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-D texting me angrily tonight saying he hasnt had any females over besides his mom and me. I told him i wasnt interested and apologized for some of the things i said. Strange how after i texted him not interested he only replied to one of my texts after that.Im grateful that he stepped up and said something. And for the relief that there was no females over and it was all in my head and i have no reason to be humiliated now by what neighbors could have seen. Also strange how he texted today. I sent him my vicious messages about 3 nights ago. Then on my balcony i seen him walking to the door. Shortly after, I got the messages from him.
-taking some extra pills to get me though the day after what happened last night that had me wanting to cry and praying to sleep
-sleep. i slept til 4pm. Not good. But, it felt good. And, i had a lot of vivid dreams.
-mikes hard lemonade and having some tonight
-doing laundry
-my great fashion sense
-meditation
-prayer
-journaling
-my rose quartz heart
-squats
-my face looking slimmer
-checking my mail
-my femininity
-my fendi socks
-my strength
-goals
-water
-coffee
-my hyaluronic lip booster
-my sunflowers
-ordering some lavender epsom bath salts for my mom
-mopping the kitchen hallway
-blankets
-ideas
-cuteness
-donating to the humane league the other day
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-sleep
-not having dinner
-squats
-going for my 5 mile walk today
-being considered attractive
-my hair
-my blonde hair toning spray
-water
-starting my retinol again today
-looking young
-my retinol hand serum
-prayer
-getting a bill deferred today
-my hyaluronic lip booster
-cleaning
-talking to m's husband today
-laughing
-my anxiety meds
-being a kind person
-my burberry socks
-cuteness
-seeing a cat today on my walk
-fashion
-pictures
-peaceful sounds
-nightskies
-goals
-hope
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-beauty
-my retinol serum
-being considered attractive
-feeling comfortable enough to wear a tank top today
-sleeping. i slept lots last night and it felt good.
-spaghetti
-my anxiety meds
-pillows
-playing with a fun photo editing app and getting a new pic up on one of my social medias
-prayer
-water
-going to the store today for some things i need
-talking to M's husband on the phone
-my retinol hand serum
-having nice cleavage
-sportsbras
-having nice curves
-my face looking slimmer
-entertainment
-having nice hair
-getting my debit card today
-deciding to buy cat food and try keeping a can in my purse everytime i go for a walk in case i see a cat
-cuteness
-all the cats in my life or that have been in my life
-smiling
-friendly people
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-getting my haircut today
-compliments
-my gucci purse i wore today
-sleep
-letting myself lay down and sleep when feeling sad and helpless
-guacomole
-colors
-getting some groceries
-water
-doing a little reading of my book
-making a self hypnosis
-my fashion sense
-being considered attractive
-taking some positive actions
-my eyebrows
-air conditioning
-common ground
-getting a ride to my haircut
-prayer
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-D feeding me italian ice last night. It was oddly heart-warming and a bit erotic.
-fashion
-design
-finding out some things that clarified my fears with D were all in my head
-D telling me he won't hurt me anymore or have us repeat our past cycles of how things are with us arguing
-kissing D
-how D looks at me a lot like he's reading me, and last night when something came up that had to do with a topic of a previous argument, i was thinking about something and he seemed genuinely concerned asking me what's wrong and what am i thinking about and it was something not related to our argument but we both had remembered at that moment the argument and it was him just making sure we were good and there wasn't anything on my mind i wanted to resolve.
-feeling like D and i have accepted the inevitability we are going to keep coming back to each other based on the little things we both say without thinking about it
-D showing more and more signs of caring about me and trying to make changes when he sees things i don't like or that hurt me and just making effort in general to improve things with us and make me feel better
-yin yoga
-getting my 6 miles in lately
-my clothes being so loose yesterday my pants were sliding down a lot
-D always being very turned on by me
-M being there for me more lately
-all my cats i love
-cuteness
-my mom feeling better
-my electric company being very understanding and offering me a great payment deferral and payment plan
-the evictions ban being extended
-ordering a new phone case
-trying out hibiscus tea
-water
-air conditioning
-support from others
-having a romantic/emotional connection with someone and the enjoyment of that building
-topping my hair color today
-hair masks
-becoming better at adulting
-sleep
-coloring
-prayer
-inspiration
-finding ways to fix things online
-cleaning
-D saying maybe we do when i was messing with him again about an argument we had in the past when he claimed we had nothing in common
-D wanting me to like him and approval from me
-how good my makeup looked last night
-my burberry hoodie
-my givenchy teddy bear
-neighbors being nice to me
-getting my phone to act better
-salad
-kindness
-reflection
-feeling my feelings
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-D sticking with seeming to care about me, more and more
