Enigma

[[[-PART ONE-]]]


I just wanted to post here a collection of the posts I've made (so far) in my dream journal on my experience of astral projection. Experience will be numbered from first (1) to last. I may add comments or my conclusions in italics underneath (either when I post this or at a later date).


***NOTE: THIS MAY BE VERY LONG.***






•[ AP EXPERIENCES: ]•




1. VERY FIRST TIME I TRIED.


Entry:


"So I'm listening to this binaural beats tape on DELTA (2.5HZ) and I guess I fell asleep because I was having this crazy dream about chocolate bars and swimming... But then all of the sudden THAT dream cut short. I was lying down and everything was buzzing just like they said it would. My head was heavy and pulsing. At first I looked down at my arms and legs and they were blurry and shaking (my vision shaking) and I knew I was starting to astral-ize my experience. Then my legs started to float a bit above my real legs, and I kinda let that happen for a moment, so excited that it was actually happening. But then I looked at the walls and they were dark and weird so it freaked me out and I went back in. Then I layed there and told myself I was being silly and tried again. I waited for it to start and let my limbs float. Then I sort of sat up/floated up a bit after feeling my head getting heavier and then letting go. I was OUT! I looked around and marvelled at the beauty... Looked at my hand and saw amazing blue/green nails and vibrant everything else. But I still felt a tad but heavy so I tried going through the wall. (To get away from my body). THAT WAS SO F***ING COOL. It's like you can FEEL THE WALL but it's also permeable. Like water. I don't remember much of what happened while I was out, but I know that I came back at least 3 or 4 times by accident and tried again... I floated out of the ceiling once, floating through objects just to FEEL their energy, etc. I saw a house that looked like ours but wasn't as I left my actual house - it had elements of THIS house, our old houses, and things we never had but were cool. I went around the block once, I saw what I THOUGHT WAS MY BROTHER AND MOM but not sure if they were and was weirded out when they could see me. I played with my cat & astral versions of my cat, and so much more (wish I could remember). Then the last time I came back to my body I tried taking off my headphones and REPEATEDLY TOOK THEM OFF but then they were still ON afterwards. I started freaking out thinking I couldn't wake up from this (don't know why, I had my alarm set after all). I was giving my body crap, saying WAKE UP, WTF! WAAAKE UP!!! But nothing worked. My astral limbs still moved without my real limbs and anything I did to wake myself up wasn't working. Then I thought to check the time on my phone to see if it was OK to still be sleeping. My phone said 4:50 for some reason (I knew it was PM) and I started having a panic attack about not being able to wake up and pick ISAAC up from school. My pulse started racing, I flung my hands around and threw myself backwards into my body and then.... I WAS AWAKE FOR REALZ. Everything started coming back into focus, the darkness of the astral realm faded into reality and I was awake. My head still buzzing and heavy, I took my headphones off and sat there with a grin for a little while. Then, I wrote THIS.


Note: the way things looked at first in the astral realm was so cool. It was like spectacular fireworks tunnel vision... But instead of darkness around the image, there were moving lines going straight into what I was looking at. I looked at my hand and the colours were so vibrant and exaggerated. I want to paint it. This was the most vivid..... Well ANYTHING that I've EVER EXPERIENCED. Also: Andrew was outside when I first saw him, throwing dishes in a strange door to a brick building... And then inside. And mom was inside somewhere."




1(b). Possible Projection (dream overlay)


Entry:


"I had a good dream but forgot it BECAUSE I DIDNT WRITE IT DOWN RIGHT AWAY. But I do remember a second dream where I was floating sort of, like my head was where it was supposed to be but the rest of my body was floating upwards and rolling inward, like an acrobat (without gravity lol!). I had a thought about how it felt exactly like astral projection except I was only seeing one body (not two, one superimposed over the other like last time), and the background/surroundings either were whited out or blurred. ALSO I was naked, JUST LIKE I REALLY WAS (went to bed naked). I woke up after that. I REALLY WISH I could have taken that further. ((...."




2. Second OBE - THE CRAZY ASTRAL VORTEX!


Entry:


"(Dream first) - I was in a backyard of some house and in a cool treehouse with interesting seats that were made from the tree itself (connected too), and for some reason decided that I had to use the "toilet" in the treehouse. Just before I pulled down my pants a Chinese lady and her young kid came around and say on the grass creepily watching me, so I stopped and came down. Then my mom, ISAAC, and mama came over (don't remember why). I remember finding this weird inhaler that was a cross between a toy, camera, watch, and inhaler and knew it belonged to the Chinese people and threw it on the ground. Then ISAAC and I sat on the grass beside a fence and looked under it, seeing weird stuff and crystal-like formations on the other side. I reached under and broke off a crystal piece and took it.... Then for some reason I got in an argument with my mom about something and shortly after I woke up, but didn't move or open my eyes.


My mind started going back to the dream but then I remembered I wanted to try projecting, so I concentrated on a memory of a dream I had where I started floating into the air, feet first, and within seconds was out of my body!!!


When I first got out of my body I couldn't see - but it was OK, I remembered reading that sometimes this happens. I flipped over myself (as if my head was stuck in place but my body kept trying to exit) and eventually my head came out too. I pushed upwards towards the ceiling and realized that something started pushing me gently to the side. I rode what seemed like a gentle wave for a minute and realized that I was going in a circle - I was being pulled around in a big circle in my room, the centre of it was the couch (found that out after) where I was sleeping peacefully. I tried to open my eyes but instead my PHYSICAL EYES opened, so I quickly gave up the attempt and went back to riding the vortex. It was getting faster and faster.
Eventually my vision started to return in what seemed like fragmented pieces, almost like a FLY's or bee's vision, which morphed into regular astral vision. I watched everything flying past me as I continued to circle over and over again until I noticed an odd shape moving near the back of the couch - I looked again and it seemed like a semi-transparent black and white miniature entity. I forcefully told the vortex to STOP, to END, which did nothing, so I turned my attention on the perceived entity. Parts of it seemed solid and other parts, transparent... Which I found odd. The transparency changed a little over time. I told the entity to stop this and it came out from behind the couch and looked at me, as if confused or curious. I tried to create a force field of light, an energy weapon, while swirling.... All of which failed. Eventually the vortex got to fierce that I was spinning wildly around at all angles and flailing, so every time I went near the entity I flung my arms out at it and tried to grab at it. The entity shrunk back in fear and for one moment I came to the realization that no matter what I did, I couldn't stop my continuously spinning astral body from flailing out of control, and I started to really freak out. I was slung back to my body and awoke suddenly."




3. Short Third OBE.


Entry:


"So after leaving a dream (that I can't seem to remember), I started to leave my body (after visualizing myself floating up like before) and again I couldn't see. I forcefully tried to push myself up and ended up moving but also kinda moved my physical body. I heard a coke can clink somewhere so I'm assuming my physical body whipped my arm out and knocked over my drink lol! Anyway I got up and tried to "feel" my way around, even though I go THROUGH things. This is where my dreamscape started to force itself over my projection, I think. Because a minute later I felt something semi-hard behind me and I had the strangest feeling that it was a person and then a couple of other things were solid (not supposed to be). I freaked out thinking there was someone there and went back to my body and woke up. .... Wish it could've been better!~•"



[[[-CONTINUED IN PART 2-]]]