Originally Posted by journyman161
OK... I may be unenlightened but i can recognise when you're going in circles. You can't have enlightenment about 'an illusion of separateness' AND be despondent about it. If the separateness is an illusion then the bit that is feeling down is the bit that is inside the illusion - the rest of 'You' is outside the illusion & knows it is connected.
If your epiphany is bringing you down, maybe it isn't quite right - you seem to still be reacting as the old being, the one inside the life of separateness.
The fact remains, it is only an apparency that everyone else is an illusion - as far as we are concerned, WE EXIST! It is the ALL that may or may not be alone - we, All of We, are maintaining our existence & learning & experiencing in a common framework - there may be differences around the edges, but most of us exist within a central core of Reality.
You are not alone Not if you're still defining 'You' as being within this framework 0- and it seems like you are. If your epiphany was complete, it should take you beyond the things of this life - you might stay around but your basis of operations would 'graduate' to the new paradigm - & that appears not to be the case.
Not sure if it is clear what I'm saying here, but it's basically that if your realisation was really the ultimate in enlightenment, you should be now working from your new reality - & therefore you wouldn't be feeling the lack now of Love etc. If you're feeling the lack, you haven't moved beyond it & therefore the realisation is either only partial or is only a step towards the next bit.