My Lucid Dream Journal

Dream Titles in Alphabetical Order

A.
B
C
D
E
F
G
H
I
J
K
L.

• Learning to Pass through Walls

M
N
O
P
Q
R
S.

• Swimming Pool / flying Dream

T
U
V
W
Y
Z

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Hi,
I am going to use this 'Topic Thread' to record, write about any lucid dreams i have or any dreams that seem important or stand out for myself. Any comments are welcome xx

Dream History.
In total I have had approx. 10 lucid dreams, most have been within the last year or so.

Swimming Pool / flying Dream

Date: 27/July(07)/10
Time: approx 4am - 5am

Becoming lucid
There was music loudly playing somewhere, i noticed that the scenery to the side of me was familiar, i looked at it closely to remember where i recognised it from, as i did this the scenery had now changed and i suddenly realised i was dreaming. I was thrilled and went off to explore.

Flying
I followed a pathway that led to a road, in front was hedge and trees, i decided to try and fly, like superman style and with the intention to glide up into the air, i did. [i seem to be getting better at being able to be airborn and glide along in the air, it's great fun]

Also later in the dream [after the guy had left and before i decided to 'ask to be taken'] i saw two people, some distance in front of me, in upright positions flying/gliding through the air and landing in some trees. I had never seen anything like that before.

Later on in the dream, [after i tried to get back to my body] i was flying /gliding and having some difficulty getting much speed or height, i was passing over what looked like our town market place and every now and then, i would get a burst of energy which would lift me higher and speed me up. I realised this was coming from others, some of the people who were working 'normally' at their market stalls who noticed me, were sending me 'energy' ? to help me continue to move. I was able mostly to see who were doing this for me and acknowledge and thank them for it, as i passed by them.
Then i met up with a 'female friend' [i don't know who she was, i just found her suddenly with me, it seemed she knew it was a dream-enviroment] who accompanied me for a bit, before i decided to go off and do some more flying - practice. I was able to acheive alot of height and became quite good at reaching the target i wanted to fly too. Others were flying around in the air with me, they all seemed to 'know' about me and seemed helpful and supportive. [it was at this point i lost lucidity]

Speaking / connecting with others
As i flew over the trees, i found myself above a small swimming pool with a guy swimming in it, i shouted 'Hi' and to my suprise he responded and said 'Hi' [i rarely find other people that seem aware or interested in engaging with me during lucid dreams] There were a few other people around that i could see. This guy asked me if i was meditating and i told him i wasn't and that i had arrived there from lucid dreaming or what some people call, i was about to say OOBE, but before i could, he said 'astral projection' and so i agreed. At this point we were both hovering up in the air and i decided to check what my reality looked like, the colours were abnormally vivid, almost cartoon-like and so i decided it was definately a dream enviroment.

I don't remember playing in the swimming pool, but i'm sure i did, i have a 'feeling sense' of having been swooping down into the pool and back into the air and having fun experimenting with this.

Experiences Noticed
Sound - I remember hearing the tone of the guys voice and also my own voice [which i do not like] as we chatted.

Passing through Solid Objects - This guy flew around with me for a while and i remember passing through some objects and trying to really be aware of what it felt like passing through them. I actually don't know now what we passed through, but it felt confined, damp, wet, it was also dark, i think it was wooden. [i have never passed through a seemingly solid substance before in this way, although i have tried many times, usually i just can't push through things]

Later after this guy had left i tried to walk through a window / wall to get out of a building i was in, but i failed as usual, i was unable to pass through the window and my lower body got half way through the wall below and got stuck, not allowing me to go any further. So i had to un- stick myself and use the door. . .Haha.

Asking to be taken . . . - I asked to be taken to where i needed to go and i started to glide forward, i was about 50m off the ground, seemingly following a road. [in past dreams i have not had much success asking to be taken to certain places or people, i move / glide in the air fairly slowly and never reach my choosen destination] i realised i was going further away from where i had began lucid dreaming, so decided to stop and go back, as i really wanted to get back to my body to wake myself up, before i lost lucidity. I did lose some lucidity at this stage, but i was aware of more flying experinces before i lost totally lucidy and it became a totally normal dream. [see last paragraph in Flying section]

Learning to Pass through Walls

Date: 13/08/10 Time: On waking 8am approx.

Location: I recognised the location as being the fields i used to play in as a child, later most of the land was build on, houses. In the dream the place looked different than it had ever looked in physical reality.

Dream contained: A recognised location[but looking different], Other people, talking with others, passing through walls etc., shifting scenery, Other beings.

Becoming Lucid
As i was dreaming I decided i wanted to become very aware of my experience, it was at this point i realised i was dreaming and my dream scenery changed and instead of being strapped to the passengers-side bonnet of my sister's car which was travelling at high speed { ?? i guess there was no room in the car ??} i found myself standing at a familiar location and knowing i was dreaming.

I stood and 'took in' the view in front of me, but couldn't clearly recall this image on waking. There were buildings and fences and gates and there appeared no way through. I decided to practice going through barriers like walls and fences etc. I tried to go through a wire mesh fence, i put my right arm through first and found suddenly there was a huge hole in the wire, so i climbed through. {It seems my mind could not allow me to just pass through the mesh} Inside the fencing were some wooden shed / chalet-like structures, i put my right arm forward again and it went through . . . and the next instant i was inside the shed, WOW - first time i walked through something.
I looked around the room, it was mostly empty and dusty, but did have a crate and a rocking horse in there. I wanted to remember this, so i looked very closely again, but the scenery changed {this often happens to me if i make a point of trying to really look or really remember what i see and take a second look at something}, the rocking horse was no longer there and instead there was a small tall corner table with some plastic flowers in a vase on it. The door of the shed was open, i had not known this as i had passed through the back of the shed. A lady entered the shed using the door, she was looking around like me. I told her i could pass through the shed and said 'watch this' as i passed through it. She said she could too and did the same.

I think i passed through another shed wall and into another shed, {there was a row of them} which was locked and looked around inside, dusty and empty and then came out again, but this is not very clear in my memory.

As i came out of the shed, another lady appeared, it seemed the sheds were for sale and she wanted to know if i wanted one, i said i was just looking.

At this point a line of huge giants walked into view, they were all human, except one that had a rabbit for a head, they seemed jolly and friendly and not menacing at all. I asked the sales lady where they were from, she answered they were from 2 meditations away, i took this to mean 2 dimensions away. It seemed the giants didn't hold any more interest for me and i decided to investigate the brick building to the side of me.

I easily walked through the brick wall just like i had with the wooden sheds. Inside were 3 men, two were busy discussing and writing things, the other guy seemed like he was just hanging around. There wasn't much to see inside mostly dusty unused, with some pieces of wooden funiture. The men knew i was there but took no notice of me, they seemed to be wearing clothes that looked like they were from the past, brown / dark leather type stuff, but at the time this didn't strike me as odd or interest me. I decided to pass through the wall again to arrive back outside, it was mostly fields now infront of me. I know i had some interactions with others at this point and was intent on continuing my explorations and did for a little while {memory is hazy here} but suddenly i realised i should stop and get myself back to my body or i'd fall completely into dreaming and forget my experiences.

I decided that travelling to my body was unecessary and not usual possible for me to do, so i willed myself back to my body and to wake up, which i did.

Some thoughts
I always find it amazing how 'present' and 'really there' i feel during lucid dreams they feel so 'real', in comparison i have only rarely ever felt that way within my waking real-life reality.

I must try to remember to 'look at my hands' next time, i have never done this yet in any of my lucid dreams or previous OOBE - type experiences.

Any comments or thoughts are welcome x

Window Vision

Date: 5/09/10 Time: approx. 8am

Dream Contained: Very Brief Lucid moment, affirmation connections, no sight, sense of body asleep in bed

Becoming Lucid
I suddenly recognised the view i was seeing through the window was not my normal view.

I had woken up and fallen back off to sleep quite a few times. For a couple of days before this time, i had been practising some affirmations to help me become more psychic, spiritually aware. {i've not used affirmations much in the past, as i never felt that they really did anything} Part of this affirmation said ' i have visions, i love my visions'

So anyway, i became aware that the scene i was seeing through the window was not the real view from my bedroom window, and i suddenly realised and said ' this is a vision', i was able to see this vision for only a few seconds before i became unable to see. Realising it was a vision seemed to block the ability to see and then everything became black and i could not see anything any more.

The view through the window showed trees blowing in the wind, the leaves were sparkly orange and the whole picture was much more animated, vivid and colourful than how i see normal reality. The window was a square shape with a white frame, i didn't recognise it, nor could i see anything other than the window. I also had the feeling sense that the way i was facing was opposite to where my real window in my bedroom was. Once the vision had gone i could also sense myself lying in the bed, i think the realisation of the vision, woke me up a bit and so i was only semi - asleep. Unfortunately, i was unable to see anything else and must of fallen back to sleep, had some nomal not lucid dreams afterwards.

I seem to have become less enthusiastic about having lucid dreams and not lately felt like writing any of them up on here. I have recently had more lucid dream experiences than the usual too and so should be 'thrilled', but it has taken me this long and this mornings 'new-ish' and very exciting experience before i felt i could be bothered. So here goes . . .

My Childhood Garden / Black Cats / Beach visit

Date: 11/09/10 Time: approx. 8.30am

Starting Location: My childhood back garden as it had been when i was about 10 yrs old, it was daytime to begin with.

Dream Contained: a real past enviroment, other people, animals, walking through doors, flying, attempts to visit akashic records, beach, an unseen being /presence

Becoming Lucid
I just suddenly found myself awake and in the back garden of my childhood home, i knew my physical body was sleeping and this was OBE or Dream enviroment.

I decided to see if i could 'walk through' our old shed door, i then found myself just inside the shed, but now the previously closed door was open.

I found myself strangely inhibited within this enviroment, feeling like not breeching what would be considered 'normal' reality laws. For instance, i quite fancied continuing practicing walking through walls and boundaries, but because i could see and hear neighbours in their gardens, it didn't feel appropriate to walk through these boundary hedges or walls into their gardens.

I tried to fly, but couldn't get much height and when i did get off the ground, i would begin to slowly sink back down again. I tried to flap my arms at one point, but this method worked no better than if i'd tried it while fully awake in my body. I decided to look for some horses to ride, i loved horse riding. Where there should of been neighbours gardens, there was now conveniently open fields instead and 2 ponies as well. But it seemed that the owners of these horses, a couple, were near by, so i decided it was best not to ask to ride their horses. There was a neighbour two doors away, who was outside with a black cat, who had several black kittens. I engaged with this lady and her cats for a short while.

