My Lucid Dream Journal

Date: 18/06

Time: approx 9am


Lucid Dream
I was walking along a familiar path on the way into town, i was wearing (only ?) a white short sleved shirt, the wind was blowing through my shirt and was very noticeable on my skin, the sun was shining brightly giving everything an 'exotic sparkle' & was warm and comforting....... the feeling was one of exhilaration....

notes: - i knew i was dreaming and so checked to see if i was safe with what i was wearing, (or not wearing) and i was.
It's odd here because although, i did feel like i was in a physical body, NO-Way would i of felt comfy or safe or 'right' wearing just a shirt.... however i may have been wearing a wet swimming costume under my shirt.
This makes sense because:

• i had previously been dreaming of swimming
  
• the way the wind blew threw my shirt and into my (wet?) body
• when i checked my self out, i would feel ok /decent wearing my swimming costume under my shirt this way, walking along this road, knowing it was a dream

However i don't really remember mentally noting the swimming costume i was wearing when i checked.... just that i was 'safe'

I had awoken quite a few times before this lucid dream and the sun had been shining brightly through my blinds, so i knew it was in reality a sunny day

I decided to sit down on the grass bank on corner of a cross road....
i was now aware of having a rabbit on a leash with me... he was quite big, grey/brown colour, i was also aware of my little dog zen across the road from me on the grass field

notes: in reality there is no grass bank on the corner of that road and also the green field in front of me, where my dog now was, was in reality a different 'real' area that was somewhere else.
In the dream these abnormalities did not concern me or even catch my attention, i knew where i was and seemed to be at both these 'real' locations simultaneously and it wasn't a 'problem'

i decided that since i was dreaming it was safe to let the rabbit off the leash, knowing i was dreaming seemed to allow me to feel there were no consequences to my physical actions...

Eg. in real physical reality i would never have let the rabbit off the leash, but here it seemed ok to do so, i had seen no cars and it was only my dream.... was my logic

The rabbit stayed on the grass bank, continuing to eat the grass, un- affected by his leash being off & him being now free
As i looked towards the green field in front of me where my dog had been wandering around, there was now a large rectangular trampoline, i was aware my dog was still there, but like the rabbit, i didn't feel concerned or particularly interested that he was. I was pondering what i could do next, ( at this point, i looked across the field towards the school that was there, and could see the windows were dark... i wondered whether to go exploring in the building) also i saw a group of people across the otherside of the field and decided to get up and walk across the trampoline to reach them.
i did consider bouncing on the trampoline as i crossed it, but didn't really feel it was something i could be bothered to do, so just walked across to the otherside.

notes: i don't remember getting/ climbing onto the trampoline, also my daughter had a large circular trampoline in the garden for years, so trampolines were not the amazing awe -inspiring thing anymore, that they once had been for me along time ago when i was a child

i was walking widthwards across it. When i got to the otherside i had arrived not in the place i had been aiming for, which confused me a little, so i had to walk further along to reach the crowd of people.

notes: no memory here of engaging with the people. Also when i was making my way towards the people, i was thinking 'i will probably wake up soon, it's not going to be quiet enough to sleep through & remain in this lucid dream much longer'...... interestingly i was not woken up out of the dream experience while i remained lucid

I decided to walk in the opposite direction towards a group of school children who were wearing fancy dress, as i passed each child i looked at their faces and each child i recognised at the time, although most faces i didn't have names to.

notes: now although i knew these children's faces at the time, some of them don't exist in my memory as 'real' children i have met so far in this life and on waking i couldn't remember who some of these familiar faces were meant to have been either

i continued walking past the children and towards the primary school that was there, i saw an old nursery teacher of my children's there, she was with another lady, she didn't recognise me, so i had to remind her who i was

notes: cannot remember anything more here

notes: the school was my old primary school and the nursery teacher who was there was not connected to this school, nor did my children go to that school

I do remember going back to the animals, my dog was still there, as was the rabbit and also some more rabbits !
i remember walking with my dog across the field, heading in a different direction, we came across another animal........

notes: at this point my lucidity faded as i became completely 'lost' in the dreaming scene

Hello, newfreedom.

The initial scene probably marks this as an adventure in your "comfort zone" - close enough to Source to feel comfortable and safe, not so close you might feel overwhelmed. Like a good summer's day is a balance between the sun on your skin but not being too hot. The sun, especially when noticed particularly, often denotes the relationship to Source, and the sunshine itself the particular effect on you. Being too close to Source for comfort would appear as sunburn, sweating and direct exposure to heat, being too far away removed from Source as cold, dark, etc.

Counting the dog, rabbits and the unidentified animal at the end you might have come over three different kinds of animal, usually a sign for elementals. The rabbit denotes a well-behaved elemental, like a rabbit is no harm for anyone. Especially since it still behaves the same after you release it from the leash - denoting "tight control." The dog behaves well as well, this might denote that currently your physical (rabbit - low profile, close to earth) and astral (dog = man's best friend, emotional nature) elementals are well-kept and don't act out especially. The third kind of animal might have denoted something about your mental elemental, but maybe your inner sense were not developed enough to pick up and read out that information, hence the drop of lucidity and recall.

The only thing better than this would be perhaps if they were depicted as being "of the same kind" - but this might follow in another dream. For the dream message and interpretation it might have been more important to portray differences to allow interpret this as various aspects of yourself. Contrast can help refine your discernment that you need to pick up on more subtle aspects of dreams.

Your dog Zen might be also serving as a pun on a Tibetan variant of Buddhism, dhogzen or however that is written, essentially denoting "spiritual discipline."

Crossroads often mean decision points.

Not getting on the trampoline might also signify something - since it is probably an astral plane trampoline it could denote "emotional ups and downs" and you might be have had enough of that and no longer consider that an appropriate thrill and hence no longer enjoy that. Approaching your dog (astral elemental) while doing this might again signify an astral/emotional aspect to this - emotional detachment of the good kind, where you decide consciously not to give in to drama and take a more level approach to things (opposite of the ups and downs of the trampoline).

If you indeed read out your lower three elementals in this one the area you were in might have been what Kurt calls your "world view" - denoting self image and vital information about yourself. I would not necessarily classify this as a dream, but more as an adventure of consciousness for lack of a better term. Like visiting your inner landscape and seeing the state of your being mirrored back to you in symbols.

Thanks Korpo for these understandings and interpretations.... i always enjoy & appreciate them... xX

The animal at the end that didn't make sense was a rabbit and squirrel at the same time, it had a marking on it like sheep do & this marking was to let everyone know it was no longer a pet and lived freely in a 'wild' way now. Also i had met this now wild pet before in other dreams, so it and it's circumstances were familiar to me..

Date: 9/07

time: 2 am ish


Spent the whole hour of sleep being held, grabbed everytime i fell into sleep

At times the 'being' holding me felt comforting, but it felt like 'it' / 'they' were constantly trying to take me away...... further and further from my sleeping body.

I did allow myself to be taken a little way away, but i could not allow myself to go too far.... i would become panicked..... i could not trust whoever it was that had me NOT to take me somewhere 'awful' i couldn't trust that it would be ok. There was a part of me that knew, i couldn't trust 'them' to make it alright.... and so i constantly fought / struggled to make it back to my body again.

Each time i began to 'drift' into sleep, the 'grabbing of me' and pulling and taking me away would begin again..... at times it did feel slightly disturbing too......


I had been in high energy space & processing for 3 weeks. 1 week without much sleep, then had 3 nights of 4 hrs. then 2 nights without much sleep again (1 or 2 hrs max.) this 'pulling out of body' experience happened on the 2nd night of the 2 nights of not much sleep..

Yesterday i spent most of the day 'falling-off' into sleep and last night slept 8 hrs 'normal' sleep....

So looks like this latest 'high' phase is easing. Lot's of healing crisis physical symptoms happening at the moment again... but phase was easier and physicality feels like it's on the way up just at the moment......


