Originally Posted by Tempestinateapot
I knew what was going on. It's pretty clear. The death of the ego. How can that possibly be a positive action as it's going on? You are killing everything you knew to be "true". You are laid bare, dreams dashed, hopes dashed, beliefs crushed into the ground, as McKenna would say, exploding and bleeding all over the place. There isn't a pretty way to do this. The ego is fighting for it's life. It's quite depressing. If it's not, you didn't actually do it. This isn't someting that you do now and then. This is all out war, you either do it, or you die trying. And, you do it once. There is one breakthrough, no more. You're there or you're not.