Next i found myself shooting rapidly high into the sky, using my intention to do so, when i stopped intending, i began falling very fast and spinning too as i fell, i had a brief view of city lights far below me and all around me was darkness. There was a VERY familiar feel high up there in the darkness and i felt i had been there many times before. {it was now apparently night time and dark}

I then asked to go to the akashic records, i found myself in a light, bright space sitting on a type of seat or wall, there was light all around but nothing else could be seen, someone was sitting next to me, whom felt familiar, but i did not see who they were {i don't think i tried to look} I asked the question and they spoke the answer, the 'one-word' answers given were too general and could of applied to anyone, so i gave-up.

Next i found myself at an unfamiliar beach, it was daytime, bright, sunny, windy and they were other people about on the beach. I was on part of a sand dune, that was quite high up, i ran and took off, gliding and soaring in the wind currents, it was awesome. I felt i was not alone and that someone familiar was with me as i flew, though i could not see anyone. . . . . i woke up.

Being told it's a Dream
I did not write this experience down, so what i write here is from memory

Date: 17/09/10 Time: morning

Dream Contained: Old middle age setting, other people, a fixed story-line, weird / non rational parts

Becoming Lucid
I found myself amongst a group of people, there was some sort of meeting, discussion going on. The place felt, seemed damp and dark, made of wood, some sort of old room, and i had the sense that we were dressed in clothes from the middle ages. I asked 'where am i ?' and was told i was dreaming, so i then realised i was 'awake' in my dream.

This dream was unusual in that it seemed to have a 'built-in' story-line that i was caught up in and even though i was aware i was dreaming, i still seemed to follow this story-line. So the choice to do what I wanted was not available like it normally seemed to be. Also the dream had quite alot of 'weird', non rational, un-explainable parts to it that were more mixed up and dream-like.

Once i realised i was awake, i suddenly 'knew' i had to become a traitor to the group of people i was with and go join the enermy. {forgotten bits here} I got on to some sort of catapult that 'shot' me over some seawater, i knew i had to get to this certain place out there to the others before i would be safe. A sort of spirit demon/lion like creature whizzed with me through the air ready to 'get me' should i fall short of the target i was aiming to land at, as i got closer to this safe point the spirit demon/lion changed to a white flowing horse. I landed at my target, which was on something within the seawater and bounced up into the air and whizzed on a bit further, to some sort of holding space /landing area /room. I can remember at this part, really 'looking' at the other people there with me and recognising many of them as mums from the school my children had attended when younger. { forgotton parts here before i woke up}

Looking at my Hands
I had been and was re- reading the book 'The Art of Dreaming' - Carlos Castaneda, it had been many years since i had read this last, about 10yrs ago.

Date: 20/09/10 Time: On waking 1am ish

Becoming Lucid
I was in a nightmare {can't remember this now} and i was looking for ways to 'get out' of my nightmare and suddenly in desperation thought to 'look for my hands'

And to my delight i found them AND succeeded in bringing my nightmare to a halt too.
They did 'melt' as i looked at them, they sort of reminded me of wavering flames, i was really excited to see this. Also i then became aware of a second pair of arms, as if someone were standing behind me, with their arms coming around me, at a guess i would say they were male. Strangely, i kind of ignored these extra arms, because i didn't want to spoil my first success in seeing my own hands. I felt i was close to my body and i should wake myself up immediately so i could write-down and record my success . . . on thinking this i was back in my body and awake.


Some thoughts
On waking, i did wonder if my perception of my hands was coloured by my expectation of what i would see. Also I have read recently in the Astral Dynamics book, that Robert says that in dreams hands are more 'stable' and donot have such a 'melting' fluctuating effect to them as they do in OBE's . . . . . so it will be interesting to see what my hands 'look like' in any future experiences, should i remember to look for them.

Two Lucid Dreams in the same morning

Date: 24/09/10

Dream 1.

Time: approx. 4am

Dream Contained: seeing a deceased relative, breathing under water, seeing other non - human others

Becoming Lucid
I was in the process of trying to get some party 'gate-crashers' out of my current house and suddenly realised it was a dream, then my house seemed to change and i found myself walking through unknown corridors and rooms.

{NOTE: i had ended this lucid dream, so i could record it before i lost awareness into normal dreaming, this lucid dream at this time felt like one of the most lucid dreams i had ever had and also felt incredibly long, i was able to 'look' in detail at everything around me and 'took a lot of it in', unfortunately although i did wake up, so was able to recall the dream well at that time in my memory, i fell back to sleep before writing anything of it down and then had two more normal dreams and then another lucid dream. So i donot have very many clear details of what i saw or how i felt, which is a little disappointing}

I seemed to come into a room, an area that seemed like a pub, i remember seeing a young man who looked like a young version of my deceased father, as i comtemplated this, so he gradually changed / morphed in front of my eyes, becoming older until he looked like my father just before he died. He beamed a 'knowing' smile and then got up and walked away, it WAS my dad, but despite seeing and feeling this, it felt ok to let him walk away.
There were other non-human beings around, {unfortunately this is written just from the morning notes and i can't 'pull' these images back to really recall these others, only they did not have human features.} There was technology in this place, and as i walked futher, it seemed like this place was some sort of amusement type of establishment, with also sorts of weird and wonderful fun things to do. Beings around me continued to morph into different beings and people, if i looked at them directly. There was a technology / machine that i spoke to, that spoke back with my voice. . .

At some point, i became aware of my ex-partner following me and keen to escape from him, i left the building / complex to find myself out side. It was daytime and infront of the concrete pathway i came out on, was what appeared to be the sea, {a type of habour place}i decided to dive in and hide underwater. i found to my delight i could actually breathe underwater, there seemed to be dolphin like creatures also in the water with me swimming around {no memories after this} I think i decided to end the dream there so i wouldn't forget it all.



Dream 2.

Time: approx. 8am

Location: Previous house i lived in 10 yrs ago

Dream Contained: drinking experience, short loss of vision, changed version of reality, children

Becoming Lucid
I became aware of sitting in my old rocking chair, i had no vision, something was blocking the chair from rocking and i realised it was the dog's tail, foot . . . i then realised i was dreaming, because this rocking chair is in bits {fallen apart} in our 'now' garage

I waited excitedly for my vision to become clear to see where i was, i found myself back in my old house, a place i lived in 10 yrs ago now. i was in the kitchen, the first thing i did {to reality check ???} was go up to the cold water tap, turn it on and with my hand scoop some water into my mouth to drink . . . and Yep, it was 'real' cold water - WOW. I opened the back door and looked outside, the boundary line on the right was now a breeze-block wall and not a wooden fence like it had been in real - life before i had left the property. The boundary line on the left - side, was interestingly how i remembered it last, a high wooden fence. {it feels that here my expectation of what i expected to see, ensured that's exactly what i did see}

I went down the entry between the terraced houses and for a moment {excitement, subconscious block maybe ??}i lost all my vision and i could see nothing, it didn't last long, only seconds and then my 'normal' vision came back. I came across a young boy of about 10 yrs old and i asked him 'where he lived ?' i asked him 3 times, but he didn't answer, there were also 2 other children close by. I thought he might be wary of me, so to reassure him of who i was i told him that i had once lived in that house. I looked at the house and realised from the front it had now been changed, it was two flatlets instead of one house, no. 4 and 10 {10 was the no. it used to be} I looked across the road to see if they had converted the other terraced houses over there, but no they were as i had remembered them.

I decided to go around to the back of the houses, using the path around to get to the back {garden} i was curious to see if a big fir tree i had left behind, when i moved was still there, still alive and 'growing'. To my delight it was, the top had been cut and it was being kept managable but it was still there {i actually don't know if this is true or not, i should go and 'really' look one day, though i might be disappointed and upset if in reality it's been cut down} When i looked towards the back garden, where the hedge should of been, this part was now different and was showing a long deep slope down into the back garden, that is not really how it is . . . . . . i woke up.

ADDED NOTE:

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I decided to go around to the back of the houses, using the path around to get to the back {garden} i was curious to see if a big fir tree i had left behind, when i moved was still there, still alive and 'growing'. To my delight it was, the top had been cut and it was being kept managable but it was still there {i actually don't know if this is true or not, i should go and 'really' look one day, though i might be disappointed and upset if in reality it's been cut down}

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Around April 2011 i did walk around the outside of my old back garden but unfortunately could no longer see the fir tree from behind the hedge, so either it was being kept very short or it had gone :-(..

Hello, newfreedom.

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I went down the entry between the terraced houses and for a moment {excitement, subconscious block maybe ??}i lost all my vision and i could see nothing

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Did you step down somewhere, down a flight of stairs maybe? It's not quite clear from your description.

Cheers,
Oliver

Hi Korpo,

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Did you step down somewhere, down a flight of stairs maybe? It's not quite clear from your description.

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Lol . . . sorry my english skills are not brilliant :)

No . . . . . 'i walked through the entry' {would of been a better way of saying this}

The 'entry' is the outside passage way between the terraced houses, that runs underneath the the top floor of the 2 houses, so it's a bit like going through a little tunnel, if you get what i mean, it doesn't actually go 'down' at all.

I should/could of explained the 'subconscious block' idea
For a moment i think i felt 'doubt' about my ability to perceive what was around the corner,{ through the entry} it was like i knew i wasn't really there and was struggling with my expectation of what i thought i should see and my ability to just see what was there. And also 'worrying', wondering how i could see at all, so i think i had an instant there where i felt, what i was doing was impossible and this is what caused me to suddenly lose all vision.

Hope that explains it a little better, thanks for your interest and your question

High up on a Mountain Side

Date: 3/10/10 Time: approx. 9am

Dream Contained: being airborne, fears and insecurities, children, town

Becoming Lucid
My car was parked on a very steep slope on a mountainside, i was worried that it might start to roll down and was also wondering how it was up there to begin with . . . suddenly i realised that this strange situation was because i was dreaming. Delighted at this knowledge i left the side of the mountain i was standing on to rise siftly up into the air

I stayed high up in the air and remained stationary there for a short while, i could feel the wind blowing strongly against me, but it didn't cause me to move, it was awesome, i love the feeling of the wind. I scanned the valley below me and looked all around, i was so high up i could almost see the horizan going all the way around. It was very beautiful to experience, but slowly as i realised i didn't know this land i began to feel slightly insecure. In the valley below was some sort of town, different somehow than normal, buildings of brick etc , but seemingly very basic. I had at this time a feeling of worry for others that had no luxury home and the struggles involved with having to live a physical life with physical needs.

