In last night dream I was carrying a painting in beautiful golden frame, the picture in the painting was a lady in blue dress.....
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In last night dream I was carrying a painting in beautiful golden frame, the picture in the painting was a lady in blue dress.....
In last night dream I was in my house looking out of the window, outside was a monster-demon protecting me, he was fighting to protect me. I first felt good about it but he did become more furious and wild as more resistant he faced, I now was unsure if he has developed out of line and not anymore for me to either to control him? I now locked the window lock, this lock was that no-one can force it, I did feel more fear that he will become more furious noticing that I have locked him out, but he did come to check me out and did notice me locking him ut, he did accept it to my surprise....he knew himself totally.
Last night dream I was shown by a man a backgammon play but in Swedish it is called Kina Schack or translated China Chess..it is with marbles in different colorer, at least 2 player but can be up to 6 players if I am not mistaken me, this was the only thing I wanted to play as child.
Then I was shown the text I do not remember so I use xx where the text was .....
xxx 3
xxx 0
xxx 9
When I saw the 0 I reacted and it is why I remember it but do not remember the text before the numbers.
Last night I was with a women, we had water in glass with us...I was so thirsty so I took one glass and started to drink....she saw it and she took the glass from my hand and said it is not for drinking and that it is dangerous ....I looked into the glass and now I saw it was slightly another color then water and it was more heavy and oily...I asked if I shall try to throw it up, so I started to make me throw up...and I did it so hard that I was nearly throwing up for real and I woke up it was so real......
She never told me what it was and why we had it in glass like the real water??...I wonder what it was??
In last night dream I was shown a book cover...it was in black and gold...and it pictured a man in a uniform....and the name started with J......and it was said he was a socialist....
No clue why??
n last night dream I was shown a picture of cross section of a head, those what they have in medical books....I was shown the larynx and vocal chords....and some place on the head what I did not catch the name of...
I understand this to be shown the injuries what I have after a surgery when my thyroid gland was removed the vocal chords was injured...I have had episodes in years when I am total bed bound, horrible head ache...since I have eaten pain killers for years because of my body injuries...I had a episode for 1,5 moths ago...it was so severe that I couldn't take any pain killers only the medicin of thyroid gland hormone since I do not have any gland left....my doctor have hinted that my head ache may be because of the pain killers...I said NO to that because I felt it was not that....now I had to stop eating the pain killers and I got an new episode for 2 week´s ago and now I noticed the flash of lightening...what is very common to migraine.....the pain killers did hide the symptoms of the lightening....I am a bit worried that the severe episodes what I have had in nearly a decade have destroyed some part of my brain....or then this has something to do with some kind of kundalini outbursts I have also had.....I have had up to my heart chakra....and then I have felt like total hard tingle in my whole body....it is like if one foot sleeps, but this in my whole body...very hard buzz and tingle??
Last night dream I come home and noticed that my apartments door was wide open, in my kitchen was my uncle sitting with a baby in his arms...he asked me if I could take care for a moment of his baby, he needed to fill his car with gas....I took the baby in my arms...and I looked him in his eyes and said....do you know that I am your cousin....the baby pondered on my saying...and then I continued...my father is your fathers brother....now the baby looked at my flowers and asked....is those sword lilies....we have two of them...and when I looked at mine I hade like a dozen of them....
In this part of the dream I hear one man say...I can´t hire my own voice....and that made me feel....so you are planning someone other to talk to me with your voice...if it was possible, but why?? I never understood it in the dream why he even was thinking about it??
In this episode I saw 3 men digging a grave, and when I come near them they did put theirs hand to cover they eyes...my light was so bright it blinded them...but they where afraid of me??
In this episode I was shot by a gun.......?? I just hope one of my egotistic side´s was shot to death....
