now I got to also understand beyond my 5 senses...there is several other for me known but not yet any name for....and it was given me as a knowing by making my nose chooked up...and I was to understand/feel how important to be able to smell is...I do not taste if my nose is stopped up...and if I do not taste I do not have the abillity to flawor or even know anything...like a methaphore...If you do not know what it is and you can not smell it you will not know what you eat...you can be served pure s..t and you eat it because you can´t smell it and therefore know that it is s..t...our mouth does feel the consitense that it is soft..eyes can see it is brown...so is chockolade too.....so by this all awareness fields must be opened so to speak to be able to know the wholeness....
And I was to be aware that this unknown part is starting to open up...yet I have not read or heard about it yet, I can feel that others sense it too but no-one yet are talking about it....interesting....
Now a new kind of shade of curiosioty has awaken in me, or has made awaken...well...I do not know how to even say it.
I did also feel the importanse of symbols....one tiny symbol is so talkative that it will take a whole book to tell about it...wow.

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt that I was pushing infront of me a service table, the hotel staff did bring me breakfast to my room and now I was bringing it back with me , it was a service table with wheels, when a man also staying at the same hotel as me, confronted me with a belief, that they brought to me to my room on the service table better breakfast than he got at the hotel breakfast buffe...I felt how infected of jeleousy he was...I looked at him and I said...Don´t be silly...Come with me...now we are going to straighten this out....who got the best breakfast...He or me.....I got two toasted bread with marmelade and a bowl of porrige with butter and one boiled egg.....I am sure the buffe did have more to offer than this.....

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt that my front teaths did nearly break, I was able to just and just put them back on place, but I did feel how fragile they where and that it does not take much to really break them....

[IA56]

In last night dream I did get a telephone call....Hallo a voice said....can you hear me....Yes I said...clearly...Ha he said....I am calling from the other side...What??! I asked....I am dead....Are you,....Yes....I asked...how can I know??...suddenly my toes was twisted in a cramp...aha...I said...so this is the sighn when a dead one take contact....??...And here I awoke...

[IA56]

Again a night of difficulty to explain, but it do have connection to my real life happening....In real life I have much brain haze, memory problems like difficulty remember where I did put my glases type of a example....
In the dream I did see small glimses through what my "brain haze" was about....it was about manipulation....like a jeddai thing...I knew I had payed a bill and here was this manipulation done to me and some one took my money what I thought I had payed a bill with, so, how to prove this to be true, who would believe me?? No-one....this has bean happening to me for years....

In this seequenze I did go into a room, I tried to understand what they where doing, but I did not....I entered a room, there was a bunch of people sitting with theire mobil phones and listening...no one spoke they where listening, to what? (I have heard that you can tap into someones phone conversation by having theires number and putting some code to overhear, I have no idea if this can be done in real life??)..I tried to ask one women but she was protending not to even notice me, so I silently went out of the room wondering what this was about?? Did not crace the code, so to speak.....

[IA56]

Last night I had so many dreams that it is impossible to tell....the only seequenze what remained clear in my mind was....A man who called him Hankina Zedek, I have know him in my past, was going to do something spectacular and dangerous...Someone did run to me and told me...I do not remember what it was, but the only memory of it is that it is dangeours...and this Hankia has said he will do it....OMG!! I am scared....I will pray he will be okay.

[IA56]

The only dream I remember from this night is.....I did see at distance a very big bison oxe...huge...someone said it was not dangerous, but I could see him building up anger and started to pace so I said...I will take another path...I will go through this thick forest, my thought was that the bison was not able to run in this forest so I was much smaller and could easely escape if nessesary...my fear rose, but I was able to plane it out when desiding to take another path, instead of staying in my fear and taking risks of danger....I feel I have become more responsible and taking care better of myself.

[IA56]

I dream a lot but it is so complicated that not even details are easy to tell about....but tonight in my dream I do remember that I found earphones those small ones ...outside of an appartament and the door was open into the appartament but no-one at home so I went inside and placed the earphones on the kitchen table....went out and looked if the door lock was that kind you need a key to close and it was, so I did not looked out the one who lived in the appartament, but I closed the door for not invite any intruder who would steal something from the appartament, the one who lived there must have left in a great hurry....

[IA56]

Last night I dream that I was in company with a man, we did be out in a mall...the man did un-provoked start to slap a women, she was in chock and I was in total chock, what is happening, why does he do that??...now I hear her yell....aj...very loudly...and here I awoke....

When I go into the feeling from the dream, even the man did not want me to understand that he knew the women, he wanted to scarry her for some reason....like...she do not have to imagen that he has stopped to controll her, even that he is with a new women, in this case me....I am in chock for not be able to judge in right way men whom I choose into my life...this is very scarring for me.....

[IA56]

Last night I had a lot of dreams but the only sequense I remember clearly is....I did make coffee to me, and when I did take a sip it was like dishwashingwater?? no colore what so ever? and when I started to investigate the mashine I made the coffee in...I saw that it had more water then I ever put in the coffee-mashine...and whilst I investigated more water did poured out, the mashine was wired directly to the water tap?? this kind of coffee-mashine was not that kind so someone had tampered with it.....hmmmm....strange.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was accidently finding a stolen property cache...it was documents of car´s and other property...I did be with a person who worked or did know some who work´s for police and he called in to check out who´s documents we found, and if they have reported it in to have bean robbed....(new observer skills)

In this sequence I did witness a shirt change....do not remember what colore it was from beginning but it did change it to blue, and this was of some importance (feeling is communication?)...new blue shirt...(new communication skills)

[Begeegs1]

On a positive note, you did the right thing in the dream and that was to report it to the police when presented with stolen goods. Maybe this was a test passed?

[IA56]

On a positive note, you did the right thing in the dream and that was to report it to the police when presented with stolen goods. Maybe this was a test passed?


Thank you Begeegs1,
You might be right :-)

Love
ia

[IA56]

I remember only one seequenze from my dreams last night.....I did see my brother falling from a roof, I grabbed his leg and pulled him up ...and he was holding his friends legg, from beginning he tried to help his friend who fell of the roof ....I did not at all hesitate or mistrust my strength, it felt easy to pull them back up...(off course, it was a dream :-) )
But what was important was that I trusted myself .....
My brother embraced me and it was here I started to cry of relese....

Love
ia

[IA56]

In last night´s dream´s I did see a bright flash-light light in my 3th eye...and it came to me that I was shot in my head, and I died....so this flash-light for me was a brief knowing I died.

In this seequence my brother did appologize for having ignored me for many years, I´t made me happy.

[IA56]

I have had several nights now Dreams, I today know they have prepared me for the experience I had this night...I am sorry for not being able to dress in Words in right way...but it has with a special light to do....to understand ...I want to say...the God´s light we all are part of....and have it in us....the Dream was like this...as I am a escape-specialist :-)...several nights have bean to prepare me for what is to come....but I can say...you can not be prepared for it...it is so magnific and so special there is no Words to express it...so I tried to hide me and I buried my face in a pillow and I tried to block my ear´s not to hear anything...but what a surprise...this light does come from inside...and there is no escape from it...WOW...it is magnific!!

[IA56]

Last night I did have very strange Dreams...I was back to my past, I did meet people from my last marriage and one women did re-program everyone who liked me to dis-like me...I did Catch her and did comfront her....but she did escape...I wanted to know why she did not want me to be liked or me to succeed in anything??...This was the most interesting from the Dream....Is it a part of me or is it a outside real person who is doing this?? That is the question?

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was very troubled because I did not understand how to behave....I was visiting a friend and she did let me know in a very fine way that she needs Money for food, she said it was cheep fish and how much it cost and that she of course will made it but need Money, so I said off course I will give her Money, and I felt in the Dream, that this is what I know, why have I not give her Money or buy food?? and that she has to remind me....but it can be that I thought maybe give her when I leave and I have just arrived, so it was a very confusing situation I was in....I Went to a ATM and it was so high up, I complained and wondered how on Earth I will reach to take out any Money when I do not reach up to the mascine....so one women come and did lower the ATM but it was like a wagon and on the top of the ATM maschine was a black wigg and did cover the display, so I had to push the hair away to see, but did not understand what language it was on...so I did it on hunch only, and hope the best to get out some Money to give my friend....I was also wondering if I take out 800 Swedish Crowns...so I put only 80 in the display, and out did come Money, a big load of Money, I did take the Money and was looking around but all seamed to be alright, so I did not Think so much about it, but it did not feel right. I Went back to my friend, but just Before I was at her home I meet a women from my past and I never did get along with her, she was making up stories about me and I felt dis-credited by her so I did left her as a friend...but now she did start to talk to me....and she asked also Money if I could give her...so I had the load of Money in my pocket and I did Count to 5 and when I did take up my hand from my pocket I did notice that the Money was Finnish Marks (today Finland has euro) I was feeling uncofortable and run from her...and now I see a black bank bag what companies use when they do bank theres Money....I started to Think how and WHOs Money was on the ATM maschine or if it at all was an ATM to start with, I did not understand the language....I felt like I have done something horrible and I felt like I am dying, how can I solve this and not be mis-understood??

[IA56]

Last night I had several Dream-sequences...one was....A very Young man did show his interest in me, it made me angry, I told him that I am double older than him and that he has to back off, he just did not let me be...so I told him that we can be friends and socialize if that helps him to be at ease, he accepted...he did take me to a Place what was total White, like a Winter landscape, but it was not Cold, it was fluffy and I did see people be naked there but coverd in that fluff like to cover it up, so I did end this Dream...

In this seequenze I did meet my sons father (he is dead) He had forgotten that we were married, he just rememberd us to have bean in gaged to be married?? I told him that we did marry.....I had just finnished in prepearing a meal to us (him, me and our son) He said he want to eat out, I told him that we have food at home, but he did insist that we eat out, I told him that I do not want spend Money on food when I have it at home, so he told me he will pay for my meal out, I asked about our son then, he said, he can wait in the car whilst we eat...so I said...No thank you.

In this seequnze an old boy-friend did seek my up, and he was angry for me breaking up with him....I Went into the bathroom and the door did only have haspa, so he did just in his anger open the door and the haspa did loose from the door and he got it open, I did get my firmity back and I told him to let me do my buissiness and he did not Close the door, so I did just show him he does not intimitate me and I did what I was there to do.....I also showd him by going out of the house, I do not know WHOs house it was...

In this seequenze I had visited my cousin P and did leave her home with a mugg of coffee and on the mugg was her name, so someone did show me the mugg and asked who she is...I told him....my cousin...my mother sisters daughter....

In this seequenze my sisters man did told me that I was invited to their daughtere funeral..?? I tried to find out what does that mean, but did not find out....was it some kind of telling, that I must try to help her stess down...I know she is very stressed out for the moment....

There was more but for the moment I am thinking what all these Dreams are about?? It is long time since I remember so many episodes from my Dreams, I am happy of course, but wondering what has happened...more healing taking Place deeper in me??

[IA56]

Last night I had so strange Dream....I was looking at a figuretion sort of, but alive, I looked like it was made of Cream colored alabaster or vax.it looked at me with cuorious eyes..I couldn´t read it and it did make me unconfortable and almost afraid, so I decided to escape (as usual) and all turned to be colorefull ball´s to calm me down...I was so disaponted in myself and I still see how it is covered up to help me calm down and dare to go closer things what scares me still....what is hopful, that I feel the support now ....and that is good.

[dontco]

Cool dream! I wanted to add that if you prefer to deal with the things that frighten you in your dreams, you may want to tell yourself (it'll br better if it will be in front of the mirror) that you prefer to deal with the things that scare you in your dreams :-) P.S- I'm sure that if it's important you'll deal with your fear- you will have this dream, or a similiar one (with another object that will startle you) again.
Love! :heart:

[IA56]

Thank you dear Dontco, I am sure I will be trained until I am fearless :-)

Love
ia

[IA56]

Just Before awaken from the sleep I saw a vision of a neglected dog, it had dirt or poo on his all 4 paws and the fur was Dirty and it did look like the who did hold the Leach did like drag the dog and it had difficult to walk?? It was a very big black dog with long fur.

[IA56]

Last night I Dream that I was on a bus with my mother, she had an very stylish beret on her, I noticed that if you had it in one way it did become transparant, so I did trixter with it and notice how it changed appearance, and I found in a way how it looked so stunnig on her...we passed by one who was living on the street, it was me, I said to mother, did you see, it was me, and she asked if I was dressed in red, yes I said surprised, yes I was dressed in red from head to feet??...I tried to understand what it meant, if it was good or bad, but I let it go after a short time, when I did not understand the meaning....and I was back to look at my mothers beret how it changed appearance and it was so fasinating that I forgot to be focused.....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was sitting in a Wheel-chair, I had a lot of tubes for many organs, like lungs, urine etc...I had an assistant, a Young girl, I asked if she was ready to learn how to chainge the tubes, and she said yes. I called for the female doctor and she did pinch one tube with an peang and ...ooops...she said....what happened I asked, she did only look at the tube and it was damaged with an hole on it...OMG! I said....what tube is it...the urine she said...oh no...that will hurt a lot to change, I said....I did awake me Before I Went into more panic.....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was in school, one school mate asked me if I will continue my studies next semester, I did now remember that I had not asked if I did past the test and therefore continue my studies. I Went to the dining room of the school, they had waxed the floor it was slippery, so I had to go carefully not to slip, I saw a women and asked if she was the one who could tell me if I will continue my studies, yes she said, and we entered her office. She gave me sheets of miniatyr fasion clothes, I looked at them and asked if I should understand the meaning of them, she did not answere me, I asked if I am going to be contining my studies, and she said you have to wait until autum to know. I said that is not fair, I have to know now, but she did only turn her back to me, and a man did enter the office, I asked him if he did know. No he said, so I asked is there any vocation trade school for me to aply to, he said a name of a school I now do not remember....but here I awoke

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In last night Dreams I did meet people from my past, one ex bf did try to touch my privat parts and I did say repetedly, I do not want, I do not like you doing this, I was in panic when he did not listen.

In this seequenze my sister did tell me that she has invited my teen bf to join us, I asked her why she does this, why she did not tell me Before me coming that she has invited him, she started to run away from me, and me running after her trying to confront her so she would understand how she has deceived me and never respect me, I asked her if she remembers when I got the text message that he has passed away, and if she remembers what I said....that I would not be surprised if he one day will show up, and not remember the lie he has put me through of his Death, I asked my sister, do you not rememer this, how could you do this to me...but she just run away and did not dare to talk it through with me and tell me how she was thinking....

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In last night Dream the skin on my hands palms did come off, very thin like when you are sun burned. I was with a women and when I looked at her face the same has happened to her face, the skin come off in flakes.....??

In this seequenze I was working at a hospital, and all was in chaos, I tried to understand from what end I will start to work, to put all in order, the co-worker a women did say, she never thougt me to be able to work at a hospital, I felt she did feel me to be too good for this work, or likeley, and that did surprise me, I have Always worked with Charity in some extent.
There was a test too, I am very fond of jewelery, and there was so nice jewelery but off course I can´t take others things, so it was not at all difficult to put them back where they belonged.

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In last night Dream I was visiting with my mother the house we lived in Finland, she did leave coffee for others to have when visiting the house. After some time I was visiting the house with my sister and her husband, and she did hold the coffee tin in her hand and when she opened the tin I did remember that mother and I did visit earlier and that mother did leave the coffee for others to make and drink. My sister started to put fire in to the stove, I rememberd what father did tell me that if the smoke is coming inside then the shimny is jamed and can explode, so in that case we must run outside, but it did go well.

In reality that house is no more, so if this is time traveling to go back to the time the house did exist in reality, well in that case or is it different in Dreams?? and can not call time traveling??

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Last night Dream I was in a new aparatement and a new job. My grandchild A come to visit me, and I show her around and it was a big apartament, I did quickly wash up a red skirt and a yellow top and put them to dry, and I said to A that she can come with me to see where I work, and she did follow me. I said hallo to my co-workers and told who A is to me, and I asked her if she find the way back to my apartament, she can not stay at my work, she looked at me with a sad face, so I said I go with her back, when we have come half way she wanted me to carry her, and I noticed that she was so Heavy, but she was so sad that I did not want first to tell her that she is too Heavy for me to carry her, but in the end I had to tell her, she was bigger than I was and hevier too, here I awoke myself.....