I turned my attention away from this now, to see a group of children approx. 8 to 10yrs old below me on the mountainside. I glided down and stayed floating just above their heads. I then asked them if they could float like i was doing, only one boy seem interested and asked me how to do this. I told him to just 'will' himself up, he managed to get off the ground for a short while. I told him i would help him to fly/ float by holding his hand and taking him up in the air with me. I asked him where he would like to go and he said 'to the town', i asked him which way this was and he pointed to the right. i tried to rise up into the air, but found that holding this young boy's hand and trying to take him along too, made it almost impossible. I could lift up and just about get off the ground, but it felt as if there was just too much weight pulling me back to the ground all the time . . . . . i woke up

My Closest Experience to Sleep Paralysis Symptoms

Date: 24/10/10 Time: woke at 1.30 am

Starting Location: From my Body in my bed

Experience Contained: sleep paralysis, 3rd eye projection, transition sensations, airborne, fears{electrical wires/cables} other people

Becoming Lucid
I woke up {so i thought} from a slightly disturbing dream, that had started to become nightmarish, but then seemed to be still dreaming, {i later remembered scuffles around my bed and being dragged out of my bed} i was in my bed and there were monsters {like the aliens from the film Alien} coming through my door into my bedroom. At this point i seemed to gain more awareness {probably from my desperation to avoid the approaching aliens} and realised i was asleep in bed, this got rid of the aliens AND although i was awake i couldn't move. WOW i thought to myself, this must be similar to the famous sleep paralysis i've heard about. I was not aware of seeing or being able to 'look', but felt completely aware on some level of my visual surroundings, maybe this came from knowing i was in my body and just 'knowing' where i was.

Then i felt { and heard and saw in my mind's eye} a 'tazar-like-buzz' crackle through me causing a strong vibration / tremor. {this appeared to go across my body, approx. level with my chest area} Although i often feel alsorts of different energy sensations, this was VERY different than i had ever experienced before and i think that this was so, because of being in this 'type of' sleep paralysis awareness that i had also never experienced {so lucidly as this ?} before.

I thought WOW {again :lol: } this must be a Pre- OBE vibration, then i heard loud roaring, ripping, twisting noises, mixed in with normal earth type noises all mixed together, i recognised this type of sound { i had heard this once before - see notes at end} i find this sound to be different to 'normal' reality sound, it's almost as if there is a buffer between me and the sound. Also i think that is the reason the energy vibration felt completely different, it also, felt like something was absorbing the impact even though i was very aware of how strong the vibration felt.

I wonder if my point of awareness at this time was in my projected double {is that the name ?} already and that is why these experiences felt soo different to me.

Another vibration crackled through me the same as the first, i was then aware of travelling forwards at a very high speed {i think this might be phasing {in some form ? } or projection from the 3rd eye charkra ? } and for a split moment there was a point of light i could see in front of me, still moving rapidly forwards, i became closer and closer to this point of light, as at the same time i found myself running {in my body} down a road - I WAS OUT - YIPEEEEEEEE :P

Because of the way i was conscious going 'out' i did expect to pop out by the bed, in my room {but never mind} i was out and thrilled and felt very, very lucid at this point. Super :D

I seem to have mixed memories about the road i was runnning along, i have a memory of it being an unknown 'non real' road while i also feel it was two other roads {in real reality} too. Hmmmm . . . . . i think i have older dream, OBE ? memories from running along these roads that are getting mixed up with where i actually was.

I knew the location i was at, a real place in my old neighbourhood, i had stopped running and was standing still. Two lads in there late teens {my son's old school friends had lived in this area} were buzzing and whizzing around in the air having fun, i didn't recognise either of them. They also seemed elated to be out of their bodies, i tried to share my own delight about being out of my body too and whizzed into the air to show them, but they seemed not to notice me. I was aware at this point, {without actually directly looking at or for this} that the scenery around was / had morphed and no longer fully showed 'real-time' scenery. Although i still had a feeling sense of where i was in 'real' reality and was in the same area.

I can remember soaring up into the dark sky with delight and looking down at the town lights sparkling below all around, beautiful - sooo freeing. {this reminds me now, that although i had not thought about it at the time, the enviroment was dark and dusky but light enough to see, the normal brightness that streets lights provide i guess}

The lads were now also high in the sky and there were wires {electrical} around { i do have fear issues with these 'dam' wires and have got completely freaked out by them at times in past lucid dreams, OBE's to the point of where i can't remain airbourne or travel and also that they seem to suddenly appear in there 100's because of my fear}

One lad hit the wire, it sparked i saw flames and he looked charcoaled as he fell, { on T.V recently i saw a fireman trying to get a cat out of a tree, hit an electrical caple and get 'electric shocked' {he survived luckily and the cat too} so i now feel that this event was connected to this real memory of mine} I became worried by the cables / wires and for a while lost some lucidity while i found myself surrounded by wires. I realised i was loosing the lucid experience and tried to get back to my body so i could remember and record all the really 'exciting' bits.

All willing and asking to get back to my body failed, i found myself spinning in the air with my arms stretched out ?? So i felt the only way to get back was to travel there. {Sometimes i just do not seem to have the awareness, ability or 'knowing' to 'be' back in my body, yet other times i can just will it and i am awake}

Un- expectedly i did manage to remain awake / lucid until i woke up, at that point i was still trying to 'travel' back to my body. The rest of my experience was more dream like, in that i was interacting with others, but not really being in control of the 'storyline', so i'll finish writing it very briefly.

Travelling back to body, airbourne, met and chatted to my two nieces, jumped in a truck to catch a lift home, truck stopped off, i carried on airbourne following 'real' road, scenery changed {DAM it} in a building of sorts with rooms, someone - a woman coming i felt like hiding so as to not get caught up in any interactions, left building, asked my spirit teams to get me back to my body, found my self airbourne again this time flying with a whole kingdom ? of other people, being told i was the clothes maker of the king ?? i said 'i don't think so, i am rubbish at sewing', was then told that before this duty i had been the jester {that's more like it} Anyway the king wanted to go to the loo and so we stopped, i was just helping the king undo his lower garment outside the toilet cubicle . . . when i FINALLY woke up and was back in my body {3 cheers for the kings toilet needs. . . :lol: }


Some thoughts / notes
Although i don't think i have experienced sleep paralysis type symptoms much before, at least not this lucid anyway. I have had many experiences of being pulled out of bed and scuffles and fights around the bed often with seemingly unseen beings, which i now know are related to this experience. So these experiences around the bed, that feel very physical and real are probably connected to me being out of my body but too close to it and me not being lucid or aware enough to realise 'what's going on properly' at that time, and so, seem often to take on a nightmarish feel.

i had heard loud roaring, ripping, twisting noises, mixed in with normal earth type noises all mixed together once before, back over 10 yrs ago, whilst i was reading Roberts Astral Dynamics book for the first time and also reading 'The Psychic Explorer' - V Van Dam. i was aware of being 'awake' but body asleep and i tried the 'Spiral' technique {which is basically just spinning yourself free} to get out of my body, i heard the astral - type sounds at that time. I did also get out of body at that time and found myself in a dream / astral - type enviroment.

Hi newfreedom. I have a few thoughts. Take them or leave them, as usual.

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My Closest Experience to Sleep Paralysis Symptoms

Becoming Lucid
I woke up {so i thought} from a slightly disturbing dream, that had started to become nightmarish, but then seemed to be still dreaming, {i later remembered scuffles around my bed and being dragged out of my bed} i was in my bed and there were monsters {like the aliens from the film Alien} coming through my door into my bedroom. At this point i seemed to gain more awareness {probably from my desperation to avoid the approaching aliens} and realised i was asleep in bed, this got rid of the aliens AND although i was awake i couldn't move. WOW i thought to myself, this must be similar to the famous sleep paralysis i've heard about. I was not aware of seeing or being able to 'look', but felt completely aware on some level of my visual surroundings, maybe this came from knowing i was in my body and just 'knowing' where i was.

Then i felt { and heard and saw in my mind's eye} a 'tazar-like-buzz' crackle through me causing a strong vibration / tremor. Although i often feel alsorts of different energy sensations, this was VERY different than i had ever experienced before and i think that this was so, because of being in this 'type of' sleep paralysis awareness that i had also never experienced {so lucidly as this ?} before.

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I would say that you were already projected, and became lucid upon reentry.

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I though WOW {again :lol: } this must be a Pre- OBE vibration, then i heard loud roaring, ripping, twisting noises, mixed in with normal earth type noises all mixed together, i recognised this type of sound { i had heard this once before - see notes at end} i find this sound to be different to 'normal' reality sound, it's almost as if there is a buffer between me and the sound. Also i think that is the reason the energy vibration felt completely different, it also, felt like something was absorbing the impact even though i was very aware of how strong the vibration felt.

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I believe these are reentry vibrations, and that you had momentary sleep paralysis upon reentry. It didn't last long, because you were ready to go again as soon as you got back.

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I wonder if my point of awareness at this time was in my projected double {is that the name ?} already and that is why these experiences felt soo different to me.

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I think you were bilocating, and the paralysis is the awareness of your body, while the figures were the point of view of the projected double, happening at the same time.

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Another vibration crackled through me the same as the first, i was then aware of travelling forwards at a very high speed {i think this might be phasing {in some form ? } or projection from the 3rd eye charkra ? } and for a split moment there was a point of light i could see in front of me, still moving rapidly forwards, i became closer and closer to this point of light, as at the same time i found myself running {in my body} down a road - I WAS OUT - YIPEEEEEEEE :P

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Yeah, you got out again. It was a third eye projection (phasing doesn't always have such a fast feeling of movement. This is my most favorite exit sensation, by the way. I love 'going' with it.

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I seem to have mixed memories about the road i was runnning along, i have a memory of it being an unknown 'non real' road while i also feel it was two other roads {in real reality} too. Hmmmm . . . . . i think i have older dream, OBE ? memories from running along these roads that are getting mixed up with where i actually was.

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I believe these were transitional sensations, which triggered memories of previous times you have done this mostly unconscious.

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i had heard loud roaring, ripping, twisting noises, mixed in with normal earth type noises all mixed together once before, back over 10 yrs ago. Whilst i was reading Roberts Astral Dynamics book for the first time, i was aware of being 'awake' but body asleep and i tried the twisting tornado technique to get out of my body, i heard the astral - type sounds at that time. I did also get out of body at that time and found myself in a dream / astral - type enviroment.

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These and all other types of transitional sensations are usually more dramatic when you begin to have conscious projections, and usually 'smooth out' or go away altogether except for reentry. (For most people, anyway). For some reason, at least for me, reentry sensations maintain their strength.

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Hi CFTraveler,

I'll take them all, Thankyou . . . very helpful and very much appreciated :)

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Yeah, you got out again. It was a third eye projection (phasing doesn't always have such a fast feeling of movement. This is my most favorite exit sensation, by the way. I love 'going' with it.

