Sinera's Lucidiary

22/Apr/2013
"Besh" And The Castle

I use my new High Speed Induction method (HISIM) to phase into my astral bed. I grab a helpers hand and am 'blind' again (as usual). I ask the helper's name as I don't see him/her. It's a female and communication is in the usual "in-ear-voice" mode (my term: GIEV-Method, "Guide's In-Ear-Voice"). This time it again takes a few seconds for each answer. The sound is strange, a more 'mature' female voice but with crackles in the background, like static sounds or a sound made by an old scratched record (you know ... vinyl - for the young people among us :mrgreen:).

Me: "What's your name?"
H: ... "Besh." (or Beige? pronounce -e- as in bet)
Me: "Besh?"
H: ... "Yes, Besh."
Me: "Yet another one. How many helpers do I have altogether after all?"
H: ... "Ten."
Me: "Ten?"
H: ... "Yes. Ten."
(I then think about what to do as I have forgotten my target)
H (responding to my insecurity?): "For infants (?) (taking) the hand is indispensable.":confused:

Not much time to think about this cryptic remark. I somehow seem to be able to see and am in my Lightportal. I see her and she is indeed a middle-aged spectacled lady. I might know her as "the teacher" from some classroom dreams (not sure).

She then makes another proposal by showing me a gesture that points at the window. She takes both of her arms with the palms up, curves them a little (not straight, like holding a huge basket) while she makes the move with them from her belly to her head movement upwards she says: "Or: For Egypt. Like this."

I interpret this to be advice to fly to (ancient?) Egypt to view the Giseh Plateau. I fly out of the window trying her technique holding the arms before me and swinging them upwards. I indeed seem to change to another (higher?) plane and it is a beautiful one, but not Egypt. I see it's a sunny day and we fly above parks, woods pastures. People enjoying themselves, it's peaceful. Afar, I see a medieval castle. It looks beautiful, too. It is like you imagine a medieval or fairy tale castle, with towers, drawbridges, etc. Beautiful vista. We fly towards it.

We are however just passing over it. My guide still is flying next to me and I seem not to know what to do next. I know I failed to go to Egypt. So I ask her for another target that occurs to me then: How to reach my Higher Self. While I ask this we somehow fly though a kind of gallery with veils and some people (looks like a Haarem actually). Then we somehow fly back in the other direction and the guide has changed, it is a middle-aged man now and he says sth in reply to my request which I cannot remember. Then I lose it and wake up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I asked and received confirmation two times for both "Besh" and "10 helpers". So this is rather 'certain data' for me. I also have more trust regarding interpreting data given to me (visual, audio) by helpful sources since my successful card validation (see post above).

10 helpers! My goodness, Do I have an entire legion around me?! :shock:

The crackles / static together with the time gap might show the difficulties of direct communication with my guides when doing GIEV.

My hypothesis explaining the delay and sounds of the replies:

Guide: recording "linear audio" --> encoding, zipping ---> transfer ---> Me: decoding, unzipping --> "listening" to audio ---> interpreting

The "record crackles" as by-effect could be a metaphor for it beeing a pre-'recording' of a message. I remember also it had a bit of echo in it. Very strange, but a little funny, too.

The meaning? Well, it could indeed all make sense. Maybe "Besh" was actually reminding me of two of my targets? One was to help (heal/retrieve) children, hence the "infants". Should I grab the helpers' hands in order to let me guide to where help is needed? Or maybe she meant that I am the infant (translation error: newbie, beginner) and should keep using the "hands" method, although it is not clear which one: grabbing the helpers hand or looking at my hands for gaining vision or even the one she showed me with regard to "Egypt".

Egypt was indeed yet another set future astral endeavour of mine since I wanted to explore ancient (prehistoric) Egypt by time travel / Akashic record lookup in order to find out who built the pyramids and the Sphinx (and how). Just the day before I watched a talk by Robert Bauval (fascinating!).

The raised arms could mean just a technique of travel or be a reference to Egypt too. Some hieroglyphs have people with raised arms, it's a common motif actually:

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Egyptian hieroglyph: Man with arms raised: determinative be elevated; height; enjoy oneself; mourn; bald.

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http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/Ca...8hieroglyph%29

http://bits.wikimedia.org/static-1.2.../hiero_A28.png

Last not least, my research showed from a rare and old scientific resource that there was indeed a "King Besh" in predynastic Egypt (approx. (long?) before 3100 BC: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prehistoric_Egypt) who was from Southern Egypt but then conquered and ruled the Upper Kingdom. But this might be accidental. Anyway:

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"huge vases of alabaster and granite, which were dedicated by a certain king Besh in the year when he conquered the people of Northern Egypt. On the other hand, on a stela now at Palermo a list is given of kings who seem to have reigned over Northern Egypt while the Pharaohs of Nekhen were reigning in the south or how many centuries the two kingdoms existed side by side, sometimes in peaceful intercourse, sometimes in hostile collision, it is impossible to say. The fact that Egypt had once been divided into two kingdoms was never forgotten; down to the last days of the Egyptian monarchs the Pharaoh bore the title of “lord of the two lands,” and on his head was placed the twofold crown of Upper and Lower Egypt. Nekhen was under the protection not only of Horus, the god of the Pharaonic Egyptians, but also of Nekheb, the tutelary goddess of the whole of the southern land. From the Cataract northward her dominion extended, but it was [pg 040] at El-Kab opposite Nekhen, where the road from the Red Sea and the mines of the desert reached the Nile, that her special sanctuary stood. Besh calls himself on his vases “the son of Nekheb”; and even as late as the time of the Sixth Dynasty the eldest son of the king was entitled “the royal son of Nekheb.”

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Source:The Religions ofAncient Egypt and Babylonia The Gifford Lectures on the Ancient Egyptian and Babylonian Conception of the Divine /Delivered in AberdeenBy Archibald Henry Sayce, D.D., LL.D.Professor of Assyriology, Oxford
http://www.gutenberg.org/files/35856/35856-h/35856-h.html

26/Apr/2013
Bibi Blocksberg

I use my fast method and this time wait for the vibrations to come and fade. Then I roll out, as ususal from side to supine position, then I'm in the void and grab the helper's hand. My original intent for this projection was to establish a kind of 'permanent connection' to the School Of Homeopathy which I had visited on a higher plane back in November 2010. I wanted to ask (channel if you will) a remedy and its dilution/potency for a friend of mine suffering from Atopic Dermatitis / Neurodermitis. Kind of like Edgar Cayce did, yeah, I know that's crazy, but the best ideas are sometimes the crazy ones.

But I do not get the answer I want. A girl's voice answers (unkown, not Katja or Besh) and I do not remember all of what is said. I have a kind of pressure feeling at my right thumb and ask what's nagging at it. She says it is a little mouse that is harmless and wants to play. Then I ask again for the remedy but no straight answer is given. She then says "Bibi Blocksberg" and "kleiner Wicht" ("little Wight") before I fade out again and wake up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

This is another "kind of" validation!

I have heard the name Bibi Blocksberg before but only knew it was a kind of children's audiobook here in Germany. I did not know more, neither did I ever listen to this radio play in my childhood. My first thought now was that it was maybe the character of a mouse due to the first remark about a mouse. A mouse also was once a hint to a job I should take and maybe still is, hence it could make some sense. However, my research shows that it was not a cartoon mouse, but rather a blonde girl who is a witch (a German H. Potter, so to speak).

The "little Wight / Imp / Dwarf" is part of a rhyme spell she uses, but only once (!!) in meanwhile 107 radio plays (the Wiki entry of 98 is not up-to-date). This specific tiny detail I clearly could not have known before at all since I did not even know the play or the character before. And as said it is not a repeated spell, but Bibi uses it only once in this episode where she and a friend are trapped in a dark castle without light and it goes like this (nicely it rhymes also in English):

"Ene Mene kleiner Wicht, wir haben jetzt Laternenlicht"
---> engl: "Eenie Meenie little Wight, we now have lantern light!"

The most straightforward interpretation was that she told me to use it to switch on the light in order to gain vision, since I was still blind. Maybe I really should try this spell next time in the astral? :cool::lol:

Otherwise I don't know what this spell could mean. The Wight (Wicht) is originally a benign creature in German and Nordic folklore, so it is, like the kid witch, not really scary for me at all. No negs involved.

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"The Wicht, Wichtel or Wichtelchen of Germanic folklore is most commonly translated into English as an imp, a small, shy character who often does helpful domestic chores when nobody is looking (as in the Tale of the Cobbler's Shoes)."
- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wight

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By the way. I found out that the pressure on my thumb was my physical body. I had kind of stuck my thumb between the pillow and my head when lying on the right side (my astral was rolling out on my back only). Since I often have full body awareness during these GIEV (void?) experiences it kind of bleeds through into the experience. Her "mouse" comment was thus a kind of joke or really a hint given.

Another idea: the Blocksberg episode could be a hint to do child retrievals, given the story of children getting lost in the castle and in need of light and guidance?

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Originally Posted by Sinera

Another idea: the Blocksberg episode could be a hint to do child retrievals, given the story of children getting lost in the castle and in need of light and guidance?

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This feel´s very true, and I count my self to the cathegory "children" because I am lost in the astral and in the "higher" knowing so to speak :-)...I need truly guidance :-)

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Originally Posted by IA56

This feel´s very true, and I count my self to the cathegory "children" because I am lost in the astral and in the "higher" knowing so to speak :-)...I need truly guidance :-)

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That's a possibilty of course. As I wrote in the previous lucidventure, the guide could have meant me as a beginner when she talked about "infants" to be taken by the hand. But it is only one interpretation. The other could be that she meant another hand-technique and it was me supposed to be doing child retrievals. As always, so many possibilties of interpretation and I am afterwards more confused than before. ;) :? :shrug:

Hi, Sinera! Would you say Shakespear's Puck would be an 'imp'? Could shed some light? :)

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Originally Posted by eyeoneblack

Hi, Sinera! Would you say Shakespear's Puck would be an 'imp'? Could shed some light? :)

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Don't know. I've read this work when I had English literature as a subject, but I'm no expert in mythological races. ;)

10/May/2013
The Grid

There was more to this lucidventure but I cut it short. It's just to mention a known phenomenon I encountered for the first time in the astral and can put it on my list of 'haves' now.

I am in my garden and try to lift off from the ground. As many times before, 'astral gravity' holds me down and I can only fly until up to the houses' roof tops or a little higher. I then decide to fly horizontally over the city. I make it a little higher and am right under what seems to be a cloud cover.

I had the idea to test out if I can now get a little higher and indeed I make it into the clouds. Suddenly the vista changes dramatically. I see lines, pixels, some symbols all swirling around me. It does not last long, maybe about 2 seconds or so, and I dive down again into the astral realm. I did not try it a second time.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Are we all really living in The Matrix? Bodies and minds? Seems this way to me.

