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IA56
Then my sister asked me why I did not be anymore with the lesbian women I used to be with...I said that the circumstanses had changed.....
Something wonderful has happened in the dreamer's life, a new acquisition on the soul level, a prized treasure she has sought in unnatural places for far too long. This is why she does not seek the unnatural any more, because the treaswre now resides in its natural place, where the dreamer prefers it te be. Her satisfaction may now achieve a new depth, when she knows her acquisition consciously.
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Thank you Pneumismatic....Can you give me another word for "treaswre"..I do not find in my dictionary this word and I want to understand the meaning of the word, it is importent to me....thank you.
Last night I did dream that me and my bf where in pure joy...we where flirting around and enjoying each others company with much joy and laughter and it was much more space than it ever have bean in my dream and pure joy and happiness.....so nice and wonderful...so much love and pure joy....I love it.
First dream ever to only joy and happiness....other wise my dream always has a message of some kind...to understand and solve some issue...but now only to enjoyment and happiness and lightness....so wonderful!!
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Treasure, tesoro
Schatz in German
Schat in Dutch
Blago in Croatian
Poklad in czech
I'm avoiding real work. :)
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CFTraveler
Treasure, tesoro
Schatz in German
Schat in Dutch
Blago in Croatian
Poklad in czech
I'm avoiding real work. :)
Ahahaha..:-)...Thank you CFT
Ah...Treasure...it was only spelling lapsus.....
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Last night I did dream that I was floating abow and looking down to a forest pathway, on it was walking a women with a disobedian dog, she held him in a short leash and did almost dragg the dog with her, behind her a women on a horse, she had to hold back the horse not to panick because of the disobedian dog who now was barking like a mad.....they where in company so the lady on the horse did be a bit behind and now I only could hear the dog barking and they dissapered from my view, now on the pathway was coming a black panter and it did allert and stopping when hearing the dog barking and with this black panter was a horse with a human head...they where in company with each others....now the human-horse allerted also and they did agrea to go back on the direction they did come from....Suddenly a wild dog come from no where and did am for the barking dog...I can imagen what happened when the wild dog did reach the barking dog....uh.
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Last night I did dream about Justin Timberlake he did say to his girlfriend to go and he would stay until police arives...She did climb over the fense and I could see broaken glass all over the place....
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Last night I did hear in my dream....Go to the source of thing´s....to the initial.
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Yesterday I did dream that a boy 9 yrs old was jumping on my back and saying...father has come home...father has come back home....I did not even in the dream know who the boy was so I felt...okay...but what has it to do with me...and I went on and now I entered a room with many people and I knew it was not my folks but I did socialise a while and went on...now I did enter a room with my folks and they where critizising other´s I did not feel good at all so I went away and now going to my room but my bed was gone, it was like a hospital or rest home....I did find a nurse and asked where my bed was taken, she said I was moved from this place to some where else..now she wanted me to puch some code into a like pay maschine...she gave me the code...9547...when I puched the 4 she said there is two of them so I can choose whom ever of them...I noticed I did choose the for with a red 9 on too and the other 4 was only plane 4 on it...so now I started to think what differense was between the two 4 but did not get to know the difference if there was any, but little bit worried feeling did enter me me maybe doing something wrong when I did pusch the code so quick withhout asking more instructions or directions....
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Last night I did have comfusing dreams again....I was invited or more forced to a party, I did not bring any gift with me because I did not have any money to buy anything with, my mother asked me if I did have a gift to give, No I said, you know I do not have money to buy anything with, she went mad and started to be nasty to my, so my cousin T did come to my rescue, she gave me a purse grean/blueis and I asked her if I shall give this to her emty?? Now some one else come and gave me money to put into the purse, one had already give a gift to the birthday person, but when they did understand that my gift was not ready the party did take a break and I had opportunity to go and wrap the gift into a box or gift papir....
