My Lucid Dream Journal

Date: 12/03/16

Dream location: My childhood home

Non-lucid dream
There was some loud clanging / banging noises that were causing a disturbance & so i went in the direction of the noise to check it out. i went around to the back garden to look at the top of the garage roof to find out what was making the noise & also to stop the noise from continuing to happen.

As i reached the location of where the sound was coming from, two small colourful butterfly shaped objects whizzed through the air away from me. There were two colours that i could identify as the objects whizzed by me & these were red & green.

The two small butterfly shaped colours then stopped & landed, it was then that i could see they were actually two little male humans with wings. Their wings now appeared to be transparent. They stood looking at me briefly before flying away.

These beings were acting mischievously.

Here's some lucid dream experiences i didn't write up at the time

30.03.16
Lucid dream
looked in through my childhood lounge window to see if my parents were there, they were, dad sitting down in his chair, my mother standing up, she was busy at something

31/03/16
Becoming lucid
the side of the garage was so visually clear, crispness & detail of reality seemed magnified.
i got inside the kitchen, my mum, my dad & my nanna were there, my mum was talking loudly, sounded like a heated discussion, i hadn't heard my mothers voice speaking like this for years ( 20 yrs) & so it was a comforting familiarity.
then i could see my mum twice, there were 2 of her.
As i told my dad how much i missed them i became a young child once more as i hugged & kissed my dad

Lucid dream segment
i was running away from others who i thought might chase me & so i decided to change my outward appearance & become a male, i visualised a male face & held the intention to be seen as a male by others. i found a mirror & looked into it , i was a male but the hair & face of the male were not the same as the male i had held in my vision.
i still felt like me, but looked like a male i didn't recognise, when looking into a mirror

1/04/16
Becoming Lucid
i was answering the door & realised the door was not a door i recognised... i knew i was dreaming

i looked outside, at first my vision was blocked by boxes stacked outside the door, but i peeped around these. The area outside was mountainous & with few buildings, the buildings were in dis-repair & it all looked old from a past time.
i saw some old looking street lights & then i looked for cars to get an idea of the time period. there were some cars, probably from the 70's era.

i found myself standing outside the building, i could feel the air / breeze blowing against me.
i decided to shoot upwards into the air, but only got a short distance before i began to fall back down. i was able to float about 5 feet off the ground & so decided to do this instead.

the area infront of me was now quite busy with people & i decided i would float about them & see if they could see me & if they reacted.
Most people appeared to 'not to see me', but a teenage boy could see me & asked me ' how i was able to float in the air'

Lucid dream
i decided i would pull on the clouds to get myself in the air, as i grabbed the clouds with my mind, they began to be drawn towards me, i grabbed them hoping to get catapulted back into the sky with them, but i was grabbed firmly around the waist & held down

5/04/16

Time: 6am ish

A very 'aware' / engaged dream.

It started becoming impactful when i had to save my baby from falling. It then went on to me caring for the baby, shopping for the baby.

There does seem to have been a point within this dream where i was lucid for a short time.

it was a dream where i felt very efficient, engaged with others & empowered,

Notes
i woke up with such a buzz from it that i felt like getting up & taking a shower. i could think & was able to feel like wanting to 'get things done'.

The 'high' from the dream experience lasted an hour before fading & i was able to function again like i could in my younger days :-)

The only thing i did differently yesterday that might have helped cause this, was i took some colloidal vits. & minerals 2 x 5ml.

Date: 11/04/16

Becoming Lucid
i was in my previous house's kitchen & two others were there with me, we had been talking or discussing something that we were looking at on the dining room table. When i realised i was dreaming, i told the others that this was a lucid dream & i was going off to do something else.

Saying this caused me to lose vision & i could feel i was awake in my physical body.

Notes
Whilst i was lucid in the dreaming space, i said out loud on different occasions

• 'please can i speak with my spirit guide' ... there was 'no response'
• 'please can my spirit guide be with me now'.... nobody came

i do not remember what my surroundings were at the time, but i was constantly drifting from the dream state, to being back awake in my physical body. (although i did not move my physical body at all)

My vision returned, i was in a building & there were stairs in front of me, the banister rail was painted red, i was about to go up the stairs to explore, but then caught sight of an open door to the outside behind me. it was bright & sparkly outside & so i was tempted to go explore outside instead.

When i got to the door my vision had gone. i decided to create what was there with my mind & imagined a very large yard (like a school yard) surrounded by tall strong wire mesh fence. Then in my mind i let all the dogs out, my living dog, my two deceased dogs & my mum's deceased dogs. i still had no vision & so i carefully stepped out of the door & walked slowly forward with my arms outstretched until i came to the wire, then i put my hand on the wire fence & continued to walk along, using the fence to guide me. i had gotten three quarters of the way around the yard when i had vision again. Now i was standing in & could see buildings surrounding a courtyard.

i woke up in my physical body again.

i had more lucid dream experiences,

• i was outside, i tried to rise into the air, i managed some height but not much, i could see above the building roofs, some distance away there were tree tops behind building roofs, there was one tree without leaves that i decided i wanted to 'fly' to, when i looked again the trees had now changed & were evergreen fir trees instead.
• i was outside again, trying again to rise up into the air, again with little success, looking to see where i could 'fly' towards

Date: 15/04/16

Notes
i was lucid for quite sometime, had periods of non-lucidity & also was waking alot too, due to this i have lost alot of the memories of my lucid experiences & donot have continuity of my experiences, so i am going to list the parts of my lucidity that i do remember.

Becoming lucid
i was studying the detail of my surroundings (this usually happens prior to gaining lucidity) i then realised that the alterations of my home were not correct & so i told my daughter standing next to me, that we were in a lucid dream

• i asked out loud to have communication with my spirit teams ( no response)
• i saw dark grey rocks, that had small hollow cave shapes within them & bright green foilage on & around these rock cave shapes
• i was looking up at the sky deciding where to fly, there were stars there, as i looked at each star, a line of symbols would appear written in white next to the star. i assumed these were the names of the stars. i wanted to go to one of these stars.
• i found myself in a bright, colourful, strange reality & the beings (people) were different looking than humans. Some purple different shape on the forehead. i assumed that my focus to get to one of the stars had teleported me to this strange reality

Becoming lucid
i had thought i had woken up & was awake. i was standing against the corner wall of my childhood bungalow & looking up at the sky. There were many white cloud torpedo shapes shooting through the sky. i thought they were bombs, this made me realise i was dreaming (again)

Behind me standing on the concrete drive was my little deceased dog, i stroked him & played with him, he rolled on his back.
It was good to see him & feel his soft fluffy fur again:heart:

Date: 28/04/16

Non-lucid Dream

I had a very vivid, impactful, non-lucid dream, there were two elements in the dream that i wanted to record:

• i met an old friend, we hugged, then chatted for a while

• my daughter was 18 months old again & i was caring for her, but from a now & aware perspective. It was an interesting experience, with insights & understandings. At first when i woke, i thought i could somehow use what i had learnt in my dream to improve things in my life now. And although i can still see that the message is 'correct', i feel unable to act on it at the moment.