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Yes, i thought it was pretty awesome too, So, CFTraveler do you always find you are still moving forwards rapidly when you arrive 'out' ? {with the 3rd eye type of projection} like i found myself running forwards. Or can you also just arrive 'out' standing still / stationary with this type of exit too ?
I was wondering if i will ever find myself 'out' close to my sleeping body {eg. my bedroom} with this type of exit.

Prompted by your helpful thoughts, I think i will read up on transitional sensations and different types of exit experiences

It's really great to experience new experiences, as I find it really helps me in being able to 'take in', understand and appreciate 'old information' {eg. info. i've already read in the past} on new, deeper and more meaningful levels :D

Joining this forum and 'writing -up' my experiences here, has been really beneficial for my progress, i had been only able to recal approx. 10 lucid dreams {during my whole 41 yrs of life} before i started writing them up on here. Within the last 3 months i have already experienced and written up 10 Lucid dream {or OoBE} events :D The last experience being very profound and exciting for me.

So a BIG THANKYOU to Robert and ALL here who make this wonderful forum possible xxx

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So, CFTraveler do you always find you are still moving forwards rapidly when you arrive 'out' ? {with the 3rd eye type of projection} like i found myself running forwards. Or can you also just arrive 'out' standing still / stationary with this type of exit too ?

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Mostly moving- I usually end up in a tunnel and then go from there, sometimes merge into a landscape and I'm stationary.

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Mostly moving- I usually end up in a tunnel and then go from there, sometimes merge into a landscape and I'm stationary.

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Ok, right that's interesting.
I have only ever experienced the dark tunnel phenomena once, over 20yrs ago, a few weeks after giving birth to my first child {a son}. At that time i had 'moved' into very high energy {post-natal high?} and had my very first profound spiritual experiences, which included some OoBE's amonst other things.

One night i found myself floating down a dark tunnel and i just 'knew' it was the 'death tunnel' and i thought i was dying, i screamed with all my might 'NOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo' and thankfully at that time, this stopped the experince and i suddenly found myself back in my body, awake.
i felt the most forfilled in life i had ever experienced after giving birth to my son and definately didn't want to die at that time and leave my newborn son without his mother.

The other out of body experiences i had at this time were not frightening and were exhilarating, freeing and comforting.

I have wondered since, if i hadn't of been afraid of the tunnel and thought that i was dying and hadn't stopped the process, it might just of been a 'normal' OoBE, but back then i had no knowledge of OoBE's or anything spiritual at all.

My instinct at that time yelled out at me to get out of there and not go down the tunnel.

Non-Lucid Dream connected with sleep paralysis and transitional type sensations

Date: 29/10/10 Time: On waking 3am {fell asleep approx. 12 midnight}

Location: My bed, in my bedroom

Experience Contained: transitional sensations, entity or presence, paralysis, false awakening, feeling of physical pain, floating

Becoming lucid
I did not become lucid through the whole of this experience

I was aware of a sharp pain in my left side, 'someone' was pushing down strongly on the lower part of my left ribcage, using their hand or so it felt like. I tried to move to get away, but i couldn't and this seemed to prompt the 'being' / 'presence' to push down harder and thus increasing the pain. {some memory loss at this point}

{NB. the pain could of been real sensations of pain, i do sometimes suffer from lower backache and indigestion, also i realise i could of been lying awkward too}

Next i find myself lying on my back, but i am floating about meter high off the bed i am in the midst of a wild raging storm, the wind is roaring, howling and battering me, but my body does not move despite the winds force blasting me, it seems to come from the direction of my bed headboard. i am aware of a presence or an entity by the side of my head on my left hand side and i see this in my mind's eye as a spiky black cloud with spots and streaks of light mingled in too. I feel this entity is trying to hurt me and it feels like i am fighting for my life. I tell this entity to 'Be gone' {i had watched a film recently where a man had used these words} I also ask my spirit teams over and over again to 'clear this entity away'

My ex-partner who sleeps in the next room, came in to see what all the commotion was about, waking me up and 'pulling' me out of the nightmarish experience. He then leaves the room {more dreaming, but i don't recall any of it} . . . . . and then i REALLY woke up.

Some thoughts / notes
In 'real' physical life it was a very windy night that night, however i am unable to hear the wind from inside the house and i can only see the tree shadows dancing in the wind.

I feel perhaps the experience was connected to sleep paralysis symptoms {unable to move} and also that maybe i was either in the process of leaving my body or returning to it and the wild storm was transitional sounds and sensations.

Not sure about the entity / or presence, could of been due to the mind-split effect and astral feedback ?

If i had of been more aware or lucid i might of had more understanding of what was really taking place at this time and the whole experience might of been less nightmarish and more enjoyable.

Hypnogogic Voices

Date:30/10/10 Time:9pm

Although i find i am able to see hypnagogic images more frequently these days just before falling asleep, it's not often i hear sounds or voices.
I was lying in my bed, with the intention of going to sleep quite soon, just thinking things over, when i heard someone, a male voice, say my name 3 times, this brought me back to 'full' waking awakeness. The way the 'voice' was saying my name was like 'he' was trying to get my attention / to 'reach me' / get through to me.

Sometimes i have also heard my dad's voice call my name with the same kind of tone, like he is trying to get my attention. {My dad 'passed on' 12 yrs ago now}
What always amazes me about these hypnagogic voices, is the fact that they always sound so real, with just the same 'realness' as any sound i would hear with my 'normal' 3D reality hearing.

Non-Lucid Dream - Fir tree

I decided to record here, this part of my dream because it connects to one of my previous lucid dreams
{See: Two Lucid Dreams in the same morning - Dream 2.}

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I decided to go around to the back of the houses, using the path around to get to the back {garden} i was curious to see if a big fir tree i had left behind, when i moved was still there, still alive and 'growing'. To my delight it was, the top had been cut and it was being kept managable but it was still there {i actually don't know if this is true or not, i should go and 'really' look one day, though i might be disappointed and upset if in reality it's been cut down}

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Date:5/11/10

Location: The previous house i lived in.

{NB. In dreams i often find myself living back in the previous house that i used to live in.}

In this dream i didn't know why i had moved back into the house {and usually i don't know the reason} and i was not happy about being back there either. The garden had been changed since the last time i had lived there, i looked to see if the old fir tree i had left behind when we moved was still there, but it wasn't it had completely gone.

The interesting thing here is, that during the dream {thinking it was 'real'} i remember thinking to myself that the lucid dream experience i'd previously had, where i had checked up on the tree and had seen the tree still standing was obviously incorrect

So i was dreaming, and in this dream was remembering a recent lucid dream experience too.

ADDED NOTE:
Around April 2011 i did walk around the outside of my old back garden but unfortunately could no longer see the fir tree from behind the hedge, so either it was being kept very short or it had gone :-(..

Using Arms to get airbourne
{only partial memory of dream}

Date:6/11/10 Time:On waking 4am

Location: The road where i used to live as a child.

Becoming Lucid
i can't remember when it happened

Unfortunately i was not able to remember alot of/all of the lucid dream, but decided to record it here anyway, as it was a lucid dream experience.

I felt very 'present' and was very excited as i usually am on being awake in a dream. This time i was able to use my arms in a 'type of' slow flapping motion to get myself into the air. {it felt like being under water, doing full breaststroke arms} Each time i moved my arms in this fashion i gained more height off the ground. There were also telephone wires around which normally 'freak me out' but i was able to manoeuvre around these this time without any problems and I rose very high into the sky.

At one point i deliberately looked at my surroundings so i would remember when i woke up what it had been like, everything was so very colourful and vivid, {almost cartoon-like} but the scene i was now viewing was unfamiliar to me and not the road i had started the experience in.

The only other thing i remember is thinking to myself, i must get back to my body to wake myself up, or i'll lose all of this wonderful experience.

Some Thoughts / Notes - Reasons for the very poor dream recall ?
I think i must of falied to get back to my body/wake up when i decided that i should, as when i did wake up i had been busily dreaming other non-lucid dreams.
Or maybe i did wake up partially straight after the lucid dream, managing to recall some dream memory before falling back off to sleep again, but i don't remember doing this.

Looking at Hands / Spinning to move to different Location

Date:13/11/10 Time: on waking 9.30am

Starting Location: My old High School

Dream Contained: looking at hands, changing location, speaking with others, sea, beach, lake, canals, children, vision difficulties, merging / moving into outside window scene.

Becoming Lucid
I found myself walking along a corridor in my old High school, i turned right and went through the double doors into the hall and then it 'hit' me, i was 'dreaming'. There were some school children sitting in the room to my left and walking towards us was my old Primary School headmaster, i decided to turn around and go back out of the hall, which i did. The headmaster was saying something about my behaviour and was implying that perhaps i was drunk. {Haha, no not drunk, just lucid and off to explore}

I walked back along the corridor, but now i had two small children holding each of my hands, a girl on my right and a boy on my left. I asked the little boy his name, he replied, the name he told me was the name of my daughter's boyfriend and so i assumed it to be him. I also then 'knew' that the little girl on my right was my daughter, i asked her how old she was and she replied she was 7yrs old. This confused me somewhat as i had seen these children as being around 4 yrs old, when my daughter had said 7yrs, for a moment she became a 7yr old and briefly i could see her as this older child. We came to some double glass doors to our right and we went through, {mixed memories here} we went outside i think, but at the same time we were still indoors too?

I decided to think about what i could do and I remembered i could / should look for my hands. I crouched down to be at the same height as the children and said 'let's look at our hands'. This time my hands did not melt, i spent some considerable time looking at them, trying to remember how they looked so i could compare what i had seen in my dream with my 'real' hands when i awoke. I looked at one finger nail and then felt this nail with my other hand to see if it really was as it looked . . . and it was, {during this time i had no vision just physical feeling sense} i got myself confused here as i thought i had really done this with my physical body, but i hadn't. The look of one of my finger nails changed as i studied them, my hands seemed to have quite a few scratches and 'nicks' on them i made an effort to remember where these were to see if they were like that in 'real' life. {they are not}

Next, i remembered to try and get back to my physical body and had recalled reading something about spinning to change the dream scene. So with this thought i started 'spinning' {strange here, as not only did i not consider the children who had been with me, but being in a crouching position was no barrier at all to 'spinning'}
Spinning caused me to lose vision and everything became blurred, colours twisted until it became dark, at this point i thought my experience was over, but slowly shapes started to form in my vision and i could see something that resembled a door handle. The image became more and more coherent and clear until i could see a wardrope and then a whole room.