-when D calls me sweetie and is patient with me
-my hair color
-going to my doctor appointments the last 2 days
-my sense of style
-acupuncture
-my givenchy teddy bear
-coffee
-M offering to buy me some lip balms she seen on a health website she likes
-water
-hibiscus tea
-face rolling
-being smart
-having a sense of humor
-under-eye filler
-doing ab work today
-inspiring my dad to start walking
-cats
-my brother being safe
-air conditioning
-sleeping less today
-my new at home chemical peel i've been using for my neck
-music
-beauty
-my beauty
-talking to my therapist today
-my state finally being in the pre-application phase for lost wages federal assistance
-feeling love feelings
-spaghetti and bread with himalayan pink salt ghee for dinner
-xanax
-self-compassion
-seeing cool street art i like
-a cool mobile photo editing app i recently found
-seeing cool creatures while out and about and how much some of them connect with me
-feeling my feelings
-evolving as a person
-prayer
-solutions
-greenery
-inspiration
-kindness from others
-ideas
-hyaluronic acid
-my dior brow mascara
-H cat thriving
-my mom and her cat seeming to be doing better
-M's husband seeming to be doing better
-re-organizing my bathroom shelves
-cleaning my bambi stuffed animal
-my fabric refresh spray
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-benzodiazepines
-hot coffee
-delicious food
-going for my 7 mile walk
-that D and i are still talking, even though it feels different and that he's staying consistent with not disappearing and insisting we can talk
-compliments
-fashion
-sleep
-making conversation with a female senior citizen and how nice she was
-2 different people being happy to get some animal advocacy stickers from me and being glad for what i was doing
-a nationwide ban on evictions in my county til the end of the year
-my state being approved for the lost wages assistance program
-my hair color
-hibiscus tea
-being a nice person
-cleaning
-blankets
-air-conditioning
-being inspiring
-motivation
-cuteness
-my new cell phone cases
-hope
-detachment
-the breeze from outside
-creativity
-being smart
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-D being more consistent with texting me
-D saying something sweet tonight and unexpected-that he wants to get me a gift soon
-when D calls me sweet names
-my hair color
-starting to change my makeup more to match my new hair color
-my style evolving this year
-detaching from D a little bit today
-things working out for me today
-yin yoga
-the chill in the air this morning
-my burberry hoodie
-coffee
-cashapp
-that D listened to me and didn't cut all his hair off
-romantic feelings
-music
-not letting toxic people bring me down today
-being kind
-prayer
-naps
-being smart
-my beauty
-going to the gym for the first time in awhile and how nice that was
-being considered attractive
-newness
-drinking more water
-my givenchy bear and sleeping with him
-how D looks at me
-M's husband finally calling me back
-finishing the bathroom shelves
-cleaning
-finding a marble rock i liked recently
-gin-gins
-reflecting on things i like
-my cozy lauren moshi joggers
-having a very european look
-the backs of my legs getting toned
-cozy socks
-drinking my hibiscus tea regularly
-my new neck peel i've been using
-smiling
-M being nice and sensitive to me lately
-blankets
-night skies
-my femininity
-inspiration
-using my cute new flashlight M's husband got for me tonight
-donating to a suicide foundation the other day
-my retinol serum
-having great skin
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-D and i making up
-hibiscus tea
-physical exercise
-my hair
-face/eye massage
-my chemical body peel solution
-hibiscus tea
-laughing
-sleep
-my make love not war joggers
-my clothes getting looser
-blankets
-cleaning
-benzodiazepines
-newness
-moving things around to rearrange
-clean clothes
-food card being reloaded
-my burberry hoodie
-baby wipes
-choosing to focus on my aesthetics, wellness, fitness and health
-air conditoning
-art
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-D showing how attracted he was to me the other night and how sexy he is
-that at least D talks to me more and ignores me less and seems to try to get to know me more again
-hot coffee
-tony's chocolonely caramel sea salt chocolate bars
-delivery
-M being nice to me and taking me to get groceries today
-xanax
-sleep
-prayer
-my make love not war joggers
-face rolling
-making an appt for more filler and botox
-makeup
-the body peel i use for my neck and seeing some results from it
-deep stretches
-fashion
-the slight chill in the air
-the night breeze
-lint brushes
-cleaning and organizing
-doing some written affirmations tonight
-music
-comedy
-friendliness
-loving feelings
-appreciation
-beauty
-seeing cool things to take pictures of
-color
-socks
-water
-more rioters starting to get arrested
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-after D telling me he doesn't feel the connection he wish he did with me, and us ending again, him telling me less then 24 hours later he has feelings for me, then a few hours later, randomly getting jealous(which he's never showed before) and accusing me of having sex and saying he got mad and asking me a bunch of questions then saying it's good i keep a distance from guys
-hibiscus tea
-getting in a great workout yesterday at the gym then also 7 miles in the fitbit
-water
-doing something kind of crazy to get back at D after i thought i heard something which seemed very hypocritical and throwing my g-string on his balcony.
