GRATITUDE LIST

-seeing people being creative and positive
-innovation
-my new blonde hair
-how healthy and thick my hair is
-a new selfie to post on social media for the first time in awhile
-having a baby face
-filler and botox
-having great lips
-great skincare products
-getting a hydro to calm me down today
-visiting my feral cats today
-my new edgy gap teeth and stars sunglasses edgy t-shirt handmade in los angeles
-fashion
-my sense of style
-m's husband taking me to get out of the house for awhile
-water
-sleep
-being strong after what D downstairs did to me and giving him a piece of my mind after what he said
-giving D downstairs the stuff i was planning to give him anyways by leaving it in a bag by his door before i went to bed
-pillows
-blankets
-water
-getting more opportunities with first career thing i do
-starting my own creative venture with my stickers for animal advocacy i designed arriving and putting them on a few poles today
-feeling excitement for life
-growing as a person
-cleaning and doing laundry today
-cleaning products
-yoga
-physical exercise
-my arms slimming out
-surrendering
-my muscles being nice and sore from working out
-finding a new book to buy
-smiling
-getting my baby pink venus et fleur roses in the mail
-being a caring person
-deleting all my phone numbers to start fresh
-leaving a voice mail about the air conditioner
-self-care
-seeing l cat so at bliss outside living her life today
-cuteness
-how nice it is for my clothes to fit a little better
-my creativity
-my talent

-my beauty
-having a new look
-positive people supporting others
-the day having a positive feel in the air
-my neighbor across the street calling me to come down and including me today
-cuteness
-having a caring heart
-pills to calm down
-nightskies
-air conditioning
-sleep
-good skincare products
-my dad cash-apping me some money
-fireworks
-water
-fun
-self forgiveness
-my new gucci purse
-physical exercise
-the weather feeling nicer outside
-my lip beauty products
-blankets
-pillows
-cleaning
-my new birthday baby pink roses
-kindness
-my neon heart lamp
-my balcony
-surrendering
-becoming more creative again little by little
-my intelligence
-my style
-figuring out how to make the apartment cooler with the a.c
-my arms slimming out
-having a unique model look
-being a creative

-hope
-m's husband being back from the hospital and being ok
-H cat looking not too bad at all last time i seen him
-cuteness
-love
-hyaluronic acid
-being blonde now and how good it's been looking
-fashion
-my sense of style
-m being there for me once her husband got sick the last days and being nice and reasonable
-m giving me money the other day and taking me with her to class
-the decision i made to get undereye filler earlier in the month
-water
-xanax
-how vibrant colors and visually everything looks on xanax
-getting back to my fitbit walks
-air conditioning
-doing all my dishes tonight
-vegan sausage breakfast sandwiches
-that it seems like the disaster unemployment will be extended
-the starbucks frappucino drink i like made vegan with vanilla flavoring and a touch of raspberry and espresso shots
-nightskies
-my balcony
-humor
-friendly people
-makeup
-looking good without makeup
-yoga
-humor
-things that make smile
-appreciating the little things
-lip sleeping masks
-my beauty
-having a nice body
-feeling confident enough to wear a tank top outside the house today
-face rollers and eye massage
-my face looking very youthful today
-ibuprofen
-being proactive and taking activism causes for things i care about
-my burberry hoodie
-hairties
-inspiration
-art
-flowers
-beauty
-trees
-the sky
-holistic wellness and treatments
-getting some bills deferred

-fashion
-body acceptance
-chargers
-water
-doing a fitbit walk today
-talking to M's husband today on the phone
-prayer
-reading a few pages of my new book
-xanax
-people finding me attractive
-working on forgiveness
-nightskies
-shorts
-the undereye filler i got earlier this month
-speaking up for myself in heated voicemails and email to building manager after getting a shady notice on my door
-being smart
-my hair color
-my abs starting to look more sculpted
-bug repellant spray
-air conditioning working better
-getting the chair i didnt want refunded
-my wit
-smiling
-flowers
-botox and filler
-being smart

-making somewhat amends with D, the guy i was hooking up with last month
-water
-handwashing clothes
-getting that time of the month
-M's husband doing better and talking to him on the phone today
-standing up for myself
-H cat doing better
-yin yoga
-great deals
-listening to some solar plexus and theta beats music
-clothes being slightly looser today
-inspiration
-air conditioning
-peace
-being smart
-thinking for myself
-fillers and botox
-doing a smidge of dance cardio today
-my large rose quartz heart crystal
-entertainment