I was in a bedroom, but not one i recognised, the wardrope i recognised from my childhood, also a dressing table, there was a large white wicker box in the bedroom too. I can remember looking very carefully around the room, taking it all in so i would remember it all later on waking. Unfortunately although the 'feel' of the room and the experience of being there is still VERY clear to me, i can't recall many visual details of the room and it's content.

The bed was against the far wall and above the bottom end of the bed was a window, i climbed onto the bed and looked through the window. It seemed this room was 2 or 3 storeys high as the ground was a little way below me. i saw a sheep farm, lot's of sheep, a few people and tractors.
At this point i began having difficulty in seeing, i think i was connecting back with my real body, i felt like if i opened my eyes i would be opening my real eyes, but in the end i had to do this because i couldn't see. I opened my eyes and kept trying to open them wider and look and also i had to brush something away from infront of my eyes / face. I was very surprised because all this seemed to be happening to my dream eyes / vision and i found that i still reamined within the dream and it was my dream eyes i was closing and needing to open and not my physical body's eyes at all.
I continued looking and could now see a lake with ducks in it, as i continued to look i could constantly see more and different things all the time. There was a river coming from the lake and water channels, like strange canals everywhere between buildings etc. Then to the side i spotted a beach, sand and sea, my favourite place, the 'draw' of the beach was so powerful that i found myself automatically outside {at the time i didn't notice this had happened}

I was now in the seaside town, it was a bright sunny day, lots of people around, at this point i decided to try to find out where i was.
i stopped a passing lady and asked, if she knew where we were, she seemed not to really know and gave me an attempt at guessing. I didn't think she was right as the place she seemed to be implying i knew was not by the ocean, i thanked her and told her i could see some signs infront of me and would look there. I remember reading one sign, but it was intructions and not a place name, at this point all the other signs that i had thought i had seen seemed to have nothing written on them. I spotted another sign which appeared to be a name, i read it {can't remember now, about 5 letters in it, not a name i recognised} but realised this was just a dinosaur amusement park that the sign was pointing towards.

I walked back along the road i had taken and tried asking someone again, but as i did this, a group of people also came towards me and the person /group of people i was talking to, they were advertising some sort of insurance and pointing out possible dangers. The lady i asked seemed to recommend the sales group, but also could not tell me where i was.

I left these people behind and followed the road down to the beach, at this point i seemed to gain more awareness and realised i was losing my awareness through this desire to know where i was and that i better end the lucid dream now, or i might lose the whole experience. As soon as i decided to wake up, i was instantly awake.

Some thoughts
I seemed to be in a very light sleep, it was very easy to choose to be awake

Hi, very interesting to read your amazing clear experiences and i like the way you record it.

and one of the impressionable things i find is the picture/symbolic of the male&female kids,
my first association was something like thats your-own-inner-yin&yang-aspect,
which seems equilibrated and naturally rising.

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Hi, very interesting to read your amazing clear experiences and i like the way you record it.

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Hi Istia, Thankyou for your kind comments. I had a little 'look' at how others were recording their own dreams and that's where i got my ideas from, although i have also been meaning to have another look at Robert's advice on how and what to record {i have the first astral dynamics book}.
I am very pleased with the increase in the amount of lucid dreams that i am now experiencing since i started writing them up on the forum here. I get lots {usually at least 2, often times as many as 4 or 5} normal dreams most nights that i remember, but although i try to 'hold onto them' by remembering and running through them when i wake, which i do, it never feels comfortable to explore these or write them up, only the 'lucid' dreams.

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my first association was something like thats your-own-inner-yin&yang-aspect,
which seems equilibrated and naturally rising.

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Haha, balance, now that is something i could do with, never really had much balance in myself, always extremes. Reading my 'write-up' again, i have realised i put the boy and girl on the wrong sides, my daughter was on my left and her boyfriend on the right, funny how i wrote that the wrong way around. Strangely i can still feel the energy presence of my daughter on my left side.
Children were always a big part of my life, my own two, looking after my sister's two children and then working in a children's nursery for some years. I haven't had 'little un's' in my life for about 4 years now and have been noticing that many of my normal non-lucid dreams are back in the 'good ol days' where my children are young again. Sometimes after having these dreams i can also still feel the energy presence of my young children around for days afterwards, it brings the memories and feelings of days 'gone-by' very close indeed, i do miss those connections i had when my children were younger, but it seems in reality they are obviously still there and within reach too.

Thanks again for sharing your impressions / thoughts, it's not often i see symbolism in things, my thinking abilities rarely function in that type of way, so it's nice to get another's different viewpoint :)

Lucid Dream Memory / Checking details in houses

Date: 18/11/10 Time on waking: 2.30am

Starting Location: Road i used to live in as a child /teenager

Lucid Dream
i found myself in the road of where i grew-up as a child, i was going into others houses, to check if they looked the same as they were in 'real' physical life, the reason for doing this was, as some sort of reality check, to see if i was in 'real time', astral or dreamscape. I also talked to others whilst in the dream about going into houses as a means of checking things out.

Some thoughts / notes
What i have written below is a little difficult to convey in my own words that will or could make any sense to others, so you'll have to forgive me if what i say is not 'correct' with the terms or words i have used to describe what i mean :)

The above experience has opened up new understandings for me, bridging lucid dreams, clear vivid dreams and non-sensical dreams pieces. I get a feeling sense now of 'how i am' in each of these, it's almost like there needs to be two parts of my 'awareness self' in the dream scenario before i can be aware that the lucid dream being experienced is 'just that' a lucid dream.
I feel that all my dreams are experienced as a lucid dream to the part of me that is dreaming at the time, but if i cannot pull that extra awareness in, {would this extra awareness be the part of me i experience as being me ?} to acknowledge it's a dream and i have the ability to think and choose separately from the 'original lucid dream part of myself' and to be able to then think about my choice, then it seems i cannot bring the dream back with the feeling that it was a 'lucid' dream.
I guess this is really all about 'lucidity' levels.

Although this was a lucid dream experience, it felt like it was only a memory of one. When i normally have lucid dreams, they feel more like moving from one reality {dream space}to another reality {real physical life space}

When i woke at 2.30 this morning i remembered i had been {out} / lucid, but because i had not been able to save the whole experience as a lucid dream, i did not have much memory of my experiences. It was like i held two parts, the first part being that i had been lucid during my dream {i had known i was dreaming} and the second part being the pieces of the memory of what happened which is held very much like a vivid dream, but not the with the lucid side of it intact.

I feel i lost lucidity during the dream as i got carried away with checking out the details of the houses i entered and forgot that i had a choice to do something else.

Ok, i have just realised after reading my above attempt to explain my understandings that this IS what Robert conveys with the mind split phenomena that he explains and writes about in his book {i have the first copy}
So this is probably about the mind-split effect and which part of myself i am 'with' and also about the mechanism of the downloading of memories.

:D Gosh, there's nothing better than experience to gain understandings is there ?

Vivid, Non-lucid Dream / viewing the Sea

Date: 24/11/10 Time: morning

I was on a type of balcony that belonged to the people who i was staying with, i was quite high up and had a good clear view all around. Mostly the roof tops of houses but to my left i could see the sea, i could see this so clearly, as clear as when i am lucid.

Some thoughts / notes

I did not realise i was dreaming until i woke up, yet i was so very 'present' and able to 'look' and 'take in' deeply the sea view.

I wonder if this was 'just' better memory recall or whether i was in some way more 'aware' within the dream than i normally am ?

Trying to become more Lucid / church building

Date: 26/11/10 Time: morning

Staring Location: Corridor of some building

Becoming Lucid
I was in the corridor of some building that i was trying to get out of, i had looked through some windows and was aware of it being sunny outside. I finally found a door to the outside and pushed it open and went through, once outside i realised i was dreaming.

At this point, i think i started to wake up, as i had some difficulty in staying in the 'scene', it was like i could see myself, more than actually being there as myself. I desperatly tried to get myself back into the 'dream scene' and was looking around to see what i could focus on that would pull me into the dream more fully. I was scanning the row of houses infront of me to see if this would trigger an idea of what i could do, to enable myself to stay in the dream. I spotted among the roof tops, what looked like a church roof etc. Using this as my reference point i starting walking rapidly towards this, walking along the road infront of me towards the church.
i woke up.

Some thoughts / notes
Although i realised i was dreaming once out of the building, it seemed i lacked the ability to really be there, to be present and to even think about what i wanted to do.

Dreaming or Real ? / Back garden

Date: 29/11/10 Time: morning

Starting Location: My back garden as it looks now in 'present' time

I found myself outside in my back garden, it was quite dark and warm, i was wearing a T- Shirt, trousers and nothing on my feet. I don't know where i was going or why, but i found myself opening the back garden wooden gate and walking through this. Then i realised i was testing the weather to see what it was like, this then jolted me to realise i must be dreaming, since it was very cold, icy and snowy in reality, i thought to myself this must be a dream. I came back into the garden and closed the gate behind me, i decided a 'good way' to test if i was dreaming or not was to throw myself onto the floor ????? not sure where that brilliant idea came from :lol:
I threw myself down onto the grass and yep, it all felt real, so i decided that obviously i was awake and not dreaming...... everything then went dark and i woke up.

Paddling in the sea

Date: 5/12/10 Time: 9 am approx. on waking

Starting Location: A unknown town

Dreamed Contained: Town, my son, other people, sea, doubts about dreaming / 'frozen' time, breaking glass panels

Becoming Lucid
I was trying to find my way home {i often am in dreams} i had just stopped to ask for directions from a man, he seemed not to know where we were { my son and I} and seemed to be trying to delay us, keep us chatting, this made me un-easy {insecurities came up for me here, from memories of being a young teen} and so i politely brought the conversation to an end and moved swiftly away from the man. We came to a bend in the road and there was a shop on the left that had cards on display outside, i knew i needed to buy some cards, but somehow i also knew it was inappropriate to try and buy any here. Then we were out in a type of square in the middle of some town, i now realised i was dreaming.

I saw my son walk off in a different direction and enter a shop, i wasn't worried, i thought we might meet up again later.
Having realised this was a dream, i had doubts that i could be doing and seeing as i was, this seemed to bring the whole scene to a halt, everything became still, the people that had been walking earlier became motionless and 'frozen' in time.
I knew i was losing my ability to stay in the dream and decided to focus on getting to the sea, the sea front was infront of me. Once i decided to focus on doing this, the dream scene became normal and i found myself running barefoot on the sand towards the foamy waves.

At first, there was not much sensation of the water on my feet or legs and this seemed to disturb me greatly, so i concentrted on feeling the icy sea and my legs becoming freezing and numb. i was saying over and over in my head, 'it's freezing, it's freezing' and so in the end it was and i was satisfied that this was a real experience of paddling in the cold sea.