In last night dreams was a bit odd...no coherency what so ever....I was with a man who did not have any money...so I gave him 3000 kr for him to take me out...we did not spend so much money at all...we did go to one restaurant to eat...and basically it was that...then we went to one concert it was free... it did show up to be one church event...so they did take collection and I asked for the wallet and he was hesitant...when I opened the wallet I did understand why he was hesitant...there was only two 50 kr bills left...I did not want to ask him where the money went...I did not want to embarrass him at the concert...and when we was out of the concert I did not dare to ask him what he have done with the money....I said to him..we are near your mother why do we not visit her....he was surprised but he did accept...I said to him that I want to buy flowers to her....I saw a bit down a window with flowers so I assumed it was a florist...but suddenly we was at his mothers home...I was surprised that we did not buy flowers..so I hugged her and I said...I have to go out for a bit...but I am back soon....I went to the house what I thought was a florist...but when I opened the door it was a crematorium...I was chocked...I looked around and the arounding was like I was in Greece...wow ...it was beautiful....Now I spotted an ICA store...I looked down on me to see what I was wearing...I had a top and jeans...no hand-bag...I put my hand in my pocket and I had my bank-card with me...so no worries....but suddenly I was again back to his mothers home...and she was cooking...she asked me to help her ...she had whole owen full of food...I said...oh so much food...it is to a whole company...here I awoke myself...I did not undertand at all the dream sequences ....
The only thing what I did understand from this dream is...my fear to ask for answers..I have conflict fear....
When I had my own company, many men lended money from me, I never get back any of them....
Last night dream I was back to a hospital and I was working there, I couldn't understand what I was doing there because in real life I am retired....I did have pain in my lower back as I have in real life...and I can´t stand on my feet´s too long because of the pain, it increases the more I stand or walk, and I have to sit down....So I asked my co-worker what I was doing there but she did not know...she disappeared...so I went to look for her...I did see her standing in a doorway into a big auditorium..I looked into the auditorium and I saw full of people...doctors and nurses...I went away, but I was called by the head nurse and she wanted to talk to me....I said to her that I can´t be here, I have so much pain in my back...she tried to keep me as long as possible for some reason...now she called her 3 children to come and meet me...I love children...I talked to them and now I looked at her and she looked sad...I said...3 children it is much work...yes she said....now I felt that why she wanted to keep me there was to comfort her.....
Last night dream was very disturbing to me...I did share apartment with 2 men who was a couple with a little baby....we shared the washing machine too...I had so much laundry and the one of the men was washing but had got out for shopping in middle of his washing, and now the time was late and he was not ready yet, so I was so irritated and did let him know how bad planning of time...his partner was the one who did finish the washing of the baby´s clothing.....
Last night dream I hear an infant crying hysterically...I open my door and I see my nabo she looks very pale and I say to her...I can take care of your baby...but when I entered into the apartment I see a hospital bed in the living-room ...in the bed is a young women...she has hair tangled on her face and she is shaking her hands in the air...I take her hand...and I say gentle...hi...she stops at once crying and looks straight in my eyes...oh hi...I say...now you went surprised when you notice it is not your mother....she tries to talk..but she is spasming so bad that I have difficulty to hear what she is saying...so her mother interprets....she asked me if I have seen the film Alladin ....but in my mind I did see a sequence from the film Scoopy Do ....
In this sequence I am starting to see something from 1880...but I did become so exited so I was back awake in my bed....
In last night dream I was separated from my son because his father was so jealous so he deported me to another dimention...I was looking upwards to try to find him...and one day I spotted him, he had build a device so we could see eachother..suddenly I saw his father behind him and he switched quickly so it looked like he was looking at a bird in a cage...and then when his father left the room he switche back so we could look at eachothers again....
In last night dream I was talking to a Young man who was suicidal...I told him that parenting does not come with a manual, everyone has to just be there for the children...I told him that he have got a divine responsibillity...he listened and started to put clothings on him....and he said...it is his feeding time...so he went to take care of his child.
