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been feeling a lot of heart chakra pain and frustration lately along with apathy. i think i need to just go out socially.
-sleep
-rest
-ibuprofen
-music
-doing my dishes
-fashion
-pictures
-pinterest
-music
-feeling so creative lately
-my outdoor cats
-being able to see
-softening my perspectives
-healing
-that it's springtime
-doing more studying today
-making a to do list before bed last night
-cleaning my bed and room
-watching TV episodes online
-physical exercise
-starting to feel slight short bursts of excitement lately about life,it's possibilities,and past happy things.i think i'm in a realization phase.
-feeling more like myself since being off antipsychotics. i never want to be on one again.
-getting out of the house for a bit today to pick up prop i needed for upcoming project im doing
-laughing
-looking like a model
-self compassion
-relaxation
-sweet soda
-ashwagandha
-hot guys
-prints
-cuteness
-my sense of style
-those that have appreciated me
-unique beauty
-seeing the law of attraction at work
-compassion
-my vibration rising a little bit lately
-deep cleansing breaths
-having things i want to do
-opportunities
-hip openers
-my body feeling better since exercising more again
-beauty
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-relaxing music
-chlorophyll
-ashwagandha
-my body feeling stronger
-feeling more attractive
-sitting outside for a couple minutes a few minutes ago and how amazing it felt. i felt that inner excitement again.
-nightskies
-inspiration
-twitter
-deep cleansing breaths
-dry mouth mouthwash
-my idea i had to get a refill for the antidepressant that i want without going to the doctor since i dont want to wait a month to be on it
-the word believe
-self appreciation
-positive inner knowings
-seeing my outdoor cats play
-nice weather
-my sparkly avant-garde looking zara sweater
-creativity
-being smart
-booking TWO upcoming travels
-cleaning my room
-doing my dishes
-M's husband giving me $20
-getting all caught up on emails
-watching some TV episodes online
-mustard. so random yet so tasty.
-getting the next certificate i've been studying for the last few days
-M's friend D texting me. It was a very sweet text.
-yoga
-physical exercise
-entertainment
-talking to my mom on the phone tonight
-getting an appointment for a dental cleaning done
-trying to keep my thoughts positive and aligned with what i want
-happy memories and reflecting
-the internet
-my dolce&gabbana sunglasses
-a friend texting me an invite to something
-feeling more like myself again
-being off antipsychotics
-finding norpramin in my drawer and taking that today since i cant keep taking remeron. i know i'm not supposed to be doing the med situation like this but for now i have to.
-the camera quality in my phone being higher
-thinking i looked cute in some pics i took of myself today
-getting excited about work,and being social and life in general again.i feel like this way blocked while on antipsychotics. everything just felt whatever.i also feel less "odd."
-smiling
-my child-like side
-seeing a new black cat with white on it coming to the yard. he is friendly and looks well kept so i am guessing he has a house family. now that i think of it,it mostly seems like my outdoor cats only ever have problems with cats that are other ferals.
-seeing W cat and dad cat sitting on neighbors porch chair today. so cute.
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feeling crabby but then i realized,i only took 1/5 of one of the med's im using to keep stable until my ssri comes in,i'm on a no soda day,didn't sleep a full sleep,frustrated by how low my bank account is and my checks not coming,M has been being a jerk to me,it's understandable i feel a little crabby. i seen G again today at work. i've been seeing him more again lately,looking more and more cozy with my boss each time which is all odd considering i'm almost done working there. it just all sort of feels like a story playing out and at this point i'm in sort of detach and observe mode waiting to see how it's all going to play out like i'm watching a movie and wanting to see how it's all going to end. the way it's playing out at this point,i literally feel like it's meant to tug at my attention,meant to show me the storybook nature of it all. it's just all really weird. makes me think of robert hopcke's book there are no accidents,one of the books that is a favorite of mine and a pivotal read for me. also,i feel like i'm becoming a hipster.
-accomplishing my goal on my to-do list of getting the online certificate i had been studying for.
-accomplishing my goal on my to do list of going to the meetup today. it was awful. everyone was older then me and 9-5 er types i could just not relate to but they were all nice and seemed super interested in me. at least i was social and usually when i do something like this after a miss,i end up getting a hit the next time around doing something like this.
-the pretzels and spiced carrots hummus dish i ordered today. the pretzels were amazing.
-the kentucky mule i ordered. this was really good.
-uber flat fare package pricing. gosh,i love this so much. it's created so much more calm and ease in my life.
-M being nicer to me this morning for some reason.
-heels
-amazing weather today. was so nice out.
