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-donating more money to animal charity i like
-getting some checks today
-buying myself something on my list of things i had wanted to manifest for awhile today
-having a dream with R from my past in it. Makes me wonder...it was a good dream.
-fashion
-lipbalms
-my weight going down
-my body tightening up
-going to welfare and getting my food card problem worked out
-beautiful weather today. it felt like summer.
-sleep
-candy
-pronoia
-my outside cat family
-going to cycling class today then working out at the gym. felt good to get a good sweat in.
-the internet
-my appetite shrinking a little
-my strength
-watching TV episodes of show i like online
-goals
-socks
-manifestation of desires
-vitamins
-feeling my will getting a little stronger
-monkey mind mental chatter about D's gf leaving my mind quite a bit
-getting more things organized
-coffee
-positive changes and transformation
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-drinking more water today
-my weight going down a little bit
-starting to feel a little more confident about my body again
-my abs starting to get sculpted
-dental floss
-candy
-M going to whole foods today
-taking the train for the first time in 3 years today and overcoming that obstacle and anxiety challenge and taking the first step towards a newer me. sounds silly,but i literally feel like a new person now,
-sunny weather today
-my outdoor cat family
-fashion
-M putting money in my account today
-the instant coffee M bought me that looks good
-lavender
-getting a nice draft done today of article and being almost finished
-my job tomorrow,even though i've had some mental blockages with that kind of work,i know it's good and i just need to keep pushing through
-all the delicious,yummy things the universe has in store for me in the future
-getting better at saving and now having two envelopes i use for saving. one account for near future and another sub account for near future within the same account.
-the internet
-lipbalms
-all the new things i can do now that ex is out of my life
-sleep
-standing up for myself with stupid work thing a boss wanted me to do
-going to pilates class today
-quiet
-doing some reading today
-laughing
-watching TV episodes on hulu
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-lavender
-that all the stuff of ex best friend doing things that were our things only makes him more obsessed with me and not over me. today i seen another of our songs,one i gave him in our first month he now seems to have given to her. it's actually pretty twisted..
-M coming in and vaccuming my room
-M giving me money for uber
-chile mocha coffee drink
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-having money
-seeing purse i like back in stock at one store
-getting better at saving money
-TV episodes to watch on hulu
-work person somehow being very nice and understanding of me not making it
-coffee
-creativity
-ideas
-being smart
-my sexy curves
-my taste in things
-pinterest
-an excellent visulization today after yoga
-my peacock eye pillow
-going to kundalini yoga tonight
-great music
-meeting goals
-sunshine and enjoying some sun today
-my welfare food card fixed and reactivated today
-water
-lemon bars
-crown chakra and theta music
-quiet
-naps
-weight going down
-dental floss
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-fashion
-saving money and having fun with it.
-water
-getting excited about goals
-giving the cats some canned food tonight
-my creativity with getting my job done today
-the CPR being moved to ex best friend's gf house
-M's friend D hanging out with me and going for coffee. i now know i do not like him in that way nor do i feel anything from him either,which is kind of weird since i could've sworn i did the first few months i met him. luckily,i've been getting good at getting the signal from life of when to know to sort of mentally say no in my mind.
-putting money aside today
-nice weather today
-cuteness
-getting more confident and competant and doing things i feared before
-chile mocha coffee
-lots of desserts today,and coffee too actually
-rest
-laughing
-uber
-makeup
-my skin looking good today
-my weight going down and feeling more confident because of it
-my beauty
-lipgloss
-TV episodes i've been watching on hulu
-inspiration
-ideas
-meeting inspirational people
-my new bracelet i got
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-dental floss
-getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow
-nightlight in my room
-going to psychiatrist today
-TV episodes on hulu i watch
-saving money
-sleep
-my new stuffed animal pig
-coffee
-going to the gym today
-healthy digestion
-yoga
-my stomach getting nice and flat
-my style
-getting my skincare i ordered today
-that charity that helped my outdoor cats get fixed and vaccinated,has offered to take P cat from litter two to get checked up since she seems to have a little cold
-nice weather today
-sweaters
-healthy passion
-fashion
-pinterest
-water
-being kind hearted
-goals
-hope
-positive possibilities
-lavender
-tea
-doing more organizing today and cleaning
-hot guys
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-that the candidate i voted for won presidency. kind of exciting
-ghee
-lemon meringue pie
-getting my check today
-buying another heating pad for cat
-going to therapy today
-saving up money
-my beauty
-compliments
-my venus dimples
-coffee
-giving P cat and mom cat cans of tuna
-blankets
-sleep
-yoga pants
-another job offer i applied to today
-uber
-lavender
-hot tea
-TV episodes on hulu i have been watching
-friendly people
-hip stretches
-massage
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-reflection. to this day,one of the many heartbreaking things of what ex best friend did is that he used loa to get me out of his life. the irony that i was the one who taught him loa and sending energy and he used it at times to help me and i even encouraged him to practice it,and he used it to get me out of his life. it's very sad. and then i think about the pain of how unwanted he had made me feel for so long. i never really knew how much he hated me,though he tried for so long to show me. but all that we had been through and all that i had thought at the time he had done for me,made me believe of course he loved me a lot.
