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-R thinking about me
-talking with R
-getting a check in the mail and it being larger then expected
-getting confirmed for a job tomorrow
-blankets
-aloe vera juice
-coffee
-finding out health scare wasn't what i feared and calming down
-lorazapam
-getting my book the secret in the mail
-passing out the rest of the flyers and brochures today
-doing some journaling tonight
-taking the bus by myself for the first time today and how easy it was. i wanted to something that scares me and is in the uncomfortable zone and chose that.
-that the weather was sunny today
-giving T cat a bath today
-cuddling with cats
-buying myself a new jewelry box
-putting another chunk of money into savings so i've now exceeded this month's goal of what i wanted in there which calms me down about all the job cancellations
-laughing at life
-having an interesting life
-sweaters
-showers
-M's husband buying me some chinese food to try
-entertainment
-my phone
-listening to my hypnosis audios this morning
-smiling
-seeing my cats thriving
-calling the referral place i was planning to call for the last few days
-getting a lot of calls/emails now from dentists for the procedure i want done
-activating my care credit card and registering it
-mobile apps
-making an appt for the other referral i got today
-getting a call about a job for a market coming to my city soon. didn't get a chance to call that back,got caught up in anxiety from health scare earlier then trying to finish other goals
-naps
-dimmer lights
-connection
-positive possibilities
-crossing things off my to-do list
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-R saying more crazy things like he thinks i'm like a soul mate.
-R saying all the time i'm his which is cute
-when R used a lint roller on my pants the other day. i remember those quirks of his and they are hilarious.
-R saying all these sweet things to me that make me feel good
-seeing R again he was there first at starbucks and insisted on paying for my coffee order. We ended up going back to his place which i didn't want to do. He tried to take a pic of me with his dog which is crazy. What if his fiancee sees that? We ended up kissing and hugging and me having my face in his neck and him saying thank you when we hugged which im not sure what that meant.
-R saying he wants to buy me sweets online and that it'll be a surprise.
-getting my big box of candy i ordered in the mail
-vegan burritos
-getting my new silver sneakers in the mail
-working tommorow
-my style
-fashion
-making up for all the jobs i lost
-exceeding my savings goal for the month which means next month will be easier
-getting my body scrub in the mail
-M buying me the k2 vitamins
-l kitten looking a lot better today and healthier
-cuddling with my cats
-M putting more money in my account
-using per diems to make my account a little healthier
-uber
-lorazapam
-iced hazelnut almond milk lattes
-sleep
-naps
-makeup
-my phone
-people to text
-physical exercise
-warm showers
-sunshine
-nightskies
-doing another challenge even on day i seen R. i took usual train but got off on a different stop just to get more comfortable with the trains
-getting a check in the mail today
-hot guys
-some kind of attractive guy kissing me on the head today at work
-music
-fun
-having a cool job
-beauty
-compliments
-models
-laughing at life
-nightskies
-updating my web portfolios a bit
-doing some reading
-meditating last night
-warm showers
-relaxation
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-feeling inspired to text R after his ignoring games
-herbs
-finding out sociopath ex who dropped me last year returned to not eating meat
-soup
-that i get to work tomorrow
-nourishment
-spices
-my phone
-getting all the cat houses in scaffold area and cat bedding cleaned
-l kitten feeling so much better and how beautiful she is
-cuddling with l kitten. she cuddles like a baby,putting herself circular in your arms and going really close to your face. it's adorable.
-water
-making my bed
-doing some practicing driving the other day
-my beauty
-reading more of the secret
-M making me umcka tea
-getting in a good workout tonight of the stairmaster and bodyworks class
-my bed
-blankets
-warm showers
-working the other day,and using a microphone.i was so nervous at first but then it was fun
-new work photos
-texting E for his number for his party this weekend
-my confetti dolci candy
-my silver sneakers
-gratitude
-getting more p cat flyers posted up
-the internet
-relaxing
-being productive today
-listening to my higher self and feeling some inner guidance
-M invited me to halloween store the other day and to starbucks
-makeup
-catching up on phone calls
-having a kind heart. had a cat follow my while hanging up a flyer for P the other day,just meowing and waiting for me. I tried to lead it to the yard for food but it didn't come all the way,just halfway. im guessing the cat got nervous.i asked neighbors out if they knew the cat. After i got back,i grabbed food to bring to the cat but couldn't find the cat.
-being sick forcing me to take it easy on myself and chill out
-newness
-that i won't have my time of the month by the time the party this weekend
-my psychiatric medications
-colors
-great deals
-positive mindset
-praise
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-opportunities
-positive possibilities
-being a positive person
-healing herbs
-vegan food
-nourishment
-being able to work yesterday and tomorrow
-music
-randomly hearing from my brother after over a year and that he is doing really well and has a great job where he gets to travel and is in miami right now. he sent me pics. very inspiring. made my day.
-posting more on social media lately
-coffee
-telling R how I feel and finally hearing something from him today after one text of sharing good news with him and another random topic i shared so two texts from him
-cuddling and playing with L kitten this morning
-beauty
-cats
-my new work pics
-my beauty
-my status
-remembering good times
-candy
-M's husband taking me to get female time of the products
-the sun shining today
-the cats doing well
-putting up another flyer for P cat today
-doing some googling last night and seeing some cheap apartments that aren't in my city's worst ghetto do exist
-ideas
-having a kind heart
-sleep
-finding a great deal for free startbucks $5 giftcard at dentist i am going to today when i bring in postcard they sent
-getting card in the mail im giving friend E this weekend and how cute it is
-kindness in others
-M's husband getting a new area for cats set up for the colder season
-inspiration
-supportive people
-someone from my second business i do sending in their materials
-that it's not raining today
-motivation
-taking things one day at a time
-being easy on myself
-my bed
-blankets
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-R being so amazing. I feel like i'm falling for him. He was so worried for me the night of the party and after we met and has been so chivalrous and sweet and like a best friend and everything. he's disappeared again the last thing he told me was he didn't think his dad was going to make it. I sent a few texts but am trying to give him his space since i know how he is. He bought me a staightening iron and helped me get ready via pics i sent back and forth and was just so sweet and there for me. He's changed so much. He's like the perfect guy for me now. It's crazy and weird because if this came full cycle it'd be ironic and very karmic seeming.
-clean teeth
-the halloween party i went to. so glad i got to wear my costume finally and see my friend E. It made me feel like life was back to normal.
-making new friends
-giving E the cute halloween pop up card i got for him
-nonjudgemental people.