-G from the yoga studio complimenting my hair today. he's like the only person since it's been colored who's commented on it.
-my phone and how high quality the camera is on it.
-vsco
-twitter
-facebook
-instagram
-catching up on some reading today
-being almost done with current article im working on
-water
-ashwagandha
-prada candy perfume
-sweaters
-leggings
-fashion
-being stylish
-being pretty and attractive
-having nice curves
-appreciating myself more on the new higher quality camera my phone has now
-my job tommorow
-makeup
-doing some journaling today
-kind-heartedness
-work people i communicated with in last 24 hours being helpful/working with me on things i brought up
-deep cleansing breaths
-my job at the yoga studio
-my boss at the yoga studio. going to my meetup made me more grateful for her since i vibe so well with her
-blankets
-trying to believe in things i want
-coffee
-chlorophyll
-hip openers
-physical exercise
-feeling excitement for life surges lately
-doing some research on upcoming trips
-new and innovative concepts
-hot guys
-animal lovers
-people somehow being inspired by me.i often feel invisible and awkward yet somehow i notice people pay a lot of attention to me or tell me how much they've inspired me while showing strong emotions in some form or another(crying,getting really excited and starting to take notes,etc,etc)
-the solar plexus and theta musics playlist i'm listening to
-coolness
-my teddybear hairbrush
-the industries i have worked in
-getting my power back
-empathy
-quiet
-inspiration
-unique beauty
-moving up to 3 days a week of no soda
-sending some emails out for 2nd business to get some things going with that
-touch
-clean clothes
-sleep
-reflection
-art
-happy memories
-decluttering
-having lived a pretty full life with lots of accomplishments,dreams come true,and ranges of incredible experiences
-newness
-forward movement
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-being an artist
-doing my job yesterday and finally feeling like a ----- again
-how great the makeup was at my job yesterday
-how amazing the quality is on my camera phone.i took behind the scene pictures that looked like pictures on a professional camera! eerie.
-how amazing i look on the new phone camera. i took selfies today and the last few days and the camera just makes it so much easier. my skin looks amazing on them!
-being in a creative industry
-music
-art
-being a creative person
-getting several great shots of what i was trying to create the other day
-cool phone apps
-inspiration
-how freaking amazing the weather was today.
-making a list of all the fun summer things i'd love to do this year
-sweet soda
-food at my job being provided the other day. they also brought coffee and wine.
-having T kitten in the house for a bit today and him cuddling up on my bed
-having a dream of T cat being back.
-my room being clean
-having nice curves
-looking like a model
-fashion
-friendly people
-kind-heartedness
-having a kind heart
-beauty
-makeup
-glamour
-great views
-security guards in buildings
-trying to take loving myself actions
-instagram
-twitter
-facebook
-having a lot going for me
-seeing my money has been sent and should be in my account anyday now
-touch
-physical exercise
-backbends
-people who are kind to animals
-trying to be stronger and raising my vibe
-flip-flops
-realizing i am better then i think i am
-M getting me a brownie the other day
-self compassion
-fun
-being smart
-hot guys
-positive/soothing self talk
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-inspiration,innovation,and new things to try
-sunshine and how good the warm sun felt on me
-finally getting the curtains i've been wanting
-going to work today even though i didn't want to
-fashion and style
-seeing people trying to do things to make me feel better
-having nice,healthy looking teeth
-iced coffee
-positive/reassuring self talk
-my beauty
-being an artist
-doing the cleaning i wanted to do
-new ideas
-deep cleansing breaths
-orangeade vitamin water
-feeling more excited for life again
-quiet
-laying down
-colors
-vibrancy
-himalayn pink salt flavored ghee butter
-squats
-physical exercise
-sleep
-waking up feeling well rested today
-pillows
-ashwagandha
-checking things off my to-do list
-water
-my dolce&gabbana sunglasses
-how amazing the quality on my phone camera is
-instagram
-feeling rejuvenated
-my ysl volupte tint lipstick
-my room being clean
-being talented
-putting money in my savings
-the fan in my room
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have had such strange nightmares in the last 24 hours. this morning,there was different people who kept trying to put a snake on me. My best friend from h.s was in the dream in the beginning. I kept trying to run away from the people. I even was running past a two headed large dog. I then found myself going down through a playground to get away and the person following me did end up getting the snake on me,and there was a general feeling in the dream of intuitive thought between me and the others that it's not going to harm me. I then woke up. I think the dream was a psychic dream. I was thinking of R from my past a lot before bed and alot of the dream symbolisms had to do with him. The h.s best friend is the girl who knows him as well. We met him at the same time,she became his friend's girlfriend,and ended up sharing a connection with him as well that i envied. Me and R,when we had our experience that was my first sexual experience,it was at a park in a playground,very similar looking to the one in my dream. There was other things too that made me think right away this connected to him somehow but i dont remember anymore. Tonight,I ended up taking a nap,and had a dream that I found a letter in my father's closet of a child's drawing my brother had made with a date saying when he planned to murder me. Now,looking back,I wonder if he was the one,or one of the people trying to put a snake on me in the dream this morning. My brother hates me for some reason. He has lots of anger issues. He was someone in 2015 I believed was psychic attacking me that I made a post about on here. I used to feel so much empathy for him until i realized his hate and anger towards me is just too much animosity. The last time we spoke was in September. He randomly texted me such ugly things included calling me a b---- and threatening to come to my house and harm me saying things like he would break my teeth and saying awful insults meant to make me feel bad myself...all i had done was texted him to check on him. I sometimes still worry about him and ask my parents how is he.
