Nursing babies

Think one of four short dreams just may have been some kind of teaching dream.
I'm sitting in the aisle seat of an airplane and someone ( teacher) is standing infront of everybody facing us and tells us all to look ahead.
The cockpit door is open and we can see the clouds through the cockpit window from where we are. As the instruction is to look others get up in the aisle to look but I stay seated. I had thought we were coming into land and they should have kept their seatbelt on but the teacher just encouraged them to look ahead.
We weren't landing and the sight was amazing to see the nose of the aircraft cut through the white puffy clouds outside. I still felt the amazement as I woke.

This may be my problem currently of focusing in the brow. I'm not still enough and keep changing my mind after a few minutes to start trying to visualise something.
I wonder if this was related to the scene where someone was axing through a blackboard making geometric patterns at the same time. He was cutting through to the other side of a blackboard?.

Just want to note here for reference.
Just slowly wakening from a dream and going through the process of recalling this which was just to do with daily life when....
Image of news flash on top of I pad as it pops up across the top and thought

" Jesus around 200 killed".

There was no image with this other than I pad.
Also just noting the thought word Jesus was not thought as we may say in astonishment to something. Just 4 words thought out with no emotion involved.

Also previously early morning heard myself say " Have you met the light?" "I am the light."
( probe just self talk within a dream)

Yesterday had been a day from hell. It had started with me picking up as soon as I woke

" Today is going to be a very special day ."

Then I analysed a dream which had involved me with a child crossings a road to watch a parade passing. They were the Queen's men infront of the carriage in the distance.They had a long line like a rope that extended to the carriage and it was their job to keep it straight. A piece infront of me got bent. The young boy with me put his head underneath the rope and commented that his head was upside down.The rope was straightened with their rod and the procession carried on. End of dream.

So my thoughts were that the queen has been used 2-3 times and reference always seems to be someone high up very important and I link it to higher self. Could be wrong but that's how I think of a queen.
Couldn't understand the rope but message from higher self or someone that today was going to be a very special day.
My day was in one of the care homes. Full of my lovely adorable cuddly elderly people.

Within 10 mins of arriving I had an elderly gentleman shouting at me because I wouldn't do something . Then he wanted me to fasten his slipper that was a slip on slipper. I was useless, selfish and uncaring.
Rescued by a carer who attended to him.

But hey, it didn't matter because today was going to be a special day!
( could I be going to see someone's aura, hear clairaudiently while working?)

An hour later a lady who was being held by two carers got angry with me because I must have hurt her. She screamed, lashed out and threw all my instruments on the floor.

But it didn't matter because today was going to be a special day!

I walked a lady slowly back to the lounge. So slow almost stop. She held onto the handrail for support all the way back. We stopped at a teddy bear that had been placed on the rail but it was upside down so the face was under the rail. I had to wait and wait and wait whilst she tried to turn it back the right way. ( this reminded me of the above piece about the young boy I was with who put his head under the rope and was upside down) But I quickly dismissed this thought because this was nothing about patience and understanding and everything that comes with compassion and all the things we try to achieve. No !

Because today was going to be a special day and I had expectations of my own.

By the end of the day I was exhausted, frustrated, fed up, hadn't had a single hug or smile. Everyone was so high dependency and in a mood. I was pleased that I hadn't just packed up and gone home , pleased that I hadn't shown my annoyance but dissapointed that all day my thoughts had been that I wanted to pack up and no body appreciated what I was doing for them. Even one lady turned round and smiled and thanked the carer. I was the bad guy .I hadn't had any nice surprise that could be classed as special.

I should have remembered that things come in riddles. I feel I was tested to the limit here and on the outside I held my composure and showed all the patience and compassion but failed miserably with my thoughts.

Found this on the site posted 8 years ago. Published by Robert.
I think it is an excellent article to keep on hand and be reminded of.


More from Koala on the enlightenment process*



The process of enlightenment started at an early age for me.* I was fortunate to have a mother who nurtured the habit of self-reflection as apposed to blame and self-justification and deflection.* If I was in a tough situation, I needed to ask how I contributed to it, or even why I had attracted it into my life.

At first, it is annoying.** You want to come home and vent about a bully at school, but then your mother starts talking about the household conditions that create bullies and how lucky I am not to have to live in the horrible conditions in which they often live.

If I would argue that they did not have it so bad, she would take another route, asking why I would take to heart what a wounded person would say to me.* She forced me to think at every turn and never allowed me to cheap out or blame. I say blame is cheap because it requires no insight, no strength of character.* It is the way of anger and resentment, which is cheap in that it avoids all responsibility and self growth, and is hence costly.* Anger consumes valuable life energy.

Initiation is a process whereby one is challenged and tested by life, and by spirit. This can provide a new spiritual beginning. It is like being reborn to a new spiritual life.

All roads lead to this. The wowness that permeates the New Age movement is often derided as something distasteful and unspiritual and naïve. But these things all eventually lead to spiritual paths of growth. This is impossible to avoid.

Enlightenment is a process where you reclaim your energies.* Many people are unaware of the energy they waste on judgment, criticism of self and others, anger and resentment, and other negative stuff.* Significant shifts in your energy body occur during enlightenment.* These shifts in energy signal you are ready for Initiation.* These things can be said to ‘trigger’ initiation.

My mother did me a great service, preventing me from being hard on others, but she could not hear how hard I was on my self, and thus could not correct this.* That was my job. But first I had to become aware of how hard I was being on myself, and how I was allowing others to use this flaw to manipulate me. This continued to shape my life for many years to come.

For me, the process of enlightenment started in earnest with the clock exercise.* This is a Hermetic training exercise, from Franz Bardon’s classic book ‘Initiation Into Hermetics’. I would sit and stare at the tip of a second hand on a clock.* As long as my eyes remained sharply focused on the tip I had a clear mind, but the moment thoughts entered my mind my vision blurred.* Our thoughts do that....they blur our ability to see and perceive clearly. They get in the way.

After a year of doing this exercise three times a day, every day I was able to reach ten minutes with no thoughts entering my mind.* But this process also made me keenly aware of all my thoughts when I was not doing the exercise.* I realized that while I prided myself on not being judgmental, I was EXTREMELY judgmental of my self.** This allowed people to continue to manipulate me and control me, sometimes in very unhealthy ways.* In time, as this realization of self grew, and suffering did its work, I started breaking free and regaining my energies. When I reached a tipping point, this triggered my initiation.

There is so much people do not understand about initiation:

1) It is just a start - as in the key word initial...beginning

2) It will occur whether there is a teacher or not. Remember, life is the great teacher. And, there is always suffering…the default teacher of all.

3) A positive initiation that moves you towards a higher state, as opposed to a lower state (the dark path) requires much housecleaning. You must be willing to face and process many of your fears, shame, guilt, imperfections, mistakes and other baggage.* Without this initial work, initiation could cause instability. You cannot fool your higher self into thinking that you are ready if you are not. And your higher self is the one in charge of creating an initiation process.* This may or may not attract a spiritual teacher or outside help in any form.

4) There are many levels of initiation, and many ways it can unfold.* Each initiation occurs when the time is right for the person involved.*** But the first level has a common thread.* Facing your fears.* This initiation will depend on what your worst fears are.* Fear devours vast amounts of energy.* Facing them starts to dissolve blockages, freeing up energy for higher purposes.

5) Initiation can be short: from hours to weeks - rarely longer. Much longer than this and the intensity of initiation could leave the psyche crushed.* The duration seems to depend on how much baggage needs to be processed, and what level of spiritual growth is involved. The visions, illusions and dream tests we might face during initiation need to be clearly understood as illusions. These things will involve facing fears and highlighting areas that need attention.

The best approach is to learn from each part and then let it go – wring the truth and the learning from experiences, then let it go.* They are often abstract, metaphorical, requiring some interpretation and thought.

Dreams convey messages and teachings.* It is the mind that wants a type written literal letter. The mind often misinterprets these things.

It is your intuition and gut instinct that will get you through these things. You need to start trusting more than just your mind. You need to trust your authentic feelings.

6) You will never be the same energetically after an initiation. Significant energy blockages and attachments break up during initiation.* Over the months that follow, more blockages break up and more attachments drop away. This can be uncomfortable at times.

7) Your associations will likely shift.* If you went through an initiation at the fear based level....sometimes called the Trial by Fire...and by far the scariest initiation, you will move away from fear based people.* Partly because you will no longer allow your self to be manipulated by people who use fear to control.

You can be initiated through several levels at once. Initiation is hugely variable.

During my experience, I was initiated through the first three levels at once. This lasted an agonizing 14 days.* The problem with going through so much in one shot is that you undergo such a dramatic shift that it can leave those around you disoriented, not to mention yourself.* Suddenly, people that were manipulating you with fear, guilt, lack, ego, and self esteem, are shocked that you no longer react in the same way.** Or, if you were the type that was a controller, you stop manipulating and using these methods. This results in the same confusion, as you are different and other people have trouble coping with and understanding the new you.

Controlling types usually end up with people with low self esteem who want or subconsciously need to be controlled.* They will feel a void that they may or may not be able to deal with.* The larger the shift, the less likely a bridge will occur to enable current relationships to continue.

Koala.