It was funny how it seemed like I emerged from under water for felt 2-3 seconds, saw the "real" world behind it all, and then dived down again into the simulation of my astral / lucid dreamscape. The "water" experience was pretty malleable and dream-like, that's why I assume that it was my own creational space within the astral, or a dream simulation set up for me?

In this space, there was - amongst other things - also a test where I helped a child who had a flat tyre on her bike. It was also a kind of healing situation supposedly. But due to the instability and malleability of the environment I assume it was a simulation as a training for the 'real thing'. It seems Besh and "Bibi", two of my helpers, are somehow waiting for me to become fit and help them with child retrievals.

And maybe this kind of "simulation" was not intended to be broken free from unexpectedly, even if only for a short moment. I might kind of 'tricked' the creators of this mini-matrix simulation space set up to test me. It seemed like a glitch in the matrix somehow, a crack to escape from the training space. When I dived back down (like going under water) everything was normal again, like before, which I find amazing.

29/May/2013
"For Us Everything Is Information"

I get vibrations and two helpers help me out each one grabbing me at one of my wrists left and right (not the first time), I laugh a little at the turmoil created, since it then needs readjustments for me to stand upright in the Lightportal. I do not see my two helpers, but always feel their grip around my wrists during the whole communication experience.

I focus on the acoustics to perform again my CAVE-Method (see below for explanation). So I am standing there, literally cocking my (astral body's) ears and am asking their names. First left. I do not have to wait long and "Michael" is the answer. It is a kind of boy's voice. Then an adult male on the right answers: "Claus", and then adds "Red Claus". (Hope he does not mean Santa?? ;)).

I then tell them that today's target it to get back to the Library (Department of Alternative Medicien) where I was 2.5 years ago. I ask them if and how they can help me or take me there. The answer is given by Claus to the right and it is surprising me:

"We don't know exactly how. For us everything is information."

Don't remember more. I might have faded out (disappointed) or fell into dream-state then.

Comments / Afterthoughts

It's a real conundrum with respect to how this sentence was meant. If it's more general it says that everything is data anyway (information = structured data with a meaning and/or for a purpose). So Mr Tom Campbell is maybe right with his theory that "all is data"?

Maybe it was also referring to the helpers' specialty. Kurt Leland calls helpers with specific functions or a specific field of expertise "facilitators". Maybe they were facilitators to help me download / retrieve INFORMATION. This is what I normally wanted to do indeed during my last lucidventures. This includes the validation but also other "data" ("information") pertaining to e.g. past life, pre-history (Egypt), homeopathic prescriptions, etc.

I wanted to use CAVE (formerly AHA) to retrieve info. I will now try to develop this technique even harder, maybe write sth up on how I do it and how it can be achieved. However, it surely isn't everybody's cup of tea and even might be boring to the average (experienced or unexperienced) APer who mostly desires to have full visual experiences. But I'm different. Really: I LOVE obtaining valid information and I find this technique is maybe a fascinating way to receive reliable (and sometimes, such as in the case of my card experiment, even verifiable) data.

To explain CAVE: It's my fresh acronym for the old AHA (astral hearing approach):

Clairaudient Astral Void Experience = CAVE-A

A variant of this is how I did the card validation. It is when I was in the Void too but then just the card popped up before the full visuals (of the Lightportal) set in. This is CAVE-2 or CAVE-V for me:

Clairvoyant Astral Void Experience = CAVE-V

This time I was NOT in the Void at all but in my Lightportal from the start. Still, the decisive fact is this: I did not at all FOCUS on the visuals despite receiving them, so I intentionally shut them off by putting FOCUS on the audio, giving me the same result as if I was in the void. I believe this is why it worked to "hear" the voices again.

And I repeat myself now: when I "hear" I really mean it. It is a hearing experience, no NVC, no thoughts implanted, no dream or astral telepathic communication. I hear their different voices, that's why it's clair-AUDIENT for me. The voices also feel 'real' to me, meaning: they are 'alien', a different (higher) consciousness and not necessarily my subconscious.

10/June/2013
"The Displaced Girl" (Retrieval 4?)

My guides let me down this time. No CAVE method worked, I put out my hand in vain into the dark Void. Then in one experience (there were some exits who were confusing) I managed to get out myself and then I was flying towards a church or cathedral but faded out back to bed into darkness again before I could reach it. Then in the state I stretched out my hand again, but again no hand grabbed me. I shouted out my now usual affirmation: "helper!". Then I heard s.o. say sth like "don't wait for one, be a helper" or similar. This was maybe a reminder for retrievals. I agreed and shouted ok, put me there where I can help.

After a few seconds I was before a strange white-red house which then however turned into our own house. I saw an elderly lady outside, hanging out the laundry. First I thought it was my mother but her appearance changed then. I told mer my last name (telling her this was "our" premises). She repeated in shock while her eyes started to flicker strangely. She seemed not to be able to make sense of it. I then led her into our house and into the kitchen. We passed the living room and I saw people sitting there but recognised no one. Somehow I seemed to believe (and this is not the first time) that this was our future home when another family lived here with my family and me gone.

We talk in the kitchen and I do not remember much of the details, just that I tried to find out if this woman really was my retrieval subject. I then saw that she was a beautiful young girl now in her twens. I asked of her how she got here and she somehow took a small and dark-blue pointed object from the kitchen sink. It's plastic and has a needle. I then see it as a blue canula of a syringe or a diabetes lancet. I therefore interpret her to have been a drug addiction victim (or diabetes, in hindsight).

deep blue lancets:
http://www.ime-dc.de/images/stories/...20%2831%29.jpghttp://img.answcdn.com/view:feature/...g?&w=300&h=250
deep-blue canula:
http://www.bilder-hochladen.net/files/13ha-1wc.jpg

I might have asked more of her but I don't remember it all. I remember then she told me that she was a 'stranger' here and she does not like to be in an "outlandish family". This give me the idea to look for an exit (always with the 'protocol' for retrievals in the back of my mind). I told her that I know s.o. who can bring her to her home (country?) and together again with her own family (or a family in her country). She agreed with a smile.

Then everything happens fast, also since I noted that I might start to fade out soon. I take her hand and we start to run through the corridor outside again (I might have had pretended that this person is waiting outside). Then just before we reach the front door again I note it might be too late and start the 'process' intuitively. The environment fades out. Everything gets hazy around us and dark, but I still see her and we hold both hands.

I tell her that I have to get one of my hands free now. She says smiling at me (almost complimenting me) that my grip is still very firm just with one hand. I see her a little below me now as if I was levitating. Then I stretch out my freed hand into the Void and try to reach the guide who is to take over. But no one grabs my hand! This seems to fail. However, I note that she is still with me smiling (while me hovering a little above her). Then, just before I fade out of the scene the darkness turns lighter. It's as if you close your eyes in a dark room and then switch on a light and (still with your eyes closed) you move your eyes to the bright light. I've had this before. And so we kind of "dissolve" into the light. I wake up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I am short of time now and might add some more thoughts later and put in some corrections.

Just in short: I do not believe (again) this was a retrieval but just a simulation for me. Be that as it may, treating it as a retrieval my interpretation of some issues goes like this:

The old lady (who could have died of diabetes) was maybe kind of bringing her memories in order or working through some things. This might have been symbolised by the laundry (cleansing? some 'old dirty laundry' maybe?).

The dissolving into the light might have been the going home for her although I intuitively had it planned another way. But maybe I opened a kind of "portal" or did some phasing. I literally brought her "into the light" again.

Why "my" home if it was a retrieval? I had this before with Ronald. Maybe in the Astral we kind of meet other souls by merging our own environments too? That's why she did not 'recognise' my environment and also reacted stongly to my "outlandish" family name. Finally she wanted to go to her home country and not be 'abroad' anymore which might reflect here need to find home.

As said, I see it all metaphorically and not to be 'real'. Still, a nice experience worth sharing. The most imporant point for me is to see the value in putting out good and helping intentions in the Astral and it will bring back some good. I am happy about this experience despite its questionable 'realness'. As an exercise (designed by my helpers, tutors?) it was real enough anyway, like similar ones before.

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Originally Posted by Sinera

"Claus", and then adds "Red Claus". (Hope he does not mean Santa?? ;)).

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No, I now know he did NOT refer to Santa Claus. After more than 3 weeks past, the penny has dropped! I know now what it could mean.

Klaus is a German first name, you should know. I was mulling over this "name" given to me and why this helper added a "red" then (and he almost seemed to say it in a joking tone already). It was a riddle of sorts and now I solved it by analogy.

Long ago, I had this funny (cartoon-like) guide encounter before with the BLUE Monk (here). Blue Monk has since become for me a set expression, of course. "Klaus" might have alluded to this by way of analogy - giving himself the "red" title now. This I already suspected, but I had a hunch that there could be even more to this.

Today while having lunch, I was musing again over what all the colour titles for my guides meant. I jumbled them up in my mind saying: "BLUE Monk, RED Monk, RED Klaus, BLUE Klaus ... wait a moment! Blauer (=blue) Klaus? Rings a bell!"

Blauer Klaus = a cartoon figure of a famous 70/80ies game show in my country!

http://www.tv-nostalgie.de/WumundWendelin/images/6b.jpg

And yes, you see it clearly: It's an ET with a Flying Saucer. They had a first version with green skin btw, then later they changed him, so he's a chameleon, so to speak. I have a red version now it seems (edited it and took it as my new ava now).

Is this another message regarding a possible ET origin (for me and my helpers)? Perhaps. Or maybe my guides have a bizarre sense of humour after all. Hasn't been the first time, I reckon.

Just a short update: CAVE method does not work anymore reliably. I had "talks" with some people in the dark, some gave me names, some gave me information that seemed useless, some even said they don't know of need to "look up" the info I was seeking. Seems my "helpers" are none or left me alone.
Really had enough of it now. I will take a break now since most of my other "normal" projections weren't any better, confusing and resultless to say the least. I've had enough now of this crap. I might cease, maybe for good, or at least for a certain time.

Sinera. CEASE???
Am slowly working my way through your journal and it's so inspiring I want to remind you what you posted on 6th August.
"BRING IT ON ". path of warrier for 2-3 years.!!!
Go and suck your thumb for a couple of weeks then get back out there.
Come to think of it,should your 'helpers' come to get you what will you say.
Not coming..go away.. .

Take some time off..... and then come back. But really take that vacation.

Just want to add, had to finish last post early as hubby came back from shopping ( so quickly posted.).
I take on board that I am learning , so when I post what I experience I am open to experienced person's interpretation whether on this board or from Authors.
There comes a time after so much that I feel I can take a decision that may not go with what may seem the common interpretation .
I am still open to what I experienced in my recent journal, but looked for an acceptable explanation as authors have understood to be their interpretation.
I am 50/50
So the more I read your journal the more I am seeing a resemblance.
I agree with the eyes of what you thought to be Aliens as not being so prominent as depicted in photographs.
In fact I perceived the jaw line to be a little wider than ours.
Dare I tell you about an experience I haven't dared post where they took the shape of their body in what looked like dark shiny suites as if defending an astral plane.
I'll stop there but can you see why you need to just take a break as CF Traveller suggests ,then get back out there.