In this episode someone called me by my name...I couldn´t locate it...so I asked...where are you....here the voice said...and I looked at the parking place and saw a man sitting in a car an wawing to me...I saw 2 cars with criminals....I felt it was a trap....He tried me to say that I know him....I looked at him...but I did not at all know who he is...I said...I don´t know you...so if I had said I know him...or pretended that I did...then something bad would have happened....but I did not lie...I did not know him...he wanted me to buy stolen things.....
In this episode all our relatives was having a some sort of celebration...I saw my sisters son outside the place...He did not dare to come in for some reason...I Went out to him and I hugged him and told him to come in...he hesitated...I embraced him and started to take him with me in...he said...stop...wait....I have no socks on me....??
One white cat tried to say something...but he just shook his head...I did not make anything out of it....??
In last night dream i was at my mothers birth-home...I was there with my gf...she told me that she have invited a friend of her to come over...I asked if she have bean togeather with her...she did not want to say...but I insisted and then she said...yes...but then she is your ex-lover...how on earth did you invite her to my relatives...I told her that pack her things and go with her before I make a huge scen...she tried to hit me...but I said...stop...do you want me to yell at you so my grandfather will hear and know about you....when I looked at them leaving...they where just mist...
I was in shock in my dream last night...I felt arousal and suddenly a whole bunch of birds flow into my room and stopping my arousal??..they waited until I was normal again, before they left....
This seequnce I was looking at tools you use when skulpting...In the dream I knew how to use them...but in real life not...
In last night dream I was outside my house, I saw in front of the house a big beast..bear-like...huge like a grizzly...I knew my uncle T was back-side of the house...I run to him and told him to come inside the house...and when we entered inside the house I told him that in front-side was this huge beast...the big window wall we could see the beast but my uncle went outside..I was in panic...but to my surprise he did bend the beast jaws and overpowered the beast....I was flabbergasted and in awe...wow..I have never seen him as that strong and fearless.....
Last night dream was about not letting me take the train...I tried on several way´s to get ombord the train...I was not getting the ticket, people did make it hard for me to get to the ticket booking office..and when I reached the booking office, train Went, and they told me that the next train tickets are not awileble yet, I need to come back...and when I come back it started agaian people making it hard for me to get the ticket and the train Went....
I tried to take Another way to get to buy the tickets, but it was so hard....and I did not get to travel...I had to stay....
I am sure this is a hint for me to stay and sort out what is bothering me...and I will get to it...seriuosly....the thread of Good and Evil....but I need more time to get to grief...I am crying inwardly...and must let it to surface outwardly to tears....I have a fear...that what is beyond is to get back to basic...and with it I mean...the atoms what my innermost is upbuild up from....when they have done all what they do when they manifest...when the manifestation is done in evey lever...it is done..and it retuns to its origin...tears is burning ...I will drown .....
Last night dream I was to afterlife....My purpose was to map it out??...But I was distracted by my first husband A....He come so near me and I felt arousal...he called me Eva...I said...my name is not Eva....oh sorry he said....he started to plan our life together now when we met again....it was hard to keep focus what I was doing there and soon I forgot it ....I noticed that I had feelings still for him...I never thought I had....I was surprised.
I called me Eva in my teens, I never used my own name...but my first husbands first women whom he had 2 children with...they where never married...her name is Eva....he went back to her after our divorse...
In last night dream I was counting my birds...I had 8.....my cousins P had got one wild bird from nature to mate her birds...I had my balcony near her´s so this wild bird did flew into my apartament....I did notice that I had spruce trees in my apartament a whole wall, the wild bird did flew into it...I told my son and his son to get the bird out...but it was not easy...I told them to leave the balcony door open it will soon flew out.....
I awoke this morning with nausea and head-ache....The dream I had last night was about my meeting with the yoga instructor R.....in the dream he said...Close your eyes...and I did...I did see him more clear then with my open eyes....I told him that where shall I look...I see you so clear....he said...you are so talented??....he was pure kindness....it did chock me in positive way....as I am ready to meet un-kindness...I do believe he will do difference in me and my life....I am happy.