Thankyou Robert & all here who make this forum possible ..... Xxx - U are an AWESOME bunch ! :heart: xx:heart: :-)Xx

Been too lazy to write up my lucid dreams... have had about 10 ish or so.. and a few VERY impactful dreams where i was more 'present' than my normal way of living when i am physically awake.

tonights dream was about electrocution,..... i have only a few snippets in memory, but i had to try and disconnect an electric wire that if i touched would propbably electrocute me, other option was leave it to explode, think there were others (humans) within the dream enviroment.

Was relieved to wake up to 'reality'..... PHEFFFFF ! ...(again....)

Steady feet don't fail me now xxx


Dream moods Dictionary

Electrocution
To dream of an electrocution indicates that the current course of your actions will lead to disaster. The dream also represents fear and the consequences of your actions. You need to be more aware of your surroundings and those around you.

For some time now, i have not been writing up my lucid dream experiences, thought i would begin to make the effort again with the intention to help myself increase my awareness.

Date: 8/01/14

Time: approx. sometime between 3 - 6am


Becoming Lucid
i lost my grip on whatever i was holding onto & began to fall, but fell slowly in a floaty sort of way.... think this then alerted me to the fact i was dreaming.

When i landed the scene / setting of my dream had changed.
i now found myself sitting on the ground, in front of me there was a black & white house, and another building to the right of this, lots of trees behind these buildings and the floor was covered with grass.
There was an amazing sparkle & brightness to the place, like silver & white shimmering light & i could feel the breeze of the wind. It felt so 'real' .... for a while i felt like i was 'really there' & wondered if i was now dead. Since i felt like i might be really there in reality, i was unsure what to do next, or how to proceed.
Just then my children & my nieces came running into view, with my eldest niece waving her arm & shouting my name. They appeared to be around 6 or 7 yrs old.
the eldest 3 children were dressed in yellow cardigans & the youngest in pink, all 4 of them were wearing white trousers.
It appeared that they had come as an aide or guide since i was struggling with my dilemma of 'what i should do'.
I lost lucidity after this...


Notes
Because i fell back into normal dreaming before waking up alot of the memory of visual detail was lost.

This morning on my way to work i was thinking about my earlier lucid dream experience & put my awareness in the memory of the dream experience & then back into physical reality again. The lucid dream experience felt by far the most real out of the two & for a couple of seconds my physical reality felt like it was the 'real dream'...... rather disorientating & very strange to come to terms with.. physical reality here felt numbed down, almost 'false' in comparison...


Added note
In 2004 after spending time (4 days) with others who held a high energy vibration i had a similar type of experience.

(physically at first i was asleep) ...i was in a very well lit, bright room discussing things/ talking with others, everything was crystal clear, sharp & impactful, then as i woke up physically......instead of feeling like i was waking up, when i woke, it felt like i had fallen to sleep & everything had become less alive, much more dampened down & muffled. As i woke up physically to my surroundings it felt like i was leaving my 'awake' real space & had gone to 'sleep'.

the experience was 'mind-blowing'
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Dream moods dictionary
Colors
Colors in dreams represent energy, emotions, and vibes. First consider what that single color in your dream means to you and your own personal associations and relationship with that color. In general, pale pastel colors indicate weakness or subtlety. Dark colors represent passion and intensity. Bright colors mean awareness.

Am going to try to remember my non-lucid dreams on waking each morning & note down, then write-up here any snippets of dreams that 'stand-out', with the intention of improving memory recall, lucidity, daily awareness, mood & energy levels.

Date: 9/01/14

Time: between 1 - 6am


3 separate dreams

• I was living at my previous house.....the back gate had been left open, & i was worried our big dog had escaped, but he hadn't (in reality he never actually lived with us in that previous house)

• i was part of a group that was planting (this i believe is a reminder that i still have not written up notes about planting activites during work, that i must of decided i should or would do)

• Buying groceries with vouchers & money

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Dream moods dictionary
Gate
To see or pass through a gate in your dream suggests that you are walking through a new phase of life. It also represents new opportunities and possibilities, especially if the gate is opened or swinging.

Worry
To dream that you are worried about something is a reflection of waking worry that has carried over to your dream state. You may be harboring some repressed thoughts, some unexpressed emotions, resentments, or hostilities which are triggering your worry dream.

Planting
To dream that you are planting something represents your faith and optimism about the future. You have an optimistic view.

Groceries
To shop for groceries in your dream represents some emotional of physical need that you are currently lacking in your life. You may be in need of nurturance and some fulfillment. Consider the specific items that you are shopping for.

Voucher
To see a voucher in your dream symbolizes the effort and work that you have invested into some project or cause. New opportunities are being made available to you.

Money
To give or spend money in your dream is analogous to giving love.

Date: 10/01/14

Time: on waking 7am ish

2 or 3 separate dream segments

• on a school trip for some days; collecting items as packing up to go home; harassed by a group of young men; old classmates; someone elses written assigment i read; going to the school dance later that evening

• someone (?) wanted to put a birthday announcement in the paper for a special surprise for another. the person whose birthday it was didnot want that

• back in my childhood home, i was childminding, 2 older children were causing havoc trying to dismantle & pull down a light high up on a wall. i went into the lounge to get the children's dad & he was doing a jigsaw

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Also had an afternoon nap (i often do after a morning in work, it 'shatters' me so much that i find alot of the time the only way i can recover is to sleep for a couple of hours) that brought forth 2 separate dream segments

Day time sleep: approx. 2pm-4pm

• People chatting outside, i take a look & there was a person outside my garden talking to another who was with a couple of children who were all standing in my front garden, they were apparently looking for their ball (intruders)

• Key words: father; Diarrhea; panties; toilet

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Dream moods dictionary

Field Trip
To dream that you are on a field trip indicates that you need to incorporate what you have learned with your experiences. The dream represents a transitional phase. Consider the symbolism of what you see and how your felt during the field trip.

Packing
To dream that you are packing, but the more your pack, the more there is to pack implies that you are weighed down by the endless responsibilities and expectations in your life. As a result, you are stuck in your current circumstances.

Harass
To dream that you are being harassed indicates that you are feeling powerless and helpless in some waking situation. You are under tremendous emotional stress which you need to confront. Consider the significance of who is harassing you and how you felt.

Classmates
To see old classmates in your dream indicate that you need to draw on your old associations with your former classmates to gain insight in some current relationship. It represents a past lesson that you have learned and is applicable in some aspect of your waking life now.

Reading
To dream that you are reading indicates that you need to obtain more information and knowledge before making a decision. You need to think things through and consider all you options.

Dance
To dream that you are attending or going to a dance indicates a celebration and your attempts to achieve happiness. Consider the phrase the "dance of life" which suggests creation, ecstasy, and going with what life has to offer you.

home
In particular, to see your childhood home, your hometown, or a home that you previously lived in indicates your own desires for building a family and your family ideologies. It also reflects aspects of yourself that were prominent or developed during the time you lived in that home. You may experience some unfinished feelings that are being triggered by some waking situation. Alternatively, the dream may represent your outdated thinking.
Jigsaw Puzzle
To see or do a jigsaw puzzle in your dream represents a mental challenge or problem that you need to solve in your waking life.

Intruder
To see an intruder in your dream represents your feelings of guilt. Consider also what unfamiliar feelings or thoughts may be breaking into your peace of mind. Alternatively, an intruder symbolizes self-indulgent behavior or unwanted sexual attention.
Father
To see your father in your dream symbolizes authority and protection. It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant.

Diarrhea
To dream that you have diarrhea signifies that some part of your life is going out of control. You can no longer contain your strong emotions and need to get it out of your system quickly. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you have not analyzed a situation long enough or that you do not want to deal with the problem at all.

Panties
To see or wear panties in your dream represent your feminine attitudes and feelings. It reflects a female point of view.
To dream that you are taking off your panties signifies your ideas of sexuality. It may also indicate your need to get to the bottom of things. You may want to find a way out of a situation.

