IA´s dream diary....

In last night dream I saw a women with 3 daughters...they where dressed in same way..dresses made by same fabric so you could see it was mother with her 3 daughters...oddly I saw this in black and white...??


In this episode I had a little girl on my back...this little girl was totally appathic...I tried to do trix so she would start to laugh but she just was lifeless??

The first dream is from my life...I was around 10-11 yrs old...The family with the 3 girls was living in same house...we lived on the 2ond floor and the family with the 3 girls on 5th floor...I was so depressed ...I think it is why I saw it in black and white...the mother of the girls asked me if I could look after the girls when she went to the dentist...I was so surprised to be asked...of course I said...she did show me if we went out to play where the spads and buckets are and if we wanted to be indoors what we where allowed to eat...all went well and she payed me 50 kr what was a lot of money that time...I was so happy and run home to tell mother...and she was so angry so angry...stop lying to me..and she snatched the money from my hand...and stomped out to ask the mother of the girls...and she come back but I do not remember if she gave back the money to me...mother did not say anything to me just looked at me with very angry eyes....There was another neigbour who "adopted" me as theyre daughter...this did also anoy my mother...but I think that others did see how I was treated by my family....and this neigbour lady did give me a silver ring as a snake...I do not remember what happened to that ring...one day it was gone...




The second dream is me trying to help my inner child who still is sad...but it shows how depressed and sad I was growing up....I am crying here today...it will be a day with a lot of tears...healing tears.

In last night dream I was 25 yrs old...I was with 2 other women...we where dressed up to go out to dance...one of the women grabbed the dress on my lowerback and said...this must be fixed....during the whole dream I was dragged from place to place...I tried to say that I must go home...I want to take a shower but was disrupted to do other things...I did not get my voice to be heard so I awoke myself from the dream....

In last night I have bean in and out of dream and awake state...I know I have had dreams but what is clear is the in and out state...maby this is what is called shadow memories...the dreams in the background...if it is...then I now know...thank?s.

During my nap today I awoke when I saw all the light shooting out of my heartchakra...never seen like it before...wow

In last night dream I was dragging a green trolley..heavy...I felt in hurry because something comming at me...I felt nervous...and tried to lift the trolley inside my house...I had stone steps up to my house and from no-where I got help to lift the trolley inside my house....thank you who ever you are who helped me.

In last night dreams have bean so intense that I feel in my body like I have bean working out...can harly walk....It was many options in last night dream what I could choose to work with...if I wanted to work with a whole new system...no manuals at all...or if I wanted to work with children...or with some Asiens...did get totally dizzy of all options...

In last night dreams I was to a new place to look at a new appartament...I went up the stairs to see on what door my name is on....I did not find it...and when I was comming down the staires I hear some children saying...there is a grand ma on the staires....

In this dream I was to my sisters old appartament...they had re organized the cabins and it took some time to find what I was looking for...the thing you mince cheece with....I found it but at the same time my aunts husband (he is on the other side) started to slice cheece in a maschine...enormous mounts??

In last night dream one ex boyfriend luered him back to my life...after a while he was back to his old habbits...he just cant help him self...he did not understand that I could both hear and see what he was doing...I told him to go out of my life...he did try to not leave...but of course in the end he had to.

In last night dream I was wandering in a town I did not recqnize...I was dressed in a night dress and a towel wrapped around me...I met 2 women who was taxi drivers...one of them said she will drive me home...but first she want to have a cup of coffee at her home...when we entered her home...the dream went into another dream...it was my teen boyfriend (he is on the other side) I asked him when have he come to Sweden..one week...he is studing....my son was with me ...he looked at us and asked....are you in love...here I awoke myself...

In last night dream there was an old man...I saw him before and after image so to say...he had perced his earlobs and put gold earrings on him...I told someone about this...I said...he is really old and did do this to put ear rings on both ears...I was facinatied that there is no age to say..too old...

