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-people being understanding
-getting another gofundme donation today
-waking up feeling a little more normal and less depressed today
-beauty products
-wanting to be beautiful
-taking out the garbage
-changing the litter box
-taking care of my skin
-my pink neon light
-being seen as attractive
-seeing the attractive nurse guy at the donation place i go to
-getting in a plasma donation today
-socks
-drinking water
-how cute and loving my cats are
-nightskies
-listening to chakra music
-reflection
-learning
-doing sit ups and my abs getting flatter and stronger from it
-ice cold drinks
-icy sweet drinks
-coffee
-my new no1 cares at all purse
-luxury lipstick
-having great taste
-working on self improvement
-finding the joy in it again
-my accomplishments
-being productive and speeding up how much i am doing
-good, passionate music
-seeing things more positively and working to change how i see my reality
-hot guys
-seeing i got a $50 transit card in the mail
-having an appt with a new therapist this week
-hot tea
-blankets
-relaxing
-surrender
-being kind
-being smart
-feeling the world change as my perception changes
-looking young
-having sophistication
-flowers
-healing
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-all those who donated to me
-having positive psychic money dreams
-getting paid for jobs in july
-proving those who want/expect me to fail wron
-snacks
-pillows
-remembering the power of gratitude and old desires manifested, even the simplest ones and the pleasure it brings
-chakra music
-M's husband checking on potential W sighting
-trying to be productive
-drinking water
-walking
-nightskies
-being stylish
-fashion
-beautiful designs
-working on my mental diet
-clean clothes
-cleaing spray
-having a place to live
-cat hugs
-seeking help
-manifesting my desires
-moisturizers
-new ideas
-wanting to be more motivated and to better myself
-trying to become spiritually rooted again
-hand wash
-cuteness
-being smart and elegant
-my eyesight
-colors
-weather feeling nice
-brushing my hair
-reading
-being in the know on trends
-allowing myself to feel
-creativiity
-art
-breaking apart walls holding me in from experiencing my desired reality
-my pink neon light
-ease
-having integrity
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-deciding to work on solutions to problems
-having jobs confirmed for October
-a job I applied to, having my lifecoach and M give them a good reference.
-my psychiatrist appt going well today
-walking more
-klonopin
-getting an offer for rental assistance and sending the w9 to my landlord
-taking better care of my skin
-drinking water
-having a nice intense ritual meditation last night
-waking up on time and making it to my appt
-being paid for all July jobs
-changing how I do things
-changing perspectives on things
-getting my eyebrows threaded
-touching up my hair color
-showering more
-people being kind to me
-positive memories
-cool, cute and creative designs
-getting my meowbucks apron for B cat's Halloween costume and how adorable it is and how well packaged it came in beautiful tissue paper and ribbon
-housecleaners
-deodorant
-evolving as a person
-immersing myself in new ideas
-trying to go with the flow
-feeling like I look thinner
-new desires
-how good the sun felt today
-my great taste
-fashion
-makeup
-having nice lips
-socks
-cleaning wipes
-hair ties
-having large eyes
-ab exercises
-self compassion
-starting a digital vision board
-being in the industries I'm in
-connection
-embracing being humbled
-compassion
-stretches
-nightskies
-filtering what I say more
-M still being nice to me
-moisturizers
-my style
-pedometer on my phone
-hot tea
-new ideas
-mind sunshine
-shedding away old layers of me
-beautiful objects
-art
-having a poetic mindset
-learning
-laughing
-overcoming
-appreciating living old desires manifested
-looking so young
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-my mood starting to lift just a bit
-having realizations and epiphanies
-laughing at the obvious jealousy others have of me
-my cats in their Halloween costumes for this year, having that bought and how adorable they look. Being able to have one little thing to make me smile and laugh
-how nice it feels outside
-remembering fun
-my ambition levels increasing
-cat hugs
-decorating my windows in pumpkin decals. My first time decorating outside.
-putting my little witch out in the living room for decoration that M gave me years ago
-having goals and desires
-showering a little more often
-taking more care to my skin
-feeling a little more attractive
-having jobs starting this week.
