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my mood has been more up,i have done 3 things that could be why. meditating more consistently,practicing telepathy,and the zoloft.
-band-aids
-water
-my good luck scrub
-getting a lot done today. which maybe explains why by the end of the day,i got lazier.
-following my gut and being assertive even though i didnt want. after showing my dad the more recent illustrations of concept i directed that I wasn't as crazy about and him randomly reassuring about victims as sympathy for me i think,and saying not nice to look at,I decided it just wasn't me. The original concept was more subtle and dreamy but the more final ones were just too graphic for me so i politely told the artist while complimenting her.
-my eyeglasses
-art
-getting the food card fixed so it will be back to normal by saturday
-people seeming friendlier then usual to me lately
-how cute T kitten and H cat look in their new collars
-going searching for S kitten and leafletting flyers from a an allet cat organzation in the neighborhood she was last seen in
-coffee
-chocolate
-being ageless. more,and more people are thinking i'm a student and way younger then i am. today,my uber driver thought so and said i have a baby face.
-kindness
-finishing the questions for the illustrator for my 2nd business thing i do
-coming clean to my therapist today about the truth of my living situation and how well it went,and that she didnt think it that odd.
-seeing energy shift about the thing that happened last week that was awful. M's husband is already sounding different in wording and also suggesting he might call up his son's girlfriend and try talking to her. he also seems to kind think the way i do now about things such as sh(girlfriend) is jealous of me,and about how M is being to me.
-deep cleansing breaths
-cleaning up my dishes
-shopping.i am addicted. today,i ended up buying some lysine chews for the cats,some blue lotus chocolate,herbal tinctures i've been out of,and nail polish from a brand i've wanted to try.i wanted to buy more but resisted and instead just spent time browsing and pinning items i liked on pinterest.
-uber
-laughing
-that i don't work until evening tomorrow
-confirming some jobs for june
-sending out a bunch of emails for jobs last night
-doing more studying
-staying calm and working on doing inner shifting
-my phone
-how cuddly W cat is. he is the fluffiest cat and has a warm energy despite sometimes having a very aloof face expression. i love to pick him up and hug him.
-social media
-pictures
-spices
-empathy
-seeing W cat,and P cat today and it looked even more like they are a cat couple. she keeps following him around and today i caught her roll down in front of him and show him her neck and then he licked it. about ten minutes later,they were both on top of the scaffold laying together. They are both spayed and neutered. It makes me think maybe cats do have relationships. I've seen several of my cats pair off and forge different bonds with the others. ever since my outdoor cats came into my life,i have learned so much about cats. Like,dad cat is the only cat i've never seen mom cat hiss or growl at,even though she is very much the boss. W cat and E cat seem to be practically soulmates,the way they are. For awhile,it seemed P cat and E cat were having fights,and then her and W cat,but now she's just always around the both of them. Half the time the cats go to somewhere else,where i'm guessing is where the dad cat likes to be and the other half of the time they are in/near the yard where we feed them and have shelters. Mom cat has brought the cats the more domesticated side and dad cat has brought them their more feral side..though dad cat is the nicer one,and mom cat is the mean one.
-getting E cat almost in the house. It was weird. I opened the door and P cat got curious and kept looking in and then E cat was by her and did the same thing and started looking and coming closer like he almost was about to walk in. This would've been very bizarre as he is the most feral all the kids and mom and he's the only one besides dad i've never been able to pet or pick up.
-quiet
-sertraline. though,i do think i have actually gotten just the slightest bit spacey since starting it.
-hip openers
-having goals
-how much my resume has improved since this time last year
-being able to make a positive difference
-discovering new things
-animal lovers
-southern california
-the industries i work in
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I'm staying strong but some moments of the day I feel powerless as if it's literally in my core,my solar plexus. When I felt myself shifting out of my vibe earlier,I made sure to practice telepathy on the way to work and it helped me get back up again.
-stretching
-body movement
-my eyeglasses
-working today
-my job making me feel more attractive. when a bunch of hot guys want to take a picture with you,and say things like can it be on their facebook,it's bound to make you feel a little better about yourself.
