I'm grateful for nature itself and yet I don't see it very often.
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I'm grateful for nature itself and yet I don't see it very often.
-diet dr.pepper
-having a very successful work trip and m's husband having no issue with me going and even picking me up from the airport
-D, the ashton kuther lookalike i met in 2013, being my hero and the flirtation going on with us ever since last week. he feels so comfortable.
-doing some cleaning
-rituals samples in my hotel
-sunshine
-travel
-having faith that money always works itself out
-having a kind heart
-art
-being able to be creative again and go back to my roots this weekend
-compliments
-having an amazing body
-my root chakra incense
-D going on our first date, and even having our first kiss. lip pecks. it was super cute. we want to move slow.
-my new lip injections i got
-caring people
-D saying he likes me and that i am special and the connection we have been sharing
-my new credit card i was approved for that should be coming anyday now
-makeup
-fashion
-music
-getting a disount of $40 from the points i've earned from coming in so far to the place i go for my injections
-my leopard print coat
-following up with people to get more jobs coming
-relaxing about money
-physical exercise
-being a loving person
-my lorazapam
-people being happy with the holiday cards i've sent them
-banana syrup
-having a nice body frame
-getting things cleaned up and organized
-getting a date confirmed for my creative project in january
-having beautiful innocent eyes
-deep cleansing breaths
-warm showers
-cute socks
-faith
-crying and releasing
-being productive
-laughing at life
-my new air purifier in my living room
-updating my resume
-submitting for more jobs
-finding out payroll should be in a few days
-smiling
-sunshine
-creativity
-relaxation
-pictures
-coffee
-being cute
-D and how amazing he's been. so grateful for my angel. he is perfect.
-cinnamon french toast sticks and banana syrup
-music
-how beautiful my new lips look
-connecting with people through facebook messages and how good that feels
-letting myself cry and release
-feeling
-money always finding a way to work itself out
-being beautiful
-jaguars
-kindness and support from others
-getting my house cleaned
-doing things a little differently sometimes
-my kind heart
-that my new credit card will be here anyday and that it's pink
-my accomplishments and the cool things i've done in life
-being smart
-my creativity
-having my own apartment
-having romance and companionship in my life
-cats
-spirituality
-memories
-pictures
-my triloka root chakra incense. so grounding.
-blankets
-the laundry machines in the unit
-beautiful design
-being productive
-my eyeglasses
-fashion
-being appreciated
-shopping
-sending holiday cards to business associates
-trees
-lorazapam
-water
-smiling
-laughing at life
-physical exercise
-walking
-busses
-yoga
-evolving myself
-that my gucci belt was found
-how much i've grown as a person
-my leopard coat
-reading
-learning
-feeling
-the internet
-my apartment
-having a warm apartment
-aspiring to better myself
-art
-beauty
-savoring
-seeing the beauty of the law of attraction work in wonderful ways
-making efforts
-my hyaluronic acid boosting serum
-having a nice face
-looking way younger then my age
-my growing confidence again
-supplements and vitamins
-feeling positive
-creating
-healing
-my angel coming by last night. things moved faster then i had wanted but emotionally as well. at the end he even kept talking about timing and big decisions next year and implying i could be a reason he would stay living here. it is interesting timing on my end, too.
-working today and the sunshine
-being flirted with
-being attractive
-my new lip injections
-my leopard coat
-my new prada pink sunglasses
-makeup
-M's husband fixing my tub
-working for great brands
-candy
-coffee
-sunshine
-having fun drinking, and smoking weed with my angel last night
-how take control my angel is
-smiling
-laughing
-getting attention
-relaxation
-feeling connection
-music
-cash app
-sleep
-shopping
-getting things cleaned and organized
-feeling ready for fun
-my new credit card on it's way
-my few checks about to come in
-entertainment
-colors
-art
-inspiration
-feeling my feelings
-touch
-my touched up hair color
-diet dr.pepper
-cookies
-physical exercise
-nourishing myself and trying to be good to me
today,i am crying and missing J so much feeling like he was the human love of my life. it's the first time since the last abuse i felt the feeling of missing him and wanting him back. i was crying over T cat too this morning.
-m's husband fixing my bathtub
-sunshine
-getting my new pink discover credit card
-getting all my jobs finished yesterday
-buying my new gucci purse
-buying makeup i had my eye on for a bit
-getting my breast ultrasound done and all being healthy and well
-cats
-my jaguar necklace
-looking very young
-my beauty
-banana syrup
-having fun in my life
-newness
-my hyaluronic acid boosting serum
-fashion
-taking actions
-lorazapam
-getting a bumped up psychiatrist appointment
-great deals
-having great hair
-my fitness pole
-my creativity
-the sky
-my leopard coat
-my lips
-trees
-feelings my feelings
-music
-art
-expanding myself as a person
-being smart
-calmness
-evolving
-finishing up my finance book
-femininity
-beauty
-hot guys
-inspiration
-my pink prada sunglasses
-having nice cheekbones
-making efforts to better myself
-laughter and humor
-cleaning more of my apartment
-m's husband giving me a ride to my jobs and from hospital yesterday
-colors
-my eye for talent and design
-cuteness
-hugs
-goals
-entertainment
-my full lips
-people to help me out when my account goes negative
-getting a higher dose of lorazapam
-feeling more calm minded
-coffee
-sunshine
-craving healthy, healing things
-warm showers
-good skincare products
-my new credit card
-creativity
-ideas
-being smart
-the magazine i've been reading
-the rent check clearing
-the new book i got that i started reading
-meditation
-triloka incense
-hot tea
-water
-cleaning and organizing my kitchen shelves
-sportsbras
-my leopard coat
-physical exercise
-blue jeans
-my sense of style
-having beautiful eyes
-the new experiences i get to have in my life
-having a solid liquor collection from work
-technology
-it being that time of the month
-having a warm apartment
-having a lot to look forward to
-releasing my apathy
-feeling my feelings
-pictures
-my phone
-being productive
-reflection
-sleep
-comfort
-compliments
-having beautiful hair
-my friend D and him saying we can cuddle and do fun things and i can call him daddy
-feeling more confident about the court case
-sleep
-m's husband giving me a hydrocodone because he had no ibuprofen in the car
-coffee
-m's husband taking me for coffee and for breakfast this morning
-m's husband giving me $100 cash for christmas
-being loving
-m's husband giving me beautiful christmas flowers last night and taking me out to eat last night
-getting my gucci purse in the mail last night!!