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In last night Dream I was with my whole family, all my relatives and we are many....I could very clearly see how I have aliened from them because I feel I have no Place among them, and this seam to be mutal...it did awaken rage in me, so here I can clearly see what I have to work with. My brothes son in this Dream did have a teen boy, (in reality he does not have Children yet) He was sad so I started to talk to him and asked what is the matter, he said he did not want to be here at all, he wanted to go out fishing, so I told him that he can go to fish here, he did at once become happier and I took his hand and said we have to find my brother, he know where the fishing items are...I did not even know his name, so I asked my brother what M´s boy´s name is...and he said....Huomio...(that means attention in Finnish)...so I yelled Huomio, to locate him and to tell him where the fishing items are...

Here I Went into a new Dream, I was in middle of like arabic selebration I Went through the crowd of them and I had a gourgeous White skirt on my, it was so Lovely and I felt like a Queen in it :-)....

Here I was back with my brother and my Father, I said this house needs cleaning, and I started to take the carpets out, and it was so much dirt on the floore, I did only go to get the vacum-cleaner and when I come back the carpets was back on the floor, it did make me angry, I asked, did you really Clean the floor´s ...and my brother did not answer me, said something else, and I said in anger....please answer my question, but he just smiled, he did send a meassage with his energy, that I should understand that they have cleaned the floor´s, that no-one puts the carpets back on Dirty floors....this did make me so angry that he did not answere me properly but that I had to read him....

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In last night Dream I was at my granparants house, when I start to go back, one Little puppy did follow me, I tried to stop the puppy to follow me but I did not succeed to stop it. When I came to like a pass through, I opened the door and it was like a barn, but a pass through like a passage, I tried not to let the puppy get inside, but it did slip through, I klimbed up to the top of the barn and sat on a log what keeps the roof up, and it was still night, I was thinking that someone must soon pass through here and see the puppy and maybe know who own´s it....soon the door opened on that end where I was supposed to go out, and in rushed 4-5 big dog´s in and one black big dog rushed at once to the puppy and grabbed it in his mouth, I was in chock....the man tried to take the puppy from the big dog´s grip but did not succeed and the puppy died....I here did awoke myself, it was too intense and horrible....

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In last night Dream I was in a scyscraper....I met a man and somehow I did notice his face, it Went some time and Another man did approace me, and I did see something I did recognize and in rememberance ...oh I did say...you have a brother, he looked at me and said, yes, but somehow this man was a man I did know from my past, not from this Life, but from my past...he did also recognize me, and he did come near me and wanted to kiss me, but I turned my head away and said...please, I have not brushed my teeth...here I awoke...

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In last night Dream my sister had invited me to visit her, when I arrive my sister (as usual) was occupied to do some lounary, she said she must do that first, I Went with her to the cellar where she had her washing-room, it was so dark, so I asked her how on Earth could she see anything in this darkness?? We were small talking and now she was finnished, and we Went upstairs, she told me that she will leave her work, and the replacement worker will come and see her to talk about the work she is leaving to her, my sister asked her if she will get paid monthly, no she said per hour, my sister told me that she have not got as good conditions as she had.

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Last night I had very strange Dreams...in the first Dream I was with my sisters husband and my teen bf (dead) we where to a house I was living with my family at the age of 13-14 yrs age....we were ready to leave and Went to the car, but they did left me behind, and I Went back to the house and I noticed that all lights was on and the cd-player also, I was trying to Close it down when unknown people entered the house, I knew this house was for rental and I understood that they have rented the house over the summer...So I started to walk and thinking that my sisters husband and my ex bf was just teasing me and will soon come to get me...but nothing happened but I entered a strange Town, it was Railway roads and travers roads, and I shouted to the working men how to get to Stocholm...they did Point a direction and I had to climb over trains and stuff and it was very hard, when I had come to a sertain Point I saw my sisters husband and ex bf in the car wawing to me and smiling...this time I climbed on a very dangerous Place it was hot and it was greesy and slippery and I did get stuck with my thies like between spirals, and the machine started to go on very high speed, I screemed ...help...but off course nobody did hear me...and I Went unconsious...

Now I am in Another Dream with my fathers parents (both dead and for the first time in my Dreams) we where visiting their house with my fathers Volvo (my grandparents did never have driving licens nor a car) the road to their house is very narrow so I said to grandpa that he might turn the car around for it will be very hard to go backwards 2 km....I did say to him where he can turn around the car not to damage it....It had to be in a Place where there was cow´s and bull´s and the fench had electricity on it...I did get help from the owners to the cattles....He did drive the car inside the fence and did drive very far away, it was like a car rally Place...I soon see the car driving like a rally driver but now I did see that both my grand parents are standing on the hill and someone else is driving the car...I wawed to them and yelled...we have to be going now if we are able to buy some food, my grandma did say she was hungry and that made us to leave the house to get some food....
Whilst we where in the house upstairs we where planning what furnitures must be bought to make the room comfortable...
It was much bigger than in reality....newer so to speak??

Maybe my grandparents has just now awakened?? I have bean wondering why they never be in my Dreams...so this night they where...I am happy.

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Last night in my Dream I was put an gun into my hands and forced to pull the trigger, the man did held my hand straight out at him and said repetedly, shoot, shoot, but my hand did not have any strength to pull the trigger, and the man did not Believe me when i told that I can´t kill anybody.....when he let my hands free, I shoot at a trash bin and it worked. People in the other room run to me and said I have to go with them to the police office. No I said, I have not done anything wrong, I will not go, and they could not do anything, I felt they have just waited me to do some error for them to report me and put me in jail??

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In last night Dream I was like a spectator ..seeing a father and his son who was working together doing restorations...I do not know over what, but I Heard the Word....restoration...several times....

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In last night Dreams I was sleeping and I was awakened by a feeling that someone was in the room, I also Heard someone saying something to me, so I said, sorry, can you repete it, I did not Catch it....Now I can see, it is my mother, and she is sad, she leanes her head on my chest, and I feel it is her time to go, I feel such Deep love towards her and at the same time my heart is breakeing because her departing, she sayes, if someone do see us they might get wrong impression, I said to mother, do not bother about that, we know what we are doing...she said she was afraid, I said, do not be afraid, just call upon me and I will come...go towards the light, it is nothing to be afraid of, you are totally protected....

In this seequenze my mother and her Brothers wife and me was entering into a dancing restaurant, I hear finnish dansing Music playing, and one man very toxicated greates me by saying...Hi pretty....mother askes me if I know him, and I say, yes...(but in reality I just do not know who he is)...I have to help him to stand straight, and I help him to his table and he is nearly missing the seat...I leave him....and go to mother and A they want to buy tea, and A takes Earl Grey...and I say I want more other tast, but the other tea bags do not have any labels so I try to smell them, but it was not easy so I just grab one and go to pay it, the cashier has poured up warm water in a tea cup for me and he have put an lilac colored tea bag in my cup??....I put my tea bag also in it ...it was black....I ask what one bun COSTs....3.50 she say´s..and I pay...mother put´s her tea cup in separate table from me and A and she say, I have to go to rest room...

In this seequenze I am in a room with 2 bed´s, I see my son in one and a dog on the floor....I go into Another room with 2 bed´s but soon I see my son back with the dog and I say to him, I can´t breath because of the dog´s fur in the air and I am inhaling it and that make´s me hard to breath, so he take the dog and go out for a walk.....

In this seequenze I am sitting in a Bentley with one of the Swedish Hollywood wife´s...she show me one hair slide, one part is missing and I tell her that we might find it in a second hand store, we both know one second hand store and we are going there, but it showed to be like industrial area and she do not want to go there, so we take a walk on a path way up to a hill, but in the middle of the road is many flies, and suitcase with blood on it, and 3 bird Cages coverd by a cloth...I tell her that we must call and report this to police...and one female police officer uncover´s the cageges and we get a big chock...she say...we ought to take better care of our pet´s and I agrea..One male police came with a parrot on his hand...alive...Oh I said, did he be alive, yes the male said, do you know who own´s it...No I said...but I´d like to have him, now the parrot tried to bite the police, so I said, No I change my mind, I do not dare to take care of him.....one male police uncovers the suitecase and it is a dead person in it....so horrible...

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I have looked upon geometrical patterns the whole night, when I awake this morning I thought that I have been awake the whole night, but then I re-called other Dreams too...I was arranging flowers so beautifully....this did help me to know that I have been awake in the Dream....

It was like a light ray that Went between the perfect pattern to a chaotic pattern, I could follow the light ray back and forth to understand the difference.....

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In last night Dreams I had my grandson J hugging me a lot, he did held by my waist and we where dancing. He wanted to talk about religion and magic....and I said it is very delicat matters, it can make your mind spin and go bonkers if you do not be grounded enough, and have someone guiding you....who know the pitfalls...he was so happy to see me and we did talk and dance...it was pure happiness in joy and love.....so wonderful.

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In last night Dream my ex bf did invite a women to stay with us, I did lend Money to her, and I had also payed for Everything, it was my home, I was starting to eat breakfast when my exbf and the women told me I was not allowed to eat, I was compelled, so I said, okay, I go out to eat my breakfast, but the exbf did not want me to go, he held me like a prison, and Crying, so I asked him, how would you do?? He knew I was right, so he had to let me go......

In this episod the same exbf had sent a letter to my cousin P, she did show the letter to me. He did write to tell her he is going to throw a party for her, but she wanted P to ask L if he can have the party at her home...P asked me why he can´t have the party at her home, why does he not ask for himself....P wanted me to answer she meant that I must know how he is thinking...so I said, I do not, why do you Think I left him??

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In last night Dreams I was to a new working Place, huge building with fenomenal halls and big rooms, it was very high sealings and it was so fantastic feeling in every room...It was breath taking to know it was my working Place...wow..

In this epiosode I was Walking with my second ex husband and his son...he did have a Walking frame but he did have it behind his back and Walking on his knees??...We Went into a candy store, I was totally aware of what Candys I want to buy, but it was all of chocolade and nothing what I had imagined to be, so I did only buy a Little figurine in chocolade, it was Little bit embarresing to buy one piece only, but because I did not want any of them really, so I was not at all embarresed to buy one only....

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In last night Dreams I was in a room and on the window sill was an creature what I have never seen Before, I felt it was just a Child, so I asked if it can fly, it turned to me and said YES...I opened the window and out it flew, I saw in the shy huge creature and I could see it was the mother, I was happy to see them re-unite.

In this episode I had a lot...and I was checking the lot-number and I got the high score....I Went out and told my boss, she said she wanted to check the lot-number again, and vaniched....I tried to locate her, but every time I got her spotted she slipped away....

In this episode I knocked on my grandchildrens door, A opened the door and I Went inside and i saw their mother and my son sleeping together, I asked A if she had breakfast, if not, she could come to my home and eat together with me.....

In this episode I was looking up on a skyskrape...my monkey have climbed up to the top of the building, I was Calling for him, and soon I felt on my back where he landed, I was so compelled how he could jump from so hight, and still not injure me??

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In last night Dream I was buying a car...The first one showed to be total crap...the second was very odd, without windshield and no stering Wheel, but a stick...like a joy-stick?? but I was very fond of it, because it was so special and only one of the kind....

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In last night Dream I was with my grandchild A, I did see my exbf with his new women, he was brushing his teeth´s Walking by the Canal where they had their boat, an Woden motor boat....Me and A did walk by the Canal and I hear the gate keeper of the Canal saying...oh no...the bofor is too high....I could see the tunnel total coverd by the water, no boat could go there, but she did manage to fix it and when the boat was to enter the tunnel it was good and when the boat did pass through the tunnel the water did sink so me and A could walk through the tunnel....I could see the water was so clear so I could see to the bottom of the Canal....there was several odd creatures ...never seen Before....they hid under the stones, so I said to A that we have to walk on the stones because I do not know if they can bite or be poisoning....I could see that A had left her cloths all over the Canal.. I said to her to pick them up...I did help her...I did found a gold coine and a silver coine..the gold coine had the valor of 10 and the silver coine 1...I was thinking about the number or 11...but did not remember if it was important at all or telling me something of value....

I did also in the Dream be awakened by my grandchild A, she wanted to sleep besides me...and I did move and gave Place and I really could feel her sleep besides me....

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In last night Dreams I was with my family, I had a Young male friend, co-worker who needed help, he have buyed forest and needed help with book-keeping, I did not know anything about it so I asked my exfather in law (dead) to help him, and he did gladly help.
I had my ex co-worker also working at the same Place as me, she did arrange photos as collage, it was her job...I was like some kind of boss or supervisor, to see that everyone who needed help I was the one to know who has the specific knowledge.
We did also plan a big job, so we had like model plane for it, we did have all the logistic as lorries, airoplanes, etc and we did "play" with the model´s to get a Picture how to execute the huge logistic plan....

In this episode I was among people from all over the World....did not get clear Picture what I was doing specific....

In this episode I was in sauna with my second ex husband, I did not find my towel so he did said I could take his, he has used and was dry, but I did see it was poop on it but I did not want to offend his feelings so I said...No thank you, you have used it on your privat parts and I blinked at him like I am joking....but I did find a fresh towel to use...

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In last night Dream I was living in a big house. I was visited by my Brothers and cousins, I said that we have to Clean the house, and everyone has to help, because there was so many rooms. My brother started and I did see he did only vacuum in the middle of the floor, no corners what so ever. Now he gave the vacuum cleaner to my cousin, and he did not do better work, so I took the vacuum cleaner when he had dropped it on the middle of the floor. I started to vacuum in the corners and huh so dusty, and under the carpets same thing....I noticed when I bended me to look closer that there was hiden so Beautiful wall, I said, look here, help me to uncover this wall, it was like a Beautiful painting but it was in somekind of valuable Wood, it looked nearly like marmor.

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In last night Dreams I was facing information via images, it come so rapidly that I can´t tell what I saw...I Believe that this information was given me this rapidly so I would not value or categorice the information....I am sure it will come back in other Dreams....

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In last night Dreams I was dancing with my aunt Eva....

In this episode I was visiting some friend who lived in a very wonderful area, in a wonderful house and I just loved to be there, then I returned at home and I was watering my plants when a friend did come by to say hallo and asked how my trip was, and how I feel to be at home...I looked around and noticed that my home was just as gourgeous as my friends, I have not noticed this Before, so I said, it is good to be home.

In this episode I was with a man and his Little son, the son was around 3 yrs old...I helped him to bruch his teeth...he did wear his fathers shirt, I told his father that he is making a mess with his shirt, so he would know, and not be angry at the son...I hear him say to his son...I long so much to see you naked...and I did get into Deep fear....and I awoke myself....

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In last night Dream my sister tried to talk over me to me to change my mind to her favor. I said to her, let me be, I do not want, why are you all the time dragging me down...let go of me...and I left her and walked up the stairs and she Went into the opposit direction, I felt a wonderful relief that I finaly dared to put down my feet to my sister.

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In last night Dream I was asked by my mother to beat her carpets...I have Heard that the Church had a Place you could do that, so I told mother we have to go there with the carpets....When we come to the Church and I asked if they have a Place where to beat the carpets and he said Yes....he took me to a sellar where he had the consol of it, and he carried it up to the balchony...when I Went to fetch the carpet-beater and I came back to the balchony my mother was ironing a blause, I get so angry at her, why are you ironing clothings now and here, that you can do at home....I knew I had to fetch one more carpet and I Went in anger to get it, Before I Went I told one ex bf to me who now was with us, to start to beat the carpets.
My brother had moved to the same building and was living beneath my appartament, he did have the carpet what I Went to fetch.

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In last night Dreams I met my sisters mother in law (dead) she had come to collect her things because her husband (my sisters father in law died for one week ago) she knew that no-one do respect the things she have made (chrocheded counterpanel etc) in the Dream I was doing a counterpanel to single bed, so she did wonder if I wanted to have her´s.....

In this episode I was to an old working Place, they wanted me to learn about all the king´s...they showed me several places where I could collect the information....I asked if I could make a list once and for all so in the future it will be easier to get the information about kings much easier.....