-getting another check in the mail today
-getting two free shirts from work today
-having been getting more independent in this last year
-soda
-water
-makeup
-my heart chakra spray
-uber
-my escentric 02 fragrance,it's been my favorite of the moment
-all my outdoor cats
-ordering some dinner out today for delivery
-TV episode online
-sleep
-naps
-sertraline
-warm weather today
-sunshine
-nightskies
-having this really weird experience AGAIN that's kind of trippy-today,I seen dad cat and he looked different again. NOT the cat who we keep thinking is him that lost a lot of weight lately. This one lets us get a little closer to him,but still very feral and he's bigger like we remember dad being,with more of a golden look to some of his brown. So,who the heck is that cat we keep seeing who we think is dad cat that we thought lost weight that some of the kid cats go by? I remember recently thinking when seeing that cat gosh,S kitten(who went missing) looks exactly like dad. She always has looked like dad,but that cat made me think especially so. So,is this S kitten? I had been praying and affirming we'd find her andshe'd find her way home. I even had a serendipity thing that sometimes happen before manifestations where a similar or minor version happens before it,and we did some across a friendly tiger print cat who came to our yard twice about a month ago or so.This one had some white on it so we knew it wasn't her. This cat looks exactly like dad,but smaller and S kitten would've gotten bigger by now,and some of our cats have been going by the cat. When she returned she could've easily returned to the 2nd home spot mom cat has which is somewhere across the alley wherever dad goes. Half our cats spend more time there. If it had been months,she could've just felt too scared to start coming up to us again. She always was a more timid one then my T kitten. The cats all always go back and forth who they bond most with,too. It's always seemed like the more feral of our cats go more by dad and the softer ones stay in our yard more. Unless this is just some weird matrix glitch but my mind was blown when I seen dad cat in yard. It was NOT the same skinny cat I had kept seeing. I had been feeling worry for months hoping the cat I thought was dad was ok because he had looked skinnier. Plus,this cat has been around...kinda often. Won't eat around us but probably does eat. Dad cat is a lot more irregular with how often he comes around.
-fashion
-bars
-fun
-hot guys
-dimmer lights
-kindness
-slowness
-confirming 2 jobs today
-pictures
-more signs M's husband is on my side
-heels
-love
-trying on my new mint green hoodie and how great it made my skin look
-my curves
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-physical exercise
-cleaning the room
-the color blue
-sertraline
-my bed
-sleep
-having some positive dreams..i had two dreams very randomly of L,the L i liked who seemed very interested then uninterested and cocky, contacting me
-confirming a job today
-rest
-style
-my phone
-the internet
-technology
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-pills to boost mood/calm down
-water
-TV episodes online
-naps
-crisis hotlines
-doing some reading today
-emailing the animal communicator
-dental bonding
-H cat sounding better today
-T cat that is the mom making me laugh when i kept shouting for T kitten to come and everytime i did,she came over by me to be petted. I realized she associates shouting like that for calling for any cat so she looked pretty confused when she was right by me and i pet her and still kept shouting. To see her keep coming back like that was hilarious.
-my phone
-reassuring web links
-the internet
-night skies
-almond milk
-buying a book about charisma that drew my attention by having a peacock on the cover
-chocolate
-hazlenut almond milk iced lattes with extra sugar
-healthy digestion
-believing in positive
-great quotes
-art
-yoga pants
-sunshine
-seeing the cat again that is not dad cat and is maybe S kitten
-hope
-practicing mental influence
-purchasing a life coaching/hypnotherapy session that caught my eye
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started reading the power,and once i got to this sentence about life not meant where moments of joy are few and far between i wanted to start crying. if that's the case,then why is that my life?
-staying strong. yesterday,i had on and off anxiety filled depressive breakdowns and was pretty much crying all day. I'm trying harder now though to keep my vibe high.
-finishing my book on mental influence and starting the power
-chocolate cake
-the sunshine. felt so good today,i thought i should just start meditating outside again. those always were my best meditations.