-incense
-meditating this morning
-my sense of style that is very nyc and hollywood
-my pink discover card
-having nice boobs
-my jaguar necklace
-always getting what i want
-my pink prada sunglasses
-the internet
-hoodies
-my leopard coat
-mild winter weather
-feeling my feelings
-feeling more free with J gone
-preparing myself for the court case with lots of research, procuring documents,and talking to lots of people and writing notes
-getting another work recap done
-having 20%of my saks card balance paid off
-goals
-transforming myself
-deep stretches
-shopping
-water
-sunshine
-social media
-my beauty
-makeup
-calmness
-cleaning things and getting things organized
-fun
-having a lot of work coming up next month
-laughing at life
-being able to have my balcony door open a bit
-having had sex with D
-being nice to people
-newness
-the image from one of my recent shoots being retouched from original photographer turning out really well before even needing to source it out
-beautiful modeling photos of me
-getting paid yesterday
-music
-motivation
-my money being ok so far
-my credit score rising even more
-compliments
-rest
-nourishing my spiritual side
-physical exercise
-self acceptance
-naps
-lorazapam
-books
-learning
-having a unique life
-prayer
-non-rushing
-surrender
-getting another recap done this morning
-warm showers
-bananas
-smiling
-my child-like side
-looking much younger then my real age
-having beautiful hair
-having beautiful eyes
-my health being so much better then it was in october
-cuteness
-cats
-animals
-diet dr.pepper
-ideas
-colors
-greenery
-D still talking to me daily
-m's husband being relatively nicer to me
-fashion
-finishing my recaps
-coffee
-my pills
-naps
-great skincare products
-caring people
-exchanging phone numbers with an old supporter and contact of mine
-my christmas flowers
-going for a nice walk yesterday and today
-sunshine
-water
-jeans getting a little loser today
-stretches self empowerment
-sounding much younger then my age to the point that people think i sound like a child without even trying
-talking to mental health clinic today
-getting lots of advice from law industry fb friend
-beauty
-my eyes
-my lips
-warm showers
-being considered very attractive
-feeling feelings of aliveness and freedom again
-cats
-makeup
-my leopard coat
-my pastel rain boots
-calmness
-m's husband buying me more handwarmers
-having goals
-reading
-being somewhat productive today
-my pink discover card
-my creativity
-my kind heartedness
-feeling my feelings
-my lower body getting tighter
-sleep
-shopping
-learning
-growing as a person
-reading about miracles
-having money
-cash app
-my eyeglasses
-getting things done for the court case
-my beauty
-my lips
-great deals
-my sense of style
-my new gucci purchases
-fashion
-being smart
-my phone
-my creativity
-the internet
-reading
-music
-meditation
-guys thinking i have a great lower body
-my coffee maker
-adding a little more exercise in my day
-everybody thinking im way younger then my age on the phone and in person
-helpful people
-my last health tests going well
-getting my primary doctor to prescribe my baby aspirin for my raynauds
-gin gins
-water
-hyaluronic acid
-lorazapam
-the amazing photo the last photographer i worked with sent me
-being brave and strong
-feeling my feelings
-yoga pants
-seeing how much the cats love their cat house
-tommy cat memories
-having a beautiful face
-buying a new eye cream from a new indie brand i seen advertised on instagram
-feeling free and being creative after months of not being creative while with J
-coffee
-cookies
-trying new things
-all the effort's m's husband makes to make the cats happy
-makeup
-m's husband finding my mascara that had been missing for a few days
-being assertive when needed
-colors
-inspiration
-physical exericise and exercise
-cute socks
-clean clothes
-clean towels
-leg warmers
-blankets
-being able to see and have eyesight
-pillows
-comfort
-goals
my pink discover credit card
-kindness from others
-clarity in mind increasing lately
-animal advocacy and those who help the cause
-cuteness
-entertainment
-yoga
-being able to work tomorrow
-all the jobs i have so far for january
-my new overdraft protection from the bank
-all the proofs i have of J to get the order lifted
-flowers
-plants
-daytime
-letting go
-working on my personality
-self improvement
-protein bars
-working in the industries i do
-the air purifier in my living room
-the balcony in my living room
-newness
-my ambition
-my phone
-coffee
-sunshine
-going a day without texting D
-realizing D is far more obsessed with me then i thought
-sleep
-self forgiveness
-when desires manifest
-calmness
-meditation
-having desires
-feeling excitement
-entertainment
-getting more things clean
-beauty
-getting my thermi session yesterday and deciding we may have to switch to the surgical procedure instead
-goals
-makeup
-my beauty
-nice people
-animals
-the cat's cat house
-banana syrup
-cookies
-having a loving heart
-getting things done
-adding a little more exercise in my day everyday
-laughing
-giving snacks to the homeless
-buying lots of cat food and a cat calmer for my mom's cats
-buying a new eye cream from an indie beauty brand i see on instagram that looked
-a beautiful new photo of my body for my portfolio
-having eyesight
-being smart
-all the growth i've made over the last few years
-lorazapam
-getting my lip plumping gloss that helps keep the full look with my injections
-dreams coming true
-the air purifier in my room
-physical exercise
-feeling my feelings
-clean clothes
-blankets
-compliments
-hand warmers
-having work today and tomorrow
-weight loss
-great design
-my supporters
-my new titos gloves
-having a nice body
-attractive guys
-being flirted with by attractive guys
-shopping
-reflection
-having my own mind
-exploring
-my leopard print coat
-being able to talk
-having great cheekbones
-earning money
-great deals
-happy memories
-having had a lot of great moments in life
-being a unique person
-my laptop
-being kind
-saying sorry
-my power
-sleep
-being productive
-being considered sexy
-shopping
-motivation
-walking
-being sore from my workout yesterday
-being considered sexy
-physical exercise
-coffee
-peace
-yoga pants