In this episode I was carrying around a boy child, I did almoste drop him because he was so big and heavy...I looked at the child and asked if he wanted me to go and give him back to his mother, yes he said and was so happy with twinkling eyes of happiness...I went to the boy´s mother and dropped off him into her lap...she was not at all happy and I was feeling that I can´t carry hers resposibillity any more....
In this episode I did hug a very big child...almoste fat...and I said...wow so big you have become....
In this episode I was meant to take the elevator and I did open the door but it went up without me, so I took the staires down...
There was so much more but all is so comfusing so I do not know how to dress it in word´s..
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Last night I did dream that what ever viecko I did manuevre..a car or a bicycle ...I did not have any breaks ...but no accident did happend I did always manage to handle the viecko some how....A women did ask me when I was going back to japan...I said ...I live in kungsör....funny!!
I got a thougt..to ask...how important is it to tell the dream with all it´s part´s??
I did not be so precis with the part of the women asking when I will return to Japan...she had an old women in her company, and was going to ask if I could take her with me ...she was living in Japan...I was total aware in the dream where I live...in Kungsör....but now when thinking about this...the Japan is something inside of me, or ??...Please help me here how to think??
I felt big surprise in the dream that she asked...When are you going back to Japan??...
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Last night I dreamt that I was travelling on a train, when it entered a station I went out for little fresh air, the train started to move and had locked the door´s so I couldn´t enter back to train...I run and held the door handle but had to let it go when it speeded up, I was shocked and did spot a station master and he did understand my situation at once and said..follow me..we went to another trckl and he was talking to me...you take the next train and it will take you to next station...your train have a longer hold there so you will catch it up ....suddenly before we where to the next track he found cigarettes and started to smoke??
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IA56
Last night I did dream that what ever vechile I did manuevre..a car or a bicycle ...I did not have any breaks ...but no accident did happend I did always manage to handle the vechile some how....A women did ask me when I was going back to japan...I said ...I live in kungsör....funny!!
I got a thougt..to ask...how important is it to tell the dream with all it´s part´s??
I did not be so precis with the part of the women asking when I will return to Japan...she had an old women in her company, and was going to ask if I could take her with me ...she was living in Japan...I was total aware in the dream where I live...in Kungsör....but now when thinking about this...the Japan is something inside of me, or ??...Please help me here how to think??
I felt big surprise in the dream that she asked...When are you going back to Japan??...
I wonder if it is importent to always write all detals in a dream and every feeling??
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I think that it is, if you can recall it. If you don't, no worries- but if you have a dream in which your emotional content is very pronounced, I think it's for a reason and should be noted. Just my opinion.
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Thank´s CFT.
Last night I dreamt that I was talking in phone with my bf, he asked me where I have the dog.(I was taking care of one friends dog).. I said ...in the cage...my bf said...why do you not have him loose daytime?..I said...because I did not get any instructions what food I shall give the dog..?..I said that I will feed the dog with same food as I am going to eat.
In this episode I was with my class mate´s and making food for everyone...my son and his ex. gf was also there, I made many sandwisch so they also could eat....one class mate said she had own food...Tornedalingar..I said...no worries..then I will eat your portion tomorrow for lunch....I looked out and saw a women eating ris porrige with a wooden spoone...she was also my class mate and I was thinking why she was not with us...Then I over heard my teacher talking to another teacher about our trip to Prag....the other teacher asked how it went...my teacher said...it was a real success because everyone was partisipating all the time...oh said the other teacher...then I will take my class also to Prag when it went so well....
