Yes, I just didn't want to say anything about my efforts so I just called it 'wishing' hehe.Quote:
Originally Posted by Ia
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Yes, I just didn't want to say anything about my efforts so I just called it 'wishing' hehe.Quote:
Originally Posted by Ia
E1B
Yes, I guess it's humor, but there is a serious side as well. I do not believe that one should put voice to their practices/ evolving understanding of the 'mysteries'. To do so somehow deprives the practice and person of the full weight of the Power being sought.
For me, it is an intensely personal journey, I 'know what I know' but dare not speak it as this 'knowledge' becomes frail when expressed in words to the community. It is stronger if I keep it 'close to my chest'.
Love to you Ia,
Richard
Hi Richard,
I do not agree with you here, if you keep all to your self it will not get any air and will rotten in time, to share is to keep your self healthy...We are all ONE so how can you think there is anything to keep in secret??..To be open is to let the light in, and very good training to get out the possessed owned feeling, if this is hard then it will be very hard battle to let go...and life will become very hard and keep´s you on guard and you do not get what you a titlet to have....LOVE.
This is my oppinion and view what evolution is and to grow healthy.
Love
ia
This morning I was on several levels (can I say like this?) I did in my dream be walking on ice and slipped backwards and my whole body did jerk I hear this converstion I wrote in another thread us having an thelepahtical conversation..I hear this voice saying...Interested about core things and I answered absolutely and at the same time I was thinking half awake whitch embroidery shall I continue today....my brothers 50 yrs gift or my other brothers sons son´s gift, he is the newly arrived into our family :-)
Interesting indeed.
Last night I dreamt that I was sitting in someones kitchen, and she said something I do not remember now, but I answered that it might have to do something with my dreinage tube, and at once I had said that I started to feel strange, my sister did look at the drainage tube and lifted up it so I could see it too....it was a lot of blood in the tube....I started to think what could it be, I have got a new med and I was thinking if it do affect my kidneys...but then it shifted to another dream...
where my sister was flirting with a unknown man for me...but my ex bf was sitting there too, and for a demostrating me that she does not care for my bf and like flirted with the other guy, but in my world is the same...she is married and this kind of behaving I hate, so I did not show any motions and I did not feel anything but tiredness, will this not ever end....so I went into the kitchen and when my sister did not get out the wanted reaction in me, she did come after me, now she looke little bit emarresed in her face and was little bit agitated when she continued to tell theire plans and I was listening politely....
I had a interesting experience last night....I have noticed that something are keeping me from to reach a deep relaxation, and this I was very aware last night, (I was tensed up from inside of me, I could feel this very clear, but I was also thinking if someone outside could like project that I tensioned u?)..I was doing deep breathing and I could time to time feel that I did get deeper relaxation and then suddenly I have very much high vibrations and first I did not remember it is to get out of body wibe´s..I suddenly remembered one of my friends telling me that if you form your fingers to triangel and hold it in front of you, it is a banichment also....so because I did not remember the out of body wibes but thought it was some intruder I started to try to put my hands to form the triangel but gosh how difficult that was...and suddenly I see my left had making a tringel with the tip upwards and my right hand making an triangel with the tip down wards, and both triangels did not have the bas but was making this is it a romb when two trinagels is put togeather with the bases towards eachothers and tip´s pointing up and down??
Now I also remember that during the 2002-2006 when I did feel something was be done to my body, I did ask that why are they drawing cabels from my head up-wards and from my base-chakra down-wards, and me being like an transformator in the middle and a the energies going through me, I was terrified and they did smile to me and they worked very fast so they would finnsish the work before I could stop them and not let them do this, because of my fear and not knowing for what is this done, and makeing me to partisipate without me knowing in what....so strange, can someone answere to me what this was about??
I can't really offer much, Ia, but you asked me to so I'll say what I can.
Seems to me you are conditioned to expect malevolent intentions, even if a benevolent and kind person/entity has come into your 'space'. I was replying to WhiteMonkey about a laughing wizard which was translated by her as evil. I suggested the laughing Wizard may well be a friend making merry of her shyness. Likewise, if you could do a flip-flop on your expectations you may find a whole new and kinder world out there.
Ok, then that's my two cents....