-my fashion sense
-ibuprofen
-feminine hygiene products
-showering
-doing laundry
-coffee
-tony's chocolonely sea salt caramel chocolate bar
-sleep
-mobile photo editing apps
-getting rilakkuma socks in the mail
-cleaning
-going for a drive with M's husband today
-my lip peel i use
-my gucci purse
-gin-gins
-benzodiazepines
-being strong
-sleeping with my givenchy bear
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-reading inspiring things from a magazine i got in the mail recently
-finding shoes i like finally
-my body getting tinier
-chocolate
-walking for 7 miles today
-having nice lips
-having a beautiful face
-fashion
-my sense of style
-my fitbit
-water
-face rolling
-doing laundry
-turning my phone off sometimes
-xanax
-paying off the rest of the month's rent
-having hibiscus tea tonight
-my pink neon heart light
-starting to mentally detach more from D
-admitting when im wrong
-music
-comedy
-beautiful things
-helpful people
-compliments
-yoga
-comfort
-sleep
-nice weather
-paying another bill off
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-baby wipes
-M being there for me lately
-style
-going with M to her class tonight
-finishing cleaning the bathroom sink area and getting rid of and organizing products
-face rolling
-hyaluronic acid
-having a nice dinner of spaghetti with bread and ghee
-trying to drink more water
-my gucci bag i bought this year
-having a job finally coming up this week
-having nice lips
-getting my meds today
-painting my toenails a nice vintage yellow color
-physical exercise
-coffee
-M taking me to store today
-having a shot of rum before dinner
-beautiful things
-music
-comedy
-entertainment
-compliments
-making a self hypnosis audio for myself
-beauty
-inspiration
-hot guys
-cuteness
-animal activists
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-losing weight
-having a beautiful face
-sleep
-xanax
-coffee
-going to the office today
-my hair color
-makeup
-getting a fast food vegan meal for lunch
-seeing my ferals today and H cat looking good
-finding out M's husband has been taking care of another cat
-putting on a cbd skincare face mask for 15 minutes
-forgiveness
-coloring in my positive affirmations coloring book
-kindness
-being stylish
-my burberry hoodie
-wearing heels today
-music
-baby wipes
-setting positive intentions
-prayer
-ibuprofen
-feeling stronger
-good news
-motivation
-determination
-candy
-water
-sunshine
-plants
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-D and i being back to normal, or at least the way we were a little over two weeks ago
-seeing how i detached from negative feelings and thoughts and certain perceptions before all of a sudden an event brought us together and him initiating talking with me and us making up
-face rolling
-my hair
-getting back more into my self-empowerment
-music
-spending more time at the gym lately
-the new lingerie i got the other day
-doing my multi-acid peel on my neck, chest and hands
-my new acupressure mat
-xanax
-water
-hibiscus tea
-fashion
-my sense of style
-working the other day and running into an old friend and having fun chatting with her and she gave me a ride home
-the slight chill in the air
-slippers
-having a beautiful face
-being high status
-the vegan fast food meal i ordered for dinner
-rum
-having nice lips
-cleaning
-my neon heart lamp
-self-care
-cozy clothes
-little luxuries
-the text D sent me the night we made up saying he felt happy when he looked up and saw me
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-my acupressure mat
-water
-seeing the money on the card for the injectables i need to get
-my beauty
-my stomach getting more sculpted
-going to the gym tonight
-feeling more self-empowerment
-hot guys
-makeup
-coffee
-getting my burger king vegan meal for dinner and a salad
-being a kind person
-fashion
-getting garbage bags today
-listening to third eye chakra music tonight
-sleep
-ferrum phossum tissue salts
-cuteness
-love
-laughing
-my unemployment not getting deducted
-my little heater i put on tonight
-my fabric refresh spray
-my new hermes lipstick
-being smart
-being talented
-my body getting smaller
-blankets
-my phone
-animal activists, advocates and those who do work to help animals
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-chocolate
-salad
-vegan food
-good deals
-ferrum phossum tissue salts
-going to target with m and m today
-doing a skincare face mask
-my bed of nails
-feeling my feelings and letting myself process
-healthy digestion
-water
-D being chivalrous last night. Now, a few hours ago i've ended things though which im sad about
-fashion and style
-showering
-coffee
-clean clothes
-being smart
-art
-my little heater
-pillows
-blankets
-my givenchy teddy bear
-fabric refresh spray
-self compassion
-getting fillers and botox the other day
-cats
-having beautiful eyes
-baby wipes
-self reassurances
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-water
-coffee
-delivery services
-going to the gym today
-self compassion
-doing a lavender epsom salt foot bath
-my acupressure mat
-my hair cooling nice
-my chest looking nice
-my arms getting more toned
-xanax
-rum
-fashion and style
-finally finding a bath mat i like
-baby wipes
-sleep
-great deals
-those who help and fight for animals
-not drinking soda yesterday
-makeup
-my lower body getting more toned
-seeing cute and interesting things
-having nice lips
-being strong
-ferrum phossum tissue salts
-showering
-having great curves
-music
-cuteness
-being unique
-seeing my swarovski crystal order shipped
-being a kind person
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-breaking my block with D after a fight with M's husband where he was awful to me and i wanted to feel better and like i had a friend
-hibiscus tea
-going to the gym today
-how great my hair looks
-D bringing up my mail yesterday for me
-makeup
-my acupressure mat
-trying new things
-coffee