-my phone
-people to text
-getting to celebrate halloween this year
-the weather being better today
-standing up to myself when two different people from work were rude to me in the last few days
-the doctor who said i have early stage of c cancer being very nice to me and saying we will reverse this
-kind people
-positive people
-high vibe people
-supportive people
-after S hurting my feelings,him resolving things with me sweetly and in a way that showed effort and being nice and there for me
-cuddling with L kitten. She's a sweetie. Pretty quiet and a cuddle addict
-getting two new collars for the cats
-feeling healthy again
-two different people making it sound like R and I might end up together
-my bed
-blankets
-drinking my aloe vera juice today
-coffee
-getting along better with M's husband lately
-getting two articles up on my 2nd business within the last few days
-all the people who help me out in my careers
-E texting me and inviting me to a concert today
-my digestion improving
-all the comments from M and her husband on how much weight i lost and that i look good and seeing it in pictures that i am looking like my old self
-makeup
-getting my new backpack in the mail
-hope
-music
-new experiences
-inspiration
-smiling
-being smart
-my beauty
-getting flirted with and asked out a lot
-doing some more reading of the secret today
-my creativity
-my kind heart
-putting up more flyers of P cat
-affirmations
-listening to my hypnosis audios today
-deciding not to go to work today so i can have a day to get my head together
-colors
-writing out some affirmations yesterday and today
-meeting new people all the time
-lorazapam
-becoming more self sufficient
-finding out im going to be another magazine
-getting an image back of myself i liked and putting it on social media
-updating work things with new images i have of myself from work
-deep cleansing breaths
-M's husband thinking of ways to keep the cats warm this winter
-my confidence growing
-being productive
-sunshine
-uber
-M's husband saying they're not planning on leaving me with nothing when i move out
-having nice curves
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-seeing my life coach yesterday
-that i can see my psychiatrist today
-vegan food
-getting a bale of straw for outdoor cats yesterday and setting it all up in the new winter housing area for them and them seeming to love the new setup
-R texting me yesterday morning and me telling him i meant what i said and feel. Then,after talking to life coach,sending him some texts last night coming clean on how i feel and being firm on some things. of course,now i feel awful,but looking back,i wasnt too harsh in original text and yesterday,all i really did was come clean even more. i hope we can get past this and feel like we will.
-fashion
-my cats
-staying strong through all the b.s that went on in the last few days
-bank being supportive and boss taking my side after being bullied by the jerk co-worker
-my new jeans
-compliments
-being asked out a lot
-sleep
-new friends
-my style
-buying a red skirt this morning since i couldn't find a black cocktail dress online i liked
-heels
-going to a job interview yesterday
-friendly and positive people
-my new mango lip balm
-getting M's sister's phone number
-blankets
-cuteness
-going with M's husband on a few errands he had to run the last few days to get out of the house
-writing down some for rent numbers i seen while biking riding the other day
-doing another anxiety challenge the other day and how much i am growing as a person
-my beauty
-finding out i will be in another magazine
-things working out for me
-M's husband taking my side the day ex best friend and gf came over,threw a fit and tried getting me kicked out again
-lorazapam
-colors
-my eyesight
-aloe vera water
-sweeping my floor yesterday
-practicing driving downtown the other day
-having a few days off to get my head together
-meditating the other night
-having more then $500 in savings now
-M's husband seeming to be more on my side lately
-the weight i lost and keep being told i lost weight my M and her husband
-art
-hope
-inspiration
-listening to my hypnosis audios
-being able to think for myself
-lifecoach saying maybe we can do a past life regression soon
-getting invited to a family dinner because of M's husband
-smiling
-working out the other day by going for a bike ride,then later doing stairmaster,and a toning bodyworks class
-just now passing an online practice driving test with no hints
-my credit card saying i have no minimum payments this month
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-getting the job at the christmas market
-all the weight i've lost
-my thigh gap
-doing my job today
-dreams coming true
-coffee
-bread
-eating less sugar these days
-my beauty
-my fashion style
-my life coach calling me and calming me down after feeling really down earlier
-going to kundalini yoga class
-the money i'm about to have coming
-drinking some pomegranate juice mixed with water to work on detoxing and holistic healing
-compliments
-cuddling with L kitten
-all the cute silly things the cats do
-that the cats seem to be doing ok with the weather
-M's husband deciding to buy another heated water bowl for them since we aren't sure current one is working
-sunshine
-sending more emails out for jobs
-being a nice person
-my beauty
-sleep
-blankets
-how great T cat looks in his sparkly gray collar
-not having to wake up early tomorrow
-growing as a person
-the heater in my room
-straw
-washing one of the cat beds
-getting P cat's flyer posted on an online neighborhood site
-all the weight i've lost and am losing
-makeup
-how much i'm growing as a person
-cleaning up a little today
-vegan food
-warm showers
-my phone
-my bed
-being productive
-updating my linkedin
-updating my resume
-emailing from business cards i got recently
-emailing people for 2nd business thing i do
-laughing
-band-aids
-taking life one day at a time
-eyeglasses
-writing out 3 pages of affirmations
-playing with the loa in my mind a little bit
-positive and inspiring quotes and ideas
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-staying positive
-happiness in moments
-parties
-invites
-my strength
-sleep
-soup
-bread
-doing my job today
-coffee
-warm showers
-straw
-nice memories to lean on
-my attractiveness
-all the weight i've lost
-that i'm going to be able to buy something i've wanted to buy for a long time now that's been a little dream of mine in a few days
-meditation
-prayer
-that my cats seem to be doing ok
-letting T cat wander around the house since his whining lately seems to be because i want him in the room with me and he wants to explore
-my pale pink backpack
-ideas
-the internet
-getting my recap for yesterday finished up
-entertainment
-trusting life,letting go,and surrender
-quiet
-rosemary oil
-incense
-leg warmers
-having a caring heart
-sanskrit mantras
-my mango lipbalm
-having nice hair
-having nice curves
-stretches
-taking my supplements
-blankets
-body moisturizer
-deep cleansing breaths
-parties
-invites
-nightskies
-light bulbs
-cats
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-that me and R are talking again. it feels so much better. i got mad when i found out my psycho ex best friend contacted my dad twice again last week. my dad ignored. so,i texted R saying i really miss him and we started talking things out a little and are going to meet for coffee tomorrow. i added him back to my fb.
-seeing girls with similar unique beauty to me in movies/modeling campaigns
-my bed
-my cats
-the money coming to me
-practicing driving today
-doing some reading
-coffee
-bread
-getting better with some things of goal manifesting and how great that feels
-deciding to watch a movie tonight
-listening to my hypnosis audios
-rosemary oil
-getting my room cleaned up
-my phone
-the weather being warmer today and feeling like spring
-seeing T mom cat curled up in her spot under the front porch winter housing we have for the cats looking very cozy. makes me happy
-social media
-my beauty
-my pink backpack
-yoga
-ashwagandha
-dental floss
-happiness
-trusting life
-things to look forward to
-goals
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-seeing R today
-kissing R today
-how loving R can be and his little quirks
-ashwagandha
-lavender
-spices
-marshmallow dream bar from starbucks
-gin gins
-coffee
-sunshine
-makeup
-my sense of style
-cheap uber rides
-sleep
-my new work pics
-writing out my affirmations today
-physical exercise
-yoga
-doing a little reading
-getting a start on an article for 2nd business thing i do
-organizing and cleaning out the pictures in my phone
-pictures
-my outdoor cats
-the weather being nicer today
-heels
-makeup
-lorazapam
-antidepressants
-being intelligent
-ibuprofen
-taking life one day at a time
-warm showers
-having a great body
-self compassion
-trusting life is looking out for me
-ordering a new custom decal for my affirmation wall
-kindness from others
-walking
-my bed
-how good it feels to be in a relationship/dating/involved
-smiling
-laughing
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-drinking my detox drinks
-getting my chemical peel today and how amazing my skin looked after my peel today
-being easy on myself since i feel weak today and it's that time of the month
-friendly people
-being kind
-listening to my hypnosis audios today
-taking things one day at a time
-physical exercise
-nourishment
-my cats
-the weather being warmer today
-social media
-herbs
-spices
-aloe vera
-blankets
-deep cleansing breaths
-seeing my affirmations at work
-bread
-coffee
-sleep
-fashion
-heels
-my style
-my beauty
-going to the bank today to get direct deposit forms
-lorazapam
-greenery
-colors
-studying a little bit tonight
-naps
-finding out charge i was disputing that i won and it's been cleared
-cuteness
-things that are interesting
-new life experiences
-smiling
-deep cleansing breaths
-working on article some more that i've started
-my confidence going up again
-having nice hair
-having a nice body
-compliments
-being productive
-opening my mind
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-manifesting a goal of my checking account reaching a certain point that i had made last year as a goal that felt exciting for me at the time when i made the goal/intention. it's very cool seeing things like this manifest. my checking account is now the highest it's ever been,at least since i've been single.