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Last night or this morning I had this dream....My ex colleague and my friend L was going out to eat. She said we shall climb up the building front to the restaurant...she did disapered very quickly and I was standing on the ground and looking up and did not manage to follow her..I looked at left side and saw staires so I thought to take them but then I did see that that building did not have any contact with the restaurant where my friend disapered into.....I did go up the staires and saw a balcony door open, it was to a kitchen...I apologised that I am bargin in from their balcony, I did put my hand on my chest and said...now my heart hurt´s...can you please let me eat at your place...she looked at me and gave me a plate with food...I said...I am not asking food for free I will pay...then I tried to joke up the situation when I did drop some food on a dessert plate, I did wipe it away and joked...now I have to eat this too, but that was too much for her, she looked at me and did not agree with me, that I would have the dessert too, I felt awful...I took my phone to call L to tell her I am here at this place, but now I noticed that I have taken my son´s phone by misstake, we have very similar phone´s..but the background was like in my bf phone....now suddenly my son was also to this place and I asked him for help, I was not able to manuevre his phone, but he did not give me any help, I felt horrible and stressed..The whole dream was so unbelieveble and difficult to believe in...that I would handle the situation like I did in the dream...This make´s me compelled and thinking what was the point of this dream...I really do not get it at all.
Am I this stupid in solving and making things right??...Unbelieveble!!!
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Last night I did dream that I was in some kind of wilderness...the scen did repeat it self until I did understand the inviroment, I was with my bf when we here some one calling...halloo...halloooo....I said to my bf that we are not going to answere the call, so I made my bf to understand that we have to be very carefull, I found a cave like passage and we went throug it....I do not remember more of the dream...what is new for me is that I did follow the feeling of being alerted and understand the importans of security and be wary and catoiusness..
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Last night I did dream that I was walking from my bf appartment and looking around and noticed that on the buldings front they had digital bilboard´s where you could see if there was wacansy apartment´s...and I noticed the house me and my bf wanted to live in...I started to run home to him to tell that we have to hurry and aply the apartment now.....
In this episod I was traveling with a camping chair with high full back support, it was light and just perfect for me to carry around, I could rest when I needed...just perfect...
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During my nap today I did dream that my sister did embrace me and said...I love you...I did hug back in very surprising feeling and said...I love you too....
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I did dream last night that I was sitting in a bus, my phone rang and I answered it...I hear a male voice asking if I am IA who have applyed work in his company...Yes I said..and I remembered ....suddenly he was on the bus too, he was a doctor and owner of the company...we went out from the bus to his home where he was going to have the intervieuw...we entered his appartment and I suddenly asked for his doctor´s id....he was not a doctor at all, he was going to fool me...so I ran out and I was in fear but not panic...I saw a school yard and went there for it was much pupils and teacher´s, I did explaine my situation and a teacher said I could go with the school bus, I looked at the school bus and I saw to the left my own buss stop so I was thinking what was best to take, so if I go with the school bus then I have to walk a long way to my home...so I decided to take my own bus....
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Last night I had several dream´s...I was going to sing a finnish tango...Täysi kuu....Full moon...I asked the man who played the piano if they had lyrics, I can´t this song ...so I went away to google the lyrics...but everytime come out something else but not the tango lyrics....and I was wondering why, but did not solve the problem...(Am I entering new areas, for me unknown?)
In this episod I was petting a black dog...the dog was lying on the side and enjoying my petting but suddenly it did start to wine in fear and stand up and ran away...I was surprised and thinkig what the heck is the matter with the dog, then I looked up and saw a man with a black big beard...and he had frighten the dog...(It was nice not to feel fear at all)
In this episod I was looking out of the window and saw a view of a pathway in a forest and a elderly coupple was stick walking on it....up the hill I saw a pack of wolf´s and the couple was not aware of what was in front of them...I was in total panic...what to do...but there was nothing to do but to hope for the best...and the wolf pack did attack the coupple and I couldn´t look...but next time I looked up I saw the coupple running with their sticks up in air...and they had escaped the wolf pack...thank god I said...and now I started to think how on earth did this happend, the pack was huge...did they hit with the stick over the wolf´s noses...I did not get to know...but happy I was they had survived...but suddenly again the pack returned and attacked them again..now I closed my eyes...and was praying for help...and next time I opened my eyes the pack had changed to a pack of runners who where jogging in the pathway...phiuh...saved again :-)..(Nice feeling all did end up good.)