-my new gold colored face mask coming in the mail
-my crystal cup arriving soon
-water
-xanax
-sleep
-ibuprofen
-being smart
-my beauty
-my arms getting more toned
-applying for an event today
-tampons
-fabric refresh spray
-being a nice person
-hope
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-sleep
-romance
-my pink neon heart lamp
-hope
-getting my beautiful crystal chanel inspired cup in the mail today
-my acupressure mat
-coffee
-eating some carrots today
-cleaning
-doing some spiritual work with crown chakra music and setting some intentions
-being pretty
-my hair
-having beautiful eyes
-my side of my hips and thighs looking more toned and smooth
-makeup
-showering
-resolving things with M's husband
-my balcony
-night skies
-taking the garbage out
-submitting for some work
-taking some of the election judge training
-updating my resume
-purple toning shampoos and conditioners
-prayer
-calmness
-blankets
-water
-those who fight for animals
-self compassion
-mobile editing apps
-pretty things
-being smart
-pleasant memories
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-that at least D getting so angry at me and jealous and freaking out shows he cares a lot more then he lets on like i often thought
-at least D said his feelings of anger instead of not communicating it
-that D said we can be cool with each other
-finding out P likes me a lot and talking on the phone for hours the other night
-compliments
-P saying im not an object but a diamond
-my body looking smaller
-my clothes looking nicer on me
-my arms looking smaller, and more toned
-being a loving person
-my abs getting more sculpted
-eating more vegetables
-coffee
-skipping meals some days
-xanax
-having beautiful eyes
-going to yoga class tonight
-cleaning some things
-acid beauty solutions
-being smart
-being creative
-spices
-trying a new vegan food product and loving it
-my venus dimples
-my beauty
-sleep
-smiling
-cuteness
-self compassion
-my beautiful crystal chanel mug
-talking with my psychiatrist today
-feeling calmer about my living situation since researching tenant rights in my city, and ♥♥♥♥♥ protections as well, and looking at my lease
-my new hyaluronic acid i use
-ideas
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-having nice cleavage
-my hair color that accidentally turned darker then expected growing on me
-being very physically attractive
-my feminine energy
-trying to be productive
-beauty
-beautiful things
-laughing
-music
-getting the song i like cut to the part i want for my ringtone
-going to the gym today
-anxiety medication to calm me down
-my starbucks vanilla bean drink i had today
-seeing D really did have some kinds of feelings for me to get the way he did
-my acupressure mat
-me realizing some changes i want to make such as long no longer crazy shaming myself, not letting neighbors bother me anymore, doing more things to empower myself, working on career more, becoming a smidge more quieter, smarter, and just a lot of reflecting lately over all
-hot guys
-fashion
-having beautiful lips
-organizing some papers
-my new pink glitter folder
-doing a little reading
-water
-skincare face masks
-being a kind person
-the little heater in my living room
-newness
-rearranging things
-learning casual polish speaking on the app i've been using
-my venus dimples
-having a nice lower body
-my prada candy night perfume
-doing love meditations lately as a spirituality challenge
-meditating and getting new ideas
-chemistry feelings with a guy you like
-how beautiful trees are
-love
-prayer
-deciding i want to become more intellectual
-pictures
-new experiences
-colors
-being an interesting person
-new affirmations i'm using
-blankets
-lint rollers
-fabric refresh spray
-great design
-great lighting
-spices
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-techno music
-discovering new music
-getting new ideas
-utilizing my resources
-being smart
-coffee
-cats
-seeing my feral cats yesterday
-prayer
-halloween candy
-having a feeling D may be checking on me
-reassurances
-romance
-potatoes
-lint brushes
-changing and evolving
-knowing how to use my oven now
-sleep
-my acupressure mat
-fashion
-the nail stickers i got the other day
-doing laundry
-sweeping the bathroom floor
-talking to M's husband on the phone today
-baby wipes
-showering
-motivation
-working on improving myself
-learning casual polish language
-pillows
-blankets
-sunshine
-colors
-inspiration
-entertainment
-doing some stretches and toning exercise
-trying to see the fun and joy in things
-my beauty
-having nice lips
-having nice eyes
-good skincare products
-my femininity
-nightskies
-coming back to myself
-fabric refresh spray
-innovation
-learning
-hope
-trying to get centered and grounded
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-being convinced the disaster last night that occured had to have happened to bring me and D together again. Enough times something external happens to bring us together.
-how gorgeous D's eyes are, and attractive he is
-how sweet and polite D is and seeing he wasn't affected by what happened and seeing he had things i gave him out in the open on display in his living room
-that maybe D does care
-xanax
-going to the gym today
-not being so scared of my landlord anymore
-epiphanies i've had lately
-beautiful weather
-night skies
-hope
-swedish fish
-sweets
-coffee
-having beautiful eyes
-beautiful things
-my hair color
-being smart
-calming down and seeing things more objectively now
-ideas
-my talent
-fashion
-having a kind heart
-knowing my heart's desires
-naps
-my acupressure mat
-my venus dimples
-having nice curves
-M's husband coming in the middle of the night to help
-feeling my feelings
-self compassion
-feeling more romantic lately
-inspiration
-having 3 upcoming jobs
-being considered attractive by others
-my new travel size lint roller
-music
-blankets
-finishing painting my nails
-makeup
-trying to drink more water
-learning