-feeling relief when i got fired last night.i had so much resistance and negative momentum that i kept having anxiety all week not knowing what was bothering me until i realized it was not being able to handle/keep this job. so when it finally happened that i did end up fired,i literally did not care. of course,til the next day when i was a wreck all day. but,then i had perspective remembering what i told myself during my anxiety,that even if i fail this,it's ok,because it's a step i've never tooken,and maybe next time,i'll take another step and i'll only go a little further but if i keep going,i'lll get better and better and get to where i want to go,whereas if i don't even try,i'll never get there,and i'll never grow and even only keeping this 3 days before being fired along with the attractive,most competant guy there,this was still a stepping stone,and good experience and growth for me. just keep trusting life,and surrendering.
-getting my check i was antsy about finally
-getting my wall decal for my affirmation wall in the mail today
-rest
-cleaning my room
-making up with R again. we've been fighting like cats and dogs on and off ever since he hurt me in early november. mostly,it's just me getting mad at him,then him ignoring me then me talking to him then us talking it out.
-water
-dimmer lights
-my cats
-ordering food in tonight
-warm showers
-renting a movie online and just relaxing
-the internet
-shopping
-all the opportunities still available to me and that can come to me
-my inner optimisim
-hydrocodone
-lorazapam
-celexa
-tastebuds
-my creativity
-my sentimentality
-pictures
-support
-moisturizers
-coffee
-sleep
-nightskies
-sunshine
-quiet
-feeling the magic of life in certain quiet moments
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-music
-feelings
-seeing R today. taking him to my old neighborhood and finding out he lived there as a child. taking him to a coffee shop i used to go to and then the spooky shop where i bought incense and he bought sage. it was funny and interesting.
-R giving me the straightening iron he bought back in october and finding out it's a $100 straightening iron.
-giving R something i wanted to give him that was a creative,abstract thing i put together
-having a friend now
-adding another $100 to my savings
-communication
-going on a job interview today and i think it going well
-confirming more jobs today
-warm showers
-clean clothes
-makeup
-ibuprofen
-celexa
-lorazapam
-not taking hydrocodone today
-naps
-protein drinks
-my style
-my cats
-relaxing
-new experiences
-reflection
-moisturizers
-sending out more emails for jobs today
-when R is sweet and loving towards me
-my bed
-straw
-cat treats
-hot guys
-my accomplishments
-yoga
-laughing
-fun
-self compassion
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-music
-something peaceful happening. today,i was invited by M to go to the mall and we went shopping and had normal conversation,and got food and to the vitamin store,and dropped off vitamins to her brother. I think it's my affirmation of letting my relationship with M die,and stop hoping and just letting go and moving on that manifested this and it felt really good. letting go is amazing.
-deciding to ignore R. I know it's wrong,but i told him one day i would do this to him just like he does to me sometimes and i just started to feel almost sick of him. this happens sometimes..idk what it is but he has such a heavy energy that it causes me to feel heady in a negative way.i can remember years again feel faint sometimes talking to him. it's like a combination of how much i think he actually thinks about me combined with the games he plays. I'll probably text him on monday or tuesday but just felt a need to do this.
-the cute thanksgiving text R sent me the other day. he said happy thanksgiving my little tofurkey.
-all the shopping i've done in the last few days
-getting my savings to my goal i had for before november was over
-ordering my dream shoes the other day
-all the weight i've lost
-working today
-sunshine
-weather being warmer today
-my style
-my beauty
-feeling sexier
-pinterest
-the internet
-sleep
-cats
-my beauty
-my confidence growing
-beauty
-picking out a tropical punch flavored protein drink at the vitamin shoppe
-M's husband taking me to dinner last night
-my hypnosis audios
-heels
-uber
-making it to work on time
-warm showers
-happiness
-smiling
-style
-cool people
-peace
-laughing
-humor
-great deals
-ideas
-taking my vegan omega supplement today
-my desires
-feeling like i finally have my head together again
-not having to work tomorrow
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-calmness
-getting my new splurge shoes in the mail
-being productive
-sleep
-taking a break from talking to R and how good that feels and that he's still tried to reach out to me.i know it's wrong,but i just felt i had to do this.
-aloe vera water
-physical exercise
-my cats
-style
-music
-fashion
-social media
-sending more emails out for jobs
-laying out in the sun for awhile
-sunshine
-cleaning up the room and organizing
-vegan burritos
-going to the print store to get some more flyers made
-practicing driving today
-incense
-shopping
-watching movies
-coffee
-adding more money to my account today
-my phone
-the internet
-mobile apps
-confidence
-smiling
-moisturizers
-warm showers
-finishing up my written affirmations from the other day
-finding a photo of myself from a few years ago that someone posted today that i liked
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-R liking my social media posts
-breaking my silence with R today
-my beautiful new christian louboutin shoes
-shopping
-nourishment
-movies
-water
-lavender
-animal friendly and animal loving people
-posting more flyers up for my missing ferals from the last year
-sleep
-cuddling with L kitten
-laughing
-my beauty
-sunshine
-weather being a little warmer today
-doing some studying
-drinking more water today
-warm showers
-cuteness
-R saying he misses me
-physical exercises
-stretches
-doing some cleaning
-checking out a job board for some freelance work
-meditating
-prayer
-my faith increasing
-painatrate cream i started using
-deep cleansing breaths
-mantras
-learning
-the cool life experiences i've had
-relaxation
-incense
-peace
-motivation
-finishing my written affirmations last night
-music
-
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-being positive and in a good mood despite deciding i have to cut ties with R
-fashion
-my beauty
-having a thin face
-weight loss
-rebounding
-nice weather
-friendly,reassuring doctors
-deep cleansing breaths
-trying venlafaxine again
-feeling better after seeing psychiatrist yesterday
-new yoga pants
-seeing life coach last night
-blankets
-cuddles with L kitten. she's cute,she like to scoot real close to me and curl up in a ball
-getting a holiday gift for my mom
-rose oil serum
-coffee
-two bite brownies
-applying to some more jobs today
-moisturizers
-food
-caring people
-studying
-organizing files
-smiling
-being helpful
-my sense of style
-music
-chatting with people
-being awake
-my friend E inviting me to his birthday party this year
-taking life one day at a time
-cuteness
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-jackets
-getting out of the house,running errands with others
-being ok with letting go of R
-how nice and reassuring my doctor is
-naps
-coffee
-going for a bike ride
-sunshine
-overcoming fears
-R responding to a text today
-my outdoor cats and how cute they are
-M's husband giving me money to add to my account when it was low and i needed to add some singles to it
-organizing files
-looking for jobs
-doing more flyers looking for P cat and starting more leafletting for community cats
-my beauty
-warm showers
-coloring my hair
-pictures
-rose oil serum
-meditating
-listening to my hypnosis audios
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-warm showers
-sweaters
-beautiful weather
-deep cleansing breaths
-getting my eyebrows threaded today
-meditation
-my beauty
-burning my wish paper and seeing them all fly up in the air
-my cats
-prayer
-praying with M's husband
-trying on my christian louboutin's and practicing walking in them to boost my mood
-coffee
-my strength
-drinking my apple cider vinegar detox drink
-great skincare products
-fashion
-the internet
-the flow opening up a little bit with money
-doing some flyering today
-my favorite perfume escentric 02
-organizing files
-my style
-yoga
-art
-colors
-grass
-wind
-physical exercise
-food
-my weight loss
-having great cheekbones
-painatrate cream
-organizing my closet a little bit
-movies
-beauty
-my blankets
-my bed
-great uber rates
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-warm showers
-R saying he is scared of falling in love with me and that he thinks about me all the time
-talking to R on the phone and how well we clicked the other day and him calling me so cute and gorgeous and claiming he was jealous and asking does he want me to show how jealous he is.
