Originally Posted by missythegayelf
Okay, here's the situation. Every time I try to raise energy I tend to accidentally focus it on my spine and I'll start getting little shooting pains which totally freak me out and make me want to break it off. I'm terrified of accidentally raising my Kundalini. I've heard about the pros and cons and I have to say I want no part of all that. Perfectly happy at leaving it at energy work and occasional AP and lucid dreams.
I should also mention I have a crippling phobia of possession that I've dealt with my entire life and am currently having panic attacks every day and an almost constant anxiety hanging over me. Not that I believe ap leaves you vulnerable to possession, it's just a constant phobia.
It does no good to tell me that perhaps I'm just not ready to astral project and all that because I do it extremely often and always unintentionally, and in those cases I'm happy I did it but also in a state of some wild frenzy and fear AS I'm doing it, and it's usually all a big jumbled mess. I'm just trying to figure out how to get a grip on this and get over my fears of something out of my control happening. Anybody had this problem and overcome? Any suggestions would be GREATLY appreciated. This is all just ruining my sanity.