In last night dream I saw my father from the abowe so to say...he was standing with his back to me...dressed in white T-shirt and white shorts...carrying on his left sholder a camera...and on his right sholder a bag...(my father is on the other side..never seen him in white shorts?)


In this episode I was to a place with in one room was art...second room was nailes to be done...in third room was beeds and so on...when I entered this place I said...oh I am sorry...maybe only invited persons can come...No no they said...all is welcome...

In last night dream I was asked to do a work on a library. Had to cleanse the library first from some kind of negativity...so those who borowed a book did not get something negative with them...had to dust with a protection powder...I had some help so I was not alone on this huge work...had to check all books that they had the protection powder...but I saw in 2 books a small speck what was not powdered totally...so I used those sticks with a bit cotton on the ends...to powder the specks....

In last night dream I was standing on a buss stop...it was winter and the ground was slippery...Buss driver was a women and she did not let me enter the bus...she did show her power this way...denying me to take the bus...

This dream did I have some days ago...In the dream I was sitting on my bed...and in swaved a light blue shirt with left sleve twisted...the atmospher in the room was thick so to say...I started to do the bannishment but could only sighn a triangle...the atmosphere went lighter so I could do the whole bannishment...and all went to normal...




Last night dream was about me working at a workingplace...feeling bad...but continued to work...the boss wanted to talk to me...he said...I can see you do not feel well...I have a propsal to you...we are going to start a new postition on the firm and I want you to go the course and do the new work....I was so happy....I accepted...started the course and was so surprised it was only few hours a day...and rest I was commended to go home and rest...It was what I needed...I talked to the boss and told him how greatful I am...we are too greatful to have you....wow...

In last night dream I was travelling with a group on a bus what was constructed with real beds...I went to look under the bus...and there you could see where the beds was day time...this bus was huge...and beds for a real big group.. I did not count the beds....but it was many....and when night come you did drag the beds up...they where allready made so to say....impressive costruction.

I have been thinking about my sons father who killed himself in 2004.

He come into my dream last night and wanted us to be together again...he said...we do not have to re marry....so no change there in him....he stopped to come to visit his son because I did not want to be with him when he visited us...he had no feelings for anybody but himself.

In last night dream I was in a big town ..it was something familar so I must have bean here before....I was walking upwards an alley with shops both sides of the street...I look downwards and there is a huge window of the shops...for some reason I take a stone and cast it down and it breaks this huge window...first thought was to run...but then I feel I have to take responsibillity and report this that it was me....I try to find the polist station...I ask a women where the polis station is...she ponts first at one direction...and when I look where she point...she vanished in the thin air.....I see some sailors come out from a door...I ask them where the polis station is...and he grins and I understand that I stand just infront of the polis station...I went in and went to the reception...I see that I have to take a cue ticket...I ask where is the bathroom...and here I woke up because I have to for real go to the bathroom...

In last night dream I was a spectator...I saw 2 persons riding horses...and suddenly the horses went bonkers and threw off the riders and took off....riders running after horses...I was like forzen looking at this happening...
In this episode I was fed with something...looked like a half strawberry...I woke up when opening my mouth to take it.....

Last night before I fell to sleep I saw a vision ..very far away I saw people going into a cave or a big tent...

My dreams from last night was about the whole world woting for something what I have now forgotton...I hope I remember more later....

In last night dream was a bit strange...I was invited with my sister to a mans home...I felt a bit interested in him....when we come to his home his mother was there...at once she saw me..she smiled and said to me to come with her into a living room...she said to my sister to keep company to her son....the mother sat her very near me I was a bit unconfortable when she took my hand...she was so interested of me and this made me very unconfortable for some reason....so unconfortable that I awake me from this dream...

In last night dream I had a vision ...I saw like I was abowe the red haired women...a man hide her face with his hands...

In this episode I was with some people ...they said to me that I do not need any money...I went with them and they took me ombord of a huge boat...those big ones where you can buy stuff on...I was so dissapointed that they have said to me that I do not need money...it means I can now not buy anyting on the boat...I was so dissapointed that I awoke myself from the dream...

