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-drinking my pomegranate juice
-drinking more water today
-my beauty
-stretches
-naps
-5 lorazapam dose
-being ok so far with not talking to R
-cuddling with cats
-prayer
-positive affirmations
-meditation
-writing out a financial improvement plan and a final getting over anxiety plan for one of the things i've been working on
-a lot of guys asking me out in the last few days
-making efforts
-emojis
-that S the guy i met in july is sending me a little christmas gift
-M buying me a christmas mug
-my biggest crush for years and i having coffee plans next week. what a great christmas gift.
-heels
-kind people
-coffee
-bread
-the mri i got done being less scary then ithought it would be
-getting confirmed to work as a new year's vip host again
-the cute things the cats do
-art
-experiencing my desires manifest and how cool it is
-surrender
-staying present
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-making the sad decision to let my 2nd business go for now officially
-vegan pizza from whole foods
-the vegan donut i had today
-working today
-nice people
-drinking my aloe vera water
-stretches
-naps
-my cats
-things working out for me
-getting my savings to $900
-my christian louboutin shoes
-coffee
-smiling
-my sense of style
-my eyesight
-having a coffee meeting with my big crush A coming up
-the manifestation of desires
-leg warmers
-the weather being mostly pretty mild thus far
-my blue rose
-water
-getting one of my recaps done
-warm showers
-sweaters
-cleaning a little
-sending out emails for more jobs
-my stomach getting flatter
-movies
-getting asked out on a lot of dates/flirted with a lot the last few days
-getting more images from a recent job
-the internet
-kindness
-relaxation
-my beauty
-writing some things out the other day to feel more confident
-having a nice body
-things to look forward to
-colors
-style
-transforming
-memories
-unexpected beautiful surprises
-fun
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-tea
-lavender
-ashwagandha
-rosemary oil
-water
-drinking my apple cider vinegar detox supplement
-having coffee plans with my all time biggest crush tomorrow A
-How my crush A talks
-crush A saying he will call me beforehand
-crush A saying he is interested in me as well
-physical exercise
-warm showers
-my gray comforter
-cat cuddles
-my phone
-sleep
-the sunshine that came out today
-movies
-my style
-my beauty
-manifesting my desires
-entertainment
-inspiration
-blue roses
-all the good things that happened this year
-mailing off another P cat flyer and alley cat ally leaflet
-losing weight
-more job opportunities
-feeling a little more secure and grounded about money
-great alcohol with mixers
-finishing off my other work recap
-following up on work emails
-doing a little cleaning
-organizing files in my phone
-having a nice body
-my rebalance face cream
-meditation
-mantras
-affirmations
-deep cleansing breaths
-seeing T cat,the mom being held like a baby in M's husbands lap and how much she likes that
-lorazapam
-nice people
-feeling a nice nonchalance about things
-being an interesting person
-interesting sounds
-serendipity
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-manifesting my long held desire of having a one on one hang out conversation with A and making our connection more then just unspoken. it was amazing.
-having A's phone number in my phone
-A responding to my texts
-seeing proof again that we do get all that we intend to manifest
-having a nice day and night with R the other day and making up...even though we are again not speaking
-R saying he would stay with me at the hospital when i have my surgery if i want
-R saying if i ever want to him to buy me something just ask,offering to take me shopping,saying he wants to buy me pretty things,and looking up buddha bracelets saying we have to get me a new one since my old one broke
-new experiences
-a lot of guys asking me out a lot lately
-R,the other R who is further from my past and i chatting a bit online the other day
-drinking my aloe water supplement today
-my phone
-naps
-cats
-my beauty
-my style
-my reimbursement coming through today
-M asking if i want to go to the mall tomorrow
-blankets
-warm showers
-physical exercise
-how much weight i've lost
-deciding to accept a date with R,a friend of a friend from the past( so many R names). This R is older,more mature,and i've only met him once.
-listening to my hypnosis audios
-coffee
-paying attention to how the more i meditate,the more life flows
-being in the christmas spirit
-S from maryland getting me a christmas gift
-being more social lately
-R saying he wants to go with to the party i'm going to at the end of the month
-maturity
-deep cleansing breaths
-ideas
-doing some studying last night
-cleaning a little this morning
-weather getting a little warmer again
-D,M's friend who i told isn't a friend sending me a christmas card with a starbucks gift card in it
-physical exercise
-surrender
-inspiration
-community
-meeting like-minded people
-positive affirmations
-compliments
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-going shopping today and finding out i can go tomorrow too
-how skinny i look
-how beautiful i look
-making up with R
-my bed
-vegan cheese
-coffee
-having a hangout with A this week. so amazing and surreal.