This morning as I woke I saw a drawing of a rocket placed upright.
The drawing was made up of short straight lines but non of the lines touched each other, all vertical.
At the side of the rocket was the word ATOM.

Recalled dream straight away and I was in a room watching two people. The person I was watching was having to change classrooms and the other person I think was a teacher . The teacher asks her if she knows where to go? She told her she was going to have a change of subject and she would be studying Maths.
Just as I finish recalling the dream I pick up ,

"IF YOU CAN MASTER THE RED(READ?) YOU CAN BLAST THROUGH PEOPLE!......ION."

Although I don't get the blasting through people thing I'm pretty sure the rest is self explanatory.
How I wish I had paid more attention in school. I haven't a foggy about atoms ions all the rest so today I've found a BBC website as a starter covering key points for GCSE level.
On reflection the folder I've compiled when learning about Platonic solids, Fractals, Phi the golden spiral,golden ratio comes together with easier understanding when written down and filed all together.
A reminder of famous sayings.

'Reality is mathematical in nature'.

' All is number'.

Plato considered PHi as the key to the understanding of the cosmos.


Pleased with what I picked up yesterday morning.

Just a quick flash of two small red postal vans. One is parked in the drive of a neighbour who lives 4 doors down from me. The second postal van pulls up onto the drive of my next door neighbour. As his van pulls up the other van 4 doors down pulls away off his drive and drives away.

I didn't know what this was about. Went to work. At about 3pm just nipped home for a quick snack before going back out again to find the post had been. A letter addressed to my son which he was waiting for with very good news in for him that should have been delivered to his other address but came here instead.

I realise now that fairly obviously the red postal van suggests some mail worth noting and the two neighbours both retired ,job share delivering prescriptions ( their van is white) and because they live close to work and are out delivering they are always popping home in between deliveries.( I popped home)

Things were coming so fast this morning it had me surprised. Yesterday had been so grounding with no meditation practice. An enjoyable day. All I thought prior to sleep was that I still didn't understand the blasting through people thing.

This am upon wakening I just heard one word, " merging"

Drifting back to sleep I was wishing I could just experience how it has been in the past with frequent conscious OBEs when I see a little girl run onto a railway track infront of a moving train trying to stop it.
I suppose this is me trying to halt the journey . I have to continue on the route it's meant to go on.

Also I wondered why everything I pick up now visually is instruction of a kind.( meaning I don't visualise anything suggesting being in astral realm)
Instantly I see a woman who is also the Statue of Liberty. She is standing with one hand in front of her eyes so she cannt see and is holding up the other arm in the air holding a torch.
I had to google to get a better understanding of the Statue of Liberty and came up with,

The torch is a symbol of enlightenment. The torch lights the way to freedom showing us the path to Liberty.
Liberty enlightening the world.
Universal symbol of freedom.
OMG I couldn't make this up if I tried. Lol, there is definately good humour here. It's a good thing I don't take myself too seriously and can laugh at myself.
Just love it.

Lovely image this morning of a circle made up of a woman on top arching her back making up the top half of a circle and the man making up the bottom half to complete.

Woke to seeing the corner of a house with the street name reading.....' Connect '...
Dream... Last train home, packed full of people, just two carriages standing at the platform.

Finally got out again this morning but haven't a clue what this was.
Only 2 days ago I wrote of frustration not experiencing any type of exit so I don't know if this was because I wished for this but I know this was not me as Susan instigating this, but I've been on cloud nine all day. It always leaves me exited.

3.48 am dream suggesting loosing energy. It was quite gruesome but it works and gets my attention and I understand the meaning so got stuck into raising energy all over. Brushing, circling feet, legs, spine, front , hands ,crown, brow. Realy going for it then settled and focused. Remembered from last time ( too Much..too little....) Must leave enough time to stay awake long enough.

Then this was like a jolt inside the head like when you are woken up quickly . Everything changed but still black. I feel myself moving forwards but from inside the head , not my body. Went sideways, still black then moving forwards but going faster and faster and faster forwards.This seemed an incredible speed and I could see something even blacker, denser I was heading for. I knew I was going to go through whatever it was and quickly had to remind myself that nothing is solid, nothing will hurt.
There was no resistance .
Sometimes in RTZ there can be slight resistance when going through a wall or ceiling or roof like pressing against a balloon but I suppose the speed of entry would eliminate any.

Suddenly I'm through to the other side and I've stopped.
This was amazing to look at( maybe just because I don't get out enough) Still everything is black but covered in millions of white tiny lights but there was no movement.I cant call them stars because when I've seen similar they've been sparkling and in clusters and spaced out in deep black. I've seen silver sparkly bits moving towards me but these were so still and not sparkling and so many they made the black background almost look grey instead of black. Not even the crackle you get when vision is tuning in to the vision screen.

Absolute stillness.Then everything is gone.

Stayed awake quite a while going over all of this for memory for recording in morning and eventually got back to sleep.

Woke up to the sound of Cher singing.....'.WHEN I LOOK DOWN SHE'S LOOKING UP AT ME'
....' JUST PADDLE AND KISS'. ( we've just booked a short break to
Dubai.)
......PLEASE PAY NO ATTENTION TO WHAT ***** MAY SAY' ( I'd been
wondering how I'd feel if someone was to say this was all in
my head)

That was it.
There are no secrets from the spirit world.
This has me wondering the time I saw the beautiful image of Jesus in white fluffy clouds and the two wings and the white line above his head. The previous day I'd just heard of the death of a wonderful 75year old man who I was very fond of. We could throw cheeky insults at each other and laugh a lot. He was a devout Catholic and I had just been told that he was terrified of dying.
I went to sleep hoping he had arrived in the other side safetly and was being looked after in the way he deserved.
Was the image of Jesus letting me know he was safe and loved in the spirit world?

If anyone reading this has experienced these black/ grey still white lights or any insight into this I would appreciate advice.

Picked up a lovely phrase this morning whilst awake and silent.

" WELCOME TO THE SUNSET OF THE LIVES THAT WE HAVE SHARED."

Last night before sleep I had asked if I could be given some words worth remembering upon wakening up. I didn't feel right asking for advice because I think I'm getting plenty of advice on direction of learning and how my day will go. I wanted something important for me to remember.

When I woke I didn't pick anything up ( in fact I'd forgotten I'd asked), but I recalled a dream.

Dream.

I'm watching a group of people pass me pushing a cart with a white sheet covering it and a young child lying down on it. She was dead. Next I'm in the distance watching two people pick up the dead body by the sheet and lower it into an open coffin. I remember thinking ' oh, they may bang her head'.

That was all to the dream and I don't see this as a bad thing. Some may but I've had this before and I see it as death of the old and re birth of the new.
I had gone to bed thinking of Robert Munroe's excursions and how he was taken to where he had originated from before embarking upon a human life. Learning of atoms, molecules, energy etc is so much to take in
but does get the brain bursting with all questions going back and back and back. Just where did we begin?
Not how many lives have I had or who have I been but the big question.
I think the death scene , the fact that it was a child, maybe has to do with my thoughts.

So awake after going over this my mind started thinking back to the times in my life with my husband of nearly 40 years when suddenly in a moment of no thoughts I picked up the ,
Welcome to the sunset of the lives that we have shared.

I see sunset as the end of the day. Is this referring to our planning for retirement, the final stage?
Was this once again coming from my husband's higher self , or as written of before this shared consciousness?
I suppose there's more than one way to interpret this but I've had words before suggesting it was my husband talking but in a vocabulary he doesn't use, words he doesn't use.
So I got my words I asked for.

Also, Thursday morning vision of speed camera.
Took care driving to work and found one just waiting to catch people. It was positioned in area I saw.
Thank you.

Also saw my mobile phone with the mail app coloured in black.
My internet started playing up in the evening . I couldn't get into my mail for 2 days. However I had internet on my phone but for some reason I had been signed out of gmail and couldn't even get it on the phone. Only just sorted now.
Thank you.

I think I've got it.
Posted 8th April...."IF YOU CAN MASTER THE RED YOU CAN BLAST THROUGH PEOPLE.....ION."

The word was definately pronounced as RED and not READ but I just took this to be suggesting past tense when read and understood but I've had other thoughts on this even though it doesn't change anything.

I googled Atom / Red / IONS. and came up with ,

Wikopedia.
According to the creation myth of the Abrahamic religions ADAM was the first human.
ADAM literally means 'RED'.and there is an etymological connection between ADAM and ADAMAH ( RED CLAY or RED GROUND.)
Prevailing hypothesis is that both words originate from the verbal stem 'Adam' ( to be red) being chosen from the author of Genesis to convey the relationship between man and the ADAMAH ( ground or earth) from the book of GENESIS.

From Gnosticwarrier.com

This Gnostic website puts the question....was Adam from the bible the first ATOM to be changed to form the RED MAN?
By relating bible passages such as the story of ADAM to Science and Alchemy of the Atom may truly be an Alchemical, Spiritual and Biological Scientific story of how humans were formed.

There is no doubt what I heard and the rocket drawing that I saw with word Atom and Ions.
I knew nothing of the rest that I've found relating to red and Adam.
This doesn't change the order I'm covering atoms molecules and elements but this is a big read.

The DoDo bird ReVe•als it's Mi•gh•Ti FaLa Sol...when crash landing.