Date: 1/05/16

Becoming Lucid
i had been lying in a bed, in a room i did not recognise, i wanted to go to my own room & bed. i got up & as i walked out of the room into the corridor, i got the familiar feeling of 'lucidity'.... 'i was there'

At this point, it became apparent i was in a hospital & there was some 'drama' going on. It looked like a patient had gone 'missing' (escaped !) & there was a lot of hustle & bustle with nurses rushing up & down corridors searching for the missing patient.
Slightly alarmed by all this i hide inside a cubicle toilet, i do need a 'pee'..... but know this sensation is coming from my physical body & that urinating in the dream toilet will not ease my current discomfort.

It becomes apparent they are not looking for me & when someone bangs on the toilet door, i shout that it is 'me' in there & they leave me alone & hurry on by.

i leave the toilet cubicle & continue to wander down corridors looking for my way out, i am approached by a nurse, she speaks to me. She is wondering why i am there, i explain i am looking for a way to leave, she replies that she doesn't think i'll be leaving.

'I am leaving' & on that intention, i see some fire doors to my right & push on the handles & open the doors & i am out.


It is daylight outside, a woman also leaves through the open fire doors & speaks to me. She is telling me something about the cars & the carpark, i look to my right & there is a mud floor car park & some parked cars there.

i look at my surroundings, trying to take in what i see, so i will remember it all when i wake, in the distance, i see the tops of trees with autumn coloured leaves (on waking i could not recall what else i saw)

Suddenly i am swept in the air by a strong gust of wind, it takes me high into the sky, the breeze is cool & fairly strong, the air batters against me gently, i feel like a plastic bag blowing in the wind, the feeling is exhilarating. i am blown in a loop & end up floating just above the mud floor, i examine in detail the damp soil, that is inches from my face.

i wake up.


Notes.

• Because i went straight back to sleep after waking, i was unable to remember all i had seen when looking at my surroundings, when i woke up for a second time.
• Also this lucid dream happened during a 'lie-in', i had woken up, got up & then gone back to sleep. The lucid dreams i have been experiencing the last couple of months have all been experienced during 'lie in' periods of sleep.

Added Notes
Later i remembered an image i had seen whilst looking at my surroundings during the lucid dream

• i saw white clouds in a blue sky & there was a faint moon outline visible too

Date: 10/05/16

Non Lucid dream
i was having eyes open visions. i had a vision of a landscape, i was trying to memorise the scene, but it changed before i could remember all the details. (road with trees, fields) i had another vision, this time there was writing & also a domino, again i was trying to memorise the details, but the scene kept changing.

i decide to find my voice recorder, to speak & record what i was seeing as a means of remembering what i had seen.

Notes
Normally when i have experiences of visions in this way, i know that my physical body is asleep, & my eyes are shut, this time i was not lucid & so believed i was awake, with my eyes open.

Date: 11/05/16

Becoming Lucid

i was standing on the top of a high cliff, below me was a smooth grey rock surface.... i knew i was dreaming

i decided to 'jump'..... to see what would happen, i knew i was safe & wouldn't 'die' since i was dreaming.

i jumped...... i didn't hit the rock surface..... i just kept falling, falling..... falling. It went completely dark, i was still falling, i wondered if this was the place called the 'void'.
I was still falling, i became a little un-nerved, in the blackness i tried to imagine earth in the distance & myself falling back towards earth, as a means to end the continuing falling experience i had now found myself in, but i was unable to manifest this scenario to change my 'present' experience.

The void falling ended & i was now falling in what appeared to be a square shape the size of an average room surrounding me, it was still dark, but i could see the square shape & there were also other shaped objects in there that i could just make out the outline of within the darkness.

This 'space' felt safer, more familiar.
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i donot remember any more..

Notes

• I had not planned or previously thought about 'jumping' whilst in a lucid dream, so this was a 'spur of the moment' type idea.
• i do have a fear of heights & falling
• i was slightly shocked that i did actually 'jump' as a part of me could not imagine how i could go through with that
• On typing my experience, i realise today's date is significant to me, in that 5 years ago today, my first dog 'passed'

The Antahkarana...wherein the Cube is one's immediate Universe...yet the whole of which...the enveloping 3 dimensional shapes...is the vehicle (Merkabah) within which are You...the fourth dimensional Being...without which there is no whole...the Whole being the 5D. Life

There is the Life ... (et)and there is That which Lives the Life. Be THAT

Aquarius - http://youtu.be/l3QvYIx0mfQ

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Travellin' Man - http://youtu.be/W-JWw3cQwA0

D.O.C. Who.....

You ;)

Adir Hu

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Originally Posted by Timothy

The Antahkarana...wherein the Cube is one's immediate Universe...yet the whole of which...the enveloping 3 dimensional shapes...is the vehicle (Merkabah) within which are You...the fourth dimensional Being...without which there is no whole...the Whole being the 5D. Life

There is the Life ... (et)and there is That which Lives the Life. Be THAT

Aquarius - http://youtu.be/l3QvYIx0mfQ

http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/att...tid=1164&stc=1

http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/att...tid=1165&stc=1

Travellin' Man - http://youtu.be/W-JWw3cQwA0

D.O.C. Who.....

You ;)

Adir Hu

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Thanks Tim :-)

i re-read 'climbing up the grassy bank' .... i call my deceased dog, but he didn't respond, my deceased mother responded instead :heart:

i was not familiar with Antahkarana..... interesting information

Date: 16/05/16

Non Lucid dream segment
i was with 2 old school friends, i asked them to look at the view infront of them to find out what they were seeing.

i looked from the far left to the far right, all that i could see was red sand with large pot-holes that contained grey rocks, that looked like small chunks of concrete, behind the red sand area was the sea.

There were quite a few people in the scene, they appeared to be digging these large pot-holes to obtain the grey rock chunks.

Notes
Usually when i view the scene of a dream in this way, it's because i am lucid, so it would seem that what i habitually do in my lucid dreams is currently 'spilling over' into my non lucid dreams


Added Notes
Date: 10/06/16

sim - synchronicity - My next door neighbours were having some garden work done .... loud pneumatic drilling up of their 'Concrete' back yard

Date: 31/05/16

Time: 7.30 am - 9am (during a lie-in)

Precursor to lucid dream
i was looking around the room i was in, trying to see anything un-usual, i do this as a means of jolting myself 'awake' whilst dreaming. There was one object i didn't recognise, it was a black octangle tube shape, just a bit larger than a tin can, on picking this object up & examining it more closely, i realised it was a squeaky dog toy. This seemed to pacify my attention & i was unable at this time to gain lucidity.