In this episode I was still at the same workingplace and they where a bit irritated for me not understanding at once how to invoicing ...the list´s with the info was to poorly listed, so I asked where the exact info is...they said...they just know...but I said...I am new, I can´t know this, why not write it down day by day, so even a new empoyed can work independently and do right??

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Last night Before leeping I saw a man, dark hair, not so old, looking at me and being disapointed?? I got a feeling that someone is having an Eye on me for some reason?? I would very much want to know who he is??!! Come forward and and tell me who you are and why you are holding an Eye on me??

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For a longer period in my Dreams have bean so confusing that I have not known what to make out of them, but last nights Dreams did sum it up to my understanding, and it was to see what desires and fears I have....and also how I am as a upbringer or likely....and to see my morals too.....so to give an example...I did see a very masculine women ...and she did become an attractive man (to see if I fancy women or men) here was to see if I judge love between same sex....and also what I fancy myself.....as an upbringer my son was Little and this masculine women did want to play with my sons phone...he was taking pic´s with it and did not want to share it, so I did say to him....what´s the matter with you...and he did share his phone....but I did not force him to share but have made him understand that to share is good....etc...

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Last night Dreams was so hard for me to be in.....It started that me and my son was in a boat axident, we tried to send a sos signal with the sos-fire-craxers or what they are called, but non did work, there was a man who tried us not to make such a noice about our axident, he did want non to notice...but I was loud and he sugested that he has arested my son for fun, I did not understand how that was relevant at all?? We have bean in a axident and he want to arrest my son???We need help and he want to make more harder for us???? suddenly it was a Wheel-chair rally, he did put my son in a Wheel-chair and pusched him down the hill, it was Winter and it was slippery, like a ice-scating ground, so I did sat down on the ice and down I rusched after my son, but he did dissapeare, I started to ask people if they have seen my son, but no-one had....I was in panic and so sad. I met some people and asked for help, they took me to a building and the code was 13, I asked if they know the way back to the Harbor, they did but soon I was in a new Dream....it was with my relatives, my sister was making a feast dinner with lobster, the weird thing was that we did "break in" to this house, (or we did get one advocate to break the padlock of the door) because my sister was sure we will win the case (no clue of what) we where all together and my grandchildren was small , the girl did say to me...hola auntie...and I was so pround and surprised that she did speak spannish, (I studied spannish as Young, do not remember a thing though)...I had a room with too bed´s and I asked my grandson if he like the bed, and he was so surprised that it was his bed....
it happened so much in the Dream it Went rather quickly from Dream to Dream....and there is so much more...but I try to see the Deep meaning of it and it is a sum up again...to see what forgivenes does when it works and is done properly...I though have hard to put this in word´s so it make´s sense...but I do understand the meaning though, and it is what Counts.

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In last night Dream I did see my father in a very good shape (in real Life he is very ill)

The next seequenze I was putting the rugg away for a Little girl to go on the floor?? but she did it on the rugg, I did not get angry or anything just wiped off and washed up the rugg...the Child was so surpised that I did not Yell at her, and I was surprised that she did expect me to Yell....

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In last night Dream I was with my good friends, Brothers, but when they Heard that I was going to marry one for them one unknown man they turned hostile against me, and did make my Life a living hell.....

[IA56]

Last night Dreams started that I was aware me being in my body, and I know that I must have been loud that could be Heard if someone was awake near me. It started I hear a voice saying to me to let it happen, I asked what to happen, to let the souls go to the light through me...I said okay, and it was overwhealming experience, and it did feel like it did never end, but it did...now I hear the voice to calm me down and tell me also let this happen, and I said okay, I felt that I was taken out through my legs, and swisch up we Went, I did not see anything but I could feel we did travel very fast, I asked for sight for me to see, and I did get it, I could see a man in a very strange helmet and strange clothings, we did land somewhere and there was many others, he did leave me on this area with others, and he did go somewhere I did not know where. One Young man dressed in total black clothings, like a black cloak or coat, he did look around him when he approaced me, he asked me something what I do not remember now, but I do remember that he said he was not allowed to talk to me, we did be so diffrent and he was someone who was not allowed to approach me?? I did look around and I saw trees and I did want to see what kind of trees they where, oh so Beautiful butterflies so Beautiful colores, soon I hear a hallo, I looked around but did not see more than butterflies, I asked if it was some of them who said hallo, yes of course it was, and the butterfly said that the new commings never hear or see anything, so the butterfly was so happy to be talking to someone....I tried to ask and the butterfly did tell me that all the animals talked, I looked around and I did see a dog and I approache him, and yes he talked also, he told me what he called but I do not remember now....now the man did come to get me and took me to his room, it showed that the man was a doctor, and he looked at me for my reactions now when I know that he has taken me for his task to try heal me....I was of course happy....after we talked I Went out to the area and could see others whom I recognize and was happy to see, it showed that I had an appartament there and when I Went around and looked someone had used my appartament for a party, and they had broken a big bowl whom I have got when I left a Company and I got it as a "thank for good work done present" I did know that the bowl was very expensive, I was of course sad to see it broken and that they had not either cleaned up the mess after them, I saw glas splitter on the floor.

[IA56]

In last night Dreams I was with my grandchildren and my sister was to take the Children with her to visit her, I did give clothings I have buyed and I kissed both Children and they both said to me to write, they said they will write already in train and wanted me to promist to write a letter when I come home.....
...This seequenze was also that I saw my grandchild the girl to sit widspread leags so I Went to her and pushed her legs together and said, it is not good to show your privat parts even you have panties on you, that can be misunderstood, there can be men who will take advantage on you, she said, this started when she gave me a pill what made me this way??
when I thought that I did come home I was so surprised that I did be to the Childrens mother´s home, and I was surprised that she wanted me to help her to get a man out from her home...he was drunk and did not have any shoes, I asked her if she has some old shoes what was my sons from the period she was with him, oh, she said, yes I must look, but he had put her shoes on him and I looked that he had so small feet´s that my sons shoes would be too big for him, I hoped she can give him her shoes so he can go home, it was Winter and walk barefooted was no option. She wanted me to take him to railwaystation, I was compelled why this was my responsibillity?? I said, he has to get some Money to the tikets, I do not have any to lend to him....here I awoke myself......



I feel so confused after this Dream, I woke up like with hangover???

[IA56]

In last night Dreams I was to my mother to see her bedroom, she had it re-made, I was surprised what wall paper she choosed, it was striped in beige, in both light and darker colores of beige, the room looked longer and narrower than Before, I said to mother that the wallpaper has changed totally the room, and she said, yes she had to do it twise, the first wall paper was too comfusing so she feel´s this is better for her...

[IA56]

In last night Dreams was so bizzar sequenses so I woke up total exhausted??

One Dream was that I was watering my plants, and I had a very big flower like a palm tree, when I looked into the jar it was planted in I saw a pond and big fishes swiming in the pond, I was thinking how can this be, but did not understand, soon I was in a new Dream where a girl did shower with all her clothings on, and she did put the shower on me so I was souked weat, I ran out and shut the door and told a couple that my appartament is going to be ruined.
This couple asked me if I can drive a car they have to get some furnitures from the store, I said yes, if some of you know the way, and the man said he did know...now a phone rang out in the open air, and they wanted me to talk because the man who will lend the car do not lend to them, he do not trust the man, so I took the phone and told that I was the one to lend the car, and now all was okay....now I was back to my appartament and there was some strange plants, what showed to be bugs, and I told my son to help me take them out through the open window, they tried to come back inside so I shut the window quickly......
oh..there was much more but I do not see any Point on going on because I can´t see any coherense...and I am so exhausted still...???

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was washing clothings to everyone. My brother and his wife come to collect theres clothings, there was also sheet´s, I asked my brother to help me with them but he fell to sleep, and his wife learned me new way to do them by myself. I told her that I have to Clean out all unnessesary items, I had stuff everywhere, items consumed the air totally...

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was with a man who asked me to be his partner in some kind of bicycle-competition. it was like a Railway rail...but the bicycle had wrong tyres, so had to change them...he instructed me how to strech my legs from the groin joint to loosen them up so I wouldn´t get cramps while we sit up on the bicycle and start the competition...

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was visiting my parents, both where total drunk, I tried to fix things, the doorbell rang, and one total stranger entered my parents appartament, I was in chock so I let it happen, he had gold coins and he did put on my plate and mothers, I just watched but was in fear, I felt, it might be stolen, out he Went and now one ex bf to me come and he started to dance with my mother, I tried to tell him to be careful, and not to make her too exited, so I Went away to see if it will calm down. He come and fetched me and have me in his lap, soon he farted and it smelled so bad, so I was not able to sit in his lap anymore...here I awakened myself.....

[IA56]

Last night I had again a strange Dream, I am not sure I can put it in word´s right, but I give it a try....
I was guided by someone (did not feel if it was a women or a man) the person did show me very large bunnies, they had a colore of dark gray almost light black....the person said I would be safe if I hide me among them....so I did lie me down...I did know that someone will rescue me soon....the bunnies did move around and soon I feel a bunnie put its buttox on my face...and did go with his needs on me...it was horrible...and when I looked at my sholder the fesies was pink?? soon I hear my name called and a White bunnie did tell me to rise my up, but I was not able to do so, my muscules was so weak so the bunnie had to help me up....it showed that he was a shapeshifter and I said to him...are you comming with me...but he said, he had to shower and I did really understand because his back was in total sweat.....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was with 2 other person, I had to go somewhere very quickly so one red horse, huge horse, appeared and would help us with a ride, the 2 persons get up to the horse like by magic, so one of the persons did mistrust me to be able to get up to the horse, but I did, so he said, I will never doubt you again. The horse was not as our horses, the skin of the horse was like galloon??
I jumped of the horse and now I was with my son and a women, we did find a bicycle and we took it, I did pedal the bicycle and we all 3 where sitting on it??...suddenly I did see a Childs backpack, and a dentist card, on that card was the parents phonenumber, but Before I could call the parents, I had to Count Eye-lashes on a person who has many Eyes, the last Eye had so many Eye-lashes so I did estimate it to be 75 without counting and I did feel that I was now allowed to call the Childs parents, the father answered the phone and I told that I had found the backpack and told where it was, I was in hurry for my school, I had changed from the echonomy course to pshyhology course....I begged the father when he reprimend the son, not to be fysical with him, only firm on Words...he promised...but soon the son did come to get his backpack so all was well, I was worried that something had happened to him, so I was so happy and releved to find him in perfect Health.

[IA56]

In last nights Dreams I was in a new building, I lived there with my new bf....he had a friend also living in the same building, we where to visit him when I noticed bugs all over the Place...I told my bf that we have to call to a sanitation Company to come and Clean up...my bf told his friend....now you see what happens, your "pets" have multiplyed and invaded the whole house.....the friend said, but I like them.....I asked how the adress is pronounced...but my bf did avoid to answer, I had the sanitation Company already on the phone and he avoids to tell how to pronounce the adress for them to come...I was suprised how hars I was with my Word to my bf....I said...I am in shame and disapointed in you...so he said...tell them it is called ....The Calmness....I was upset and said, tell me how to pronounce the adress....I had to hung up...and now he Went out, and I after him...he did send a taxi to guide the sanitation Company to the building....I was now content with his action.

[IA56]

In last nights Dreams I was in a new building, I lived there with my new bf....he had a friend also living in the same building, we where to visit him when I noticed bugs all over the Place...I told my bf that we have to call to a sanitation Company to come and Clean up...my bf told his friend....now you see what happens, your "pets" have multiplyed and invaded the whole house.....the friend said, but I like them.....I asked how the adress is pronounced...but my bf did avoid to answer, I had the sanitation Company already on the phone and he avoids to tell how to pronounce the adress for them to come...I was suprised how hars I was with my Word to my bf....I said...I am in shame and disapointed in you...so he said...tell them it is called ....The Calmness....I was upset and said, tell me how to pronounce the adress....I had to hung up...and now he Went out, and I after him...he did send a taxi to guide the sanitation Company to the building....I was now content with his action.

OMG!! This is really a big issue for me...I Always Think others know...like I here want my bf or his friend to tell me how to pronounce the adress, I try to pronounce it but I am so unsure if I say it right, and I try to get the men tell me, I Think men know Always more than me who is a women....this I now see and feel in every fiber in my body...this is big for me....wow..I had this already in my childhood, I remember how I like haunted my father to tell me things...and when I was a teen he become so angry with me...and shouted....please...I do not know Everything...and I remember how my whole World crumbled....I felt so un-protected....I had Always felt my father was lika a God for me...and now he fell down to be a regular human....My father is dying, my sister and my Brothers are with him, I am not able to travel to him, because of my economical situation....but this issue I am sure has to be solved so I can let him of the feeling he failed me.....he did not...I am so happy to have had he as my father, he did his best, and I see how wonderful he is in his trying to please me...Thank you!! Go in Peace. I love you.

[IA56]

My father is dying, my sister and my Brothers are with him, I am not able to travel to him, because of my economical situation....but this issue I am sure has to be solved so I can let him of the feeling he failed me.....he did not...I am so happy to have had he as my father, he did his best, and I see how wonderful he is in his trying to please me...Thank you!! Go in Peace. I love you.

My siblings is with my father, they have found water in his lungs and heart-sack..he is better for now. I did not know that he had fell of the bed and had pain in his hip....my father come to me, I thought he was leaving this World, I did walk with him but soon I saw his back and he limped his left side, I know that he was to the boderline...he had said to my sister...it is not easy to come here, but it is as hard to leave here too.....so I want to ask for your support for my father to make him better or easier to leave the Earth...I need your suport, thank you all!!!

Love
ia

[susan]

IA, Of course you have my support. I will send out my prayer and love to him.
Be strong.

[dontco]

Dear IA, you have my support as well :( you are such a wonderful person, I wish I could help more.
Much love.

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was asked to pose for advertisment for a Company who sell surfboard. In the Dream I had a bf who was with me to the session, I am standing and holding the surfboard when I looked at my bf he is red on his face and showing sign to cry, I look straigt to him and ask, what is the matter?? tell me, please....and I feel conserned....he does not say anygthing first but then he say.....you act like you cared...this hurt me so much so I decided to leave the room, he ought to know...how much I care about everybody and most about him....so I did not stay to be insuted....I was Little bit scarred that he will come after me so I feel how I tense my sholders...I am soon on the parking lot to take the car and drive away, I see at the road and I see Cecar Milan, I am surprised he seam to be keen to talk to me Before I am off, he approaches me and my reaction is....I do not have any dog....more than my bf and he can be a real dog...but I will not take back him....so when I say ...I will not take back him...CM seams to be happy and feels ...mission compleated.....

[IA56]

In last night Dream was again an inviroment what I have hard to express. It was so dark, and the only light come from me but it was too narrow or how to say...it seamed that the light did come from my Eyes and lightened up where I looked, but it was so strange that I could not say where I was....I tried to make sense to understand but did not succeed. I am sure I am going to be back there, I Think it was an inviroment where lost souls might be, and the feeling I got was that I was trying to locate some one but not sure whom, like I shimmed over the area to see if I recognize any...did not.

[IA56]

In last night Dreams I had a baby galore :-)...it was so nice, I did recognize some of the Babies to be my relatives in this Life.

In this seequenze I met a women I knew, when I hugged her I said...we have not seen each other´s for thousends of years, are you still married to same man?? She said, look for yourself if it is the same man. It was not. He started at once to flirt with me, I did be offended of my friends sake, he had different colores on his Eyes, on the left Eye was golden yellow, and the right was Brown...he did do with his tongue like he wanted to lick me...so I said to him, if you do not put your tongue in your mouth I will snap you (with putting my pointing finger curled to the thumb and giving him a snap on his forhead) he started to laugh and he did find this very funny, so it Went from serious to laugh.