-getting positive inner knowings more and more about some things
-going to acupuncture today. the guy did tui na and cupping as well which felt amazing.
-the sweet taste of sugary soda
-uber-ing by myself to my appointment and back and enjoying the freedom of that,and the growing i am doing as a person
-the internet
-water
-coffee
-chlorophyll
-seeing little H kitten(or cat as he may be just about a year old now) popping his head in the door looking for me. so cute.
-donating a few dollars to hsus
-newness
-fashion
-hip openers
-having some cuddle time with T kitten
-calling up hospital billing to fix issue that they had
-my therapist calling today to check up on me
-confirming a few jobs for next month to exceed my current minimal financial goals
-becoming more and more financially abundant
-self compassion
-friendly people
-having nice lips
-having a illustrator who is excited and seems to be a fit for the concept i've been directing.
-ideas
-the industry i work in
-the color green
-listening to heart chakra solfeggios and thetas music playlist last night and a throat chakra and solfeggios playlist right now.
-pinterest
-vegan veggie burgers with mustard
-chickpeas curry
-sweeping my room
-keeping my room more cleaner lately and how much more clearer it helps my mind feel
-sunshine
-nice weather today
-the green grass,the green leaves on the trees
-oneness
-art
-my teddy bear hairbrush
-my docle&gabbana sunglasses
-my skin looking super good lately
-healing
-sweaters
-smiling
-checking things off my to-do list
-meditating last night
-praying last night
-silence
-my confidence growing
-my peacock print eyepillow
-doing some visualizing last night
-gratitude
-innocence
-love
-being appreciated and valued
-my phone
-seeing the law of attraction work in positive ways
-being easy on myself
-deep cleansing breaths
-relaxation
-mustard
-touch
-being smart
-forward movement
-models
-common ground amongst others who vibe with you
-TV episodes online
-project offers
-positive affirmations
-creativity
-softness
-feminine energy
-feeling more refreshed lately
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-the crown chakra and theta music playlist i'm listening to
-waking up early today
-getting a lot done today
-being in a pretty good mood mostly today
-the beautiful,summery weather today
-going to see my mom yesterday after having not seen her in months and how good it felt to L cat and B cat and also to get rid of the DVDS I had been wanting to get rid of
-sweet soda
-my check finally being deposited today
-ordering a new cute top for work or even social occasions
-ordering a certificate for a chemical peel
-my ysl lipstick
-my teddy bear hairbrush
-my dolce&gabbana sunglasses
-showers
-ashwagandha
-physical exercise
-yoga
-having nice curves
-my vibe rising
-my curtains coming in the mail
-relaxation
-checking things off my to-do list
-TV episodes online
-ordering some food to be delivered and finding a great deal
-delivery commenting how it freaked him out all the cats on my lawn. lol. it is a pretty funny sight,it looks like a cat mob hanging out.
-music
-style
-my new phone
-coffee
-great deals
-new idea coming to me about how to make more space in my room
-my emotions
-meditating today
-peacock prints
-prayer
-gratitude
-visualizing after meditating
-ginger
-making a protein shake for lunch with ginger added to it
-feeling inspired to eating more nourishing again lately
-all the upcoming jobs and the insane amount of money i am making lately. i am definitely going to exceed how much i made last year,even despite the fact that i didnt start working paid again until may of last year so i have a head start to exceed anyways.
-reposting online ads about the missing cats
-T kitten and how sweet and adorable he is
-having a kind heart
-being a creative person
-sending emails out about upcoming projects
-applying to more jobs online
-flowers
-inspiration
-wanderlust
-switching to a new backpack/purse to wear for awhile and cleaning/organizing things out in the process of it.