Becoming lucid
i am looking out from behind some sort of a transparent screen at my old childhood home's garden. The scene changes / morphs as i continue to look at it. I know this is dream vision & physically i am lying in my bed.

After sometime re-experiencing grief & loss feelings, i decided to go back to a time in my life where i was 'happy' & was trying to work out the dates & ages my children would have been when both my parents were still physically alive.


Lucid dream
i find myself walking holding the hands of my daughter & my niece, they are approx. 3 yrs old, we are in the garden of my childhood home.
We walk around the paths in the garden before going through a patio door into the back bedroom into the house, the bedroom has 3 single beds & some armchairs in it.

The patio door into the bedroom & the way the bedroom now looked is not how it ever looked in the past.

i find myself alone in the hallway, my parents bedroom door is shut, i open the door & go inside. My mother is lying in bed, i ask her if she is alright, she says she is, i ask if i can hug & kiss her, she says i can & so i do. i help her to sit up in bed, she is obviously weak & unwell.
My dad comes into the bedroom with a cup of tea for my mum

Notes

• i also remember sitting in the lounge & being in awe at how real & stable my environment was. i had a feeling of being there for hours, even days
• Because i was lucid for a long time in the dream state & then had phases of non-conscious sleep too, i had alot of memory gaps in the lucid dream space on waking & recalling my experience
• I assumed that my mum was in the last months of her life when i met her in bed, but the bedroom set-up was how it had been earlier in my parents lives & also my dad had 'passed' nearly 3 yrs before my mother. i did not notice these discrepancies until i woke up from dreaming.
• Also my dad brought my mum a cup of tea, she was a coffee drinker for most of her life & never really drunk ordinary tea

Added note
After reading through some of my earlier dreams here on the forum, i got some dream memory recall back. My mother was talking & i remember the familiar sound of her voice, it was real nice to experience that again.

Date: 17/09/16

Becoming Lucid
i was in a neighbourhood i recognised, it was my childhood neighbourhood, i looked down the road towards where i used to live, as i did this the scenery morphed & it was now an unfamiliar neighbourhood scene instead.

Seaside.
i now find myself at an unfamiliar beach, i can see ships & whales on the sea. i go into the water for a swim, the water is cool & feels 'real'. The sea is quite calm & so i try to make it more rough & wavy, by 'willing' it to be so, but i am unable to change the calmness of the sea, much to my disappointment.

Visit with my mum
My mum is infront of me, i go over to her & hug her, i tell her that i miss her so much & am struggling without her. She tells me she knows / is aware of my life struggles since her 'passing', we chat.

Notes

• i did not write these dream experiences down at the time & am writing them now from my memory 3 weeks later. Also i fell back into non-lucid dreaming after these lucid experiences & therefore 'lost' alot of details. i also did not recall the lucid experiences immediately after waking as i most often do, but a little later during the morning, when something triggered my memory of these.
• Although i have not had many lucid dreams for a while, i did have a spell of non-lucid dreams of being at the beach, by the sea. My favourite place is by the sea, i guess i miss experiencing the sea in physical life, hence i frequently dream of it instead

Date: 10/10/16
Time: approx 10 am (during a lie-in)

Notes
i was constantly drifting in & out of sleep due to the household noise, so although i felt like i was lucid for a long time, the experiences were mostly separate, short ones.

Becoming lucid - Window views
i was with family (in a static caravan) & i was looking through the window, each time i looked away & then looked back the scenery had changed. i asked a family member what they could see as i wanted to compare. What they saw was some half built tall metal construction to do with space science. As they were telling me this i was somehow able to see it also.
When i looked again i could now see a row of machinery type vehicles parked up outside.

The first time i looked through the window, i saw a grassy mountain, there were people & cows dotted around & a large roundish stone rock with a water fountain spraying upwards from it's center.

( i donot remember what all the other scenes looked like that i saw whilst looking through the window)


Exit through glass
i decided to go outside & so i pushed myself hands & head first, through the glass window, it was a strange sensation of suction & then a feeling of 'popping' out the other side.

It was now dark outside & i found myself horizontally airbourne, the wind was cool & breezy as it mildly battered against my body. i could also hear a constant clicking noise which i thought was probably being made by the wind blowing & causing physical objects to move.


Airbourne with daughter
i was holding my daughter's right hand, she was now approx. 8 years old, i was attempting to take her 'flying' & was trying to go upwards into the sky. Although we managaed to get airbourne we were unable to gain much height & continue going up towards the different brightly coloured cloud shapes above. It was daylight & the wind was breezy & pleasant.


Viewfinder
i was able to see a small rectangular window shaped scene in the distance. It appeared i was looking down a long black tunnel.
At first the scene appeared to be motionless, but then it began to become movie like. It was in colour & i watched this for a short while. I cannot remember fully what i saw, but i think there was a woman & a man


Reading
There was a white page of paper & it had black writing, doodles, scribbles & marks on it.

i was trying to make sense of the writing & what i was seeing. i couldn't read the writing, but i could guess at some of the words, when i did this, the word then became the word i had guessed. i spent some time doing this with the writings, markings constantly changing.

i decided that there was actually nothing written in the words & markings that made any sense (in English) until i 'thought' the word i was reading into being, which only then would become the actual word

The only word that i can remember reading was the word 'type'


Notes

• Alot of my more recent lucid dreams involve looking / viewing as opposed to doing /moving
• i used to have difficult going through glass as a means to enter or exit a place, this fear seems to have dissipated now.
• i usually have difficulty getting airbourne if i attempt to take any others with me
• i also woke up feeling imbued with cosy / blissie subtle energy, which is something i haven't experienced in a long while, after waking from a nights sleep

The barometer, that was previously my parents had now smashed & broke.

(i add pic later)

it actually has a crack (that we, my family unit caused) across it's diameter now :-(

Need to find a lucid dream within my journal, that i was given as a re- experience of that particular time,

i think i have had aprox 4 of these

The plastic flowers
the rocking horse
the Halifax plastic children's money box.

Sitting at the crossroads with my little dog Zen & the rabbit / trampoline

& thhhhis afternoon befor it became dark... looking through my lounge window at the moss green roof across the way woith (3 ? ) Jackdaws on there..

i was given the memory & the scenes kinda merge as one & you know 'it's the 'same' 'time'

& my mins said 'same' as Eddie izzie, then said , the word same, then he repeated it ..