In this seeaquenze I was with my childhood friend E on a shopping toure, we did enter in a shop and there was a big blue and White bowl and she said, do you remember my other Bowls in this serie, yes I said, she said, look what the cost is...there was so many ´numerals so I had hard time to figure out what was the prize number....then I found what could be it...489....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was with some of my relatives, my grandchild J we where up on a Cliff and was ment to dive into the ocean, I looked down and asked if anyone have ever invertigated the depts of the ocean, that it is safe to dive that there will not be any big stones to hurt us, my sisters husband said, it is so Deep you will never reach the bottom. J was to dive first, I sat down on the Cliff and was so surprised when he did dive on that way that he kept the Contact with me all the time, he somehow was able to hold on to my big toe but he was not that aware of it so I did not say anything, it did warmth my heart so much that he trusted and cared to be in touch with me so to speak.
My sisters husband shouted to my sister to get the boat, she was angry and shouted back, why is it Always me who have to get the boat, but she did go to get it in anger, I tried to call her that I can go with her, but I somehow did not manage to open my phone to make the call, and then I hear like the announce (or maybe does now Days too ) in Palaces who is coming...and I did recognize who was coming and I was so surprised because I have left those people into my past and thought never to meet them again...so the thought come to me...all goes round and round, so it does not matter how long you live you will Always meet your past at some Point, so it is better to make friends with it in the now....

[IA56]

In last night Dream it was hard, because of the day Before what I wrote in this diary, to make friends with the past, so last night my second husband turned up in the Dream, and somehow I felt that he had taken my saying litterally. He was so sure we will be again together, I did not feel good about it and I said harsh to him.....but do you not ever Think I will be as I was last time, because you are not that easy to live with. He asked why not, I said because of your subborness, yes he said, I am stubborn, yes I said to your own good.
I do still have a very uncomfortable feeling, if I hade to return back to him, no way, I will die slowly in that kind of marriage.

[IA56]

Some night ago I had a Dream what I have bean trying to decode....I was in the Dream Walking around and seeing senarios...like I met a man who had his throat injured, it could have bean a hole in the throat for breathing...I noticed this and it felt it could represent me somehow....and I was to go up the staires, but on the first step of the stairs was a mother with it´s Child, but it was not human, it was some kind of mixed and animal like, I have never seen this kind of spicies Before....but I was stopped by the Child he was showing me his injuries and that I can´t leave him Before he is healed...so I did stay...If I had walked up the stairs I would have left this incarnation.....This feeling was so strong, and I felt that the message was, I have to stay until my son in this Life is healed Before I can leave.....hm....

[IA56]

In last night Dreams I was again bein fraimed by people I really have helped in all the ways you can imagin...economically and also help with autorities when theires allowenses has bean taken away from them, I did help so much that I did become ill and lost my Company and Everything...these people does not tell the truth, they have told that I have made theires Life bad, and fled to other part of the country like making seen I am dangerous so they have to move far away....so in the Dream I had the opportunity to speak out and these people did become silent, because I told the truth and it can be verified too...so I feel better, even I have lost dear persons in this battle, I do hope they will see through and understand and return one day, but if not, I have done all what was in my Power until I did nearly die in this trying, and I hope they do understand one day who was on theires side, because they did listen to wrong guidance. If right guidance there will not be we and them...there is only a big US, all included and no-one excluded.

[IA56]

In last night Dreams I was with my sister and her husband....my sister played violin (she does not play any instrument in real Life) she was so good at it, I told her that she ought to start to play violin, yes she said I will. I asked if I may borrow their kee-board because no-one playes on it, but her husband told me that it is so old but he will help me to buy one of my own, I was so happy, becasue I do not have any car so they will drive me to a shop. We were to leave their home, but my sister asked me to lock the door, her husbands father (dead) wanted to help me, but I did tell him that I can do it, some how a fishing net did tangle in my hair, her husbands father wanted to take it off, but somehow if I would let him take it away it was not good somehow, so I told him to not to take it, that I will do it, and I did. The lock of the door was Little bit tricky but I did manage to Close it and lock it.

In this seequenze I was with my grandchild A and we did go out shopping, I was so faschinated about the handbags, when I was younger I was total crazy about handbags. (One time when my mother gave my sister and me Money to buy a cap for the Winter, and I did buy one handbag for me :-) she was so angry at me and said, when Winter come´s you do go with your handbag on your head...lol...)...We both felt someone was lurking at us, so we decided to go home, and we did take a short cut, but we ended up in a sand cavity and he did not let us come up from it, so I started to shout and Yell....Help...help...I did shout so high so I did awake myself. (I wonder what my nabours did Think??)..I have not had this kind of nightmare for long time now, it was so awful.

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was visiting a Place where I will start as a trainee...I was shown around and the owner did take me with him to eat lunch so he did present me as the new trainee who will soon come and work here.

I did also eat strips with shrimp sallad, it is with much calories and I was advised not to eat it, I know I have to loose weight.

[IA56]

In last night Dream I had buy a house, it was near a see, wonderful surroundings. I Went out to the water I found a nice Place and was thinking, that Place will be my special Place. I Went around and behind the building and I did see a tandem bicycle, oh I said I want one too, the person who did own the tandem did take it and I asked where he have buy it. He said he can take one for me next time he come back. Yes thank you I said, how much do you Think it will cost. He did not answer. One neigbour to me a man did say that I shouldn´t buy anything from that man, he said he will charge me over price, he said he can fix a tandem bicycle much lower price to me. Okay I said. I Went inside the house and now I noticed that there was not any clothes rail, it was only very long Nail, several. So that gave me the feeling, there is so much work to do.

[IA56]

In last night Dreams I was going to visit my father who had moved to a new nursing home (in real Life my father is in so good shape so he can be moved to a new nursing home, he has got a new room to move in about 4 weeks, we all are so happy) I started at the first floore but he was not there, I did go on to second floore, not there, now it was time to lunch, so I Went out to eat and I did buy a fritter to have with me to him. When I came back to the nursinghome I meet one I knew and I asked if she did know on what floor my father is living and she answered the 7:th floor. Good now I know where to go.

In this seequenze I was in a Winter landscape and what was strange was that the bunnies was so large like houses?? Never seen this kind of thing Before.

In this seequenze we have to stand in line for something, do not remember but it was fight over who was first, I did stand more back I do not like fights.

[IA56]

In last night dream´s it was like a summoning of my reactions in real Life...Like how I react when my bf did not keep the door open for me but did shut it in my face...or to feel ashamed when Walking with me, or we being somewhere and he said I should sit down and not go besides him so not they would see we where together....etc etc...the whole night was like this, because there are so many occations when this has happened with men.
In the Dream I did not bother about it, I just did leave him every time when this kind of disrespect was done against me, so somehow I Think this is healed now from the hurt I felt when it did happen in real Life.

[IA56]

In last night´s Dreams I had some odd seequenzes...Like...I had like a jelly boll and it was a Child in it, when I hold it it did develop and grow so I could feel it, so it was dependent how much love and care you gave the "Child" it did grow faster and developed.

In this seequenze I did take a bike, it was brand new, it took a while when I did know how to use it properly, like it took some time to find where to put the light´s on...and how to put gears in...and so fort...it was very odd when I entered a Railway station I did like carry it like a part of myself, I used my legs and like hold the bike up between my legs and took the stairs up and found a elevator to use it, and on the other side I did ride the bike like an bike is to ride.....

In this seequenze I was in a house and infront of the window when an christmas tree did fall from the sky and the St Clause did show me one list with something written on, but I did drop my focus and started to Think the meaning of this, and did not see what was written on the list....

In this seequenze I was in a house in the cellar when I see an horse and a wagon as in 1800 Century, I did open the "house" for them to drive through....and I followed them and I meet my sister and she asked if I will help on the field, so I reminded her that I have never done that as you remember I was Always making the food, as you know....so I did look when they did make the horse ready to go on the field...

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was floating on my tummy, first it was hard to cope whith the poking on it, but after a while when I was supported to let it happen it became more delicat and soft and now I felt like fingers pushing my tummy and I could easy feel it was still hard to be still, but when I started to hear tone´s it became more easy, I could focus on the tone´s and soon I started to hear a melody, softly and gently and so wonderful, did all this come from me and my body?? wow....

In this seequenze I was Walking with a women who had no selfconfidence what so ever, she was afraid to frighten other´s, she was so sure she was a monster. I do now see a big pitpull aproaching us and I do not feel fear at all (this is very odd and rare, I am so afraid of dogs and specially pitbulls) the dog do first only see me but when he/she does see my friend, it litterally did get pale and so afraid, it sounded like it called for mother, and my friend did say, see, now you see, I am a monster. I told her that she is not, she has so big Power that it do frighten everyone, and that when someone do be frightened they start to say evil things, like spread evil talk, but it does not have anything to do with you. I know how kind and afraid you are yourself. But you have to start to know yourself more and know your Power. I know who you are.

[IA56]

In last night Dream I had a black panter he was so near me, I was Ã♥n my house with the door open, I did get into panic when I noticed the black panter so near my open door, I in panic closed the door, I was so nervous that it was very hard to Close the door and lock it....but this seequnze did repeat it self and the panter was further and further away from the open door so I could feel when I was in Control to Close the door in Peace, ...so i said in the Dream...do you see...it is like a training opportunity to learn me to not panic and act controllingly in a situation what is dangerous, so I can feel in Peace and in Control....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was in the wood´s to change to swim suit...when a Brown bear did poke on my back, I did not be at all in panic?? and my heart rate did not raise...?? The bear did find a Place where people had left food after camping and the bear did find bone marrow and eat it and started to talk??...asked where I was going, I pointed at Buildings furter away and said, I am going to that school...and started to go at that direction...the bear did let me go...when I was at a good distance I run...but when I did come near the school building a huge cat like animal did jump nearer me, (I had have this in Another Dream) and when I looked at Another way I saw many both wild and tame animals, like hippos and bull´s ...I did understand I was surounded by animals, they where everywhere, where I turned my eye´s I saw animals.....oh I get it....we are but animals....:-)

[IA56]

In last night Dreams I did get healing....I was watching a Group of people giving treatments to people, I could see I had sicnesses in me too so I asked if they could help me too, and one women started to treat me, she did put me on my back lying on the ground, she did mount by half lye on me holding by my sholders and like rocking me up and down, she said, you ought to feel like you are in an elevator, and yes I did feel it....then she pushed my legs towards my stomach and a huge fart did occure and it did smell so awful and I felt huge relese....then she did put her hand and pushed it under my ribbs and I did both see and feel a black bloubb and she said a latin Word and I did also in the Dream understand it´s meaning, and the Group did feel happy to have find such a rare fault to practis on....

This seequenze I met one old work-frind she had a new boy-friend an healer, he wanted to give me an treatment, I did Think my friend did allow him to treat me...he took me with him...and I could see in his Eyes a flash go off, and when I looked at my left I could see his Eyes become total black...and I was not sure if he did be dark or light...but I was not afraid...from his Eyes did com e a strong light and I felt a light Electric force hit me...I Went back to my friend and she was on the phone, I was happy to tell her about how I felt about his treatment when she did let me know that he is a jerk....I was totally surprised, I did have a huch about this but now I did get it confirmed...she did end her relationship to him....

[IA56]

Lately my Dream nights are so filled up with Dreams so it is impossible for me to remember them or to bring any order for telling them, this does of course compell me, maybe it is such a mess that it has to come up this way first and then slowly when I have processed them more they will be remembered.

I only remember this from last night Dreams, or I Heard someone say...the beast is catched and put away...the feeling I got was that what ever I have feared and what have made me freeze is now taken care off so I can go on with more security and ease....Thank you whom ever it is or was for letting me Breathe freely.....Thank you!!

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was with a man and a dog, we walked on a Winter road, it was so narrow and snow walls higher then us...when we meet a car we have to stand still and lean against the snow wall for them to pass and they drow very slowly not to harm us....I said...how a narrow road....now we meet a horse and someone riding the horse, they tried to take us from the road up to the Woods, but then a man appeared and the only thing I remember is the feeling he left with me, and that he said...Shalom....I said also Shalom and knew I shall not go up to the Woods and follow the horse path, the man looked at the dog and it piied so much that it was not natural...but I did not Think anything about it...the dog did not want to walk anymore with us...so I told the man...he will follow us I am sure of it....and we walked on this narrow road....and here I awoke.

[IA56]

I have had very odd Dreams lately last night I had this Dream and in it´s oddness it shows my inner how I Think all is possible...

In this Dream I was preagnent with a Child to my second husbands daughter??!! (how odd and sick thought) First I was only happy and I was not thinking if it is possible or not, I was just happy, then thoughts started to invade me...and I was thinking...I can´t be preagnent to her, it needs sperms and she does not have it....then the next thought come when this couple man and a women did look at each others in surprise....oh I said...is this the time where everyone is hermafordite?? they did look at each others and did not understand what I meant...I said...that have both sperm and eggs, and it has nothing to do if you are female or male...you just decide when you meet and want Children who is who...?? The couple did be more surprised....

In the Dream when my thoughts started that of course I can´t be preagnent to her, and also how our morales does work, to even have this thought is sick in our World, and this shows my way how I am....I do not want to be with relatives in that way, but how would I Think if I was not teached it is wrong?? (I was not teached by my relatives but I have been teached from early childhood as I call it from the Universe)

So I can imagen Cultures where they do not have these rules or moral codexes all is possible...so to live in a society you have to have rules other wise it will become chaos....and if it is possible to have this hierachy with up and down...or low and high.....then I can imagen that in the lower realms this is how they live....and in the higher you have strickt rules to live by....

[IA56]

I am a bit embarresed and in shame to tell what my several nights Dreams have bean about.....s...x......I have bean raped so many times in my Life so the Dreams have bean about a man who do have so much patience with me....and I can both see and feel he is determined to heal me on this area....of course I am greatful, but I see how damaged I am of the bad experiences I have on this area......I will not say anything about in details.....

[IA56]

In last night Dreams I was chased by wild animals, like lions...this time I did not just run away, I did scare them back...and I did succeed :-)....It felt good :-)

[IA56]

In last night Dream I did see a horse with wings....there where a bunch of people too, looking at the horse and I hear someone saying...like this was true...so I focus on the wings on the horse for to see if it is fake, but it was not, it was real and it looked like the horse had real wings....so I was thinking....do this not be real ?? How do it look like when it is real??..

[IA56]

I have had many dreams the theam of me "parenting" others...for example..my former neigbour who had a addiction problems with her gf...they had a child in the dream..I was helping them in all way´s thinkable...like bringing blankets and food...so in this dream they had a child...prox...2 yrs age...they let him smoke...I was so angry so I did take the cigarett from the childs hands and told the parents that it is not good thing...they like looked at me like I was crazy...

This theam has bean for longer time now....

But last night I was harrassed as I feel I am in real life....they just did not let me be...and I told in this dream as I feel in real life...trying to get someone to help me......Now when this dream has bean dreamt....I ought to see differenceses start to happening in my real life....I really hope so....I have bean harrassed for so many years, that my body is telling me it will shut down and then I have no place to be in.....so I hope the help is on the way...for real.

I did pray in the dream over all who have turn theire´s back´s on GOD to understand that they are making HELL to them selves..It is not easy to talk about GOD when all religions have made people to feel...that there is no GOD....should understand the difference and not look at peoples crazy doings and think that why does GOD let all this suffering happen...It has nothing to do with GOD, it is all our own creatings....all the suffering. GOD is healing....so turn back to GOD the real GOD.
GOD is pure LOVE therefore HE can not make suffering!!

[IA56]

I have again had so intense dreams that it will take time to digest them....but tonight I had a wonderful dream...I moved in to my new house....wonderful, beautiful, huge, it was so huge like a palace, or casle....wow....and only I had the key.

[IA56]

Last night I did have a dream with American Indian´s and fearious wild boar´s….I was traveling in an caravan…The Indian´s was on horses riding they where several riding in a row up on the road, and I came traveling only in my caravan?? I did manuevre it with my thoughts and will….The wild boars they where 2…first one man did hit down one of them, with bear fists…and the other did jump up on the roof of my caravan…I did wiggle the wild boar down and I did hit it with the caravan so we where able to go on our trip….

In this episode I did meet 2 of my ex bf´s …one is dead, and the other I do not know anything about…I was only 23 yrs old when I met him for a short time….so I do not understand this dream at all??...Those 2 bf´s did co-operate for my favor, against one old bf who did make something bad against me what I was not at all familar with, but those both ex bf´s did know about, and they where helping me??

[IA56]

In last night dream someone had break my rosary, I was crying and asking who can do things like this?? I felt molested.