-working today
-working the other two days i did this week
-enjoying my work
-my beauty
-others thinking im very beautiful
-working with cool products
-free stuff
-coffee
-networking. a guy at my job recently wanted to hire me for car shows and things and seemed to find me attractive by his vibe and said anytime i'm by his restaurant,lunch is on him.
-getting a little bit into the christmas spirit
-makeup
-feeling more attractive lately and like i'm being noticed more
-my teddy bear beanie
-my outdoor cats
-getting my recaps done
-feeling calmer
-deciding to send my one of my boss's a holiday pop-up card
-finding a blue rose from one of my favorite flower companies and deciding to order it
-my christian louboutin shoes
-keeping my mindset positive
-my puffer jacket
-water
-my style
-breaks
-meditation
-blankets
-my bed
-cuddling with cats
-being smart
-art
-keeping up with my anxiety challenges
-my new straightening iron
-organizing and decluttering
-how much im growing as a person
-animal heroes
-cuteness
-positivity
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-drinking my pomegranate juice
-drinking more water today
-my beauty
-stretches
-naps
-5 lorazapam dose
-being ok so far with not talking to R
-cuddling with cats
-prayer
-positive affirmations
-meditation
-writing out a financial improvement plan and a final getting over anxiety plan for one of the things i've been working on
-a lot of guys asking me out in the last few days
-making efforts
-emojis
-that S the guy i met in july is sending me a little christmas gift
-M buying me a christmas mug
-my biggest crush for years and i having coffee plans next week. what a great christmas gift.
-heels
-kind people
-coffee
-bread
-the mri i got done being less scary then ithought it would be
-getting confirmed to work as a new year's vip host again
-the cute things the cats do
-art
-experiencing my desires manifest and how cool it is
-surrender
-staying present
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-making the sad decision to let my 2nd business go for now officially
-vegan pizza from whole foods
-the vegan donut i had today
-working today
-nice people
-drinking my aloe vera water
-stretches
-naps
-my cats
-things working out for me
-getting my savings to $900
-my christian louboutin shoes
-coffee
-smiling
-my sense of style
-my eyesight
-having a coffee meeting with my big crush A coming up
-the manifestation of desires
-leg warmers
-the weather being mostly pretty mild thus far
-my blue rose
-water
-getting one of my recaps done
-warm showers
-sweaters
-cleaning a little
-sending out emails for more jobs
-my stomach getting flatter
-movies
-getting asked out on a lot of dates/flirted with a lot the last few days
-getting more images from a recent job
-the internet
-kindness
-relaxation
-my beauty
-writing some things out the other day to feel more confident
-having a nice body
-things to look forward to
-colors
-style
-transforming
-memories
-unexpected beautiful surprises
-fun
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-tea
-lavender
-ashwagandha
-rosemary oil
-water
-drinking my apple cider vinegar detox supplement
-having coffee plans with my all time biggest crush tomorrow A
-How my crush A talks
-crush A saying he will call me beforehand
-crush A saying he is interested in me as well
-physical exercise
-warm showers
-my gray comforter
-cat cuddles
-my phone
-sleep
-the sunshine that came out today
-movies
-my style
-my beauty
-manifesting my desires
-entertainment
-inspiration
-blue roses
-all the good things that happened this year
-mailing off another P cat flyer and alley cat ally leaflet
-losing weight
-more job opportunities
-feeling a little more secure and grounded about money
-great alcohol with mixers
-finishing off my other work recap
-following up on work emails
-doing a little cleaning
-organizing files in my phone
-having a nice body
-my rebalance face cream
-meditation
-mantras
-affirmations
-deep cleansing breaths
-seeing T cat,the mom being held like a baby in M's husbands lap and how much she likes that
-lorazapam
-nice people
-feeling a nice nonchalance about things
-being an interesting person
-interesting sounds
-serendipity
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-manifesting my long held desire of having a one on one hang out conversation with A and making our connection more then just unspoken. it was amazing.
-having A's phone number in my phone
-A responding to my texts
-seeing proof again that we do get all that we intend to manifest
-having a nice day and night with R the other day and making up...even though we are again not speaking
-R saying he would stay with me at the hospital when i have my surgery if i want
-R saying if i ever want to him to buy me something just ask,offering to take me shopping,saying he wants to buy me pretty things,and looking up buddha bracelets saying we have to get me a new one since my old one broke
-new experiences
-a lot of guys asking me out a lot lately
-R,the other R who is further from my past and i chatting a bit online the other day
-drinking my aloe water supplement today
-my phone
-naps
-cats
-my beauty
-my style
-my reimbursement coming through today
-M asking if i want to go to the mall tomorrow
-blankets
-warm showers
-physical exercise
-how much weight i've lost
-deciding to accept a date with R,a friend of a friend from the past( so many R names). This R is older,more mature,and i've only met him once.
-listening to my hypnosis audios
-coffee
-paying attention to how the more i meditate,the more life flows
-being in the christmas spirit
-S from maryland getting me a christmas gift
-being more social lately
-R saying he wants to go with to the party i'm going to at the end of the month
-maturity
-deep cleansing breaths
-ideas
-doing some studying last night
-cleaning a little this morning
-weather getting a little warmer again
-D,M's friend who i told isn't a friend sending me a christmas card with a starbucks gift card in it
-physical exercise
-surrender
-inspiration
-community
-meeting like-minded people
-positive affirmations
-compliments
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-going shopping today and finding out i can go tomorrow too
-how skinny i look
-how beautiful i look
-making up with R
-my bed
-vegan cheese
-coffee
-having a hangout with A this week. so amazing and surreal.