-my new gucci purse
-my carbon38 bag
-nature
-cats
-entertainment
-cuteness
-laughing
-smiling
-staying in the moment
-cleaning and decluttering
-my lips
-makeup
-compliments
-the holidays being over
-my career
-being smart
-creative expression
-my phone
-hyaluronic acid
-coming back to myself
-having a nice body
-having a coffee maker
-going with the flow
-letting things not go exactly according to the way it normally would..allowing unexpected
-my new sparkly yoga socks
-miracles
-gin gins
-hope
-healing
-feeling my feelings
-taking life one day at a time
-help
-lorazapam
-pictures
-inspiration
-my careers
-people reaching out to me to say hey, or apologize for past things
-smiling
-being kind
-meditation
-having healthy digestion
-sunshine
-M's husband staying with me all day yesterday
-M's husband actually saying something nice to me. when i was complaining how all the people in the courthouse were mean to the me the 2nd time i went in, he remarked why would they be mean to me, i'm so nice
-D softening up towards me
-entertainment
-being considered attractive
-supportive people
-being loving
-trying a new indian restaurant yesterday
-being thin
-going for a walk last night
-having a nice large chest
-my lips
-doing laundry
-coffee
-ideas
-my leopard print coat
-lorazapam
-my gucci purse
-getting my new wildfox shirt in the mail
-being unique
-getting my new quilt set in the mail to try a new color aesthetic
-blankets
-the ability to think
-fashion
-makeup
-calmness
-lip balm
-music
-creativity
-inspiration
-connection
-expression
-feeling my feelings
-reading
-my new carbon38 backpack that actually came free with my purchase and looks pretty cute
-my hair color
-my intelligence
-taking things one day at a time, one moment at a time
-being a romantic
-newness
-greenery
-water
-dental floss
-hyaluronic acid
-yoga
-pretty things
-reassurances
-my phone
-my laptop
-my coffeemaker
-colors
-upcoming projects
-blue skies
-prayer
-happy memories
-having my own apartment
-new experiences
-being an adult
-clarity
-expression
-resolve
-texting D a merciful, thoughtful resolve text
-coffee
-banana syrup
-vegan food
-M's husband being there for me
-my laptop
-my phone
-appreciation
-birds chirping
-sunshine
-booking my procedure that was my first choice for getting rid of body skin flaws. my higher self just do it
-money working itself out
-being productive
-the target giftcard my dad got me for christmas
-getting the court transcripts yesterday and feeling relieved by reading them
-new experiences and adventures
-clean clothes
-my eyeglasses
-my fashion sense
-online shopping
-deep conditioner
-my gucci purse
-cleaning
-meditation
-feeling my feelings
-being a nice person
-self awareness
-having healthy digestion
-adding a little more exercise in my day everyday
-my hair color
-music
-my retinol face cream
-being a kind person
-yoga
-blue skies
-having eyesight
-my leopard print coat
-makeup
-all the creative project offers coming in
-baby aspirin.i think it does help my raynauds
-lorazapam
-surrender
-calmness
-my yoga mat
-my saks balance going down
-all the creative project offers
-being smart
-feeling more in tune with the law of attraction
-my carbon38 bag
-incense
-having tastebuds
-social media
-newness
-my strength
-trying new things, new ways of being
-healing
-my pink discover credit card
-feeling my feelings
-growing as a person
-my gucci purse
-hanging out with a friend today
-letting go of D
-water
-healthy digestion
-my clothes starting to look nicer on me
-having an appointment for my surgical procedure next week
-attractive guys
-new understanding
-lorazapam
-great weather today
-coffee
-relaxation
-my fashion sense
-my eyes
-my beauty
-compliments
-reassurances
-touch
-sunshine
-trying new things
-connecting/reconnecting with a supporter of mine since my early days of my career
-sportsbras
-socks
-washing my leopard print adidas shoes
-my house getting cleaner
-being strong
-paying off saks minimal for the month
-smoking a little weed today
-my unique life
-having the title i do as a job which grants me prestige and unique opportunities and glamour
-calmness
-surrender
-sleep
-walking
-meeting new people
-having awesome things coming up that are going to level me up
-happy sleeping dreams
-reading
-dreams coming true
-feeling calmer about the court case coming up
-yoga
-this winter being mild
-having a beautiful hair color
-my new hoodie coming in the mail today
-my new eyecream coming in the mail today
my carbon 38 bag
-being a nice person
-uber
-beauty products
-blankets
-cute pictures of me
-technology
-seeing self hypnosis and prayer work
-being there for others
-cats
-food
-naps
-diet dr.pepper
-my feminity
-m's husband being nice to me today
-fashion
-the internet
-researching
-cleaning and decluttering
-meditation
-lorazapam
-going for a walk in a forest preserve today
-my lip makeup products
-my leopard print coat
-my new gucci purse
-water
-coffee
-having my apple cider vinegar detox drink today
-calmness
-feeling my feelings
-cute designer label t-shirts
-entertainment
-reflection
-greenery
-having nice hair
-hip stretches
-remembering the law of attraction
-walking
-sunshine
-getting things done
-being fashionable
-things to look forward to
-yoga pants
-my clothes starting to look nicer on me again
-updating my resume
-applying to more jobs
-letting myself cry
-appreciation
-deep cleansing breaths
-reading
-my carbon 38 bag
-fashion photography
-connection
-socks
-touch
-my pink discover credit card
-band-aids
-my lips
-my raynauds being less bad this season
-my balcony window/door
-attractive guys
-kindness
-animal advocates
-compliments
-cats
-having a kind heart
-prayer
-smiling
-empathy for others
-my beauty
-pretty things
-my jaguar necklace
-laughing
-cookies
-my strength
-self hypnosis
-self reassurance
-retinols
-hyaluonic acid
-hope
-people in my life who help me
I know. My last post here has been deleted. Thanks. I thought this is a serious forum.
With "buttercups" and this sort of posts...it is NOT.
Delete me again, please.
If this forum is about "nails", "imaginary boyfriends", "make-up"...etc....I choose to be BANNED forever.
It was about OBE, mister Bruce, not about some...ohhh...some "stupid gratidute".