[IA56]

Few nights ago I had this dream....I was looking into a mirror and noticing I had facial hair...I looked at my son and I said....I have more beard then you....I had facial hair under my eyes and to my nose so practically all my face was coverd by hair....I did ponder on how to remove it in the best way...I did not like it to look like I did with all this hair on my face... I was not in shame or afraid only surprised to look like I did....and I did not either think I was turning to an animal....so this has not to do with fear nor shame....it must have some symbolic message what I do not get, anyone, thoughts??

[CFTraveler]

I immediately thought 'devolving'? Perhaps you're afraid you're 'going back in your development' (which you're not, by the way) or feel you're worrying too much about physical things?
Just an idea.

[IA56]

I immediately thought 'devolving'? Perhaps you're afraid you're 'going back in your development' (which you're not, by the way) or feel you're worrying too much about physical things?
Just an idea.

Thank you dear CFT for your support, you gave me more strength to see deeper and this is what came up.

My beast is bigger than my sons beast, I have dared to confront his beast and get it on line so to speak....so off course I have more beard than him...lol...:-)

[IA56]

The night before this I only remember one thing..I opened a double door into a big room where I saw the pomegranate..I did cut it up ...it was so luscious, fresh and wonderful...I eat it...yum....

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt a lot of stress episodes....like drow a car and the breaks was outside the car and I was not able to understand how to use them...so I had to grab with my arm out of the window and hold on like fences to not drive over people and other cars??...and I was with my sister to bank, and she was short of money and I did not find my creditcard, I went out to sersh and then remember I had it in my back pocket of my jeans...and when I did hand it over to the cashier it was broken but she said I have to use it in one year still??...then found a bag on the street and my sister went into a post office to call the bag owner and I had the most important things to the person ..like id and bankcards...I tried to tell my sister but she did not want to listen, so I nearly pored over her and she did become angry, so I went to our car and windows was open and it had snowed in...our children was small and crancy and tired, I had to brush the snow out before I let the children in....like this it went on and on....until I had to wake me up I was not able to let it go on....had to wake me up to put an end to the stress dreams...

[IA56]

Last night dreams where very revealing....I tried to help homeless people but they did deceive me totally....

In this episode I was visiting my grandchildrens mothers relatives, they only did serve like porridge to show they are poor, I left without saying good buy so I went back and to my surprise the table was overflooding with goodies, they where imbarressed but I did say....I did forget to give you hugs and kisses, so I did that and went away. I was so sad and cried, I went to see my mother, I need a hug myself and comfort...she was lying down on her sofa, I said...good that you are resting...she answered with hostile voice...of course I am resting....I lie me down becides her and started to cry...she did not even look at me and did not comfort me or even ask why I am crying.....

In this episode I did talk with a young boy...I did discover that he was not able to read or write...I started to talk about Romani people that I know in theres group is many who can not read or write still...I looked at him and asked if he was a Romani....He denied....I started to teell that my mothers grandma was a Romani she did fell in love with my mothers grandpa and he was white and that was total forbidden so they did evict her from the "clan"....he started to cry and I felt that he was in shame not to be able to be proud of his roots...

There was more episodes If I remember I will fill in them here later.....

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night I again had very intence dreams...the only one I remember is when something brown (light brown) went into my body from the left side of my neck??..the spontaneous thought was....I hope it is for my protection.....I was like in my body and outside of it like an observer...so I wonder whom of my bodies did it go into??...I hope I can understand that soon....

[IA56]

My Dreams have bean very good for me to see that my skills to protect myself has improvet....but I do not go into specifics on them now....but what was very interesting seequenze what I did understand as fire element....maybe I am wrong but it felt that way.....it Went like this.....the Dream ;.)

I was in this room and I know there were several creatures but I couldn´t find them so I turned the light off....and then they did come out of the darkness, in the room was in a Cage a guinea pig...it started to dry loudly so I could locate where it was in the room, and now I did see a salamander with Bright colores and in nearness of his Bright colores I could see better ...they Went after the guinea pig...so I was thinking what to put so Heavy on top of the Cage so they could not kill the guinea pig....someone said...put a chair on top of the Cage....here I awoke myself because it was that intense and I wanted to remember this seequenze....

This Dream tells me also that my fear has lessened, I am happy.

[IA56]

My Dreams have bean very good for me to see that my skills to protect myself has improvet....but I do not go into specifics on them now....but what was very interesting seequenze what I did understand as fire element....maybe I am wrong but it felt that way.....it Went like this.....the Dream ;.)

I was in this room and I know there were several creatures but I couldn´t find them so I turned the light off....and then they did come out of the darkness, in the room was in a Cage a guinea pig...it started to dry loudly so I could locate where it was in the room, and now I did see a salamander with Bright colores and in nearness of his Bright colores I could see better ...they Went after the guinea pig...so I was thinking what to put so Heavy on top of the Cage so they could not kill the guinea pig....someone said...put a chair on top of the Cage....here I awoke myself because it was that intense and I wanted to remember this seequenze....

This Dream tells me also that my fear has lessened, I am happy.

Salamander=Lizard

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night Dreams I can not say anything about, it was intence...but this morning in awaked state I did see symbols in White ...and other shapes coming towards me in high speed, I opened my Eyes and I continued to see them, I closed my Eyes and now I see them more clearly...it did come from all directions....it did be so high speed so I have not one I can Picture out....??

Thoughts, anyone??

[IA56]

Last night I was reminded of what I have already achieved for 7 yrs ago....now I just wait it to manifest.....I will tell you if it does...and if this Dream was only a reminder how it goes....or how our effords does come to Life so to speak....or more deeply understanding ....cause and effect....

[IA56]

Last night I had a very happy Dream....It started with that they announced on TV that if you have a bit of string hooked up on your curtain rod....call us...and fasten a long rope to it....I did call the TV and did fasten a long rope to the string on the curtain rod...and I was thinking....I hope this is true...so I was called up and was told I won a air-baloon trip....so I was picked up and up in the air we Went, in this big air baloon and we did float into a cyclone whirlwind....all Went well but it was Little bit disturbing that we where not in Control so much in the baloon, we Went Little bit as the wind did take us...


In this episode I was sucked up by a tube up into a room??

[IA56]

In last night Dream it did start with trying to intimitate me,it was on my left side.... it looked horrible and when I did not react to it horric looking black creature..could sure call it demon...it did get symbols on it´s face, and I was thinking...oh ..is there someone who are making this by magic...and it turned into anger for it not bean able to scare me....and I was not a bit affected by it...so it Went...poof......

Then had Leyla in my Dream....she had a big snake in her hands....and I told her that I can see Another snake...she asked how it looked...I say....it is shiny green...and Leyla said...oh...it is very kind snake...pick it up....and I did...I looked at it´s face...and it was so shiny green...like emerald...it did not open it´s mouth at all...so I felt more secure...and it did glide from my hand and over my upper right arm...and it was huge...I started to be unsecure so I asked Leyla to come Quick, but the snake did turn quickly and it did touch my heart with it´s head...and I was thinking...did it heal it...was there a hole in my heart??....I am not sure.....here I woke up....

[IA56]

From last nights Dreams I remember only small snippets....The first Dream is when I am standing on a very small and thin crossbar with 2 men and the man on my right hand was the one who was in charge, he had for a moment ago thrown a girl in a big bin across the room, she landed alive, I was afraid she will hurt herself bad, but it Went well...the man on my left side has a good grip of me, and I feel that if I will fall over I will also land in the big bin as the girl Before me....so I have my hair on my face and I am sweatting alot, I feel the man holding me in a tight grip, and I feel he is helping me...after a while I feel that I am in Control and that the man to my left will give me the false belief that I am surviving because of him...so I tell him to let me go, and he has to, and I notice that I am okay by myself....


In this part I am in England and I am in a café and I tell her that I am here for the first time and what will she recomend me to taste, she takes a big bit of a cake but it is damaged, and when I try to carry the plate with the cake to the cassier it falls over on the floor, I am so dissapointed, I start to cry and say, why would you ever serve a damaged cake to someone, you ought to have seen and taken the other one....she tries to Comfort me to give me free gifts, but I feel bad that she did not want to give me the best in the first Place....


In this episode I feel that one bigger than a guinea pig...Went into my right elbow....I was wondering why?? and what good will it do for me??


In this episode I saw a couple holding eachothers arms but they where full of Worms??

[IA56]

Last night Dream was very odd, because it came out this way....My father had 3 dogs, the mother dog was put down early like she was only 5 yrs old, she had cancer...the pups of her, 2 Girls, was put down like they where 13 and 15 yrs old, cancer....now last night Dream, the mother dog did hug me and put her paws under my arms and hugged tight, I was surprised and a slight fear did rose in me...because it was a dog, I am afraid of dogs, I was not with my fathers dogs but this "nearness" what is not common for a dog to give you, like hugging, she never did this whilst she was alive....
I have felt a Deep longing for my mothers love all my Life, and I had to accept that will never happen, we are like friends only....so I am sure the mother dog wanted to give me nearness, but I am afraid of the spiecis of dogs, so I was not able to embrace with joy, sorry.

Then I Went to a bedroom to fetch something and the one of the girl dogs did be angry with me, she bite my hand, but I did not go into fear so she did let me be, but she had showed her anger against me.....I am sure she was not ready to leave eath Life so I was there with all the 3 dogs when they where put down....she did also carry a message from my father....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I had an owl sleeping besides me?? What can this symbol be about?? Anyone any thoughts??

[susan]

well IA,
considering the comments you wrote in 'Experience With Circle Of Protection In Action'


...."that I can not feel anger or hate against anyone, not even them who have harmed me very badly....It has taken so long for me to learn to avoide people not to be used for theires
purpose for to protect me, I thought I had to listen and talk and help everyone, even they only used me for theires own purpose, many have said...they will help me, but havë
taken advantadge on me and make more depts to me to pay, or asked for loan Money but never pay back...the list is long....it is why I do not dare anymore to bonde with many,
it takes long time to build up a trust ....but not many have that time now Days."


I googled and the first and only site I looked at was a pagan forum describing the symbolism of the owl.
It says....

THE OWL IS OFTEN A GUIDE TO AND THROUGH THE UNDERWORLD. A CREATURE OF KEEN SIGHT IN DARKNESS.
IT CAN UNMASK THOSE WHO WOULD DECEIVE YOU OR TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU?

I hope this owl brings you the wisdom to see through these people.

[IA56]

well IA,
considering the comments you wrote in 'Experience With Circle Of Protection In Action'


...."that I can not feel anger or hate against anyone, not even them who have harmed me very badly....It has taken so long for me to learn to avoide people not to be used for theires
purpose for to protect me, I thought I had to listen and talk and help everyone, even they only used me for theires own purpose, many have said...they will help me, but havë
taken advantadge on me and make more depts to me to pay, or asked for loan Money but never pay back...the list is long....it is why I do not dare anymore to bonde with many,
it takes long time to build up a trust ....but not many have that time now Days."


I googled and the first and only site I looked at was a pagan forum describing the symbolism of the owl.
It says....

THE OWL IS OFTEN A GUIDE TO AND THROUGH THE UNDERWORLD. A CREATURE OF KEEN SIGHT IN DARKNESS.
IT CAN UNMASK THOSE WHO WOULD DECEIVE YOU OR TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU?

I hope this owl brings you the wisdom to see through these people.

Thank you Dearest Susan,

Yes I hope so too. It is a paradox because I have seen where it will lead or end in every case, but I have not bean able to end it Before it had to come to one specific
Point, and I am not able even to tell more, but I have got a hung or hunch about it, and today I am released from near relationships, and I feel so happy,because
now I know I do not have to be humiliated anymore, or cheated on....I feel blessed that it is over so to speak...
I feel when I read what you wrote about the owl about to see in darkness, I have had few Dreams where I have bean able to see in darkness too, so this might be
confirmation to on deeper level, I hope so.

Love
ia

[IA56]

I have an strong urge to continue this conversation about the paradox.
I start what happened 1981-82...when I have get the beater out of my Life...I did go back to the doctor who did also meet him P...I wanted to hear his oppinion about this...the doctor started to aske me...how could you go into this relationsship with open Eyes??...I first said...I did see the injured Little boy inside of him, I wanted to help him. (but also he said he will help me without asking anything back, and my whole family had turned theires back on me)..The doctor said...How could you Think you can help him, I am an expert and I can´t help him.....this stayed with me....and today I would say to the doctor, of course you can´t help when you already have decided you can not do anything to help, with this kind of attitude you certainly can´t do anything....As I am very afraid Little being, I have bean "forced" into many dangerous situations ...and I have bean thinking why me...but today when I feel the worst is over, I feel that we each and everyone have our own path to walk, and today I can say I am so greatful for I have not walked alone not one step...I am so greatful for the existence that Life is as it is...it is sure easier today when I know what I know...it is not much but I know that if we open our heart to LOVE we are not alone, and LOVE walkes with us in both bad and good.

Today I feel so greatful and full of LOVE.

[IA56]

Last night I had so funny Dream that I awakened me from my laughing out loud :-)....I did sing in English ...happy birth day to you....and ended with....hallo, hallo, hallo....instead of Hurra, hurra, hurra..

[IA56]

Last night when I put out the light to go to sleep, it has never, never happened that behind my eyelids the senario to be total black, but last night it was so black that I have never seen so black colore Before??!! I was so surprised but curious so I was still and focused and observed. Soon started to come silversch light shapes. It did be like this for sure 3 minutes, then it Went to the normal as it usually are behind my eyelids.....thoughts?? anyone know what this is??

[IA56]

Last night I had such a strange Dream, it Went like this:

I was dragging a Young girl from her feets over the doorsteps and treacholds, she said now and then....ouch...I asked if she could take it, yes she said, I started to tell her the story of Greta and Hans....when we come to our destination I did lift her up and she was like total limb, so I handed her over to her parents, and now I saw her back...it was coming blood from the injuries the ground had caused her when I dragged her from her feet`??? What it this....has this happen to me?? during the big beating?? if...then I was very injured....

In this episod I was ,making food with a women, we did make vegetarina food, I was so surprised I had so much different specis and flaworings...It looked and smelled so good, but I awoke Before it was ready to eat...

[IA56]

Last night Dreams was again very very Deep and for me hard to understand, it Went like this:

I had 2 small undefined animals, very small, they could be birds, yes I felt they to be birds...I did put them in a box with a lid or cover, the box was round. I did put the box ourside. After long time I did understand that they can never live, I did not put any water or food into the box, and for second they where so tiny, they might not even know how to eat??...I did awake from my sleep and did understand what I have done, so I did put my dressing gown on me, it was Winter now so they have bean out like 6 months, the most surprising was that someone was lightening up my way to the box, the light did come behind me, so someone was helping me by showing via the light beam for me to understand, I was not alone....I did not find the box so one man did come to me and told me it was on the next house lawn, oh now I remembered..the boxes was still there but the birds was dead, I thought, but when I did take them in my hand, I felt the heart beat...so I did put them on the ground and there was many Worms, so I felt they are too big for the birds, when I did look closer on the ground I did see small incekts and I did understand that I do not know what is good for the birds to eat and what can harm them, I did deeply understand things via this Dream, even I am not in Power to tell you what I did understand, because it is knowledge without Words.

It did though have with survival to do.....

[IA56]

Last night Dream was confusing....I did enter a high building, rental appartaments, there was 2 women holding the elevator door open for me to enter the elevator, I did get amnesia and did not remember what floor I was living on...so they said...we go to the top floor and then one of us will follow you to see where you live....and I did not live in this building, when we hit the bottom floor I said...No I was wrong, I do not live here....so I Went out and continued to serce for the right building...but I did woke up Before I found my home.....

[IA56]

I have had so busy night rescuing souls from the dark dungenions, to my help I had this huge snake who could carry thousands of souls when I only could take few, we did take them out to the fresh air, it was nice to see blue sky after being into the dark dungenions whole night....the dungenions did implode so we could never go back to where we have bean Before, so for every new round the dungenions did implode and now I am not sure if we did get out everyone...it was for me a new expereince...today I feel light and happy, feel like I have accomplished something of value. Thank you who did help me.