I still have head-ache and nausea....Last night dream was bizarr....I was with my childhood friend T (she is no longer with us) we where on a Cruise liner...we was naked?? entering into a room where everyone was naked...my friend T did hug and kiss the nearest couple...and I backed out of the room....I thought we where going to sauna...so I Went back where whe have left our clothings...I had key to a cabin...but I was not able to see the number so I asked one man if he can see what number it is...he said it is number 10..I did find it and the key did fit....the man asked me if I was (he said my sisters name) I was so surprised so I did not correct him, I let him think he was right....the cabin was very small but it had 2 beds...I did see my white pants was wet...I notice there was a towel dryer, I did put the wet pants on it to dry....I started to make the beds, I was thinking she might come late and it is good if the bed is done so she can go to sleep easy.....
Last night I have slept bad...I was so easely choked and spooked??...like...I saw a green plant what wibrated....that scared me....I hear someone say...Tommy is not at home...and I felt fear?? ..like this was my whole night...I am exhausted....
Last night I was visiting a heart doctor...it was one male and female...the male was my doctor...the nurses told me that they shall switch me to the female doctor because they knew the male doctor was fond of me and it is not ethical for him to do that because me being his patient....so the nurses wanted to help both of us....I was surprised how deeply they have understood the situation, more then me...it was critical when they shifted me to the female doctor if there willl be some difficulty if she would understand the dilemma...but all went well...
Last night was what was happening in my deam state informativ but I am so sad I do not remember more than this....when I was sleeping on my left side it was important for something i do not remember no....likewise when I was sleeping on my right side...or on my back....it was helping properties both in my body and energy levels or energy bodies....frustrating that I do not remember more...but I am sure it will be clear one day ...so patience be disired.
WoW..last night dream did take me to the place in me what I assume to be my personal belief world....as I see myself to be in acceptance of others without judging.....accept others choices in Life without judging....feeling happy for them and hope others not to judge me and let me make my choices and accept them as I accept others choices ....
The dream was me being present when people did be babtised into religions...I was happy with them they have taken stand and marking they path so to speak....I was total okay with that....but I become very angry when they sudgested me to also babtise me into theires religion....I said NO...
I have made my stand point as I have not heard about other than Jesus Christ to free all and not judge anyone...I know that His message was to say...to take heart in theires belief....and be faithful to it...because every religion has the same core...LOVE....Jesus did not come to start a religion at all...He had to come and show the way to freedom...a new way to be....free.
I have in this lifetime faced this dilemma...the first time was in the 90-ties with my second husband...I opened my heart for the LOVE and deliverance...we did move up North and that city had all kind of religions represented...they did visit us and asked us to join theires Church....I was so happy to get so much attention...and I did visit all of them....but my husband was furious...he did say with Power in his voice...that I was not allowed to join any other Church but the state Church...and it was end of discussion....I joined that Church what my husband apointed for me....
I am happy to have made this journey of religion...
Second time this happened for some years ago...now my personal stand point was developed in me....NOT to join ANY Church what so ever....because what I have learned it only make false signals to others....in my world all religions are the same....all religions have the same core...LOVE..not to judge and not to exclude....
So last night dream did make me angry that I was asked to be babtised into a specific Church....
I was also in one seequnce seen several bottles...and was asked to choose among them....I understand this symbol totally...it is to one by one release my up bound energies in me...and free them.
It has begun....
Last night dream I see a women left to sleep on the street...I decided to have an eye on her...I was nearly sure at one point that she is dead...I said so to several persons but no one reacted...I did not know what to do...but then one day she moved....oh...she is not dead....I approached her and she told me that she has terrible lower back pain...I asked if I can give her massage...and she said yes....I gentle moved her on her side and massaged her lower back...