In last night dream I was in a garage parking my white car (in reality I have a red car)...the car next to me on the left side had on his windschield a aluminium blanket to cover the windschield??...why have that when parking in a garage??

In last night dream a man attacked me and cut my hair...I looked at him and asked ...does it look good?...He looked at me with tears in his eyes...felt like he felt that his attack did not land in me as he had wanted.

I went to my aunt ..she was sweeping the floors...I asked for help but she turned her back on me...I went to my other aunt..her daughter (she is on the other side) was helping my aunt to move ..she was packing her things...(maybe my aunt who is 95 yrs old are leaving us)?

In last night dream I was debating with a Jehovas Witness...The debate become heated and I called my father by phone but the signal was so weak so I had to give up (my father is on the other side)..I was in neutral energy...the energy between me and the Jehovas Witness was diffrent...

In last night dream I was in a big gathering...one young man was so happy to see me...he run to me and embraced me...he had a earing covering his whole left ear....one other young man also embraced me but he was only acting polite but did not like me at all so here I awoke myself from the dream.

In last night dream I was fed with something very rich on both protein and something good for the testines....it tasted like fish and kimschi...

In last night dream I was again buying train tickets...I wanted to know if I could take my train from this spot instead of going to the central station...but a man who is a professor in kriminology was talking so loud that the lady refused to call to ask the train cleark...so I tried to push him further away but he refused to move...so I awoke me from my dream...

In last night dream I knew I had bean out with friends bar hopping...next morning I started to figure out what happened...but I did not remember much...I started to take out items from my pockets...I was searching for my bank card...I had some unknown female bankcard in my pocket...but did not find my own bankcard...I had a thing like a squered phone with a big screen...the sound was off and when I turned up the sound it was a search for a missing child...I turned off the sound...I had also a lego those big ones what small kids build with...a red one...I was compelled...what!

In last night dream I was visiting a consert of some sort...I was looking at the croud and I saw a very beautiful man..I said to my friend ..look...he is gourgeous...after the consert he was waiting for me...I was so surprised...he said...you are magnetic...your eyes captevated me...I was totally floored...he said I had so strong energies...but so do he too...

In last night dream I was sleeping outside..people reacted and made faces at me while I was lying on the ground...one girl sat near me...and I said without opening my eyes to her...I just want to tell you that I can see through my eyelids...making her aware that making faces or other things I can see it...she had a paper and pen and she wanted to ask some questions...I asked still with closed eyes...what kind of questions? She said...if someone would made a dish of you...what dish do you think it will be...and why? Here I awoke myself...

In last night dream I was sorting out things of some sort....I send it to the bin...toilet...and uteria...??

Last night dream was hard to understand first...I noticed first that my arm was numbd..and when I noticed that a severe pain invaded the arm...I had to test few strategies to help my arm...the numbness was easy I had just to adjust my posture but the pain was more difficult to find out how to ease the pain...it took me several try before I find out how to do it....I feel more composed today....

In last night dream I was looking in a corner ...if you look into a corner of a room...you see the both walls...to the right and to the left...it was a white walls corner....the most strange thing is that I was looking into this the whole night??..So it feels like a some kind of symbol...

In last night dream I am bikeing and I comming in a high speed...to catch up with someone...I reach to a car and when I open the backdoor ...a women says....she is going to voulenteering....the man said...No she is not....

In this episode I was monetering happenings from abowe...To my surprise I did not have to be present on the spot...I could influence from distance...it is very hard for me to put in words what the happenings was...It had to do with my will something....

In last night dream I saw a wonderful beautiful watch...small very petit clock face...it had leather band...but I was thinking to change it to a golden band...it will look like a bracelet...and it was cheep too so I can afford it....happy.

In last night dream I was like a mediator between a couple...the women said...I am dedicated and invested in my hen...the man took a step back...so I said...I see that you are not on the same page....

In last night dream I was with a man...I danced around him and he was a bit confused...I was happy....when he was talking to someone he only talked about his deceased wife...so I felt that he can or will not go into a new relationship with me...I accepted...