-manifesting my heart's desires
-calmness
-working today
-compliments
-getting invited to a family gathering of M and her husband's tomorrow
-deciding to try and visit my mom in the morning tomorrow
-heels
-blankets
-cuddling with cats
-having a good credit score
-writing out affirmations before bed last night
-beautiful poems
-empathy
-having a kind heart
-laughing
-my phone
-getting confirmed for more jobs
-fun
-my christian louboutin heels
-doing some cleaning
-relaxation
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-fashion
-the internet
-reading
-cats and their cuteness
-seeing my desires manifest
-being kind
-all my adventures with R
-going to E's party and how fun that was
-working on nye
-sleep
-my attractiveness
-my strength
-no longer having cervical cancer,just womb mass
-my hypnosis audios
-reading
-meditation
-creativity
-writing out my new year's resolutions
-apple cider vinegar detox drink
-my new nude lip plumping lip gloss
-actually having an ok christmas this year
-affirmations
-sweaters
-blankets
-seeing R does get jealous
-my prada bag
-my sense of style
-doing another anxiety challenge the other day
-wearing pasties for the first time under my dress besides any other work events i don't remember
-having a nice body
-compliments
-friendly people
-newness
-my phone
-motivation
-coloring tonight
-ideas
-entertainment
-cleaning a little today
-seeing mom cat the other day after not seeing her for a few days
-updating my accomplishment book/bucket list book a little
-sunshine
-nightskies
-fun
-how beautiful my hair is
-the positive changes i've made
-art
-goals
-to do lists
-inspiration
-support
-being able to see
-kindness
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-making my own hypnosis audios
-healthy digestion
-texting A
-A texting me his playlist and seeing how into space he is,and how weird it was, and some stuff similar to what i used to listen to
-my bed
-getting my savings higher
-making decisons
-doing a good job at work
-goals
-getting a check quick
-getting confirmed for some film work
-fashion and style
-my new hair
-my beauty
-being smart
-serendipity
-yoga
-blankets
-making my bed
-my medications
-letting myself grieve and feel my feelings after what R did to me
-coffee
-growing confidence and positivity
-cats
-exploration
-water
-apple cider vinegar
-the weather warming up a bit
-seeing mom cat more often again
-being able to see the big picture and not get caught up in details
-the winter boots M's husband gave me
-getting back into spirituality a little bit
-seeing my credit score increased some more
-observing life
-maturity
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-it happened. after a strange and crazy weekend of R crying on the phone with me then getting scared and weird and blocking my number and erasing messages even from 2 other phones i used to call and having the calls straight go to machine and deleting me from facebook and L treating me like crap..both of these guys supposedly getting a "conscience" but really showing themselves as awful,i revealed my feelings to A. And,he responded. He said he finds me interesting too and that he wants to get to know me more and hang out but he's just so busy with work that he doesnt have time for romance at all but that if i play my cards right maybe we will end up kissing. He did have a slight ego,but he's him and i'm not surprised but he was really sweet and authentic. i had decided earlier i want to focus on him more since he is my dream guy unlike R. So,after one of my messages using M's husbands phone trying to get ahold of R and yelling at him,i decided to just go for it,and tell A how i feel. I wanted to melt that this moment happened. like really savor it. things from years ago have been manifesting.
-having half a driver's liscense. just have to re-do the road test which im sure ill get on the 2nd try
-getting approved for a saks card
-something happening this weekend that helped me see D from my past,a guy i went on 2 dates with in a different light..as a decent-ish guy.
-my bed
-my cats
-having 3 jobs to work today
-my beauty
-hot guys
-doing more shopping therapy after a stressful drama filled weekend and buying myself a chanel eyeshadow and gucci bracelet
-my phone
-laughter
-feeling feelings and how good that feels
-getting all my dishes cleaned finally
-coffee
-meditating today
-my new friend R
-being productive
-my eyeglasses
-cuteness
-fashion
-lorazapam
-lip balm
-water
-rest
-naps
-motivation
-seeing mom cat again today
-the meeting ex best friend wanted me to go to that i declined not happening
-seeing M actually defend me somewhat
-dimmer lights
-dental floss
-cleanliness
-newness
-happy,positive things to think about
-inspiration
-affirmations
-getting better at things
-positive transformation
-doing some physical exercise today and how good it felt
-that i get to work tomorrow
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-tuning into a parallel reality and staying faithful regarding T
-physical exercise
-taking care of myself
-letting myself lose my mind a little and finding bits of it in the process
-music
-the apathy mostly being gone
-my eyeglasses
-making efforts
-getting T stickers in the mail
-doing excitement inducement exercises
-being beautiful
-hot guys
-makeup
-sleep
-getting the last word in with every single person that created drama with me and winning
-buying a gift for my friend in maryland. one of the gifts donates proceeds to mental health organizations which i thought was awesome
-positive dreams and omens
-cats
-exceeding my january earnings goal. which also happened to be the most money i've earned ever in a month. and,in a month that is typically very slow for the work i do.
-having a job for primary career planned for the middle of the month
-learning
-self improvement
-having a saks credit card
-having a good credit score
-buying myself a valentines gift of charbonnel et walker chocolates from the theme collection of my favorite book through the looking glass,a dolce and gabbana t-shirt,and M giving me her flowers she was given(she hates flowers).
-warm showers
-cuteness
-reassurances
-prayer
-meditation
-coffee
-dove chocolate hearts
-having my surgery scheduled
-getting my laptop charger in the mail today
-getting a check deposited yesterday so i could fix it from being overdrawn
-lorazapam and not having to take xanax anymore
-getting my therapist flowers
-having beautiful eyes
-the recordings of my voice speaking to myself as a form of self hypnosis i've made and how much i really like them so far
-nature
-books
-being smart
-thinking creatively.
-determination
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-keeping the faith and optimism
-community
-connection
-oneness
-solid milk chocolates
-fashion
-coffee
-sleep
-surrender
-my laptop
-my creativity
-the self hypnosis audios i've made for myself
-all the jobs i've confirmed for this month
-my bed
-my hair
-being attractive
-my style
-cat cuddles
-pictures
-my determination
-my job coming up on friday
-entertainment
-lorazapam
-that A reciprocated feelings for me
-tuning into a better feeling reality
-all the metaphysical things i've learned
-getting S a gift of bourbon bears,your a catch swedish fish,and a winter teddy bear that has proceeds go to mental health organizations
-ideas
-efforts
-sweaters
-serendipity
-physical exercise
-feeling excitement
-letting myself lose my mind a little so i can reset
-meditation
-movies
-my phone
-finding i lost even more weight all from doing barely anything,which means i've now lost almost exactly 30 lbs since last winter. all from dropping the meds i knew i didnt want to be on anymore.
