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Two days ago I bought the raising kundalini program. I started to watch the video yesterday. I tried the body awareness and tactile imaging exercices. I did it in my hands and I was surprised to feel energy. After thos exercises I coudl feel my "nerves". I mean it was like someone would pinch my nerves. I guess that's mean I have blocages. My big problem is that my body awareness rely heavily on my eyes. My eyes move when I do brushing, sponging, stiring, they follow the movement of the strokes :-(.
I need to work on this...

I used Iching to ask if I will be able to raise my kundalini.
The reply was the hexagram 51 : SHOCK. Meaning : SHOCK brings success. Shock comes-oh, oh!
Laughing words -ha, ha!
The shock terrifies for a hundred miles,
And he does not let fall the sacrificial spoon and chalice.
The hexagram is the Tchen . The eldest son took command with energy and power. A yang line appears in two yin lines and exerts a powerful upward thrust . This movement is so violent that it arouses terror but there is no harm done. There is laughs after fear. Its thunder picture that springs from the earth and whose shock causes fear and trembling...I take this for a positive reply.

Wish u all the best on your way. No need to hurry just take your time and it will be fine. �� in one year you will feel a big difference ��

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Originally Posted by WhiteMonkey

Wish u all the best on your way. No need to hurry just take your time and it will be fine. �� in one year you will feel a big difference ��

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Thank you WhiteMonkey! I have to be patient and keep a positive mind. it's a marathon not a sprint. :-)

Since my Iast post I read all the post about energy work and I tried to practice everydays. It's so weird sometimes it's easy and sometimes it's just awfully slow and I feel tired. I tried to concentrate on my feet and my hands but sometimes one hour of work is very long. But I won't give up. I make progress because now I just think about my feet and they start buzzing.I realized that I perform better the morning not so much the night.

It's easy for me to close my eyes and think that I'm blind since birth and the only way I can think about my body is with my hands. So I close my eyes and I ask to myself : If I'm blind since birth how would my foot feels? so I start to decribe my foot with my sense of touch : my toes are slim, my sole is not as soft as the back of my foot,... I feel my imaginary hands runing through my body part and I describe what I feel. This really help activate sensation.

My main problem is that my body awareness is still attached to my eyes! When I do brushing I can feel my eye go back and forth. How can I stop this?

Intresting. Try to totally rrlax your body before energy work the next time. Use the techniques in roberts book if u have it ornsearch some here in the forum. That normally helps a lot

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Originally Posted by frolein972

My big problem is that my body awareness rely heavily on my eyes. My eyes move when I do brushing, sponging, stiring, they follow the movement of the strokes :-(.
I need to work on this...

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That used to happen to me when I started it and Brian told me to try doing it with my eyes open- and it worked very well. Once I was able to control it, I was able to do it with my eyes closed.

Thank you for your WhiteMonkey! I bought the "energy work" book very helpful. Someone said on this forum to try to do energy work with open eyes in the dark. So I try and its work pretty well. In fact, I just put a dark bed sheet on my head lol I live in a very sunny country and I didn't wan't to wait the night. ;-) I think I will work this way from now.

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Originally Posted by CFTraveler

That used to happen to me when I started it and Brian told me to try doing it with my eyes open- and it worked very well. Once I was able to control it, I was able to do it with my eyes closed.

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Hello CFTraveler!
I do it better with closed eyes and my eyes move way less. I tried to pratice global view too. That's mean if I imagine a ball runing through my fingers, hand palm and arm I do it with eyes open but I won't move my eyes. I became aware of something. when I highlight a body zone on the right the left is more easy to work , I don't even need to scratch it.

I tried to experiment with a donut blue shape instead of a blue ball. Don't know why but this give me strong sensation. I imagine and feel this ring shape running along my arm. I I put the hand through the hole of the donut then I feel the hole get smaller enough to adapt to the shape of my hand. it's even better if you can size the hole too small like the edge of the hole will be under your skin. I think this stimulate the outside and the inside of the energetic body. I tried it on my upper arm and but my eye brow chakra felt very heavy.
I think it can help if you have trouble with sponging. put your hands through the hole of the donut shape. feel the shape runing back and forth then close the hole of the donut. From now I will perform the ball and the donut shape.