This thread explains why so few people (worldwide) sign posts here.
If you keep on allowing these stupidities...I will just...walk away.
Sorry.
it's your ego that interfering with abandoning this online community. It's not worth separating you from it, there is allot to gain here on this forum
It would be a loss to not have you here:heart:
Honestly getting a post deleted is not worth the drama honestly not really a big deal
You are right, lord of the now. It's not a big deal, I indeed have a big ego...but this "list" is really becoming annoying.
MondEgo, This forum is for everyone.
You, who is searching for answers and skills ( I think) and Buttercup who started this thread to help herself. If I remember correctly at the time she started this she was struggling and this helped her to lift her spirits and highlight just why she should be grateful.
I never visit the Neg Forum section. I have no experience there and would not be able to help anyone. Maybe you should just concentrate on the forum headings you are interested in . Although the site can go quiet if you look at old posts from a few years ago you may find much to help you.
Members come and go, and come back again often after a while. I wouldnt advise asking to be banned as only last year two metaphysical sites that I visited closed.
Buttercup is as welcome to continue her Gratitude list just as you are welcome to post as long as it does not deliberately offend another member.
Ok. Got it.
Perhaps I've overreacted.
Show must go on.
What happened? This is a gratitude list. I'm a human being and allowed to post all that my heart feels grateful for whether it's the little petty things or the deeper things. You come off quite superficial. I'm single right now and dealing with a court case with a difficult abusive ex. I also have a lot of trauma in my life. Nothing in my life imaginary though. I have ptsd and panic disorder. I wonder how old you are or how shallow/dull your life is if you feel so moved to comment on this post being so aggravated. Perhaps, try filling your life with more and growing as a person and you won't feel moved by something that seems quite petty and unevolved of you. Your probably a teen i'm guessing from how you come off in your post.
That it is so annoying to you and that you focus so much on it suggests to me that you fill your life with some more exciting activities and focus less on some member on a forum who you have no idea who they even are. You are focused on an imaginary person yourself and getting aggravated. Go play some videogames.
I have no idea what happened. I do have a lot of trauma in my life. This is the loa section and the gratitude forum. I don't see how someone can care so much about what someone else is grateful for. It's weird to me. This forum does help me. It's helped me heal health issues, problematic patterns in my life and lifted my spirits and so on. My lists seem comparable to lists i've seen on other loa forums with gratitude lists. I know this is an out of body experiences website but the section is law of attraction that i'm on. I did join because of out of body experiences and find it interesting but i was too scared at the time to try harder to have one myself. Also, I got very sick in 2015 and had to cut back on certain metaphysical topics for my own well-being.
I don't even pay that much attention to my gratitude lists. I never re-read them.
-getting a surprise prescription of one week of lorazapam after thinking i would be out for about a week or two and thinking maybe i do prefer a smaller dose
-sunshine
-incense
-healthy digestion
-m's dad being there for me
-baby aspirin
-my eyeglasses
-being considered beautiful and cute by others
-lorazapam
-my antidepressant
-being a loving person
-having a nice chest
-having a brain
-deciding to let go of my anger and fear and to surrender and work on forgiveness. i could literally sense i could give myself a heart attack with my emotional pain and anger yesterday.
-socks
-having beautiful eyes
-sleep
-D responding to me yesterday and apologizing
-coffee
-inspiring videos from spiritual "gurus"
-my new gucci purse
-my overdraft protection/line of loan credit kicking in today
-life seeming to have my back a lot of times
-people being nice
-my feral cats
-hair ties
-good skincare products
-water
-getting another bill minimal payment paid off for the month
-having a nice landlord
-cute animals
-getting a free pizza deal in my email
-submitting to some jobs last night
-my phone
-laughing at myself
-a mild winter
-seeming to have a lot going for me
-making efforts to connect
-cookies
-feeling creative and goal driven
-warm showers
-blankets
-taking care of myself
-trees
-colors
-greenery
-deep cleansing breaths
-my innocent and accepting energy
-makeup
-having nice hair
-appreciation
-grounding myself to the present moment
-attractive guys
-all my dreams i've had come true
-having desires
-looking on the bright side
-my adidas mint green striped shoes
thank you for deciding to stay mondego
-face wash
-self care
-sleep
-an angel of a lady at the bank who worked to fix the bank issue and was told it was an error on their part and they will fix it for me and she said she keep me updated.
-having an organization i think i will go through for my court case
-D being nice to me
-a really great journaling session last night
-kind people
-that i get to have my surgery to accomplish a dream of mine this friday
-water
-deep cleansing breaths
-lorazapam
-being productive
-job opportunities
-comfort
-light blue skies
-my eyeglasses
-self reflection
-being small
-having nice hair
-staying motivated
-being an animal advocate
-having nice curves
-stretches
-my sense of style
-calmness
-my antidepressant
-ordering a frame that broke recently that i originally bought last spring and this time it has an easel/stand in the back. Last time it didnt. I could've sworn i bought the exact same frame. I feel like little things like that are the universe telling me it's on my side and winking at me saying it has my back since i prefer when my frames have a an easel/back but that one did not.