-makeup
-warm showers
-supplements
-getting a free sample today
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-my beauty
-more positive omens today
-going to therapy today
-coffee
-chocolate
-apple cider vinegar
-inspiration
-cats
-my laptop
-quantum physics
-entertainment
-all the jobs i have confirmed
-cats
-seeing dad cat today
-having a kind heart
-having someone to meet up with for coffee tomorrow
-sunshine
-nightskies
-my audio recordings i've been making
-being productive
-doing some cleaning
-prayer
-physical exercise
-resources for finding missing animals
-naps
-sleep
-having a nice body
-my cuteness
-learning
-becoming better
-deep cleansing breaths
-ibuprofen
-shopping
-hot guys
-yoga
-relaxation
-excitement
-my style
-warm showers
-nature
-beauty
-seeing mom cat
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-coffee
-ideas
-meditating today and how amazing it felt
-getting my chocolate champagne cupcakes today
-J
-my beautiful apartment
-my beautiful couch
-my beautiful huge houseplant
-my balcony
-being considered very beautiful and attractive
-J and I getting along so well. That I met him and how amazing he makes me feel sometimes
-amazing weather today
-cute cat pictures
-my creativity
-making the most money i've ever made in my life that's equivalent to my psycho ex's income when we lived together that was my reference for self competancy and self sufficiency in may
-getting my lip injections this month and how great they turned out
-entertainment
-my sense of fun
-yoga
-walking
-all the weight loss and seeing myself twiggy,twiggy in march and april
-fashion
-cutting up my saks card
-my relationship with M improving drastically once i moved out,and her taking me with her and her husband shopping on the 4rth of july
-going to see fireworks with my mom the day before the fourth of july
-pictures
-seeing and hearing how much weight psycho ex's gf gained
-my kindness and desire to create change
-physical exercise
-sex with J
-reconnecting with the people i've reconnected with in the last 12 months or so
-smiling
-reading and good books
-my intelligence
-faith and surrender
-happiness
-my "little girl-ish" qualities"
-being constantly told and thought i am way younger then i actually am based on my looks
-how much M's husband cares for the cats and has been there for me
-my ambition
-lorazapam
-winning
-getting revenge on psycho ex and his gf and getting my power back
-colors
-greenery
-makeup
-manifesting my desires
-kind people
-hope
-happiness
-prayer
-doing fun things
-phone chargers
-music
-my sense of style
-inspiration and inspiring people
-connection
-having great taste in things
-that my payment from work was completed from payment service
-excitement
-beauty
-learning
-trying new things and new experiences
-being high end
-flowers
-sunshine
-nightskies
-peace
-things to look forward to
-my therapist
-having a washing machine and dryer in the building
-vegan food
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-meditation
-snacks
-perspective
-beautiful weather today
-M's husband finally answering the phone
-being able to leave the air off today
-my style
-my tiger yoga pants
-J and that he seems to be falling more and more for me. Staring at me,mocking my voice, being more considerate of my needs including making extra time to talk when im done and efforts to see me when he's busy,including me when saying he needs to take care of "" and "" and it came out so naturally. Me saying he could just move in with me and instead of looking at me like i'm crazy saying that would be nice. Talking future things with me and how he wants to do more for me.
-my phone
-going for a nice walk
-lorazapam
-work picking up
-God
-having faith
-playfulness
-having nice curves
-clarity
-my laptop
-colors
-hanging out with my friend from maryland S. I almost didn't but at the last minute i felt a driving force to after he called and we did and it was great.
-my gold rose
-my framed artworks
-having a nice apartment
-yoga
-calmness
-night skies
-fashion
-romantic and sweet gestures
-pictures
-being considered attractive by others
-my ambition
-books
-my goals
-my feral cats
-my mom's cats
-cuteness
-fun
-aloe vera
-shopping
-the kindness M has shown me lately
-getting a massage this week
-my self sufficiency increasing
-coffee
-my beauty
-all the manifestation of my heart's desires that happened in the last months
-having a kind heart
-my taste in things
-groundedness
-creativity
-hot tea
-ice cream with cupcake
-my imaginativeness
-my love for art and beauty
-makeup
-showers
-music
-inspiration
-trusting life
-pronoia
-feeling my feelings-
-tithing
-getting another check yesterday
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-J and him telling me he doesnt want to end things and that he has been practicing saying i love you.
-healing
-coffee
-music
-meditation
-fresh starts
-pretty cups
-all the learning and growing and becoming more self sufficent
-kindness from strangers who could sense i wasn't doing well saying everything would be ok
-lip injections
-trying to stay and be positive
-surrender
-corner bakery monster cookies. They are like crack.
-humor and laughing
-goals
-optimism that this will be a good week
-smiling
-the wind
-inspiration
-motivation
-my determination
-makeup
-aloe vera
-yoga
-my succulent skin gel
-phone calls
-D helping me on Saturday
-seeing a pic of the awesome birthday card i got for a friend
-people considering me attractive
-J making a way to see me thursday knowing i would have no time friday even though that was the day easier for him
-makeup
-coffee creamer
-beautiful things
-my lower legs being sore from all the walking and my skin being tanner
-the supplements i take
-all the work i had this weekend starting thursday
-getting a little quicker about getting my recaps in
-ideas
-entertainment
-compliments
-my phone
-authenticity
-my ambition
-my positive attitude
-going two days in a row not eating anything at all in the day time
-cocktails
-breaks
-expressing myself
-trees
-water
-art
-running into people i know
-seeing myself in a copy of a book i'm in
-love
-my mothering side
-my intelligence
that at 2 1/2 months, almost 3 J and I are still going strong and getting better with each other.
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-nourishment
-that this day is over
-nightskies
-J texting me more then usual for a sunday, keeping an eye on me
-J calling me more then usual yesterday even calling me if i didnt call him back within 5 or 10 minutes,keeping an eye on me
-putting pieces together on the way back from work today realizing last night J said after he wanted to think about things and had his phone call,is when he came by and softened and came to his senses. Said he considered having sex with me. Tried holding my hand once. Said he was wrong for what he did on friday and shouldn't have done it and that he should have confided in me,and that he realizes he needs to fix things with me to and to be patient and strong and that he still loves me and still wants me and even using the key he gave me to show me something when he walked me to my door, and saying we will get back to how we were, it will just take time and him saying and showing he isn't letting me go. Also, he revealed that she had yelled at him the whole time during their phone call, and definitely won't be having sex with him anytime soon,and that it seems today they didn't do their usual sunday family thing so it sounds like they aren't working things out as he said she said they would on friday, or at least not as well as he had hoped. He was also looking at me in a much more serious way last night,like he seen me in a more serious light, someone he could be with in a way that's more then what we are now. And,that just maybe they won't end up working things out,and he will decide to be with me. I'm not wishing for it,and am keeping my thoughts as neutral as possible but i would kind of want that. And, it does make sense. We've been together growing closer for 3 months now. Met in a very serendiptious way. And,even when he betrayed me friday, he was flip-flopping,and same with Sat in the day time until by Sat night, he was sounding a complete 180 and back to his senses-he does want me still and we will still be together, that it just will take time. He even said at the end of the night he was planning to take me to meet his mother but that i was acting too irrational so he changed his mind. Who does that a day after ending things with someone and confessing to their other person about them? We also were going to have a platonic shortened version of our original plans yet he said during dinner he considered having sex with me,and our plans weren't shortened by that much. He actually went home quite late considering what he is going through and even asked him what is he going to tell her since there is no way he would still be at work,and it was way past that. He is NOT done with me, he is clearly very confused.
-my feral cats
-that tommorow is a new day,and a day where J works and we can talk all day again and things can possibly go back to normal or at least more clarity.
-working today
-pictures
-faith
-entertainment
-the internet
-finding my ibuprofen
-M's friend D taking me out for a little while to go for a drive and get out of the house
-realizing how i can improve when J and I get back together again and what i need to improve
-diet dr.pepper
-nice people
-my fashion sense
-sportsbras
-all the referrals and new job offers i picked up when i did all the following up after getting fired from the one agency
-That J cares about me and all the ways he has shown it
-compliments
-getting a little motivation going
-prayer
-my beauty and the beautiful pictures i have taken over the years
-all the new restaurants i tried with J
-having incredible curves
-my intelligence
-ice
-J's intelligence
-my kindness
-J's kindness
-games, such as little ones J and I play such as the eye game or having take the 5 love languages quiz
-talking
-my new leopard print striped sneakers
-all the high end fashion items i own
-hypnosis recordings
-magical things
-being able to pick up H cat today and W cat. Ever since I moved H cat treats me like he's mad at me and W cat has been mad at me ever since trying to bring him in the house repeatedly for a few minutes in the winter. That was the big no-no betrayal for that cat.
