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-getting botox for the first time and only needing 5 units on each side and them saying i dont even have crows feet and how low the price was
-learning the prices on some things i want and finding out a breast lift is about half or more then half then less then what i thought because i wouldn't need an implant
-compliments
-talking to R from the dating app more and him sending me a snapshot of himself that is very sexy after asking one of me
-R from the dating app complimenting me and saying i'm gorgeous and giving me the kiss emoji
-R from the dating app being classy
-drinking more water
-being a nice person
-M's husband taking me to visit my feral cats today. They are so cute and i love them so much. She caught him but i think she's starting to get less annoyed now and we are breaking her down the barrier made because of her son.
-getting paid a check yesterday
-shopping
-buying myself a lip mask for while i'm sleeping
-the chocolate client i've been working for
-entertainment
-coffee
-my style
-humor
-black leggings
-wearing my prada socks today
-awesome uber drivers
-slippers
-sunshine
-my vibrating rose quartz face roller and what it's done for my face and relaxation
-great deals
-positive animal stories and environmental stories
-my ferulic acid and reservertrol serum
-wearing my supplement hoodie from work that i like a lot today
-pillows
-having nice lips
-how great my hair color is
-being smart
-m's husband buying me the vegan burger king meal i wanted today for lunch/dinner
-walking
-being able to see/my eyesight
-pictures
-cuteness
-a new pic to post on my ig
-hearing about people i care about's happiness
-my dad getting his gift i sent him today
-physical exercise
-doing an intention setting exercise to solar plexus chakra and theta beats music
-setting intentions in the morning now with my rose bubbles
-chocolate
-candy
-getting an appt with my psychiatrist made
-smiling
-T baby cat
-showers
-brushing and blowdrying my hair
-apricot oil
-newness
-decluttering and organizing
-growing as a person
-doing a little reading
-having nice hair
-my weight going down
-not having any recaps to do today
-ideas
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ugh. one of the things besides the heartbreak and losses of 2018 that gets to me a lot is ever since the end of that year, my weight has had trouble going down. it starts to go down a little bit, but then up again and it's just made me so ashamed and lose any pep in my step i had. being thin makes me feel more confident and able to take on the world. i never thought i'd be someone with a weight this high and it's embarrassing. it keeps me from wanting to do things and go out. i am starting to be more active again and some days my clothes even feel a little slightly loose. I just think getting to my thin self is a key to getting me back. its going to happen. i know it. i just have to stay focused yet let go at the same time and do the right things.
-the sexy new guy i've been talking to
-M's husband coming by unexpectedly to finish fixing the carpet
-using bleach to clean up some stains on the counter
-my blue vive hoodie
-being cool
-coffee
-fashion
-slippers
-blankets
-cuteness
-yoga
-dancing
-the little heater in my house
-getting my reimbursement a day early
-water
-buying another vintage chanel piece last night
-pleasant memories
-plants
-M's husband bringing me over some sponges which i just happened to need
-entertainment
-humor
-my lips
-having a baby face
-art
-my cleavage
-inspiration
-brushing my hair
-blankets
-sleep
-my feral cats having their own house and that it's heated
-not taking myself too seriously
-doing positive activities
-being a nice person
-that i should be getting another check tomorrow
-clean clothes
-relaxation
-beauty
-ideas
-submitting to a new agency today
-tuning into my desires
-reflecting on my manifestations
-organizing, decluttering and rearranging
-hope
-authenticity
-my alexander wang bag
-feeling my feelings
-flowers
-nature
-being smart
-my talents
-finding out what's going on with some other payments i'm owed
-updating things
-newness
-having nice hair
-having great cheekbones
-all the amazing past photos i have from my career
-my phone
-my laptop
-peace
-quiet
-smiling
-nature
-my beauty
-my eyeglasses
-being positive
-things with my bank starting to go more in my favor
-apricot oil
-having a caring heart
-learning to become better with my interactions with others in regards to socially and dating, getting better at filtering and being patient and letting and so on.