After thinking if we did get all out, I have bean given more clearer Picture how it Went....the snake did carry the souls in his skin, and when we did come into the Daylight he did erupte his skin with all the souls in it, and when we did go back for more the snake did again carry them in his skin and erupted them into the Daylight and so on...and the dungeon did implode after all was out, so we did not have to go to where was no one left, therefore it did implode so the bottom did come further up so to speak....wow...that plan is genius....Only God could come up with this genius plan....wow.

[IA56]

Last night Dream was like the night Before but with one difference, I did not have my rescue-snake with me...and when I did see how many needed help I flee from the Dream and felt totally overwhelmed....I do not trust my strength yet....:(

[IA56]

OMG so frustrating night....I was asked to help with book-keeping, the one who asked me to help was a person who have bean so abusive against me, and I did not have guts to say NO...I did not even get paied, she only said, I am sure they will consult you again...and I was harrassed by a person who did want to know for information from that Company about a cost (it was falsly used this Companys Money to travel wrongly with) so I did notice that they have used me to get this information, and I felt so bad, that I can not defend me against anything, in one way they say they need help only to use my skills to get something wrongly for them selves....How can I learn to see through this and stop the wrong using of my skills so to speak?? I have made rules for myself about this kind of people I do not want to have anything to do with...but when it comes to the Point they say need help, I can´t resist myself but to help...WHY??!! Why can I not say NO and keept it that way?? Do anyone have some clues to give me to work towards with to solve this issue??, Please!!

[IA56]

Last night Dreams it started with me looking at a Picture of one occation it was like party/christmas event....in the Picture in front was me and my sister sitting on the floor we had west-coats on us and leather band around our heads, like it was in the -70-ies....I had pink west-coat and my sister had a blue one...there where many of my cousins...and one cousin girl who was like 4-5 yrs old at this time...had an kerchief on her what did stick out and I was thinking about that....then I sweeped my Eyes and found that my mothers brother with wife and their youngest Child was infant....that too did Catch my Eye....

In this seequenze I was invited to my doctors home, she said I can take some friends with me...I took my cousin and when we arrived to her home she like looked dissapointed whom I have with me...so I hurried me to say...I can call my sister and and if she will come...the doctor said ..NO I would never invite her to my home...(this she said as support to me, to be on my side) I felt happy to hear her say this, it did strengthen me, even I did know Deep down she do not have any bad thoughts about her, but knew this was importent to me to feel....Thank you for truly understanding how a good support is done.

[IA56]

Last night Dream have left me so humbled and make me cry...I give Little of background info so it may be more easier to understand what I feel......My mothers grandmother was Romani born and outcast because she fell in love with my mothersgrandfather who was "White" or forbidden.When someone are cast out from the Romani clan they do not exist anymore and they are forbidden to talk about their background to anyone....so my mother did be raised without any relatives from her mothers side...The mothers grandmother was very gifted and enourmously respected because of her gifts and she helped many during her Life....I have bean getting messages from her when I was a Child...but that is Another story....

Now my Dream....I was living in a big house with upstairs and downstairs.....I was sleeping upstairs and I hear that someone did come downstairs ...he was drunk and singing loudly...he had a good voice...but it did make me angry...who dares to come and visit me in middle of the night...so I Went downstairs very angry and was in mood to cast out the "intruder" as I thought it to be....to my surprise it was a long forgotten relative....he looked much like my mothers brother, so I at once dropped my anger and I was cuorious and humbled to meet an old relative to my mother....I did talk very respectfully to him and I asked if he will stay for the night, he got tears in his eyes and said.,...I did not think you let me stay...I said..of course you stay...and I did make a very nice bed for him but I told him not to sing but on the morning and I am very glad to be listening to his songs.....

I cry today of happiness....and I am not ashamed of my background as many others are....

[IA56]

OMG!! Another strong Dream night:

My son has friends who have a sauna, I asked if I am alowed also to use it, I have not bath sauna in many years, and he said...Yes.
I asked my son if he want to also bath sauna, he said NO...so I Went to the sauna, but I have not yet reached there when my son totally naked, drunk, and being very loud. I am so emaressed, I say to him to be quiet, and put some clothes on him, I tell him that he is not allowed to run out naked, police will take him and arrest him for bad behaving, so he listens to me and hurries into the sauna...we sit on the seats on top in the sauna, and I put water on the stones, and to my surprise I see a man sitting on the hot stones?? I look at my son if he does see him too, but no....the man is grinning at me and I remember not to panic so I will loose the message of the Dream....(He is letting me meet my own prejucided, condemned, fear and wrong beliefs)...so I am taking it easy....now the man is sitting besides my son and looking at him, he does not see or notice him,....The man is grinning at me....and I feel such a relief....Thank you!!

I am now thinking that maybe my son need fire element into his Life to get better?? any thoughts....and also me too of course....

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Still strong Dreams:

The first Dream took me back to my old appartament, I have bean on a holiday trip and returned home, to my surprise all lamps are lit and the neighbours girlfrind is on the loft (the appartaments are in line so mine is last and I have to pass all other appartaments to come to mine, via this loft)..I ask why she is weapeing and so sad, she said that M has bean so strange and she tries to get him to a rehab....I see that my door is open and when I open it more I see M sitting in my kitchen...I asked if someone has let him in...No he said...I asked did you break you in....njyes...and he said..I feel so safe and secure here....when I looked in to the room he have re-arranged all my furnitures and stuff....now I feel angry....I tell him that I will report this to police...now he get Little bit scarred and started to fix like the light armature on the sealing...he have done that it will fall down any minute....so I see that he try to get me to pity him, but he is just harming me...I told him that is he crazy by loosing the screwes from that lamp to fall on me and kill me....he is just not right in his head....here the Dream ends....

This Dream is wierd:

I am visiting one of my co-worker and her husband falls in love with me....my working friend just seamed so down silenced and trampled so she did not even dare to react, just looking at her husbands wierd behavings when he did flirt with me, I did feel so acward and I tried to say I must go now....but he said that no not yet....we will make a dinner and we do not take a no for an answer right and looking at his wife or girlfriend...she turned around and started to Cook.....now he have given me gifts and also White high healed shoes ...very pretty and wonderful...I put them on me and admire them....after I try to put my shoes on they are gone....I had already take off the one White shoe...when I noticed my shoes is gone...I ask him where they are...and when I turn to put the White shoe on, it also is gone...there I stand with one shoe on me...and now the atmosphere is getting tensed...and I am taking all out of me to keep calm....I now tell him I want to go....and I see one stick what you use to test if potatoes are cooked enough...I take it like a wapon for me (very strange because I never dare to defend myself or use weapons)...he off course sees it and takes it away from me....I calm down....and Think ...I let happen what is going to happen and just be calm....Now time has passed and I have got some kind of Connection to the wife....and she have told me that she suspects him to be a serial killer....I instruct her so we both can get out from there alive....so I have started to like be near him to fool him I like him...so now he is secure more and does let me be more free, he trusts me ...so time has passed and I and his wife are now allowed to be more free...from some how my sister has got the Telephone number to where I am.....and now me and his wife are allowed to go out ...but the Telephone rangs and he sais....wait a minute......I hear my sister shouting and call him names and the man sais it is for you...I am so angry that she is going to ruin all for me,....now maybe both his wife and me are going to be killed.....I tell my sister...be quiet...I am just leaving and comming home.....now I notice that my handbag is gone...I aks him where it is....he do not want to listen what I asked...so I tell him that I am on very severe medication and there is an alarm what goes off to police and ambulance if I am not taking them in right time and there is an device telling where my location is...so give my bag or do you want police here...he gives my handbag and we got out .....here the Dream ends.....

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Very strange Dream:

I was visiting my fathers mothers sister, I Went there with my fathers sister. She was living Deep into a swamp in a very Little hut with only one room. I noticed this when I looked down to my aunts legs, the water was up to half of her caf, she had rubber boot on her, but I was bare footed??...I asked if she ever felt afraid to live alone, she said that ske felt sometime but not often....she wanted us to see the salt-sulphate heap like a mountain what she had on her yard....we Went out to look at it...and it was huge...so White and Beautiful....I here noticed I was barefooted so I asked if it will sting if I have small injuries on my feet´s, but it did not...I did find very Beautiful angel figurines White as the salt-sulphate was, so Beautiful, I asked I could have them, and she said yes, everyone take something from the heap so go ahead.....

In this episode I was with people who gave me a pipe like indians have, and a drum....I do not recal more of this but when I visited my father I was showing him what I have bean doing ...and I sound like an indian when they sing....and did drum also, my father turned his back on me...here the Dream ends.or I awoke myself....

.I got this image out of this Dreams....God has 2 poles....+ and -...North and South....up and down.....If I can use this image...then it would be....Angels up and Indians down....Angels are more only energies without shape or form....and Indians who worship or care for nature...these energies are more solid and come to form ....then the Angel energies...so to speak.....

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Last night Dreams was so stressful...I had 3 kittens....they where in 3 different stateges, one was allert and showed good surviving skills, the second was showing Little less surviving skills...and the 3:th did not show at all surviving skills....so I gave the second to my mother to help me to keep it alive, but to my surprice it turned to a dog pup??...I had not time in the Dream to go into trying to understand....I hurried to take care of the 3:d kitten it did not show any awakeness at all...it was total limb and so Little...like only 5 cm big....I felt it was dying, I took my finger and put it into the running water tap, and put a drop into his mouth but it did turn to be a bubble and I tried to blow it away but it did not go away, now I feel it will suffercate...so I took my finger and wipe it away, now the kitten did take a Deep breath and was totally awake, looking at me and laughing....??...I did laugh so loud that I awake myself...:-)

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Very strange Dreams....

I was in Africa...and I had offended someone...I had someone with me, not sure who....but I told the person that we have to leave...we Went like a rest room...when I closed the door it was those where the door is like half meter from the ground....I hold the door not to let anyone in...the one who I had offended (not my oppinion, but others) had changed to a bull....and I hear the bull pushing the door with his horns...and soon there came Another bigger bull but they did not be able to force the door open...I was able to defend myself....

Here in this episode I was with women who told me that their sacred cow wanted to bless me...and to my surprice the cow was very old and was not able to walk..they like dragged her infront of me....I had also bean stolen clothes and now I saw a women having my blause on her...I told the one I was withl....and I told whom I was with...that I will tell when I see others who have taken my belongings so it will know .....

Still pondering this Dreams....hm....

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Last night Dreams was so strong that I have huge head acke and I feel like I am real sick??

The Dream was that I was somewhere like a brothel, I was in chock to see what was going on there...so I started to bless and this did make men angry, that I was there to release the women...so the men did turn against me and it was so many that the energy from me did be so heated so the cars did melt....I was fighting men from all countries...the most horrible fighters was from Kina ....so I had to awoke myself....

I did also Dream that I was involved in some kind of cult....we had to dress in long cloacks when we did go to meetings...I do not remember what we where doing on the meetings or what the cult was for....The last thing I remember was when I was going again to some meeting, I did awake when seeing the other persons back...and I backed out so to speak....

I feel sick...yack!!!

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2 nights ago I dreamt that a Child an infant was dropped from the shy and it was coming in such a high speed that I was not sure I could Catch it Before it hit the ground.....I was able to slow it down so the hit was not that hard to injure the Child.....When I looked at the ground around the Child, it looked like millions of Eye laches??...I did at once awake me from the Dream, it was too wierd to stay in the Dream, because of the strange objects what I was not able to understand and it awakened fear in me??

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In last night Dream I was in hospital...I had so many tube´s and cord´s hooked into me...so I did get help to wash my hand´s...I have never bean washed so clean before and that stuck with me and I was in such an awe.......when I told this to a male friend...he did go...hrmph....in anger??!!

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In last night Dream I was to a kindergarden....there was 2 Children with same name...the only difference was that one had dark hair and the other was blonde.....The kindergarden staff was going to send the blond girl to wrong parents....she ..the Child....did look at me and said: Please do not let them send me away to a home what is not mine....My mother is at school and will later come and get me...please help me...so I hade very hard to convince the kindergarden staff to let this girl go with me...I said I know her mother...(I did not, but I believed the Child)....here I awoke myself, it was so intense and hard to be in this Dream for some reasons I am not aware of.....

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In last night Dream I dreamt that I was observing from above and looked down, I saw me and 3 wolfs running, first I was surprised that I was accepted by the wolfs and did not have to shape-shift at all, and then I felt...I am not that kind of energy....I am formless or in human form...

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In last night Dream I was on a doctors appointment, he showed me a name of a medicin (it was someting with A...do not remember now) he had written it on a piece of paper and showe me...asked...have you have this medicin Before...No I said...he wanted me to start with it....but my body did react with making me faint...I fall on the floor...I did awoke me here from the Dream...

In real Life I can´t eat a nervpain med....it is like an chemical castration of me...the Dream is showing how Little still doctors know about med´s...I am still so afraid to say NO..so still my body is helping me through fainting or make me fall to the floor, trying to tell doctors...what I am not able to say by Words....my body can´t eat all Chemicals and survive...

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Last nights Dreams is an result of many and several Dreams what I was not able to understand...but it is a sum up so to speak...not that I have any solution but that I am made aware of this issue...The Dream Went like this....

I had an dialog with someone...He/she asked...How are you....I answered I am fine....oh yeah the voice said...and showed me a snapshot..me among others....you are fine the voice continued....I looked at the snapshot and not an smiling face to see....fine the voice said...

This made me aware of how we communicate ...when asked...how are you...you supposed to answere ....I am fine...and you??

I have tested this to really say how I feel in the asked moment...and made people uncomfortable...and next time I meet them they avoide me to all COSTs...so much for telling the truth :-)

But what I was made aware in the drem was to solve the inner issues ....and now it escaped what I was trying to say...:-(

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Last night happened something else what I yet do not understand...Usually when I put the lights off, I can still see the inner view or stage..
now this time the energies was different, usually I can let energies go through me or maybe it is radiation, but it is very similar, and usually
it is okay and I can let it happen and I do not feel anything but Peace...so this "energies" copied the radiations pattern and I felt them invasive,
I did not panic, but I did put up my hand to mark where the line goes how near they are allowed to come, they Went more intensive...so i tried to make an triangle this does push away unwanted energies....but this time I lost my memory and awoke several hours later, and was nearly not to remember this first happening...so strange...I do not know what to make of it at all...but...that...someone are trying to come near me
using wrong methods....

I Went back to sleep and had this Dream....First it was pitch black, I had 2 Little dogs with me, I tried to see where I was, I only saw water,
I looked down to see where I was standing...it was a bridge, now I started to see more clearly...I was living in a bus, it was water where
ever I looked, I walked on the bridge to see if I see land, but it was water only....when I looked back to the bus, it was water around it now
and when I looked at the horison no land to see at all, only water....this make me panic...and I awoke myself.

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I just want to write this down to see if or what is coming on thursday.....

I hear a voice telling me....We are coming early thursday morning??

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Last night in my dream I was handed a sheet of paper, it was very dim light in the room, I had a lamp on the wall besides a big plant,
that light you could dim up or down, so I took the sheet of paper to turn the light up to be able to read the paper. When I stood besider
the plant I felt someone hugging me...it was felt like a heap of dry twigs hugging me....I was feeling panic...and awoke myself....what was that??
Can anyone tell me what was hugging me??...

Is my Life-force dryed up??

Is it some kind of elemental entity/energy ??

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In last night dreams I was looking at 2 women with children, it was one white women and one African American women, I am not sure if I was with them or I only was an observer?...The white women was baby sitting for the AW, she had one girl might have bean 7-8 yrs old and one baby. The girl tried to get her mothers attention, she was going out partying, I was looking at the white women if she did see the need of the girl, yes she did see but did nothing about it, I was just going to say something when an false alarm went off and I awoke.....so I was maybe only to observe and not to interfere??

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In last night Dreams I asked a women when I felt that she has stopped praying, I wanted to check how true my feeling about her was...so I asked....may I ask you a personal question...and she said NO..(I still do not trust what I feel or know)..felt that she will not go there with me, but that I must start to trust myself.

I was in this episode with a family and the grandmother was so old...I felt that her time was near, and she wanted like get more strength from me, so I did hugg her...and now I felt that her relatives and the energies where she was going in afterlife has come and let her feel the energy...I told her...your relatives is here, coming through me...do you feel...it was so strong that her son did say...wow....