The next part of the lucid dream seemed quite as if it was happening to me, rather than me 'running the show'.
Next i entered a building, it seemed to be some type of restuarant, people sitting at tables etc. I saw a glass show panel and decided i could try and go through it, at this thought the panel fell to the floor and smashed { my subconscious? as i know i feel i cannot even try to walk through glass} I then decided to look for a suitable picture that i could enter, i looked at a scene in a glass cabinet, it was two white coloured mummy cases that were animals ?? rather like some sort of rhino, nope i wasn't going into them, they too fell out of the glass cabinet as the glass panel broke and fell to the floor. I looked at several other pictures, panitings etc. mostly weird faces, nothing suitable to enter into.

I continued looking for a little while longer, before i thought it best to wake up, before i forgot all i had done.
i woke up.


Some thoughts / notes
Earlier on in the same dream, i had been walking along a mud lane and to my right i past some trees, i made a real effort to 'look' and 'take in' what i was seeing, not knowing i was dreaming at this point. Since starting to lucid dream more regularly i do sometimes in 'real life' 'look' and try to 'take in' what i see in the same way as i do when i dream. It often brings in a very strong sense of 'dreaming', and that being awake in my body is not so far removed from being awake in a dream. The boundary lines can feel very blurry at these times

My most aware Lucid dream /Mrs Lotter

I think this lucid dream has been my most 'real' / clear one so far. Although i have now forgotten some things that happened, at the time, i experienced the 'realness' 'clearness' as more than other times it would seem. I am not sure why this experience felt the 'most clear' I think my interactions with others was more engaged perhaps than i've experienced before. But what makes one dream, more 'real' feeling than the next ?? Anyone know ?? i was more aware perhaps, but why would that be ? More energy in someway or something ?

Date: 6/12/10 Time: approx. 10am on waking

Starting Location: An unknown house

Dream Contained: house, shopping mall, new experiences for me, a closeness to others, conversations, what i'm wearing, seeing my hands, getting back to the same dream scene, telepathy

Becoming Lucid
I was in a room, which seemed to be my room, a new house perhaps? and i was thinking that the funiture would fit / work better another way {this is another common dream i have in new houses, arranging the funiture etc.} My family were there with me, i had looked through a couple of windows and through one i could see a small pathway before land with gravestones on it, next to a graveyard and church ? i was suprised by this and called my daughter over to coma and look. Eventually it dawned on me that this was not my house or my circumstances {new house} and so i must be dreaming, on realising this i left the room i was in to go explore.

The door lead into a square hallway and infront of me were some stairs up towards the bedrooms ? I decided to go up the stairs and was about to climb them, when an elderly lady started to decend down the stairs, on seeing me she went back up and gestured for me to go up.
I felt a little awkward being in her house and decided to be very truthful with her, I asked her if she knew who i was and where i was, she proceeded to tell me what she knew. Unfortunately i can't remember all that she said, but i feel this is the most engaged conversation i ever had in a lucid dream. I can remember having eye contact with her and feeling a real rapport with her too.
She told me she was called Mrs Lotter, she said she didn't think i was there to cause her harm as i was still in my bed clothes, to which i looked down and saw i was wearing my long vest top and nickers only {eh hem - embrassing :oops: thankgoodness i do wear something to sleep in at night} This is the first time i have ever really 'looked' and seen my body and what i was wearing, i must try to remember to 'look' at what i am wearing more often. She also said something about the fact that i was physical and that my feet were real to surfaces etc. and so i was obviously not a ghost. i can't quite remember all that she said though, which is a shame. I was apparently in my home village.

I told her i was 'dreaming' and my family were here with me too, but that we would now leave her house and go home. She came downstairs with me { missing memory} she then went back upstairs and we left her house. {i forgot all about the clothes i was wearing or wasNOT wearing...???} As we were leaving, a few people were calling at the house asking if the 'lady' was there / in ? i answered she had gone back upstairs and i didn't know if she was going to bed or not, the young woman left the others she was with and a dog outside and went in the house, we left.

We made our way past the house and i remember looking at the glass double doors with gold fancy handles and thinking i have never seen this house before. My family and i began walking towards a brightly lit shopping mall, as we entered the mall, i said to my daughter, this is so real, this is like that film, 'inception' she said, 'yes, inception' i said. I also remember trying to get my son to make notes of things so he too would remember the experience.

The dream goes on and remains lucid for some time, until i wake up.

Part of what i remember is lying next to someone and being able to see there face close to mine and talking to them with my mind, i was doing this for some time and was amazed i remained still very lucid, i had never experienced doing this before whilst being so lucid. Then i started to lose lucidity and there was a time i could see my hands, i must of being trying to stabilize the dream.

I was awake or so i thought, in the bed with my ex-partner, then i realised this was not 'how it was' anymore and with this knowledge was able to go back to the place i had left, the mall, but my friend had gone, the lucid dream goes on for some time after this.

Some thoughts / notes
So this is the first time i 'look' at my body / clothes, first time talking telepathically to someone and the first time to get back to the same dream scene whilst being lucid in a dream and also a much deeper more engaged conversation with another {Mrs Lotter}

Blue Haze Real Time Garden / lots more lucid scenes

Date: 8/12/10 Time: 8.30am to 9.30am

Lucid Dream 1. - Blue Haze Real Time Garden
Starting Location: Back door of my present house

Dream Contained: Talking with others, blue haze atmosphere, loss of vision, an awareness of what i was wearing, broken washing machines /dyers

Symbols: a row of radiators drying bedding in the street, a bed being used outside
Symbolic modifiers: bedding was white duvets and also sleeping bags {the ones my dogs use for bedtime}, the bed covers were pulled back and the bed was empty.

Becoming Lucid
I walked out of the back door of my house, as this happened i knew i was dreaming, the atmosphere was blue and hazy / misty and everything else could be seen as a black silhouette. I was thrilled thinking i must be in real-time, as soon this excitement came rushing in, i lost my vision. I felt at this time, that i must have gone back to my body as all i could see was a deep blackness with blobs of colour, similar to what i have observed behind closed eyelids. I felt very much still alert and stated 'clear sight' / 'i want to see now' these commands have so far never worked for me, so I then decided that my 'best hope' would be to focus on continuing to walk along the path of my garden to the gate, this 'worked' and i opned the gate and went through.

A lady delivering papers or other to people's homes passed me by, i tried to duck out of the way, so she wouldn't see me. I think she did see me, but chose to ignore me and continued to walk on. At this time, i became worried as to what i was wearing and looked down to see i had on an old favourite blue baggy jumper from 10 yrs ago. This was long enough to cover half of my upper legs and so i felt comfortable enough to venture out in this.

As i turned left to go down the road, there was a row of radiators drying bedding sitting in the middle of the road, for some reason i brushed these drying items onto the floor as i went past. When i reached the end of the road {it's a no-through road}
i saw the delivery lady walking up past the houses to my left. I decided to look over a neighbours wall, in their back yard there were 3 washing/ drying machine type items {broken i presumed} {can't remember what else i saw} I decided to take another look, this time there was also a bed in the left hand corner and it looked like it was in use too ??

I have memory loss and confused bits at this point, but the elderly lady whose bed it was, was angry at me for snooping. Another younger lady arrived and i tried to get explainations from her as to why this lady was sleeping outside and how did she know this lady. The younger lady was quite abrupt with me, basically it was non- of my business and go away.

Next there were 2 men, one was apparently the owner of the house, which he said was a hotel, whose back garden i had been peering into, at some point i remember feeling the need to check what i was wearing, i was wearing a night shirt and matching dressing gown, ones i had bought and used in hospital during the time when my son was born, i obviously thought this was perhaps not enough, so i checked again, this time i saw myself wearing a pair of red silky shorts and a khaki leopard print vest top, {clothes i used to wear over 20 yrs ago} I understood that i was wearing all of these clothes, the shorts and vest top were under the nightshirt etc.

I did think at the time i should probably wake myself up so i wouldn't lose lucidity but i was having too much fun and wanted to stay longer. I continued to chat with the hotel owner for some time, after this i decided i would try and fly, get airbourne, but i could just not get off the ground, my intentions to get airbourne all failed......... i don't remember anything else after this.

When i did wake up, i woke up blank, but about 30 secs later the memories of this experience came back {thankgoodness}
Without writing anything down i went back to sleep.

Lucid Dream 2. - Cartoon House
I found myself out on the road of my childhood home, i looked up the road {scenery change} and there was a long driveway, leading to a huge white house, with an orange door. The colours were very bright and vivid and the scene resembled the simple bright, colourful look of a cartoon image. I turned around and looked the other way, the scene this way looked more real and so i decided to go that way instead. There was a building that resembled a garage with a window the other end of it, the garage door was wide open and so i went inside, the window had no glass in it. I thought if i went through the window it would take me to another place, so i went through, nothing happened, i was just the other side in the same scenery, a neighbourhood of houses.

I think i woke up and went back into dreams in a lucid way some more times, either that or i had more scene changes, as i know there was more but i can't bring anything else back at the moment.

I woke here, before going into the next scene.

Added Note
this dream cartoon house i found 3mths later in real life - a bank money box shaped like a house (although it was not identical in colour, when i saw the house money box, there was a definate & strong 'clicking-in' sensation/feeling associated with the dream image that flashed up in my mind)

Lucid Dream 3. - Being Reckless
I was in the center of my town, i was dreaming AGAIN and i knew it, well by this point of successfully going back into dream visions again and again, i was getting a little 'carried away'. It wasn't real and i knew it, non of it was real, no-one was real, it was all my imagination, my dream. There was a lady wearing big sunglasses with red rims, i went to snatch these from her face, i failed, but she took them off anyway. There was a pink open topped mini car parked in the middle of the town square, i asked the lady if it was hers, she said 'no'. So i tried the door it was open, keys in ignition, so i started the car up and drove off. I was intent on causing mayhem in this dream because it wasn't real, i decide to crash into other cars and even run over the 'pretend people' :twisted: {My son has a video game where you drive a car madly around in this way.}

So off i go........ then i remember Robert saying to treat everyone in a dream with respect and as if they were 'real' ........ OOPppsiee :roll:
I stopped crashing and running people over and joined the queue of cars in front of me in an orderly manner, i wonder how long it will take for the queue to clear......... i don't remember any more.
I did have other dream bits after this, put i don't remember being lucid again

Some thoughts / Notes
I have never before experienced going into so many dream scenes in a lucid way, so often and so quickly. It seemed almost like i would close my eyes to sleep and then be 'there' awake in the dream scene, i think this must be a bit like 'phasing', the scene imagery formed and then i was in it. But it was very quick and i was not aware of the 'process' of phasing really happening.

