GMAN12

It is amazing what some people go through to finally realize they are in a dream world where anything is possible. It took me 15 years to realize that same thing. I also know it had popped into my head many times, yet only now I take hold of it. I mostly think it was something major in my mind to figure it out because of all the trauma. I want to start my blog post with a little about me and how I awakened to this path of enlightenment.

I remember the first time I found out about magic and that was through people healing as well as stories told by my family. I recall the time my Great Grandmother died. It was genuine. She had a real story to tell, but I never got to hear the whole thing. I heard parts over the years. One was that her parents were both mediums and healers. She herself was into the Mormon church. She had an unshakeable faith and did work not caring about herself. She was very unselfish. I clearly remember the day she died. My grandma told me about that night when she could clearly see my Great Grandma. She put a veil over me so I could not see her. To this day, I have no idea how she did it. I really think she was a fully realized and ascended being. This was my first major experience. The next is when my grandma told me of an out of body experience she had in which she was floating up and out of the ceiling. I thought that was cool. This added to my belief a lot more. Next was a couple of years later when I started to question my faith, question my church. I felt some things in my church were wrong. I was wondering what is so bad about using my left hand to do things, why only boys like me get the priesthood? I had many questions that were left unanswered. This got me thinking and I started to ponder and eventually forgot about it. Another experience is this time my grandma talked about a healer. He was from Korea and had a 9th degree black belt in taekwando. It was amazing to meet him. He also was a healer. I could tell he scanned me and was also using a pendulum for divination. He would find a disharmony in my body and fixed it. To this day, I have not had any horrible asthma attack. After all these experiences, I had one thing left between me and awakening which I felt was totally necessary to make me wake up. I would say I had to go through extreme depression. I thought this was truly the test I had to take. I tried to kill myself many times and even was taken to a hospital. I stayed there for a week. I was thinking again. My body started to shake very often. I had strange dreams. I had an out of body experience. I wanted to reproduce this very badly and ended up at Robert's website, astral dynamics. I actually got the book about a year back. I was into the Dalai Lama. I heard of him talking of one of his speeches and decided to go look at some comments. One of the comments listed Robert Bruce and Initiation Into Hermetics into the same sentence. I thought about the book, looked it up on Amazon, read reviews telling me I have to be a certain age. I got discouraged by that, but something was telling me I should get it. Eventually, I did. The first day I got the book, I looked inside. It told me that I would be disappointed with getting rich or power and I closed the book for a week and thought about it. I read through the book and saw some things against my religion or were demonic. Ultimately, I gave up those beliefs and figured out it was a defense mechanism for the weak minded. I am now on step four. My life immensely changed since I got this book. I joined communities like this one, the hermetics forum, and the river of enlightenment. I am glad I made the choice. I still have much to learn as I just started my journey. I hope to fill up my blog with tons of my experiences over the years to see how I progressed. Well, that is it. This is a little about me. Thank you for reading!
Also all my chakras are opened, I just need to raise my kundalini.