-hyaluronic acid
-entertainment
-embracing the quiet
-my lip products
-things to look forward to
-m's husband being there for me
-coffee
-my eyeglasses
-self care
-being productive
-being motivated
-music
-touching up my hair color
-the mango juice i had this morning
-putting my laundry away and deciding taking better care of my apartment is a good thing to do also because its a chance to show off my pretty things
-sleep
-deep cleansing breaths
-great skincare products
-my surgery tomorrow
-calmness
-m's husband handling an errand for me
-my lower body getting tighter from the thermi sessions i've done
-having faith
-yoga
-doing some affirmation writing last night
-newness
-doing some self marketing for the new year
-my new gucci purse
-my pink discover card
-embracing my looks
-posting a work photo onto ig for the first time in awhile
-my lips
-having nice eyes
-having nice hair
-having nice curves
-updating things
-paying the retoucher for the first image
-keeping things moving despite the upcoming court case
-reflection and processing
-finishing cleaning the kitchen
-feeling calmer
-going for a walk today
-seeing my feral cats
-getting my new t-shirt and backpack in the mail
-feeling stronger
-water
-getting my laptop to go faster again
-paying off my internet bill for the month
-empathetic people
-laughing at life
-makeup
-appreciation
-my phone
-observing life and just finding it interesting
-inspiration
-stretches
-my new forest green adidas hoodie
-looking very young
-being smart
-getting my much anticipated dream come true procedure done today
-coffee
-getting a free treatment as well scheduled from the doctor as a gift from him
-being called princess
-getting extra prescription refill on the pain med from the procedure
-newness
-inspiration
-fashion shows
-watching fashion shows from my favorite fashion labels on youtube
-my leopard print coat
-diet dr.pepper
-my breakfast this morning
-new work/creative opportunies
-updating some online work things and doing some self marketing
-m's husband picking me up from my procedure
-music
-calming down more about the court case and other things giving me anxiety and overwhelment lately
-compliments
-being considered attractive
-having a pretty face
-my beautiful hair color and texture and length
-feeling more self confident
-my beautiful pink comforter growing on me. at first, i wasn't sure it was the right pink but now i feel it is,and adore it.
-clearing my bed off
-being smart
-feeling blessed at times when i see little random things happen, or that i find out
-my feral cats and playing with H cat and petting him and holding him a little bit
-fashion
-pronoia
-my phone
-my eyeglasses
-my creativity
-relaxation
-deep cleansing breaths
-kindness
-forgiveness
-rest
-sunshine
-clarity
-my talents
-my accomplishments
-beautiful views
-colors
-trees
-sculptures
-learning
-finding out good things
-smiling
-stretching
-socks
-comfort
-changing my perceptions to more positive ones
-being a nice person
-my dreams coming true
-touch
-beauty
-cuteness
-moisturizers
-humor
-that work is about to start picking up again
-chairs
-innovation
-evolution
-technology
-fridges
-beds
-sleep
-the pain meds i'm on
-starting to see a little bit of results already from procedure
-breakfast
-feeling peaceful
-forgiveness
-being offered a job that will be a creative outlet for me and a great fit and chance to grow myself some more
-my phone
-my eyeglasses
-texting
-coffee
-smiling
-shopping
-my overdraft protection line of credit kicking in
-being smart
-apple cider vinegar
-the internet
-being unique
-showering
-my pretty pink comforter
-banana syrup
-leg warmers
-watching fashion show videos
-being an interesting person
-not being considered a boring person
-feeling goal and career focused
-new ideas
-feeling spirituality focused
-my englightenment crown chakra spray
-my escentrics molecule perfume
-cleaning the house
-pillows
-doing laundry
-hyaluronic acid
-friendliness
-learning
-having a brain and being able to think
-communication with others
-fun
-being sexy
-relaxing
-letting go
-being more positive
-black leggings
-being productive
-my pink discover card
-my dreams coming true
-evolving
-coffee
-cookies
-skittles
-sportabras
-black leggings
-my sparkly socks from carbon 36
-acceptance
-m's husband helping me today
-people being nice to me
-beautiful pictures of me
-d being slightly more responsive in texts
-moisturizers
-cleaning
-clorox wipes
-my tramadol pain med
-deciding to switch to a new pharmacy
-being productive
-my pretty pink comforter
-feeling good
-relaxation
-my eyeglasses
-clarity
-snow being pretty
my gucci shopping bags. they are pretty.
-kindness
-people appreciating me
-working on marketing myself right now
-having beautiful eyes
-shampoo
-showers
-eyes
-being considered attractive by others
-trees
-cuteness
-my crown chakra englightenment spray
-fashion
-laughing
-sweet flavors
-having some purpose in my life
-newness
-being a creative
-art
-creativity
-expression
-my maturity
-my child like side
-stretches
-having a brain with which to think
-feelings
-hyaluronic acid
-my dreams coming true
-people thinking i'm cute and innocent seeming
-evolving
-the internet
-emojis
-my acquaintances
-my phone
-work about to pick up again
-my ambition
-being a nice person
-great design
-water
-slippers
-having faith
-prayer
-setting intentions
-m's friend D taking me out to dinner last night and getting me a new year's card and gift
-music
-gin gins
-yoga pants
-my gucci purse
-the deep sleep i've been getting lately
-my beauty
-the tramadol pain med i've been taking
-my gucci purse
-my accomplishments
-seeing myself in a positive light
-rest
-being productive
-great skincare products
-the cosmetics procedures and treatments i've been doing
-relaxation
-coffee
-cuteness
-humor
-the key lime pie i had last night
-moisturizers
-socks
-hair ties
-showers
-water
-the internet
-empathy
-reorganizing my place and redecorating
-art
-creativity
-forgiveness
-softness
-my phone
-having acquaintances
-the guy who's been grooming me for court making me feel better about my case yesterday
-great design
-compliments
-having beautiful eyes
-sunshine
-daytime
-night skies
-trees
-blue skies
-having beautiful hair
-makeup
-looking very young
-my pink discover card
-m's husband coming by and fixing stuff in my apartment yesterday
-writing a positive review for a business yesterday
-getting my eyebrows threaded yesterday
-going grocery shopping yesterday