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Originally Posted by Sinera

Really had enough of it now. I will take a break now since most of my other "normal" projections weren't any better, confusing and resultless to say the least. I've had enough now of this crap. I might cease, maybe for good, or at least for a certain time.

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ditto with CFT. burnout! just means time for proper digestion. when you've outrun your helpers/teachers/guides then you've outrun the pupil that was being taught. when a "thing" by practice becomes 2nd nature then it no longer is a "thing" of practice, and to continue as if practicing conflicts with where it now rests. this happens before one might themself come to rest. that thou art

shifting the gears of transmission is up to the driver. but instead of gearing up, this calls for gearing down, stopping, getting out and away from the drive/practice, and walking until you realize that you are the vehicle that you are walking away from. sabbatical

resting in that which rests as you when you will. other wise the next step a-walkin does not arrise, or rather, goes as unseen opportunity right in front of you, even as you've steppedly walked without notice. this because it cannot be behind you rested.

any process/pratice is not about perfection, or such an individualist ideal of what perfection has to look like to suit the individual demands. demands will not allow rest when rest is called for. a practice takes on it's own rythym for that which is ever rythymless/centered and rested. if this is not so, then the practitioner is off-center, and, therefore, when rest is called for is not aware of it, just keeps on plying the practice toward the "ideal" of perfection.

there has to be spaces for love to grow. why is this about love? to love thyself, to be centered, rythymless, to see the rythyms round about, calling as opportunity to be seen by the rested eye. an old saying that comes with practice, which points to ideals of perfection, "that's not too hateful to accept". point just so, one is thrown within as examiner of self-acceptance, which cannot be unless one is centered/rythymless.

if music's rythym is round about me, it serves my self to realize that i am within and between my two ears...centered. from this placement alone may i rest, safely and securely. Ahyah (Asher) Ahyah

Asher, meaning, That, also meaning Joy; Joy being the realization of That, as thou and i oned as that being you as yours. that thou art well met with I am that...

thus is the art and the artist, or the creation and the creator. there is no art/creation without the artist/creator. yet, to be as that is to have practiced/grown a craft that crafted may be. simply put, give thyself permission to accept it as it is, "that aint too hateful to live with".

There is the Life, and there is THAT which Lives the Life. what does Spirit not already possess as potentiality potently resting [every"thing"] as the given potential potently Being as You presently given...are? no"thing"

a gardner best works with the daily nature given at hand, and the fruits of labor when arriving...just are. Zen. it cannot be but the best, for it has arrived from the best given forward, and not backward. a gardner doesnt give up when the fruit comes in, it is to be gathered in, then is rest. these seasons internal and personally perceptive, even as the fruit is to be impersonally received. however, of these fruits are the seeds/opportunities of the morrow. humans aint hybrids genetically disabled of seed bearing in due season.

and dont forget the bees and other pollenators, that have cross-affected the fruited possibilities. as R.B. has intimated, "follow the bees"...that have gone inside, perhaps to rest. i see he has a chair up there now. to sit, to rest, to chew the cud, to cogitate, to ponder, to contemplate, to listen to the natural given silence of your centered self being, to be...etc. a choice within chosen actions is choosing inaction, where assertiveness is restfully away from rythym's passive-aggressive musicality potentially jamming twixt one's ears. like a logger's log jam sometimes, yet the e-motional river still runs upunder such engorged nonsense/ideas. let your helpers worry about it, seeing as they've run out of "ideas" too. the log jam makes for a nice bridge to at first walk over and across. such is the handiness of log jams.

let the somewhere that love is...be within you for you. It all comes down to you to from within receive, other wise you cannot give from within what is not yours to give out.

I Don't Ever Give Up: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktpTyT1Wj_I

peace to ya,

Tim

Back again, but never been really away, actually.

I think I was misunderstood. I just wanted to take a break (or cease...) from AP - not from this forum necessarily. Since I was disappointed with my helpers I had deleted the avatar because it was related to one. The new pic now (also the other on my profile) come up when you pic-search for Sinera, so I found it nice and fitting. Sinera also looks like an angel a little, although from her looks alone of course I cannot tell if she was (is?) one.
:angelic::wink:

I'm still on a dry period AP-wise, but it's okay, that's life, I was never a good APer in the first place and might never become one. And I can always play with dream and dream programming in the meantime, of course.

14/Aug/2013
Kisses

In order to break the dry spell I took sth (after a long time of abstinence) out of my 'special purpose supplements' stock of Galantamine + Choline + Lecithin/VitB last night after 2 hours of sleep.

After falling asleep again it normally works reliably after only a few minutes to get me into "the state", so it was this time again. What happens with Galantamine-induced trance is hard to put in words, I'll try:

When it 'sets in' you feel a wave of numbness that almost "brutally" sweeps over you body, there's no vibrations, just a kind of feeling like you're suddenly wrapped numb in cotton wool. The onset can also come with a kind of cracking sound, accompanied also by a rush of energy. Then you know you've reached the state where you can after seconds easily just get up from your bed out-of-body or also - in my special case - grab a hand and communicate. I've become fairly intrepid in the course of my practice since 2009/10, but I would never recommend this to any total newbie, it can be very disturbing. So whoever is a beginner and reads this: DON'T DO THIS AT HOME! Try some of the many traditional methods of induction please.

So, then I was half-blind or in a darkened room, probably in bed of even my 'real' room this time, and stretched out my hand calling out for my Higher Self, as planned. I wanted to talk to Sinera, after having seen (been shown) her so many times I wanted to hear her voice and also get the basic data from her (year/place/name of/at birth).

It seems the first thing kinda worked. The second not (again).

I felt two hands I held - assuming it's my Higher Self - but only heard a faint voice. I told the voice to speak up because I did not hear her good enough. It was a female voice, maybe teenage or twen girl, sometimes with giggles in-between, but nice and also a little reticent or shy. I do not remember much of the 'conversation'. I might have asked specifically for the year of birth. When I heard her say a year I did not believe it. Simply for the fact that it was my own year of birth, but I might also have "misheard" it.

Frustrated again, I let go after a while as I did not receive any more understandable answers as her voice became even more faint through the "interference noise". Then it happened. I might have asked my HS again what all this was about? Then I felt kisses over my forehead, lots of them, repeatedly. As always in this state when in bed, it was 'physical', like the voices, the touches, it is always felt like physical.

During the kisses, I was still holding the 'invisible' hands on each of my own hand left and right. Then when the kisses stopped and I saw the hands that then let loose of my own hands and I saw them disappearing into the walls next to my bed. This sight couldn't have been better done in any ghost movie. :shock:

Since Galantamine trance is like a roller coaster ride, it was far from over and I had several exits after that, always starting out from my bed again, then mostly by flying through the window and then trying something. But as so often, it was useless stuff not worth being reported here.

What's really memorable for me is of course this:

http://folien-aufkleber.org/motive/a...ehead-13929658


Comments / Afterthoughts

A message of love? Probably.

Crazy stuff. :redface:

Kisses to the forehead usually represent platonic love and strong affection. Repeated kisses then would be an emphasis. :)

16/Sep/2013
Gillighan

Prelude:
This is another 'validation of sorts' for me personally. And it proves to me the fact (more and more) that such a thing as fairies clearly and without doubt exists. It's Magick! :D

It also proves that the larger consciousness system "knows" that I do thorough (internet) research afterwards and gives me clues to find sth interesting which then is a 'message' of sorts. If you've read parts of my journal here you will know this is by far not the first time.

A seemingly unspectacular projection turns out to have been sth amazing in hindsight when I conclude my research, if only by entering the name or term into the google search field and see what comes up first. This is definitely a way of communication.

Lucidventure:

I get lucid and call out for "Roter Klaus" but it's not the helper I meet. It's a small little lady, her height maybe about 1 meter or less. She's one of the 'little people' I meet occasionally in dreams. I also ask for her name and she says "Gillighan". We are in my "Lightportal" and she leads me to a table where there are things placed on top of it to choose from or at least to be shown. Unfortunately I am too fixed (as always) on my pre-determined goal and do not concentrate on what's on the table but ask her directly where "Roter Klaus" is or if she knows him and knows what he's doing. She tells me with a smile that he is playing drums right now. Then I fade out of the scene and wake up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I noted down "Gillighan" on a piece of paper and wrote it exactly like this. The name was unkown to me. English is not my mother tongue but I found this spelling to be natural (also compared to the spelling of "Gallagher" as it's known to me). I now found out there is also a version without an -h- after the g (Gilligan) but this is what comes up as first entry when I use "my" naturally chosen spelling:

http://www.gillighansworld.ie/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=33NaV87PFnc

Quote:

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Located at Knocknashee, one of Irelands' ancient sacred hills, and traditionally known as "the Hill of The Fairies" you escape into a land of artistry and imagination. It is a magical place adults adore and children love. Miniature villages and delightful faerie habitats nestle in beautiful water and botannical gardens, with a stone tunnel entrance, dolmen and amphitheatre. Enchanted glade, secluded picnic areas, pet haven, water cave and spectacular panoramic views from the Celtic Faerie Fort. Gillighan's World is truly "the Field of Dreams".

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:wacky1::party::P

It's a fairy. No doubt.

And I swear I did not know about this "mini"ature (mini people!) fairy park before. How could I? I'm not from Ireland, never been there and I do not believe it is a 'famous' place outside of the English speaking world. Even if I knew it subconsciously by cryptoamnesia, it would not take away anything from this amazing way of after-the-event-communication.

Another issue is the meaning of the "drumming" activity of Klaus (Claus). It might refer to my Higher Self as in the past in dreams it was symbolised to me as a former band of mine with "ME" being the drummer in a harmonious set of people, metaphorically. Is Red Claus just a part of my Higher Self?

Other meanings of him being busy with drumming might be that he has his own projects to pursue with eager- maybe as he is part of (= the drummer) of another Higher Self?

Dreammoods says:

Quote:

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"To dream that you are playing the drums indicate that you progress through life by your own terms. You are strong willed and stick by the decisions you make. The dream may also be a metaphor to indicate you are "drumming up" business. You need to be more aggressive with your new ideas."

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Should it still refer to me instead of Klaus, it might indicate that I need to pursue my life goal with even more eager now and 'drum up' business for my envisaged naturopath practice. I will indeed tomorrow inspect a room which is for rent in a joint practice located within a naturopath school. I still plan to start my practice at January first although the situation looks rather bleak due to my shortage of money (to be honest: I am completely flat broke at the moment). However, due to manifestation techniques I try to touch the right 'resonance fields' and that's why I do the viewing anyway, even if it all then should turn out unaffordable (or Jan 1st too early) in the end. Maybe that is what was meant by it after all. Again, as always, just guessing, of course.