-starting case notes last night
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-laughing
-humor
-seeing M's husband today
-seeing a wolf today
-coffee
-vegan eggs
-my anxiety meds
-other people thinking i'm beautiful
-being smart
-my hair color
-makeup
-heels
-working yesterday
-having nice eyes
-getting a new selfie for social media of myself
-cleaning products
-self compassion
-sunshine
-beautiful weather today
-stretches
-trying to push through with life
-having a unique personality
-looking and seeming very young
-drinking more water today
-sleep
-cleaning and organizing the bed
-having nice lips
-my acupressure mat
-fashion
-beautiful things
-doing a little reading
-listening to some crown chakra music
-learning polish
-being a friendly person
-doing laundry
-buying crushed red peppers
-my neighbor letting me see her place today and being nice and normal
-relaxation
-reassurances
-listening to advice
-connection
-connecting with others
-new experiences
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-getting my screening done and finding out valuable info
-the stuff for D coming in the mail
-my unemployment state funds and how long i have left for it seeming to have extended
-massaging my scalp
-massaging my face and neck
-sleep
-coffee
-starting to get close to being on a better sleep schedule
-cleaning
-kundalini yoga
-my beauty
-having beautiful eyes
-having a nice personality
-drinking more water today
-my creativity
-my thoughtfulness
-prayer
-wearing heels today
-doing laundry today
-taking out the garbage today
-my chanel crystals cup
-my talent
-J emailing me to follow up on some ideas of his own for our upcoming project
-drinking hibiscus tea today
-ibuprofen
-massage
-my femininity
-blankets
-ferrum phossum tissue salts
-my thoughts becoming more rationalized and calmer
-more affirmation D has been checking on me lately since around september
-being empathetic
-being smart
-relaxation
-self-compassion
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-things to be grateful for
-prayer
-healing
-shopping
-confirming more jobs lately
-M's friend randomly gifting me money today
-healthy digestion
-tony's chocoloney sea salt caramel chocolate bars
-going to the gym today
-showering
-having beautiful eyes
-my abs getting really sculpted
-God
-tenants unions and the unions i've been having help me
-having a kind heart
-being someone who fights for what's right
-water
-clarity
-getting my new internet assistance from the financial assistance finally set up today
-having an attorney for my case
-yoga
-music
-discovering interesting and cool new things
-art
-creativity
-ibuprofen
-sleep
-having a warm apartment
-my sense of style
-supporting small businesses
-smiling
-cleaning products
-cleaning
-that i've done a good job fixing my purse
-cuteness
-hyaluronic acid
-doing some reading today
-doing some write-ups last night
-laughing
-moisturizers
-makeup
-pillows
-blankets
-reassurances
-calmness
-having a baby face
-nightskies
-sunshine
-awesome phone apps
-baby wipes
-self massage
-being open-minded
-inspiration
-evolving
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-ibuprofen
-coffee
-seeing and talking to m's husband today
-my white claw t-shirt
-having a nice backside
-face rolling
-shopping
-my thoughtfulness
-great design
-seeing H cat today and the other ferals
-getting my bracelet today
-getting my phone call done today with lcbh
-my bed of nails
-my glycolic acid body serum
-my beauty
-cleaning products
-getting on the discounted internet plan
-having another job tomorrow
-having beautiful hair
-D's eyes
-realizing I have in my eyes a similiarity to D's
-having interesting culture and background
-having goals
-models
-tissue salts
-getting money deposited into my account today
-clothes fitting nicer today
-having great bone structure
-having an eye for content creation
-water
-music
-beautiful things
-finding my prada sock that had been missing for awhile
-making a dentist appointment
-catching up on things
-prayer
-learning helpful new things
-colors
-creativity
-reflection
-getting homeopathic meds for H cat
-baby wipes
-yoga
-positive news articles
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-showering
-working today
-having a nice face
-my bed of nails
-my hair color and having nice hair texture and attractive hair
-my lips
-sleep
-cleaning products
-kindness
-compliments
-activism for positive changes
-great design
-supporting small businesses
-hairties
-smiling
-water
-kava tea
-makeup
-cuteness
-my last action to tell D im done basically
-blankets
-prayer
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-yoga
-cleaning products
-the tenants unions helping me
-beautiful things
-water
-making efforts to pick up the pieces
-root beer
-hummus
-getting my place much cleaner
-seeing a black cat in my neighborhood again and putting cat food out for the cat in case he/she seen it
-comedy
-being an interesting person
-hyaluronic acid
-creativity
-being smart
-my laptop
-my phone
-self massage
-sleep
-apple cider vinegar giving my skin a nice glow the other day
-being beautiful
-having nice lips
-having nice eyes
-finishing my recap tonight
-opening a new checking account
-blankets
-doing some reading tonight
-moisturizers
-cuteness
-music
-
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-creativity
-great design
-help and support
-reassurances
-getting my unemployment put on the unemployment card
-water
-going to the gym today
-yoga
-vegan food
-blankets
-pillows
-making efforts
-having a ride to my appointment next week
-being a nice person
-mailing my dad a holiday card
-having beautiful eyes
-tissue salts
-shopping
-M giving me a leopard print scarf that looks like a poncho that i like a lot that she bought for me
-doing laundry
-getting this place cleaner
-opportunites to bette myself
-letting go of D and processing it all
-healthy digestion
-baby wipes
-being smart