-cleaning up room a bit
-room being cleaner lately
-doing my dishes
-attempting my phone calls i had to make today.
-sweaters
-the fan in my room
-colors
-fun
-cleaning out the crawlspace outside
-being smart
-having nice eyes
-having great cheekbones
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-seeing my artistic visions come to life! so exciting. this has been so artistically healing to see my poetic concept heavily based on last year's betrayal come to life in my artistic project. seeing the in progress photos on the artist's instagram today while at several job's today was such a mood boost. she nailed it.
-hip openers. seems these are my new "if i could do one yoga pose a day" go-to. they just seem to do so much for me.
-getting more motivated as the day went on today. enjoying my day,and having more pep in my step. it's amazing what the power of motivation does.
-taking a break in between job's since i had spare time and just sitting and working on doing some social media work on my 2nd business. felt good to do some work from my mobile and while on the go.
-my style
-my creativity
-fashion
-waking up early today
-feeling attractive and owning my beauty a little bit today
-spending some quality time with T kitten today and bringing him in the house for a bit. felt very nice.
-sunshine
-coffee
-sweet soda
-music
-art
-alcoholic beverages
-having a kind heart
-positive and soothing self talk
-weight slimming down a bit
-dinner
-my teddy bear hair brush
-makeup
-instagram
-my eyesight
-uber
-pinterest
-slowing down
-relaxation
-becoming present in the moment
-TV episodes online
-ideas
-having nice hair
-having nice teeth
-becoming more fearless
-the internet
-confidence growing
-helpful people
-friendly people
-getting my article complete last night
-healing
-my leopard print cardigan
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-iced coffee
-sugar
-brownies
-letting go
-vegan food
-maturity
-peace
-seeing my artistic visions come to life
-that blissful blue color of the sky when it's not completely fully dark yet or light yet
-taking less naps and being more rejuvenated lately
-being off antipsychotics
-great designs
-clothes feeling looser
-T kitten and how adorable he is
-all my outdoor cats
-TV episodes online
-motivation
-kindness
-waking up early
-vision
-creativity
-sunshine
-hip openers
-my phone
-the internet
-getting a new dentist appointment made
-doing some social media work
-updating my resume
-getting some of the recaps from work done
-relaxation
-great quotes
-movement
-cuteness
-expansion
-my prada candy perfume
-flowers
-hot guys
-love
-smiling
-oneness
-acting
-talent
-touch
-getting my new top i ordered in the mail
-deep cleansing breaths
-doing some coloring today and using M's husband's new colored pencils that have a ton of color options
-ideas
-my eyesight
-beauty
-my ambition
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-my new coffee regular of hazelnut iced almond milk latte with extra sugar
-nightskies
-the intense creative surge i've been feeling lately. i'm like on a creative high.
-resisting the urge to take antipsychotics. i had an ocd/anxiety attack and almost took a quetiapine pill to shut up my paranoid intrusive thoughts but instead i took some 5 inderal and a hydroxyzine and listened to some self hypnosis audio to chill myself out
-feeling more confident and like at any moment i can become really famous,and accomplish big dreams of mine i've been working towards.
-getting all the post job recaps done from weekend jobs
-cleaning my closet a little more and putting out another litter box outside for the cats
-bringing T kitten in my room after incident that triggered me was over,and cuddling with him a bit and seeing how cute he is sleeping and just chilling
-seeing my artistic visions come to life and how perfect they are
-music
-chlorophyll
-the delicious beyond chicken buffalo wrap from whole foods i had today for lunch
-sunshine
-beautiful weather today
-water
-waking up earlier lately
-taking less naps lately
-relaxation activities
-deep cleansing breaths
-sweet soda
-venting
-edginess
-posting a progress picture from my project on one of my social medias
-twitter
-instagram
-facebook
-becoming more confident on social media again finally,after like 7 or 8 years of pulling back inwards from it
-my dolce&gabbana sunglasses
-patience
-seeing all the money i'm earning on the job portals
-my teddy bear hairbrush
-my phone
-newness
-being able to be part of something meaningful in another person's life. i found out the girl i collaborated on one of my artistic vision's with was so nervous and even had anxiety and cried that's how nervous she was.
-my creativity
-allowing my body to get stronger
-physical exercise
-warm showers
-kindness
-touch
-having had some great experiences in my life
-that tommorow is a new day
-creative expression
-my new curtains,they make my room look much nicer
-remembering the law of attraction
-positive/soothing self talk
-doing a little study for computer courses i've been taking
-doing a little reading
-awesome ideas