Addendum: It occurred to me that I might have invoked them yesterday, provided that they are also nature spirits (which they are commonly said to be).

I was out for jogging in the forest yesterday. I normally do not pause, but as I did this already before with very interesting sensations you get I did it again. So I paused by the wayside of the forest path and touched a giant tree with my left hand, trying to 'feel' my way into it and unite. I did some affirmations and asked for help (with my practice and moneyfestation) by nature.

Well, as a NATURopath it is maybe a justified thing to do? ;)

When I do this normally I feel a vibration from the tree and also feel grounded ("rooted"?) somehow. I thank the tree and nature for their help and after a few seconds move on running.

So maybe this is what called a nature spirit?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rqbk-NEZc_A

Doesn't work opening it in every browser. I remember D. Cannon's book on this and the past life regression transcript on "incarnations" as fairies:

http://books.google.de/books?id=qTYK...Cannon&f=false

27/Sep/2013
Volume Adjustment (La-La-La)

This is another funny one. And it seems I'm not the only one who has fun. I wanted to try out CAVE (Clairaudient Astral Void Experience) again, including my helpers Claus & Michael, so I called out for them in my mind all day long. CAVE not always works but sometimes yields at least 'interesting' results or experiences. This is what happened:

Getting the joy-vibes, I roll on my back with my energy body as usual and stretch out my hand and it is grabbed as expected. I have mind-sight or no sight as usual only, being in "the void". I call out for Claus. Someone speaks and it might have been Claus' voice, but much too low-voiced and "far-off" for me. I tell him to speak up as I cannot hear/understand a thing.

Then I hear him say or even sing "la-la-la-la..." all the time, most certainly for me to check and give feedback if/when the volume gets louder. It indeed does a little. I also feel s.o. then touching my head at several points while still doing the lalala-thing. I am sure it was on the middle of my forehead (= 6th chakra, 3rd eye), I've forgotten about the other points though, maybe top of the head or throat, or back.

When I understand the lalala better I ask one of the many questions I prepared (past life, medical prescriptions, past Earth civilisations, Mars, any possible (other) home planet system etc.). I only get to ask about Sinera's last name. I hear him or maybe another male voice and get some syllables, but they do not make sense to me or if it's a name is unknown to me. He repeats it and I somehow get the impression that his voice is almost laughing or cracking up a little on a joke.

I don't remember more. I might have faded out again before I got any sensible information.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Well, I am back in the "CAVE"-game. We're working it out, it seems, making progress step by step maybe. And meanwhile we're having a laugh, me and the helper 'team' on the 'other side'. What could be better?

:cool::mrgreen:

maybe Sin-Era ought become Shin-Era, not a name, but a place in time, like NOW.

for example...etymology of era: http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/era

scrolling down on that webpage you might notice "see ne". go further and check out "si". figure "it" out for the feel of what the whole word means based upon the sum of "it's" parts. then the word becomes real, as you so yearn for "it"...to be.

"it's" a riddle within a suggestive "name" for you to personally solve. like you've come to a check point, a guarded station, given a call sign that awaits the counter sign. then you may freely pass.

reflectively, i would allow this word/name it's mirroredness as...ha're-nis, as in "the're now" or "there now".

to say, that i'd let "the guard/it" know, "there...there now, I am coming through". to be bold, as in saying, "you have no right to hold Me, as a free human being, from passing through". but nicely, with manners, assertively, ya see? like, "Get thee behind Me!"...supportively. supposrtively, because "it" would/could no longer be "shining you on".

ya see, this is the pun upon the REAL [You being the only REAL within this "scenerio"], that the real would as a self-thoughted "it" allow an actualizing "it" which is not real to hold them~self back as if one being REAL is an "it". to be bold, to be YOU.

own your NOW won, kinda sorta as only you might...if YOU being bold...will...

This why the Lord Buddha said to His pupils, "If YOU see me on the road, slay me".

one joke deserves another, and jokes often "slay me" with laughter. the laughing Buddha, because He sees to read the rue~ach road.

foundationally, all of Creation is lifted up...out...and upon The Word. thus requiring language within which to manuever/navigate...through. Paul tells us to mind the laws of that land which within we are, or "when in rome, be as the romans".

He is alerting us to the properties of language, to comparatively relate what is heard/seen to what within one's self is understood. surely within rome, the romans are best at navigating rome's law/s. humans being are always and in all ways...as humans do. thus, "its" all relative.

Going To California: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IZ-jATBq9A

i hesitate to get too long in the tooth, because I realize you don't like that in your thread here. so i will take this reply over to my bone's thread.

Sept-Oct-Nov: Space Trips So Far

As I've read for months now about so many "outer space trips" here and on the Astral Pulse too, I wanted to do this to and have it ticked off on my list of targets achieved. My main strategy was/is actually simple and supposedly "easy": Just watch "Gaia" from above a little while, and then maybe the Moon (which I so often see in dreams) or then re-visit the Human Contact Zone (with Gálaca) which I believe to be a meeting point of ETs and human projectors "above or around" Earth.

So tonight was the third short trip. Time for a first interim résumé, but the quest will continue. However, I still am not sure what it all was, as it is never too clear to me if I'm in "physical" outer space or some astral equivalent or whatever. It gets clear from the reports below why this is so. This is from my journal with a few edits or deletions:

09/Sep/2013
Outer Space

I get lucid calling out for Red Claus and Michael. I have a hand then but no one answers. We are in the Lightportal. First we stay there. Then I am drawn with a hand holding mine up through the ceiling. We are then what seems to be outer space. I see galaxies and stars swirling around me.
Later it all turns more into a dreamscape again. In one dream I am examined at my abdomen (I have a „right side“ prob there) by a Doctor who resembled one I really had a few years ago.

Comment

Maybe the later memory is a dream camouflage of a physical/medical examination (for my benefit I suppose)?

27/Oct/2013
Space Flight Attempts

I get out in darkness with a helper's hand grabbed, then after a few seconds of being drawn upward through the void I try to gain vision. First I see stars indeed and we seem to be in outer space. But then I somehow seem to "take a turn downward" and we quickly land in our house again, where my family seems to be gathering around a table. It seems even my helper is surprised saying (female voice): "Oh, yes, this sometimes happens". During that meeting, my Mom complains telling me sth about "tribulations" (and some matters to be solved?).
In later dreams or lucid attempts to "rise" I was in our garden and demanding a rope or a ladder from the sky to climb it up. After a while one indeed got down but it got itself entangled in one of our large trees. Sh*t happens. :|:wink:
In another lucid dream a guide with black skin draws me out and I again try to fly up and he seems to encourage me to try it. At one point I see his face becoming a Moon in the sky but I do not manage to get up again and finally give up frustrated.

Comment

I believe I was "held down" by "emotional gravity". You cannot "rise up" and occupy yourself with nicer matters if problems are weighing you down. Maybe this was the case here. Even my helper was surprised as "she" wanted to help me to get into "space". Actually we did, but I fell back again due to my subconscious interfering due to trouble issues.

09/Nov/2013
Gaia After All (?)

I get lucid with some vibrations and call out for Gálaca to give me a hand. It is dark and at first there's no hand but I somehow feel lifted or lifting myself. I seem in the void and moving, Then there's maybe also an invisible hand. I then see from afar three white circles, like little plates and I move towards them. As if they were a portal to „outer“ (?) space I am again in the galaxies area and see galaxies around me.
Then I ask again to see Earth from above and we steer towards one of the stars which I assume was „the“ (our solar system) sun. Then I see a planet but it has different colours somehow, a bit darker, more brownish than the expected blue-white make-up of Earth. But it looks a little like Earth with its continents although I do not remember too well.

Comment

Was it outer space? Was it Gaia? I don't know. I'll keep trying.

29/Dec/2013
Electrokinesis

Preliminaries:

I had quite a few exits recently, but could not bother to write them down here (lazy) and also keep a lot of it to myself anyway. But every now and then when sth "new" and extraordinary happens I will post it here like this time, when I had a 'result' far different from what I initially hoped for - but still interesting and "new" for me.

I put up a previously otherwise unused Computer monitor with TV-tuner on a table at the foot of my bed, a metre away. The reason was to re-inforce symbolically (or even kind of magically) my strong intent to create a kind of 'psychic screen'. It was supposed to 'materialise' on etheric/astral level and to help me communicating visually (and maybe audibly) with my Higher Self, the Akashic Records or the Larger Cosmic Consciousness in general. I wanted to try this as a kind of replacement for my mostly failed CAVE-method which I also used for data/information gathering.

So my plan is when I get lucid to call out for the screen to view the computer or video display (probably with audio) and find answers on it or view past lifes, etc. My card validation back then in April (see above) worked similarly, just without a screen display.

Although it was not planned at the outset, I put it also on electric current. So at a whim I plugged the monitor in and let it switched on. Since there's a cable TV tuner on that large monitor without it being attached to a source I had a picture which was mostly dark with a little message telling me „no signal“. I also had paper with questions 'of the day' and taped it onto the screen. Then I also put a little orgonite pyramid on the foot of the screen on the table (there's another one at the head side of my bed).

Lucidventure:

I get lucid at some point from sleep and 'find myself' in a quasi 'False Awakening' but strangely lying in my bed turned around with my head at the foot end. The bed is also a bit moved or elongated towards the direction of the foot end itself. Consequently, my head corresponded indeed to the point in (physical) space where the monitor and table were standing.

I hear a female voice from afar (more behind me where the door to my room is) and it calls my name. I somehow startle up by this (but no fear) a bit and raise my astral head getting up.

An instant later I really wake up in the „right“ position again because in the physical I hear a loud and clear electric blurp (a deep bleep, or crack, but sounding like an electronic wire overload?) coming from the monitor. The screen also might have flickered a bit (but this is not sure).

Comments:

It seems my 'astral head' was exactly on the position where the screen was, at least when I got up with my upper body alerted by the voice calling my name. So I was „in“ it? The literal „ghost in the machine“? I had wanted it to be used as an interface with/for my Higher Self, so it would even make sense that it 'became me' on an astral level?

Of course, we also hear sounds in the astral but I was sure I woke up by the physical sound that was coming to me. And most certainly it came from no other object than from the monitor while it was on with electric current flowing through it. Thus it could be „used“ because as said, it was switched on during the entire night with dark screen. I tested all the knobs and buttons but you cannot produce such a 'burp' or 'bleep' with any deliberate action. It does not have an automatic stand-by it seems, so it had nothing to do with booting up alive again (and if so for what reason since I could not touch it?).

The burp / darker bleep / crack sound was definitely unnatural. It also is not produced by this monitor otherwise, how could it? And moreover not exactly in the moment I have this experience and wake up from it.

Even more intriguing: There are small (but feeble) loudspeakers built into this TV-Tuner-monitor and thus they also were on. Could it have been that I „heard“ the voice even in the physical too, coming through the speakers? Wow. However, I still doubt it, but it is a possibility.