Hi, again really great for me to read your dream-experiences and congrats on the special strong lucidity you`ve gained lately.
There do occur quite often ladies in your LDs and at least in one of them I had the impression the lady - especially Mrs. Lotter! could be a kind of Guide.. ?.. and when I look at the name, it could be a hint and translated to something as *Gain* for you... anyway, just somehow got the feeling... and also have heard that guides are often appearing in differently disguised forms... (as I said somewhere a guidelady once appeared for me in a funny space-ship-commander-form, and im truly convinced she IS one of my guides)
This your following question i find extremely interesting... this is also so much what Im wondering about... in my case maybe even a bit more complicated as although i have had some lucid dreams as well, i usually am not lucid at all, but all the same it feels that in my *dream-i* im in my most real and natural identity.

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But what makes one dream, more 'real' feeling than the next ?? Anyone know ?? i was more aware perhaps, but why would that be ? More energy in someway or something ?

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Hi Istia
thanks for your comments, much appreciated
Yes, the reason i was able to remember Mrs Lotter's name was because it reminded me of the 'lottery' although i never 'play it'

She could of been a 'guide' it was a very close 'chatting experience'

I haven't had many lucid dreams since this time, only 2 and one of these i didn't bother to remember

Disturbed non lucid dream with a man and a woman

5/02/11

In a disturbed sleep phase again now for approx. 10 days

After only a couple of hours sleep, i woke up trembly and disturbed, the dream / nightmare i had been experiencing had turned more 'off', because it became 'too much' and so i woke up, cannot share that part here

I tried to pull back the memory of the dream as it was playing out earlier, but all i could get was a man and a woman(his wife perhaps) and me ( in the middle maybe) and alot of mess ( physically messy like sh*te everywhere perhaps) but also something wrong / not right.

I can remember turning to the man and trying to get him to feel differently towards me, but he had no interest or concern for me and was only interested in what i had to offer in terms of resolving the mess.

I felt my dogs were with me too, but then i had all 3 of them in the bedroom with me, two in bed (haha) they like to sleep under the covers (my buddies)

As i tried to recall the dream i slipped back into hypnagogics and some unconscious sleep only to awaken about 40 mins. later to a large crashing of glass sound....

Had very strong gales of wind last two days... another pain of glass blown out of the greenhouse..

Yesterday i was in the garden, gardening (in gale force winds ??? :lol: ) and past the greenhouse to have two glass panels blown out of the back of it 'just' missing me.... i was a little stunned / shocked and paranoid for a while afterwards..... that was a bit too close for comfort..... Yiiikeeeeseeees !!

Anyway i have a wsw procedure to clear anything that might be responsible for my near miss.. .. i must get and do it,,

And i remember one of my lucid dreams here where all the glass panels in my dream that i looked at, all shattered......................................... ........ :shock:

This dreaming lark aint nothing to be scoffed at - Wow wow woW :mrgreen:

Nightmare-ish Non-lucid Dream - Ferrets on a Bus

Date 14th Mar. 11


Time: 12.15 midnight
After only sleeping for just under 2hrs.

General Notes
I was aware this dream part had progressed into what it became from earlier on-going dreaming, but i am unable to pull this memory part back yet, although it has come very close to my surface mind twice already

Dream
S. my 'grown-up' daughter's ferret (male) was about the size of a dog, he was rolling from side to side in the bus aisle, incapable it seemed of getting to it's feet, this large size ferret did not look like a ferret, more like a pig that was half-cooked or burnt
It was the ferret only because his persona was overlayed over this being / animal

Then my daughter's 2 ferrets as they are at the present time, run towards the figure and instead of 'greeting' the animal, as the animal is expecting, they just tore skin and flesh off the animal and ran off to eat it. One ferret was on one side (female polecat) and the other ferret on the other side (Black-eyed white). they did this repeatedly ran in and grabbed the body of the animal and went off each time hidden under the bus seats to eat. The horriffic thing was this animal was still alive, and was enthusiacally greeting or trying to make contact with the ferrets each time they came in.......... the animal seemed naive to the fact that it was getting eaten alive. It also seemed to have the happiness of a youngish dog (2 yrs ish)

The horror for me was - To ENJOY being Eaten

i found this notion very disturbing and quite stomach sickening

Unfortunately i know it ties into my real life experiences here and also things i've seen / taken in from the T.V
This i feel is about MEAT EATING and my true feelings on it, i have been a vegetarian in the past in this life , yet this didn't help me much since MEAT-eating still went -on my abstinance had miniscule affect on the situation
i still have this 'horror' / issue although i have processed alot already on this subject.

I have been buying human edible meat for my ill dog, since he is refusing tinned dog meat, he sort of went off his dried dog food a few months ago, he's 14 yrs now, but had always been given and eaten James Wellbeloved dried dog food before this time.

I have been buying / cooking and feeding / trying to feed my dog the meat products and he is being choosy and only choosing to eat that which is in accordance with what he's doing, which seems to be 'teaching' me to 'talk' with my dogs more on a real interactive thought / seeing and knowing / understanding level.

Some of the meat , i have eaten (Blar!!!) because i just know i am meant too - facing my horrors, distress, repulsion, 'hells' whilst eating this stuff,
It feels like i really need / want the meat on 'some level' (errh, vomit, how vile!) my physical body's needs perhaps ?
And it can be 'just right' and taste so good/right at times (again i feel complete neausea towards it even now as i write )

in the dream the skin was being 'ripped' / dragged off and it looked like crispy chicken skin, which i've been eating with relish (vile) and my dog seems at times to enjoy the skin very much so too.

I did read many years ago about sometimes people going through ascension (though ascension is not really a word i use) and that eating meat might be necessary for a period to deal with what needed to be dealt with, so i sort of know this is going on, plus the emotions/ emotional charge i'm releasing is very deep / strong and all consuming sometimes... So i know my spirit teams are working with me to turn this situation around for me / with me

Here is what i wrote to Robbie / grandfather on the explorer Race site recently , to give you all some idea of how i felt and what advice was given for me....

http://explorerrace.blogspot.com/201...e-leaving.html

I am under the name DoodleSea, check the comments

Also the next video Robert does feels like it's also addressing 'my issues' or similar ones that others too might still have

Hypnogogics and colours/shapes behind Closed eyeLids

colours/shapes behind Closed eyeLids

A butterfly with top wings of Purple and bottom wings of bright pink
bottom 2 wings were not normal shaped but square

Hypnogogics

Xmas tree being put away into it's box

i must ave become the box, because then i experience the Xmas Tree being put inside of me.... Wow ! Crimbo time come early this year for me - Yippeee!!!!

Also this morning while listening to Alice Walker's talk, i was jolted back into wakeness by my spirit teams to hear :--

Colour Purple, just remembering...... Wow life is getting Fun xX Life CAN BE fun,

Keep Safe, Have Fun & MAGIC too xxx

Lucid Dream items found in realife

All items were found while clearing out the children's play-shed

Dream item

• a cartoon house - represented a bank money box shaped like a house
• rocking horse - my son's old rocking horse
• plastic flowers - plastic flowers that used to belong to my nanna

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHQZBXJxCbA&feature=fvst

AND can't GET NO SLEEP............. Either ! :lol:

i slept approx. 45 mins.
and woke up VERY disturbed feeling, just a total unfamiliarity that hits me
(some part of me ?)when i wake , it's really horrifyingly terrible, until it passes and this can takes seconds to the WORST 20 mins. (that was after getting to sleep using conventional drugs BUT using THEM WRONGLY.......i personally DONOT RECCOMEND Doing that)

xXXX - Take CARE !!!!
:mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen:

I looked at the giraffe picture on the front cover of Animal Souls Speak and i asked my spirit teams to work with me

Leg Cramp on waking


After sleeping 'normally' for approx 2 hrs, ish, i woke and suddenly my left calf muscles went into a powerful cramp.
At first, i tried to relax my way through the pain, but then remembered how i was taught as a competitive swimmer to 'push into' cramp pain as a means to relieve /clear / ease it

and the 'thought-form'
if the shoe fits, wear it' came into my mind

In a this life, i can see that this is referring to something i feel i want to do / feel the need to prove, to 'reality' / others that i can manage and do safely and if that is all that is ALLOWED, then i will do it ......Just watch me
HMMMMM, but do i get the bull by the horns and 'DO IT NOW' is it the right thing to do.....

Reality is VERY POWERFULLY influencing me at the moment, and this could just be a 'ploy' to mess me up AGAIN! ...... ? hmmm .... pondering and considering,,,, not sure , we'll see

NB: It wasn't necessary to carry out the physical doing of this, so i didn't

Flying and singing, no clothes?!

Date: 22/04/11
Time: 8 am ish

Becoming Lucid
I was floating along above buildings in the air and suddenly i realised i was dreaming, i was outside in some sort of town

I was so thrilled at my discovery, i then started singing, though i don't remember hearing my voice or what song i was singing (thank goodness) So i think my singing may have been on an internal level. I remember being naked, but this must of been a different kind of 'nakedness' as normal physical nakedness would of had me instantly diving for cover. So although it never occured to me at the time, i think i must of experienced 'myself' without clothes, but also without physicality too, a body sense, but without 'flesh'

I remember thinking i should end the experience soon, before i forgot it, but i didn't want too and thought i'd make the most of it while i could. I remember taking notice of the 'light' that my surroundings were bathed in, i think it should of been night time, but it was not dark and the blue-ish light that lit everything was very familiar to me.

The next thing i remember was floating high-ish in the air in the road where i used to live. I decided to go into the neighbours house to see who was there. So i just flew straight in, straight in through the walls with a bit of a 'wham' feeling and i was inside. i opened a bedroom door and peaked inside and there was an elderly gentleman sleeping , whom stirred a little, i did not recognise him. i was going to peak in the other bedroom, where i expected to find the elderly lady ? After this i intended to go into my old home next door and see what it was like and who was there......... but i woke up

Some thoughts
I haven't remembered having many lucid dreams for a while now, so this was a nice surprise, even though it was very uneventful

Before going off to sleep last night, i kept getting images of 'bright light' manifesting, like i was experiencing this bright light appearing, it was almost like shimmering sunshine happening, but was more silvery, white. i have no idea what it represented or why i was experiencing this, but it didn't feel at all unpleasant and was rather beautiful to see
I have been really 'unaware' and shutdown just recently and so i really appreciated these visions last night, making a 'nice' change for me to be experiencing and aware of something at least!

Introductory notes

I have had many, many dreams in which i have met my deceased parents, one or two of these have been very special and much more than dreams, more like a re-union of sorts, where both my parent and I would be aware that we were meeting in the 'spritual'.