Toilet
To see a clogged toilet in your dream suggests that you are holding and keeping your feelings to yourself. Your emotions have been pent up too long and you need to let go of the negative feelings.
To see an overflowing or flooded toilet in your dream denotes your desires to fully express your emotions

Date: 11/01/14

Hypnagogics
A hand came into view (i had watched a mediumship video some days earlier, this hand was a repeat of what i had seen)

Time: on waking 3.30am (11pm -3.30 am)

i woke to hear myself telling others that "i had been told that a very sentinate, intelligent man would come into our lives"

sentinate ~ i looked this word up & it doesn't actually exist, but i feel that it is probably two words combined (my mind often does this, ie. 2or 3 words combined that make a new 'non-existant' word)

• sentient ~ able to experience physical and possibly emotional feelings
• sentinel ~ a person employed to guard something
• i also feel that there is a connection in my mind to the word sensei ~ sensei(先生) ~ is a Japanese word that is literally translated as "person born before another"

​After a couple of mins. segments of the rest of the dream came back

Dream location: local quarry

• teenagers with magical swords (else the teenagers had magical powers)
• were encouraging them to go on a physical adventure with us
• rubber rings as the adventure involved water

Notes
This dream was very upbeat & exhilarating & i woke up in

• a strong subtle energetic space,
• feeling empowered, enthusiastic,
• physically easier (body less slugish, stiff & heavy)
• like i had options & choices (my space was more open)
• i was able to walk the dogs at the location of the dream this morning, something of which i had not managed to do in wks/mths.

Dream moods dictionary
Sword
To dream that you are wielding a sword represents your strength, ambition, competitive nature decisiveness and willpower. You are looking to hold a position of prestige, authority, and distinction. Alternatively, the sword may be seen as a phallic symbol and thus represent masculine power.
Magic
To perform or dream of magic suggests that you need to look at things from a different view or approach your problems from a new angle in order to successfully move forward. Alternatively, magic symbolizes creativity and wonder. Perhaps someone or something has caused you to be in awe. The dream may also be a metaphor that you or someone is "up to some trick".



about 20 mins. later another dream came back to me, i believe i was lucid at the time of this dream, as i was doing what i do when i am lucid which is

• looking at the location & deciding what to do

Location: unkown

i was standing on a ledge on high ground overlooking muddy, sandy ground. the sandy mud had lots of what looked like volcanic looking structures all over it. I located one particular volcanic structure to explore & flew/zoomed towards it. i think i landed inside the pot-hole shape of the structure...

...my memory ends at this point..

Notes
It's an interesting reminder for me, that lucid dreams can /do happen without me bringing the memory straight back on waking. This experience is slightly unusual for me, in that i would normally remember the lucid dream on waking, but often would not pay attention to it & lose the memory of it that way instead.

Later still, i remembered another dream whilst reading the forum here;

the word 'dog' (broke my dream)brought back the memory of a dream about my daughter's ferrets. they were being let outside, but were getting on the road & i was having to try & avoid them getting run over, then i remembered the big dog from the dream, i was worried he would grab the ferrets & hurt them (in reality one of my daughter's ferrets is it seems coming to the end of his 'earth-life cycle'; lot's of trips to the vets, stress & our attention focused on the ferret/s just at the moment)

Notes

i went back to sleep after this mornings walk

• hypnagogic ~ mum & child, child gets a bump on the head (processing my work-type experiences)
• non lucid dream - about a bus journey, not pleasant & i ended up crying with stress/ distress feelings in the dream

Later during the day, i fell asleep again... more dreams !!!! ....approx. 3 dream segments

By this point now i am beginning to feel overwhelmed by dream memory experiences & choose to allow these dreams to leave my mind without thinking them through, so that they become forgotten

What are the consequences of remembering your dreams ?...this question came to me on yesterday's early morning dogwalk...

insights

• i was able to make the comparison between how i am not aware of experiencing my dreams, in same way as i'm not aware in my 'default mode of living' of having experienced what i am in/ or living through in 3D reality
• that remembering dreams is like adding more lifetime / living experience to my life. like being awake & having more experiences to process / like packing more info. in the same time-period /like being awake for more of my day

​Last night on closing my eyes, i was able to experience constant hypnagogics, i allowed them to flow through un-impeeded, which also meant that i would not have conscious memory recall of them later

i am finding recalling all of my dreams is just too overwhelming for me...

• i was feeling exhausted emotionally
• overwhelmed mentally (just too much info.)
• physically having disturbed sleep (the realisation of a experiencing a dream scene, would make me wake up)

So last night i decided not to remember my dreams, i woke up with the memory of 2 dreams, but have not really delved into them much.

2 dream segments

• i was attending a wedding: something about having diffculty getting a lift home (this was a real event in my life last year)
• visiting relatives, but staying in some kind of communal building with others(maybe a children's holiday camp): 50p; different kind of spiders (a spider hatched out of right eyebrow of a male teen & he was quite pleased/proud of this)

Notes
Because alot of my non-lucid dreams are non-sensical i find 'thinking them through' so i can consciously remember them, tiring & emotionally uncomfortable, this is why i rarely record my non-lucid dreams.

Added Note
just had a memory flash up as a picture scene from another of last nights dreams

• someone fixed one of my small notebooks computers, as when they turned it on, it worked (i have 2 broken notebook computers & have to rely on my daughter's computer) ...hope this is a premonition & it happens soon

the below is taken From Dream moods

Why should you remember your dreams?

1. Your dreaming mind has access to vital information that is not readily available to you when you are awake. Your dreams serve as a window to your subconscious and reveal your secret desires and feelings.

2. In remembering your dreams, you gain increased knowledge, self-awareness and self-healing. Dreams are an extension of how you perceive yourself. They may be a source of inspiration, wisdom, joy, imagination and overall improved psychological health.

3. Learning to recall your dreams help you become a more assertive, confident and stronger person. By remembering your dreams, you are expressing and confronting your feelings.

4. Dreams help guide you through difficult decisions, relationship issues, health concerns, career questions or any life struggle you may be experiencing.

5. Remembering your dreams help you come to terms with stressful aspects of your lives.

6. You will learn more about yourself, your aspirations, and your desires through your dreams.

In your 'dream moods' you basically reiterate your acquired knowledge. This is not what you, at this point, possess, but a bar set for your inspiration and learning.

The hippocampus is the memory clearing house and directs your conscious memories to some uber-complicated network of neurons which we call memory. I think lucid dreamers have learned or just have the benefit of an 'awake' hippocampus when they dream. Therefore, a lucid dream does not, as usual, go blank but stays for a length of time after waking.

You are on the right track. To recognize a dual existence is key.

Bravo to you.

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Originally Posted by eyeoneblack

In your 'dream moods' you basically reiterate your acquired knowledge. This is not what you, at this point, possess, but a bar set for your inspiration and learning.

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Ah yea, sorry i didn't make this clear. i should of put 'From' Dream moods & linked it to where i got it from. this i put there for my own & others interest & understandings, i will correct it now, to make it clearer, Thanks

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The hippocampus is the memory clearing house and directs your conscious memories to some uber-complicated network of neurons which we call memory. I think lucid dreamers have learned or just have the benefit of an 'awake' hippocampus when they dream. Therefore, a lucid dream does not, as usual, go blank but stays for a length of time after waking.

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Ok, interesting...

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To recognize a dual existence is key.