In last night dream I was protecting my child...I hold him in my arms and I was bend down nearly to the ground...I was in a hut or under a tarpaulin...I did see throgh a little slit...a huge grizzly...putting his paw on my neck...I did tensen up and I was waiting for it to tear me apart...I relaxed..waiting...nothing happened..
In this part of the dream ...I was standing on a latter and looking down...it was a horse farm...a man asked me what I was doing there...what kind of chores I did...I smiled and said...no I am not a employee of yours...I just visit a friend here....
In last night dream I was asked what I am....I said I am bisexual...but I choose to be hetero...they said I have to give my clotings to them...first I said NO but they said I can´t resist, I have to do as they say....I noticed I hade a male shirt on me...this did surprise me...and I was little bit curious what I had under the shirt...I had my female body... felt relieved because I felt like female in the dream....I was very surprised over my clotings.
In last night dream I gave birth to a child...soon I was preagnent again....and it was time to give birth again...I was surprised because I had no stomach what so ever....I never saw the second birth...
soon I was in a new dream....
eating breakfast with a man who said something...that is good to my collection...I asked what is...he avoided to answere me...he said a womens name...I tried to ask because I was providing for him and he want to spend money on something he do not want me to know...he did become irritated and he called me fatzo...wow I said....I like to be fat...so I think it is better you go back to her...I followed him to the door...
In last night dream I was helping people who lived on the street...we collected things others have thrown away...I was looking at a mother with her child...the child found a branch with beautiful white flowers on....No, she said to the child...put it back...only gambolas are allowed to collect them...she was afraid that some kind of guard will see it and they will be puniched.....
In last night dream I reached out for help...some said you can call Mike and Roland...I did...but they did not want to help me....woke up this morning with sore throat??
Last night dream was crazy... I had rent a cabin for my holiday...when I come to the cabin there was the old owner of the house, sitting in a Wheel-chair...dement...and no Communication what so ever...I noticed there was Telephones on the table...olde ones with wire....I did take the old owner and did rent a Place for him in a nursinghome as long as I had the cabin...I was irritated how someone can do this to an old person....one day I noticed that someone have taken my car...and left behind same colore then mine...but it was an old Volvo...without engin...and without registrating plates....insted of an registrating plate there was a decal with some numbers and letters on...I tried to write it down to call a police...but I did not be able to write it down properly, I was so upset...one nabour did come and I asked for her help, but not eigher she could write it down properly...so I did take the decal what was as a registrating plate....and Went inside the cabin to call police....but those Telephones was not ordinary phones...it Went to one nursinghome ...they did not know this man´s cabin was out for rent...so those people who did rent this cabin to me was criminals ...
it was so stressful and awful Dream what was so hard to sort out so I did awake myself from the Dream....I still feel bad because this Dream do show how I have bean fooled many times in this Life and Money have bean taken from me in wrong way....I do still feel insecurity and wondering if I really can protect myself against the World....
I had now a Heureka moment....wow....now I see this Dream clearly...of the parts of me who are unconsious of the criminals/negative parts of me whom I have to awaken and bring out of the negative state to elevate them to positves....the dementia man in Wheel-chaire is part of me who have given in because of all hardship I have had in Life...also from other lives....parts whom I have not succeeded to awaken....and they have give up...and become dement and no mobile....sitting in Wheel-chaire....wow...I see it clearly now....but how to help all them??....I Believe yoga helps.
Last night dream is the closest way for me to express it...this.....There where 2 groups...one of 16 and one of 70...the group of 70 asked me if it was not better to be in a bigger group than in a smaller one....there would be better protection.....I asked...why can´t we all be together??...so I left them and joined a group of 25 whom was a freelance group....sort of...
Last night dreams was so strong and impossible for me to be in more than few seconds ...it did repeat several times but I did not catch the deep meaning ...crownchakra was very much involved.
when I woke up my top of my head was feeling strange and I was so dizzy, I could not walk straight had to hold on walls when going into bathroom??
Last night dream had the same theam what has bean up lately....old ways or new.....I said in last night dream....vinyl....at once some said...No...said something what I now do not remember but it was something new....
