IA´s dream diary....

In last night dream I was going into a house...but before I reached the house I met a huge black dog...it was pitch black outside so first I had difficulty to see the dog...I felt it first...and my body reacted with fear but my mind was at ease and this did surprise me...first time I feel mind being separated from my body awearness....I sat on the porch and was wondering what the dog will react to...to my body or mind...and I was surprised that it was not the body...if it had bean it had attaced me....so I let the dog smell me and it was calm and all was good...I was able to in peace to enter my house....

In last night dream I was with a man...and we where to a pond...with very dark and murky water...down in the depths was some kind of creature...he wanted me to look at it...but I did not dare...he put his face under the water and looked...but he did not want to tell me what it was...so I never looked down into the water....

In this episode I was with people and they wanted me to see something...instantly I felt so high fear that I closed my eyes and never opened them...I had seen a glimse of a creature ...and I knew that it will spin very high speed but I was afraid something bad happens to me....so like a child I held my eyes closed and nothing bad happened...but I do not know what the creature was and for what it´s spinning was creating....

In last nights dream I was in my appartament and I felt something from the door into my appartament....I felt the door was not locked...so I put one hand on the handle and the other hand to the lock and I felt very strong energy blocking me from locking my door...the energy was so strong that I felt instantly huge fear...so deep fear that I woke up and was not able to go to sleep again...the fear gave me such an energy ruch so I am totally awake ....more awake then I have felt in months....

In this episode I was whipped on my behind I said ...Now my behind cracked...when I looked on the floor it was covered in blood.....

In last night dream I got a envelope given to me by a man...he had police with him and they make notes....I asked what is it about...and when I read the note...it was a crime done by people I do not even know...but they tried to force this on me...and the man tried me to take another note...he forced it in my hand...but I did not close my hand to take it...I said...I do not take this...I have nothing to do with it...and the police make notes...and they left me....??

In last night dream I had 3 cat´s and a ram....???They where abondenet in a old barn...it was a grey cat, black and ginger cat....the ram was white....

In last night dream I was in a math class...we had to calculate first plane and then - 0,2 and + 0,2....I am bad in math so I was concerned how to do this...then I noticed that the caldulater I had had this -0,2 and +0,2 in the calculator so then I felt ...I can do this...and felt better and my angziety vanisched....

Had a feeling that this class was to increase my selfconfidence....

The last days dreams has bean totally impossible to put in words....so I have bean pondering when the opening will come for me to get a hunch about the content of the dreams...so this night I got some understanding....the dream was like this...I was waiting for some help...and the help come by a boat...huge...I was so happy to be invited into this big boat...I felt saved...but what happened was that this big boat did not care what happened to the other small boats...they did squeezing and drowning the small boats and did not care what happened to them...I felt that I had made a wrong choice...and I did not want to be on this big boat even if it did save my life...but what kind of life will I have to have so many others lives on my mind and knowing what happened to them...so this did show me that we never can be sure the outcome of our choices...even if we think we make a good choice...it may show to be the most wrong choice of them all....I feel awful today. and feel so unsecure and fear to make any choices at all in my life....first I was luored into feel good about myself and now this...to take me down totally...how to built stabillity and better secure about making choices...because that is what the life is about...making choices and taking responsicillity of them.

In last night dream I was back to a magazin I was working when I was young....I have own office...and 2 co-workers come to visit me...and they ask if we will soon have a meeting....my first thought was...in what position do I have here today...I try to understand from the co-workers but they do not say anything so I would understand what kind of office I have....I joke to the female co-worker that we maby would have a meeting about charks...aka...male.....I look at the male co-worker if he understands the joke...he looks little bit sad...so I say...aw....no everyone will work together....

In this episode I am with me childhood friend...she is on the other side...she have a flower garland on her head...and she is asking me what she should work with...I say...you should start again to take photograps...you where so good on that....and you may then put some slogans on the photograps with some deep meaning in....and sell.....she looks at me and asks...you think I was good photographer....yes you where....

I am good to givr advise to others...but can not work out what I am good at...??

In this episode I was totally missunderstood by a female...she did make a move towards me...and I had to tell her...no...I said...I am sorry if I have given you mixed feelings....Itold this to my friend and I was cincerely sorry and aske her if I am so indistinct??

Last night dream was again those dreams you do not know how to wordy .....I was looking at a image of something...it was in dawn light so I had to focus to really understand what I am looking at...when I got the image that it was an alien...then I panict...and wanted to awaken me from the dream....but before I got awaken I saw like bright light power lines.....a thought come up...are they wiring the image by the nerv threads direct to my eyes....or is there power lines outside of my body what I am linked too???

In last night dream me with others where looking for to find what raimin means...we went to a place to look into old telephone direktory but nothing....I asked if we should look into a dictionary instead to find what the word means......