Pieces - http://youtu.be/8Uw8mIcQJn8

Tears of an Angel - http://youtu.be/gg4zxY1vF1w

In the Hand fear naught for falling apart too far.

Ah Tim , I always appreciate your opinions.
I cannt play the links just now so I have to go by your words.
The Dodo bird ......flightless...trustworthy....was only found in Mauritius ...now extinct.
Do you think I'm going down the wrong path here about the human body? It's an interesting topic to explore. If I've got you right then I'll just stick to wikopedia facts and stay away from assumptions???

No..no....I have no opinions about your path being right or wrong. :::smiling:::

I'll write more...later...

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Awesome! I've just been able to view and listen to the first one. Second says unavailable.
Incredible, beautiful. Awesome
.Just love this .

Ryand Dan Tears of an angel.
OMG I want to cry to this it is so beautiful.

Once again I wish I could draw.
Beautiful picture upon wakening of a black and white view of the sky and sea. Bang in the middle of the picture where the sky meets the sea was a man's head looking to the left and behind it was a woman's head looking out to the right .
That's three pictures now I've seen that are so 'thought provoking' . I've made up a name for these.
INFORMATIVE IMAGERY.

1) Jesus with the wings and white line vertical above head...

2) A circle made of a woman (doing the crab)connecting to the man making up the circle.....

3) Sea and sky with head of man and woman.

Will add more here if I get some to keep them together.

8.15 am woke to a burning flame vision in the brow. Very bright.

Having a short break now for 5 days. Off to ...paddle and kiss...( as I was advised to ) Will utilise the sun bed time to practice focus on third eye.

I kept getting drawn back to the last experience I had 12/04/16.
None of the experience made sense but in the past I've always found almost all experiences have meant something. Something for me to take notice of so I put together the key points.

1) travelling at an incredible speed.
2) pitch black.
3) feeling I'd passed through..( BLASTED THROUGH?) something even blacker and solid.
4) No movement....complete stillness.
5) millions of lights perfectly still.

4 days prior to this 8/4/16 was the drawing of the Rocket and Atom and the Words picked up If you master the Red you can blast through people....Ion.

It often takes me a while to put meaning to events but I'm sure now that the first experience of the picture and words was directing me towards this area of reading.( Even then it took me a while to get the RED understood,) but because I didn't get it the actual exiting and travelling at speed followed as a second attempt.

Well I've got it now.Ive got a feeling I'm going to get lost in the maze but rather than just know what our body is made up of and how it is similar to Earth if I'm going to do this I have to do it properly or at least to the level of my ability to understanding .
So I'm starting with ,
The Big Bang Theory.

Thought tonight I'd be writing up my notes on the Big Bang theory but instead I need to record this.
It seems I'm out of favour with myself again.

6.00am recalled a small short scene where it was a bit disturbing.

Dream.
I'm watching a news reporter with a camera focused on a woman. He announces that the president wants her to go back home but she is saying NO.
The camera focuses on the woman's mouth and goes closer as she says she won't and can't leave.Im left looking inside this woman's mouth which is injured inside on her left side and all her teeth on the left were missing.
( this was very ugly to look at and reminded me of the post when the woman's face turned ugly and she grew horns) On this occasion I was being reprimanded and the book I used at the time suggested not to judge people until I'd walked in their shoes. On that occasion I knew exactly what it was referring to.

I lay there wondering what this could have meant and had been wondering why the last few days on holiday I was having disturbing dreams. I was eating too much but that's what holidays are for.
When my mind went silent ready to go back to sleep I picked up..

" YOU CANN'T JUDGE PEOPLE BY THEIR RELIGION".

Stayed mind silence when picked up

" JUDGE THEM BY THEIR AURA".


Felt very dissapointed here because I realy had been aware of my thoughts while away. I hadn't thought badly of anyone and in fact enjoyed watching groups of different coultures and religions dressed in their own coultural dresses and covering their bodies or not whilst swimming.
Maybe my thoughts weren't as good as I thought they were.
Or I'm being encouraged to see people as individuals.

I must must have the courage in future to record everything I pick up with the understanding that it may just be worthless but may just be relevant at a future date. It may appear a bit too convenient to add after the event but on this occasion I'm going to because I feel I have to.

Back to the hurdling through space experience.

1) As I approached the massive black area/ thing in space I felt it was solid like rock but because this was in non physical and I was experiencing this as it was happening I knew it couldn't be solid.
2) when I went through it and everything was still , the thousands of white lights completely still had me for a quick second wonder if they were energy/ life, but I had nothing to suggest this ,it was just an idea ,so I didn't record.
3) when the experience was finished I quickly thought " Stage 1"

So tonight I've spent time watching

Into the universe with Stephen Hawkins, episode 1 Aliens.

One theory on how life started on earth is the PANSPERMIA theory.
Apparently this theory has been around for a while but 2015 it was reported that it is gaining more and more support from astrobiologists as a strong probability.
Wikopedia writes of the hypothesis that life exists throughout the universe distributed by meteoroids, asteroids, comets, planetoids.

The video clip shows a massive black rock/asteroid hurdling through black space suggesting it could have been carrying frozen organisms( life) in them.

Universe needed 1-3 to exist.

1) Matter. = mass=. dust, ice, rock, gas

2) Energy

3) Space

Albert Einstein concluded that mass and energy are the same thing( 2 sides of a coin) ie atoms molecules)
So now only 2 requirements for universe
1) energy (1+2)
2) space
Spontaneously created by the Big Bang.

Was my experience a replica of this as I've already suggested just to spur me on to get me thinking .

Yesterday morning quickly picked up a view of the upper half of a human body but it was the inside .I could see the heart and a whole network of viens , arteries and valves.
Didn't match up with dream and it had happened so quickly decided to analyse dream instead which was just nothing worth recording. Just starting to feel sleepy and mind went silent then picked up

"LOOK FOR THE HEART OF THE UNIVERSE". This was like a soft voice.

As the day went on I had been wondering why? ( I hadn't worked it out yet) After all I already had enough homework and had planned the order I would do this in when I had time.


( have planned out the order I'll read ,
1)The Big Bang
2) what our bodies are made up of.
3) what plants are made of
4) what soil is made of.
5) finishing with more insight into this PANSPERMIA theory
To some this will be very much kindergarten stuff but for me this is the stage I have to start.I must see it written down to understand then know.)

This morning recalled a very short sketch.
I'm sitting at a table unwrapping small wooden beach huts and lining them up. They're only about 8inches tall each and they are facing the sea.
Someone comes over to me very quickly and asks me

" have you noticed that the windows are facing inwards?"
I pick one up and find a little window at the bottom and say yes they were facing inwards.

So this morning I googled key words .......Heart ..Universe .. And it all makes sense.
Was this me being encouraged to look deeper within myself. To go inwards.
I found a very informative piece of writing called
THE PATH TO THE HEART OF THE UNIVERSE.
Golden Precepts of Esptericism by G Purucker.

In it he/ she writes that the first step is to recognise that all comes from within.
The inmost of the inmost of you is a god (higher self) a living divinity.
In yourself lies all the mysteries of the universe. By going deeper into yourself you go deeper into the mysteries of universal nature.
I've pasted it below as its a good read and is relevant.

( a note ...I promised myself I wouldn't miss any detail out so here goes. The other morning after learning about the Big Bang I woke up to a quick thought. ..BEFORE THE BIG BANG WAS A THOUGHT.

Will have to follow in second post as its long.

Something beautiful had just happened.
The text was too long so I was taking out chunks and as I scrolled down there was a piece of writing about the heart and inbetween the words was a small red heart!
I hadn't noticed this the first time of reading the chapter and thought it looked a bit out of place but was positioned well as it came after the word heart.
Went to original site to see if it was there and there is no heart there. Came back to this site and it's gone. ( may just be the workings of the site picking up a word it didn't like but positioned it beautifully if it was that.)

Link to the writings.

http://www.theosociety.org/pasadena/goldprec/gp-1.htm

This goes on for 7 chapters and seems a realy good read.


1 — The Path to the Heart of the Universe (21K)

2 — Old Age, Disease, and Death (45K)

3 — The Inner God (20K)

4 — The Great Heresy of Separateness (16K)

5 — Love is the Cement of the Universe (14K)

6 — The Chela Path (30K)

7 — The Buddhas of Compassion (17K)

Clairvoyant vision this am.
But before that ....

Woke up at 5.35am remembering seeing a man pointing to his temple as if looking at me and I think he had a symbol of sorts on his forehead.
This got me wondering of the different meanings ( to think? Allow thoughts to come through?) After all this is used by some to reference to ' think about it'.

Settled, no energy work, just looking into the brow then very quickly things changed.

Vision got brighter and something was swirling around ( no colours just black and white the whole time)
From a distance an eye comes closer moving all the time. This wasn't a drawing like 'The eye of Horus'.This was a single human looking eye. Lasted about 3-4 seconds then disapeared to the right.Stayed focused. It felt I had my physical eyes open but I wouldn't have .
Next a young boy came closer . He was still a baby but I could see he was a boy. I was viewing this as a hologram.He was see through and movement was fluid, never still, constant gentle swirling movements.
He was being held by a young man who appeared the same holographic way. Baby disappears to the side and face of young man is infront of me again. This is so different to dream images of characters. He swirls away to the right and everything is gone.