-the new white tea hand wash i bought yesterday
-stretches
-physical exercise
-buying a new book about trusting the universe and a humidifier this morning
-new ideas
-feeling calm
-working on self marketing and updating of online things
-hyaluronic acid
-smiling
-being smart
-being charming at times
-my pain meds
-that time of the month products
-hair ties
-diet dr.pepper
-talking to m's husband on the phone this morning
-feminity and my own feminity
-getting a check yesterday and then 2 more deposited today
-getting on the list for a lawyer from the first place i wanted to get on the list from
-tank tops
-sweets
-beds
-blankets
-great skincare products
-showering
-doing laundry
-my panic attack last night leading me to a soothing clarity about another related aspect of what gave me the panic attack
-my beauty
-all my pretty things
-going for a short walk yesterday
-my comfy loose fit funky print purple pants
-slippers
-water
-innovation
-technology
-evolution
-being productive
-feeling good and calm mentally
-being a woman
-movement
-moisturizers
-my eyesight
-my eyeglasses
-reassurances
-rest
-massage
-being a nice person
-healing and changing perceptions
-physical exercise
-kindness
-listening to some theta music and root chakra music last night and how helpful that was
-how delicious the leftover pizza i ate last night for dinner was
-makeup
-how beautiful my eyes are
-calmness
-being charismatic
-appreciation
-seeing dad cat the other day
-organizing
-confirming 2 jobs this morning
-deep cleansing breaths
-my strength
-feeling through my feelings(which right now is a lot of feeling dirty, confused, shock, fear, anger, hurt, lonely, etc) to get more groundedness, back to myself, and clarity
-chakra healing music
-headphones
-forgiveness
-going to therapy today
-clarity
-my strength
-colors
-empathy
-diet dr. pepper
-D for communicating with me today eloquently
-reflection and the strength to handle the questions i don't have the answer to
-going for a walk today
-pulling back
-intent to alter my personality and energy
-makeup
-my leopard print coat
-beautiful views
-imagining beautiful things clearly
-old ocd thoughts having healed now
-intent to look at my inner demons and dark side and see how i can better myself
-being a caring person
-being considered beautiful
-healthy digestion
-somehow managing on so little sleep the last days
-another realization/clarity during another panic attack last night
-fashion
-leggings
-having healthy
-working on making more phone calls today
-working on more self-marketing online materials
-my eyeglasses
-attractive guys
-mom cat sitting on my lap this afternoon and my ferals all hanging out with me when i came by today
-smiling
-having high cheekbones
-blankets
-incense
-being mature
-rest
-having beautiful hair
-stretches
-doing some dumbbell work
-candy
-the vegan burger i had for dinner
-blue skies
-my phone
-beauty
-intelligence
-my hazelnut vegan latte i had this morning
-sweets
-getting a new bag of coffee
-valentines day themes
-having tiny arms
-beautiful pictures of me
-self reassurances
-support from others
-my charisma
-being optimistic
-going back to the spiritual side of things lately for answers and healings to all that's been going on lately
-my eyesight
-touch
-water
-having nice lips
-a possible social outing later this month or early next month that sounds fun
-hyaluronic acid
-being able to get ahold of m's husband and getting a ride to therapy this morning
-having beautiful eyes
-m being nice to me today
-the ibuprofen and that it worked to relieve a lot of pain now that i'm out of tramadol
-expression
-work being about to pick up in the next few days
-God taking care of me
-pronoia
-a check on the way
-seeing the good in others
-surrender
-seeing someone about my court case today
-more clarity
-deciding to go on a texting detox and change my communication interactions with how i text people
-M's husband getting me a ridepass from uber with his phone and giving me the info so i can use it on mine
-starting to work again tommorow
-self appreciation
-my beauty
-ordering pizza tonight
-my strength
-utilizing my inner resources to heal, become more positive, and stay optimistic and strong during this difficult time and come out renewed and better
-having beautiful hair
-deciding to not wear my compression garment for the day today
-the ibuprofen working really well
-yoga pants
-my gucci t-shirt i wore today
-hyaluronic acid
-thinking about positive things and things that feel good
-having mercy and forgiveness and empathy in my heart
-becoming more grounded
-actually being able to sleep somewhat decent last night and catch up on some sleep
-coffee
-candy
-my eyesight
-going for a walk today
-healthy digestion
-having beautiful cheekbones
-my eyeglasses
-deciding to have more integrity and come back to myself more even if it's uncomfortable at first
-having healthy teeth
-support from others
-handling things instead of putting them off
-music
-love
-cuteness
-clarity
-feeling a good amount better physically today, and a small amount better mentally
-headphones
-feeling my feelings and processing things
-realizing i like D a lot, and it's time to let J go. What he did that night was very messed up and abusive and even if i feel i can have empathy on his side, and forgiveness, he degraded me and abused me and bullied me and if he loved me and cared about me, he wouldn't have done that. I need to heal my guilt, learn from both his side and mine and let go.
-getting out of the house for a bit.
-cats
-happy memories i can think about
-being special to D and feeling that is true now
-fashion
-having back up meds i had forgotten about to get me through this unexpected difficult detoxing that came about and having my anxiety med prescription get cut with no warning or back up in place at al
-makeup
-validation
-inspiration
-my laptop
-getting things cleaned up a little bit
-goals to better myself
-sunshine
-blue skies
-my leopard print coat
-seeing my old desires having manifested. it's very cool
-listening to theta music and heart chakra music
-wanting to explore deeper into my self and work on making positive change in my life
-water
-others finding me attractive
-coffee
-my feminity
-smiling
-having a caring heart
-caring less about what others think
-my jobs and creative projects coming up
-having gone to the e.r and feeling much better ever since.i slept 3 days straight after that and all the head noise is gone.