-manifesting my heart's desires
-calmness
-working today
-compliments
-getting invited to a family gathering of M and her husband's tomorrow
-deciding to try and visit my mom in the morning tomorrow
-heels
-blankets
-cuddling with cats
-having a good credit score
-writing out affirmations before bed last night
-beautiful poems
-empathy
-having a kind heart
-laughing
-my phone
-getting confirmed for more jobs
-fun
-my christian louboutin heels
-doing some cleaning
-relaxation
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-fashion
-the internet
-reading
-cats and their cuteness
-seeing my desires manifest
-being kind
-all my adventures with R
-going to E's party and how fun that was
-working on nye
-sleep
-my attractiveness
-my strength
-no longer having cervical cancer,just womb mass
-my hypnosis audios
-reading
-meditation
-creativity
-writing out my new year's resolutions
-apple cider vinegar detox drink
-my new nude lip plumping lip gloss
-actually having an ok christmas this year
-affirmations
-sweaters
-blankets
-seeing R does get jealous
-my prada bag
-my sense of style
-doing another anxiety challenge the other day
-wearing pasties for the first time under my dress besides any other work events i don't remember
-having a nice body
-compliments
-friendly people
-newness
-my phone
-motivation
-coloring tonight
-ideas
-entertainment
-cleaning a little today
-seeing mom cat the other day after not seeing her for a few days
-updating my accomplishment book/bucket list book a little
-sunshine
-nightskies
-fun
-how beautiful my hair is
-the positive changes i've made
-art
-goals
-to do lists
-inspiration
-support
-being able to see
-kindness
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-making my own hypnosis audios
-healthy digestion
-texting A
-A texting me his playlist and seeing how into space he is,and how weird it was, and some stuff similar to what i used to listen to
-my bed
-getting my savings higher
-making decisons
-doing a good job at work
-goals
-getting a check quick
-getting confirmed for some film work
-fashion and style
-my new hair
-my beauty
-being smart
-serendipity
-yoga
-blankets
-making my bed
-my medications
-letting myself grieve and feel my feelings after what R did to me
-coffee
-growing confidence and positivity
-cats
-exploration
-water
-apple cider vinegar
-the weather warming up a bit
-seeing mom cat more often again
-being able to see the big picture and not get caught up in details
-the winter boots M's husband gave me
-getting back into spirituality a little bit
-seeing my credit score increased some more
-observing life
-maturity
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-it happened. after a strange and crazy weekend of R crying on the phone with me then getting scared and weird and blocking my number and erasing messages even from 2 other phones i used to call and having the calls straight go to machine and deleting me from facebook and L treating me like crap..both of these guys supposedly getting a "conscience" but really showing themselves as awful,i revealed my feelings to A. And,he responded. He said he finds me interesting too and that he wants to get to know me more and hang out but he's just so busy with work that he doesnt have time for romance at all but that if i play my cards right maybe we will end up kissing. He did have a slight ego,but he's him and i'm not surprised but he was really sweet and authentic. i had decided earlier i want to focus on him more since he is my dream guy unlike R. So,after one of my messages using M's husbands phone trying to get ahold of R and yelling at him,i decided to just go for it,and tell A how i feel. I wanted to melt that this moment happened. like really savor it. things from years ago have been manifesting.
-having half a driver's liscense. just have to re-do the road test which im sure ill get on the 2nd try
-getting approved for a saks card
-something happening this weekend that helped me see D from my past,a guy i went on 2 dates with in a different light..as a decent-ish guy.
-my bed
-my cats
-having 3 jobs to work today
-my beauty
-hot guys
-doing more shopping therapy after a stressful drama filled weekend and buying myself a chanel eyeshadow and gucci bracelet
-my phone
-laughter
-feeling feelings and how good that feels
-getting all my dishes cleaned finally
-coffee
-meditating today
-my new friend R
-being productive
-my eyeglasses
-cuteness
-fashion
-lorazapam
-lip balm
-water
-rest
-naps
-motivation
-seeing mom cat again today
-the meeting ex best friend wanted me to go to that i declined not happening
-seeing M actually defend me somewhat
-dimmer lights
-dental floss
-cleanliness
-newness
-happy,positive things to think about
-inspiration
-affirmations
-getting better at things
-positive transformation
-doing some physical exercise today and how good it felt
-that i get to work tomorrow
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-tuning into a parallel reality and staying faithful regarding T
-physical exercise
-taking care of myself
-letting myself lose my mind a little and finding bits of it in the process
-music
-the apathy mostly being gone
-my eyeglasses
-making efforts
-getting T stickers in the mail
-doing excitement inducement exercises
-being beautiful
-hot guys
-makeup
-sleep
-getting the last word in with every single person that created drama with me and winning
-buying a gift for my friend in maryland. one of the gifts donates proceeds to mental health organizations which i thought was awesome
-positive dreams and omens
-cats
-exceeding my january earnings goal. which also happened to be the most money i've earned ever in a month. and,in a month that is typically very slow for the work i do.
-having a job for primary career planned for the middle of the month
-learning
-self improvement
-having a saks credit card
-having a good credit score
-buying myself a valentines gift of charbonnel et walker chocolates from the theme collection of my favorite book through the looking glass,a dolce and gabbana t-shirt,and M giving me her flowers she was given(she hates flowers).
-warm showers
-cuteness
-reassurances
-prayer
-meditation
-coffee
-dove chocolate hearts
-having my surgery scheduled
-getting my laptop charger in the mail today
-getting a check deposited yesterday so i could fix it from being overdrawn
-lorazapam and not having to take xanax anymore
-getting my therapist flowers
-having beautiful eyes
-the recordings of my voice speaking to myself as a form of self hypnosis i've made and how much i really like them so far
-nature
-books
-being smart
-thinking creatively.
-determination
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-keeping the faith and optimism
-community
-connection
-oneness
-solid milk chocolates
-fashion
-coffee
-sleep
-surrender
-my laptop
-my creativity
-the self hypnosis audios i've made for myself
-all the jobs i've confirmed for this month
-my bed
-my hair
-being attractive
-my style
-cat cuddles
-pictures
-my determination
-my job coming up on friday
-entertainment
-lorazapam
-that A reciprocated feelings for me
-tuning into a better feeling reality
-all the metaphysical things i've learned
-getting S a gift of bourbon bears,your a catch swedish fish,and a winter teddy bear that has proceeds go to mental health organizations
-ideas
-efforts
-sweaters
-serendipity
-physical exercise
-feeling excitement
-letting myself lose my mind a little so i can reset
-meditation
-movies
-my phone
-finding i lost even more weight all from doing barely anything,which means i've now lost almost exactly 30 lbs since last winter. all from dropping the meds i knew i didnt want to be on anymore.
-makeup
-warm showers
-supplements
-getting a free sample today