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Last night I had a strange Dream...I was having tea with my friend a female friend, in entered a huge man, I felt it was a man in our standards so to speak, yet he did not have
any genitals at all?? He looked like you might imagen one Indian deity...The color is hard to say, if it was blue/green or dark emerald, it was like crystal and did not have skin
as we have....yet I did feel his touch like our hands, he did sit besides me in the sofa, and layed his hand on my right sholder, he was sitting on my left side...I asked him, what
can I get you...I was sure he would say tea...but he said he want coffee...I asked my friend in which kitchen shall I make the tea...and ske pointed where to go...I took my
tea-mugg and to my surprise someone have put a big knife with the handle down in my tea-mugg...I did put the knife on the counter in the kitchen...and made the coffee, but
here the Dream ended.....

Hi everyone,
I´d like to have some feedback on this Dream.

Can this one be my HS??
Many have mistaken me to be a man, when they do not know anything about me, and over the internet or if I have send an email to someone and not telling me to be a women,
they respond back like...Sir or he...and I have to correct them that I am a she, but if this dream is now telling or letting me to know that my energy is felt like a male energy
here on our dimention, and I did feel that so clear in this dream....as I wrote ...our standards...I felt him being a man...yet he did not have any genitals at all, so ...

and the knife as it was put into my mug, and I did look at it but no reaction because I do not use weapons ever.....I have bean offered from a man over the internet for some years
ago he gave a sword to me, and I asked him, what shall I do with it...I do not use weapons ever, he said, you can have it infront of you it is enough to protect you??

I did also for many years ago get a bullet profed west...yet I did not feelt it was to protect against bullets, but to protect my heart for strong energies, our heart do not cope with
strong energies, it will collaps.

So what are your thoughs, can it be my HS I did meet for the first time, and was given a test what I do with a knife if it was given me, that if it is true that I do not use weapons??

That I was having tea in this dream was becuse I have stomac problems and I have always said I only drink tea when I am sick, and that the deity or what to call it, did want to have
coffee, did feel as me so to speak...I am a huge coffee lover.

Please give me some feedback, I urgently need it.

Love
ia

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Last night Dream I was seeing the famous Swedish singer Mari Fredriksson, she was standing on a brigdge, I was walking towards her, I stroke her back and said,
I am happy your troubles are over ( she had brain tumor) , she turned around and walked besides me on the bridge and I said, mine are just starting.

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Some nights ago I had a dream that I eat meat?? I was discusted to eat it but I did?? Then I did look out of the window and outside was a graveyard, I was so surprised and I was thinking if I was to a parsonage, for no other houses is built so near a graveyard...I did not understand where I was in the dream....I noticed the big window it was so clean..

Last nÃ♥ght I did have a dream that I did put 10 stamps on a postcard, then I did realise that it was to many, I was able to take 2 away, so 8 was still on the post card??

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In last night dream I saw a cat who had stuck in his/her´s whiskers stuff, it looked very heavy to carry around ...so I said to the cat, come and I will help you to wash that stuff off. I was fist thinking to cut it off, but as I know the cat´s need they whiskers badly not navigate in darkness....This dream awakened a feeling of my mother...she has cancer in her cheak..
I hope I did wash away it....

On this seekquense I saw Children stand behind a cow´s behind ...waiting something to come out ...??

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From last nights dreams I want to share this symbol.....Windows is steamed over...I have got my answer what I was talking about yesterday...when I try to look deeper into things to get the truth then someone is putting smoke rings into my vision for me not to see through....this night dreams are totally clear to me and the symbol too, thank you for helping me.
by giving me a clear symbol to help me understand that I am counteracted.

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In last night dream my father did call me and wanted to see me...I first did go to a place I thought he was on, but I had to look where he was and I found him
in his bed at his nurseryhome, he had seen me go to the other place and he asked my why...I only said I thought he was to the other place. There was other
people also wanting him to come to them, but he did not want to...the dream ended and I started to pray for forgiveness both to be forgiven but also get
forgiveness from all whom I have harmed or hurt in anyway....I did also ask more days for my parents because they do want to stay here more days.

In this episode my sons ex did be so angry at me, and saying that she want to be free, I have never stopped her freedom, but there is several things I have
not bean so happy about her doings and she has missundertood my worry and care about her and my grandchildren, it is always easier to point finger and
missunderstand than take full responsibillity over own missdoings.

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I have bean thinking back and forth if I should put my last night dream out here, because it is so comfusing....I went like this ...

I was working at a nursinghome for elderly, it was a long building and every old person had an own appartament, it was winter and I was taking the snow away
from every front-door and make the street clean too from snow. I noticed one door with so much snow so I could say, no-one have taken the snow away for
many weeks, and on top of the snow heep on the left side was a boom...I did not eighder take the snow away because I could see flachlightings shooting
from the appartament, so I went inside to ask my co-worker if she know what all is about....I asked her...what is it about the broom...she did be so scarred
and walked away and awoiding to answere me....I asked again but she went out and I did awoke me from the dreem, what is this about??

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Last night was again strange, I was called on my phone by a women who asked me if I can help her to feed her cat?? The cat was so ill and had to be force feeded??
When I was at that womens home she got a call from a man who was ill, she handed the phone to me and talked to the man and I hear he is mentally ill or need to talk
to an physic counseller, so I asked him if he will go to the hospital with me to get some help, he said yes, so I told him I will come and get him.
I was delayed all the time so when I at last got free to go to the man to take him to hospital, I did not find the way to him, suddenly I was lost, I did enter into a room with a
women who did not have any teeths and her private parts was so badly injured and poorly nurtured so I could feel the rotten skin smell very bad, I was in chock and went
out and did find me on the backside of the building...I was totally surprised....I started to try to understand where I was, it was much sand and I sat down to try to put my shoes
on me, it was sandals, when the man did spoke to me....he asked about me and I hear myself say that I have taken some karate lessons (I have not in real life only Judo lessons)
he asked how advanced so I told him only few...then I noticed the big mountain and that people did dissapear into the mountain through the stone, there was no doors, I was so
surprised and I tried to ask the man what that was, he did not want to answere me, and tried all the time to occupy my awareness for not to notice what was going on around me..
it did become so intence so I had to awoke me from the dream when not get any answeres and only got more questions then answeres.

This dream was too much....


out

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Last night dreams in the first sequence I left my car into a repair/service workshop, when I drow out the car it was downhill slope and I noticed that the break and gas pedal was not there, I was lucky that there was people who was able to stop my car without harming anyone, when the car was stopped and put on the side of the road, I went out and bended me down to look under the car, and I can
see that the pedals are under the car?? I bend them back but I can feel it is very delicat and I have to be very careful not to injure the pedals.

In this episode I see a child put on a stick to be carried, it was done in dark red velvet like a bag where the child was sitting and then attached to the wandering stick, I was thinking what was better, to put the child between 2 sticks and carried by 2 if the balance was better, or on one stick to be carried by one....I did not solve this so I did awake me from the dream....I was thinking in the dream if the child was Buddha...

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Last night just before I fell to sleep one or more down bowed hiding their faces it looked like coverd by veil or clothings like middle easten people are dressed, I tried to comminicate
with the person/s but no answere, I asked how can I help you, if you are deceased go towards the light, then I called upon Heaven to come and help and soon they vanished..
no clue what that was.

In this episode I was guardian a sink or some kind of toilet ..I could see some kind of creatures swiming in the water, when I did for a sek lower my attention a big one did emerge and
I knew I must do something to stop this creature to exist, so i poked on it and kept it under the water, and soon it did swell and floated so I assumed it was dead....I felt that I must do
this for the greater good??..It is so against my own will, I feel everyone has the right to live, but now I got the feeling, this was my own creating....wow...now I understand, thank you.

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Last night I was in very stressed dream ..I was working in a hospital and it was time for me to go home but I couldn´t find my key to the locker where I have my privat clothings and my home keys and my money...I instantly started to cry and running around and looking for the locker key, I also asked the lady in the kiosk but nothing..So I eventually went down
to the changing-room and to my surprise I see my locker be open and the key on the floor, I couldn´t believe my eyes ...I quickly checked if my money is still there and it was...phiuuf..
what a relief, thank you.

In this episode there was a crowd of people they did block my way out from the building, they where celebrating a person but to my surprise the singing champange botle was singing in Finnish language, I did feel little bit sorry for the celebrated person because she was not from Finland and I was sure she did not understand the song at all??...So strange dream.....

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Last night I had a dream that I was in a airoplane, floating in the cabin with one other women. I saw outside floating a microphone, I said to the other women to grab it,
the windows was like a net, it was soft so she could grab the microphone without breaking the net-window, here I woke up....??

Does it mean I need to get my voice heard into the voide??

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In last night dream I was making love with a man, my sister entered the bed-room and I tried to tell her that this is a privat area, can you please leave, but she did not want
to understand and just keep going on talking, so I did become so angry and shouted to her...go out of here....and she did...I told the man that I hate my sister doing this kind
of things total dis-respect like she thinks that my life is everyones property and can be handled what ever way she thinks it fits her.....
We where near the climax and another women entered the bed-room but now I was so angry that I shouted to her....go.....and she did only come and tried to rest in the bed,
so I took her sock and pulled it out and said....out....and she went out...mostly I was surprised he could keep it up all the time as we where interupted....

I feel this was a test, if my own life was of any value to me, if I just let people walk all over me, I did my best to get som privacy, but the feeling it left in me, that I just did not do
a very good job, becuase I lost my temper....

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In last night dream I did awake in the dream by someone invading my bed, the bed was small and for one person, I did turn around to see who have come into my bed, so I had
no place to sleep on. It was a man who was looking at his cell-phone, not giving me any attention, I asked several times, who are you, what are you doing in my bed, no reaction.
I was so frustrated so I bet him on his sholder, no reaction...Now I put my hand up towards him and started to pray, please God, take this man into your glory light, now he reacted.
his mouth turned to the Munk screem, and he vaniched.
Now my perceptions was more clear and I hear other people being in my apartament, so I went up to see who they where, I sensed they to be users of both alchohol and drugs,
they where so many?? I had also my grandchild the girl she was very little, and I did see she had not have any bath for a longer period, so I said that I will pore up a bath for her,
the bath-room was strange, very old fasioned and the bath-tub was nearly full of water, heavy water?? on the wall was a switch you could switch it both at left and right, when I
switche it to the left, the water did go out with a horrible loud sound, it did make me very afraid so I looked at my right and on the wall was another switch, I did turn it to the right
and the atmoshphere did change lighter and it did make me less afraid.....but I did awoke me from the dream because it was too much to handle and understand...

I do understand that this dream is showing me both of my inner and outer life still is in big trumoile and I need more time for rest and healing....the outer life is starting to lighten up, I have got my pension, so the preassure is lighter, but my inner is still heavy and I need time to heal and I will now get that time.

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Last night I had a dream that I was walking in a pasture with a female friend to me, I did see further down a water buffalo and one oxe...there was a barn, when the creatures did see us they started to come towards us, but we where able to climb up the barn wall to escape them, and they did leave us alone.
Soon I did see a man with a power shovel molding the earth , my friend did have a key to the other building, it was like a wall, it was dividing the pasture, we had to keep an eye
on the water buffalo and the oxe to escape them, she was so nervous and did not find the right key. here I awoke myself, it was too intence.

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In my dream last night I went into stable with a young man, there was a very ill horse, the young man did hadle the horse very gentle and with very slowly gestures, he did not talk, and I felt that I must be so quiet and not make one sound...I felt that the horses nervous system was broken and if the movements was to quick or hars the horse will fall to the ground. The young man had to hand feed the horse to keep it alive and it will hopfully heal.....

If this is me on one level then I understand how injured I did become from the big beating in 1981.

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Last night in my dream I entered a class-room or likely, I had an air-inhalator in my hand, and that did caught everyones eyes, it was reportered to the prinsipla or likely,
he did come to take a peak of me, he did look at me and turned around, I felt that "someone" had lied about me, that I was total healthy, but now they did get the evidence
that I had bean telling truth all along....I felt that do it has to be dragged this far to be heard....or to be believed in my word´s?

[IA56]

I have nearly not had any Dreams after my parents passing....some nights ago I did Dream that my aunt (fathers sister) was sitting on my mother coucth in lila clothings and his husband (mothers brother) sitting on the floor and shuffle a deck of cards and he said...I am shuffling....he used this English word ....shuffling.

Last night I had a dream that I did see all kind of energy forms...I was so surprised because I only see if I focus, but now in the dream I did see with open eyes and not focusing, but what I notices
was that I was not able to communicate with them, they did do what they was doing without them seeing me??I did try very hard to catch their attention without any success.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was again back to my old stress dream´s??
I was with my sisters husband and there was a threat against us, so we found a cave beneath the surface of ground,
the one who was "hunting" us did put his head into the cave and tried to locate us, but to my surprise I noticed that
there was a enterance into the cave further down, and he did come and caught us. He did put a net over my sisters
husband and did take me with him, I tried to lighten him up and I asked if he can dance with me, he was surprised
and he did dance with me, he did melt a bit and was not that threatening or angry anymore.
He did take me to a place where he lived and left me there, he went out.
I did put more clothings on me it was winter out, I walked on a road with much snow, further down I did see him coming
back, I started to look for a escape way, his friends did come in big trucks and tried to hit me so I would die.
But I was lucky and found a house where a window was open, Indoors was an old women, I told her my dilemma and
asked for help, she said she will help me, she gave me money and called for a man to help me and take me away.
He had a big boat, and I was very suspicoius of him, I was afraid he would take me back to the one who hijacked me,
The fear in me in the dream made me to wake me up....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was again kidnapped....I was with a femal (no clue who she was) I was overpowered by an American African man, I could feel his chest-hair, and also see it was grey.
I was so afraid, OMG....is he naked??...I could not at all "feel" his body from the waist down??
The women did do something so his grip of me loosened and I took off.....I run into the bathroom and was able to lock the door....I did hold the turnable lock (you can open this kind of lock if you use a knife or something likely from the outside, but if you hold the turnable lock what is inside you can not force the lock open) and I felt he grabbed a knife and here the dream did become so intence so I awoke myself from it....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was with a women, very beautiful and stable, I had in mind that I´d like to have an relationship with her but she did not want. She said she had a gf, I suggested that we
could be friends, but no she said...I did clearly feel that she was afraid her gf will see us together and that will make trouble for her....She went to meet her gf, now she did introduce me to her
like we just bumped into each others....I did play along to save her....the gf and me was waiting for her she went home to hers because I had forgotten my cellphone there, so we where
waiting for her and now a man did approache us, I did feel my heart make a big jump....he was so gourgeous.....I at once did go further away to look for some painting, the gf did come to me
and asked what happened to me...I was not able to tell her, that the man did make so deep impression in me that I bluched....aaah the gf said...did you fell in love with him...I denied...
but she did tease me for this...and now she come and gave my cellphone discrealy to me....and the gf told her what happened......

In this dream I could very clearly feel the difference what I like....

[IA56]

In last night dream my cousin J told me that if certain things will happen then he will give his old car for free to me.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was with someone I can not say who it was, we where traveling by car everyday and took a ferry or a boat, but one day we did not be in time even we have not digressed from time, and not heard or got any information that the boat have changed time-table??
I was worried what has happened, so I said we have to go the the stop before our regular harbor, and yes this did solve it, we did make it to come ombord the boat. One day the one whom I have travelled with was sitting around a table and staring into something and was not contactable, I tapped on it´s shoulder (I say it becasue I can not say if it was a she or a he) No reaction, I tapped again and now it said, I had just one thought of my own, I was confused first but did understand that this was huge for it, this was a real revelation, to see the differece of own thought, this will make all difference from now on, I said, I have had it for a long time, now it become very angry with me, and said, I do not care how long you have had own thoughts, but mine has just started.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was wrapped in a blanket and wearing my night dress?? I went out to visit my cousin P but did all the time be disturbed
and ending up in situation of various happening, like when I went into the house to take the staires up a book-schelf was blocking my way,
so I turned around to take the elevator but in the elvevator was a women moving out of the building and she was sitting in a Wheel-chair,
telling me that she have got to know a place with much lower rent than this flat she has in this house, and she was going into the garage,
I helped her with her bag´s out of the building.
I took the elevator and reached my cousins door, someone unknown opened the door, her appartament was in disaray and I was wondering
what has happened, she told me that one of her friends with several children has moved to live with her. I appologixed me not being dressed
properly and that I felt such a urge to visit her quickly and therefore I was not dressed and was wearing my night dress.
To my surprise she was knitting a jumper with many details, I tried to ask her how much did it cost her the material and how much does she
sell it out, she did not want to tell me?? But she said, I have already sold one. It was so much work with one jumper that I was thinking that
it is not cheep the yarn to it and it will take such a long time to knit it, I tried to help her but I am so much worse in my hands that I was so
dissapointed that my knitting was so bad that it did not have the quality what it has had before.