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yes, this is what i have found too, my trouble tends to be in remembering what i 'know', so i can incorporate it in my life

:thumbsup:

Date: 13/01/14

non-lucid dream segments

1. was about some 'people' using methods to alter /effect dreams (writing was involved)
2. myself & others having to run /escape from the people chasing us
3. on hoilday, i am in a bed & meant to be sleeping; my ex. lets the 3 dogs out to 'go pee' & i have to go out there to ensure no fighting happens with other dogs; my parents caravan is situated a little distance from the holiday chalet we are staying in & i am un-happy about this, i want them closer (like it always used to be)
4. i am with a group of people & we are in what looks like a hot air balloon basket in the sky, only this one is made out of metal. i adjust my position as the space is cramped & the woman next to me falls from the basket to her death below, i am unsure if she fell because i moved or she jumped because she had had enough. it seems we are being forced to spend time like this. another women suggests we go rest on the ground when we are not being watched & we all decide to do this, if we are caught doing this we could be killed, but we have had enough; later as i am now moving (driving) away from this scene i see another woman held in stocks, she is in a bad way mentally & physically; as i ride away in the car i pay attention to the route
5. i am driving my new car through a familiar road in town, but my brakes fail to slow me down as they should, this happens twice

14/01/15
non-lucid dream segments

1. was about cardboard cut-outs (association to real life events)
2. a swimming gala, i was back competing again
3. relatives visiting, a party i didn't want to attend, sweet spices given to me as a present
4. a birthday card hand delivered arrives through our letter box, it has the number 107 written on it's for my ex. i know who it's from & what it's about

15/01/15
non-lucid dream

1. i dreamed i was working

Date: 16/01/14

1. being in a relationship with another
2. i was in university attending an art class; on a screen in front of the class an image of sheep / rams was displayed & we were to sketch it, then this image was changed to another image, an image containing a car, then this too changed; it was then that i realised this class was too advanced for me, as i had never studied art or passed any exams on the subject; i was also in another relationship

Date: 17/01/14

1. i had a dream i was working(no details recalled)
2. motorbike broken down; touring caravan; in a relationship & money
3. back in my childhood home, was clearing house out, found some rooms full of items i didn't know existed, decided the place was too valuable to leave & felt i could not 'sell-up' (i was very engaged in looking at all the new items in the new rooms & studied what i could see in detail, however although i was able to do this, at the time i still did not realise i was dreaming)

Date: 18/01/14

• on holiday in touring caravan, big ditches & craters in the ground, diffculty getting car & caravan out of the place to leave, our belongings got left behind down on the beach, a high wall & a drop to reach our belongings, using a rope to get down to beach & others wanting to help (my parents were responsible for the car & touring caravan in my dream, same as it used to be in real life for me); swimming in the sea, but i was afraid of objects under the water that might of been dangerous, i was in an unfamiliar sea, i stopped swimming out to sea & holding the float i had in my arms allowed the sea to wash me back in to shore, the sea/wave was very strong & i was very swiftly with a powerful force washed back to shore

Date: 19/01/14

• working or busy in some place, where they were adults & children

Date: 20/01/14

non lucid dream segments

1. being in work type experience
2. swimming gala; with an old swimming friend; trying to finish homework before gala started; diving in the pool
3. i find my mobile phone, but it looks different (lost my phone in the house approx. 3 mths ago)

afternoon nap

1. hypnagogic ~ bonus number 53

NOTES

• trying to finish homework before gala started

This is interesting - i was meant to bring some written work home to do for tomorrow's meeting after work, i forgot, so now i will have to try & do it in the morning when i get to work, before i start work.

i will be 'trying to finish homework before work starts'

So was this a premonition of what was to come & if i'd of paid attention this morning, i might of made the connection & remembered to bring my homework home

or

was this dream the cause of me forgetting....?

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i just used the auto - saved restore button, after i lost my writing from pressing a wrong key on the computer, & it magically brought my write-up back, that was nice :-) .....never used it before..

15/02/14

non -lucid dream segment
I was dreaming that i was back in my childhood home again and decided to go look & show others the extra room space i had recently found. On going to look the changes of the extra rooms were no longer there & it was then i remembered that the extra rooms were not 'reality' but just in a dream. (all the while still dreaming)

below is the previous dream

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17/01 back in my childhood home, was clearing house out, found some rooms full of items i didn't know existed, decided the place was too valuable to leave & felt i could not 'sell-up' (i was very engaged in looking at all the new items in the new rooms & studied what i could see in detail, however although i was able to do this, at the time i still did not realise i was dreaming)

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Notes
This happens to me quite alot in dreams, that is, i include 'dream memories & experiences' in my dreams in the same way i do my 3D reality experiences. It seems that my dreaming mind can access all my experiences & experience them as all equally 'real' within the dream space.


Another experience i found interesting yesterday:

i saw something move in the kitchen, whatever i 'saw' was not something physical...... but it 'broke' a dream segment & brought it back to my memory.

dream segment.
i was looking through a large-ish square shaped hole in the bottom of the stairs & there were rabbits or rats or both running under the floor boards. (i think the rats morphed into rabbits at one point, because rabbits would be less worrying to have)

Notes
i have had this type of dream - small furry animals under the floor boards (rats, mice, rabbits, guinea pigs) many times over the years, wonder if there is a 'symbolic meaning' to this (i will check later)

i did watch a comedy a week or so back where the little girl's hamster had been missing for 2 months & she wanted her parents to lift up the floor boards to search for him, ...so this could have caused the 'furry animals under the floorboards' dream to re-occur for me

Also now after having thought about this experience, so i could write it up here, i am wondering if what i 'saw' was a clairvoyant or minds eye vision, that was in actuality triggered by my 'physical eyes' seeing the wooden floor boards in my kitchen & making the connection with the dream memory.

.....i had 'seen' what appered to be a smallish, white furry object move, but this image was super imposed in mid air & my dream about the 'rats/ rabbits under the floorboards' was instantly recalled at this moment.

Date: 26/02/14

non-lucid dream
The dream didn't really make alot of logical sense on waking in terms of describing it to others.

'i would grap a rope pulley system, hang on to a rope & get pulled up to a very high place (i am normally afraid of heights) it seemed i was very good at this & 'they' were impressed, i got the job

i was also an event organizer'

Notes
The dream was very vivid & impactful, being one of them 'feel good' / 'feel right' dreams & i woke up feeling exhilarated & euphoric :mrgreen:

.....unfortunately i didn't engage with the feelings for long, or appreciate it enough as i went back to sleep too soon...

Added note: i had been listening to binaural beats on my headphones again, that day before the nights sleep, i hadn't used binaural beats for a while before this, the beat i listened to was for 'depression & anxiety' & i feel this had some part to play in this 'upbeat' dream i later that night

Date: 28/02/14

Notes
i have had many dreams over the years about the area in front of my present home, being different than it actually is. There is a 'green' (grass) in front of the bungalow & a turning circle / parking area for cars on the right.

Yesterday the council working on nearby homes, decided to temporarily install a huge portacabin on the 'green' right in front of our home .......this triggered the memory recall of the many dreams i have had about this area. It was quite strange, leaving me with a feeling that somehow the dreams were true 'as here was the proof'

At first, i reacted to this portacabin situation through my old view points, lost in judgements & learnt opinions, .....however this way of perceiving soon 'switched' (thankgoodness) & i was able to be more 'open' to the physical situation, it's meanings & the possible implications

......interestingly part of the name written on this portacabin was 'evolution' ....elliotevolution

Date: 01/03/14

non lucid dream segment
There was a animal under a shed / building of my childhood home i used a stick to encourage it out, it was a wild rabbit, after some effort, myself & my mum managed to get it into a cage. the intention was to release it somewhere appropriate /in the wild

Notes
Decided to write this dream up today as it appears to be the only dream memory from last night & is simple (at the moment) usually i have at least 2 or 3 dream memory segments. i've not been paying attention to my dreams again lately, nor felt like writing them up.

'Small animals under the flloorboards' type dream again

Date: 02/03/14

Time: approx. time on waking 2.20am

Notes
This dream was very clear, vivid, impactful & very real-like, however i was not lucid...
The details & experience of the dream were so 'full' that it would take a long time to describe / write it up fully & even then, would not do it justice, so for now i am just going to record a brief-ish outline of the story & add some extra notes after. i have missed out chunks of the dream experience throughout the below write-up.

non-lucid dream
i was visiting an old nursery i used to work in, my daughter was with me, it felt like we were on a shopping trip.
My daughter & i were about to set off on our journey home, we were some hours away from where we lived, we were in different cars, i was waiting for her to be ready, when i found she had gone. i drive off looking for her (dream events not included here) i end up where i am told she is, at a friends house, but she is not there & apparently has gone off with my friends sister.

i am shown my friends house ~ WOW ! this house goes up & up forever, never-ending stairs. he has amazing water views & owns a long stretch of water that is outside his house, we go swimming. We get to the very top of the house, only this part appears to be shared with others & is not available to look at now, but there was alsorts of weird & wonderful phenomena in there.

