GRATITUDE LIST

-benzos
-not ordering out today
-d and i having our first awkward interaction yesterday, and accidental running into each other since we first got together ,besides the time he waited to say hi to me and i walked past him without a word for having been ignoring my texts. My guess is, since i was waiting longer then expected, he didn't expect to see me. I looked behind me, and seen his face looking at me through the window door and then i moved to make space for him, and he said hello to me with the most F-you face ever. He had never looked at me like that before. And, I responded and said hello and for some reason had a smug look on my face. i'm grateful we had some kind of interaction even though it hurt and that at least it shows he has feelings. From his eyes through the door, to the anger when he said hi, there was no indifference there.
-ginger
-healthy digestion
-baby wipes
-slippers
-getting paid
-cleaning and de-cluttering
-makeup
-new work photos
-feeling like i look more exotic with appearance changes i made including my hair color
-fashion
-botox
-buying a ticket out of town for a short trip
-hyaluronic acid
-yoga
-using my fascia roller on my stomach today
-sleeping without clothes on
-my acupressure mat
-blankets
-slippers
-pillows
-wearing mascara yesterday and seeing that latisse is definitely taking on a little bit of an effect
-meditating on the balcony today
-hope
-feeling my feelings
-ideas
-being smart
-cuteness
-sex
-healing
-prayer
-colors
-art
-having nice lips
-deodorant
-having nice eyes
-learning
-evolving as a person
-water
-having talents
-beauty

-my fascia blaster
-showering
-latisse
-sleeping masks
-going for a drive and getting starbucks and talking about the D situation with M's husband
-my hair color
-beautiful things
-benzos and my antidepressant
-water
-the lingerie i got in the mail looking really cute
-a new post for a social media i decided was a great fit
-glycolic acid
-water
-botox
-pillows
-blankets
-compassion for self
-naps
-having a warm apartment
-slippers
-moisturizers
-entertainment
-deodorant
-baby wipes
-being able to laugh at myself
-having goals
-beauty
-my beauty
-botox
-interesting reflections
-having an artistic mindset
-de-cluttering and cleaning
-listening to crown chakra music tonight
-guacamole
-my strength
-trying to focus on the good things
-inspiration

-my strength
-entertainment
-learning
-my sex appeal
-sleep
-being productive
-joggers
-drinking more water
-dancing
-stretching
-lighting
-self reassurances
-baby wipes
-showering
-my beauty
-fabric refresh spray
-fabric conditioner
-lint rollers
-latisse
-compassion for self
-my acupressure mat
-fascia blasting
-my pills i take shortly after waking
-beauty
-cleaning and decluttering
-makeup
-hand wash
-blankets
-pillows
-slippers
-nightskies
-those who try to make the world a better place
-my intelligence
-prayer
-having goals
-cuteness
-smiling
-inspiration
-romance
-changing my ringtone

-that D didn't accept the cashapp
-that i healed and recovered from my nervous breakdown today
-my laptop
-starbucks
-buying myself flowers, a beautiful new vase, and a bottle of rose champagne to love myself after D and i officially ending things last night/this morning
-hyaluronic acid
-my dolce and gabbana sunglasses
-booking roundtrip tix to miami work
-getting my lips filled yesterday
-walking around and window shopping yesterday
-drinking more water
-botox
-M's husband getting more info on resources/ new plans to get H cat and W cat to vet
-flowers
-beauty
-my beauty
-my femininity
-being smart
-updating online things
-cleaning and de-cluttering
-standing up for myself after D's b.s this morning
-ideas
-having beautiful eyes
-joggers
-yoga
-dancing
-newness
-my lower body feeling more toned
-benzos
-ideas
-evolving and bettering myself
-reassurances
-M's husband saying today when i said it's officially over with me and D that it's never officially over
-cats
-cuteness
-my laptop
-deodorant
-my hearts desires
-inspiration
-trying to put myself in a meditative mindset
-being unique

-art
-learning new things
-sleep
-self forgiveness
-compassion for self
-my rad milano hoodie
-getting my juvederm done
-moisturizers
-switching purses and wallets
-cleaning and decluttering
-benzos
-coming out of my breakdown yesterday and everything working out
-my pretty flowers i bought yesterday
-showering
-starbucks
-coffee
-botox
-the new vase i bought myself
-buying myself rose champagne
-caring people
-people who care about and save animals
-new ideas
-solutions
-blankets
-pillows
-talking to M's husband
-felines
-people checking on me today
-hyaluronic acid
-water
-cleaning and decluttering
-fashion
-cats
-my acupressure mat
-my natural beauty
-having a nice chest
-fashion
-laughter and humor