'same' same same

rest / stop / take a moment

i have had a series of nightmares again just recently..

worries - pets
experiencing dying'
my presently ill ferret 'dying'
Also having that horrible experience on waking - where i cannot recognise or get to a place of recognition of where i am

Date: 19 /02/18

Time: approx 8am ish

Pushed out of bed

I was lucid & aware of subtle physical sensations, someone climbed in bed next to me, on my right, they snuggled up to me, it felt nice - companionship.

i kept my eyes shut

Then this person rolled on top of me, i was expecting it to get romantic at this point & felt like i was going to be passionately kissed on my mouth, but nope, this being had other plans.

They rolled off me to my left & then firmly 'pushed me off the bed' towards the floor.

Well i didn't see that coming !!!

This felt like it had caused me to be 'pulled out-of-body' as now i was in a black void & falling continuously.

i felt like i was in a similar position to the image below as i was falling
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i wasn't uneasy with the experience, in fact i felt quite safe.

I didn't want to open my eyes, as i thought this might cause me to wake-up back in my physical body.

Deciding not to open my eyes, seemed to give me enough awareness to then allow me to have vision enter into the experience.

At this point i was no longer falling in the black void, but was instead in my bedroom space, although this bedroom was familiar, it was not physically the same as my current now bedroom.

i was sitting on the bed & i thought about leaving the room, i checked the window to see if it appeared solid, although damaged [like many of our current windows in our property] it was solid, feeling the same as a solid 3D window would in physical reality.

On feeling the solidity of the glass window, i felt it was not 'right' to leave the room to 'go off exploring' as i would normally like to do.

It felt like there was a safety within 'staying in the room'

...... this realisation appeared to 'wake me back up' within my physical body [i woke up]

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Non-lucid dream - Wrong delivery

Date: 19/02/18

Time: 8 am-ish [during going back to sleep after having the above experience]

Dream characters

• large teddy bears
• unlocked house doors
• group of psychic ladies
• artist studio
• outdoor market stalls

[will write up further info. sometime]

Date: 10/03/18

Time: approx. 6am ish & 9am ish

i did have 2 lucid dream experiences this morning, but lost lucidity quite quickly.

Lucid experience 1.
i was walking & looking around my environment & wondering 'what to do'

Lucid experience 2..
it felt very familiar to be lucid again in the dream-space, i think this was because of my earlier lucidity & also because i went very quickly from being awake physically to be aware / lucid in the dream-space.

i was moving forwards, and there was a dirt lane i was traveling along. i was floating along. My daughter was with me, she was approx. 6 yrs old, i asked her if she knew how to float, she said 'she didn't'.

So i picked her up & carried her under my left arm.

i was looking for some soft ground so my daughter could practice her floating skills.

We came to a clearing where there were shops around & i stopped & put my daughter down.

.....began to lose lucidity at this point.

the dream continued with us interacting with another [negatively], then interacting with 2 others [negatively] & ended with us seeing dolphins in the sea.

Date: 24/05/18

Time: 9.30 am [during a lie-in]

Becoming Lucid
I was looking through the window to see if my niece's car was still parked outside. There were no cars parked out on the road or non parked on the drive, then i realised the scene was odd, i was looking at the scene outside my old childhood home, not my present home, i realised i was lucid dreaming.

Once i became lucid, i appeared to have difficulty keeping my eyes open & seeing, i was afraid that if i made too much effort to open my eyes, then my physical eyes would open. This passed quite quickly. so i set off to explore the house.

i dont remember the details only that everything appeared colourful & vibrant.

i opened the back door & my sister was out there sitting in a sun-chair, she was in her late teens & looked different to how i remembered her.

My mum & dad were in their bedroom in bed, after checking it was appropriate to enter, i went in & hugged my mum & told her how much i missed her, & also told my dad.

They looked well & as they did in their middle years as opposed to their later years.

We talked, but their conversation did not seem to have 'realness' or much awareness of reality.


i woke up, but did not open my eyes [our dog was in the bedroom with me & was restless]


i waited to 'see' where i was ... i was again back in my childhood home, i went off to explore once more. There were some Xmas cards hanging up in a row strung across the room. i did explore for some time & i think i went outside to explore too.


Notes
It was nice to be back there again & i also enjoyed spending time with my parents too :grouphug:xx

Date: 2/06/18

Whooshing of a speeding car

Notes
i usually wake-up with non lucid dream memories, but don't often pay them much attention, this morning was no different.

On this evenings dog walk a car sped past us, and i was instantly back in the morning's dream.
The sensation of the car speeding closely passed us, was the same as i had experienced in the dream.

Another car later also sped past us, reminding me again of what i had experienced earlier in this morning's dream.

I often don't walk this dog-walk route & haven't walked this way for quite a few weeks, so having a 'car 'whoosh' closely passed me' sensation is not that often experienced by me.

Thought it was kinda interesting...

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Wooden shield

Notes
Something similar happened earlier this year, in that i had a dream memory experience, that i then experienced physically later that day.

In the dream there was one of my trophies, i had gained as a child competitor swimmer, it was a small wooden shield i had won for freestyle at age 10.

i had no idea where the shield currently was physically & had not seen it for sometime.

That day as i was shifting through the chaos of belongings on the table in the lounge, looking for something, an item fell onto the floor.

It was the shield i had dreamt of earlier that morning...


Notes
I get a magical/ awe-inspiring feeling when a dream 'clicks' with a physical reality experience.

I must look up what Robert says about this, i remember reading something around this phenomena in the first astral dynamics book

Date: 30/05/18

Time: approx. 10am - 11.30am [lie-in]

Non lucid dream
i was sitting on the toilet in my childhood home, when i began to hear a voice speaking to me, it was telling me things about myself & my life, giving me higher understandings etc. then i began to see imagery of places i didn't recognise, & it felt like i was lucid dreaming.

i thought to myself 'well this has never happened to me before while sitting on the toilet' once the voice & imagery stopped & i was back to sitting on the toilet again.

Notes
[i think i had now gained some lucidity, as after explaining to the now 'dream' residents why i was there, i then went on to explore the back garden & later the front garden to see what was different.

[my memory is not so clear , so i wont describe most of what i saw]

i do remember that there was some of the orange blossom tree we had had in our garden still there & it was hanging over the boundary wall. i thought i would like to take a cutting of that :heart:

Also there was a cabinet full of ornaments etc. & i looked through them all to see if any were ours, i recognised many that i had not thought about for years.

Notes
i do not remember any more of the dream



Lucid Dream - flying through the neighbourhood

i was airborne & travelling along through a neighbourhood when i recognised where i was, i was in my own 'present day' neighbourhood, so i turned around and flew back towards my current home.

As i flew around the corner towards where our home should of been situated, a different landscape greeted me. i was at a very high vantage point & an unfamiliar town could be seen in the distance way below.