-getting back on my meds
-coffee
-M's husband for being there for me and bringing me to the e.r
-people that care about me
-D being there for me in october and december and the special moments we shared
-my goal of beating my texting addication
-m's husband getting me a new plant for my house
-cleaning the dining room finally
-feeling like everything will be fine
-being able to sleep again
-these dominos marbled cake brownie cookies
-getting caught up on the work i missed
-all being well with the landlord
-being easy on myself
-my blankets
-things to look forward to
-goals
-caution
-sunshine
-surrendering
-having nice lips
-being positive
-being open
-the color green
-being healthy again
-tools and resources to better myself and make my life better
-cuteness
-my laptop
-my strength
-calmness
-having work this weekend
-feeling like life might finally go back to normal now
-changing my mindset to a more positive one
-my desire to focus on my inner healing and inner power
-my beauty
-plants
-being a merciful person
-rest
-sleep
-blue skies
-trusting in God, and going with the flow
-being normal again and healthy
-my meds
-sleep
-confessing my feelings to D
-my plant
-sending my dad a plant
-how tight D held me when we slept that night in december
-feeling my feelings
-hope
-faith
-sunshine
-becoming grounded and back to myself
-sleep
-sportsbras
-clothes fitting looser
-eating less
-the screenshots i have that provide some evidence of the blackmail J did to me
-my beauty
-my cheekbones
-healthy digestion
-lip injections
-booking air-fare for my next trip
-my dreams that came true
-coffee
-doing some reflective journal writing
-the internet
-beautiful life moments
-the whole foods gift cards i have now since i accidentally used my card to pay for product
-beauty
-inspiration
-newness
-entertainment
-smiling
-help from others
-nonconformity
-water
-laughing
-having great taste
-makeup
-cleaning and organizing
-great skincare treatments and procedures
-spirituality
-prayer
-my crown chakra spray
-colors
-trees
-stretches
-blankets
-comfort
-blue skies
-being smart
-my creativity
-my hair
-being a nice person
- My Life
- -my plant
- -sunshine
- -clothes fitting looser
- -healthy digestion
- -coffee
- -the internet
- -entertainment
- -help from others
- -water
- -cleaning and organizing
- -spirituality
- -colours
- -trees
- -blankets
- -blue skies
- my hair
-feeling calmer and more confident about court case
-protein bars
-having a legal advocate
-coffee
-french toast
-m's friend D coming with M's husband to support me at court
-my beauty
-getting a mysterious poem in a text message from what looks to be a dummy phone number that seems to come from someone who knows me very very well
-clothes getting looser
-my beautiful lips
-my upcoming project next week
-being able to sleep
-plants
-new shampoo and conditioner
-towels
-my intellect
-laughing at life
-sunshine
-my meds
-goals
-ideas
-my determination
-my sophistication
-coffee
-sleep
-trusting m's husband who i am now going to just call mh with keeping extra eye on cats today
-my apartment
-being more stable
-waffles
-processing my feelings
-feeling my feelings
-being able to see
-my resolution to break my texting addiction
-sweaters
-plants
-colors
-getting a chemical peel yesterday
-beauty
-cookies
-having beautiful eyes
-goals
-looking on the bright side of things
-clothes getting looser
-yoga
-going to the grocery store yesterday
-my meds
-cats
-cuteness
-turning to God
-art
-remembering past successes
-D being there for me after J turned on me
-my gucci purse
-unique beauty
-nonconformity
-spirituality
-my strength
-being considered attractive
-rest
-my upcoming jobs
-my cheekbones
-sunshine
-faith
-coffee
-strawberry waffles
-banana syrup
-cookies
-stomach getting flatter
-mango juice
-sleep
-vibration raising
-getting paid
-releasing old things that have been bringing me down
-my intellect
-letting go of guys that are showing no interest right now with action
-my phone
-calming down
-shapes
-things to look forward to
-my power
-shopping
-doing some reading
-sunshine
-sweaters
-yoga
-my meds
-inspiration
-coming back to myself again
-my beauty
-inner confidence that i can handle all that comes my way
-ideas
-my spiritual and law of attraction knowledge
-my gucci purse
-my tastebuds
-the internet
-my ambition
-being motivated
-my faith
-blankets
-sleeping well
-my fashion sense
-kindness from others
-messaging online an idol of mine who is a youtube famous guy who stirred my heart about two years ago and also flattered me by taking a fleeting interest in me. He is one of the most inspiring people i know so i wanted to talk to him since we keep an online acquaintanceship now.
-my femininity
-learning
-thinking of life as an adventure
-feeling my feelings
-growing as a person
-reconnecting with others from the past and how nice it is
-magical things in life that happen
-thinking optimistically
-my landlord being nice the other night
-thick comfortable socks
-mh's love for the cats
-feeling healthy
-being a nonconformist
-asking myself positive reflective questions
-space
-quiet
-having beautiful eyes
-renewal and transformation
-beautiful writings and words
-vegan food
-cuteness
-coffee
-my beauty
-being a female
-sympathies being expressed
-banana syrup
-cookies
-strawberry waffles
-having great cheekbones
-looking like a model
-a desire to create more meaning in my life and life my life more meaningfully
-sportsbras
-jeans
-cozy socks
-getting H cat here for the first time which is a big success for him. Being able to spare him from some of the coldest days of the season is great. He's semi feral so i had a feeling i could pull it off and had l cat over,too.
-having cats over at my house last night
-sleep
-delicious food
-meditating this morning
-letting things unfold
-my meds
-buying a new back door rug since i've been wanting one for awhile
-how great my discover card is
-knowing i can use the law of attraction and play with it to bring about healing and manifest my desires
-getting a new wall decal for my living. i want my place to look like a wonderland. a cozy sanctuary/interesting, artistic wonderland space
-teamwork
-having a kind heart
-water
-gin gins
-having beautiful hair and eyes
-calmness
-sunshine
-weather warming up
-deciding i want to dream bigger
-being a nonconformist
-my talents
-being someone who feels it's important to speak their truth
-having an appointment for trauma therapy
-shapes
-emails
-text messages
-my phone
-the internet
-newness and being willing to roll into the new
-being smart
-seeming younger then i am
-people seeing me as attractive
-my job on monday
-my creativity
-faith
-breaks
-motivation
-quiet
-working on breaking my texting addiction
-appreciating my apartment more again
-manifesting my desires
-positive possibilities
-cleaning and organizing
-hyaluronic acid
-changing and evolving
-coffee
-relating
-my hair
-cookies
-M's friend D fixing my internet yesterday
-water
-all the people who have been there for me lately
-makeup
-my job tomorrow
-appreciation
-social media
-clarity
-my lip plumping gloss from the liposuction institute
-the amazing treatment i got the other day. it has made the biggest difference in the flaw im working on
-reading
-feeling renewed to feel more aliveness, less apathy, and more meaning in my life and to make a difference
-my creativity
-my goals
-great lighting
-the weather being warmer and the snow thawing
-cleaning and redecorating my apartment
-buying cute prada socks i couldn't get out of my mind
-my phone
-plants
-submitting to jobs
-mascara
-beautiful things
-having confidence in myself
-shapes
-yoga pants
-my leopard print coat
-special beautiful life moments
-sleep
-blankets
-newness
-creativity
-being subdued
-tea
-ideas
-fashion
-smiling
-being smart
-being a nonconformist
-yoga
-my internet working
-coffee
-feeling better
-being over letting myself being consumed or stressed about court
-going on a kind of date with the guy who was giving me advice about court
-being flirted with
-compliments
-awesome new beauty products
-how great my hair looked yesterday
-having great lips
-blankets
-sleep
-slippers
-cats
-being a nice person
-progress
-my personality calming down and being a little nicer and less erratic
-yoga pants
-physical exercise
-the internet
-shopping
-booking jobs for primary career thing i do
-sending out a ton of emails for submitting to more jobs
-the microcurrent facial i got the other day
-techno music
-having my medication about to get stabilized this coming week finally
-finally a new therapy place i really like that specializes in ptsd and will give me a lawyer, medication for a few extra days until i see the psychiatrist , can help me find a new career and are just super nice and genuine seeming. i like them a lot
-my pink discover card
-MH being nice to me
-getting a new phone
-seeing the card gift i sent to others
-plants
-colors
-makeup
-having abundance
-letting go of D. one week now. and now he's not in my mind much.