-having nice glowy skin
-hyaluronic acid
-juvederm
-sleep
-getting B cat to his vet appt
-seeing something very strange that looked propped like D is messing with me, which if so, shows he still cares
-yoga
-people caring and checking in on me
-baby wipes
-drinking more water
-moisturizers
-coffee
-lemon pie
-lighting
-cleaning and re-organizing
-fashion and my sense of style
-getting a gift for B cat
-skipping meals
-my beauty
-compliments
-kindness
-blankets
-meditation
-beauty
-inspiration
-hot guys
-my upcoming work/get away trip
-newness
-projects and ideas im working on
-slippers
-talking to M's husband today
-cleanliness
-prayer
-sunshine
-those who help animals, animal activists, and animal heroes
-being smart
-being able to think for myself
-healing
-entertainment
-wellness
-love
-reflection
-pleasant life moments
-fun
-pillows

-having nice glowy skin
-botox
-juvederm
-hyaluronic acid
-doing some fascia blasting today and working with my acupressure mat
-drinking more water
-rest
-remembering me and D and D in general moments, like when he revealed he had been thinking about me and keeping tabs on me even before we first exchanged phone numbers
-romance
-love
-meditation
-chemistry between another
-sunshine
-compliments
-anxiety meds
-having great cheekbones
-my intelligence
-having dinner today
-my power
-the sound of the breeze and peaceful sounds when the window is open
-my accomplishments
-fashion
-my femininity
-showering
-connection
-cats
-colors
-flowers
-being unique
-decluttering
-beauty
-hot guys
-self renewing
-remembering fun and goals
-moisturizers
-having a unique sexy look
-having a large chest
-having beautiful eyes
-mobile editing apps
-blankets
-slippers
-being kind
-being assertive
-being kinder to myself
-pillows
-art
-heart warming videos, stories, and photos
-lighting
-sportsbras
-surrender
-intention manifesting
-working towards my goals

-fighting for justice
-calming down
-tissue salts
-my beauty
-my hair
-getting underneath someone else to get back at D for not protecting me and feeling like he's not on my side
-being social last night
-embracing my truth and imperfection
-compliments
-seeing and experiencing new things
-getting an order of production
-fashion
-my style
-my resilience
-my faith W cat will find his way home
-getting some of my stimulus check
-being smart
-my pink pastel buttons bracelet
-how great my pink money robe looks on me
-sex
-makeup
-fun
-sleep
-calming down
-my determination
-using my pain as fuel
-booking hotel for my upcoming trip
-surrender

-fashion
-botox
-fillers
-reflection
-my hair color
-trying to have faith
-hair ties
-my pink money robe
-tips and ideas
-sleep
-A talking to me and being a little nicer again
-fashion
-starbucks
-colors
-my acupressure mat
-deep stretches
-entertainment
-kind and supportive people
-animals
-animal activists, animal heroes, and those who make the world a better place for animals
-sweets
-moisturizers
-cleaning
-good skincare ingredients
-my resilence
-fighting for my rights
-finding away to fix my unemployment issues
-showering
-hyaluronic acid
-a new notebook for making to do lists
-colors
-my new gold marker
-newness
-my goals
-self awareness
-inspiration
-owning my crazy
-owning my truth
-slippers
-inspiration
-water
-pills to blank out
-showering
-being smart
-blankets
-creativity
-music

-serendipity/synchronicity
-getting a manicure today
-reflection
-being high status
-being a kind person
-confidence
-my sense of style
-my hair color
-showering
-drinking more water
-self nourishment
-sleep
-the tenant getting a cease and desist that screamed at me the other day
-the other tenant getting her restraining order by now
-a lot of people coming out to support me and one colleague offering to get me story out there to several news stations
-kindness
-making others happy
-massage
-being strong
-my pastel buttons and fake pearls bracelet
-being productive
-compliments
-art
-inspiration
-soothing feelings
-love
-felines
-hairties
-hoodies
-my beauty
-talking to A.J on the phone today
-icons
-having a large chest
-colors
-trying to surrender
-nightskies
-the way the moon and trees looked tonight
-my dolce and gabbana sunglasses
-ideas
-dancing
-music
-baby wipes
-moisturizers
-tissue salts
-clean clothes
-appreciation
-empathy
-laughing
-working to better myself
-starbucks
-vegan food
-my new mint green notebook and the pink chanel gap tooth lips with drip sticker i put on it