red, Blk, purple & blue(royal)
colours on I.T.V. Logo
----- reminds me i can have itv. on my computer - do now
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red, Blk, purple & blue(royal)
colours on I.T.V. Logo
----- reminds me i can have itv. on my computer - do now
9.10 am approx.
i say Hi Birdy,
male blk bird on roof, he lifts his left leg up,
i say oh are you cold
he then makes the chirping motion with his beak '(i explored 'chirping' during the 'sleeping hrs)
' so he chirps silently'
He then puts his foot back down & stands on his two feet.
I just realised it was Gin's Left leg that was injured too.
Seems i am now back to the age of 10yrs or earlier in terms of my 'place' within this Earth space ~ cool beans xx
Time:10.50 am
3 Jackdaws on Garage roof feeding
The garage is in our back garden , i see it through the kitchen window, the back door, my nanna's old bedroom & our new big bedroom extension room , which my daughter presently occupies/
Today in the kitchen i am / was cooking, having radio on ,eating & sorting, have T.V on in the next roo, which is the lounge..
Everybody Loves Raymond was on earlier. It's finished now & so i should choose another channel. maybe later i can put an old style video on :)
Ex. is moving out in a few days, before his next payday on the 15th Jan 2017......
Got sort the finances now, HELLLL NO !..... they are UNFIX-able .....
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Thanyou AD forum members.................... it's be a long. 'non-EXISTANT' 8yrs................ to get to the time for this to HAPPEN.....
need to chill now & RE-GAIN composure & get 'my mind' back on my own side .......... instead of 'ANYOLDTHING' goes to 'MAKEITSTOP !!!!'
Police- Cell Therapy = 'Highly Recommended instead of 'Hospitalisation'Quote:
Originally Posted by newfreedom
You get to be put in a PRIMAL ~ SCREAM Therapy situation 'to deal with 'YOUR' S~H~I~T' and it works ..........................
i was able to understand so many things that were unclear or less fully understood about many of my word patterns.... my physical agony
Was able to work through how to live, was able to work out HOW to budget without the self HARM..... or intention to 'HARM' annoying 'others' ..............
I was in the Police Cell set-up for approx. 20 hrs
Good SUPPORT / much NEEDED.................MUCHious ..,GRATITUDE to all there & all 'WHO DEALT with ME'.............
Here's OUR SONG for that processing / HEALING stint ............
Dont you FOREGT about ME .....
SimpleMINDS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0jlHz0wF0Ig
So all the direct debits will bounce tomoz & lots of things will get stopped / cut off.... i donot expect to have internet access for some time.....
so see you guys in some months time xxxxx
Have fun ,with Love xX
Hi new freedom,Quote:
Originally Posted by newfreedom
Do you not have library or internet cafe where you live?? You do not have to be away from here because of lost of internet at home, library must have internet, here in my town we have.
I did see me on your bead Angeles list...can you please tell me what they are and how they look like?? and the purpose of them.
Love
ia
Hey Ia....
we have library 3 miles away, i donot leave home [often]
Bead angels are 'pressies' [presents] i like to make them for people i care about , that's it really ... i wanted to upload some photos but , don't think i will manage to now, in time..... angles made from safety pins wire & coloured beads [ornaments of sorts]
Okay newfreedom I understand, but do you not have any friend who can drive you to the library?? My son is like that too, I drive him where he needs to go until he is healed enough to take a bus by himself.Quote:
Originally Posted by newfreedom
I will pray that you will get so much strength and courage to make the trip to the library, it is too long some months for you to be away from us, try to solve it somehow.
I am very interested to see your bead Angeles, I am sure they are made by deep love and caring, I feel honored, thank you. :heart:
Love
ia
Quote:
Originally Posted by IA56
Hi Ia,
it's all been resolved so far.....
more to budget on Mon. but my niece has sorted my Finances , so far for me..... she made it possible to keep electric, internet, t.v. licence, water rates using the benefit money i get .....
Looks like i was making a MOUNTAIN out of A MOLEHILL, once more :mrgreen:..... thankyou for your comment, support & love, helps immensely xxxx
Fantastic newfreedom... I am happy to here all is solved...very good.Quote:
Originally Posted by newfreedom
I do understand you and where you are, I can only say I am sorry that I have not given you anything before back, I have felt your need so clear but I have not given you anything to lighten or ease you up, as you say I know it so well...that suport and love helps...it is all we need.
