Kundalini Problem

Hi all,
I'm a new member here but a longtime lurker great site btw

First off a bit about my kundalini experencies, i had my first spontanous kundalini experience in mid 2005 one night when i had just gone to bed and it was major, it blew my mind i had no idea what was going on, i had never really meditated or even knew what kundalini was about.

It started off my seeing the entire universe as a single cell type structure that kept poping in and out of existance, i became so to speak this single cell type structure so it felt like i was popping in and out of existance, then followed some intense obe, which i had never done before apart from a couple of lucid dreams.
I've read many stories on forums about feeling and moving energy upwards, i never remember feeling anything like that for the first 6-7 months, it just happened boom so to speak.

Over the next 2 weeks i had about another 2-3 kundalini experinces which where basically intense obe's i met a one of my spirit guides who was there to help in my chakra balancing, i had no idea whats that was at the time.

Many many other simmiler events happend over the next few months until around march/april 2006 when i had the what i call the major one, when i mearged/became one when the source/christ conciousness or what ever you call it, my exprience was very simmler to roberts experince that i came across on the net (thats how i found this site btw)

I've never had any other major kundalini everts happen after that, i have had obe's and talked to my spirit guides.

Fast forward to today my mind is a mess so to speak, i have rapid moods swings, which include violent thoughts, my mind is racing at a 1000 miles an hour, its becoming difficult to watch a movie/read a book or internet pages because my mind is always on other things this really is becoming a problem.


My mother is a medium and a reki master so i'm lucky in some respect that i can talk to her although she's not had any kundalini events so she doesn't fully understand it from my point of view.
I've tried meditation it does work but i can't always meditate during day to day activaties.



Any insight help will be most welcome.


Thanks
Sean

Hey Sean.
It does seem you are going through some rough stuff. I have a couple of questions-
How old are you, and
About how long ago did this confusion/mood swings start or change?

Hi CFTraveler,
These rapid mood swings, racing mind have pretty much started in the past couple of months.
I did however notice in the middle of last year that i became very very irritable and could loose my cool at the drop of a hat, and that continued up until the past couple of months, its pretty much still there but not as bad.
I've often wondered if this is a progression of that.
I'm 39 btw.

Cheers
Sean

Has anything external changed? Job, family situation?

I lost my job although it was only a temp position, and i hated it anyway, i was glad to be honest.
Family situation is pretty much the same, i ended my relationship with my gf last april.

Well, I'm sure you've heard that some mediums/channelers/etc. are speaking of something that's gearing up to happen- I tend to think that it's going to be some kind of massive 'ascension'- not so much a rapture-like event as some seem to think, but a massive jump in spiritual awakening. I personally think that it started some time ago- and because of the progress in manifesting power of the collective, all kinds of things are coming to the fore- and some of us, who have been having experiences (of all kinds) are finding themselves being swept in the mass flow of this, so to speak.
Aunt Clair speaks of a collective ascension, and even though I consider myself more of an observer than anything else, I see it around me, and I experience some of this stuff.
So take this chaotic manifestation event, put in someone who has the kind of home life who allows for an open mind (and acceptance of these things we experience but others deny), and then throw in some stress of the 'regular kind'- relationship & job- and you got yourself a heck of a cocktail.
Experience has taught me that when you are in a situation that you're used to, and you end it, there is a series of conflicting things coming out- the relief of not being in a bad situation anymore, and the loss of direction- the 'adrenaline crash' of the 'newly liberated'. Sometimes we get used to stress and when it goes away, we don't know what to do. Human nature, I suppose.
I don't have any advice other than keep on trying to live your life knowing that things will change, and find someone to talk to, and talk their head off.
Sometimes it's all it takes- I'm sure others will have more 'proactive' advice (like if you can't meditate try tai chi, for example) or words of wisdom.
All I got is empathy.
I wish you well.

Thanks for the kind words

Take care
Sean

Hi Sean,
I Suggest you listen to Jeffrey Thompson's Awakened Mind series...and theta meditation cd. This will balance you out.


Integrating the Schismed Self
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