In this episode I was with my friend on holiday to Greece...suddenly a storm broke out...and the rain was hard...I said...typical....

In last night dream I was in Preyer and cleansing energies all night....

In last night dream a man come infront of me and said...I broke down....I started to prayer....??

In last night dream I was asked to come to work on a place where the celebrities and rich people work...before I went to the workplace a women asked me to try on a coat...looked very expensive...so I said...I can not afford this...she said for you it is 475 and I was so happy and I said...that I can afford....the first day I took the elevator to the 7th floor....the work place did not look like a work place...it had very expensive furnitures...I half sat half layed down on a sofa...a women come to show me her ring...it was very beautiul...when she stroke her hand over my brests...I jolted in chock....the other persons laughed and I felt that they laughed to my naivity...so after this I said...No I will not work here...and I went to the HR to tell I quite....

In last night dream I was talking with a doctor...I said...I want you to know that when I was under the surgery removal of my thyroid gland I wometed during the surgery and it was a bit of a problem....he said...but this time we do the surgery on your knee so I do not think it will be any problem....

In last night dream I was summoned for question whom I have bean meditating with...to my surprise I hear me saying...with Guru Nanak...when I come back and sat down I see me sitting across Guru Nanak and he leaned him towards me and took my face in his hands and smiled....??

Last night dream started with seeing a horse being in a house with the door going inwards and he is investigating the door with his mouth...I say to my son that we are going to run into the woods quickly and I do not want the horse to see us...we run and after a while we end up in a dead end so to say...there is a toilet under a roof so you can see someone has build that and are living there...I look at my left side and I see a steps going upwards...I see a door and I hear people talking inside...I knock on the door and a male voice say...you can enter it is open...I enter this hut and I see a man sitting by the table and a women doing the disches...I ask if they can help me and my son to find our way to a big road so we can hitchhike...the man takes out a big map...he says that he will be right forward and show us where we are...and he will give directions for us to go forward...I notice that we have not prepared at all for this journey...we did not even have a bottle of water with us??

In last night dream happened something strange ...I was standing and the door was on my left side and it was open...In shines so bright light that I was stunned...and I asked ...is there something special happening?...I did feel there where somebody with me but the light did shine so bright that I was blinded....the energy what was so full of love that I burst to tears...what was this?

In last night dream I was invited to a big gathering...when I arrived to the meeting and tried to sit down around the table every chair was taken...so I took one chair and sat down...soon around me people started to gossip...I asked one what are they talking about...but only silence meet me....so I stood up and said...what kind of people is here...I will not stay...so I went away...and one person run after me and said...follow me...we are going up...and here I woke up....

In last night dream I was making love to a man...after we where done he said that we have to visit some person...I was naked and I was shaking my boobs and said...then I have to put something on me so I do not embaress people...

Last night dream I found coins and one 7 mark paper money..(Finland had as currency mark but have euro now)..I was surprised to find 7 mark as to my knowledge they have never had that ...5 mark...but not 7...I started to count the coins...it was not only finnish marks but other countries currency also...

Last night at 1 o?clock...my neighbourous where fighting...it come to my dream...the energy felt like it was in my appartament...I was in paralysed state....all went black and white...I said to myself...wake up and I shook me....now I come more to wakeed state...I hear the comotion but I have hard to wake up...it took me long time to come to waked state....I have never before experienced this...

In last night dream I was with a little baby...I gave it (do not know if it was boy or girl) a pacifier...it took it out of its mouth and looked at me...I asked if I skall rock it...no not really....it wanted to look at a guitarr ...so I took the guitarr and let it look at it...here I awoke...

In last night dream I was a spectator...seeing a couple and the man come out as homosexual...every one was shearing and congratulating him and his partner....the women was forgotton how devestated she was to loose her loved partner...the man where making out and kissing and she tried to get away but all the time the man was keeping an eye on her and bringing her back...she tried to look happy for his sake...and he was saying to her...LoL...LoL....