I am happy all is cleared up and you can be here and communicate if you like and in your time. I will be here for you if you need some love and support.
Love
ia
Flubber
Attachment 1714
Flubber [Trailor]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bm-jug8Y5U8
Physical life incident
2/07/17 - Saw a wren land on the front gate post yesterday, it had a fluttering medium orange moth / butterfly held tightly in it's beak.
i was both awed & 'horrified' at the same time... the little wren & the fluttering butterfly were 'gone' before i could react. i opened the front garden gate to see if i could affect the wren & 'save' the butterfly.....
... there was nothing i could physically do...
I have no 'memory' of EVER having seen a bird holding a fluttering butterfly in it's beak before, in my own physical space (in 'real' life)
The experience did have a 'marking' impact on me... i wonder what it 'signified' in terms of the 'Simulation set-up' - what effects / influences or energies it brought to 'me' & my environment.
It 'feels' positive, even though i didn't like [was distressed by] 'what i was shown'...
9.40 am ish - i catch sight of a baby wren through our lounge window, he is having a bath in our bird bath. He is sooo tiny ... sooo sweet !Quote:
Originally Posted by newfreedom
~~~~ logic~~~
'baby wren has to EAT'
this image i can identify with:
Attachment 2272
Date: 4/07/17
- Word Pattern: 'i hate this place'
- Context: i was struggling emotionally, mentally & physically to function within my environment as i 'pushed through' just to get simple tasks / chores done
- .... ie. putting the green bin out, the recycling boxes & paper/cardboard bag
{Word Pattern adjustment:}.......... 'i have to be careful in this place'
boddhidharma sat for 9 hours. he did what you said, but he did it properly :)
It doesn't say whether or not he cared yet...
Yeah 9 is a great number :-)Quote:
Originally Posted by olyris
Wonder how one does it 'properly' then..........
Maybe it was not known at that point if he 'cared'....
interesting info. Olyris.... gud chatting with you.. :Px x
Exploring telepathy, clairaudience & channelling
A few weeks ago i began exploring telepathy, clairaudience & channelling with my inner self & my inner landscapes. [telepathy with our pet dog, some birds & trees]
I didn't get a lot, but it was fun & often interesting. i am still open to exploring these areas, but am not currently making the effort to practice directly.
Exploring internal landscapes
i have been listening to some of Tom Campbell videos the last few days & this has inspired me to put some energy & effort into exploring my internal landscapes again.
Method
Closing my eyes & observing
Visual
A large [approx. 1m x 1m] wire square mesh cage top [door] was dropped [shut] onto it's base, it did not fit well.
..... i was then 'pulled' into the scene
i am now inside the cage, the wire mess door top has changed & has extra wire around it's sides. i am closing it down over the top of my head, it so it fits snugly, without any gaps.
It appears to be a dug out pit, with brown soil sides & base & now is approx. 3 times bigger...
... i am out of the scene & back with my physical reality awareness.
Notes
We have ferrets that we allow out in our garden daily & i think the wire door not fitting well, caused me concern for that reason, hence i got 'pulled' into the scene as i felt i needed to put it right/ make it safe.
The wire mesh door & the dug out pit does not resemble any apparatus or equipment we have for our pets.
Visual
i see countryside images, then i see some sheep
......'pulled' into the scene
i am inside the back of a moving car, looking through a back / side small window & these images i see through the window as we travel along...
... i am out of the scene & back with my physical reality awareness.
Learning to function with clarity
For the past 2/3 yrs, i have at times been in a 'better' space, where i have been learning & practicing how to function physically with awareness ['being present']
Finally it seems enough issues have been cleared now to allow this process to happen more easily, without all the physical chaos that always ensued previously.
So i am exploring where to put my focus, what to think, what to speak internally, externally and the emotional, physical & environmental responses to doing this.