Thoughts.

I've had the same human looking eye before. Must look up in journal to see what followed each time if anything.
Although the man and baby were facing my vision I didn't get the feeling they were looking at me.
I'm almost certain this has been me in the past as I've seen past lives in the same way. Always young boys .Always viewing consciously within the brow.The young man also got plenty of air time so was I both the baby and the young man?

Need to get back here to list when I've seen this eye before.


Back to edit.
3 times previously seen the human looking eye.

Pg 4 18:3/13
Single human eye at end of tunnel. Very next day I was shown the young boy with the silver white wig I believed to be a past life. Prior to this had been advised to take notice of any trips.

Pg 10 27/7/13
OBE Single eye stays for a few seconds.Flying high over 3 pyramids, later came across what I thought were gatekeepers but this was something that was to be worked out . I ( eye) was above pyramids.Symbol on dollar bills . Eye of providence.

P24. 7/3/14
Seen just after failed attempt of two astral arms and hands tuck underneath my waist trying to raise me up.

I cannt come up with any conclusion as to when they crop up or why but each time something exiting happens.
( but then again I get exited over all the experiences. )
Will spend no more time trying to work this out.

Back to edit.
I'm now thinking this may have been the eye of providence each time.
I think I'm being too particular expecting descriptions to be exactly as described in books. After all this symbol has been seen in different ways.
Within a triangle,
Surrounded by a blaze of light,
Within clouds.

I've had to change my mind about man and baby from past life.
Reason being that all previous have involved period costume, or objects.

1) metal long pointed hats with 2 people carrier horse driven chariot type battle vehicles.( I was a young man dead on the ground on a battle field.)

2) shabby wooden house on stilts in river , hills in distance, men coming out of river with what looked like lobster pots, father and son in river still, bad weather ahead, got the impression of some storm drowning both father and son.

3) young boy with silver / white Curly wig , red velvet jacket with high collar.

4) same boy few years older , same long blonde hair but had got rid of wig.Black and white clothing wearing breeches. ( later discovered that the men started doing away with wigs and wore their hair
long. )

These were not dreams but shown but the last experience there was no hint of anything suggesting a time period.
I may never work this one out but the last light nap this morning I felt I was being urged to work out. This may have just been me myself trying to work out.
I picked up

An apple cut in half looking at the seeds.
Check the DNA.
I saw my signature at the bottom of posts on this forum highlighted.( but then again I have been practicing the bubble quote from instructions DC very kindly posted for me. )
Maybe eventually I'll work it out .

Dream this morning.

I'm high in the sky in the back of a small craft like a helicopter. I seem to remember people out floating a distance away. Only 3 or 4. They keep flying up closer, getting closer to the craft but I'm a little scared.
Eventually the pilot flys away from them and turns the small craft upside down. I'm scared because I feel I want to hang onto something incase I drop out but now we have landed .

Thoughts.
I've tried to think how this could relate to anything in physical life but nothing's coming up. I didn't watch tv last night so no program could have influenced me.

Key points.

In a vehicle
Not the driver
Being approached
Fear ( I didn't wake up feeling fear, )

I wonder if this could be what is happening whilst I'm asleep, but being translated in a dream as info.

Could I be coming closer to spirits/people trying to help me but something is frightening me? My vehicle ( energy body/ the helicopter) I'm safe but didn't feel safe within when it turned upside down.

That's all I can come up with at moment . May change mind if something else comes up.

Dream from other night)

I'm entering a big school hall and its full of people sitting down. The headmistress is on stage and another woman goes up on stage. They both look in my direction and come off the stage and come right up to me right at the back.
She's holding a big plant leaf. I see little specks in a group in the middle of the leaf. She tells me to look at it and holds it right in front of my eyes. " look! It's alive. It's living!"

need to log new thoughts on last one. I think I know what the flight was meaning.
Could this be the slight worry in the back of my mind about our trip coming up to Tunisia which is still a high risk area for terrorists.Because of the shooting on the beach of British tourists our last trip got cancelled and we missed the engagement. This August is the wedding and we are going. Life is too short and we are going to enjoy ourselves with family out there .
However my mind has been playing over possible things that could happen.
I cannt believe that I didn't even think of this at the time I was trying to work out why I dreampt this.
Also, I think the Egypt Air plane to Egypt that had a tragic ending I think this was just a co- incidence that the timing was the same. The reason for this is I felt safe in the end. When I had what I now believe to have been a warning about the beach tragedy this was because it involved my plans for the holiday and I woke up feeling the worst possible thing that could happen had just happened. I was shocked when I woke up .
I need to remind myself that feeling has to be taken into account when working out.
( then again I may change my mind again!)

Also maybe the eye was the eye of providence as its depicted as sometimes seen in a burst of cloud or light.

A link to a talk by Deepak Chopra at the Aspen Institute on
SELF DIRECTED BIOLOGICAL TRANSFORMATION.

http://www.aspeninstitute.org/video/...-deepak-chopra

Good listening with good thoughts.
One he says is.
The Self of the Individual is the Self of the Universe.
You are not your body
You are not your mind
You are not your genes
You are not your brain
You are not yourself.
At the core of your being that self is the self of the whole universe.

Last few mornings plenty going on .Dreams which seem to point out where I can improve.
Woke up yesterday to listening to a group of people singing the Happy Birthday song. I won't record the dreams here but they were very meaningful but I do want to note 4 wise pieces I picked up.

1) " there are many more beautiful houses but the self restrictions will be your choice."
2) " come with love in your heart"
3) " build on the heart"
4) this last one came when I had been thinking of how this cannot be ignored or passed off as imagination which many will think and may say. If I was just reading books about this topic and watching u tube clips I may choose to believe because I want to. But I've had constant experiences . This is real, and because of that I want to get it right.I listen to what I think is advice and do my utmost to take it.

Just at that point I saw an image flash up of an elderly looking man walking along the waters edge wearing a long white tunic to the ground and a long tatty looking beard and picked up
"The Road Can Be A Lonely One".
So I start analysing how he looked , poor, unkept, when I picked up
" This is meant as a Parable ".

Oh I just love this. I had a feeling I knew what a parable was but this came so quick.
My higher consciousness/ guidance/ whatever got in so quickly probably incase I thought this was directing me to packing in everything and go wandering round the world leaving all my family and living like a tramp.
( my self is known better than I know myself)

More clairvoyance in the brow whilst awake again and once again just prior to this I wake up from a dream that gets my attention.

Dream.

Woke up and recalled dream straight away. It was a lovely one, very short.
Some small bunnies were running up and down the length of a table I was standing at the end of. One of them had big cute ears and was sitting like a dog begging for a biscuit. It fell to the ground but as I pick it up it has turned into a toy plastic soldier. I'm amazed at this and wake as I look at it .
Recalled dream and wondered about this wondering if this was to get my attention so quickly looked at clock. 4.35.

Clairvoyance.

Settled just looked into brow and very soon clouds started swirling around again.everything was very faint. Lines swirling in the clouds. Another single eye but much fainter.eye dissapeared . A face was forming , moving all the time, all very faint, then it all dissapeared and I pick up ,
" Susan, your thoughts on George and God, quick, thoughts thoughts thoughts.
So I quickly tried to think out my opinion but I wasn't sure how I thought about this so got a bit confused and stopped.

Well that was it and why the heck did I look at the clock to see the time? I'm sure this spoilt the energy flow but just to note that once again I get prior hints that something is coming and to look.
Also George? That's an interesting one.
I had just had a conversation with him last week . An elderly gentleman With absolutely no belief in any form of afterlife but very knowledgable in energy and nature.

I feel so lucky to be picking up good advice as I wake. Often the dream recalled has nothing to do with what I pick up. It's as if ..' Get in there quick'..in fact I've noticed that very often someone will enter my dream right at the end with important words.

I'd been thinking that the job I'm in I love and is in the health profession but I get paid for this.( even though I got clouted over the head the other day by a dimentia patient who had spent her life in the Salvation Army. Didn't hurt she was very frail)
I have no spare time or energy to do voluntary work.
Is there something I'm not thinking of?

Clairvoyance/ clairaudience.

***. Quick flash of a monkey with a human hand feeding mashed banana into its mouth.
Picked up ' This is disgraceful'.

Thoughts.

The monkey was being fed so was being looked after. This had me remember a program I saw a few months ago about the Orangutans in Borneo and how they are loosing their lives and home due to human demand for Palm oil. Orphaned young ones being rescued and cared for. So so sad to watch them.
So since picking this up I've adopted a young Orangutan. Beryl, only five years old. It isn't much but I'll get an update every 6 months on her progress. This will be a constant reminder to me just what is happening out there.

clairvoyance

***. Quick flash of a green council bin for recycling tins, cardboard, plastic. There was a black cat at the side that quickly ran away as the lid opened

Thoughts

Didn't get it. I do recycle stuff. Also the cat? I used to think a black cat was lucky but most that I've read suggests bad luck. The next night a dream followed.
Dream.
I go to the house next door to pick up my baby I've asked my neighbours to look after.the house looks poorly decorated.( I didn't know the characters being used) I come back home but the husband next door comes to my door and is angry with me.He says they are not as well off as me and have enough to do.Its them that should be helped.
End of dream.
This reminded me that only two weeks ago I had taken one of the many charity bags from the cupboard to put rubbish in and felt a little guilty that I have things that could be put in and taken to a charity shop but am always too lazy. I think this was a reminder that there are some people who would benefit and appreciate these unwanted things.
Haven't yet done a bag but will soon. I'm thinking Salvation Army.