-prayer
-calmness
-humor
-beautiful things
-
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-water
-m's husband coming by to see me
-joggers
-yoga
-the tenant union guy coming by today and changing my lock for me and also giving me a pin from his union and some papers about their cause
-comfy socks
-having nice curves
-making my phone therapy session today
-being smart
-touching up my hair color
-confirming more jobs and meeting my income goal of working for this month
-cleaning
-bathtub getting cleaner
-copper sponges
-root beer
-beautiful things
-fashion
-sunshine
-ideas
-pillows
-blankets
-deciding to get a little christmas tree and some ornaments for a creative project to play with by going very unique it
-great designs
-having great taste
-hyaluronic acid
-music
-laughing
-hope
-having a kind heart
-my beauty
-having nice eyes
-fabric refresh spray
-perfume
-
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-self compassion
-tackling problems one at a time
-going to the gym today
-confirming jobs today and exceeding my earning goal for the month
-coffee
-finishing the bath tub and putting the new shower curtain up
-new ideas
-sleep
-having a new lock on my front door
-having a kind heart
-feeling more positive
-makeup
-having nice lips
-water
-seeing my body get more sculpted
-being productive
-making a self hypnosis audio recording
-inspiration
-
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-female that time of the month products
-painkillers
-stain removers
-crying it out and feeling my feelings
-masculine men
-newness
-root beer
-having great hair
-water
-blankets
-pillows
-sleep
-ideas
-being smart
-surrendering and having faith
-laughing at the universe
-yoga
-having nice lips
-hyaluronic acid
-coming back to myself
-D bringing my package up my stairs
-ending up with a baby pink christmas tree instead of white, which would make me mad, but it's so funny because that's actually what i was seeking out at first
-making efforts
-entertainment
-creativity
-doing some reading
-music
-having beautiful eyes
-colors
-coffee
-red pepper hummus
-art
-having goals
-
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-being strong as hard as it's been with what D's been doing to me
-self compassion
-being easy on myself
-healthy digestion
-drinking hibiscus tea
-ideas
-water
-that time of the month products
-seeing M's husband today and him helping me with some work stuff and taking me to store
-yoga
-having nice curves
-my abs getting more sculpted
-coffee
-root beer
-having a grapefruit bud light seltzer earlier
-sleep
-newness
-red pepper hummus
-joggers
-botox
-my little pink christmas tree
-getting some ornaments to put on my christmas tree in the mail
-hyaluronic acid
-having goals
-reflecting on criticism
-having nice lips
-having nice eyes
-reassurances
-being smart
-being able to get a little savage
-great design
-creativity
-tissue salts
-those who do things to make a positive difference in the lives of others, heroes
-laughing
-art
-entertainment
-having 2 jobs this weekend
-pillows
-blankets
-colors
-beauty
-having great taste
-cleaning products
-
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-hibiscus tea
-being considered very attractive
-being smart
-compliments
-M bringing me to my job today
-being kind
-helping causes i care about
-M taking me to starbucks on the way to work
-finding out that the guy at the gym that flirted with me in front of her recently asked her about me today
-getting to the do the stairmaster today
-having great eyebrows
-colors
-fashion
-beauty
-makeup
-great design
-art
-cleaning and organizing
-my creativity
-being an interesting person
-my little christmas tree coming along very nicely with the ornaments
-everyone i tell the story to about the tree was supposed to be white and coming light pink which i was seeking at first being amused at it as well and finding it interesting
-sleep
-water
-blankets
-pillows
-saying stuff to D i needed to say some more that was angry but needed to be said and of course he ended up arriving home same time as me and seen me walk towards door as he was driving to park his car and i ended up peeking out window to be sure it was him and seen him looking at his phone and then another minute or two later, inside his apartment. So, he's seen me a few times the last few weeks outside, i have not seen him. This was the first time i seen his car while he was in it, but i couldn't see him of course because it was dark and i can't see super well especially at night
-baby wipes
-physical exercise
-yoga
-eviction ban extended another month
-hope
-starting to gain more confidence, clarity, and inner peace little by little
-inspiration
-being able to laugh at myself
-having m and her husband to count on as a support
-getting a bank account i can connect to cashapp, uber, and quicker transfers
-having great hair
-having beautiful eyes
-deodorant
-fabric refresh spray
-self compassion
-surrender
-newness
-perfumes
-
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-sleep
-my body relaxing
-eviction ban extended
-M's husband calling me today
-reflection
-hibiscus tea
-ibuprofen
-yoga
-root beer
-my acupressure mat
-kind, heroic men
-fashion
-cleaning and rearranging things
-cleaning products
-getting some pics for my social media i want to post
-beautiful things
-bras
-hyaluronic acid
-sleeping the in the nude more often
-dimmer lighting
-being productive
-doing some reading
-my accomplishments and status with former career that i plan to go back to
-having some of my dreams come true in lie
-being considered very attractive by others
-walking a little bit at night after taking care of something for work
-having a miracle happen of seeing my power utility bill that i owed almost $500 to completely paid off when i went to check it the other day when i got an email statement. A miracle. I applied for assistance programs but didn't hear anything.