So next to Electrokinesis I could maybe even add EVP as another phenomenon to my list of paranormal events experienced and 'done' now.
:cool:

You prob didn't see it, but somewhere on some thread I posited a computer programed to randomly draw thin lines on the screen in arbitrary colors. I didn't have a name for it, but electrokinesis is the idea. I wondered if a pattern might evolve over time that would describe a figure or idea from my dreaming. The brain really lights up when we're dreaming and perhaps the increased electrical activity would influence the 'randomness' of the program and produce, albeit abstractly, an image. Well, that's pretty far-out.

I don't program any longer (the code I used is obsolete now) so it was nothing but conjecture. Besides, true randomness is very hard to program.

Now, to your deal. I expect the blurp you heard was hypnopompic. It was just in that phase that I clearly heard the voice of a gf telling me not to worry one morning on waking up.

Wishing you success.

02/Jan/2014
Spiderman

Lucidventure

I get lucid in a shopping street in a big city. I then enter a kind of backyard area of highrises. I decide on a whim to shape-shift into Spiderman

I shoot from my wrists (as "Spidey" does) a spider's web and then jump up the walls with it as a rope, jump between walls of highrises and skyscrapers and in backyards, make somersaults in the air, take a short rest by sticking myself at the walls without problems, jump from roof to roof, and at one point I even was hanging down from a ceiling in an enclosed area (hangar, tower, garage or whatever), like this:

http://starbaseatlanta.com/catalog/i...011%5B1%5D.jpg

At that point however I had already switched from the usual 'ego-shooter-mode' to the outside to watch myself in that costume hanging there by the spiderweb/rope. It was a lot of fun.

Comments

Of course, I also had seen some of these Hollywood flics of the past years, but the roots go deeper. As a child already, I was devouring Marvel comics. In contrast I never liked DC's Superman/Batman comics too much. Marvel was more 'natural' for me, also the personal stories and the abilities were more plausible for me, if one can say so about superhero comics. And out of all of them Spiderman was indeed the very "superhero" of my childhood days when this was by far my favourite comic book to read.

This whole experience was fun, and meant to be nothing else, sometimes we get carried away by the possibilities in the astral. But maybe it is still useful. It was a kind of 'astral training zone' that serves to get more adept at movements and tactical maneuvres of all kinds, and in producing or using tools, (regarding the shot out web-rope).

Next time' I'll choose DC's Superman nevertheless, so that I can fly again through a city, lift skyscrapers and even fly to the moon then.
;)

17/Jan/2014
The Midnight Market & A 'Rhinohound-hybrid'

Preliminaries

Many recent lucadventures of the past months were by exit into my usual "Lightportal" (childhood bedroom on the 2nd floor of my parent's house) from where I then flew out of the window on a sunny day. Nice, but not eventful. Still it is good practice to get a routine starting point. This one was a starting point bit farther out in the same city at night but not happening the first time either.

Lucidventure

Using „out-of-body now!“ I re-phase into a scene where I was before in dream-state already: the market place and pedestrian area of my home town. It is at night. I repeat the affirmation even when I am already walking this street in the direction of the central market place fountain, although I hear it as a woman's voice from out of the sky (http://www.bilder-hochladen.net/files/jgtq-2-c81e.gif).

There's no crowd yet. My first encounter is an attractive woman walking a strange animal on a leash. It looks like a mix of a greyhound/dog and a unicorn or rhino and is almost as tall as the woman (she's maybe 1,60 metres, not a dwarf-being though). They stop and turn around so I look at it more exactly. I remember either the horn is on the snout or unicorn-like on the top of the head, but I tend to the dog's nose. So it is a kind of "rhino-greyhound". Very slim and tall, but with longer grey hair and not as "naked" as most greyhounds look. I searched a while and found this deerhound painting to be at least near to what I saw - just imagine a horn on the long nose and yet overall longer hair head/snout altogether:

http://chestofbooks.com/animals/dogs...-Deerhound.jpg

I pause a while, wonder at the animal and comment to the lady how beautiful but also shy it is. It seems not to want to be touched, although in the end it approaches me again with more confidence and friendly "human" look, but I move on to the centre of the market place.

Suddenly there is a full crowd and it is a real market activity going on, still it's nighttime and everything has a nice and cozy X-mas market feeling. I seem to recognise some familiar faces (although don't remember who now) but only greet them, walking on through the path with stands to the left and right. Here's an impression:

http://farm6.staticflickr.com/5474/1...3a8e6ec8bd.jpg

My next stop is the market place fountain and I decide to test my kinetic senses by putting my hands under the sprinkling, gushing water or in the gathering pool below. I feel the water indeed 'like physical' which is amazing. Then it gets even better.

The next 'other sense' test is even more astounding. I walk on and seem to remember another point on the 'lesson plan' which maybe is connected to what a projector wrote to me in another forum very recently. I see (or manifest?) a stand with chocolate cookies and mini cakes. I take in passing a mini-cake with chocolate icing from that counter.
The seller whom I only see from the corner of my eye starts telling me what's all in it saying „It is made with...“. However, I am still walking all the time and don't get the rest of it. I just took it with me in passing and did not stop to pay (not because I was getting immoral and a thief but because I was 100% lucid and knew it was the astral and I wasn't expecting to pay anything with money here).

I taste it in my mouth and it really is okay but not overly delicious. It has also a kind of artificial flavour to me in part. I can distinguish the chocolate and the rest. It tastes „real“ enough indeed, like in the physical. There is even a nut or almond in the middle which I taste of which maybe the seller told about. A truely sensory flavourful astral experience.

I then walk on but cannot hold myself there anylonger and fade back into bed and wake up, but this time with PREES (post reentry electricity sensations) again which I have not felt with re-entry for a very long time.

Comments

What an interesting experience of training of my other 'astral senses', first the water feeling and the eating/tasting test. Maybe the taste will get better next time with more practice? Perhaps I faded out of the lucidventure because i had learnt what I had to learn in this astral simulation. Applying other senses rather than just visual and telepathic („hearing“) is a good training exercise for the Astral Body. Therefore I also noticed my energy body with PREES when getting back (see my early experiences, the first pages on this Journal with entries on it).

About the "rhino-greyhound": It was the first almost-mythical hybrid creature I saw in a projection, let alone in dreamstate either. Although „my“ animals can often take on human face expressions like it was this time too.

Dreammoods about rhinos, greyhounds and unicorns:

To see a rhinoceros in your dream suggests that you need to forge ahead toward your goals. Do not take "no" for an answer or let any obstacles sidetrack you from your destination. You need to be more aggressive.
To see a unicorn in your dream symbolizes high ideals, hope and insight in a current situation. It also symbolizes power, gentleness, and purity.
To see a greyhound in your dream represents your quiet, calm and reserved side. Greyhounds are also often synonymous with grace, speed and agility. Perhaps you need to adopt some of these qualities into some waking situation.

Interpretation attempt: The calm and reserved side of the unicorn/greyhound-creature seems to confirm my own comment during the experience of how shy this animal was. The rhino-type however seems rather to be the opposite: outward and aggessive. Referring to me, maybe it tells me I need the best of both worlds to reach my (spiritual and physical) goals? Be gentle, polite and considerate but also press forward in a more determined manner at the same time.
On a sidenote: I was not keen on 'astral sex' during this experience or with that beautiful woman who owned this creature. That's why I do not understand the horn as an allegory for being „horny“ in the astral.
:mrgreen:

26/Jan/2014
The Woman-Beggar

Preliminaries

I tried screen / tv monitor manifestation again but it was not there in the Lightportal. After my 4th exit I did sth else which is recorded here.

Lucidventure

At my last exit I decide to be a helper and am again in the Lightportal, but the vision is bad. I use the hands technique and the affirmation "Clarity Now!" and slowly the picture gets better and then even very good. I notice I phased into a big city's pedestrian/shopping zone (which I do fairly often!) that is somehow familiar and somehow not. I ask my guidance to meet s.o. who needs help (any help, no specifics such as retrievals or healing). It does not take long.

I meet an old lady who asks me for 6 cent for the bus. She needs to get to Copenhagen from Berlin (so this is Berlin?). I put out my wallet but I see it is the old and shabby one, and it is empty. I close it again, concentrate on my crown chakra while I ask God for help. I open it then again and there's a few cents in there indeed. When she sees it the lady grabs it herself out of the wallet and I let her do it. She then walks off to another old lady and gives it to her which makes me wonder. I also wonder that both wear rather the same colourful funny coat. I jokingly comment sth like 'ok, so at least it stays in the family then' and walk on looking for another person to be of assistance to. I then meet a guy but before I can speak to him I fade out and wake up.

Comments

Maybe this was „basic“ helper training although my original target (tv/computer screen communication) was missed.

Copenhagen does not make sense to me, except for the Copenhagen interpretation of Quantum Physics which I read about a few times (so it's about probable realities?). Don't have a clue about why it was 6 cents exactly, either.

Lessons learnt:

1. asking God (while concentrating on the upper chakra) helps manifesting „things“ in the Astral
2. „Clarity Now“ (Buhlman's famous affirmation) with a target or task in mind and looking at one's hand helps to get vision and/or phase to another astral place entirely since this time I also beamed out of the Lightportal into the scenery of the city where I had found a purpose.
3. offering to be a helper somehow always gets you results or at least to 'jump' to somewhere

Dreammoods on helping a beggar:
To dream that you are helping a beggar indicates that you will overcome your hardships and inadequacies.

Hope so.

Ref 17.1.14 (greyhound etc.)

Gosh, it's been too long since I've had a good AP like that. :( But I recently recorded here about a man putting his arm around me and stepping off a high ledge. It startled and annoyed me. Just as we were approaching the ground I said, "Get off me, I need to land." Once on solid ground I met two old people - not attractive to me.

I bring that up because you may have made the same mistake I did. The guy who took me off the ledge may have been a teacher. I get the same feeling about your guy with the cookies. He tried to talk to you but you wouldn't listen. The hybrid dog / unicorn/ rhino may represent a totem, but I don't know.

Marvelous dream. Thanks. :)

Concerning the cookie man: You might have honored him with a little astral money. Just because it's astral doesn't mean it's free. [you might have read my post when I squeezed a girl's buns Haha. Not moral here, not moral there.]

26.1.14

Market and money again. You manifest only a few cents but then you are concerned as to how your piddley offering will be spent. Oh well, it's 'in the family'. Seems you're window shopping with empty pockets. No intention to buy anything because you can't.

Not accusing you of 'bad character' or anything, but there seems to be a theme running through this. :-D

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Originally Posted by eyeoneblack

Ref 17.1.14 (greyhound etc.)
(...) The guy who took me off the ledge may have been a teacher. I get the same feeling about your guy with the cookies. He tried to talk to you but you wouldn't listen. (...) You might have honored him with a little astral money. Just because it's astral doesn't mean it's free.