End up in a room with others, who i recognise from my life & from films i've watched. Someone in the room is doing subtle energy magic & it affects me & others making my hand /fingers tremble, then i get affected with pain. When the people in the room disperse, my friend has gone from where he was standing.

i spend the rest of the dream trying to find my way back to his house, navigating through an indoor complex with dangerous games & competitions situated everywhere.

i wake up during the finish of one of these games/ competitions, that i accidently got caught up in

Notes
the dream contained

• colours, textures,
• numbers, written names,
• voice sound
• sensation - the water was very cold
• awareness of clothing worn - i was aware of what i was wearing whilst swimming & later while walking around the indoor complex
• there is telepathy going on within the room full of people & when the people look at me they are giving me an understanding of 'how it is'
• the competitions are both physical & subtle energetic in nature
• My friend introduced me to his Ballet class as. 'this is my friend big mama'

Notes
i wake up in awe ~ WOW ! .... this felt like a dream very much orchestrated / set-up for me by others, more powerful than me ..... by the puppet masters or 'the powers that be'

Within half an hour of waking from this dream, the impact had diminished to that of a 'normal' dream recal impact, taking it from feeling like a real experience i just had to a 'dream memory'

This morning i was more sensitive to myself than the usual:

• catching (hearing) myself's own self-talk
• feeling more sensitive to my ability to feel
• more sensitive to my body's experience of stimulus

which allows me to receive insights, knowings, understandings & have more conscious choice in my life.

One understanding i got from a flash of insight & feeling has shown me that i should take some physical action to change something in my physical life, only a temporary change to make, but that doing this will take off the stress, pressure & burden that is causing a constant background 'worry' 'frantic' feeling within me, that is only adding to the difficulties for me in my attempt to function better.

Just over the past few posts I'm sensing something sexual about them. That's cool. Gotta have the wild and furry even deep in our psyche. :-D

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Originally Posted by eyeoneblack

Just over the past few posts I'm sensing something sexual about them. That's cool. Gotta have the wild and furry even deep in our psyche. :-D

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:lol2: ..... yea, that darn 'sexual' just about gets everywhere, no matter how much you try & shove it away... :roll: ..:wacky1::mrgreen:

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Originally Posted by newfreedom

:lol2: ..... yea, that darn 'sexual' just about gets everywhere, no matter how much you try & shove it away... :roll: ..:wacky1::mrgreen:

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Maybe because you shouldn´t shove it away but transformit.....!! :-)

Love
ia

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Originally Posted by IA56

Maybe because you shouldn´t shove it away but transformit.....!! :-)

Love
ia

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Well, i've worked on loads of sexual issue stuff the past several years & although i 'know better' i don't think i will ever really lose my feelings of 'discomfort' with some sides of the 'sexual' ....maybe i am still releasing trauma with sexual energy, but if so this trauma seems to be never-ending.

Maybe from a place of permanent peace all things are peaceful....

i was teasing when i said 'shove it away'....that's what the superficial me would like to do & very much did so in the past, but no longer, these days i try to be aware, open & receptive to myself & my issues.

Shoving things away only helps in the short term, but later comes back to 'Bonk you on the Head'....Big Time !! (done that, got the T-shirt)

Thanks for the comment xX:-)

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Originally Posted by newfreedom

Well, i've worked on loads of sexual issue stuff the past several years & although i 'know better' i don't think i will ever really lose my feelings of 'discomfort' with some sides of the 'sexual' ....maybe i am still releasing trauma with sexual energy, but if so this trauma seems to be never-ending.

Maybe from a place of permanent peace all things are peaceful....

i was teasing when i said 'shove it away'....that's what the superficial me would like to do & very much did so in the past, but no longer, these days i try to be aware, open & receptive to myself & my issues.

Shoving things away only helps in the short term, but later comes back to 'Bonk you on the Head'....Big Time !! (done that, got the T-shirt)

Thanks for the comment xX:-)

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Without knowing the right answere, but I feel a misunderstanding or misdirection about the transformation....if I can get more deeply grip of this I will let you know....but somhow I feel you are looking on wrong Place..

Love
ia

Date: 06/03/14

Time: approx 1am - 2am

Notes
I am not sure what to call this, as it doesn't fit with how i describe 'normal' non-lucid dreams, but i wasn't lucid either, i was physically asleep when it happened anyhow. i have had experiences that feel similar & this experience also had the nightmarish, terror tone to it.

Think this was the first 'dream' ? / experience of the night, i did have other normal dreams later, but they didn't impact me much & so i have allowed them to mostly be forgotten, with no interest in recording them

Unfortunately, i fell straight back to sleep after this experience & have lost alot of clarity & specific details of the event.

the experience

Something invisible had gripped me around my wrists & was forcefully pulling me out of my bedroom, i was aware of my bedroom being dark & as it is in real life. i fought desperately to not get pulled out of my room, but was loosing the battle, i was terrified...

False awakening
i woke up & was very 'shaken' & feeling extremely emotionally disturbed, so clutching my duvet, i made my way down the hall to see if my daughter was still awake, she was, i could see light coming from under her door & could hear the sound of her voice / t.v

i knocked & spoke as i opened the door slowly asking if it was alright to enter my daughter's room, it was, i told her what had just happened & explained i felt like i needed some human company to help dissipate the franticness caused by the terror, she understood & was fine with me being there (in real life i have had to ask for the company / or to be in the presence of others, many times to ease the emotional terror i experience sometimes, when trying to get back into a normal sleep pattern after days of not being able to sleep, so this is something my grown-up daughter is quite familiar with & unperturbed by)

....then i woke up... this time physically in my body which was still in my bed & i then i was able to realise that these had been experiences i had gone through whist my physical body had been asleep...

Wacky ! :wacky1:

i hope to find the date / time ... if i can (find where i recorded it with pen & paper)

Notes.
i had not slept enough to be comfortable for some time & this 'hypnogogic image' came as a much needed releif / respite from struggling to not reach/ gain enough normal sleep & i was / had been 'struggling' again more than i would personal choose to had i the capacity to 'rule' my experiences

Hypnogogic image

Robert was leaning on the top of our wooden fence in the front garden with his forearms resting on the fence. He was staning outside the garden, in real 3Dlife the Elliot evolution porta cabin is situated slightly behind & to Robert's left. (though in the hyponogogic image, i was not aware of this dwelling / construction)

In the image there was no front fir-tree hedge visable, which i have now grown, so time-wise with no 3D physical hedge, the time scale would i would image be anywhere from the year 2000 to 2003, but it could be later than this date, i don't remember when i bought & planted the fir tree hedge.


Hypnogogic images / first dream segment memories

i was at weddings, having my photo's taken with the others attending, as you do at weddings...

these could of been real life memories, since my son married in Sept. 2013. then my niece, in Nov. 2013, one image of photo's being taken was a memory recall of being at my nieces wedding.

Notes.
Was able to plan a visit to spend time with my big sis yesterday, a once in a Blue-moon occurance these last 11yrs. .... so not sure if the wedding memories were connected in some way with the capacity for me to arranged & execute this 'sisterly visit'

Seems all very possible with he appearance of Robert prior to the wedding images....:mrgreen:xX

After the wedding images were remember3ed by me, i was then allowed to go into unconcious sleep for sometime, a much needed life survival need being allowed (least life-survivalable for me, anyhow)


...Pheffft.... :tongue: .... SO.... a BIG THANKYOU to ROBERT for Being there (here) & a BIG THANKYOU to all who made this 'POSSIBLE' .... :loveyou:....... i luv U all xxxxx:-)8) xX

Date: 24/04/14

Time: approx. 6.10 am

Dozing on & off so this hypnagogic experience was what woke me

the words heard were ~~~'scratching the Tie- namics'

i saw an image of someone scratching metal with a what 'looked-like' a 'screw-driver' type of tool


tie-namics --> a cross between a Titanic & Dynamic .... very clever word mixes ... i enjoy them xX

Duration of sleep: approx. 11pm - 2.51 am (approx. 4hrs)

Dream Elements: High energy, enthusiasm, busy, fun, abundance, sociable, truthful, colourful, warm-hearted, enjoyable, others, childhood way of life, having lots of 3D stuff, collecting 3D stuf, giving others 3D stuff, 3D stuff (hair accessories, perfume, ornaments, plants, toys, edible things, jewellery)

Notes: the last 2 days, i have been in a 'better' subtle-energy space, this allows me to engage with myself, subtle energies, my 3D enviroment, more awareness & involvement in how to make decisions & choices, i am able to take interest in what i am reading, seeing, doing, thinking.