Love, Richard
A dream segment, afterthought -
Years ago when I was a member of my first 'dream site', I had what was for me a water-shed moment in dream where I was confronted by an assembly of thugs. I knew they were bad news but I had to get through them. When I was just about free of the situation one of them put a knife to my belly. He hid what he was doing from the others and spoke lowly to me about the danger I was in.
I called out to the others of the gang and said, "Hey. This idiot's got a knife at my stomach!" One of the others called out, "(Name) leave the guy alone." My tormentor backed off and I was free to finish my mission to rejoin my 'Princess in the Tower'.
I never again felt fear or threatened by negs/demons - I would cast them aside or out-wit them, but I would win. Often just ignoring them was effective.
Thank you Richard for your input.
Yes I can understand it can seam as you write, but then there is not easy to try to tell the situation I was in with the very strong energies comfronting me, and the energy was so strong that I had so hard to move my hands/arms to make a check up, to try to understand what I am in front of...and you did not even say anything about the symbol as I tried to picture out, I think that the strong energy and the symbol is what is the carrier of the situation, yet you only want to say about my malevolansy because of your own experience with me, and this is miss guiding you in your interpretation...
Maybe you could give your input about the symbols now?? Please :-)
Love
ia
http://www.maths.nu/hej/container/iv...mages/romb.gif
This is the figure the triangles are supposed to form when they are passed togeather....I had the upper triangel to the left and the neather triangel to the right.....and I did understand that they shall give this picture when they are togeather....and I also felt that when I am able to do this...join them....then there is starting rather interesting things to happen...
So you who do understand about the elementas and directions of energy, please give your input, please.
Love
ia
The Bus ride dream...........more simplicity needed for a smoother journey ?
Lol Richard knows ur dreams well!
Yes the clutter one. If that was my dream I would take it that I Was maybe looking into too many things and getting disappointed because I couldn't find the answers all at once and along the way forgetting to enjoy the journey with those I was sharing it with. Just what comes to me anyway :) Anyway enjoyed reading some of ur dreams :)
I dreamt at august 14 that I was looking out of my window (from my room where I lived between 9-13 yrs age) I saw a very big tree and I said to the tree to come closer so I can touch it, and it leaned towards me and I could touch it, I was so happy and surprised it heard me...It was very old tree with no leave´s what so ever and it was twine like you can see from the rain-forest very old trees...
Last night I got a good laugh in my dream :-) it was like this.....
My mother was visiting me and we where in the kitchen ....my grandchild A was also visiting me and it was late but the door bell rang and A was expecting her friend to come over for a visit, she had forgotten to tell that my mother was on visit and she will be in chock to see that A has a friend who is a boy it is a no no in my mothers world because she do not understand that boys and girls can be friends she is always thinking the worst to happen....so when A is opening the door I did draw the curtains what I had instead of a door to kitchen to remind A that mother is here too, and the boy did come and also did see my mother, this boy did know how my mother is so he did so surprising mimic with his face what made me laugh so I did awake from the dream....it was totally so talkativ how the reality in my life is...haha.....
Some night´s ago I did dream that I was to a school but I noticed when I had entered the class-room that I did not have my book´s with me, so I felt no use to stay, one school-mate asked where I am going so I told that do you not see how in disorder I am...I can´t stay without book´s, what will the teachers say...so I went out of the room and put my shoes on and went to a bath-room and there was standing a man total white face and black eyes and my heart did race and jump in fear but then my teachers word´s come to me...he said...that if it is a deamon they will schrink when I come...so I went into total faith...and wow...he did schrink...you can imagen what this did to my gut´s ...yes yes yes...I am gaining in strength to be able to protect me....:-)
The night before this I had this dream.....The only thing I remember is that 2 men was fighting over me...one man tried to catch me, he jumped towards me but the other man did pull me at his side and the man who jumped did slide on his belly on the floor, he was totally naked?? and the man who did pull me at his side did shake me from my sholder and was yelling at me very angry??....What is this?? I was so in chock that I couldn´t hear what he was yelling at me and what was going on....no clue what so ever but it did not feel good at all.