I am sad today......

[IA56]

In last night dream I was helping my mother at her work, she was a cleaner whole her working life. I was reprimanded by her because I did clean on a area what did belong to one other cleaner, mother was so irritated and told me to stop, I did not feel it was that big matter as she did see it.
I did work very long time with a mirror what was full of poop from flies, it was hard to get real clean.

[IA56]

Last night dream is really disturbing and I just wonder what does it say??

My sister and me had taken mother at home, dead, we did put her on the couch and I did make a bed for me besides her, in the head end, it
was that I could lean my head toward mothers. I did go out of the room and when I come back my mother had taken my place, I went out
and told sister to come and look, she only shook her head and sighned to me to be silent.
I went out for a while and now when I come back mother was sitting on the couch still with closed eyes, I again went after my sister to come
and look, she only looked without saying anything, and now mother started to talk, here I awoke myself....

[IA56]

In last night seequencens the first I was walking on a road and lookin up on sky, I saw a beam of energy come towards me and hit me, I did be aware in the dream that I might project out of my body now, as usual I become to exited and now I lost my awareness but I awoke when I was
flying towards a car and now I closed my eyes and I went throgh it...

and now I was into a new seequence....I walked towards a food-shop,
out of the shop came an old co-worker to me, she did see me but was not sure if she wanted to talk to me so I said Hi, and she asked if I
was living here and I said yes.

Here I entered a somekind of collective living, I hear an infant crying and I walk to see what is going on, in the room is a father with his small
child both wearing a inhalator mask, the child cry no, no, no....I walk to face him and take his tiny foot and say, when you cry this much
it will take so much longer before the medicin will help, now the child stops crying and the father sighnals to me to stay, I make a bed for
the Child but he want´s me to also sleep with him so I lye me down and the child at once falls to sleep.

Here in this seequence I was sleeping in my bed and was again hit by the energy beam, and now I said I want the one who is this strong in his
energies to manifest, and to my surprise I see a man sitting besides me in my bed, and he puts his finger to my mouth to be quiet.....

In this seequence I was standing in a cue in a café when a man with a huge German sheperd dog enters the café, the dog spottes me and comes
so near me that I feel it total invasive, I tell the owner to take the dog away, but he does nothing, he feels that if he say to the dog to leave me alone he has offended the dog´s feeling....where ever I move my self the dog followes me and sits so near me that I can´t breath, he is so huge, but he does not be agressive but only invasive, total invasive ...

It was a busy night :-)

[IA56]

In last night dreams I was in another location, I knew in the dream that it is another location, I was with others in a car, but we had to drive inside
another big it was like a boat or likely, every car had it´s own cage, I was looking up into eyes of the one who loaded this car´s, and he did nod
at me that we have to drive inside this vechile.....

In this seequenze I was carrying my grown up child, we have bean in Finland visiting family, and they did never tell us that there will be a selebration to the uncles house, so I find myself and my son alone left behind, and not told where they went, so I took my son in my arms
because he was so ill and not able to walk I had to carry him, when we are walking towards the uncles house we have to pass it to go to
the buss station, my aunt U does recognize what has happened, and she is so in shame, and she does shout to us to come and be with
them, but I said we have to take the bus to make it to the train to go home, she is now little bit agitated that she did this with the others,
against us, so she arranges someone to drive us to the town to our train.....

In this seequenze I was told that I had bean an hard worker....and I know I have.

[IA56]

In last night dream I had full confidence in myself, it felt odd, I who always is so unsure and afraid, felt so confident, it felt good but stange,
It will take time to adabt to this feeling.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was back to my aunt´s house to clean it up, I has few who helped me, I found a yellow rosett, and I said this I have to carry
downstairs, I noticed before the staires there was a string placed near the floor, if you go downstairs at night you will trip on the stairs?? I noticed this but did not say anything for not to judge in wrong way, the persons who helped me asked if he was a psychopath, I did not answer, I only said, I see there has been put poinson on the floors so do not put your fingers in your eyes or mouth. In the kitchen whas my mother and I showed her the bow and she said to put it in a plastic bag.....

I know what this is about, it is about the 1980-81.....

[IA56]

Last night I have just fall to sleep I was awaken by first hearing some noice that catched my attention, it was pitch black but a light flached and I could see a symbol I can´t say that I can tell how it looked like, but it awoke such a trememdeous fear that I was clear awake at once.
I now started to listen and feel if someone was in my apartament, but it was none there, it was this "dream" that made me afraid.??

Then rest of the night was me like arguing with several persons, it was an atmospher of teasing each others....this is very unusual feeling for me, and it is hard for me to tell how it felt....like one person who liked the cat Garfield and he is holding the comic book in his hand little bit hiding it from me, and I go...so juvenile....so not me at all....or maybe very, but I did not recognize as feeling me ...or this part is unknown yet to myself??...

[IA56]

Yesterday I started to say, I want to know more about my future...and this thought did be in mind the whole day, so when I went to bed to sleep last night, first I started to se images like a film but very distant, so I tried to see, but it was not seeable at all, so I give up, but my dream was like this; I went to gynecolog and I asked to tell me if there is something wrong, she took a swap stick and did dig deep, and the stick was black, she did look little bit worried but tried her best not to make me start to worry to much, so in the dream I was getting back flachbacks of the film before my sleep and I could see this seequence now clearly...so I felt that okay, it was this and that I now can trust more subtle images too, I can both see and feel right.

[IA56]

The only thing I remember from my dream last night is this: I was inside a huge building, I was following some one out from the building,
I see it open the door out of the building, I feel the frech breeze but the door closes just infront of me and I was not able to forse it open??

Back ground info from waken reality: I had to go to emergency yesterday because I erupted a dominal muscel by only sitting on a exercycle and not at all forcing but pedal very slowly and gentle, my body is giving in, I can not do anything at all without injuries, I do long to go home, so I feel this dream did show me it is not yet time for me to go home.

[newfreedom]

The only thing I remember from my dream last night is this: I was inside a huge building, I was following some one out from the building,
I see it open the door out of the building, I feel the frech breeze but the door closes just infront of me and I was not able to forse it open??

Back ground info from waken reality: I had to go to emergency yesterday because I erupted a dominal muscel by only sitting on a exercycle and not at all forcing but pedal very slowly and gentle, my body is giving in, I can not do anything at all without injuries, I do long to go home, so I feel this dream did show me it is not yet time for me to go home.

:grouphug:

[IA56]

In last night dream a person run to me and held a cellphone in it´s hand and told me that my mother is trying to call me....
I am very happy to have this dream, as my mother is not with us longer so she is trying to contact from the other side, this makes me very very happy....

[IA56]

Last night dream was to show me that I am more in control of my body and life...my abuser from my childhood grabbed me around my thies and lifted me up into his arms... I had many of my relatives around seeing what happened... no one reacted...I first did keep me total kind.... I said...put me down you should be careful about your heart... as he had have heart trouble...but he just carried me around and then he tried to kiss my leg... as I saw his mouth coming nearer my leg I said firmly....back off...I will hit you...I had curled my pointing finger against my thumb, and was ready to give him a notch on his forhed.... this would be so hard that it would have injured him.... so he backed off.....he really did not understand that I fighted against him and did not let this happen.... so I can say that he has no clue still what harm he has done.... and inplanted such a fear in me with his behavings against me as a child....he is as intimitating still to me as he was in my childhood....he did decease for several years ago.... I couldn´t go to his funeral at all.

[IA56]

I had a dream this morning that one ex-bf came to me and said that we shall drive with my car, suddenly I was sitting in the back seat and I looked who is driving my car and who is sitting on the front seat, it was some women I did not know who she was. We arrived to a strange place with much car´s both big and small, suddenly they vaniched with my car and left me behind. After a while I started to ask what place it is, and they told me it is a place where you can cell your car. I went angry and shouted I cancle the deal, why do you not ask for ID to see if it is the owner, I am the owner of the car and I will not cell it...I spotted the ex-bf and I run to him to ask what was he thinking, why would he do this behind my back?? but he run away and I let him run....it took very long time but I got back my car.

[IA56]

What does it mean my last night dream, I found my mother in a room with only a crate cot with bars and my mother sleeping in it. I awoke her and said, have you come back, now you have no home left to live in?? I started to make plans where to put my mother and I said she can come to live with me....but she did not listen but behaved as she did when living, I will not go into that....but what does this dream mean??--The crate cote with bars was my sons when he was a baby?? I have given it away to my aunt who did have a baby born several years after the her other childeren and my son was so big that did not need the bed.

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt that someone gave me a golden ring in shape of a elephant?? I did also lost my cellphone and had in my trousors pockets one in each of the pockets a devise totally unknown to me..I looked at the devises it looked like small hand controlls to tv or dvd recorders??

[IA56]

Last night Dream was uncomfortable for me, I was walking with a man and a women, the man was so completely crazy and furious about how with good luck the women have had, he said.....Everything she does totally succeeds, I am so angry about that....I felt his anger and was worried about that he will hurt the women so I said...Haven´t you heard that eventually everyone will meet dÃ♥saster even she will, she looked at me with disapointment in her eyes, I tried to communicate to her that I have to say this so he will not hurt you, but this was my thought and I saw that she did not understand, but I was more fokused to calm down the man so he will not go after her in his anger and jelousy....I awoke myself before I had the chance to talk to her and tell her with by talking to her.....I just couldn´t be in that dream longer....His anger and frustration nearly killed me......

[IA56]

Do not remember my dreams from the night, but I saw in the middle state before wakening, I was looking up and I saw a girls wiggeling her feets she was sitting on the air...and white cyllabells floating on the air...I did get my fokus too late to see the message ...

Then it changed to me loading luggage into a car trunk cover and the car tilted to the left so I jumped high and was clear awake...

Something is changing in me....it is like atmosphere is holding breath.....

[IA56]

Only thing I remember from my dreams is that I had a massive nouse bleed...very dark blood came from the right nostrile more lighter red blood from the left nostrile.....my mother said....this must to be stopped.....

[susan]

IA, I hope you don't mind me commenting here but as soon as I saw your post I thought of a Mudra.
Reason being,

Light red blood suggests oxygenated blood
Dark red blood suggests blood with little or no oxygen.( got rid of oxygen....in nostril?)
A Mudra as you know is the sealing off of one nostril, sealing off the oxygen flow from one nostril at a time.

I always find things come in riddles to be worked out. The fact that you were told to stop this may just be part of the riddle to stop the oxygen/air flow.

You've started back up the throat friction technique again and I wonder if this is just a little hint to help you along?

[IA56]

IA, I hope you don't mind me commenting here but as soon as I saw your post I thought of a Mudra.
Reason being,

Light red blood suggests oxygenated blood
Dark red blood suggests blood with little or no oxygen.( got rid of oxygen....in nostril?)
A Mudra as you know is the sealing off of one nostril, sealing off the oxygen flow from one nostril at a time.

I always find things come in riddles to be worked out. The fact that you were told to stop this may just be part of the riddle to stop the oxygen/air flow.

You've started back up the throat friction technique again and I wonder if this is just a little hint to help you along?

No Susan I do not mind, I really am happy for all help I can get.
I am sorry but I do not know what Mudra is?
I have not studied any tequenics what so ever, I have done for short periods with mantras, but that was for some months and it was nothing for me. But this thorat (throat )friction tequenice is more my cup of tea....so I am going to do it for a longer period.
So I´d like you to be more specific with what you are saying...I do not get it, yet, please.
So do you say that the nostrile with the dark blood is blocked and no oxygen goes through it?
This throat friction method does get my whole body engaged, it is fantastic.

Love
ia

[susan]

A Vishnu Mudra is alternate nostril breathing, closing off one nostril as you breath in through the other. Then you close off the other and breath through the nostril.

Here's a couple of links.

http://sacred-earth.typepad.com/yoga/2008/07/mudras-for-pranayama.html


http://www.expandinglight.org/anandayoga/vishnu-mudra.php

I don't mean to imply you have a blockage, it was just the oxygenated blood from one nostril and the de- oxygenated blood from the other that got me thinking in that direction.
I realy don't know much on this , just what I read but I think this may be done before you start your throat friction meditation. ( 3-5 minutes)
Maybe someone here with better knowledge can add something.

[IA56]

A Vishnu Mudra is alternate nostril breathing, closing off one nostril as you breath in through the other. Then you close off the other and breath through the nostril.

Here's a couple of links.

http://sacred-earth.typepad.com/yoga/2008/07/mudras-for-pranayama.html


http://www.expandinglight.org/anandayoga/vishnu-mudra.php

I don't mean to imply you have a blockage, it was just the oxygenated blood from one nostril and the de- oxygenated blood from the other that got me thinking in that direction.
I realy don't know much on this , just what I read but I think this may be done before you start your throat friction meditation.
Maybe someone here with better knowledge can add something.

Thank you Susan :heart:

Love
ia

[IA56]

In last night dream I was driving a car, I did drive on very high speed and suddenly I see a a car driving from the oppisite side, I drive on the left side of the road, the first thought was, they have the sighn to give preceed but then I noticed it is a 4 cross road and it is the same for me, so I hit the breaks and did succeed to stop the car in time.

[IA56]

Last night I had a dream with my grandchild J...he was little and I hugged him and saying...grannys darling....and I shock him gentle and that made him laugh...so I did it repetedly...and it was so nice to see him so happy and hear his laughter.....thank you.

[IA56]

In last night dreams my son was small like 3 yrs old...he was so sad...and I knew why....the abuse what has happened and I was not there to protect him...I asked to know for sure what he was sad about...and he comfirmed that it was the abuse...I told him how sorry I was to not be able to protect him...and he felt good to hear this...and I said...it was in the past...it is not so now...and I tried him to notice the difference...and that he is safe now...and that he can let go of the past.....

In this episode I was visiting a doctor...to my surprise it was the actor Peter Stormare...he was very flirty...and our lips did touch because he was turning his office chair with wheels ..he swept around that our lips touched...he did become embarresed...and when I looked straight into his eyes he did blusch...he talked about some substance what would benefit me...and he did drop his focus when our eyes did meet...so he asked what he was talking about..so I reminded him about the substance he wanted me to be aware of ...but I do not remember it now in awaked state...pitty...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was in a classroom...we where prepearing us for a written test to take place...I tried to figure out what kind of test it was coming up...I had not studied any subject so I had no clue what test it would be...I was thinking if I will pull if off...but I woke up before the test started...

[IA56]

Last night dream I was with 2 person they had a boat and we where going out to fish...I was sitting on top of the boat in a chair what was plased on a spring steel, it had a range of very wide how it could bend...I shouted...put out the net...and I did see how the net did be filled with fish...and I said...drag in the net....we did get the whole net of fish....they said...come down...they where standing on the deck...but I did not dare to do that it was so high up...so I bended the chair and said to she/he to help me, to grab the chair when I came down with it and help me out of it...I did climb down and held on she/he and we have to jump the rest to the deck...it felt in my whole body..but I managed with she/he´s help...the other one was preparing a sigh with the price of the fish we where going to the market to sell the fish...the one who helped me down started to make sandwiches to us to have with us to the market....

[IA56]

Last night dream was strange...I hear myself say....the girl must have had an understanding with the zombie....??

In this episode I was talkning to my cousin O...I showed my purse and told him he can take what he needs from it...it was only things you could eat...?? I told him that this helps me to keep my focus??

[IA56]

I hear someone saying....have bean there for the last 10 years....