The homes were grey in colour, had pointy spiked roofs & were all the same.

In the area where our home should of been there was instead some sort of play area made from wood, something like an adventure playground, which had a wooden archway with a name on a plaque at the entrance.

Notes
i lost my vision after this, just blackness, i tried speaking out loud 'i want clear sight, clarity now' but my vision never returned.

i then either woke or fell back into non-lucid dreaming.

Date: 28/07/18

Time: 6.15 am [on waking]

Non Lucid Dream - Going on Holiday

Notes

• It was a Blood moon last night [although we were unable to see this from our location in the UK]

• This non-lucid dream was a very uplifting, vivid, detailed & involved dream & left me feeling 'energetically high' afterwards

Non-lucid dream
i was going on holiday with my children & parents to my favourite destination in Sussex, UK. My children were about 6 & 3yrs.

On arriving we appeared to be in like a holiday complex, with many other people around. My sister & grandparents were there too, as was an auntie. [these family members did holiday with us in this location in real life in the past]

i saw a work colleague / friend from my past who said he now lived in the holiday destination, i saw my psychiatrist there & also i met some younger people i remembered from my school days.

In the dream i was busy unpacking, then spending time with my children & family & interacting with lots of the other people around.

i was shopping in a jumble sale type event with my young son, i was buying clothes & toys for the children.......... i 'woke' & the dream ended

Date: 08/08/18

Time: approx. 9am

Becoming Lucid
i was standing in our garage, it was completely empty, when the metal garage door in-front of me fell off it's hinges leaving the garage open, then part of the side wall of the garage to the left of me also fell to the ground, i realised i was dreaming.

The atmosphere in-front of me felt spooky & menacing & it was dark, so i decided to go back the way i had come from, back towards my home.

Notes:

• the garage is actually 'jam-packed' full of junk

• the metal garage door is actually broke & is stuck in the 'shut' position

• We are now attempting to get our car road worthy again

• i have been watching a lot of 'Dead files' series, which may have contributed to the 'spooky' atmosphere experience

i then found myself walking through a type of outdoor market place, with many different types of stalls.

After the market, i found myself in open countryside, it was a sunny pleasant day & there were groups of people siting around. It seemed like some sort of park, where people had gone to visit for a day-out.

Notes

• it brought back the experience of having days out in the past, something i haven't done in years

I decided to see if i could change my location, & so i began to spin myself on the spot, i span fast for a short time, then slowly came to a stop.

At first i thought i had failed to change the location, thinking it was still exactly the same scenery.

it felt like the same location but now, there were a couple of un-saddled horses & the weather was instead cold & snowing.

Myself & another got on the horses, i was aware that i did not know which way to ride to reach a warmer climate & rode towards where some people were gathered to ask them.

I lost lucidity after this.

Date: 24/09/18

Time: approx. 10 am

Notes
i fell back into sleep after becoming lucid, so i have lost a lot of memory detail

Becoming Lucid
i do not remember the moment of moving from non-lucid to lucid dreaming, but i do remember realising i was lucid dreaming.

i had been inside an unfamiliar house/ home in my dream & continued to be so on gaining lucidity.

Lucid dream
I felt hungry & decided to go & see if i could find something nice to eat, i was in a kitchen that resembled my childhood home, but now the fridge was not in it's usual place.

Notes
i had eaten in lucid dreams a couple of times before, so i knew it could be done, but i was also aware that i often had little control of my environment & was mostly unable to manifest consciously.

Anyhow i decided to give it a go & intended on there being something sweet & sugary inside the as yet un-opened fridge.
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i opened the fridge & there was a large ball shaped cake, i bit into it with gusto & yep, it sure tasted yummy: choc. shell, cake & icecream in the middle, i ate some more until i felt satisfied, the cake also seemed to morph & reminded me of a large mint aero choc ball.

The rest of my time was spent searching rooms, i did think about spinning to change my location, but i was having a fun time exploring, so decided to continue as i was.

i do not remember much of what i saw, one room contained a large yellow blanket that was on the floor & the room had no real furniture, but had several random items sitting around.

In another room i tried to read a newspaper, at first i saw 888 & some pictures of people, but the images & writing morphed & became too difficult to make sense of.
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i do remember no longer being within the dream environment & everything was dark, no vision, but must of gone back to sleep rather than waking up.

Notes

• My daughter & i have moved from a vegetarian to vegan diet the last few months & i wonder if this is the cause of me craving cakes & sweet-stuff within the dream environment

• i recently saw some large round choc.-ball shaped desserts on a cake show that was on T.V.

• Our ferrets have a large yellow blanket

Number 888

Date: 19/11/18

Time: approx. 10am

Notes
Brief lucidity, with not much memory recall, i would probably not have bothered to write this up normally, but i found the lack of vision experience interesting.

Becoming Lucid
I found myself back in my childhood home & realised i was dreaming

It appeared to be night time as it was fairly dark & i decided to investigate my own & my sister's bedroom. As i moved towards my sister's side of the room, i began to loose vision, everything became blurry /cloudy,
i stated the command 'clear vision now' & slowly my vision came back, but it appeared as it does when using my 'pinhole glasses'

Notes
my eyesight has been deteriorating for a few years now, i use reading specs & also pinhole glasses to help. My experiences of deteriorating vision seemed to be what was being portrayed whilst in this lucid dream state

I was able to see the bedroom, but do not remember anything about the look of the room that stood out, it looked like how my sister's room had once looked.

On moving over to explore my part of the bedroom, & getting my full vision back, there was a double bed in the middle of the room & someone sleeping in it, it was my sister. She appeared to be talking very quietly in a half-sleep state, i lay on the bed next to her to try & understand what she was saying.

It appeared she thought i was her young daughter & was explaining something to her [reasons to why she had made some choice]

i got off the bed & opened the curtains to look through the window to see outside, it was fairly dark, but i could make out the layout of the garden & see the bushes & trees. This garden had lots more bushes & a fir tree too, which our back garden had never had in the past.

i looked away & then looked back again at the garden, it remained the same.

i told my half-asleep sister how different the garden was now.

i went out of the bedroom to go & explore some more,


..........i fell back into non-lucid dreaming

Date: 21/11/18

Time: 9am ish

Becoming Lucid
I was looking into a small oval-shaped mirror at my face when i realised i was dreaming.

I was inside a room that resembled both a static caravan & my childhood lounge, however the contents of the room i did not recognise.
i did notice that there was a green potted plant sitting on the lounge window sill.

i decided i would go outside & practice getting airbourne, so i dived through the glass pane of the large lounge window, it appeared to take me a few seconds to get free of the window, as i found a type of ceiling stretching out above, moving forwards with me, which i then had to make an effort to get away from.