Last night I did dream that me and my teacher was watching over my son from distant, I did know I was not allowed to interfer only watch...He was sitting around a table and talking with a man, this man was not kind, I said to my teacher that if he followes with this man he will be killed...yap did my teacher say....but he did not follow the man, and I did feel reliefed and I was happy...but suddenly another man did enter and sat down with my sons table...omg..was my feeling..but.....he did wisper something to my son...and my teacher did be allerted in a positive way...here I did awake from the dream.....
Last night I did dream several sequenses....one was very odd bicysle...I did find it very hard to bike on, so I did look closer at it and noticed that they had taken the back wheel´s...it was not an ordinary bicysle...so that did explain the
difficulty why it was so hard to bike on....I did put it in my garage to buy new wheels to.-
In this seequence I was walking around a block of houses, I did see things like thrown away, very nice things, so I thought that this might whom ever take...but with closer look it was a garage sale and I was happy I haven´t taken
anything because it was not for free :-)
In this seequence I was with my grandchildren and a man did spoke to me...he said something like this...are you
going to hide rest of you life...I was not responding to him at all...so he touched my sholder and I got like an
electrical schock...so I said....I will not try again...I have tried twice and it did end in horror....(this man did not be
my teacher so it was why I did not want to respond to him at all in the first place)
Last night I was to somekind of school, it was lunch and almost all food was taken, but I did find a small silver plate and it was not round but oval, I did fill it with food, the deserts was wrapped in plastic and I did feel it was not meant to me, so what I got out of this dream was that I must start to look over my portions of food and stop eating deserts :-) I have again gained in weight :-)
Last night I dreamt that I saw both my brothers...and I did see through theire self defence...and I felt sorry for them, I hugged them to make them secure in them self´s...then I did have the feeling to going back to body and at the same time I hear someone say....It is the drug what will wake you up.....and this did really wake me up from my dream :shock:....
Last night I dreamt that I was little bit like a observer....One thing that stood out was a elederly lady on a horse, she looked like my ex mother in law...she had a small smile on her lips, she was more developed then me and she was a little bit proud of that, the horse and she was one...it was a joy to watch them. To show me how one they are...we where like high up on a platform and it was like high stone not walls but kind of, she and the horse wanted to look over the edge, and the horse put his leg on the stone and leaned forward to look over the edge...it was as easy as a human did do it...funny.
Very interesting dream last night....I think this is a sighn that I am balanced now in my female and male energies...the dream was like this....I was with my ex bf and his daughter (this bf do not have children) I was lying on my belly and the daughter did lye her on top of my back...there was other friends or relatives who did support this act...I did feel neutral about what was happening...she said that she will soon make me burn....and I said...I do not think so...meaning that I will not be sexually with her....now the bf did come into the room and asked me to come with him...we went to another room....and I now also did ley me on my belly and I started to cry...I said...I do not want this anymore...meaning to have relationaship not with him nor with his daughter.....he tried to make me to come to another solution so he started to cook...he did take very rare and for me never seen plant to cook from and he did for a sek get my attention...and here I did awake myself....
Last night dreams was that kind of dream you think you are awake but you are sleeping and dreaming...I am sleeping over at my son´s home for real.....and I dreamt that I hear my son be up and running around to bathroom and back and doing something what make´s my fear to alert...so I go up and he is behaving just like he does when he has taken drugs...so I comfront him by asking...have you taken some pills you shouldn´t have?? he denyes off course...so I start to mimic him and asking him why he does behave like this...and I am doing like he does...
Now in this seekquence I am at my own appartament in the dream and I am thinking in the dream...wow ...did I go home and I am now doing dance moves infront of the mirror...it was rather dark so I then come to think that I have not full astral sight because it was so dim....so I am wondering in the dream if I am out of body and awake...or if I am still dreaming.....I was dreaming I can tell now :-)
In last night dream I was instructed in some kind of martial art´s perhaps.....but the stick´s was like chop stick...so I wouldn´t notice that it was a defensive art..the moves was like I was dancing....(I rather die than rise my hand in battle)...so I am now thinking...who is the force trying change me this much??...is it for my better or only to change me??
Sounds like Tai Chi. (Taiji, Tai Qi, Tai Chi Chuan) I'd look into it if I were you.
the geisha [highly respected and wealthily kept prostitute/often the mothers of (bastard) children by (accountable-responsible) prominent men] has just such weapons tucked in her hair, and she is deady accurate with them. are they chop sticks or hair pins? both, and i imagine they are as well...weapons. change you? nah. awaken you to the fact that you would very well [humanly/motherly] respond in kind to an attack on your's? yes
to live respectful of all life being sacred [others] is as much to be prepared for death protecting [other]. such is love [you]...for your's.