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Hi, thanks, this is an interesting point and could be true. Helpers come in lots of 'disguises' and I had a share of that lesson in the past too. Maybe I should have rather talked to him or paid sth - if only attention.

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Originally Posted by eyeoneblack

26.1.14
Market and money again. You manifest only a few cents but then you are concerned as to how your piddley offering will be spent. Oh well, it's 'in the family'.

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Well, I think this is a bit of a misinterpretation but maybe my own description wasn't very good above.

First of all I was already on a mission to help (although a request for "money" was a surprise). I also give money to beggars in the physical often. Moreover, the offering that then manifested the second time was exactly what the lady asked for. "Service-on-demand" ;).

'Stays in the family' was not a complaint at all. I was just wondering why she gave it away again immediately although it seemed then she gave it to a 'sibling' or lookalike. My comment referred to the money staying among these 'clones', not at all to the lady's character or behaviour (not meant like "runs in the family" as a negative trait). I was just a tad amused about the situation, also about the way they looked alike. Actually, it was really funny. Maybe her fancyful clothes weren't 'rags' at all? Colourfulness looks rather 'rich' in the Astral to me. Maye she even wasn't a beggar and rather a guide too? Don't want to blow my own ♥♥♥♥♥et to loudly now, but I still see it more as a successful manifestation (combined with a helping) exercise and don't have the feeling that I failed it somehow.

But I agree, it's notable how often money and markets play a role in my dreams/projections recently. Likewise they play a role in my physical life right now, maybe that is also a cause. I am hopefully about to manifest a job after a bleak period of 2 years, probably even next week. I had my second interview with the same company just this week. Fingers crossed!
Btw, two amazing precognitive and clairvoyant dreams about this company go along with this endeavour, one was 3,5 years ago! And if it 'really' works out now then I will definitely write a post on this in the Dreams forum. I am just waiting for the firm offer / contract being sent to me one of these days. I'm optimistic and give myself a 95% chance to get that job. :D.
Btw2, maybe this is why the Dreammoods interpretation (To dream that you are helping a beggar indicates that you will overcome your hardships and inadequacies.) could make a lot of sense too.

Yes, friend. My comment sounds a little harsh on the re-read!:( Sure hope you get that job :). Goodness you may be too smart - over qualified - which is almost as bad having a criminal record in the world today :lol:. I ran into something like that.

Thanks for your dreams. They teach well. :-D

Well, your dream spun one off for me.

This morning a dream where I and some old friends from a spiritual group I long abandoned went out of town. I realized a little too late that I had forgot to bring any money. I hated to, but I asked an old gf if she would loan me $100. She did, but did I ever feel awkward. :roll:

11/Feb/2014
Akashic Screen Session Transcript #1

Preliminaries

This is about a lucidventure but also a kind of "where-do-I-go-from-here" statement.

I had this plan for a long time. It's to create the "Higher/Akashic Screen" in my Lightportal to communicate with my Higher Self and/or Akashic Records. I created the screen already during meditation-visualisation and with affirmations. It is put on a desk in my "Lightportal" - the 'save haven' where I communicate with helpers and my Higher Self as usual. I'm standing looking straight at it after 'exit' from my bed. To the left is a mirror for self-healing which I also put there by manifestation. To the right the window where I usually fly out of into the astral (the genuine "portal") in many experiences.

http://www.officialpsds.com/images/t...1-psd29071.png

Below you will find the memory transcript of the first session. But a few more comments are due:

I simplified the process in the beginning now and it seemed to work. In my modest beginner's approach, I'm following the great advice given by Tom Campbell in one of his talks on YT. He suggested that talking to your guides to retrieve verifiable or valuable info might be easier (for a newbie) done by just using a binary communication mode with y/n-questions first. He also proposed to make it even easier the colours red = no and green = yes for answers since they are easy to recognise and to "transmit". This is a brilliant idea and a good starting point.
http://www.colorblindnessfacts.com/w...rblindness.jpg
I also want to try letters and numbers later, but as many of the more experienced projectors here already know they are more difficult to recognise due to reality fluctuations in the astral. So if you don't 'trust' numbers you see or they fluctuate, colour codes might be the best solution! I will also try to watch pictures and 'movies' of past lives or whatever then. But all in due course.

For the time being, I will use the "approximation" or "encircling"-technique in order to zero in on numerical data or other detailed info.
(Example 1: born in 1900s? yes - before 1950? yes - after 1920? no - after 1910? yes - after 1915? yes - 1916? no - 1917? yes // Example 2: born in Europe? no - in America? yes - North America? no - South America ? yes - Brazil? no - Peru ? yes, then try a city there etc ...)

I had already a recent try with a TV-set a few weeks ago 'by accident' when I became lucid in a pedestrian shopping area in a big city. I went to a window where tv screens were displayed. I asked one screen to relay to me info from my Higher Self. I asked for the year of birth of Sinera. It did not yet work. There was interference and then a male voice telling me to 'forget about Sinera' and 'come to us (names a city in my north)' in order to get trained as a helper and I will have a long career ahead of me as a (lit.) "juror de jure" (= judge by law), which made me really wonder what it meant.

Then a few days ago I had a healing/retrieving experience of an older lady in her appartment - not recorded here as I grow lazy of writing all of it down. Only after I beamed the person up into the light with her and some helpers hand-in-hand (which is my technique I used before) this time I saw instead of the light or instead of fading out a kind of tv-static (snow) and this showed me that the screen was accessible then to me. As a kind of reward perhaps? However I lost it and woke up before I could make use of it.

So this another try now, and my first direct one with nothing left to chance. This time it worked for a while and this is the first session from a few days ago with the answers (colours) as I remember them. I have prepared a list with tons of questions of personal or of a more general kind, the latter especially of my hobbyhorse, the 'alternative ancient prehistory of Earth'. I love this topic as some of you might also remember by some threads I made about it. It fascinates me and I read a lot about it or watch YT vids. Maybe the love of it will help me to finally gain some 'true' information about it. I read that 'love' of sth yields results. It has power to open doors.

How valuable is the non-personal and more general 'info' here, e.g. on past Earth's history? No clue, really. I offer the information or answers here without any guarantee for anyone who reads this or even myself. Make of it what you will, so to speak. As one member of this forum once put it in her signature: "Your reality may vary". Hence it might be my reality but not yours. ;)

However, I want to re-mention at least that I did a card validation in the Lightportal with help from my HS, although I did not use the screen directly. There is another kind of indirect personal 'validation' mentioned below in the Comments section of the first transcript.

So I naively believe the codes have some validity despite the fact that I do not ask verifiable questions with verifiable answers most of the time. I am beyond that point of having to get validations, as you might know when you read in my journal or other posts here before, I had my share with intended ones (as above) and not intended ones.
This is also a fun exercise mainly. Some personal questions might be more serious (and as I am anonymous here I have no problems sharing them as well) but I do not seek 'karmic' or whatever psychological solutions for any problems with this. Fortunately, I'm not in a dire life situation after all.

Once again, whoever will to read about my 'findings' from these sessions (I plan to do many!) take it with a grain of salt if you will.

Lucidventure / Transcript

Here we go with Session 1. In blue font I always only give the memory transcript as 'raw' as possible, without any further ado or what happened 'around it'. Screen colour codes put are in (...). This one is still very short. But it's a start, after all.

MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #1 (11 Feb 2014) ME: Am I an autist? SCREEN: No. (Red) ME: Is Sinera an incarnation and past life of mine? SCREEN: Yes. (Green) ME: Is Sinera born in the 1800s (= 18something)? SCREEN: No. (Red)

Comments

After this last question I made the mistake to ask for the date directly instead of progressing with y/n methodology trying the encircling (see above). I then somehow intuitively 'received' the number 1799. But I need to re-ask this question with the approximation-technique next time. I then asked further questions but the screen had vanished and I was teleported into a room with a group of people who gave partly contradictory, partly nonsensical answers. Apart from that, my own protocol dictates that I will only 'accept' and include into the transcripts the Akashic Screen's colour code answers (y/n) anyway.

In that scene I also saw a broom on the floor. A broom signifies to clean up that past (see Dreammoods). Another hint that my 'guidance' maybe wants me to do other things and leave the past alone. But I love knowledge and will try to carry on anway. I will also not only ask past-related questions.

Further validity that it might NOT be my conscious or subconscious expectation directing the answers (and thus a self-delusion) is that fact that I really did not at all expect the answer "not in the 1800s". This is a surprise! I firmly had her located somehow in the (mid-)1800s before from my data and deductive reasoning. However, according to the style of her hair and attire, 1799 would still make sense as it shows early 1800s fashion for a young lady then. You see, it's a detective's work. I will soon make a post here when I collate all the data and conclusions "so far" about Sinera as it is now scattered across so many posts here in this journal. But first I will ask more questions.

Note that I use the term "18something" to denote the 19th century, and so on. I hope and believe the Akashic Record (Screen) "understands" this way of asking semantically.

I don't know if I should be relieved about not being an autist. I might ask about introversion or mild Asperger's anyway next time. Also I want to know what went wrong (if so) during and after my birth (I'm cesarian and then had cradle cap / milk crust as baby). It seems I absolutely refused to come out into this cruel and strange world. :mrgreen:

Yeah, so many questions, so little time ...

19/Apr/2014
Sinera In France & Egypt

Preliminaries

I did not record here for a long time. Since this one belongs to the Sinera / (other) past life research project I put it here again for consistency and the sake of adding more pictures to the confusing 'puzzle'. It's fascinating detective's work. I love it. :)
The most notable other projections in the last two months was that I had a healing experience with a rabid dog in the astral, holding my hands pointing to his head beaming light Reconnective Healing style. Maybe I should become an animal healer instead. Anyway, here we go on with Lady In Red / Sinera.

Lucidventure

I am somehow getting (a bit more) lucid while I fly through the window from my Lightportal. I fly through a daylight zone of different elements on the ground and land on a spot remembering one target. I ask for Sinera to appear and answer some questions to me directly (did not remember a screen).

She appears out of thin air. I was not sure from her looks it was her although she might have worn her red dress indeed. That's why I first ask her if it is her to be sure. She says "Yes". Then somehow the communication mode changes and question-answer is done in hand-writing on a paper or scroll. I see her answers written but not her anymore.

I ask if she is an incarnation of mine and I read on the paper a clear „Yes!“ again. I keep staring at the scroll and see some French names then that she wrote in her „female handwriting“ (not mine definitely) and it reads sth like „Antoinette“ and then „Francis“ or even „France / frances“, looking like a kind of signature.