This Dream takes me also back to 2002....I had 2 roups of energies visiting me...not in a dream but day-time when I was awake....the light was so bright that I had to cover my eyes...and not open them at all...I sat on a chair...eyes closed...and my hand was upraised from elbow up...when the groups did communicate with me...my right or left hand did schake....so I could decide or know what group did comminicate....that time I took that the left side was old time...and the right hand...new time.....so I did choose right hand group.....but until today I do not know what groups they where??...I did decide intuitivly....
In last night Dream I hear a conversation between me and someone else....the other says....why do you not let them do it....I hear me say....but I do not know what they will do...how can I just let them do when not knowing what they are going to do??
It is like this everytime...I am asked to let something happen and it is not explained the content of it....how can/must I decide blindlly?? ..why is not things explained so I can take a decission if to say yes or no??...I have so many times said yes or no to things what is revieled first after my answere....and I have Always felt...why did they not represent both options ...then it will be more fairness for a choose....
In last night dream was shown to me a black maxi-skirt...I know what symbol this is for me...I will give you some background info...
My mothers grandmother was born gypsy...but when she did fall in love with my mothers grandfather..White...she was thrown out of her own family...it was not accepted...and there customs are such that if you do something like this you are dead and separated from the family...you are not allowed to tell anyone about your past or your roots...so my mothers grandmother never told about who she is or was...my mother was so sad that they did not have relatives from her grandmothers side at all....she tried to ask but she just kept silence....the grandmother had gifts....the village people come to her for help...storys are told about her doings...if someone did cut bad and blood was pouring she could stop the bleeding...and one boy had haemophilia as long as she was alive she was able to keep the boy alive too but when she died the boy did die too from bleeding.....
So my dream is telling me that I am a part of this group too, by inheritance...even I do not know anything about theres customs or else....I could never wear theires clothings or follow theres customs.....I am rebelling against all kind of inboxings.....
So quostions are raised in me....who am I.....what is my core....can I be other than my core??....if a seed is of a tree....it can´t be a flower or anything else?? or can it?? Transformation...can it transform to Another shape or being totally....or is it already decided who or what you are or can be??...and that all is about accepting...even your own decire or dream is totally different and what you ever can be??...Can I by my deep decire and wish transform to what I feel or decire to be?? or is it only dreams and fairytales??
Is it this way we collect experiences?? by incarnation into new Cultures and inviroments??
In last night dream I was visiting a male friend...he had a house, several floor house...we where in a room on the top floore...a plant was growing in middle of the floore...I was just looking at it and he said...Í want to give this plant to you, if you want to have it....oh yes I said I do want it....but how is it possible for the plant to survive...it is so high up, it can impossible have it´s roots down to Earth from here high up??..He took the vinyl mat away and under it was wooden plank and when we bended it up the plants roots was under it...no soile what so ever on the roots...how has it survived??...I put the plant in a jar with water, I could see the plant be filled with water, it was just amazing...all the detailes was so clear now when it was water filled.....
The plant changed totally when I did put it into the water...it was not the plants normal inviroment....what had happened to it if I had planted it into the soile??
In the dream I was thinking...what will happen when I put the plant in soile?? but the dream did end before I had planted the plant again....so I am just thinking....what does this dream try to tell me??
I feel this Dream are trying to show me other way to see out of the box ....as I have bean thinking about the seed....the same seed will react different on different inviroment...it do not have to be soile...it can take nutrition from air too...depending on what dimention it is in.....
In last night dream my aunt (she is 85 yrs old) asked me if I have some good news to tell her...I said...Nothing new on the west front....I noticed that her face was total White and cold...she was sitting on one persons lap what did surprise me...it was a couple...I had never thought they to be friends...her daughter showed what her mother gave her...puple ballerina shoes....
One Young man asked me what my take on buffer is...I asked do you mean kunda-buffer...yes he said....I was thinking how to say it...so I choosed to say it on the traditionell way....It is the devil....I said....my feeling was it is the lower dimentions....