"....(I rather die than rise my hand in battle)..." so yeah, just as you wrote, for holding your peace is protecting [other] from your very capable self.
this may go back to the time when you were unable to defend your's, this resolving as what you would have done if you were abled to do so. so, this dream is helping you to realize that you are not guilty by choice of what you could have done, as it were that you were unable; as well as releasing you from the shame you may feel, because you couldn't do anything to protect your's at the time, as it were, you were unable to. and this also reminds you, that even as much time has past since that time in the past, you are blessed to feel that you'd rather die than raise your hand to hurt. why is this a blessing? because most folks would feel to be hurtful from their hurtedness. so, this lil dream is packed full of personal resolve for you, as you have often [justifiably] felt that you and your's were ill-treated as if mere pieces of meat for someone else's hurtful/harmful pleasures. let go and let god; God whom righteously justifys You ~ respectfully as One who holds their peace.
Hi Tim,
I was not able to respond yesterday to your writing. Now I need to ask you few things.
Do you think I have bean in pre-life a geisha and maybe killed someone and in this life I feel as I do, not to raise my hand in battle??
I am rather sure I have done horribel things and suffer in this life still .....and I have difficulty to face the past too.
In this life I have faced so much ...and I am not able to rise my hand towards anyone...but I am learning that it is not nessessary to rise hand...I have rather strong voice too...and I have bean able to make big and tall men also to back off me...:-)...with you voice only.
And then I am also learning to read a situation before I am involved or too deep into it, so I can protect me not going into danger anymore.
Love
ia
I have no idea.
as far as the rest of reply goes: to be honest with you, i am pretty sure that if i wrote the responce i felt were needed here, that it wouldnt be received as it were intended. as a matter of fact, i did write one, but deleted it. i am going to back away for a spell, but dont take it personal. i take care of me first, is all.
In last night dream I was out locked from myself....the dream was like this...I was standing infront of a big door...I did see a sigh that I was out locked and put outside of myself...someone or some part of me was kept inside the door against my own will...I did stand outside the door with someone I do not know who...and I asked...what are they doing inside....He answered...She is holding court??....
Last night dream was more than comfusing...I dreamt that I had married my teen boy-friend...we did not tell
anyone we got married...and his mother did be so angry...he told me that she had given him an angry look, so I told him that she has never liked me and now you did dissobey her off course she is angry....I told him also that I have not ever bean able to build an relationship to her...so now when I won she will never forgive me....but at the same time I did have a near relationship with my father...I in the dream did say to my father...this is not right...I have to choose...and off course I choose my husband...but my father are trying to talk over me to be with him....I felt embarressed in the dream if my father was in the same room as my husband and more embarressed if he did kiss me...The dream continues...I meet my mother in law and she is saying....say something to me...I asked what it could be she want to hear...he say to me...to know prices of stuff...like suggar prices...I can´t understand this...and me and he has not bean in stores at all...I am not interested about stuff...I do buy if I need something...but I do not go to stores for fun to look at stuff...ever....but she does...so me being so different than her..we do not have much to say eachothers.....my husband is also somekind of teacher...we are gathered in a class-room and with lots of books on the table...now we are dressed up and he has given me a flower as they have in USA when they graduate and go to school bal...have the flower on the arm....he had bought total black flowers to me...and he had hung an jewelery to have on me too....one person gave me a black long skirt...I said I have a skirt on me...and it is black..but not long...so I asked my husband if it is okay me to have my own skirt...and I had a orange blause...the neacleass was blue and white jeweles....I did find it odd combination of colores...but I do feel this dream is deep and profound in many ways...The details in the skirt was also telling something...it was pink....but I do not remember more about it...I was very happy to be married to him....the feeling was....at last.
Last night dream it is hard to word it...but the content of the dream was....that I have hard time to make sence or to get a collected picture of who and why I am...I think I am not ready yet to know...but I am going steady to soon see and know.