Outside, i now found myself on the lawn in-front of the lounge window, it was daytime, but rather a dull day.

i began practicing getting airbourne, using one arm stretched out in superman style, i had to put quite alot of intent into it, to be able to reach much height.

i enjoyed the sensation of whooshing up at speed through the air.

i did this a few times, with varying success, when i rose into the air on one occasion i noticed in the distance the top part of a tall tower shaped building with a spike, the tower was brightly coloured with it's top & lower top part in 2 different shades [red & purple ?]

On another occasion i rose high enough to be amongst the clouds & i grabbed them & hung on for a while, they had substance to them.

Some family members were taking a dog for a walk, so i decided to join them. i saw a saddled horse below me & decided to get on the horse.

i realised that in physical life, my weight would be too much for an average horse, so i asked that this horse be strong enough to carry my weight without any problem, or that i become lighter. i think i became lighter, i felt slimmer, i felt comfortable now riding the horse.

We arrived at a beach, the tide was mostly in, i encouraged the horse to go faster & we galloped along the beach.

Notes
I had quite strong lucidity & this dream space seemed to last quite a long time, but unfortunately i did not want to end the experience early & also was too lazy to wake myself up properly once it did end, so i did not have complete or detailed memory recall in writing this up

Date: 27/11/18

Time: approx 9am

Notes
This dream experience felt like it lasted a long time, i did not stay awake after the dream ended & so have lost parts & also the order in which some of the experiences happened. And on waking, & recalling the dream, it now seemed to have lost most of its feeling of 'lucidity.'

Becoming Lucid
i was in my childhood garden, in the garden shed, with an old childhood friend [lets call her L.] the shed door was open & it was warm in the shed & the suns warmth shining through the open door was very pleasant to feel.


i experienced myself as being lucid at this time, but do not remember thinking it.

We were inside the bungalow now & my mother was with us in the dining room, i asked my friend if she knew how i could still visit my parents in their home, when they were no longer there. My mother replied that she & my father were not leaving their bungalow. i replied when you have 'passed' & are no longer here.

My friend did not seem to know & so i told her the answer was 'lucid dreaming'

Notes
There does appear to be some lack of logical lucidity whilst talking to my friend L. about lucid dreaming in-front of my deceased mother
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My friend & i then did some experiments to explore if we were seeing the same things as each other within the dream environment. There were some small plastic toys on the table, which i would hold up & ask my friend to describe what she saw, sometimes she was seeing the same item as me, other times she wasn't.
We did the same experiment the other way around with me guessing the item, this time a portion of fruit which i also tasted, ate.

.....'of course' i always got the correct answer. [....because i was seeing & tasting the fruit, i assume that my experience of this always ensured that my friend would have to agree with my answer]
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We were by some open doors & i could feel the cool breeze from the fresh air outside, i asked my friend if she was familiar with 'flying' & she said she wasn't, so we went outside to have a go.

Outside i met another old childhood friend from my teens years, she showed us how to get airbourne by shooting up quickly into the sky, passing through the clouds until we could no longer see her, when she came back down, she was holding a trophy.

i tried to get airbourne, but there appeared to be tree branches & telephone wires in my way, i managed to get off the ground a short distance & grabbed a metal bar with my hands that was above me, i hung on for a moment before dropping back down.

My friend L. did not want to try to get airbourne.
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We were back inside & waiting with others in a queue to go through a door / or enter a lift
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We were in my car & i was going to drive my friend home, i decided to drive my car like i was in a video game, speeding & driving through places other than the road, it was fun, i never crashed or hurt any others,
....but i was also aware of the advice to 'not to be reckless or course harm' during lucid dreaming.
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i told my friend L. on waking to remember her dreams, and to say affirmations on remembering her lucid dream as she went back to her body.

Date: 4th Feb 2919

Time: approx. 11.30am [after a lie-in]

[to be written up]

Afternoon nap: 1.50 pm -2.45 pm

non-lucid /nightmare-ish type dream

Invasion

spots / x's in sky, in rows, i wanted to ignore them, / it, others stood captivated / watching.......
yes. this was an invasion
we were being attacked / wiped out

the invasion being appeared as metal gold chain links with claws at ends

i was awoken with a 'start' by my daughter from within the dream space & hence the dream was magnified with intensity,

These types of invasion dreams i have once in a while, they do seem to be a re-occurring theme for me

6.25am; woke to the words 'what a horrible Journey'

....and i kinda of have to agree !

Date: 4/10/19

Time: Approx. 12 noon [i had gotten up briefly and then gone back to sleep]

Becoming lucid
I was trying to read a piece of paper, but the writing kept changing..... this brought me to lucidity & i realised i was dreaming. i was ready to explore.

In the room with me was my grandfather, grandmother & my sister.

My grandfather was standing up, he looked well, i went over to him and hugged him, appreciating the chance to see him again.

My sister was sitting down on the floor against the wall, she was younger in appearance, i hugged my sister.

My grandmother was also sitting down against the wall, she looked unwell & very frail. i hugged my grandmother and decided to pick her up and take her flying with me.

i carried my grandmother in my arms to a large door-sized open window and launched us out. Instead of flying we fell. My position was head first loosely crouched and still holding my grandmother in my arms.

I wasn't afraid and the falling sensation was pleasant, the air battered us and the sound of the air battering against us was loud. It felt very similar to flying.

i told my grandmother it was just like flying

it was dark.

Eventually the falling sensation began to slow down before it stopped completely. We were still floating in the air but to the side of us there was a ledge and a wall.

I flew towards the wall and stood on the ledge.

i decided to spin through the wall.

It took 2 attempts, as the resistance from the wall was quite strong & i had to put in a lot of effort to push through the resistance and get free from the hold of the wall.

On the other side of the wall it was a strange reality, it was black and white, there were 2 dimensional trees in leaf.

I think the strangeness of what i was seeing caused me to loose vision, because everything went black and i could no longer see....... the experience ended.

Notes

• i have had some brief lucid dreams that i failed to record & write up here since my last lucid dream post.
• My grandfather & grandmother have been deceased for 20 yrs now, but my sister is still physically living
• my grandmother never became frail & weak before 'passing' as she died suddenly
• i usually find i cannot fly well if i try to carry somebody else along with me
• I have never sky dived in this life, so found my experience with falling quite 'amazing'
• i think i got confused when i tried to pass through the wall, spinning is for changing locations, not necessarily for 'passing through' perceived physical objects

Added Note:
Just found out now, that today in the UK it is 'Grandparents day'

Date: 6 /10/19

Time: approx. 10.30am

Non-lucid dream:

Timelines and living parents
I was with my mother who was healthy and alive. She was going back to work to earn money to save up for herself and my father to have a holiday abroad.

i was explaining to my mother that there are different timelines, since in another timeline she had passed away from cancer.