Last night dream is again difficult to dress in words, but I try....I was in a huge building...church feeling...as a catethral....I knew that my very best friend was living in this building....I entered into the building and I was in such an awe.....I was looking up to the seeling and around the inside of the building....suddenly the whole huge room was filled with dogs....my heart drop...I am afraid of dogs....I hear my friend hallo to me and catching my attention....I hallo back and I said...you may not remember but I am so afraid of dogs...but to my surprise the dogs was not as I am used how dogs approach me usually....so my fear started to sease.... I suddenly was outside the building and in some kind of village...I remebered that I had parked my car outside of the friends huge building...the Church like one....I tried to ask if people knew and show me the way back to the Church...No one did understand what building I was refering to....they said there is no Church here....
This dream gives me the feeling I have in all day feeling...the Words I have to try to be understood is not here...and how I try to express my inner surroundings...I use eighder wrong way to Picture it...or no-one have ever bean in the same dimentions as I have....and therefore I am not understood in right way...
As in this dream I used Word Church for the huge building...maybe it was know as a casle...and therefore no-one did understand what building I was reffering to....
In the dream this knowledge felt total true to me....
A thought come to me...maybe I was in Another dimention...and in that other dimention is so different that the Words I used is unknown to them??..the first Dream was in one dimention and then I suddenly was in Another dimention...but I thought I was still in the same dimention as in the beginning of the Dream....yes...that sounds right....
In last night dream I was with a group rescuing children whom had bean kidnapped....we had to hide in a place where it was huge risk to be caught...we had to waite for an ambulance to help us to transport the children securely away....they did not stop ambulances, it was the best way to do it....but it was hard to keep the children quiet...they where children...
This seequence is strange...the question was ...who is Jesus in the animal world...the answere was....Joe the Panda....
Last night dream was much disturbing...I was in an inviroment what tried to be something else what it was....what was disturbing was that I was not able to control my thoughts or my feelings....I was like paralysed....I could only observe..I was like dragged backwards...and noticing things..but I couldn´t react.....even that the inhabitants was white...I could see them as lower and like bacterias or hellish....when I was out of that habitan...and feeling "normal" I noticed I had a lumb on my back...it felt like rubber...and it had strong arms and hands...holding my hands...around my wrists....and being all over my back...it´s head was much like a otctopyssy....and I could not see any eyes...but a big mouth...I could not use my hands to take it away...when I tried to use my hand...he did hold them apart and I could not use a prayre he did disturbe my mind....I tried to lie on my back to smuther it but it did survive because of its rubber consitence....so it is flexible....I have now pain on one spesific spot on my back...I think he is connected into me through this spot......I need someone to help me get rid of this creature...
I have now ponder over this dream, and I understand why I saw all the creatures as white..it is because there was no light, it was total darkness....and why they did not have any eyes...they do not need eyes in this inviroment....
When I think about this creatures on my back, it feels like I am strangeled....I need it off me.
Last night has bean like a retrospekt or overview of things....this one I have on my back...was put this way....like a question....how do you think you can see in darkness??...I had a very strong feeling ....it is because of the thing on my back...and it was put in a way...that I should feel greatful and see the value of it.....and ask myself...what for do I have it....
I did see many different places.....all kind of life´s....
Ia,
Sounds like it might be a parasite of sorts. What do you feel like it is gathering? I think knowing that answer is the key to knowing how to remove it. If you can prevent it getting access to what it wants, then it loses its reason for wanting to stay attached. If it's connected to you, perhaps you can probe it through its connections to you.
I'm not sure how to handle those sort of criters, but I'd say if you use your will to remove it, you may find better success if your focus isn't to destroy it. If it becomes a life or death fight for the critter, the critter tends to put up the fight of its life (as it is in nature)
Hi Honeybadger400,
Well, it is giving me several thoughts....when I in the dream tried to smudger it by lying myself on my back....it did tell me that I have not made it without it....and I have bean several times in danger....Life threatening danger in this Life....so it may be it´s strategi to me keeping it.....like this night Dreams...it does remind me and give me the feeling of Gollum.....??....