In this episod I was talking to a women who was standing on a balcony...ther daughter did sleep under the balcony in her bed, and their dog was always on the yard but now was dissapered...so I asked the women where their dog was, if it had run away, No she said...he is not far away as long as the daughter is at home.
In this episod I did see long stick´s with code´s on...I could read them...it said...this man has murded a person....and I asked what is standing on my stick...but she did not want to revele it to me...she held a lamp on her hand´s and asked me if the lamp was mine...No I said...it must be someone who is not longer here...this place was like a resting home...so I said to her...I think you can have the lamp...you are worth it....and she was happy and she took the lamp.
I am still thinking of the dream with the lyrics...that I did not manage to get it out of the computor...can this mean that I am serching in wrong place for my answere´s??
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Last night I dreamt that I was harrased by a man ...a big man...but in the end my bf did come and get me...and when we went away I turned back to the man and said...We are not ever more to meet each other´s...it was winter and I felt relieved.
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Last night I did dream that I was travelling some where, I had my suitcase packed and ready but I was carrying some item´s in my hand´s and the person I was in company with said...why do you not put the itme´s in a bag, and we started to serch for a bag and we found it and I did get my hand´s free, I asked what time is it...and he/she said...one 0´clock....oh I said now I am late and my vehicle has left already...so I had to posponde my travelling to next day....the next day arrived and now my suitcase was gone, and it took too long time again and I was not able to travel today eighder...I felt huge stress almost that I was not able to be in my skin....
In this episode I was looking at a person and it´s development, I could see when the person did get to know her abillity and where in the development she was...I felt sorry for her when she did notice that she was not best in the world as she had thought to be, and she did notice that she was not even mediockre .....I could translate this knowledge to my own situation and did get to solve my inner stress about why I do not get any time ore strength in me to practis MAP as I want...because of the inner issues and the focus is in the unconsiusness are taking my strength and power...but now when I could translate this knowledge I know what area´s I have to work with...or that when I now know I can rest and feel some relief to get away the inner stress what I have bean living with so long...what my unconsiusness does put me through....I am sorry not to be able to dress in word´s better it is of big value to me to understand this...even I can know that to know and to put in practis is 2 different thing´s,....
I feel more relaxed now then ever.
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Last night I was in my dream on a wolf hunting class??
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Ah last night I had so wonderful dream...haha....my sisters mother in law she is not longer with us here on earth....she showed me some wonderful braclases....I love juvelery....haha....no hunting...no hard core training...only lovely juvelery looking....thank you!!
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I do not know what or where I was last night, but the group I was in was wonderful, so fantastic people, I do only have images of faces and the feeling in my whole essence, so nice, I felt at home.
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I have a question:
What is happening when I now lately do not remember my dream´s, but, I have registred like a milli sec threat´s or influences can be brainwashing too...I know I was brainwashed in 1980-81...is this coming to consiusness now and can it be me starting to remember what has bean as a black hole until now??...Can it be this starting to come to surface??
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Last night I did dream that I was in a waiting hall/room...I noticed an old women who was eating from the plaine table, no plate no nothing, the food was dropped on the table, and she had spread it out and now was not finding it so I first looked if anyone else will help her, no one did so I went to her and gathered her food near her so she could eat it....now I noticed a little girl in pyjamas..she was all alone....I started to ask people if anyone did know her, no one did....I was following her doings and it get late so I had to take her with me...when we did come to my place I noticed her to have dipers-knickers...I was talking to her and telling her that we have to take them off and see if she is clean....and omg.....I have never seen so much poop....I was not able to put all in the toilet it fell on the floor and made a real mess....omg.....now I had to make her so secure that I could wash her...and I was talking all the time what we had to do...and she was co-opereating with me...thank god....I am exhausted still from this dream....huh!!
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Last night I did have this senario....I was looking at a person sleeping in a lounge chair (the sleeping person did not wake up nor did it show any sighns of hurt or anything bad feelings?)...a dark silhuett of a man had cut the sleeping persons like a + with the center at the stomace (stomace was swollen at the +)...vibrating his hands into the flesch and making it to loosen from the bones...first I did not believe what I did see, I did very much doubt my eyes.....it continued and I could see the flesch loosening more and more from the bones and now it was loos up to the armpit from the chest...to the right side....he was going to loosen the flesch at all 4 corners but I couldn´t continue to look...compelled I went away....I did see on the background several doing the same thing ...so it was like this dimensions doings...
Please give me some direction for my thought.....
Litterally scracthed down to the bones....is it for me need really go deeper down ...to the bones...or to the fundation in me??
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Last night I was to a school dining-room....there was several disches....I took first a disch with beans...then I noticed other disches more delisious and did change my mind.....it was little bit confusing so I went to another place as I knew they have also always deserts...and when I entered that dining-room the lady who was working there said...today we have ice-cream...and smiled...I looked and only one deep plate was left so I did think...well I take it and put some ice-cream in it...them the lady was going to wash the floor by casting a lot of water on the floor and to scrubb it ...I said...wait...are you not going to take out the ragg-carpet??..No she said...it does not matter...but I did think it mattered for to do a good job...so I took it out and I did never get to eat that ice-cream at all...:-)
So...learning to clean my inner??...and take out all filth??....
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I had just this dream and I did become so awake so I got up to write it down here....I was walking into a forest it was like a korridore, hight trees on both sides...it was dark and on the distance I see a dark figure walking towards me, I can´t tell if it is a male or female, so I turn around and start to go back, feeling fear and now I almost run, now I notice that the ground is light grey almost white gravel....when I come out of the woods I am like on a small hill, the grass is very green, and looking down to a valley like with small houses and nice gardens...now I see who was coming on the pathway the dark figure, it was a women, and it is now bright day light, I shout to her and apologises for being afraid of her, she said it is okay, and now I could follow her into her house with my awarness but still standing on the hill whith my body...in the house was her parents...the father had beigisch long trousers and I could see that he had turkoish under pants...I was thinking that was he not aware of how sharp the turkoisch colore was appering through the beigisch trousers...mother was very ordinary nothing did stick out ....almost grey.
I must add that I did not see the parents faces...only from the chest down...and I now know it is this womens earthly parents...but I did not get to know who they are really...you know...in their essence....so I am sure it was showd this way to me...because I have this divider metchaphore....head is in infinity...and the body in duality...representing this difference...and off course if I understand in infinity there is no form...and therefore no identification as here in duality...a face...in infintiy is other things what I do not know how to express.
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When I went back in bed I continued to have several dreams...here goes.....I was going with my bf to a hotel, and I thought we just go out to eat, suddenly in the corridore an old friend (he did belong to some male society like odd fellowss...or..skull and bones)....to my bf come...naked...direct from the sauna...and I schreamd loud...iiiiiik....but he said and I knew that he will kidnap my bf..he put a belt around my bf right biceps....(I do not know if this was a set up so my bf could go out for a drink with his male friends)...so I was thinking what shall I now do...I was not dressed for to go out to dance..(here I felt jellosy and to go out dancing might trigger my bf jellosy)...and now a women, I guess a secretary to one of the men who now come to his hotel-room to get something...the women asked...what shall we do with the "princess"..shall we send her home..and I did feel it was ironically said..so....I did go away to my room..feeling I am in charge and not to be send away by someothers whom I do not even know....my room was some staires up...now I was passed by a little girl she had a teat in her mouth...I asked where she was going...to my granny she said...and I noticed her having the room to the left of mine...now a man appered....and standing and I do not understand why...he was dressed like a farmer up and down like a rich man like a big leader with fansy trousors.....
I was talking with my bf the next morning...thelepathly...and I was trying to understand or to nicely ask..how his evening had bean...how much drinks he had...etc....so he said...off course when you take one drink you take another...but he did not in any straight way tell me...I had to dragg it out of him...I did not feel good doing this...second grade inguiry...
In this episod I was in an inviroment where a horse was so big...giantic...and I was so little...almoste like a graine...and the horse did very gently smell me...and his mule was so soft...I was amazed so big and so gentle...my fear went away and I felt so protected.
In this episod I did laugh out loud and did awake me to be aware of my laughter....in the dream my physical arms was paralyzed...but my energy arms was functioning just perfectly...so I said..I will do the washing up...and I got these surprised faces...now I laugh because they did not know that it was possible but I knew...
In this episode I was out and it was winter...a whole kindergarden class wanted to come and talk to me...one little girl did come to my lap and wanted to be held...and I was talking to all of them..all wanted in different way to have my attention..one little girl did want me to warm her hand..it was cold and wet so I asked...did you fall down..yes she said...oh my...I said..and comforted her...then one girl wanted me to put her glove on...and it was tooo big..but I did put it on...better than nothing...now the class was going away...and 2 girls said and reveled that they are not supposed to tell me...but everyone does know me...like I was some kind of celebrity??..I tried to understand how that was possible..but did not figure out...
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Last night I did awake abrutly in my dream when hearing someone putting a key to my apparment door and the word RELIGION was expressed very clearly and high....I did think...Who has key to my apparment because my bf was sleeping becides me and he is the only one with key to my appartment.
The ONE who can have my key is my higher self and God :-) right??
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So you have connected the words "religion" and "key", huh? I find this interesting. I recommend you read "The Golden Key" (may be by Butterworth or Fox, I don't remember, but you can find it on the internet for free, in English. I don't know how it's been translated.
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I did google the golden key by Buttworth and Fox...It seamed to be a comunity where you can send your prayres or wishes and they do send a prayre back what you can use, is this right on what you recomended me to read??
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I did google the golden key by Buttworth and Fox...It seamed to be a comunity where you can send your prayres or wishes and they do send a prayre back what you can use, is this right on what you recomended me to read??
It's a book written by Emmet Fox.
Here's a pdf link:
http://www.success-products.com/dwl/goldenkey.pdf
It's used by many 'New Thought' churches, and it is a small religious tract. It's not necessarily anything 'new' to you, but given the contents of your dream, I thought it may have been pointing you to it.
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It's a book written by Emmet Fox.
Here's a pdf link:
http://www.success-products.com/dwl/goldenkey.pdf
It's used by many 'New Thought' churches, and it is a small religious tract. It's not necessarily anything 'new' to you, but given the contents of your dream, I thought it may have been pointing you to it.
Thank you again CFT. I have prÃ♥nted out the essay and I will read it and comment on it later, thank´s...As I feel spontanious without even reading it that I know all about this but have forgotten and had to be re-minded :-)
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Yes CFT, I know all about this Golden Key, off course. And I have forgotten also to use WRAPPING what Robert Bruce have taught ....to relese my pain...I have only done raising energy through my feet and hand´s, but to wrap and to tourch and to pour the strengthen the place where the pain is...my pain is coming from the bones what is damaged in several way,s...musculus what is tensed is making all injuries in my body to acke, but if I remember to both relax in my body more often and to wrap with healing bandage ...that is to do my part....when I forgot to do my part then the pain is there to re-mind me...I think I will remember this now...Thank you CFT again.....to give me back my Golden Key :-) then God can be present all the time and not me exluding IT out.....Big Thank YOU!!
Religion is telling the good rules to get your self in order to stop living in abusive way against you ....the most maltreatment is one´s own bad thinking of self....God/The ALL/IT/...or what ever you name the infinity or life it self....is there always if you let it IN to your life...BUT...Religion can also box in and I am happy I got throug the religions roof into the infinity where the real thing is...:-)....Many times we interpret what is written in a bible so narrow when the God is total LOVE and forgivness.
When I let infinity in my life I felt free for the first time ...and this happened very early in my life ...and this was not conssious before I become rather old...I have had a very deep deep faith and this is my essence.
I do forget often but a quick re-minder and I remember it again, so thank´s and I do need this re-minders often.
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Last night I only remember a dialog with my bf....he asked me if I am going to ask doctor about my tiredness, yes I answered I will.
Then I meditated about my lost parts and how I will recognize them if I meet them ....I was shown the little child in pyjamas, and now I do understand how to reconect them to me, or help them to grow and off course invite them back to me.
I will be whole again, thank you all for being there I will never forget this, and I am not able to thank you all enough, Thank you from deepest of my heart and essence. Bless you all.
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Last night I did dream that a ex boyfriend did come and ask if we could start to be togeather again, No I said, I have a bf already, then he said, please contact me if it breaks and ends between you and your bf.
He was the bus driver on my bus, and it was a very long bus, I noticed him driving at wrong direction, so I started to walk from the back of the bus to tell him he is driving at wrong direction, he said, he will only to make an small tour and will drive at my location eventually, I did accept this, now he wants me to find in a note book for something, I do not remember it now what it was but it was not there, I told him someone has ripped the page away...now in the front seat was an English talking little girl, she was pissed off and trying to put me down by saying I smell bad, I knew it was not true so I did let her go on knowing she had the problem not me....I got off the bus and now it was winter and rather dark like night, I was walking in the snow and did found a railway road and saw number 9 in the railway road side, I was told it was navigating marks, I said, how on earth will they from a airoplane see these small numers, but I was told they did see them, maybe it did glow or something to be seen from abow...I continued my walk and now the ex bf was driving a boat in the snow or ice, it was like somekind of viking ship...it was near to hit me, and I did see it pass me in very high speed...here the dream did end.
When I told my bf about this dream this morning he become jellous, and went to work in anger saying...continue to live in your dreams you sure does not want to live with me ...I am sad today, how to tackle this??
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Last night I dreamt that I was looking at my self from the outside, and I could see that I had peed on me....I tried to smell the urine but did not smell anything...but I started to look for a shower and new cloadings but did not find....
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Last night I had for the first time an experience feeling 3 aspects of my self....I was the mother holding the child and the child was watching and following the witness or maybe the higher self and I felt I was all these separate parts, it did not happen more than that I become total aware of these 3 parts of my self.....I feel bracing and stimulating this experience.
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I have had many dreams but nothing I can remember more than small fragments, like my sons father who is no longer with us here come in one dream but I do not remember more. But today when I was taking a nap I did see in my dream a person fall down from a balcony and I saw him/her fall over a fence and it did not look good, I started to run down the staires and when I arrived to the yard the ambulance was already there, I did stare at the face and asked, do you want me to come with you to the hospital, he did only stare at me, and I asked again, then the ambulance man said...IA he is broken....and now I noticed it was only the head and it was parted from the body....and I was thinking about the mans saying...he is broken, not dead...then I noticed it was a robot??
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WoW what an informative night....I was able to watch me from several levels...and I also could see the "animal" part in me what I am so afraid of....it went like this....I was in an inviroment with several dog´s...my 2 dog´s are that kind of dogs what easerly fight, so I had to put them into my house to keep the peace with the other peoples dogs, I could handle them though but I was so unsure I could handle my 2 dogs and keep them calm so I did put them indoors so I could socialize with the other dogs....wow
Now I feel I can do something about my inner fear, I have face it and have seen it, before it was only a blure fear, now when it has materialized in shape of dogs I can start to handle it, when I did not have any picture I was not able to understand it eighder, now it is easier, off course it can transforme to other shaps too but I think it will now be easier to grasp.
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Last night I did see my self in a mirror and I was so surprised to see what color my hair had.....white with gold strips....it was beautiful :-)
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Last night I had several angry dreams, or dreams where I was angry....we where my bf and me to my relatives, my bf asked me to give my usb stick to him, I went angry and did not want him to plug it in to my relatives computor, he tried to over talk me saying that they have printer, so my bf tried to take it against my will because he though he knew what is best for me.....now I did see that they did celebrate my fathers birthday without me....I did accept it...now we went to bed and I put my clothed on a chaire and put my night dress on me...next morning I wanted to leave but did not find my clothes so I went angry again...I did go to kitchen and my sister where there I said to her...can we stop this fars and playing...now she did look very sad, and I felt that she did not feel as I did....I tried to find my clothes but all the time they escaped me, now they did say to me that I now can eat as much as I want of the cake, and it was as I knew they did celebrate without me, so I said No thank´s.....and went to serch for my clothes....I asked if there was more houses I could look in. ...and I was showed new direction and new houses ...I went into a house and it was some kind of kinky store with leather and lack clothes...I was looking at one women who bougth 3 bodies of leather....I went to next house but all the time it escaped me and I did not find so I gave up.....
I had little of a panic feeling in the whole dream.....
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Last night in my dream I hear me saying....I am not sure if I said...shall I....or I shall convert to a belief what I now do not remember, but when I said the word....convert....my bf did press my crown chakra with his arm ...he had his arm abouw my head....so I did awake and therefore remember this....
It felt like a recomendation, and I do not know now if the gesture what my bf did do was to confirm that I should..to convert to something else then my belief is now.
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Last night was horrible, my anger did awake again, I was with my bf to a party and people there did flirt with my bf I did become total angry and turned around to leave when one spoke to me...we only test you to see your reactions, and I did accept this and my anger did leave me but now my bf did smell on one women, this was too much so I did leave the party and my bf did come with me total unaware what he had done, he was like not at all understand that his behaving did hurt me, him smelling on some unknown women, I was angry and he did like accept it like it is my way to be, and not to connect my anger to his behavings....is he this ignorant or do he be a good actor so he can get away with un acceptable behavings playing stupid??
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The night before last night I had this dream......I was watching my son having a mask on him, at the foot of the mask and around his mouth it was formed like the ohm mark. He put the mask on fire and it went like a fire line as the mask was out cut....I started to loudly cry and asked him WHY he does hurt him self so much....He was pleased to have my strong reaction, and the damage on his face was very little to my surprise. He hugged me and was happy for my reaction because it was what he was looking for.
In this episod I see me doing and saying sigh heil...and I awoke in the dream and said....stop this madness.
In this episod my higher self (first time I see her) doing a very strong gesture, raising her right hand and puching it very strongly and hit the ground and saying...BE MORE CLEAR/DISTINCT...
In this seekvence I was out fishing and got a lot of fish....
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Last night I had several dreams but remember only little of them....I had rented out my appartment and I called the man who was hiring it from me to tell him that I now are going to move back at my home, and that he can leave the rent money on the kitchen table before he leaves...I did have my mother and father with me when we got to my apparment he was still there, and talking in phone with someone...He quickly tried to leave without paying, so I did grabb him by his arm and said, you have to pay the rent, but he tried really to escape from paying..but I was precistent for the first time in my life and I am sure he did pay me in the end even I did not see him handling the money to me but the feeling was there.
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Yesterday I was to a employment interview, total chaos company, I did get so stressed out that I catche cold and in no time was real sick when I come home....and my dream did be as chaotic as the interview...a reminder and I still do not have controll I am very quickly controlled by other´s....all the possessed time´s did apear in my dream´s, but what I could do was to tell that my want is not what they try to put on me, when I was firm enough to stand my point the all did stop the harrasment and I could again get to feel that I must become more clear/distinct...I am still too weak and do not be anchored in me yet...a very good test indeed....and now I know more what to work with in me.
I am very disapointed on me though.