It's a 'Can-Do' space (at times) & i love it..

Non-lucid dream

i am not going to describe the dream 'bit by bit' because this would be too laborious, but the dream was very impactful, clear & 'love-of-life' filled & i woke up 'Buzzing', a very pleasant way to wake

a few things stood out within the dream:

• decisions / choices
• truthfulness
• appreciation of others
• functioning in 3D life
• enthusiasm & joy

A Great, upbeat, up-lifting non-lucid dream experience

What comes to mind with this dream is the 80's Games show CrackerJack -Double or Drop (to hold onto as many prizes as you can without dropping them)

Time : approx. 4.25pm

Voice:: experienced as words channelled through me, to me & i can hear the sentence spoken, my mind is speaking the sentence.

The information is 'given' me, it wasn't mine until it came through

This is how mind works.... (?)

(my left ear just started ;humming , vibrating very strong, loud now, think that is a new specific type of experience) changed now to more of a throbbing sensation, racing heart beat feeling & the 'howling-hoover' noise i am very familiar with after 8 yrs of experiencing it on & off

Anyway the the words spoken were:

I am going to loose my own skill again

Time: approx. 7.45 am

Voice heard / sentence spoken;

• Musky, musk (Ducky duck) drop it
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....Yes, CFT the photo ( my current avatar pic. 3/05/15) is a cake. i made this one for my son's 4th birthday in 1991. Thanks xx

Date: 3/05/15

Time: approx. 6.30 - 7 am

Notes
i had just gone back to sleep after having to get-up to let my little dog out.

Lucid Dream experience
i found myself in the same location of the dream i had just been experiencing, before my little dog had awoken me, at the seaside. i was sitting down, i knew i was dreaming & was in awe of the fact that i was awake & experiencing being in this different reality location. i was expecting the scenery to finish, because i felt so awake & felt i would wake up back within my physical body very soon, i didn't

i sat & enjoyed the view, sand, sea, sun & sky, it was evening & the colours were beautiful. i remember sitting there making the most of this moment, taking in the beauty & energy of the place.

i must of fallen back to sleep & so unfortunately i don't remember any more details...

• i wonder if i heard the sea, i think it was lapping quietly on the shore , the sea was quite some distance out, with stretches of sandy beach showing
• i wonder if there was a sea breeze, the temperature was cool, but warm
• i wonder if i could smell the sea air, i must of done, because i remember now breathing deeply the whole atmosphere & everything that comes with being by the seashore

Suddenly now, after writing & exploring more of my lucid dream experience, i get a flash of memory of feeling the warm sunshine on my body & a mild warm breeze

Added Notes

• i don't know what i was sitting on, but something like a tree stump
• I was completely alone, there was no-one or any other 'being' in sight, but there was no feeling of loneliness

A couple of hrs. earlier, i was 'hanging out' on site here & i sitting upright in my chair & i fell into a very comforting, relief bringing subtle energetic space.

then i was in a scene, there was a young woman (me ?) & another person, this 'being' had me by the hand & i heard 'come on sunshine' (?) and i was swung by the hand around in a turn /a bend in direction, entering a tunnel like structure as we did so (woodland type)

Vision stopped & i was back in my physical body again, still sitting on the chair

Some nights ago now i met arnold schwarzenegger .in the dream space, i asked him if i could have a hug, he gave me a hug
......i held onto that 'HUG' for a long time ..... felt sooo Good !

Thanks Arnie xxxx

Time: 9.25am

Notes
i had dosed off for approx. 20 mins. i was still needing more sleep, so dosed even though i had no alarm to wake me & i knew i was expecting others to call.

• i woke exactly on time with the image of 'spit the dog' shaking his head

Added note
Our 'old gal' Bebe (ferret) passed some hours later, she was nearly 7 & half yrs. ... she is re-united again now with her life partner 'Shadow' who 'passed' last year :heart::heart:

Time: approx 9am

Becoming lucid
i was just outside of my garden, when i saw someone in the air floating like they had made themselves a magic carpet, on seeing this i rose into the air too, i now knew i was lucid dreaming. i studied my garden below for a short while.

Without knowing how i got there i now find myself in my childhood front garden, i decide to enter the bungalow through the large lounge window & go visit my mum. (interesting thing here is that i knew this was still my mum's home & that she would be there, in past visits i have known she is no longer living there & only found strangers in the home)

i attempt to dive through the glass, but am unable to do so. i put my right arm into & through the glass, then i am inside the lounge. i did not look around the lounge, so apart from the table being under the window i donot exactly know how things were set up only that it was 'right' as home. i did notice the room had a bright sunny 'sun-kissed' look.

On entering the hall, there appeared to be an extra door there that was not there in real life. i opened the door to find just another door, i did this repeatedly until eventually the door led to a small white toilet room. i had opened approx. 6 doors to reach the toilet room.

i didn't think i could go back through all the doors & so i just dived through the doors with the intention of getting back to the hall, i did this, but it felt like something had changed, it felt like i was no longer in the 'same' hall i had originally been in, but was now in a hall of my own imagination, it was darker, felt heavier & i had to spend sometime holding the visualisation as i was losing the ability to see

i went into the kitchen & my mother was there (someone else was there too, i didn't pay attention to who) at first glance she appeared younger & healthy, but then i saw her as older, but she didn't quite look like my mum did (even though it was my mum) i hugged her & cried & she said 'it's been 6 yrs' (it's been nearly 15 yrs since my mum passed) we cried & i cried that hard i woke myself up from the physical effects of crying

Notes
Number 6 came up twice, i counted 6 doors & my mum quoted 6 yrs

Date: 6/11/15

Becoming Lucid
i had been dreaming & i then i woke up, i felt a sense of exhilaration & 'feel good'... this was not my usual 'feeling' towards waking up in the morning after a nights sleep & so i was a little surprised.
I then realised i had woken up within my dream space & was in the same place i had been when dreaming - the swimming baths. i was also aware of my sleeping body in the bed, i could sense / feel this physically & there was also household noises outside of my bedroom, which i could physically hear. i expected to quickly lose the visual imaginary, wakeup & be back in my body, but this didn't happen, & so then i knew i was free to explore

Lucid Dream
On the opposite side of the building there was a hole in the side of the wall & i could see bright sunshine shining through this. i decided to push myself through this hole head first, and although the hole was too small for me to get through, knowing i was dreaming i just decided i would force my way through the brick wall that was surrounding the small hole.


With this intention i now found myself at the hole in the wall (it was at this point that i had realised i had managed to remain in the dream space & could now go exploring) (if i had to describe how i got to the place by the hole in the wall from the original dream position i had originally started from, i would say that i 'zoomed' across, although i have no experience of the 'zooming', as it happened more or less instantly)
i put my head in the hole & pushed myself through hole as far as i could & then i willed /imagined myself forcing the rest of myself through the hole. i had a moment of visual 'blankness' as this occured & then quickly found myself standing outside of the building.

It was a bright sunny day, & i was high up standing upon some sort of a ledge, down below & all around were green fields & there were some cows standing by themselves here & there in the fields.


i decide to shoot upwards, going higher into the sky, i get some height, but become somewhat fearful of going any higher (i do 'normally' have a fear of heights) i see what looks like an earth planet in the sky instead of the image of the moon i would normally expect to see, this also causes me some slight fear, i start to lose height (because of the fear) & without any choice, i then drop down out of the sky & with a 'blop' sensation land in a sitting position on the front lawn at my old childhhood home.