-practicing mental influence
-coffee
-soda
-healthy digestion
-friendly neighbors
-animal lovers
-talking to friendly neighbors while looking for T kitten who said they feed and care for a bunch of outdoor cats,too and that they'll keep an eye out for him
-feeling in my gut that T kitten is well and nobody tried to bring them in their house.
-seeing again the cat that isn't dad and the cat allowing itself to be closer. this cat likes to be really close to E cat. From the back and side the cat definitely looks like s kitten,but so far im not sure about the face
-online forums who talk about how they've had cats go missing for days,weeks,and even years and come back like nothing and reading again how people in europe think it's weird how americans think it's cruel to keep your outdoors and that in europe it's more the norm for cats to be outdoor
-getting the lysine treats in the mail for H cat and some homepathic medicine to try for him
-my new eye in a triangle shirt
-wearing my new glitter pool slides. i keep buying things then never wearing them so figured i should start.
-quiet
-sertraline
-sleep
-pills that calm me down
-doing some stuyding and getting through 2 lessons so far
-my beauty
-my agelessness
-stretches. my body felt awful from not doing anything to work it out yesterday
-my phone
-seeing a contributor got an article done for me
-feeling my third eye lately being activated. i'm getting the hunch to start spending more time on that chakra since i feel like i use it a lot when practicing mental influence. i start to yawn and get twitches in my forehead.
-the fan in my room
-deciding to take the lesson that as much as i care for the cats,and want them in my life,i care-take for them in a worrying way still and need to let go of that.
-touch
-the feeling of my feet with no shoes and socks on
-yoga pants
-organically altering beliefs that dont feel good to keep. today,i found myself trying to shift the belief that anyone has any power over me or can create in my reality.
-eye stretches
-deciding to change how i do my savings to simplify it
-getting a call for some work.i decided i don't want to do it but i don't think it'd be wrong for someone to do it with my beliefs if they felt they really needed to take it. it has to do with meat and i dont like being around meat but if i felt really desperate for the work,i don't think it'd be morally wrong to do it,because the more financial abundance you have,the more you can help animals anyways. i just think i can find something else,and more fitting instead.
-deep cleansing breaths
-taking care of myself
-seeing reality changes already. M's husband uses the word might now in regards to a situation instead of calling it a certainty now.
-TV episodes online
-getting caught up on my phone calls
-getting my health insurance switched
-getting my psychiatrist appointment bumped up for tomorrow
-getting my appointment for my chemical peel made
-my glycolic eyecream
-getting some exercise from going around looking for T kitten
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-TV episodes online
-getting prescribed benzos today
-talking to a psychic today and getting clear info on T kitten and where he is at and what to do. She said he's alive. she thinks he may be my cat soul connection who passed on in 2014. after she passed on,i had a dream of someone giving me a gray cat,and T kitten is gray.
-feeling relief today for some reason.
-nourishment
-self appreciation
-getting the bed cleared
-the pet psychic believing in the law of attraction and telling me to allow T kitten back and visualize it.
-my eyeglasses
-my beauty
-the beautiful,intoxicating weather today.
-sunshine
-nightskies
-getting my lavender and ashwagandha herbal medicinals in the mail today
-sending out emails for jobs today
-the skinny cat who looks like S kitten letting me come closer. who is this cat who hangs with our cats and looks just like S kitten?
-getting my pacifica nail color in the mail
-feeling like reality is more malleable lately
-social media
-sky gazing
-getting letter to M about 60% done
-warm showers
-bare feet
-touch
-the cats liking the lysine chews i bought
-my chocolates that came in the mail
-blueberry waffles
-spices
-plant based foods
-doing some reading of the powe
-feeling my faith growing and my vibe raising
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-My T kitten returning. It was amazing. The whole moment felt mundane as I opened the door and just like my lucid dream was checking was it really him. As soon as i was i was so excited that I woke up M's husband who came to see him and even brought him and he told his wife. This was such a relief to have my baby back. His collar was missing and he had a cut on his ear but he's been very cuddly and like himself. We spent lots of cuddling time today and I stayed out with them all for awhile last night. I have been in such a good mood ever since. I can see how i used the loa to allow him in. My desire was strong,then my vibe got high and I let go. I almost started to try when I seen him and I hugged him so much and said im sorry.I remember thinking as i was detaching that i felt myself wonder should i stop and i reminded myself no,this is a good thing,it means he's really close to being here.I also remember really surrendering and accepting which gave me a place of power.