-surrender
-helping others
-having goals
-being creative
-utilizing my resources
-baby wipes
-my travel size lint roller
-listening to my new subconscious audio recording
-fabric refresh spray
-empathy
-ideas
-deodorant
-my femininity
-laughing
-working on loving myself more again
-prayer
-kindness
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-J the union organizer calling the slumlord for me last night
-seeing how surrendering makes things work out
-hibiscus tea
-being strong and feeling my feelings with the painful stuff going on with how D is being to me
-Starbucks
-M bringing me to my job today
-seeing how much M's husband loves the cats
-photo editing apps
-my little pink christmas tree
-having great taste
-my christmas ornaments
-supporting small businesses
-art
-being smart
-cuteness
-felines
-my acupressure mat
-conditioning, color-toning hair masks
-going to the gym yesterday
-water
-cleaning products
-makeup
-laughter
-showering
-kindness
-confirming another job today and my first double booking since march
-fashion
-discovering new things
-blankets
-inspiration
-hairties
-hope
-coffee
-drinking some wine last night
-my talents
-yoga
-
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-when attractive men seem to have a crush on me
-doing some written affirmations tonight
-doing some reading tonight
-utilizing my resources
-great deals
-being smart
-my acupressure mat
-humor
-music
-yoga
-a ♥♥♥♥♥ relief agreement finally done with Congress
-water
-root beer
-blankets
-pillows
-cleaning products
-spices
-vegan food
-my creativity
-self acceptance
-my little pink christmas tree and ornaments
-mobile editing apps
-entertainment
-fashion
-having great taste
-great design
-having a kind heart
-seeing the bright side of things and power of surrender
-cuteness
-compliments
-beauty
-inspiration
-prayer
-deodorant
-fabric refresh spray
-baby wipes
-innovation
-having great eyebrows
-
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-M saying she will take me to the mall this week
-getting my recap done and seeing my last one went through
-fashion
-my sense of style
-a ♥♥♥♥♥ relief bill finally passing
-prayer
-lemon bars
-water
-root beer
-colors
-my beauty
-organizing
-getting another cute ornament in the mail and 2 holiday cards
-blankets
-my tea tree oil foot spray
-my acupressure mat
-being productive
-my balenciaga socks
-decluttering
-my gray winter coat
-having a baby face
-vegan food
-having a unique personality
-beauty
-having beautiful eyes
-having great eyebrows
-my arms getting more in shape
-cuteness
-learning
-having a kind heart
-newness
-hibiscus tea
-deodorant
-perfume
-cleaning products
-how much M's husband loves the cat cats
-getting more grounded
-confirming 10 jobs this month
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-music
-fashion
-M taking me shopping for christmas
-J from tenants union reassuring me
-root beer
-water
-crushed red peppers
-wine
-my starbucks veganized vanilla bean frap i get
-tissue salts
-waking up earlier today
-sleep
-working out today
-doing laundry today
-starting a to do list today
-my inner peace increasing
-looking very young
-sexy men with dopey looking eyes
-my beauty
-yoga
-hibiscus tea
-working on loving myself more
-helping others
-getting paid yesterday
-that it seems like D may have been checking on me today
-laughing
-having nice curves
-compliments
-baby wipes
-showering
-newness
-feeling my feelings
-cuteness
-animal lovers and activists
-sunshine
-colors
-
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-my little pink christmas tree and decor i have on it
-champagne macarons i got. so good.
-hoodies
-mermaid waffles i had today that i got from the grocery store the other day
-joggers
-cats
-cuteness
-socks
-cleaning products
-root beer
-beauty
-my living situation calming down
-having a baby face
-laughing
-water
-kindness
-sexy men
-sleep
-catching someone lying and trying to make my life more difficult and turning the situation in my favor
-decluttering
-animal lovers and those who help animals
-fashion
-having great style
-getting things together little by little
-hope
-prayer
-lip injections
-talking to m's husband on the phone today
-ibuprofen
-starting a to-do list the other day
-hyaluronic acid
-colors
-water
-reflection
-being very attractive
-great deals
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-grateful to be alive
-grateful for roof over head, water and food to survive
-grateful for loving friends and family
-grateful for the knowledge I've gained over the years that allows me greater experience of life
-grateful for meditation, allows me to always feel deep inner peace constantly within.
-grateful for lucid dreaming and astral projection, allows me to travel beyond physical reality.
-grateful for breathing techniques, that allow me to empower my bodily vehicle to learn, grow and develop
-grateful for music, helps me feel good, calm and full of joy
-grateful for nature, helps me strengthen my connection to all that is
-grateful for all the loving experiences, and transcendental ones where I experience more connection with the divine.