-wind
-bike riding
-how beautiful my hair is
-art
-cuteness
-relaxation
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-getting mentally stronger and detaching
-M's husband randomly surprising me and stopping by the bus stop while i just so happened to be there and bringing me to two of my jobs which helped me out a lot
-getting my old table back which is a little easier to carry
-buying a mascara i've wanted to try
-letting out my feelings
-my new lip injections
-all my jobs i have
-my creativity
-God
-protein drinks
-my blender
-getting the shower rod on and getting the bathroom more cleaned and organized
-doing laundry
-sunshine
-my fashion sense
-my beauty
-having a nice body
-coffee
-relaxing
-deep cleansing breaths
-the internet
-powerful quote pictures
-physical exercise
-bike riding
-seeing J yesterday
-having new life experiences
-having nice hair
-having a nice body
-cats
-stretches
-my strength
-lights off
-being appreciated
-miracles
-my new pastel mint green oven mitt
-makeup
-ideas
-learning
-growing as a person
-band-aids
-klonopin
-my bed
-cuteness
-finding out little H cat has been trying to go in M and M's house,and how he tries to lead me to the food when he's hungry. so cute.
-thoughtfulness
-my intelligence
-my kind heart
-calmness
-surrender
-being open to what the day brings
-taking life day by day
-my phone
-music
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-music
-the sun
-kind-heartedness
-coffee
-realizing i need to get off this valium asap and starting the tapering process
-all the ways J shows he still does love me and misses me
-inspiration
-going to the gym with M the other night
-M's friend D taking me to the haunted house her friend's husband does
-fashion
-my strength
-physical exercise
-my amazing landlord
-my money being better
-writing
-that i'm healing
-water
-M's husband giving me a ride to work yesterday
-happy memories and the love i've experienced in my life
-beauty
-powerful things to think about
-spiritual awakenings
-letting things unfold
-optimism and looking on the bright side
-art
-deep cleanings breaths
-being productive
-artistic expression
-writing things down
-my cats
-felines
-my lip injections
-motivation
-getting dumbbells finally last month
-seeing my body get sculpted
-flattering pictures of me
-positive, happy realizations
-chemical peels
-listening to my higher self
-my phone
-dedicating myself to being kindness and love
-my large household plant
-the cute little pumpkin M gave me shortly after i mentioned i was thinking of getting myself a baby pumpkin for my apartment
-how much i've grown as a person in the last year
-dedicated myself to releasing/shedding away things i need to let go of after my higher self telling me this recently and deciding to work on feeling more fully
-savoring
-nightskies
-my balcony
-compliments
-getting through a more tougher job for me yesterday
-goals
-beautiful sounds
-closing my eyes
-my black tea age delay face cream
-eyeliner
-greenery
-sleep
-comfort
-the signs of feeling very connected to J including the dreams, and feeling guided to contact him when i did
-the sound of J's voice
-being smart
-motivating things to remind myself of
-trees
-yoga and deep slow stretches
-having a laundry machine in the building
-walking
-my feminine nature
-my cuteness
-my talents and gifts i can offer the world
-all the random kindness and miracles i've experienced recently
-M's friend creating such a cute moment. I complained the day after the drama in my life started late august about being in physical pain, heart broken and how my wind chimes don't even chime,and he told me to bring the wind chimes and we will throw them in the street and go for a drive. Well, that night he said he would take it and see if he could find a way to fix it to make sound. Well,about a week ago he offered to bring me home and said he needed to stop at his house and so when we stopped he asked if i could hear that, and right away,i could. It was the sound of wind chimes. We got out and he had fixed mine to make sound and it was hanging on his tree. I then went in his apartment and he gave me a new,very nice looking windchime that was made by a professional percussionist. The little thoughtful things like that are so beautiful to me.
-meeting nice people
-communicativeness and after years of being a person that let a lot of things go unspoken, becoming a person that now just lets it all out, even if it will be embarrassing a little, because it's just my truth, and after losing it all again in 2016, i just no longer care about holding back.
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-coffee
-incense
-getting things done
-cookies
-sportsbras
-going to the gym
-getting a psychiatrist appt for next week to get back on my right anxiety medication
-getting through the things going on
-a work trip for atlanta georgia next week getting confirmed
-having a lot of jobs for november
-surrender, letting go,and taking things one at a time
-my breathing getting better
-getting caught up on my recaps
-the internet
-inspiration
-newness
-help
-kindness from others
-fashion and style
-fun
-having a kind heart
-my first name
-motivation
-my beautiful big houseplant
-my beautiful hair
-nightskies
-sleep
-makeup
-knowing i did all i could for J
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-that J still seems to have feelings for me and seems to want to see me again
-increasing clarity
-trying these chinese herbs
-acceptance
-physical exercise
-how sexy J is
-cats
-B having interest in me
-journaling tonight
-naps
-motivation
-inspiration
-nice weather
-hoodies
-fashion
-increased financial abundance
-finding out i don't have to pay my internet bill this month and have a partial credit for some nice yet mysterious reason
-sportsbras
-pillows
-sweets
-my beautiful art print of J arriving from China and how amazing it turned out!
-things working out
-my new retinol night cream
-getting things more cleaned out and organized in the house
-my upcoming travel next month
-my phone
-my fitness pole
-kind people
-physical touch
-stretches
-plants
-smiling
-my accomplishments
-people thinking i'm cute and young looking
-my feminity
-my intelligence
-minimalism
-luxury
-newness
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-going with the flow
-being back on my lorazapam
-self acceptance
-sleep
-nightskies
-comfort
-getting my first body cosmetic procedure today
-my breathing getting back to normal
-coffee
-ubers
-smiling
-cats
-cuteness
-ideas
-inspiration
-getting a role of quarters
-reorganizing my apartment
-colors
-beautiful words
-humor
-intelligence
-having beautiful hair
-my new supreme beanie
-diet dr.pepper
-shopping
-more ease doing things again
-clearer thinking
-my money being ok
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-being back on my lorazapam
-apple cider vinegar
-my new touched up hair color
-m&m's help they give me
-looking through pictures
-interesting content
-sweaters and hoodies
-fashion and being stylish
-getting my first body smoothing session done and being very happy with it
-progress with J that he may be closer to wanting to get back with me again
-nice people
-having a kind heart
-my balcony windows and door
-my beauty
-physical exercise
-rearranging and decluttering things in my home
-stretches
-potatoes
-sunshine
-the chinese herbs i'm taking
-having beautiful hair that has insane beautiful texture lately
-deep cleansing breaths
-enjoying responsible financial decisions
-the jobs i have for this month
-having another possible out of town work trip for january
-having nice eyebrows
-art
-goals
-my hyaluronic lip plumping gloss that the girl who does my lip injections made and recommends for me
-my supreme beanie
-cookies
-coffee
-the internet
-walking
-having beautiful eyes
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-coffee
-vitamins
-how beautiful the snow is
-being myself
-people to talk to
-laughing
-m's husband being nice to me
-art
-music
-my retinol night cream
-earning money
-having healthy digestion
-having beautiful hair
-love
-cute things
-hot tea
-yoga
-colors
-cookies
-my phone
-beauty
-smiling
-my chinese herbs
-running into people i know that i've enjoyed
-comfort
-maturity
-shopping
-buying a new gucci belt
-saving money
-my feminity
-nourishing my spirit
-feeling so much better on my lorazapam
-plants
-flowers
-makeup
-my thermismooth session i got
-having a kind heart
-feeling my feelings and letting myself cry
-sleep
-masculine energy
-positivity
-inspiration
-great quotes
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-feeling my feelings
-getting a higher paycheck then i expected
-chocolates
-diet dr.pepper
-motivation
-appreciation
-kindness
-cleaning and organizing
-having a nice body
-having great cheekbones
-deep cleansing breaths
-getting my new gucci belt in the mail
-new clothes
-newness
-realizations
-processing
-my feminity
-self improvement
-having nice teeth
-my thinness
-yoga
-having a nice lower body
-coffee
-talking to J on the phone a few times yesterday
-getting a massage yesterday
-having jobs to work
-goals
-having nice, thick hair that is beautifully colored
-cuteness
-cute ideas
-blankets
-lorazapam
-getting an updated selfie of J so i can see what he looks like now
-sweaters
-laughing
-humor
-having healthy digestion
-water
-finding out about my breast ultrasound date
-greenery
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-hot tea
-lavender
-coffee
-cash app
-new experiences
-job opportunities
-M possibly taking me shopping tomorrow
-my lorazapam
-my appetite shrinking again
-naps
-crying and feeling my feelings
-expressing myself
-water
-meditation
-spiritual nourishment
-cute pictures
-posting on social media
-a possible new guy who might like me that i might like
-feeling more body confident
-credit score going up
-cookies
-m's husband taking me out to dinner last night and the place being a nice place
-my bear hat
-relaxation
-organization and decluttering
-music
-smiling
-having nice hair
-great skincare products
-coffee flavored whiskey
-chocolates
-art
-support
-beauty
-improvement
-my new gucci belt
-warm showers
-healthy digestion
-entertainment
-newness
-stretches
-yoga
-dance
-my accomplishments
-nightskies
-self reflection
-looking much younger then my age
-deep cleansing breaths
-calmness
-quieting the mind
-my femininity
-being more productive
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-cash app
-having money
-my creativity
-my fashion sense
-coffee
-M taking me shopping and the cool new things i got today
-J admitting at least once, maybe twice that he does love me
-M's husband taking me to all my spots to finish up work stuff i had to do
-M taking me to pick up some household essentials
-getting my bedroom nice and organized and decluttered
-feeling happy
-cookies
-being smart
-comfort
-sleep
-eyesight
-having a kind heart
-chakra incenses
-goals
-nourishing my spirit
-my credit score increasing
-my beauty improving
-nice warm showers
-the internet
-my phone
-my lorazapam
-my apartment
-makeup
-compliments
-music
-surrender
-making others smile
-colors
-buying the cool silver jaguar necklace for myself last night
-buying gifts for others
-self- acceptance
-apple cider vinegar
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-my friend D getting his gift
-coffee
-ashwagandha
-sleep
-getting a pedicure yesterday
-feeling more comfortable in my body
-getting a ride yesterday to my pedicure and spending some time with M's husband
-the internet
-sending a pretty card to one of my agencies and my landlord
-meditation
-J saying some nice and thoughtful and genuine things last night and agreeing to see me on his next sunday off
-sending M's friend christmas candies from my favorite candy boutique
-my new coat
-fashion
-style
-hot guys
J liking me sending him provocative pictures and saying that that's ok
-cookies
-lorazapam
-paying off my saks card
-getting my body tightening and smoothing sessions done
-reorganziing and decluttering my room
-sweaters
-sunshine
-deciding to start taking lysine as a supplement
-picking up some jobs for tomorrow
-drinking my carrot juice today
-doing journaling last night
-finishing up my recaps
-being communicative
-motivation
-my phone
-physical exercise
-my fitness pole
-water
-smiling
-detrmination
-letting myself cry and feel my feelings
-J saying he is mentally confused on the phone and that to give him time he is trying
-touch
-having healthy digestion
-how much i've grown as a person in the last year and last few years
-having beautiful breasts
-having beautful hair
-having beautiful eyes
-sportsbras
-my apartment
-having jobs coming up
-my femininity
-when J is nice to me
-having dreams
-skipping dinner last night
-blankets
-having a nice large balcony window to look out of
-having nice lips
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-phone calls
-crying
-having extra money in my checking account today
-realizing once one one of my checks comes,i'll have plenty of money to finance some things i've been saving up for
-sleep
-coffee
-cookies
-my looks having improved over time
-having work today
-colors
-sweaters
-physical exercise
-my fitness pole
-my flexibility
-my venus dimples
-having a baby face
-having nice hair
-my lips being bigger now
-fashion
-my bed
-my balcony window
-getting some cleaning done yesterday
-sweaters
-uber discounts for the next few days or so
-having an interesting life
-lorazapam
-makeup
-thinness
-the makeup artist i wanted confirming interest in an upcoming project
-smiling
-blankets
-goals
-happy memories
-having nice eyes
-deciding to try lysine as a supplement
-my crown chakra spray
-my eyesight
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Thank you for this breath of fresh air, buttercup.
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-iced lattes
-diet dr.pepper
-hot tea
-getting to my doctor appt today
-M's husband picking me up from my doctor appt and giving me money to buy some donuts at the bakery nearby home
-the internet
-entetainment
-paying off my saks bill more and more
-making a new self hypnosis audio
-the girl i worked with being fun and inspiring yesterday
-buying a new relationship book recommended by the girl i worked with yesterday
-great uber deals
-reading
-makeup
-lip gloss
-my beauty
-my gucci belt
-having J just where i want him now, after a phone call today. I think i almost got him back to where i've been wanting him.
-compliments
-sunshine
-warmth
-my fitness pole
-my phone
-lorazapam
-making an appointment for my next round of lip injections
-finding out some checks are being mailed out to me
-confirming more jobs for december
-seeing i was paid for something i did job wise in november
-starting lysine as a supplement
-the whites of my eyes looking very white
-yoga
-socks
-my new coat
-sweets
-having J as a friend
-tastebuds
-securing a makeup artist for a project coming up
-my accomplishments
-updating my resume
-great talks with J and seeing how he knows parts of me i didn't know he knows that even i don't know
-how paternal J is
-cleaning and de-cluttering
-sleep
-motivation
-humor
-dental floss
-music
-being unique
-my leoppard print coat
-getting discounts because products i ordered got delayed
-deep cleansing breaths
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-coffee
-sweet treats
-getting work done
-J finally responding to me
-my new gray yoga pants
-newness
-my career
-smiling
-incense
-having money
-being productive
-sleep
-sportsbras
-my creativity
-getting things done
-finding out things M's husband has done to bond with the cats more and help them out more
-kindness from others
-newness
-lip injections
-technology
-goals
-cleaning and decluttering and organizing
-spirituality
-inspiration
-mixing things up
-entertainment
-blankets
-sleep
-dance
-physical exercise
-phone calls
-help
-finding out my lorazapam is due soon