-self-awareness
-trying to be objective
-coffee at home
-the weather being cooler
-having my a.c off
-injections, fillers, and cosmetic procedures
-stretching
-my new joggers
-weight going down and fasting getting easier
-vitamin c and zinc
-my balcony
-knowing i have resources to better myself, and my healing
-my retinol hand serum
-talking to M's husband on the phone
-deciding to turn to God and surrender
-cleaning
-getting groceries last night
-my endurance picking up and getting back on track with fitness again
-going for a walk with M last night and her friend
-focusing on my self-nourishment
-trying to trust God and let go
-deciding after some last reflection later tonight i'm going no contact with D, because he plays too many games and is trying to do things to make me feel jealous
-the sale i made on poshmark recently
-the last hookup i had with D last week when i turned to him. I told i wanted to be alliances and was ready to be friends. I was stressed about drama from neighbor across the street and he invited me over and i said as friends and we ended up hooking up and it was mostly really good.
-D's kisses. He's one of the best kissers.
-feeling a little better today
-having nice curves
-my confidence going up little by little and empowerment
-fashion
-eyeliner
-clean clothes
-water
-cleaning products
-self compassion
-thinking for myself
-compliments
-having nice hair
-being smart
-yoga
-cuteness
-being a giving person
-being kind

-being strong
-prayer
-getting up to 5 miles again in walking
-clothes starting to fit a little better again
-seeing D downstairs seemed to be home all day today
-meditation
-clarity
-M's husband being done with his quarantine today
-doing laundry today
-getting my eyebrows threaded today
-getting pink balloons today
-fashion
-letting my confidence come back and sense of empowerment
-taking things one day at a time
-colors
-my gucci purse i bought this summer
-my balcony
-being able to leave my a.c off and the weather cooling off some
-nightskies
-my fabric refresh spray
-makeup
-sleep
-friendliness
-music
-cuteness
-water

-my strength
-hope
-ativan
-naps
-walking 5 miles today
-things working out for my mom today
-the weather cooling off a bit
-fashion
-sleeping masks
-under-eye filler
-my fitbit
-clothes fitting better on me and looser
-getting enough funds in my account to write a rent check tomorrow
-water
-coffee
-colors
-having a great eye
-my rose face primer
-my retinol hand serum
-meditation
-prayer
-being kind
-being smart
-being forgiving
-my neon heart lamp
-blankets
-doing some reading in my book on forgiveness and trying to apply the principles in my mind
-buying some lip balms today
-sweeping the kitchen floor and cleaning the walls
-lysol spray
-self-compassion
-motivation
-taking things one day at a time
-massage
-mantras

-healing
-air conditioning
-walking 5 miles
-my hair
-being peace
-mopping my kitchen floor
-fashion
-losing weight
-mailing a rent check today
-fashion
-being productive
-prayer
-meditation
-affirmations
-being smart
-showers
-water
-coffee
-progress on next relief bill finally starting to happen
-having a ride for tomorrow
-nice weather today
-music
-laughter
-charcoal toothpaste
-sportsbras
-colors
-how vivid colors are on xanax
-having nice curves
-self compassion
-getting better about taking my vitamins
-my fitbit
-support from others
-being a nice person
-hyaluronic acid
-my retinol hand serum
-art
-inspiration

-staying strong
-staying logical
-being able to think for myself
-M's husband taking me out to lunch today
-my hair color
-my face looking slimmer
-hair ties
-my fashion sense
-having a kind heart
-my neon heart lamp
-sleep
-meditation
-reflection
-my new shirt from asos
-my gucci purse i wore today
-getting groceries and quarters today
-water
-coffee
-my pills
-buying myself some sunflowers
-air conditioning
-m getting me the lavender epsom bath salts
-ibuprofen
-having a great face
-the breeze at night
-physical exercise
-taking my vitamins
-prayer
-hearing how well H cat is doing
-taking advice i agree with
-mantras
-self compassion
-being productive
-laughter
-my beauty
-having a kind heart
-striving for peace
-having enough to pay off the rest of my rent for this month tomorrow
-smiling
-humor