-grateful I still have rest of the day ahead of me
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-compassion for self
-J listening to me vent via text
-♥♥♥♥♥ relief being signed by president
-being strong
-my wit
-mermaid waffles
-being able to laugh at life
-taking out the garbage
-joggers
-treating myself to some new joggers from a label i like a lot
-sleep
-M checking on me
-blankets
-showering
-ideas
-being offered an opportunity to do something with former career which will help with my comeback
-yoga
-trying to be productive and make things happen
-prayer
-fashion
-newness
-music
-processing my feelings
-my power
-pictures
-reading a few pages of the book i'm on
-hope
-champagne macarons
-having almost enough to get the updates i want from the place where i get injectables
-cuteness
-love
-cats
-being unique
-water
-self massage
-massage tools for the face and neck such as face rollers and gua shua
-connection
-root beer
-my acupressure mat
-strawberry wafer cookies
-working on my to-do list
-beauty
-looking like a model
-feeling ambitious
-my stomach, arms and backside getting more toned
-being able to pay my internet bill
-pillows
-
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-being smart
-compassion for self
-seeing W cat tonight and getting to hold him
-hot guys
-going to the gym today
-joggers
-being creative
-going to the store to get some things i needed
-having great hair
-water
-root beer
-staying determined
-spices
-having nice curves
-socks
-cleaning products
-cleaning my air purifier and buying a replacement filter
-prayer
-reassurances
-beauty
-love
-romance
-fashion
-beautiful things
-being considered very attractive
-new opportunities
-having a baby face
-compliments
-having a kind heart
-my cute new fashion designer inspired blanket
-surrender
-acupressure
-those who help and advocate for animals
-positive news stories
-ideas
-ibuprofen
-my sense of style
-hairties
-cuteness
-being productive
-having a little work coming up
-colors
-nightskies
-music
-art
-
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-water
-showering
-heroism
-touching up my hair color
-getting paid for 2 jobs for the job i did where it was 2 different vendors unlike what i thought i'd be paid
-music
-feeling poetic
-drinking hibiscus tea
-doing an at home chemical peel on my face and neck
-fashion
-having a job tomorrow
-being productive
-trying to better myself
-makeup
-yoga
-finding incredible new yoga poses to do
-ibuprofen
-coffee
-buying some cute balenciaga socks
-newness
-growing and evolving as a person
-socks
-my acupressure mat
-my beauty
-love
-heart warming moments
-colors
-beauty
-self compassion
-grounding myself
-sportsbras
-creativity
-having desires
-being an interesting person
-blankets
-pillows
-my stomach looking more sculpted and smoother
-healthy digestion
-good quotes and reflection on things
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-sending D a rational reasonable text from my tablet last night
-noticing D brought up my mail for me tonight
-deciding to focus more on drinking more water
-my job tonight
-new experiences
-rest
-ginger
-having dinner tonight
-uber pricing not being as bad as i expected tonight
-makeup
-having a beautiful face
-yin yoga
-touching up my hair color last night
-tissue salts
-voice accents
-having nice full lips
-hyaluronic acid
-M's husband healing
-feeling ambitious
-being a kind person
-wearing my cute new rhinestone winter boots today
-compliments
-hairties
-self massage
-blankets
-pillows
-healing
-love
-animals
-smiling
-acupressure
-waking up on time
-vegan gouda cheese
-baby wipes
-spray cleaners
-being in the scene of trendy things
-
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-D and i have officially amended and talked things out
-ibuprofen
-epsom salts
-face massage tools
-showering
-rose wine
-dancing
-yoga
-music
-d and i getting together on nye and banging in the new year together and having a wild night of some firsts
-water
-pillows
-the sexual energy between me and D
-M's husband doing better
-M's husband still seeming to think D actually does care about me and he never likes any guys i date
-sportsbras
-inspiration
-champagne macarons
-hair ties
-my new sparkly rhinestone winter boots
-having fun
-my beauty
-my hair color
-laughing
-D saying he loves me lips
-starting to get some creative projects together
-eviction moratoriums been going on
-manifesting my hearts desires
-having a baby face
-sleep
-surrender
-masculine energy
-hibiscus tea
-having fun
-feeling a little closer to D
-having beautiful eyes
-the acupressure mat helping to smooth out my stomach
-feeling good that D and i amended and have a little bit of a happily ever after going on
-prayer
-cats
-cuteness
-makeup
-my body getting a little tighter and smaller making me feel a little more confident
-seeing D had stuff i gave him around his apartment still including magnets i made of a cat i love and quote i believe in and my business cards with my picture on them which i didn't see the last time we hung out
-deciding on a whim to get D some shot glasses with an artistic almost nude professional photo of me on them
-the connection i feel with D
-joggers
-fashion
-cleaning products
-baby wipes
-love
-romance
-seeing D's kinky side come out from time to time
-my mom showing me a pic of a cute gift she got for me for christmas that made me smile
-getting the air purifier in my bedroom working better now
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-D and i making amends
-peace
-my hair color
-seeing M's husband today and that he looked well
-having a beautiful face
-my ab pain dramatically decreasing
-being productive
-naps
-meditating
-drinking more water and walking more
-baby wipes
-decluttering
-my clothes fitting better
-getting awesome opportunities coming to me
-blankets
-hair ties
-buying a pair of dolce and gabbana sunglasses
-stretching
-getting my eyebrows threaded today
-how beautiful and accomplished i am and how reassuring that is at times
-being a thoughtful person
-getting a random bank credit to make up for what they took
-acupressure
-working on my to do list
-fabric refresh spray
-ibuprofen
-calmness
-nightskies
-doing some reading
-music
-
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-tissue salts
-rest
-relaxation
-sleep
-surrender
-trying to be a better me and a more enjoyable me with a nicer energy
-blankets
-self compassion
-buying a louboutin keyring on a whim
-beauty
-fashion
-art
-at home chemical peel i did for my hands last night
-fashion
-my style
-focusing more on my wellness
-drinking more water
-being productive
-going for a short walk while waiting for laundry
-being creative
-people caring about me
-doing laundry
-having nice hair
-prayer
-my clothes starting to fit nicer and looser
-indian food
-being very beautiful
-creative packaging
-pillows
-colors
-my ab pain going away dramatically
-my acupressure mat
-unexpected beautiful surprises
-inspiration
-getting my confidence and empowerment back more and more
-stretching
-spray cleaners
-baby wipes
-happy memories
-compliments
-cats
-cuteness
-humor
-feeling upbeat
-having beautiful eyes
-nourishment