Then comes a surprise turn of events. I'm suddenly holding a small stone tablet in my hand (wrapped in white cloth a bit, I have to unravel it) featuring a typical wall relief of walking Ancient Eyptians. It is a pair ('couple') who are walking hand in hand in the typical 2-D style of that time. A bit like this, just the two hand-in-hand, probably male and female:

http://s14.directupload.net/images/1...p/w3a6d5e5.jpg

There's a bit more in the picture, maybe pyramid or triangle shapes - one maybe indicating direction, maybe a sun or lightsource, but details escaped me. I made a rough drawing and uploaded it:

http://s1.directupload.net/images/140420/2xur4jxv.jpg

What she tells me is even more mind-blowing:

"We were a couple back then in 3775 (BC?) in Egypt. And we brought the 'cinema' to the people."
:shock:

(Later upon noting it down it could also have been 3750, it is the trouble with longer numbers in communication that we tend to forget them or mix them up. The way I understood it during the experience was that it indeed meant "B.C.".)

I then am given also a small light-blue pyramid gemstone. It is out of a collection of other gemstones, some are light blue and some are yellow. They seem to be on display on a table and I was given the light blue as a gift. The yellow ones each seem to have a golden little capstone on top. Here's an example similar to the small blue one I held in my hand, but the edges were not so sharp

http://www.crystalsrocksandgems.com/...tepyramids.jpg

So all in all it is two gifts, the walking Egyptions relief and the blue gemstone in pyramid shape. Both relating to our time together in Egypt, that's what she seems to convey telepathically to me. I do not remember more of the experience.

Comments

First on the French connection:

It's a leap, but anyway: Maybe Antoinette and Francis / France refer to the time zone when Sinera was born. It would fit the information (pre-1800 birth, probably 1799) from the transript above!
Marie Antoinette ruled as queen in France til around 1793 when she was executed, her father was indeed named „Francis I“ (I did not know this before) and it is of course all taking place in France during the time of the revolution. Francis could also have been „frances“ which means French or is another female name too. As numbers are difficult to download maybe this was a way to communicate / confirm it to me?

So Sinera is French born in the 1790ies? I remember in one experience when I hear her voice she also had a kind of French accent when speaking German to me. This would corroborate it. I already was given the date pre-1800 (intuitively 1799, see last Transcript 1) for her birth date. So this would also corroborate it! (She being my incarnation is yet another point from the transcript #1 confirmed again). Does the puzzle come together piece by piece now?

On the Egypt connection:

If she's my incarnation but „we“ were a couple (as shown) back then in pre-dynastic Egypt ... what on Earth is going on here after all ?!? From several books on past life regression (e.g. D. Cannon) I know that parallel lives is a possility, although not done too often. Was it such a thing? A double incarnation of the same soul (Higher Self) with two soul parts (avatars) at one time? A split: One was more of the Sinera-part (female) one more of who I am now? The „WE“ might of course mean the entire Higher Self which spoke to me through her (another incarnation), but the 'couple' still remains. Or maybe we weren't in human bodies at all? :?

The gemstone was most likely an „Angelite“ piece. It might refer also to contact with angels, and I tried to do this again lately asking for assistance and for help. I did not know a gemstone called "Angelite" before! My search results find this type most often for a light-blue pyramid gemstone (calcite is another option and it would also explain the yellow type). Still, it all also clearly refers to Egypt.

The year 3775 or 3750 BC does not yield a lot of results in orthodox Egyptology. It was predynastic and not much is known, there is a culture that is called Naquada-1/2 and they have some cultural artifacts (sculptures, pottery) associated to them. Or was it meant as 3750 years ago instead? Then it would be the Middle Kingdom and there was indeed a cultural and economic upswing.

References:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Naqada_culture / http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prehistoric_Egypt / http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Middle_...Middle_Kingdom

And then there was the reference to an Egyptian ruler called „Besh“ in another projection of mine. This was also prehistoric Egypt long before 3100 BC (and the Narmer palette which marks the unification of the two kingdoms in that era). Probably 3775 BC, so is there a link?

„Bringing cinema to the people“ is certainly the most puzzling riddle to solve here. Taking it as a dream symbol is maybe not useful since „cinema“ was only mentioned but I was not in it in the dream/projection. Most symbol dictionaries give meanings when you experienced it and thus it seems not to fit the context, at least imv. Here's just one interpretation that could fit:

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Long before television, cinema was the means for news dispersal and letting people know what existed in the world. To exit the cinema asks you to share what you know with others – bring it out onto the street.

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http://www.dream-analysis.com/dictionary/page21.htm

So, it is about bringing knowledge? So could cinema have been a metaphor for theatre and culture in general maybe? Maybe it was a secret mystery school or sth and „we“ taught sth there? Cinema is also a huge lightsource where everyone looks at to get the movie, maybe it was some kind of (cultural, spiritual, technological) en“light“enment? Also, the word cinema could relate to film-making in general, maybe it wasn't 'film' but sth about data storage and documentation? Or did it even have to do with pyramid building (hence the gemstone shapes)? Always I end up with more questions than answers received it seems.

THE QUEST CONTINUES !!!
:cool:

My "Vintage" APs (Without Knowing They Were)

Introduction

Since recently I've been on a dry period again, I thought I'd do a different kind of "update", a nostalgic backdate, so to speak. This excerpt is an unedited copy from a "normal" diary I had back then. Yes, should you wonder, I had done it in English indeed like my OBE journal later because the 'foreign' language allowed my the inner distance to do the personal writings I would not have done otherwise (not even started one in the first place).

So this is the original which I remembered and re-discovered recently. I wonder why I did not recall it when I started this diary to talk about my 'first' AP/OBEs.

It is funny to see how the Larger Consciousness System (to borrow TC's term this time) gave me a nudge in the right direction already back then.

2009 was the year I had started on my active spiritual journey altogether. The beginning was however not so good when in spring that year I had tried a regression hypnosis that failed, so I was a bit frustrated. Still I read some books about reincarnation and one also about Buddhism, iirc. This was the same year from where this journal record started - see first page in this journal.

However, this entry here was a few months before my NDE in the hospital of September the same year (see my first account in this journal) or the first intended OBE later. Back then in mid-2009 I did know and experiment a bit about dream programming (asking questions and waiting for an interpretable answer) and had just learnt about lucid dreaming (see text!). But I did not even really know what Astral Projection meant! Can you imagine? ;) And I only knew the term OBE in connection with NDEs and did not really know how and that you could do it without being in a life threatening situation. I also had started a beginner's Yoga class the day before which I saw right now in the column to the right (not copied here), maybe that also had an influence?

There is reference to another "strange dream" from Feb 2003. It was on a trip to London for a training with my company. This is not from the diary as nothing was recorded but I give an account of it below, too, because it was another AP in the form of a False Awakening due to stressful alertness - which is what I today 'know', but of course did not back then in 2003, it was just a very, very very strange dream :mrgreen:.

It is also funny to note how both of them have to do with the checking of electric appliances. But I assume that is just a(nother) coincidence. :wacky1: (The '3' in the orange field is a day rating I gave each day, 1-5 with 3 as the usual middle value. The "confirmation" refers to a dream question I put each night, I had a result from a night before that I wanted to have confirmed.).

17/Jul/2009
First "Lucid Dream": Electric Failures

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dreams are strange sometimes

well first of all I did not dream any confirmation, but this night was nevertheless interesting

yesterday night had my first dream research on the internet, ordered a book and CD by Stephen Laberge, the most famous dream researcher and got other info about „LUCID DREAMING“ whcih means gaining active control and better memory from you dreams

I already read about „false awakening“ and the fact that in dreams light switches don't work.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/False_awakening

I experienced both this night/ morning!

the same thing that was even clearer to me in Feb 03 when in London in the hotel

but also this time... I „woke up“ in „my bed“ as usual, pushed the light switched, noticed it does not work, tried a few times, looked around the corner and saw that the light of the electric cable adapter was flickering again, but I had replaced it by a new one a few months ago, then I laid back and was a bit angry that I had to exchange the light bulbs over my bed again..

then I woke up

so it was both, switches not working and false awakening at once

funny and strange

I also took notes of a strange dream I rememberd, so it it really an exercise thing as I could read, I might start a dream diary now

11/Feb/2003
First "False Awakening": London Hotel (The Plug)

(As said above, this is a memory transcript I do right now the first since it has not been recorded yet, just referenced as in the 2009-entry above.)

I had just checked in late that day in a London hotel on my company's account. I was very nervous and had my alarm clock set several times. I did not want to miss the start and to be too late in the office the next morning. It was my first time in our English subsidiary then. I somehow had a feeling or anxiety that I might miss it by oversleeping because I would not hear the alarm clock or it would have been forgotten to be set.

During the night in that bed I woke up (for real) several times and checked if the alarm clock really was set with the little button pulled out. It was. So I went to sleep again.

The next mornig the alarm clock went off and I was happy that I did not miss it. I got up and was busy immediately. I put on my clothes. I reflected a bit on the day ahead. I might have eaten sth (not sure). I went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth. I washed myself. Then I decided to have an electric shave. I fetched my electric razor from my bag and went back to the bathroom. All was business as usual. I might also have checked the clock again to make sure I was not too late. In the bathroom I was about to put the cable and plug into the socket. It was a European socket. Like this:
http://www.stylepark.com/db-images/c..._488_336-1.jpg


Wait a minute! This is not possible. Why is that? I'm in England, they have three slots, not two holes like we have, and the plug's form is different. Why is it European/German? And I have bought an adapter even.

This is what was to be expected actually:
http://www.24hourmuseum.org.uk/conte.../2007_1969.jpg

That woke me up. I glanced at the alarm clock, afraid that I might have missed the right time. But it was just a few minutes early, a few minutes (or even one? not sure anymore) before the alarm would have gone off to awake me. Another possibility is that the timer indeed DID go off an this awoke me (I do not remember this clearly), but my realisation that sth wasn't right was definitely the thing that woke me up anyway in the dream.

24/May/2014
Gaia

I am in the blind state (the void) as so often and direct my 'gaze' at my hands in order to start my phasing technique that helps me to gain vision or change planes (or both).

I demand to be taken into outer space to see Gaia from above again, for the second time.

After a while it works indeed and I get on my vision: I hover seemingly in outer space and am looking at the Earth from a distance. The watery areas look much darker blue than you normally expect from photos, but they also vary as we all know.

Here's a similar example of how I saw it:

http://www.ithaka-journal.net/ithaka...6547305_xs.jpg

I do not stay 'up there' long and dive down again. As I am 'diving down' I start to feel my body again but am still experiencing the visuals of outer space or darkness (void again). It's the usual mind-split experience (more on that later!).

Then for a while I see parts of the Earth still, as if I would leaf through an atlas book with different maps being shown to me or a kind of click-through on a computer software or tv program showing the different maps in rapid succession. Then I am back on (astral) Earth again.

Comments

She's beautiful.

24/May/2014
Chakra Singing

I had several exits that night. This is another short one. I am again in blind state / the void but feel like I am in the Lightportal again and feel like singing a song again, it's a song of my own with stupid lyrics as no common tune occurred to me that moment (rather strange for a former musician).