Clairvoyance./Clairaudience

****. Quick flash of a woman's face with a frown and a puzzled look on face with finger up to forehead.
Picked up " Oh my career needs help"
Then immediatly after saw the soil on the ground with a large whole dug out with a plant planted deep just showing the upper leaves.

Thoughts
This was a funny one because I have a career but if only I could retire early I would want to spend every moment in the garden and greenhouse growing from seed.
So other day Husband comments I've wasted money on strawberries I bought. They're dead. ( their not he's exaggerating) but 6 were doing nothing.
Went to water them same day I picked this up and got thinking so bent down to have a better look and the water had washed away the soil and exposed a lot of their roots. I hadn't noticed this before.
This must have been to dig deeper into the soil. Have potted up, tucked soil up right to the neck and brought into greenhouse for a little TLC.

So to sum up, no earth shattering revelations coming through, no wild adventures in astral but something I find more rewarding and comforting, continual good advice to help me in my daily life.:)

Clairvoyantly viewed within the brow whilst awake an unborn baby inside the womb.
I could see the little legs, arms, head everything.It was moving. This was like being inside the womb with the baby.Lasted about 5 seconds but couldn't hold it any longer. Maybe I got too excited but it was over.
Beautiful.

This happened just after analysing the third short dream. ( my bladder is useless so I get up a couple of times in the early morning for the bathroom . One good thing that comes out of this is the light naps.

All three dreams seem to be connected as they involved a department store similar to the one I worked in years ago . The last 2 involved my old boss who I used to be a little anxious about. She was always very serious and spoke bluntly as it was . She took her job seriously and no room for error. Always okay with me but I was always on guard incase.

Dream 1)
I'm working in store and someone comes to fetch me to see two people. ( this didn't have the boss) A realy nice lady stands up and opens a drawer. Inside are clothes. I'm told to pick up the jumper on top. As I hold it up its leapard print and she says " Have you forgotten what you were going to do?"
She's very gentle in the question and I wake up to this but can hear a song with a nice tune. The words were suggesting I'm not doing what I said I would do.

Analysed this and the fact that this was leapard print I think it's referring to me having taken on board the need to stop spending unless necessary, but I saw a nice long leapard print day dress that would be ideal for my holidays and journey on plane. Out of stock so store us e mailing me when back in. I don't Neeeeeed it but would be nice. Of course there is also the charity bag I haven't got round to filling yet.
Before going back to sleep I was feeling a little dissapointed in myself. Was like failing in what I know I should be doing.
Back to sleep.

Dream 2.
I'm with my old boss now in store and we approach the counter to find loads of people waiting for attention. A strange looking woman says to me " I know Robert you know!"
Awake now.

Tried to analyse this one but difficult. All I can think of is the fact that because of my work I feel I don't have enough time to read and do my energy raising and Meditation. Not sure about this one but the last one was the best.
Back to sleep.

Dream 3.
Christmas lunch at work. Thought I was late but it wasn't my sitting yet. In same department store but looking for my locker to put handbag in. As I approach the counter I'm late. My boss is looking serious at me. My 2 colleagues had tidied up but they ignored me. I thought they were on the huff with me. Everything is sparse but there is a mirror and seat out in front. Two colleagues go behind a curtain . I think I'm going to get the sack. They come out from the curtain smiling at me holding a big white cotton looking bag and give it to my boss. She starts smiling at me ( was I going to get promoted for something went through my mind but I couldn't because the only way up would be her job)
I'm told to open the bag and its full of tissue paper.
Boss tells me my Trinkets are inside the bag.
Awake and this is where I'm analysing the dream when now awake but realise it's still dark behind the eyelids and I may have a chance of seeing something and I saw the baby. Wonderful, seemed so real.

Analysis.
This boss was a stickler for getting results. And Doing what you say you will do!
The mirror and table outside the counter represented I think something I never liked doing. Something I didn't want to do. ( never felt comfortable doing make up demonstrations outside counter. Too shy but had to do sometimes.)
I think the trinket was a well done for doing something I didn't want to do but knew it was the right thing and overcoming the problem .( I'm sure I know what it was)
The baby followed.


I thought I would be writing up on a different topic today. Spent all last night reading about plants and putting a lot of ideas through my head.
Will do tomorrow.

How to use your intuition( inner voice) by Teal Swan


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eiiJBfIVmJo

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Then this was like a jolt inside the head like when you are woken up quickly . Everything changed but still black. I feel myself moving forwards but from inside the head , not my body. Went sideways, still black then moving forwards but going faster and faster and faster forwards.This seemed an incredible speed and I could see something even blacker, denser I was heading for. I knew I was going to go through whatever it was and quickly had to remind myself that nothing is solid, nothing will hurt.
There was no resistance .
Sometimes in RTZ there can be slight resistance when going through a wall or ceiling or roof like pressing against a balloon but I suppose the speed of entry would eliminate any.

Suddenly I'm through to the other side and I've stopped.
This was amazing to look at( maybe just because I don't get out enough) Still everything is black but covered in millions of white tiny lights but there was no movement.I cant call them stars because when I've seen similar they've been sparkling and in clusters and spaced out in deep black. I've seen silver sparkly bits moving towards me but these were so still and not sparkling and so many they made the black background almost look grey instead of black. Not even the crackle you get when vision is tuning in to the vision screen.

Absolute stillness.Then everything is gone .

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Just bought Teal Swan's e book ' THE SCULPTOR IN THE SKY' and she starts with...


"In the beginning, there was light.
The immeasurable, unsurpassed cosmos
was a blank fabric of space-time
ready to be woven full of meaning. "

I don't mean to get hung up on that experience but as soon as I saw those words I just felt I had to go back and log this.
Done.

Singing again as I woke up this morning. Was like a lullaby, " The sun and moon are shining on you".
I just feel yet again that I'm on a quiet period if it works like that. It does for me anyway. So last night before sleep I did so much energy raising then tried to stay awake but fell asleep till 4.30. Next short dream was nothing worth noting except for two little points that seemed out of place.

1) my friend ( seems like a companion) is helping me get dressed. He helps me button up my top button to my blouse then respectfully leaves the middle buttons around the bust for me to do, which I fasten.
I'm now fastening my trouser buttons but two of them have been sewn on with the thread going over the buttons so the button hole wouldn't fit over them. Thing is this gets me looking and thinking and notice that these are mens trousers.
2) my friend is lying in bed and suddenly changes the subject and says, " It's a shame about what's happening in the world right now, China takes Russia."

Then woke up to the singing.
I take very little interest in politics or current affairs. Depresses me but I just skim the surface of main topics. Had to google China and Russia this morning to see what this was about. I expect anything meaningful to come in riddles but just wanted to log.
I'm missing the voices.

Singing again yesterday morning..

"Like a rubber ball I keep bouncing back to you."

My goodness that's an old one, 1966, haven't heard it for years.

Wasn't sure why I picked this up but gave it some thought then dismissed deciding to forget as I had something else I was working out.

This morning after a short dream this makes absolute sense. It's not what I thought it may have meant.
Short Dream.
I go on holiday with my husband and two male friends. This is Australia and it's very hot .Im sunbathing and my two friends and husband go off for a walk. I can see people in the distance sharing water to drink in the heat. Husband comes back without our friends.
We are now facing a low cliff with round dents in it all lined up horizontally.These dents looked as if a metal ball had made them.
Husband says that our friends had said that everything was going fine..... (As he says this he is holding a long metal pole with a round metal ball on the end and is putting the ball into each indentation in the cliff)....until THE DEVIL CAME SHIRAZ! He pushes the ball into the last dent and pushes it in harder.
I say " No that's not right , there is no devil, that's a lie!"

Woke up just as I say this. Recalled dream and kept Devil and Shiraz in mind.
Googled these two words, this is what I came up with,

Devil's Liar. Dance with the Devil. Shiraz Tempranillo.
Devil's Liar is the Wine company in Australia, advertising Dance with the Devil Shiraz Tempranillo that they produce.
Their address is ROCKY ROAD??:( Margaret River, Australia.

So couple of days ago I had opened the fridge door and hubby had left opened bottle of wine . Thought about having some but didn't know why because I'm on to tropical crush now and prefer the taste.however my thoughts had been on the August holiday and decided that I suppose I'll keep hubby company and have the occasional glass. The decision is mine alone to make. Didn't think again of this, even when I picked up the song about rubber balls .

As I write this I've realised that the long metal pole with a metal ball on the end is the same as I saw when I had the dream involving the queen and one of her footmen had this pole when he untangled the young boys head from under the rope. This was when I heard this was going to be a special day ( at the care home) The queen to me represents higher self.
6/4/16
(The rope was straightened with their rod and the procession carried on. End of dream. )
Wonder what this metal pole with a ball means? Anyway I get the message.
I make up a good team, we work well together.