Last night in my dream I was visiting an old jewelery store....the dust was thick and you could see no-one have bean there for a long time....I did see that the prices had lowered so I could afford to buy several item´s....I did find a neackless in very lång string....in white gold...and the neackless was a triangel form and the tip was pointing down...it was made of bone ore a tooth of a whale ore something likekely...with nice diamonds and perls...very beautiful and the string was long, the triangel form did ended on my heart chakra...then I did find another neackless, in leather stings ...short one to have on your throat....over the throat chakra...I did see how beautiful it was on me....and rare too....I did find ring´s to all my fingers...I did see many of 14 carat but did not fansy them at all...I did want 18 carat at least....
This place in me is deffenetely not bean visited by me on a very long time :-)
Last night I did laugh a lot...Have difficult to say if it was male of female or androgyn...it does not matter but I did have a very happy night...haha ....:-)
In my dream last night I was seeing a pool or akvarium...they did put all kind of water animals into it...I did see a orange white fish...and a pale purple snake like fish who at once tried to eat the orange white fish but was not able to do so, the snake like fish was all over the place and trying to eat the other animals, but did not manage to do so, even I did see it did not manage to harm the other animals my fear level was high...and I did splash water on it to disturbe it from trying to eat the others....I was thinking what I shall give them for food, so they do not eat each others....but all my time did go to monitor the snake like fish and trying to keep it from eating others....
so what is this dream trying to tell me...that I do not accept the conditions of life??
In last night dream I was able for first time I think to really understand those part´s what I am not familar with yet...is very alien to me....Last night in the dream I asked who that 1.50 cm tall peasant is...and I did learn to know it also was me....it was so alien that I really did not feel it was any part of me....and it is funny how I did see it as a short peasant??....what kind of preconseptions do I have about peasant´s?? that I can´t feel I could be one?? So arrogant of me....
or do I feel to much as a town person that country side is not for me?? or what kind of aliantment is in my feeling about this caracter?? No clue this far....have to do some thinking and feeling....
In last night dream I was sitting on a sofa with a little baby, she was sitting on my right side...my uncle P did come in and sat down on a rocking chair....he did bring with him a tick, he had it on his finger and showing us it...and suddenly he did threw it towards us, and it landed on the sofa infront of the baby...I was totally paralysed and I had something in my hand...maby a pen or likely, I started to brush the tick away from the baby and suddenly a fly did company the tick and I said...from where did you come..and now the fly was so near the tick so when I bruched it did hit the fly too and I killed them....so I said...look now what you made me do..why did you not go out with the tick when you was not afraid of it...why did you made me kill it...and now both....you have made me to be a murderer......
Last night I had a very hard dream, it is so strange so I do not know how to tell about it....but I try....My son was nailed with bolt´s from his sholders and I was supposed to hold him in place until he die....I had no clue why we did this or them who had decided that it must be done this way...so I from beginning did listen and do as I was told to do...I could see blood coming from where the bolt´s was nailed in...but for a second I did drop my focus and some-one had drawn the bolt´s away and they where huge....several meters long...I was astoniched...but I did look around me and did not see anybody, so I told my son...that now we run...and he was like asking me if we could do that.....Yes I said we can.....I will not let you die, not this way...we run and it was like a labyrint...we met other´s too who seamed to be on the run...at last we found our way out and I met a women who did show me a blue toy car... and she was little bit in shame, because it was my grand-childrens toy...I said...they are so big now they do not play with that kind of toy´s so it is okay for you to have it....and we got out from that horror cellar of terror.
Hi, Ia. Been a while. :)
Knowing how psychic you are and that it wouldn't be out of the realm of possibility; it is something of a coincidence your dream and my thoughts having something in common.
Yesterday I wrote a long email to my brother (a devout Christian) concerning the "Son of God". I was addressing two questions. One, is Jesus the son of god? And, two, Is Jesus your personal savior?
That I would be thinking along those lines, to anyone who knows me, is absurd, but I won't bother you with the back-story.
My mundane answer, speaking to a Christian, would be 'no' on both counts. However, very conditionally speaking, I can answer 'yes' to both questions but then I have to explain a bit about Kaballah and that was the nature of the email.
It's hard to explain, but your dream is an analogy of my letter vis a vis the crucified Son, the escape and a toy that is no longer relevant.
Yes, it would take too many words to explain but I think you get it.