It's kind of hard to explain

I am not sure exactly how to explainit, it is just something you feel. Like I am out of tune. My pieces all fit together I should feel fine spiritually and I am a very spiritual person. I have read a little ( very little ) on aura manipulation, and I am sure I should read more, the problem is I am also feeling blocked by someone or something, like I am being prevented form tapping my own spiritual source. Altough lately I have been feeling less of this as though things are "shifting " in my favor finally. I am very interested though in learning how all of this happens so I can keep this from happening to me in the future.
Thank you,