It is still a bright sunny day, i wonder if my parents are home & then see my mum & dad through the kitchen window as they move into the room.
My parents looked the same way they had done, when in their latter years, when my children were little.
i recognise the clothes my parents are wearing, they are wearing clothes that they owned when they were alive, my mum was wearing a matching top & skirt, but then as she moved her position, her clothes changed & now she was wearing a summer floral dress that i recognised instead. My dad was wearing a shirt & a sweater that i could see of, through the window.


i speak to them & tell my parents how much i miss them, when they speak back their voices are not how they should be, their voices appear to be at a whispering volume



....i begin to loose lucidity & my adventures end.



Notes:

• When i wake up i realise that although in my dream space i recognised the colours & patterns of the suit my mum had original been wearing, she had not actually owned a top & skirt suit like the one i had seen & so the recognition in the dream space was in fact 'false'
• .....i do wonder now if this was the reason for the changing of her clothes at that time (i also realise that images can often morph automatically if time is spent looking at them)

• On waking i was unable to recall what either of my parents had said to me

Date: 11/11/15

Dream
my young son of 7 or 8 yrs was going out to play, he had just gone through the wooden gate of our back garden belonging to the current house we now live in (which is not the house we lived in when he was 8yrs old) when i called him back so i could hug him
it was lovely to hug him, it felt wonderful & i really appreciated the moment

Becoming Lucid
i had called him back for a hug because i had realised i was dreaming (my son is now 28yrs)


...i donot remember retaining lucidity after the 'hug'

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Date: 22/11 /15

Remembering being Lucid
A few hours after waking i remembered i had become lucid briefly during my sleeping hours.
i had realised i was in a dream scene & decided to go off exploring.

The scene had a road, buildings, a house, but i donot recall anything else.

Date: 25/11/15

Becoming lucid:
It was completely dark, (blackness) i could feel R. my dalmatian dog with me (who is still in the physical), i knew i was in the kitchen of my previous house & because i know i no longer live there, i knew i had to be dreaming.


Then i had vision, it was still dark, but there was an atmosphere of blue/ silver light making everything visable.
My mum's deceased sheltie dog was ther lying down, i stroked C. & made a fuss of her, my deceased sheepdog T. was lying down close next to her, i hugged him, it was so good to feel him & smell his physicalness again, i miss him so much. Lying close by was my little deceased papillion dog Z. who i lost earlier this year, it was real good to see him again and touch him physically once more.

Notes
Because i didnot wake up immediately after this lucidy, but continued sleeping & dreaming, i dont have memory from moment to moment & there is patchyiness between my lucid moments.

Lucid
i could hear the noise of the neighbours talking next door coming through the walls of the kitchen. (the walls of the terraced house always allowed noise to be heard through them)

i was upstairs in my old bedroom, i decided to explore the feeling of wanting to live back there, as often during non-lucid dreams i would find myself back in that house, often prefering living there to my now home/ house. So i looked out of my bedroom window to the terraced houses across the road & explored if i indeed really wanted to live back there again. i reaslised i didn't want to live there anymore, but that i was actually connecting to & re-living the good memories of the time i spent living there & that is what was pulling me, i was attaching to & longing for the feeling of 'happiness, contentment & comfort' again from that time, that was once my life.

Notes
This brought me alot of clarity, as i now realise why in dreams i am either moving back into that house or not sure which house i actually prefer to live in. On waking my feelings would always be conflicted & i had never reached the understanding of why

Lucid
i decided to go & try to find a way of verifying my experience as 'real' (my lucid logic is flawed here)

So i looked for a calender to get the date, - it was 11th May 2011. the day was a Friday.

Notes
My thinking was that if the day was correct with the date then this would verfy my experience as 'real'

i wanted to wake myself up so i would remember my lucid experiences, i repeated the date over & over in my mind so i would be able to recall it on waking.

false awakening
i woke up, i wrote up notes in my notebook..

.........i woke up & realised i hadn't written notes or been physically awake prior

Notes
On waking i realised the date was significant in that it was the date my sheepdog had 'passed'. On checking up on the date's day, it had been a Wed. and not a Fri. as i had seen. So even if my verifcation method had of been a realistic one, it was wrong anyway.

Date: 29/11/15

Becoming lucid:
i was watching through the window of my house, a car drive into it's driveway across the road, i noticed the metal gate looked perculiar, so this alerted my attention to the fact that i was dreaming.


As i turned to looked at the rest of my surroundings (should have been my back garden) instead of the view of my back garden, i saw what looked like old deteriorated sheds & stables, it appeared to be a farmyard of sorts. There were quite a few people milling to & fro, like they were busy with their daily life, chores, jobs


i decided to 'spin' to change my location, i noticed one person look at me as i did this. i was spinning around & feeling the sensations of doing this. i was aware that the background noise i could hear did not change, so when i stopped spinning, i was not suprised to still find myself in the exact same location as i had been before the 'spinning' had begun.


i decided to leave this location using 'normal' means & walked down a large soil pathway between the surrounding buildings. Once there i chose to shoot up into the air.

i had read recently about 'pulling' oneself towards the sky & this i decided to try. i was now lying horizontally on my back facing upwards towards the sky, my knees were bent up towards my stomach & my arms were outstretched, palms upwards.
it worked i was being pulled higher into the sky. the sky was blue, with many white clouds & i could hear & feel the wind buffering my body. A favourite L.D. experience :-)


As i continued going higher, fear set in & same as my last flying experience i instantly & spontaneously stopped rising upwards & began to fall instead. This time though i was falling fast & was 'in fear' as i was falling too. i decided to wake-up back in my body as i hit the ground as a means of 'taking control' of the 'falling situation'.


False awakening:
i woke up in my body

Lucid
i was aware of being 'awake', i knew my physical body was lying in bed sleeping.
there was just blackness (i had 'thought' but no vision) i decided to 'spin' to change things.
It worked this time & i quickly found myself in a different scene.


I was in my bedroom, but my bed was positioned in the opposite position to what it is now (although i do move my bed in this position at times to watch movies on the pc) i was sitting on the bed & my son was infront of me. This time he was in his teenage years. i greeted him with a hug & asked him how he was doing


.....i lost lucidy after this.

Lucid
..the next thing i am aware of is 'following behind' two men they are in old style clothes, guards or army attire.
i find it interesting that i am lucid, as i feel like a point of consciousness that is not really there but just watching the scene. i decide to remain doing this, as this is a new experience for me.


Unfortunately i lost lucidity & do not remember anything more

Notes
As i continued sleeping & dreaming, i had two more brief lucid incidents at different locations, one location was a cross between my garden & an unknown park, the other location i was moving forwards very quickly. there were other people in both scenes.

Notes
i had been woken earlier before i experienced the lucid dreams by my daughter's voice calling 'mum' from the hallway outside my door. i woke 'with a start' & lay quietly, listening to hear if she would call me again. She didn't, so i assumed she either didn't really need me or else she didn't 'really' call me.
i asked her later & she said she hadn't called me that morning

It was no suprise to me to hear this, as i have often heard her calliing me, when physically she actually hadn't done so.

Date: 3/12/15

Becoming Lucid:
i am looking at 3 different church spires, i can see each one between the buildings that are close by blocking the full view of these churches. All 3 have a different shape, i am thinking '3 churches near by, that's alot i only have one church tower that i can see from my house.

Notes
At the time i was studying these church spires in detail, it would of been nice to have been able to bring the memories back intact, so as to be able to draw them, unfortunately the shapes & details were not remembered clearly enough to describe them on waking.

i am standing in the open doorway of a house, as i move my gaze away from the church spires, i realise i am 'dreaming'.

i look around, it is daytime, in front of the house is a square shaped area of land, mostly made of dirt/ soil, looked like an area to park cars or used as a turning circle for cars to turn in, due to it being a dead end. The dirt road in front leads off forwards until it becomes out of view & there is wooden fencing, brick walls & buildings to the left.

To my delight there was the sea to the right of me, there were some fields & some sandunes to cross before reaching the beach / seashore which was a little way off.

The tide looked like it was only half way in, leaving a good sized area of sandy beach, the sea was quite rough, with medium to large waves, it looked liked a blustery day down there, with people hair & clothes blowing & sea spray shooting up from the sea. There were approx. half a dozen or so people on the beach & one person was entering the sea to swim.