In this 'timeline' [reality] my mother was younger and healthy and my father was still alive and healthy too. It was real nice.

Notes

• my parents passed away 20 yrs ago
• i often have dreams where my parents are alive and well, and get confused in my non-lucid dreams because i also carry the memory of them 'passing' & physically living without them
• my parents only ever holidayed abroad before having their children
• i have recently watched 2 films that had 'timeline' themes

Date: 12/10/19

Time: 10.30am

Becoming Lucid
I opened the back door to go into the garden, it was quite windy, the first thing i saw was a large bright red rose bush and the garden was brimming with bright colourful flowers and plants, the colours were stunningly vivid.

I realised that this was not my garden, but my childhood home garden [my parent's home] ....... I knew i was dreaming..... i was happy.

Lucid dream
It had obviously been raining earlier as the driveway was still wet, i was wearing fluffy/comfy socks so was unsure of how to proceed. I decided to keep my socks on and walk on the concrete driveway to see what i would experience.

i did think that i might not feel the effects of the wet ground through my socks if i 'willed' my feet to remain dry. As i walked on the wet concrete my socks began to get wet and i could feel the coldness & wet sensation, but it was less bothersome than it would normally feel in waking physical reality.

When i got further down the driveway, i was unsure of where i wanted to go, or what i wanted to do.

i thought i could, continue to explore outside, or go back inside to explore or try flying.

i decided to explore the garden some more first.

When i got to the wrought iron gates i decided to test my strength and pushed up on my arms to vault over the gates. it was good to have the ability to hold my own weight with my arm strength again.

Now outside of the garden and on the public path i then did a forward walk-over and some forward summersaults. i enjoyed the sensation of the summersaults and was engaging deeply with how the experience felt. This seemed to cause me to get stuck upside down in the sommersault mode for several seconds.
i 'willed' myself out of the stuck experience and decided to go back into the garden to explore some more.

There was now a large pine tree sitting on the driveway, it was decorated with large red bauble-type objects. It had a thick brown tree trunk and the branches were fairly sparse, i decide to try and climb the tree.

As i climbed the tree trunk bent and broke, it seemed this tree was an artificial tree that could not support my weight.

Just then my mother came out of the back door, i thought i would get told off for breaking the tree, but she didn't seem to notice myself or the tree. She was busy attending to the bird table.

i went over to her and she looked very much younger than i remembered, the age she would of been when i was a toddler.

She said something about a freezer and a holiday, i explained i didn't understand and she pointed up the road as she talked again. i looked up the road but didn't understand what she meant.

I asked my mother if i could still visit her after she had died, just like i was visiting her now and she replied 'yes, i could'

i told my mother i did not want to live without her in my life and she replied she was 'sorry' .....we hugged.

i began to cry and got really upset, this upset was soo strong i decided to 'pull myself' out of the dream so i would not have to linger in the overwhelming grief for any longer.

i woke up, still feeling the physical sensation of the grief in my body, which took a couple of minutes to clear.


Notes

• i had planned to do some gardening when i awoke in the morning, i thought i was going outside to do this gardening when i realised i was not awake but 'dreaming'
• My parents garden never had a large red rose bush that i remember and the dream garden was filled with alot more colourful flowers too.
• i think the effect of having wet socks was less bothersome than 'normal' because i had already thought about attempting to experience dry feet instead of wet feet and this then had some slight impact on the outcome of my experience.
• the front garden where i was exploring was where i used to practice gymnastics as a child and think this triggered my gymnastic actions during the dream.
• i never did mange to forward summersault un-aided in this physical life
• it was the anniversary of my mother's death 2 days ago, she 'passed' 18 yrs ago

Date: 21/10/19

Time: 7.30 am

Non-lucid dream, uplifting and high energy

Vivid dream about hosting a party for friends and family. Providing food, drink, music, videos, fun dressing up outfits.

i had not got everything organised, prepared /set-up - so i was having to complete the organisation & preparation tasks there and then 'on-the-spot'.

Some nights ago, i had a very 'vivid' upbeat impactful non-lucid dream

Competitions where each team could rate themselves:

Rating choices:

Singing from the Tree-Tops


Don't hold your breath

VENT, VENT, VENT,

I won the 'Best INNOVATION' competition .... was 'thrilled'

And the dream featured an orangey-brown bobble drinking glass which i made & gave to my mother as a gift

i will draw it sometime & add

Date: 24/05/2020

Time: approx. 11.30 am
[having woken & gone back to sleep many times]

Becoming Lucid
i was walking back along a path to the side of my home after going out to see what the drilling machine was doing that had just past my home...... i became lucid..... & got that familiar & happy feeling i get when i realise i am awake in a dream


i began to lose vision, getting flashes & only 'bits & pieces' of images.
i stated the words 'clear vision now' about 3 times & then i was able to see again

Lucid dream
i was carrying a white piece of paper in my hand & it had the number 4 & other symbols written on it in red. i began to try & remember the symbols, but after taking each symbol in to memorise it, next time i looked the symbol had changed again.


The only symbol i remember on waking was a shape / symbol that resembled a wide, squashed number 8.


i decided not to continue to focus with the symbols on the paper & began to look around.
i saw some street names, but these too were ever changing, or even incomprehensible to begin with
One street name i was able to remember was called 'Well Way' which later morphed into 'Well Wer'


I came upon a building like structure / similar to an indoor market place. There were other people milling around & i wondered if i should approach any of them, this then led me to begin to think about what i wanted to do within my dream environment.

i decided i would just continue to explore my surroundings, as i wanted to hold on to my dream experience for as long as possible & thought if i tried something adventurous that it just might wake me up & cause me to lose my experience sooner than i otherwise would.


So i went into the building & could see an attraction advertised on a board / sign, it was for a theme park ride, it looked rather extreme [fast, up high & twisting] i decided that was not what i wanted to do even in the dream reality, so i began to walk out of the building...