Popping nasal sounds - new healing crisis symptom
Need to research on the internet for physical causes of this :-)x
stiff neck / shoulder left side
Checking out the Series 'Victoria'
3 collard doves flew into the front garden to 'support' me....:love::heart::grouphug:x
Victoria: Season 3 Official Preview
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMM56Cg2qoA
scary Movie 2
first explored this movie at the start of awakening process, my children introduced it to me....
spring 2006 ........ now Dec 2019......... 13 and a half yrs later......it's time to ;re-visit' this movie again xxx
wave of emotion > < surprise picnic
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Popeye annual (first published 1992)
'Yohoho'..... & a barrel of fun ! .......:toast: [clanking of mugs]
Attachment 2454
playgroup assistant info.
signing: finger on lips:
means ssshhhhh! - be quiet, no talking, pay attention, time to listen
Watching:
- dog whisperer series
- dinner ladies t.v. show
Subtle Energy understandings
......becoming increasingly subtly energy sensitive
Date: 28/09/20
song lyrics : 'long lost pal' --> <-- subtle energy sensations in 3rd eye area
Description of sensations: tingly, a light vibrating motion, very slight physical pain discomfort
Attachment 2480
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZY9oYSSjFI
learning about how i physically respond / act to my thoughts / internal dialogue
So it's pretty obvious i am in 'healing' [maddness] mode again....
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Thankyou all at the AD forum :grouphug:
A very big THAKYOU to Robert, admins. & mods. for making this safe space available :heart:
...very much appreciated :grouphug:
because the past wont get out of my way
wild goose xhase chase
my hands are tied
say watt u see
always worth a try
out of time
lets take it away
she's got the world at her feat xxx
shat-toe
chateau - Although the French word for 'château' is generally translated as castle it is more likely to mean a country house or a manor house. ... Home to warm summers and rich in agricultural land, more than 300 chateaux that were built in this area between the 10th until the 20th Century
The Real housewives of New York City S.12 E 16
.....not very merry achi
being listening to South Park DVD's in our HomE
o :shock:x
i am back a my computer after a few hrs break & am now greeted by my house-fly friend ... h's getting too 'tickly' now & starting to give me the shivers on my ear &on my shoulders & arms ... if he doesnt ease up i might go get a cardi on ... his contact is beginning to feel a little too much, starting to irritate some
Date: 22/10/20
I had to spend 2 weeks in the mental health department of a non-local hospital, i had run out of subtle energy support from both the environment & the people / animals living here & could no longer move forward /or out of my current 'state' without 'extra' /additional subtle energy help and the support / care of some unfamiliar humans.
i was able to shift / take-on 'other' persona & mannerisms after being around unfamiliar others & able to leave behind 'stuck' loops of behaviour & functioning that were no longer 'working' / making forward movement possible.
Word pattern: 'i can't deal with this'
Once i had heard this 'word pattern' spoken internally the distress & the verbal sounds /ticks cleared
i could think & allow the energy to pass through me, experiencing it now instead as subtle energy movement moving/ coursing through my body
'gigantic tree' - spoken words i heard that were brought to my attention Astral dynamics - Robert Bruce
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHydngA5C4E
'learn to say No'
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'pain is a warning that somethings wrong'
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{'pic of kenji & a small orange ball' to be added}
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doing too much
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trying too hard
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i have a habit of doing these...
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Word-pattern: 'it's not working'
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.....causes stress within my physical & emotional bodies
Words thought/ internally heard
- 'not exactly'
- better not go there
- sound
- looking after yourself
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it's better to go sooner
goodness gracious me
community
compassion
what could it be that you are asking for
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XaKr98ktoxU
(evolution)
Words /phrases impressed upon me:
[by subtle means & or physical reality signs & experiences']
- talk about
- enquiries
This Time with Alan Partridge
S. 2 E. 5
https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x81lfvf
A beautiful encounter with a moth
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Attachment 2505
As soon as i logged on to AD forum, the large black fly that had been busy landing on our dog's empty food bowl, landed on my right hand, that was controlling the mouse to use the computer.
This morning i interacted with a wasp, that briefly landed on my hand.
A few days back the buzzards were supporting us, i was out with Kenji in his end of life days & a buzzard flew so low over our property, i had never seen one that close to the ground before over our home.
Then the day Kenji 'passed' i put his little body on the grass for a short time & then heard loudly the buzzards calling, there were 2 circling above us.
It was comforting to be aware of their presence....
Kenji is going to be individually cremated & then my daughter wants to buy a bonsai tree in a pot kept indoors, to add Kenji's body's ashes to.
A few weeks prior to Kenji passing i added Yuki's body's ashes to the communal area in our garden where many of our pets ashes are put, around the base of our Japanese flowering cherry tree, which my daughter bought for this very purpose