-the feeling that by the time i come back from my trip in december,i will be a new and different person.
-coffee
-lemon bars
-compliments
-managing all my jobs today
-finding out today my first job was twice as much money which was certainly a mood boost,especially since i've been feeling impatient with my savings goals.
-all the money i'm making this weekend
-the job offers today i got
-money issue from one company i worked with getting resolved
-blankets
-heels
-yoga pants
-my style
-my favorite leopard print sweater
-that the night started to get a little warmer
-taking the train again the other day which is huge for me
-TV episodes on hulu i've been watching
-style
-job offer from primary career that was good
-dental floss
-m putting money in my account today and yesterday
-my phone
-M's husband giving me an emergency phone charger which is a charger you use without an outlet.
-the skincare products i've been using
-lavender
-feeling in a nice mood for a moment while on the way to work today
-great alcoholic drinks
-trying new things
-stretches
-relaxation
-my meds i take
-my outdoor cats
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-giving the cats a litle cat feast and giving them the rest of the cat food cups and a little bit of ghee for the ones who wanted a lick of it. like a boss,mom cat had two cups by her. lol.
-weather feeling a little warmer
-water
-saving money
-naps
-working a lot
-handling two jobs a day the last two days in a row
-coffee
-lemon bars
-TV episodes on hulu
-lavender
-coca cola
-getting another pet heating pad in the mail
-my style
-my beauty
-the industries i work in
-seeing other inspiring people do what i do for work
-my favorite leopard print cardigan
-makeup
-weight going down. stomach being flatter.i feel so much more confident then when i was having those fat days from the olanzapine
-ghee butter
-serendipity.i can't stop believing loa is real and life is always speaking to us. during work,i was reflecting on the sadness of the betrayal from ex best friend,and one of our songs came on,and it's a random song,too that was very serendiptious with lyrics such as "miss you." I've been hearing this band every now and then lately since the betrayal.I also am always seeing things with the nickname he called me all the time since then. it's quite odd. it's almost subtle because ive not really been looking for it,almost repressing it,but there's definitely been some serendipity with this.i just don't know what it all means.
-seeing the light at the end of the tunnel in some ways with the year closing out and the busy holiday season when it ends,and then my trip and what will come in the new year.i'm sad everyday about life,and how messed up things have become but i try to see the adventure of it all.
-stretches
-relaxation
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seen ex best friend and gf today.i think they seen me before i seen them. luckily i was not more then 20 feet close to them and no words or eye contact was made. still,am getting tired of all the closecalls where they are near me. it seems they are often having instances where they see me or hear me. i can't help but think it's their manifestation because of that. almost all these occurences just feel like their manifestation the way they happen.i decided to see the good in it,and realize this is helpful for neutralizing my reaction to them for if i ever see them face to face again. after all,my intention is to treat them like they don't exist. not bitchy,but completely apathetic as if they aren't even there. dead eyes and all.
-glass of wine after my shift from work
-cheap liquor prices
-acknowledging my feelings to myself
-slowing down and allowing myself to feel more relaxed in the moment
-getting my reporting done for the last few days
-cute pictures
-laughing
-being smart
-makeup
-hot coffee
-chile mocha coffee
-lemon flavoring
-going to eat out with M and her husband
-laughing
-stretches
-my beauty
-my cheekbones
-my style
-my outdoor cats
-TV episodes on hulu
-sleep
-new perspectives
-going to the gym today
-hot guys
-my weight going down
-healthy digestion
-my stomach becoming flatter
-my venus dimples
-water
-saving money
-goals
-my upcoming trip next month
-that in about a week,week and a half,my money should finally be doing ok
-gaining motivation,meaning,and perspective again on life
-nightskies
-heating pads
-my kind heart
-inspiration
-my medications i'm on