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-buying some new lingerie and getting a great deal on some really cute stuff
-compliments
-feeling like i'm being flirted with more often again
-my white rose bear and galaxy rose which is so pretty i got from dose of roses
-being talented
-sleep
-the little heater in my apartment
-drinking water
-showers
-clean clothes
-brushing and blow-drying my hair
-using rose bubbles to set intentions in the morning
-having nice curves
-getting paid the other day and it unexpectedly being a much bigger check then i expected
-hoodies and sweaters
-blankets
-chocolate
-iced almond milk lattes
-vegan food
-R from bumble app
-relaxation
-yoga
-physical exercise
-staying strong
-paying off a balanace yesterday
-the ability to see/eyesight
-getting my lip mask in the mail today
-the ferulic acid and reserveratrol serum i've been using
-being kind
-being self-aware
-how great my botox has been looking
-makeup
-shopping
-having great taste in things
-buying a new kitchen garbage can
-ideas
-taking some actions
-my authenticity
-having character and integrity
-prayer
-cuteness
-my lips
-laughing at life
-my femininity
-being unique
-M's husband giving me a ride to jobs
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me and the guy i was talking to are done, before it even began. i was sad and off crying all day about it and took two extra ativans. he wanted to meet up and i said maybe then tried confiding in him about my past to overcompensate for the fact that he seemed like he felt rejected or something and i wanted to let him know it's not him and i did agree to meet up or next week then he said im not ready for dating basically. later in the evening,i gave him a piece of my mind telling him i think part of him is saying that because of his ego and that we are all works in progress and i just go with the flow and i feel like im ready to date i will and that he needs to do some growing himself, etc, etc. Very sad. I thought i liked this one. A rotten day. I was literally having anxiety all morning and thought honesty would be the best thing. Yeah,i should've filtered more that was a mistake but him and how he was is also a mistake and i can do better.
-giving R a piece of my mind later in the evening after he rejected me.
-ativan
-shopping
-coffee
-entertaiment
-relaxing
-being strong
-feeling my feelings
-fashion
-beautiful things
-being authentic to myself
-the breeze by my window
-physical exercise
-standing up for myself
-ferulic acid and reservertrol serum
-having money
-showering
-sunshine
-reading
-sleep
-being productive
-my talents
-my confidence starting to go up a little more
-cute animal stories
-staying motivated
-having empathy for others
-having nice eyes
-pleasant memories
-having nice lips
-acceptance
-surrender
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-m's husband picking me up after i had a breakdown. he got me coffee and took me to a store that had reptiles and wild birds that he knew of. it was cool to interact with the birds. there were these beautiful, wise looking white macaws. it almost looked like an owl, both of them. one seemed to even want to make friends with me. we then went to a dollar store. i wanted to pick up a particular kind of vase that i had gotten at a dollar store before, and he got me some cleaning products too.
-sleep
-ativan
-water
-coffee
-letting it out. i've cried a lot of tears in the last 36 hours or so. they just wouldn't stop. my heart wouldnt stop shaking or my hands. maybe this is part of the process. i don't know.
-doing a face rolling session and how relaxing that was
-my bed
-blankets
-pillows
-the little heater in my apartment
-paying off my monthly payment for my main credit card
-hoodies
-the caramel chocolate i ate since now im not giving it to R from the app
-my marine friend R who is always so kind and genuine
my gucci sunglasses
-how great my hair looks when it's brushed
-all the blessings i have in my life
-heartwarming and cute animal stories
-having money
-slippers
-shopping
-fashion
-apricot oil
-entertainment
-deleting the dating app
-staying positive
-ordering a new marble print table cloth for the house and a new eye cream since i'll be out soon
-facetune and youcam mobile editing apps
-retouchers
-getting some jobs assigned for march
-the botox i got
-my lips
-makeup
-being motivated to make changes in my life
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-cold beverages
-fashion
-getting microdermabrasion today
-sleep
-embracing the quiet and sort of keeping to myself
-beauty
-models
-my beauty
-botox
-physical exercise
-sunshine
-plants
-flowers
-having beautiful eyes
-getting perspective on the guy from the dating app site and getting over him
-love
-coffee
-strengthening my body and making it more flexible
-my rose bubbles
-paying a bill today
-having money