Edit,
Sorted . Googled
Wikopedia.

Sceptre

A sceptre is a symbolic ornamental staff or wand held in the hand by a ruling monarch as an item of royal or imperial insignia. Sometimes, it could be used for showing a sense of divinity.

I realy don't like it when it gets quiet.I wake through the night as usual but cannt be bothered to try anything and just go back to sleep. What am I playing at?
Other morning got a bit of a riddle. ( hasn't gone completely dead) I'd asked a question before a light sleep and woke to .." If she's a relative ring your home number".
Now if it had been " HER "I would assume sister, but it was definately YOUR . But I WAS putting the question to me. On reflection I shouldn't have expected the direct answer I wanted.A riddle is all I get.
Maybe intuition is the way.

Dream,
I'm in a college and go into a room as I want to sign up to be accepted by the church. The vicar is talking to me and I'm surprised when he tells me that he hears voices as well. He gets excited that both of us do . He signs a book ( the bible? )and gives it to me, and as I'm thinking that he would expect me to attend church and mix with the rest that I didn't realy want to do he says that his church is too far away to travel so he wouldn't expect me to .He tells me I probably wouldn't be seeing him again.

As I leave the room I'm happy because all I wanted was the book, and I got it.Some friends ( no body I know on physical) ask me if I got the house I wanted.I reply that I think I would have realy preferred the smaller house because it had more in it , but I got the bigger house which was a little empty, but it was okay. ******

The vicar thing I think is me wanting to balance science with the bible. Not wanting to go down just one particular path , but for the heart chakra and all that comes with compassion I think the teachings from Jesus are tops.I just wanted the bible but not the institute that came with it.

The house thing I think is reminding myself of what I picked up not long ago,


1) " there are many more beautiful houses but the self restrictions will be your choice."
2) " come with love in your heart"
3) " build on the heart"


Anyway I've decided I going all out with the third eye. If Mohammed won't come to the mountain..........

Going to be stepping up Mantra practice, trying different ones, keep up with throat friction meditation,visualisation practice, aura practice.
Yesterday went out and bought recommendations for pineal gland .
Apple cider vinegar with manuka honey,
Spirullina
Goji berries
Sea kelp tablets
Coconut Oil.( put it in my porridge) bearable.but love coconut
Blueberries.
Assistant asks me was I wanting these for any particular reason ( so she could recommend others I suppose ) had to say ..just for health. Didn't feel comfortable saying the real reason.

***** back to edit...remembered what picked up last year, or the year before.
"When the house is emptied the body moves on."

Last two weeks work has tired me so very grounded but a few things.
I'm going to start with the bad so I can forget and end on a positive note.

1) John Lennon the Beatles.
For three nights John Lennon appeared in dreams but it was always the same short recall of him putting his arm around my shoulders and talking to me. This was in a comforting friendly way. Could never remember what was discussed.
All I could come up with at the time was the fact that he was taken by surprise and shot on the street outside his apartment .
Was this because my holiday is getting closer and my daytime thoughts were of possible events that could happen. After all I'm staying with family in a country where terrorists have already targeted Brits. What I was thinking as possible could be linked with John Lennons way of attack.
Yesterday I found on the internet that a group of these misguided attackers were nicknamed "The Beatles" and 'John' being one of them so this has convinced me the dreams were to do with this.
Well, nothing will take away the slight concern but I feel this was re-assurance for me that I have nothing to fear.

Now onto better.....

Woke up to young children's voices singing. Saw a screen with writing on it with the word 'SYMBOLISM'
Recalled dream immediatly,
Standing at the back of a classroom filled with young children and the teacher is trying to get all the children settled to watch the screen at the front. They start singing about feeding the birds ( which I do) and they finish with ..BUT THERE ARE OTHER ANIMALS THAT NEED FEEDING.
Then sub titles start to scroll up on the screen where it finishes with big bold capital letters ' SYMBOLISM'.
At one time I would have got my head into symbols but I'm coming to the conclusion that it's the learning process that is important. Just being encouraged to learn as much as possible.
Maybe I'm missing something her .
Back to edit.
Maybe the feeding of other animals is symbolic for the GIVING? ( mentioned below)


Hubby came in with a Spanish vegetable I hadn't seen before from the supermarket called Romancial( I think) This was the most beautiful example of Fractals held in my hand. Yet again a reminder that we are part of some great and wonderful self similar design of the universe.

Yesterday
Had asked for some good advice that would help me when I feel disconnected. Woke from a dream.
Standing in a room at the back of an orchestra. I can hear the room is filled with the sound of violins playing. Very high notes.. No dream story recalled with this.
( listen to uplifting music)

Back to sleep, woke up again and just as I was wondering if I should try raising energy or not when my mind went silent I picked up very quickly
"TRY TO BE MORE GIVING".

This morning , upon wakening, thought I saw a giant face of Sathya Sai Baba as if formed within the clouds.Black and white.Cannt recall any thoughts or dream of him prior to this. Googled his name to check spelling and found two lovely Quotes of his ,

Love Alone Conquers Lasting Happiness and Peace.
Sharing can Alone Reduce Grief and Bring Multiple Joy.
People are Born to Share, to Serve, to GIVE and Not to Grab. Baba.


Love this one.

In Every Moment Of My Life,
Please Be With Me.
When I Slip, When I Fall,Lend Me a Hand.
When I Stray Far Away,
Bring Me Back

Is it possible to have your energy body worked on by the other side whilst asleep?
I don't know ? This may have just been me dreaming but I know what I picked up suddenly afterwards.
In physical I'm taking everything I can find suggested to help with third eye .

Dream.
I seem to be lying on my side and can see 3 people upright near me but shadowy and someone is at my side at my level. I Cannt see any furniture or landscape but the person next to me has inserted a fine wire?tube? ( current?) and it seems to be fed through where my nose would be but instead of this leading down to my stomach as a naso gastric tube would be I could see it floating upwards to the sky.
I felt a little tingle like a mild electric current and woke up.

It's possible that this was a dream and I caused the sensation that woke me by imagining what it would feel like having one inserted.( although it wouldn't feel like a shock.)I've fed many through the nose to the stomach in my early nursing days but never had one in myself but discomfort was all I got told.

Awake now but still sleepy decided to start some energy work with intention of focusing on brow when in between thoughts quickly picked up ....."NO, PLEASE DON'T FOCUS."

Don't know what to think on this one but I love the gentleness of the request.very often I get a gentle Please .

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Originally Posted by susan

Is it possible to have your energy body worked on by the other side whilst asleep?
I don't know ? This may have just been me dreaming but I know what I picked up suddenly afterwards.
In physical I'm taking everything I can find suggested to help with third eye .

Dream.
I seem to be lying on my side and can see 3 people upright near me but shadowy and someone is at my side at my level. I Cannt see any furniture or landscape but the person next to me has inserted a fine wire?tube? ( current?) and it seems to be fed through where my nose would be but instead of this leading down to my stomach as a naso gastric tube would be I could see it floating upwards to the sky.
I felt a little tingle like a mild electric current and woke up.

It's possible that this was a dream and I caused the sensation that woke me by imagining what it would feel like having one inserted.( although it wouldn't feel like a shock.)I've fed many through the nose to the stomach in my early nursing days but never had one in myself but discomfort was all I got told.

Awake now but still sleepy decided to start some energy work with intention of focusing on brow when in between thoughts quickly picked up ....."NO, PLEASE DO'NT FOCUS."

Don't know what to think on this one but I love the gentleness of the request.very often I get a gentle Please .

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Hi Susan,
I do not know if others can work on your or our energy bodies...what I know is the help to work throug our experiences by them making scenarios that the episodes can be experienced again and again so the clogged energy to be freed and working as it should not to make deceses is our physical body.
It can be happenings from other life´s too..or like in your case, you have in your profession done things like feeding by tub someone,moste of our doings is mirroring to make us remember episodes what has made us not functioning in our energy as it should. Can you understand what I am trying to say here??

Love
ia

Thanks IA, I'm trying to grasp what you are meaning.
We can be directed from spirit side into scenarios that in our dream state will encourage us to act out certain actions in order to clear any blockages? Blockages of energy which could result in disease in body if not cleared .If needed it will be repeated until the job is done?
Have I understood you okay or maybe not?

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Originally Posted by susan

Thanks IA, I'm trying to grasp what you are meaning.
We can be directed from spirit side into scenarios that in our dream state will encourage us to act out certain actions in order to clear any blockages? Blockages of energy which could result in disease in body if not cleared .If needed it will be repeated until the job is done?
Have I understood you okay or maybe not?

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Yes, Susan you did undertand it right, but it is much more comlicated than that..and it is therefore much more harder to live it right..we have so many blockages from upbringing, sociaty roules, religious roules...etc etc...I am now trying to go backwards living...when all has already happened...when body is sick and injured...to see where I went wrong...and trying to fix it..some of the bodys sickness can be healed and fixed but not the parts what has to do with sceleton that can´t be repaired...and it is hard to live it even when you understand what is wrong...
The part of me what understand but have no Words is shining so clear to like doctors and they do not hear my words...and Think I am just playing with them...it took 10 years to get through to them and I nearly did loose my life because the body was giving in ...so maybe I now have a little chance and opportunity to get deeper in investigating and have a slight chance to live further more years.