-ordering new collars for T kitten and a tag for T kitten and H cat.
-that my T cat pillow is almost finished
-benzodiazepines. I cant help but wonder if these helped me manifest by getting my mind to calm so i can detach.
-sertraline
-camel pose
-back bends
-water
-seeing my T kitten killed and was eating a bird. Not that i'm happy about the bird's passing on but i like seeing that my little kitten is growing up and doing well with cat things.
-yoga pants
-all the beautiful sunshine
-warmth
-my bed
-blankets
-how high my vibe has been
-feeling stronger in my ability with how malleable reality is
-nightskies
-blueberry waffles
-deep cleansing breaths
-ice cold soda
-dental floss
-making my bed
-TV episodes online
-having nice lips
-self appreciation
-slowness
-my eyeglasses
-my beauty
-inspiration
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-lots of cuddle time with T kitten ever since he's been back on his little adventure. We even napped together for a bit tonight. He seems likes such a big boy lately.
-feeling so calm.i feel such a sense of relief overall,like everything is going to be alright with life
-lorazapam
-sertraline
-the beautiful weather today
-doing some more reading of the power
-letting out my desires in a way that felt calm,unneedy
-clean bed
-lavender
-water
-rosemary oil
-TV episodes online
-confirming another job today
-feeling like i have plenty of time
-doing more studying today
-apricot bread
-my beauty
-candy
-dental floss
-having a good dentist i can go to now
-nightskies
-my outdoor cats
-healthy digestion
-blankets
-going to sleep early last night
-meditation
-prayer
-letting go
-detachment
-gratitude-
-everything feeling easier now,like it's easy to just change the story.
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-feeling so relaxed lately
-squats
-water
-my T kitten. I adore him and am so glad things are back to normal.
-how high my vibe has been. everything good feels like it's already done and on the way and i just feel blase about anything negative and confident i'll shift it
-opportunities flowing in
-my pca skin facial wash
-naps
-TV episodes online
-going with M's husband to pick up sodas since we couldn't do our bike ride since it rained.
-getting another post up on my business's site which was good to focus on something different. even though i am contemplating ending it in december,i want to try a few more things first if i do.
-deciding to play with doing a google ad for business website. it looked good and made me happy
-happiness
-playing an emotion game the other day where for 10 seconds i let myself get really excited.i want to start playing with this more.
-doing some reading today
-the power book
-black leggings
-throwing some old things out
-plants
-music
-confirming 3 paid jobs today and from an agency that had seemed stagnant lately
-feeling like time is on my side
-the fan in my room
-work colleague wanting to do an interview feature on me which actually sounds perfect as i've been wanting an opportunity like that to come up
-assertiveness
-kindness
-chips
-that this month has been pretty filled with paid work
-lorazapam
-seeing the inner shift on the problem from 2 weeks ago,based on words even used by M's husband
-being 70% done with letter to M
-sertraline
-laughing
-stretching
-smiling
-cute pictures of me and T kitten
-motivation
-dental floss
-the homeopathic medicine i've been using on H cat
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-strawberrry cupcakes
-naps
-lorazapam
-someone asking me to dinner that i might say yes to
-meditation
-feeling more confident
-TV episodes online
-T kitten
-all my outdoor cats
-M's husband seeming to think i can change things
-sweet soda
-heels
-makeup
-my beauty
-music
-having a baby-face young look
-uber
-my strength
-being smart
-music
-inspiration
-water
-coffee
-feeling filled with life again
-feeling calm and like all will be ok
-mikes strawberry hard lemonade
-yoga
-my black ruffle socks
-fashion