-having almost half my rent money for next month
-finding a better deal on lyft before i left this morning
-being a nice person
-felines
-cuteness
-entertainment
-hope
-boosting one of my social media's last night
-the cool breeze that was coming in tonight that felt good
-my lips
-getting the new garbage can i ordered in the mail
-getting some vintage chanel in the mail and that feeling good
-wearing my new gucci socks today
-blowdrying my hair
-showers
-doing laundry
-clean clothes
-magic erasers
-fun
-memories
-kind souls
-hoodies
-having nice hair
-prayer
-colors
-moisturizers
-learning
-forgiveness
-having empathy
-band-aids
-healing
-clearness
-grey marble prints
-pillows
-having a nice face
-being able to see and having eyesight
-nightskies
-being able to keep the balcony window open
-peaceful sounds
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-getting my power back after R from dating app showed himself not to be very nice person
-all i have going for me
-having such a nice " " that apparently it looks fake
-having a nice body
-compliments
-showers and feeling nice and clean
-baby pictures of my cats
-reminiscing
-my ex recent J saying he still loves me
-getting my check today
-pillows
-gray marble print
-botox
-my lips
-sleep
-drinking more water
-eating a little less
-sunshine
-ordering some new skincare serum i wanted and balenciaga slides
-physical exercise
-my eyeglasses
-fashion
-great design
-updating some online things
-heart warming and positive animal stories
-coffee
-going to a forest preserve that has these massive stairs people climb up for a workout
-m's husband taking me to a grocery store to pick up some food items and a can opener
-relaxation
-colors
-feeling better today
-apricot oil
-entertainment
-getting new lingerie in the mail that is cute and a new style for me
-moisturizers
-comedy and humor
-laughing
-yoga
-inspiration
-miracles
-newness
-kindness
-ideas
-my desire to be a kinder, more giving person
-my backside getting more toned
-having great cheekbones
-smiling
-plants
-healing
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-not working today
-seeing my cats today
-the weather being nice and almost spring-like today
-bringing l cat to my house today
-napping and l cat napping with me on top of me
-blankets
-pillows
-sunshine
-having great taste
-my gucci sunglasses
-blowdrying and brushing my hair
-face rolling
-clean clothes
-journaling
-making decisons
-trying my lip mask last night before bed
-cat cuddles
-the breeze in my apartment and how good it feels
-taking out the trash
-reading
-doing laundry
-lip injections
-botox
-my reservertrol and ferulic acid serum
-buying a new tropical print throw blanket from an art site that i think will go well with my couch
-colors
-almond milk iced lattes
-pictures
-entertainment
-water
-apricot oil
-looking very young
-yoga
-physical exercise
-making my body better
-art
-fashion
-learning
-using rose bubbles to set intentions
-my femininity
-great design
-great deals
-hot guys
-trusting life
-beautiful things
-smiling
-thinking positive
-optimism
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-going for a nice healthy walk today
-coffee
-my medications
-talking to a friend today about my new clarity on what im working on to heal and be better
-the weather being nice today
-yoga
-physical exercise
-drinking more water
-brushing my hair
-slippers
-being fashionable
-naps
-l cat being here
-my balenciaga shoes coming and being wrapped in a nice box big saks box and coming in the balenciaga shoe box and shoe bag
-sweets
-blankets
-sunshine
-plants
-the nice breeze from leaving the balcony door open
-entertainment
-my phone
-surrendering
-relaxation
-optimism
-my fresh lip scrub
-my rose water face spray
-beauty
-roses
-my rose bubbles i use to set intentions
-cleaning my microwave
-cuteness
-my beauty
-laughing
-humor
-emojis
-sweets
-fashion
-prayer
-my internet working well right now
-inspiration
-hope
-newness
-healing
-moving forward
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-being smart
-going to the psychiatrist and therapist today
-good skincare products
-my face slimming out in photos
-iced almond milk lattes
-showering
-brushing and blowdrying my hair
-l cat being here and growing as a cat. i left her alone for just over 3 hours and she was fine.
-clean clothes
-how cute l cat is
-m's husband giving me a ride to the psychiatrist
-water
-vegan food
-yoga
-the self hypnosis i recorded last night and have been listening to
-sleep
-finishing my work recap
-my lips
-ab exercises
-the breeze in my apartment from keeping the balcony window open a bit
-how beautiful my new balenciaga shoes are that i got in the mail
-lorazapam
-feeling my feelings
-entertainment
-having great taste
-filtering
-relaxing
-peace
-smiling
-friendliness
-applying to some jobs on linkedin
-apricot oil
-beauty