Love
ia

Quite a few more years I hope. The only way now for you is up.:)

Quite a bit this morning between 8.30- 9.30am.
No time to detail but what I took from this.

I may decide to stay working longer but there is help being brought in for me. ( my FATHER???)

Keep out of Dramas.

Definately no alcohol.

Remember this is all a play.

BIOTHERM? Got this just as I woke, I've heard of a product but will google and update this bit later.

Continued from last post.

BIOTHERM

BIOLOGICAL THERMODYNAMICS.
Wikipedia

Is the quantitative study of the energy transduction that occurs in and between living organisms, structures and cells and of the nature and function of the chemical processes underlying these transductions.

TRANSDUCTION.

1) The action or process of converting something and especially energy into another form.

2) The transfer of genetic material from one organism to another.

3) ( physiology) The transportation of stimuli to the nervous system.

4) The process by which a transducer converts one type of energy to another.


Fatigue gone.( heavy work load finished for a bit.)
Increasing NEWS. Legs burning up in bed. Was circling feet for a while after working body.
Singing again this morning, very gentle voice but didn't catch words. Wasn't focused enough

Just to add an example, a transducer is an apparatus you use that converts one type of energy to another, such as when you have an ultrasound, it produces and transmits soundwaves to then be read by it and converted into an image from the sound echo. There's other examples but it's the one that came to me when I read this.

Thanks I like that example.
I wonder if the other day when I thought I was having a tube fed through my nose going up to the sky has anything to do with this? Well I'll just have to wonder. That's all I can do but....

THUNDERBIRDS is back.
This was the first time thunderbirds was used.4 days later I had the wonderful experience where I was consciously floating in pure white with the white and pink trees.

http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/sho...t=Thunderbirds

This morning between 8.00 am and 8.25am . Liminal stage .
Very short dream. I'm in a theatre packed full with people . There's a stage but I'm at ceiling level.The ceiling is covered in pink stars and I heard someone saying something I think to introduce the host.
Next Liza Minelli comes across the ceiling in amongst the stars and stands in a little box floating high up. All very showbiz .
In the dream I'm just starting to wonder how she came across to the middle of the ceiling. I'm working out there must have been a path for her to walk on but hidden in the stars.
Liza turns to face me and says. "

I hope your going to stay for the show!"

As she says this she starts to dissolve and her face changes and has been replace by a Thunderbird character . I think his name was BRAINS. He had massive glasses on. I recognised him straight away but had to look up his name. Woke up.

This was lovely but I don't want to raise my hopes incase.
The thing is just yesterday I had been reading about the earths energy centres and places where they are supposed to be. This could be the hidden path that Liza walked on to get to the centre.
All I can do is realy increase my practice and try to make it happen.

Last few days picked up inbetween thoughts,

"PLEASED YOU'VE DECIDED TO COME OUT OF YOUR WOMB."

This was I think because I'd decided to try some new exercises to do with projecting my energy onto objects and feeling them.

"I WANT YOU TO FOCUS ON AN OBJECT?"
Both these times there was not the loving soft voice I sometimes get. It was either me telling me what to do or ...?

How quick things can change. It's happened before.
Last nights dreams were dissapointing, raking up the past from 30-40 years ago. They involved my husband and started with his working hours and my insecurity early in the marriage.He never gave me a reason but because of late hours and the fact that he was so handsome my imagination would go on overdrive.He really never gave me reason to be anxious but when your young it happens. Last night even brought up him meeting up at the casino with his close friend.
My goodness this realy was raking up the past.
Another dream highlights my apprehension about this holiday coming up.
Maybe I won't be successfully getting out as soon as I wanted or thought but I'll keep trying.

However my final piece I remember just before wakening....
I'm flying in deep black space with my husband.
He flies off to the right and something forms infront of me.
It's a fraction and I'm told that I'm the 5 and he's the 6 ( or it could be 8)
It was like someone was writing in space infront of me.
I Cannt remember a number on the top. Looked like this

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5 6

Edit.the figure in brackets above should be 8 but I Cannt get it to come up. This is crazy. I keep getting the smiley face with sunglasses. I've deleted it 3 times and when I press 8 it shows correctly but when I press save and see the printed version the face comes up.
Is this a glitch with my I pad? I've had a red heart before.
I ve been so grounded today and now this craziness.

This morning had a lovely image of two people far in the distance on a very narrow path leading up to the hills walking away from my view ,but closer standing together on the path looking in my direction were two dogs. One looked adult and one smaller
Symbolism here I think.
No dream recalled with it but for the 45 mins after that much was picked up.
I think now I will have to learn not to let my mind go crazy full speed with what I'm hearing . I want guidance but I must filter what I see as important for my progression and what is just me and my thoughts.

The soft loving voice will always be listened to.
The riddles will always be worked out.
Anything out of those categories will be thought upon as "do I think this was just self talk."? Does it feel right?
After saying this to be honest I love everything I'm getting and much advice is given .
I just need to filter a bit so I don't go dizzy.


Picked up ....The root is the angle... ( riddle)

Googled root angle and there is no way the info that came up is understandable.way out of my depth so I have to take this from a different angle.( ah, just read this back and have used the term )
Roots.....plants have roots.
Angle.......

Last night I had had just a plateful of salad for a meal . Wasn't hungry. I knew I was eating healthily.
Still taking that disgusting green pond life but have actualy bought a second pack and mixing with water.
After such a bad start to this I'm just downing it as a ' 5 seconds of unpleasantness' .
No intention 100% of going vegan. See no need for it, but to have a healthy body plenty of veg and fruit.

'Keep up with the green bracelet.'

Green ..as mentioned above ..could be the Spirulina. ( very dark green powder)
Bracelet...could this be my pandora bracelet that I turned into a way of remembering any realy beautiful memorable experiences. ..tiny white purse...angel wings...Christmas tree...snowflake.

I visited the health food shop and bought spirulna along with other products recommended for third eye.

Starting to understand that when I have an experience that does not involve slowly raising up but more inside the head, even though I get the sense of up , down, right, left this is probably how the human brain interprets the act of expansion of ones consciousness.
If I get another I'll still describe as I perceive but now understand better.


Back to edit . No need for new post.
Just completed 30 mins focus on fixed object . Did the imagination of stretching arms out and feeling the surface,underneath, smoothness, roughness.( large fig leaf) imagination used for smelling. Then just concentrating on the fixed focus.
Using beautiful uplifting music.

Next. Upstairs to lay on bed, no music. Blacked eyes out and just tried to still mind.
Intended 30 mins, not very successful but near the end I started to think how difficult it is to aspire to be the kind of person that had all the impurities of this earth life taken away whilst still here. So much happening around us, on the news, radio. We have to function here and live and interact.
I thought of that lovely spirit I've written of many times that I had been taken to meet in the spirit world and just knew he/she/it was part of me .
Just after I had thought this and the mind went silent, immediatly very quickly I thought ..

" AND YOU ARE THE MIDWIFE"

Yes, I suppose I am the foetus in the womb ( Clairvoyantly viewed few days ago) but I am also the one responsible for the delivery. When I was told to look for the heart of the universe, to look within, the person I would like to be is inside me . I just have to get rid of the clutter and BE.

Just when I go deep the humour starts again.

This morning I'd been awake contemplating getting up and thinking of the flight times for just over a weeks time for the holiday and what I'm wearing( never got that dress, got a cheaper)'
My thoughts went to flight times for returning when suddenly I thought...

" 5th little piglet."

Immediatly I remembered a nursery rhym for children.
Starts with.
This little piggy went to market...............and this little piggy (5th) went weeee weee weee all the way home.

I love it . If ever I'm being re- assured that I will have a holiday with no incident this is it.
A very detailed dream also which involved speaking on the phone to my father translated symbolically p
suggests the same.

What I also want to note is the awake state I was in when this came through.
Love it.

Edit.okay so I wasn't going to put this bit in but pride must be pushed aside for total honesty.
The weee weee weee ........
My bladder is getting worse and as soon as my key goes in the front door it's a race to the loo.Im up through the night and just in general I wouldn't want to be waiting in any long cue . Doesn't help the fact that I drink loads of water.
I think this was deliberately worked out. How embarrassing.

5th little piglet returned home safely feeling the richest person in the world.
Two weeks around the warmest, kindest, most hospitable,fun loving, sincere, honourable, humble people I could ever wish to be with. Many I had never met before. These people could be put in a category that many people are currently seeing as a threat.
However I only speak of the people I met. We are all individual personalities.Such wise words picked up during my May holiday....." Not to judge people by their religion. Judge them by their aura".

Last three weeks no energy work, no meditation practice.
Inner voice very quiet but at times of deep thinking some was coming through. ( a reminder of part of signature picked up once... " She is part of your deepest thoughts".)

Had gone to bed one night thinking how quiet things had become and thinking of intuition. If ever I was to develop good intuition would I loose this inner voice I hear? I never want to loose it. I woke up with no dream recall but picked up.." The Subconscious Allows Free Thinking".

One night I had been overwhelmed by the warmth around me given off by these people .... The cuddles and kisses from the children also.
I woke to seeing a certificate with a name on it and where the specialised subject would be written were the words ..GOD FINDER..