Alot of the other dreams involve me realising that my parents are dead, but have me thinking the thoughts 'they don't know they're dead' and in these dreams i am careful not to let my parents or other relatives know that they are in fact 'dead'.

Date: 12/06/11
Time: 9 am ish

Location of dream: Living room / lounge of my parents home

Becoming Lucid: In my dreaming reality, some days had past, i went into the living room to talk to my mum about my older sister who i had just seen and been talking to, to say how strange her behaviour was and my mother agreed with me, it was at this point that it dawned on me, i was dreaming.

As soon as i became aware i was dreaming, i realised my parents were 'dead'
they seemed to be unaware of this fact and living normally like they always had, i decided this time as i was more lucid than usual in this situation i would actually tell them this.

First i asked them what the year was, my mum answered that it was 1984, i didn't feel this was right and so i looked at her magazine to obtain this knowledge, all i found was a page saying 184.
So i went over to my dad to take a look at his newspaper date and it said 1985

I was standing -up and i said to them 'Do you know you are both dead? It's not 1985 anymore, it's 2011'

My dad didn't react at all, motionless, my mum's face started to morph into other things and here i lost lucidity and fell back into normal dreaming.

Within the dreaming that followed, I do remember seeing my son at about 2yrs old 'looking into his nanna's eyes' full of love for her, it was at this point i felt my 'loss' and grief towards losing my mum and cried deeply for some time ....

On waking i could still feel my physical body's response to the 'crying' and the feeling of 'loss'


Notes

I don't think these notes are connected to my lucid dream at all, i just wanted to record it.

In dusk light i enjoy watching the 'chi' dance around the room, this i do often, but last night i thought i heard a fly buzzing, so not wanting to spend the night with my companion i switched my fan off to listen..... i did hear an occasional buzz and then i started listening to 'ear hiss' after a little while of trying to listen out for the fly, i realised i could hear 'noise' but just from my right ear, the buzzing seemed to becoming from this source of noise too.

I have heard noise / music in this way before, it sort of sounds like it comes from a 'space' and seems to be 'the noises of living' i listened to it for a while, but couldn't pick-up anything specific and so i just seemed to not hear it anymore, i gave up listening for the fly, i didn't find one...
(though he may of being hiding, keeping quiet when i listened and looked ... :-))

Brief Lucid Dream of deceased Relatives

Date: 19/07/11

Time:afternoon 3pm ish

Notes:
I have not been having many lucid dreams for quite a few months now, so i thought i should record this episode although it was only brief

All the people in the dream except myself (obviously) and my sister are now all deceased and have been for over 10yrs.


I was standing in the lounge of my childhood home, and my dad, sister and grandparents were there. My nanna was asleep splayed out in the armchair that my dad would normally be sitting in, this i never saw happen at any time in real life.

I found myself in this dream-scene and knew i was dreaming.

My dad was sitting next to my grandad and he said the two of them were going to go off 'somewhere' (can't remember where he said,) but i understood it was to do with the cars or DIY or something similiar. This they both would of done and did that sort of thing, but this would of been when they were both much younger and healthier. My dad seemed very happy and my grandad too, both very animated.

Anyway i decided not to engage any more with my dad and went through the lounge door, to search through the rest of the house.
My mum and dad's bedroom is one of the first rooms one comes across and so i went in there. My mum was just getting up out of bed and hurrying as she got dressed, she was saying she didn't want to miss my nanna (her mum) and wanted to see her before she left.

I put my arms around my mum gave her a big hug and a kiss....


Then i woke up

Nice, Newfreedom, I'm glad you got to hug her this time.:D

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Originally Posted by Beekeeper

Nice, Newfreedom, I'm glad you got to hug her this time.:D

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Thanks, yes, it was really nice, just like the real thing :-)

The 'passing-on' of my dog companion recently, seems to have brought up/back, issues of loss and grief, especially with regards my mum, whom i was very close too.
Been having lot's of non-lucid dreams just lately about loss, upset and grief, not particularly pleasant, but necessary i guess

I'm sorry to hear that your dog passed on. Sending love your way. xx

Thankyou Beekeeper, xx

It's over 2 months ago now since he 'passed-on', but i'm still missing him.
He was my 'huggable' dog, he's the one snoozing on my chest in my profile picture xx

He's beautiful! I bet he's around you a lot.

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Originally Posted by Beekeeper

He's beautiful! I bet he's around you a lot.

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Thankyou xx

I'm not sure if he's around me alot, although i can be sensitive at times with certain things, i am blocked / or am not able to access him if he is around. Unfortunately all my dreams with him in have been either upsetting or distressing with nightmarish feelings and elements to them

BUT i had a lucid dream this morning in which he was in and it was rather a pleasant one...

Spinning with my dog to change location

Date: 23/07/11

Time: 8am ish

Place: Previous house (first home i lived in as an adult, lived there for approx. 10 yrs, about 10 yrs ago)

Dreamed contained: hamsters, doors, my dog, spinning, another, road, on a car journey

Becoming Lucid: I was in the hallway gathering up hamsters, that were running around. I was wondering if they were pets or wild mice that just looked liked hamsters, i got them all into the lounge and shut the door to keep them in, until i could get a cage or something to put them into. As i was in the hallway doing this i recognised that i no longer lived here and that if i was here then i was 'dreaming'.

My dog was barking quite feriously behind the kitchen door, so i opened the door and let him into the hall, at first he continued his aggressive charge at me, until he realised it was me and then he went on past me to find the intruder. When i turned around the front door was wide open and it was dark outside, now the lounge door was open too.

(NB: i often have dreams where i turn around and the back or front door will suddenly be open, when earlier it was closed, quite scary and disturbing - too many horror films!)

I don't remember closing the frontdoor, but i'm sure i must of...

I decided to go out the backdoor and off to somewhere else to continue my lucid dreaming. I thought it would be nice if i could take my dog with me, but thought i would not be able to fly up with him in my arms (too heavy)

just then my ex-partner came through the back gate, home from work it seemed.

(My memory is hazy here, i can't remember if i was holding my dog at this time already, or if Tod ran up to my ex-partner, to growl and then greet him. I have played both scenario's over and over in my mind, but i'm still not sure... I am rather thinking that perhaps i was engrossed in working out how or what to do with the situation and with this in mind, was already 'imagining' holding my dog ready to 'go-off'.... and that my ex-partner coming un-expectedly through the gate, startled me and perhaps caused me to lose my concentration and changed the scene aswell)

So i am holding / carrying my dog (he's medium sized - sheepdog-cross) in my arms and decide to 'spin' to change location, i do spin around some times, but am not able to get up much speed, when i stop 'spinning' my dog starts making coughing sounds like he's going to be sick !

Ah, yes, not a good idea to spin your dog around !!!

Anyway, it suddenly works and we are now in bright sunlight, there is a straight main road infront of us and all the rest is mixtures of green fields. I am standing and Tod is still in my arms, i do not recognise where we are

Next moment i have no vision (eyes closed and sleeping ?)but am well aware of where i am, i am travelling in the car with my family. I can hear my dads voice talking, it is familiar, comfortable and safe, i feel so content and everything feels 'right'


I wake up....

xx

Notes: At the end, when in the car with the family, i am not sure whether this is my own perspective, or rather this is the perspective of my dog...

Either way, it was a perspective i had never know consciously before and really do appreciate receiving this
Looking back on the experience now, it felt like my mum was driving the car, my dad at her side, me, my son, my daughter and our dog or dogs (my parents had a dog too) all in the backseats

I suppose it could have been the mutual perspective / feeling sense of us all, that i was feeling and not just my own or the dogs

Anyway, it was a really lovely 'time, energy, space'...

Hello, newfreedom.

That your vision was off during the end might signify a change to a not fully developed energy body - signified by the car. You have the mobility sense on (3rd chakra in Kurt's scheme) and are able to sense who is with you (4th chakra). This does not mean it's necessarily your family. Whenever dreaming of care it can be the case of exploring within an energy body, and it's also interesting in those cases who's driving. When somebody else is driving, the experience might be for exposure to this new body and you are "taken along for the ride." The feeling of safety and familiarity might denote you have some connection to whoever is with you - as close as family, and hence appearing as family.

Note how the lack of vision occurred shortly after spinning into a new location, and without continuity of memory between standing and riding in the car. This is similar for example to how people may wake up in their astral body, standing in the vicinity of their bed. They don't know how they got there, not having had exit or transition sensations, but the result is the same if you can recognise it - a transfer of consciousness. Such transits are sometimes experienced as blackouts or lack of continuity.

The thing with the doors suddenly being open might be less sinister than it seems. In nonphysical reality the environment changes in response to you. This might have even been an invitation for going outside and explore there. Similar to the portals other people report. You could also use it as visual feedback. When the door is closed, maybe something inside the house is of interest or worth exploring. Especially if the door won't budge or cannot be walked/flown through. Then there's a likelihood the situation you find yourself in could be a simulation.

If the door is open it could be an invitation to go exploring, which you promptly did. Your efforts were rewarded by finding yourself in a new location.

Cheers,
Oliver

Just adding a little to ample Oliver's suggestions:

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Originally Posted by Newfreedom

Becoming Lucid: I was in the hallway gathering up hamsters, that were running around. I was wondering if they were pets or wild mice that just looked liked hamsters, i got them all into the lounge and shut the door to keep them in, until i could get a cage or something to put them into. As i was in the hallway doing this i recognised that i no longer lived here and that if i was here then i was 'dreaming'.

My dog was barking quite feriously behind the kitchen door, so i opened the door and let him into the hall, at first he continued his aggressive charge at me, until he realised it was me and then he went on past me to find the intruder.

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Gathering the hamsters may represent pulling together the unfocussed aspects of your psyche that was necessary before you attained lucidity.

The kitchen is a place for cooking something up, an expression meaning where ideas and adventures begin, and a hall is a liminal place, again suggesting you were on the threshold of an adventure (or you could have lost lucidity). The intruder was the new element that entered your awareness and your dog running off seeking it in the darkness suggests a willingness to embrace the unknown.

A great experience!:clap:

Thanks Oliver and Beekeeper for your thoughts and understandings - very interesting and illuminating !! :D
Very much appreciated xx

Recently (last year or so) i have had a few dreams / nightmare-ish type dreams, where i am trying to escape nasty beings / monsters and shutting the outside doors to keep them out, then suddenly finding the doors open again, so i think when the outside front door was suddenly open in my recent lucid dream, i was connecting with the 'horror, dread' feelings from these other previous dreams, least that's how it feels to me now.

Hopefully after your recent info. / comment on doors being open, Oliver, i will be able to hold this info. to help me experience the 'open doors' as less threatening next time.

That could be fear of losing privacy too, Newfreedom.