I do not know for sure...but I think someone is trying to remove it...I did get such a pain in my back where it is attatched into me....If there is someone trying to help me, please let me know so I can feel more secure when the pain increases....
Love
ia
Ia,
I guess it comes down to your discernment then. Do you think it is being honest about its benevolence to you or is this it's trickster play to stay attached?
either way if I read into this correctly, it's probably something fairly easy to remove (otherwise it wouldn't try to psych you out of attempting to do it)
Hi Honeybadger400,
I can´t answere yet ....I am investigating it....as far as I now can see/feel I have had it at least since the big beating of me in the 1980-81...so I am starting to understand why I have survived all horrors and "murders" what I have faced in this Life....
Yesterday I did wake up from a dream because a man was trying to strangle me....and this "thing" did help me ....so ....so far it has bean good for me....I did not recorder this dream because of this investigatation I am doing ....but now when you asked I come forward with it....When and if I get more proof I will write about it...
I woke up this morning with nausea...I am thinking the reason for it....but I do not know for sure but I suspect that other unknown energies what I am not familiar with is causing my nausea....I hope it is "good" ones...
Love
ia
I have bean encurraged to write this....this "thing" or entity I have on my back...did decide to "protect" me...against it´s own species so to speak....He/she does feel born in wrong "family" like me...and it felt that I might understand it too...even it is against all common sense so to speak...I am Crying now because it does give me so much curage to go on with this telling even I know I take a huge risk....but it say´s it want reach the light...but he is bound to live in darkness...and it is crying to me to let it reach light.....If it is up to me to decided...of course I let it reach light...I want everyone to reach light and love.....I hope we both will reach light.
I am thinking about the nausea and dizzyness I feel if it is someone trying to help me get rid of it...and it does fight back and this causes nausea in me....and those who try to take it away is fighted back so bad so they think I am dangerous??..and it is this what make´s people think wrong about me becaue of this thing??....just a thought...but a strong one...
Last night I had so many dreams but I will write about some of them.....I saw a lorry driving amok...it did crach into a car and the driver did be thrown out and on top of the lorry....I saw he was bleeding....I shouted to him...do not stand up...be still....ambulance is comming....waite.....when I had climbed up on the lorry there was several others injured too...I was so surprised...one women did stand up and I tried to stop her...I said...waite for the ambulance for a check up....but she did not want.....she said she has to go to work...I asked her to call me when she got home that I know she is okay....she said...but I stop working at 4...it is okay I said....I wrote down my name and my phonenumber....(what I have in reall Life)....
In this seequence I was with a man...I was in love with him...we had moved to a new appartament....by accident I did see him in clotings I did not recognize so I followed him.....to see where he is going...he Went to visit a women....I waited outside for him so he would know I know....he was not even embareced at all....like it was the most normal thing to do...well....it was normal for him...but not for me....I told him he has to move out at once....he bring a flower to me but I told him it does not help....I get to know that he was married already ...he had several others too.....a real swindler...
In this seequence me and my son did go into a wrong appartament...my son started to peal potatoes...and I noticed that it was not our appartament....when we Went out we where in number 33 and our was 31....the old women who was living in the appartament was not at all angry or chocked...she was happy someone had pealed some potatoes to her...:-)
Last night dream was again me moving ...I had all my stuff in dissaray....I noticed my grandmothers rockingchair...and I was thinking...did I inherent her rockingchair....(in real-Life no)
I noticed several small items on it...I did pick them up in my hands and sat down in the rockingchair....my sister noticed all the stuff in my hands and she said...you have some of mine there too....oh I said...and opened my hands for her to see and take it what is her´s....I was curious what she took...it was a small toy ...green plastic boat??