....and at that point a loud disturbing bird noise from outside woke me up, as i had my window open & so the experience ended



Notes
In physical reality there is no path along the side of my home, but in my dream reality it seemed like a road i am familiar with was now positioned there.


i have been intending to have lucid dreams again just lately & usually ask my spirit team at bedtime before i sleep to help me achieve this

Date: 6/06/20

Time: approx. 9.30 am

i was standing in a queue waiting my turn to receive the instructions for my 'mission', i was not able to remember all the information given to me by the woman at the desk, accept that i was given a hacking mission.
i asked the woman for the name of the place, since i was unable to remember any of the information she had already given me & she told me it was called 'Sha'at' or Shyat

i wandered away from the desk & there were many kiosks & buildings that i began to look at to try & find the name of the place i was to go to. [unfortunately i do not remember all the details of the buildings & kiosks]

i was carrying my young daughter with my left arm

It seemed i was unable to find the location i needed & thought perhaps i should change location & go & do something else instead [this thinking showed that i knew i was in the dream-state]


I do not remember any more.......think i fell back to sleep


Notes
at the start of the dream, i was under the impression that we were all going to different locations within the galaxy. eg. different worlds / planets

i think i was lucid from the beginning of the dream, but was swept along with the dream- plot & didn't think about having the option to change anything until near the very end of the experience

at the start it appeared more as a serious mission, but by the end, it had changed to what i felt was just a game done for fun

Date: 8/09/20

Time approx. 9.30am

A brief 'phasing' experience - school corridor

i had woken up & decided to go back to sleep for a little while longer, on closing my eyes i could see the usual colours moving & changing behind my closed eye-lids. On this occasion the colours were purple & turquoise in an oval shape that faded in & out.

Then there was a scene of a long corridor, within seconds i was now standing within the scene & there appeared to be a school child to the side of me, & other school children within the corridor further on. i realised this must be a school corridor, & that i was now 'lucid dreaming'. I begin to think if i should approach & speak to the school child or what i should do next

i do not remember anything else, so i either must of lost lucidity or i woke up from the scene, but fell back to sleep immediately.

Date: 17/09/20

Time: approx. 10.30 am

Becoming Lucid
It was dark [night-time] & i was walking along the road around the outside of my garden boundary hedge

Everything looked as it normally would in 'physical reality'

As i came around the corner i saw a white 'For Sale' sign behind a moped, then as i got closer the moped changed to became the bottom half of a mobility scooter


Notes
what's interesting here is that there was a reality fluctuation that my dreaming mind was unphased by


As i was crouching down to read the sign i became completely weak & sleepy & felt too exhausted to move and so i sort of slumped down onto the road

i was worried that the neighbours who had put the 'For Sale' sign up might be needing to go out in their car & would then see me sitting on the road not moving

i fell asleep [in the dream]

After what seemed like a few mins. i woke up [in the dream] & i was able to move again & so i stood up.

My vision seemed a bit skewed & it was at this point i realised i was dreaming.


Lucid dream
i said 'clear sight now' & my vision came back & i could see again

i continued walking in the same direction around the outside of my garden boundary hedge towards my front garden gate.

i heard voices & it sounded like someone was about to leave one of the neighbouring gardens & walk along the path towards me.
i thought about whether i should meet & speak to this person or not


Notes
i think at this point i was getting info. back from my physical body in my bed & knowing that i was in my bedtime attire made me feel vulnerable


Fearing that i might be dressed in my current 'physical reality' bedtime attire i decided to avoid the person coming towards me & got out of sight by hiding inside my front garden by the front gate & hedge.


Notes
i never thought to check what i was wearing whilst in the dream, though i have done this in past times of dreaming


i peeped out to see this person passing, it was a man & he was carrying a small, golden coloured spaniel type dog in his arms

As he reached the area in front of my garden gate he stopped, he put the dog down on the grass, the dog was not moving

i then saw that the man had something resembling soil in his hands....
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i woke up


Notes
i am unsure if the dog was alive or not & wonder if the soil i saw was an indication that the man was going to bury the dog

Notes
During the morning on waking up, before falling back into sleep i had reminded myself that i was going back to sleep & the next experiences i would have would be in the dream-state, this may of been the reason that i was able to become lucid on this occasion

Notes
i wonder if falling asleep within the dream was necessary to enable me to gain enough energy to be able to become lucid during this experience

Added Note
On re-reading this dream post, i now remember that when i arrived at my garden gate, for an instant i thought about shooting up into the air in 'superman mode', but i found myself feeling very restricted by 'physical reality laws' & it seemed 'impossible' to do at that time

Been having nightmares, especially about imminent death, experiences of false wakenings up to 7or 8 in a row, experiences of being lost in the ether, experiences of spinning in the dark & being dead/ lost...
experiencing on waking that feeling that i am dead, not in the same reality, not in the same reality i left
waking to a 'for-wren' place, not recognising reality as somewhere i 'know'

quite disturbing... sometimes takes me half an hour to move back into a 'safe' 'normal ' reality space ... bit frightening...
i have to do physicl stuff lightly & try & stay without thoughts or mental exploring . no emotion responses or reactions.... become 'normal' ie. be 'shutdown' in physical action

very difficult to 'get to' ... from that 'terror-space'


thanks Robert, thanks admins, mods & all forum members , thankyou, much luv , many thanks x x x

Recently I had the same issues... not sure why. I recommend getting a strong balance, staying grouned - down-to-earth, not to think overly (as it may take you out of balance), take some herbs, and diet that decreases vata and increases kapha, according to Ayurveda.

Update: forgot that without high vibrations and concenrtating on higher thoughts, you may be in the 'hands' of beings having low vibrations. This often leads do nightmares and horrible thoughts, suggestions from the low beings.

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Originally Posted by Antares

Recently I had the same issues... not sure why. I recommend getting a strong balance, staying grouned - down-to-earth, not to think overly (as it may take you out of balance), take some herbs, and diet that decreases vata and increases kapha, according to Ayurveda.

Update: forgot that without high vibrations and concenrtating on higher thoughts, you may be in the 'hands' of beings having low vibrations. This often leads do nightmares and horrible thoughts, suggestions from the low beings.

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thanks Antares i have a blk house fly friend / lover & companion with me just now.... they are so subtle energetic energised... they are amazing xxx

I must of entered a new subtle energetic phase not reached before, as over the last few days i have been having many memories of past 'non lucid' dreams come to me, all based around moving home, finding somewhere else to live, or just out & about exploring places.

i have moved into a new phase of getting our home right.

We have had 2 family members 'pass' over the last 3 weeks, my ex. partner, who had been staying with us again in the family home since Aug 2019 & also our polecat ferret Kenji

16th june 2021 a dear 'human' family member

5th July 2021 - a beautiful 'animal soul' family member

The impacts are intense & life changing....

We are now down to a lone:

male ferret
male dog
a mother
a daughter

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So i entered a Wholesoulwork processing phase the day after my ex-partner 'passed' in our home.

Yesterday i had a visit from my eldest niece to help me sort out finances / document type issues / needs.

After she left i was able to trim a good portion of our boundary hedge which needed doing & then had my first night of almost normal sleep / rest. [5 hrs] since the processing phase began 4 weeks ago

i slept in 2 or 3 times this morning...... so am now entering the 'can't stay awake phase'

But at least the 'demanding' phase is beginning to come to an end.

i have managed to get more organised & functional this time in many areas that i have not been able to previously....

so it's looking like my home & garden may very well be 'right' by the end of this year :heart: