IA´s dream diary....

In last night dream I was back on one of my old working place...I did not last at that work because of all the heavy bullying of me, and I felt that no-one dared to be on my side...so I did confront one of the bully persons and everyone was surprised but no-one did still be on my side...so I did surprise them all by saying...I might come back here one day, because you all need help, but I am not sure I can last because of the toxic energies of ya all...so I said as I felt, I am not sure I can transform this negative energy to positive without me being sick again...I was leaving them and said good bye but not one said good bye to me...so I said...no off course not...and felt that no it is not worth to even try to make that working place to turn around to more positive...and I felt..No I am not going back there ever.....

Last night was adrenalin filled night...It was midsommar celebrating people who did awake my deep fear in me, I did have very hard to fall in sleep, and when I did briefly someone was screaming like someone was trying to kill em...this did go on sure until 4 o´clock this morning....then I fell briefly into sleep and awoke at 6.30 and still much worry and pain in both heart and body after the horror night.
I did have a dream or then it was a somekind of projection experience what was new to me....so hard to explain, but if have to try to say something...it was me waniching into a space and I was like the nothing after a bomb explosion, when the bomb is so big that it does not leave anytning more than like dust or small splinters, total vanisched but still something I can´t even describe....so strange....

Last night in my dreams I was looking down from a high building to the ground, my teacher was educating a bunch of people when she/he looked up on me and bend down with one knee on the ground and said...( demostrated ) ..I have litterally had hands on this treasure and looked up on me...I did know that when she/he was done with the education she/he will come to visit me...I hade my livingroom table full of the "treasure" and a cake and a big bag with candies, but I had to go to bathroom and I did have my childhood friend E with me and I said...tell that I come soon if the teacher will come before I am back....

I have had a very disturbed and disrupted sleep...I has bean awakened by persons ruching into my bedroom and awakening me...and I could both see and feel theires fear and that they where checking on me to be alive ore something likely?? and awakening a deep fear in me too, so like projecting theire own disbelief on me?? Hard to describe the contents of the dream....

In last night dream one man tried to force upon me a telescope wand?? I do not even know for what it be for so I did not take it...I felt that if I had accepted then something of an lie would bean said upon me....strange...

The night before this I did have a dream that I in the first place did not know if I should share it, because it is about my son and he do not like me talking about him openly. (He does not know yet about the inprinted things what was inprinted in him and how he has executed them out, as I know because I was there as a whitness to see what happens to a person when bad things occurs in early childhood)

The symbolism is total clear to me, ...the dream seequence was....Me feeding my son with silver sword´s and silver cross proximately 5-10 cm size, he did willingly swollow them but it was hard, but he did it to help him self to battle and win over his inner demons....these toolse was helping him to do the hardest part what was out of my hand´s so to speak...and for him also knowing that this was the only way for him to help himself....Thank you for giving me the tools to give my son so he can help himself.

I have not remembered my dreams for some time now, but today when I went to bed this morning for a nap, I was in such a clarity and brightness I have not ever before experienced, it was brief, then I went back to "normal" and I see in the air something coming towards me with a high speed, I feel I ougth to catch it, but it goes through my hands before I even made them together to catch it, and it went direct to my heart chakra...I was able to see it briefly, it was a figurin of proximately 10 cm and it looked like the Holy Mother??

Fascinating. I've had dream visitations too, not that long ago.

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Originally Posted by CFTraveler

Fascinating. I've had dream visitations too, not that long ago.

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Hi CFT,
Yes the symbolism is so clear, we can´t catch it with hand´s we have to catch it in our heart :-)

I got a very good proof about the dream before this, about my son and the tools I got to give him, and as you can assume if you swollow that kind of tools it must bleed, right? To give me the answere that it did help my son the first real proof was that my son did feel something coming up from his stomach and he spit it out and it was pure blood, and I just said in my inner ...THANK YOU!!! ( The tools I got in a dream state and in a dream but the answere I got in day state )

I have not bean able to tell my son about this, I do not want to upset him...but I got my proof enough...all the help we get in our "dream state" will bleed into our awakened reality....I am in so big and total awe here and feeling so blessed and I am so greatful. My son is back compleatly.
:-) :-) :-)

In last night dream I only remember one thing, I saw a red rescue boat, I knew it was for me. Thank you!!