The void / black background remains but I see again a 'chakra spiral galaxy' moving before the dark background. The 'wheel' / galaxy is also turning all the time and giving off sparks in all directions.

Here's just an example. I only see one spiral all the time but each has several colour sparks going off from them, but there's also always one dominant colour each time.

http://www.dailygalaxy.com/.a/6a00d8...898c970b-500wi

The astounding thing is that it changes colour according to which chakra I concentrate on. I can do this since I still am in a mind-split situation where I still feel my body.

So it is e.g. green when I concentrate on my breast/heart area, or gets blue/violet when I concentrate on the head area or reddish-orange when I go low.

Comments

This isn't the first time, see here, but it is alway a nice and "different" experience again. The singing really causes the chakras to be visualised - one at a time though. Interesting.

Of course, I might have done it subconsciously, but on the other hand it is still cool how I did NOT consciously will the colours to appear (e.g. "I want a green one now") according to the body part focussed on, but rather it was the other way round.

http://dominicanewsonline.com/news/w...as-221x300.jpg

I did the energy work or focussing only and waited and observed how the moving spiral colours turned out to be. They turned out 'right' most of the time. Amazing.

:D

Hi, Sinera. I was talking to a friend yesterday and related to him a dream from long ago that may be similar to your mind/split experience. The gist of which is that at first I was looking at the floor of a garage with building materials and tools in view. I attempted to step over the 2-by-fours and square but I was frozen in place - couldn't mover at all, not even my eyes. Next I was in the hall of my parents' house. I knew where I was, but I couldn't see a thing - totally dark. I could switch from the garage to the hall and back, but with the same consequence. I felt my way through the hall toward the kitchen where I knew there was a phone so I could call a friend and tell him what happened.

Telling my buddy yesterday, I arrived at a psychological interpretation; that I was experiencing a situation in life that I could see clearly but there was nothing I could DO about it, and conversely, if I were to do something about it I couldn't see clearly what to do.

Is this at similar to your experience of 'mind/split'?

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Is this at similar to your experience of 'mind/split'?

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It could well be related to it but I don't know. It might be similar. You had a dream and another dream so to speak and you switched to and fro.

The 'mind-split' that I talk about and experience quite often is that you feel your physical body lying in bed but at the same time you are also "in" your Astral Body out and experiencing a lucid dream/projection. You are at two places simultaneously. Sometimes you also experience double visions.

Some (Monroe?) also call it 'focus overlay'. As we are all multidimensional beings it does not make me wonder too much that we can experience this since I believe we exist on multiple planes at the same time anyway, we're just not aware of it from the physical mind perspective.

I remember Robert Bruce wrote a lot on the topic of a mind split 'effect' too but cannot exactly remember it now and if it is the same way how I mean it.

I understand what you're saying, Sinera. I recently read a book, Hallucinations, by Oliver Sacks which described physiological and psychological processes that were very similar to what we adventurers in Otherwhere experience. I began to wonder if we should ignore, as we do, the possible psychological nature of say, LDreaming. In other words, recasting my split/mind dream in psychological terms was another dimension I hadn't considered before.

So you are aware simultaneously of being in bed and being in the dreamscape. I'm just asking, might there be a psychological aspect to that experience?

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Originally Posted by eyeoneblack

So you are aware simultaneously of being in bed and being in the dreamscape. I'm just asking, might there be a psychological aspect to that experience?

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In my view, no, I don't think so, provided that I understand right what you mean by 'psychological' here, e.g. sth like dream symbol interpretation? I do that a lot for normal dreams, but also for lucid dreams/projections (we had discussions about it above, e.g. the greyhound, etc.).

The 'mind-split' is a phenomenon of a projection for me and it also occurs to many other people (e.g. Robert Bruce and CFTraveler, as far as I know and remember). So it is a general "symptom" that can occur, just like energetic symptoms that occur then, e.g. vibrations, kundalini energy (rare), re-entry electric goosebumps (my specialty), the astral cord and gravity (tugging) or all of the usual kinetic effects such as raps and telekinesis which e.g. Sylvan Muldoon wrote a lot about.

Are these occurrences 'psychological' in nature? I don't think so either. You see, for me it's rather a 'technical' issue than a 'psychological'. ;)

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The 'mind-split' is a phenomenon of a projection for me and it also occurs to many other people (e.g. Robert Bruce and CFTraveler, as far as I know and remember). So it is a general "symptom" that can occur, just like energetic symptoms that occur then,

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Yep. I just call it bilocation, but I do agree I think it's a version of what Robert calls the mind split.

As for psychological, I do think there's a psychological aspect to it (but not pathological) and that is that the mind is now accepting and parallel-processing both experiences instead of reinterpreting and serializing them, due to preconceived notions of what is possible.
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Originally Posted by eyeoneblack

This being a work in progress it can only represent another step along the way for me. Besides, sometimes I just like to think and write and while away the morning. Your thoughts are most welcome.

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May I please suggest that I express my thoughts then to this in a separate thread which you could make? I would suggest you make one maybe in one of the dreams or AP forums or the spiritual development or philosophy subforum. I'm afraid that this is now steering away too far from the scope of a personal OBE journal. I promise I will read there and try to voice my thoughts on your thoughts there. No offence meant, I just think this is getting way too offtopic here since you seem to muse about the nature of our (dream...) reality in general here and that this would perhaps best be done in a separate thread where it also gets more attention it deserves by other readers and thinkers of this forum who could then maybe contribute more, too. :-)

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Originally Posted by CFTraveler

Yep. I just call it bilocation, but I do agree I think it's a version of what Robert calls the mind split.

As for psychological, I do think there's a psychological aspect to it (but not pathological) and that is that the mind is now accepting and parallel-processing both experiences instead of reinterpreting and serializing them, due to preconceived notions of what is possible. .02.

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Indeed I agree. The psychological development might be a (subconscious) trigger for this mode of experience in a way. And yes, 'bilocation' is a very good word for this, too.

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I'm afraid that this is now steering away too far from the scope of a personal OBE journal.

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You're right. I'll set it up tomorrow.

I put it on Psychic/Spiritual board under Random Musings.

20/Sep/2014
Meeting Granny

Preliminaries / Background

Granny Anna died in late 1989. (My Mom who helped to care for her on her death bed back then told me recently it was exactly on the day the Berlin wall fell. When she had died they turned on the TV just so and found out that people were cheering all over Berlin and Germany, what an irony.). I have fond memories of her. She was my Dad's mom and visited us 2-3 times per year to live with us from time to time for a few weeks at our home, because she lived in a town further away (2 hours drive).

Currently, I asked a lot of helpers, my HS, God and who/whatever to help me find a job to get out of my financial misery. But also to finance my path/training as an alternative healer. Since I remembered that Granny Anna was a great fan of complementary nature medicine (she kept herself healthy and died at old age over 90, she'd reached almost 100.) I also asked her for help. I also visualised her banging with her walking stick on the table of some of the staff managers forcing them in her local native German dialect to "Now, listen, mate, you give my grandson a job now, for God's sake!" (humour is important for me when I do this).

Strangely, the days around doing this I found a job by some "lucky coincidences". Her work? Who knows. She was a very energetic, determined and resolute person. I could imagine her (HS) having a hand in it indeed. That's just the way she was.

Lucidventure

I project to a kind of hall or lobby which resembles part my old university part the visualised naturopath practice lobby/house I try to manifest. I talk there to a helper who is moving upstairs but stops to give me an answer. I asked him before how to recognise real helpers but do not remember the answer. Then I ask him how to contact my Gran (who also is a chosen 'helper' see above) and know it is her 'for real'.

He says that I should (literally!) speak enough prayers and it will happen. At the same time I look to the entrance (glass) door and outside I see a woman approaching.

She is in 'vintage' clothing. Somehow maybe 1900s or 1800s style, maybe rural, she has a long country dress. She wears a flat lady's hat with a ribbon.

Then there's a strange time jump. I am still with the helper but am also hearing the lady's voice talking to me while I still see her at the door or as she's approaching me. I 'decide' then to fully phase into the conversation and this is then where I am, standing face-to-face to her. But not her alone!

I now recognise that she wears a baby in her arms. She tells me it's my Dad. She's Gran.

:whatthe:

I caress the baby's cheek while she seemingly thereby shows me that this is how they both looked back then when she had just conceived him. I do not remember more of the experience (unfortunately) and fade back.

Wow. :shrug:

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I don't know. Strange. I'm skeptical. I want to be. All my own thought forms? However, it's intriguing.

Foremost I need to say that my Dad is still alive at old age today. Okay, she might have 'projected' the image in her arms and I think that once incarnated friend souls can 'appear' to us however (and how old) they want to. Normally they choose sth we recognise them by, or appear at the age when we knew them best. Maybe she 'projected' the image of the baby to show what she wanted to show: the (genetic, emotional, family, blood) lineage. Maybe that's why she did not appear as the familiar "Granny" to me.

I mean, we know our older family members often only as 'old' and sometimes forget that they lead a full life, including childhood, adolescence, adulthood with family life, job, etc, don't we?

Unfortunately, I cannot verify her appearance since the oldest photographs of her are already as an old lady. No vintage stuff exists. This is no trace to follow. I do not want to ask my Dad about it in specific (maybe about old pics though...). I don't tell any things like this to my family.

Two things that intrigue me most: 1. Her face. 2. Her hat.

I remember her face 'somewhat' and I can say the young lady could (could!) indeed be the young version of my Gran. There is some facial character expressions and similarity (when I run the aging/morphing mode in my mind's eye) that could really be her. It could fit.

Her overall age could fit too with the 'baby'. I reckon that she must have been around her 30ies when she conceived my Dad (in 1930). This is possible, although at first glance I would have said she was maybe in her (late) twens. But hey, there is a range. I have a lot of aunts and uncles. She was a 'busy' mother with 7 children altogether, my Dad being the youngest but one. So a lady in her 30ies with child is possible. The stern, self-assured and energetic look on her face was there too, plus the possible facial 'similarity'.

And then there's this 1930ies hat. This was one of the fashioned hats back then indeed (besides that 20ies-'helmet'-like thingy). I googled some as an example that are similar to it (see example pics). So this would fit too and I cannot fathom why I should have made THAT one up now.

http://hats.1930s-fashions.co.uk/hat...-retro-hat.jpghttp://astimesgobye.com/wp-content/u...adies-hats.jpghttp://hats.1930s-fashions.co.uk/hat...intage-hat.jpg

Last not least: another strange coincidence that occurred to me just now. September 19th is my Dad's birthday! This lucidventure happened in the night from the 19th to 20th!. Maybe another reason why I was shown the newborn in his mother's arms?
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Maybe I'll try a re-contact soon. Could be interesting.

(Note: I will post a lucadventure from today soon here, because this is what I wanted to write down here today in the first place, but then thought this one from a few days ago would be a worthy post, too. More to follow soon.)