-feeling my feelings.
-my heart's desires
-being considered attractive by others
-looking much younger then my age
-my medications
-being an authentic person
-the candies from my favorite candy boutique coming in the mail and how amazing the pink sparkle pop candies were
-art
-being productive
-going out for dinner with M's friend D yesterday
-new experiences
-french toast
-working this weekend
-being a unique person
-ideas
-laughing at life
-innovation
-kindness
-sunshine
-trees
-updating my resume
-smiling
-organizing
-hope
-newness
-my sense of style
-my talents
-my accomplishments
-my unique awesome life experiences
-having nice curves
-cuteness
-good lighting
-being smart
-having a caring heart
-evolving as a person
-my feminity
-cookies
-the delicious candies i got the other day from my favorite candy boutique
-the new place i'm going to for therapy
-romance
-coffee
-naps
-fashion
-listening to root chakra and brainwave music while setting intentions via writing exercise
-being cool
-submitting for jobs
-feeling work picking up slightly
-water
-showers
-plants
-how cute mom cat is
-my medications
-new opportunities
-masculine energy
-the internet
-my new phone
-going in for my first microneedling session tomorrow
-MH fixing my humidifier/diffuser
-new portfolio pictures
-retouchers
-headphones
-physical exercise
-blankets
-yoga
-dance
-walking
-doing cardio on the indoor vintage bike at M's house
-upbeat moods
-my jaguar necklace
-clean clothes
-my leopard print coat
-my beauty
-cleaning and organizing
-finishing the book i was on so i can move on to the next book i want to read
-feeling my feelings
-prayer
-being a nice person
-my body getting tighter
-my body getting thinner
-being productive
-yoga pants
-makeup
-my new leave in conditioner
-changing things up
-smiling
-relaxation
-my rain boots
-chairs
-my new phone
-trees
-candy
-awesome creations
-sweet things said to me
-hyaluronic acid
-lip injections
-plants
-greenery
-doing more cleaning and resting
-the new therapy place i've been going to
-thermismooth
-cellupulse
-being productive
-doing an intention setting exercise to brainwave music and root chakra music
-style
-decoration
-growing as a person
-letting go of toxic people
-physical exercise
-my body getting more tighter and slimmer
-newness
-comfort
-inspiration
-having goals
-water
-touch
-my rainboots
-my new book i'm about to start reading
-coffee
-waffles
-my taste in things
-hot tea
-pictures
-fun
-smiling
-entertainment
-sweets
-great deals
-diet dr.pepper
-getting back on my consistent medication finally
-trying microneedling yesterday
-my strength
-coffee
-water
-hot tea
-sleep
-my medications
-feeling optimistic
-buying these adorable pink nike fashionable gym shoes this morning
-booking my first day lodging for my upcoming business trip
-getting work coming in for business trip coming
-getting a follow up about work for a client in march
-my phone
-spending some time with mom cat
-cats
-cuteness
-doing some animal advocacy work today
-my femininity
-upcoming opportunities for me to be art,make art,and tell my story
-being an artist
-fashion
-my taste in things
-looking young even without makeup
-being flirted with even without makeup on
-my leopard print coat
-doing a little cardio on the indoor vintage cardio bike
-hearing good news in the animal welfare industry
-colors
-plants
-sunshine
-music
-art
-support from others
-seeing my body as getting sexier
-blankets
-the internet
-when people agree with me on things i feel in my heart are right
-smiling
-yoga
-rearranging things and cleaning
-still not getting the papers with "amendements" even though they're supposed to be due right about now
-ideas
-being beautiful
-having beautiful eyes
-compliments
-having beautiful hair
-having things to offer others
-friendly people
-my ambition
-learning
-reading
-relaxation
-beauty
-models
-unique beauty
-all the awesome things coming up for me
-inspiration
-being treated well
-life improving
-feeling my feelings
-being comfortable being myself
-transforming and evolving myself
-birds chirping
-sunshine
-sacral chakra and brainwave music
-water
-headphones
-flowers
-deep cleansing breaths
-nice weather yesterday
-cuteness
-pleasant memories
-moving forward
-not getting the amendment papers by the 2 week deadline
-colors
-sleep
-my new phone
-the internet
-sweaters
-blankets
-reorganizing and decluttering
-my medications
-coffee
-diet. dr pepper
-cookies
-chocolate
-candy
-my appetite shrinking
-being productive
-great deals
-being a caring person
-ideas
-newness
-physical exercise
-plants
-trees
-money coming in
-prayer
-evolving as a person
-my body getting more sculpted and looking nicer in clothes
-doing more time yesterday on the indoor vintage cardio bike
-inspiration
-art
-having nice lips
-coloring my hair. didn't go as it should have, but i kind of like it, actually.
-compliments
-the snow melting
-feeling my feelings
-working today
-booking the first day lodging for my out of town stay coming up
-smiling
-stretching
-thinking for myself
-having beautiful hair
-fashion
-models
-my accomplishments
-the cool and amazing experiences ive had in life
-accepting myself
-my power
-having beautiful eyes
-looking so young for my age
-design
-reading
-meeting people for coffee
-healing
-healthy digestion
-goals
-having nice curves
-emojis
-my career
-being considered high end
-my ambition
-my motivation