Woke one morning to singing. Just caught the last two words. " heavens plane."

My ugly side was pointed out in a dream two days before the event which saved any bad feelings.
2 days before holiday a short dream . I'm in the back of a car and someone is in the drivers seat and points out two people across the road and tells me to look at them.
I see a very ugly woman shouting to someone. A male approaches her. I got the feeling they were related. She shouts at him . I got the feeling he had dissapeared somewhere and she was angry with him but I also got the feeling that he was trying to explain where he had been and it was not his fault. ( in the dream I just seemed to know )
What stood out here was just how ugly the woman was.

So , 2 days later at Charles De Gaulle airport waiting at the notice board for info to tell us which gate to go to. Finally, the information is displayed. What does HB do? Decides to go to the toilet first. DOWNSTAIRS.
He was away ages. I couldn't believe he could do this. He had had ample time. People who were waiting also had all now dissapeared. Could feel myself getting hotter and hotter, tensing up, we were going to miss the flight, how stupid. Trying to decide what words I could use on him to get the message across.
Suddenly once again during a thought free moment the dream popped into my head. This was me!!!! I was the ugly woman. My ugly side represented by ugly features.
Just in time I relaxed muscles that had become tense, completely chilled, decided that if he had suddenly decided he needed the loo then he had to go.( I of all people should understand that)decided we have plenty of time, we aren't going to miss the flight.
He arrived back, I smiled and we went on our way with ample time.

Co- incidence or not?

Dream.
I'm trying to do something and getting frustrated. Michael Jackson is trying to help me but I've made it worse for him.
I'm making it even worse and fling myself on the bed in frustration and start to cry.

Woke up.

This is my frustration feeling lost again. Hard to find time for this. Need fast track to get back into it. My mind is taken up with everyday living and back to work. Not sure which route to take in limited time. Raising energy? Clearing chakras? Meditation? Observation? Projecting energy?
Time is so limited.
Sent out a request for guidance in my decisions for this.

Time to get up . Passed radio in kitchen and decided to switch on.
Michael Jacksons song is playing and at this exact time he sings..' Let me show you the way to go.'

This was written by me in the journal last year.
Taken from Deepak Chopra's understanding of the Observer/ Observed role which I was experiencing. This was new to me.

*****. Page 48.

My spirit is an alert witness of the roles I play. Whilst it may be my destiny to play an infinity of roles I Am Not these roles.
The detached observor ( me) of the role has woken up, ****. EVEN WHEN SLEEPING*****
We can be engaged in a role to currently perform , even passionate about the way we perform it but detached at the same time.
He talks of the actor on the stage of life with us being the actor, director, everything and everyone.
This all adds up to what I've written over the last few weeks, stage, puppets, Observer.

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I've brought this forward because this morning Ive noticed a change in the role I played in the dream.

I woke this morning feeling so much love for someone I was talking to in the dream.This feeling of peace and calmness lasted for hours later.
Recalling the dream I realised this was once again about me shuffling work and doing too much. However I know Character A and B are both me, but in two short dreams I was not character A ( Susan) I was character B who had all the love and compassion for Susan and realy wished she would slow down.
I was talking to me (Susan) with such love for her and kind of shadowing her. In the past I had been aware of someone entering my dream or following me and interacting with me but this time I was that person and didn't feel I was Susan.
When I woke I was still feeling the love I had for Susan.

This is hard trying to write down and maybe comes across a bit strange but I know exactly what I'm trying to say with difficulty.

Because of this I'm now thinking back to the above post where I was at ceiling height in a packed theatre and asked if I was going to stay for the show.
I was going to be observing the play from a height.( I would be observing myself, my role in physical as a seperate person.)
The Thunderbirds character 'BRAINS'wearing large glasses..
.. Large glasses?.".. Seeing clearly?
...Brains.....encouraged to think about this? Work out? Understand?


Bit more on the Buddhist idea of observer ....

Buddhist doctrine has a definition of the observer that perhaps fits better than that of psychoanalytic theory. The observer or witness is thought of as an aspect of the higher self that is cultivated through meditative practice. This version of the observer is a portion of consciousness that metaphorically looks over the shoulder of the individual and helps to inform them of their actions and the reasons for them. This helps the Buddhist practitioner to stay on their chosen path rather than putting energy into everything that fascinates the ego.

by David R Hill.


Was this an aspect of me ( Susan) merging during sleep with an aspect of my higher self helping the unconscious me?

Liminal stage this morning between 6-9 am.


A news reporter is standing outside a small restaurant infront of a window.
He is reporting on someone inside having a meal. The camera now focuses inside to a woman at a table. She picks up a fish and puts the head in her mouth. The tail was still wagging. The fish was still alive.
My reaction to this was of disgust. The camera now focuses on her plate. It was awful. Prawns and little fish were alive and running around the plate. Horrible to look at and imagine eating.

This next one was a continuation before wakeing up.

I'm with a small group of people and someone brings a dead human body and tilts it to show what has contaminated the body inside. Brown waste pours out of the body onto my lovely cream rug.


I seemed to wake up slightly to ponder over this and then picked up two more that seemed to connect with each other.

I'm in a classroom and I haven't done something. I then see a tall oblong glass container filled with water. Very narrow but very tall. On the outside against the glass is a rusty sheet of metal and a magnet the shape of a battery is being run along the rusty sheet moving upwards. The water starts to rotate.


That was all but enough.
Last night I had been exhausted from work and HB had cooked a lovely meal.
Pasta with a tomato chilli sauce filled with pieces of salmon and prawns. I loved it and commented how nice it was and we will have to have it again soon!

A news reporter reporting something usually is important for me. This journey started with a news reporter.

1st page of journal....

The plane lands, a large blue car travels up a very steep hill where the occupant gets out and someone ( a news reporter) is standing on the summit recording the arrival of the passenger.
........

This seemed to have the same importance.
Oh dear, I've always said that I would continue to eat fish but I just don't know now. I need to contemplate this . It's a big decision but to be honest the first two I picked up were repulsive and disgusting and that is how the meat started and then the alcohol.
I just don't know what I would eat.

The tunnel of water and magnet I'm sure relates to energy / magnetic pulls/ spiralls / vortex.
Might learn a bit more there.

Magnetic Water.


Found this by Robert.
Developing Natural Resistance

The best explanation of how conscience and higher-self guidance works, was given to me by an old priest in Sunday school, when I was all of nine years old. He said to imagine I had a little devil on my left shoulder and a little angel on my right, both whispering advice continually.


The little devil works through the ego, urging quick gratification of life's desires, wants and vices. Its pure selfishness, greed, cruelty and cunning. It will do anything to satisfy its desire, no matter whom gets hurt in the process.


The little angel works through the mind, virtues and higher emotions. It speaks for ones spirit, for ones higher-self, and for ones Creator. The little angel points out moral issues and the difference between right and wrong, warning us of potential consequences. It will help satisfy ones actual life needs and goals. But it would rather have us starve than see us steal bread from another. It is unselfish, kind, gentle and wise. This aspect of mind nurtures a high order of moral thought and spirituality.


Another way to look at the above, is to imagine that every vice attracts a little devil to support it, and that every virtue attracts a little angel to promote it. All religions and schools of spiritual discipline promote the ideal that one has to conquer all desires (to become desire-less) and to develop all virtues, in order to attain enlightenment.

Eckhart Tolle

Eckhart Tolle: The Awakening of Consciousness - SuperSoul.tv
http://www.supersoul.tv/supersoul-se...-consciousness
Love listening to him.
22 mins into it he talks of connecting deeply with what is around you.
He explains that there is the FORM identity of you that performs in physical.The other half of you is the FORM- LESS you, timeless essence of which you are.Your Ultimate Self.

A good quote from him,

What a liberation to realise that "the voice in my head" is not who I am.

Who am I then?

The one who sees that.

He quotes an ancient saying.
Consciousness sleeps in the stone..
Consciousness dreams in the plant.
Consciousness AWAKENS in the animal.
Consciousness AWAKENS to itself in the human.

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..... It is unselfish, kind, gentle and wise. This aspect of mind nurtures a high order of moral thought and spirituality.
....All religions and schools of spiritual discipline promote the ideal that one has to conquer all desires (to become desire-less) and to develop all virtues, in order to attain enlightenment.

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Unselfish. Kind. Gentle. Wise.
This advice from Roberts priest all those years ago clinches it for me.
Could someone with all those qualities bang the head of a fish when caught in the hook of a fishing line to finish it off? When I was 14 I was the one who caught 2 river trout when fishing for the first time with my family. I pulled it in, mum and dad put it in the basket but it was still wriggling, alive. I cannt remember if it was me or not who killed it.
So easy to open a can of tuna...........

I will try but may fail. 2 days now without fish. My dreaming mind is very positive.
This morning half awake / asleep saw a large room with hundreds of exercise bikes as if in a gym and all the seats were bright colours. Red, green,yellow ,orange etc..
For the clairvoyance practicing colour is a good idea but the exercise bikes..Absolutly No Way!
Or maybe the colours were the colours of the chakras and this was a riddle. Work on the chakras.

Been reading a lot on magnetised water.Have sent away for a place mat.