When i looked again, the scenery had changed, the beach was no longer there, only fields & countryside could now be seen.

i was hugely disappointed & moved into feelings of longing & grief... which began to 'take over' .... i decided to wake myself up ..... i did...

Notes
Although i was awake, i did not engage with my body,(ie. i did not move physically at all)

The blackness changed into a vision of bright blue water, surrounded by sand, i was looking across & slightly down at this view & was trying to see if this was water from the sea or some sort of lake structure

... i lost lucidity

Lucid
i am gliding above a shallow very peaceful, calm sea, but i am not interested in landing, i am trying to find some choppy sea, i am looking for some sea waves.

....lost lucidity

Notes
L.D. goal - i had planned / decided to visit a beach as one of my lucid dreaming goals / purpose

Notes
On waking i found myself in very cosy, blissie energy, this was a pleasant suprise, it's seems like a long time since i experienced that feeling upon waking.

Date: 5/12/15

Lucid Experience
I have no vision, but i have the sensation of something fluffy around my bare feet, i can feel it's teeth nibbling my toes, i am standing.

When i look to see what this is, i now have vision, i am in the lounge of my house & my little papillion dog Z. is lying on his back rolling around playing & nipping at my feet, toes.

I reach down to touch him, to feel him with my hands, to see if he feels 'real', as i know my little dog is deceased & no longer in the physical.

He has flipped back over onto his front & so i stroke his back & feel his fur, he feels so real :heart:


.....I know i am dreaming, but i get caught up in feelings of grief & lose lucidity


Notes
On waking i realise my little dog must of been in his puppy years because of the way he was playing with my feet & the fact that he still had his teeth.

Notes
This isn't the first time i have become lucid from sensations without having any vision at the start. i know i definately have 2 other experiences written up in my AD journal here that started only with sensations at first, before later attaining vision.

Date: Nov / Dec. 2015

Notes
Because i am not able to get my surroundings / living environment appropriate / 'right' i often 'dream' i am making changes / putting things 'right', looking to move home, or living in a new home.

Non Lucid Dream
A couple of weeks back i woke from a dream where i had been re-arranging the furniture in our lounge, on waking the 'feel good' of the dream soon vanished & i was unable to appreciate how actually acting on my dream would change anything.

Notes
After a week of being out of 'shutdown' & in a 'high' space i have been able to attend some physical 3D chores & activities.

Today i suddenly felt the need to re-arrange our lounge & am doing so.

Our home is starting at last to feel comfortable & homely once again

If i can stay 'clear' enough then i can continue to make the appropriate physical changes necessary.

Life is Good :heart:......... happiness is here :grouphug:x

Another Non Lucid Predictive Dream
Some nights ago i had a dream in which i was bare legged around Yuki, our adopted ferret.

Notes
Up until this point we have still not managed to tame her enough to have her near any of our exposed skin, because of her habit of biting us.

A few days after experiencing this dream, i am doing just that !

ie. i am bare legged around Yuki while she runs freely in the lounge with me ,as i continue to clear, organise & continue to attempt to put our home 'right'

She & i spend time working things out & i seem to make progress, in getting her to not bite me much of the time.

That was the first time she has ever run free in our lounge before too.

Time: 5am to 7am

Notes
Half an hr. after waking, some dream memories came back to me

Non-lucid dream
i was in a 3 storey building. i had encouaraged all the dogs to 'go Mad' that is to frolick, run, play etc. My deceased Tod was there. The dogs were all happy together & all getting along well with each other (like the dog whisperer achieves with his dog pack)

There was an alarm, smoke, a fire at the top of the 3 storey building we were in.To get to the fire quicker, i took the lift, even knowing the risk (in real life i avoid lifts like the plague, watched too many Horror movies !)

i got to the fire / smoking area, somthing had been left on a cooker hob & was burning (this is something that i have done many times during processing phases where i have just 'forgot')

Took the object off the hob, which i think at this point had become a rag doll (it originally started as a pan of milk boiling dry ) & the fire / smoke / risk/ at harm incident was over.

Time: 12.30 - 1.30 pm

Non-lucid dream segment

Cooking snails
We had snails in some muddy looking water & were going to cook them for my ex. to eat . i put my hand in the pan & swirled them all around. i pulled one & then a second snail out to find they were still alive, they were out of their shells with their stalk-eyes protruding. i was horrified by this & hastily took the pan of water outside to sieve /sort through the contents of the pan properly to remove all the 'alive snails'

Notes
i have never cooked or eaten snails in this life, neither has my ex. as far as i know

Date: 20/02/16

Becoming Lucid
i was walking along a familiar town path next to the road, when i became lucid. It was daytime & the daylight was bright & sparkly.

i was not prepared for finding myself 'lucid' in a dream & did not know what to spend my time doing. i thought about spinning to change location, but felt i might lose my lucidity & my ability to 'see' if i did, so decided against doing this.

i looked around to try to decide what to do, i looked into a building to the side right side of me (the scenery had now changed, i no longer recognised where i was) to see if i could go in there & explore, it looked like a cafe that was closed, there were no lights on & the chairs were upside down stacked on the tables.

i continued walking & a few people came around the corner, one of them bumping into me, i think i got into a scuffle with them...

....i continued dreaming, but lost lucidity at this point & forgot any dream memories after this


Notes
i had watched a film some days earlier when a woman had shoulder bumped into another woman & this is where i believe my 'bumping into another person' experience came from

i wake / become aware of an energy lying next to me on the bed. i am lying on my right side with my knees bent up towards my chest, i am facing towards this energy, The energy is oval shaped & black with bright sparks within it, it is quite large & equal in size to myself. It feels dense & tingly, it feels like it is trying to take me away.

it feels like an attack & i feel like it is life-threatening.

Although i can't move i am able to shout at the energy to leave me alone, i can hear my voice when i shout.
i feel myself being slowly pushed off the bed (luckily i am on a single mattress, so do not hit the ground)

Now i am off the bed, i can move, so i get up & get out of my room as quickly as i can. i am looking towards my open bedroom door, walking backwards along the hallway. i am wary of my 'attacker' that i left behind in my room.

The scenery around me changes & i am now in the hall of my previous home.

i go into the kitchen, the atmosphere is still dark, murky & menacing. i decide i must be in the lower astrals & attempt to rise upwards to move to a brighter, more comfortable environment. I am aware of brightness /bright light above me when i focus on moving upwards.

My memory of my experience ends there.


Notes
Yesterday evening i experienced a spontaneous strong subtle energetic (healing ?) session - head, chest, stomach areas. And could feel subtle energies within me later during the evening too.

Date: 3/03/16

Becoming Lucid
i was looking closely at some coloured drawings stuck on a window in a new room of the home i lived in, i looked away, then looked back at the drawings & the details of the drawings had changed ..... i realised i was dreaming

Lucid Experience
There was a door leading to the outside & so i went through this. In front of me was a large grassy bank leading upwards, i decided to climb to the top to see what was there & possibly fly up from there when i got to the top. The steepness of the bank was that i had to use my hands & feet to climb.
After a short distance, i decided to see if i could get my old deceased sheepdog to come & join me / climb with me. i shouted his name a few times to see if he would appear, i didn't shout my loudest, i felt like i didn't want to bring too much attention to myself, i could hear my voice. My dog did not appear, but i heard a young child crying & my mother carrying my young niece (she is grown-up now) came out of the home / building below & both began climbing the bank.

i continued climbing up till i reached the top, i was somewhat disappointed since the grass continued on & there was nothing new to see. Over the top of the grass was a large barn type roof.


...... i got woken up from the household noises of others.

Some notes

• It was daytime in the experience, but it wasn't shining or silver sparkling light as it quite often appears, also i didn't feel any emotional elation that i sometimes do. i think that perhaps the experience was a low energy powered one.
• Although i could feel how it felt to physically climb the bank with my body, i experienced no physical tiredness or pain
• i feel i did not react to the presence of my mother appearing because i had been non-lucid dreaming with her in the dream prior to becoming lucid & so it felt 'normal' or nothing special to see her appear when she did.