-getting another gofundme donation
-having psychic money dreams and seeing them come true
-blankets
-having a new laptop M gave me
-having integrity
-ideas
-newness
-entertainment
-music
-colors
-nightskies
-the new cloud feeding mat for the cats
-having a beautiful look
-my grey fall jacket
-apple cider vinegar
-cleaning spray
-learning
-having money on public transit cards
-bread
-face rollers
-looking young
-M dropping stuff off today
-my faith in God helping me through what's going on
-walking more
-reflecting on my life and where I want it to go, what I want to shed away
-staying strong
-my determination
-listening to others success stories
-working on releasing old baggage
-drinking water
-showering
-embracing what is
-being able to donate plasma
-housecleaners
-yoga
-sunshine
-my creativity
-beauty in life
-pleasant memories
-cool experiences I've had
-klonopin
-cuteness
-pictures
-being a giving person
-compassion
-being able to think differently
-being able to change things.
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-sleep
-gratitude
-remembering spiritual things about reality
-letting myself cry
-buying lysol wipes
-making a payment towards rent
-realizing J's wife L actually just exposed her husband and made him look bad and herself
-relaxing
-having a job coming up
-fashion
-appreciation
-nightskies
-peaceful sounds
-holding my cats
-expressing myself
-staying strong
-wearing makeup
-the nurse at the plasma center that I find kind of attractive
-my landlord being patient with me
-halloween decorations
-my accomplishments with my first career
-processing my feelings
-great designs
-having a baby face
-my hair color
-beauty
-inspiration
-blankets
-hope
-walking
-compassion
-openness
-texting and email more resources
-self forgiveness
-cuteness
-people to text and message online
-standing up for myself
-being safe
-face rolling
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-fashion
-hot guys
-My mood lifting 1000% after starting work again this week
-people having sympathy for me what I went through
-well dressed guys
-well dressed people
-fashion inspiration
-someone I worked with in March finding me at work this week and hanging out with me and making me feel very welcome.
-taking the train since the first time in a few years
-taking the bus since the first time in a few years
-someone helping guide me the right way to go when I had trouble finding work the first day of job 2 this month
-being considered very attractive still
-being considered cute
-free lunch at all my jobs I had this month so far
-makeup
-God protecting me from J and L doing anything further to me since last Friday
-realizing how I want to be a better person
-showering
-htdroxzyine helping my allergies
-drinking water
-drinking orange juice
-looking younger than others my age range
-being smart
-my anxiety medication
-having a decent psychiatrist
-making all my new psychiatrist and therapist appts
-iced lattes
-cute seasonal things
-creativity
-experiencing cool new things like a magician doing magic trick with me and meeting a woman from guiness book of world record records
-randomly running into the girl who was my roommate at the psych ward at my psychiatrist appt
-comfortable socks
-nice weather
-sunshine
-beautiful architecture in my city
-being resourceful
-working hard
-feeling ambitious
-sleep
-M helping me
-walking more
-my brown joggers
-paper towels
-unity
-kind and helpful people
-newness
-learning
-my lip scrub
-walking more
-finding the things that bring me joy and remembering things that did
-the nerve tonic I bought recently
-cuteness
-music
-my accomplishments
-deodorant
-the art of femininity
-my allure
-baby wipes
-apple cider vinegar
-my landlord being patient
-working on my comeback
-mirror affirmations
-being able to order cat litter yesterday
-getting to read notes from doctor appts at new place
-laughing
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-solutions
-klonopin
-drinking water
-sleep
-Halloween candy
-getting an apple crisp macchiato the other day and how delicious it was.
-fashion
-cleaning the bathroom sink
-pumpkin bread
-how sweet and loving my cats are
-someone bringing my groceries by the door for me
-kindness
-helpful people
-drinking orange juice lately
-buying bleach and a lint roller today
-healthy digestion
-ordering a chic new coat online
-laughing at haters and how hard people try proving themselves to me
-prayer
-looking at old accomplishments and memories
-entertainment
-art
-water
-doing laundry
-being proactive
-reaching my goals
-inspiration
-cleanliness
-confirming 2 jobs today
-gratitude for being humbled and looking at the bright side of things
-laughing
-having goals and desires
-sunshine
-bring b and p cat outside
-being resourceful
-M helping me
-researching
-attempting to call the law firm
-starting to believe in myself and good things again
-rates going up and things improving for the work I do
-moisturizers
-God working things out for me
-learning and processing things
-healing
-halloween decorations
-compliments
-being considered very beautiful
-love
-shedding away old aspects of me to become new
-seeing people who were awful getting theirs even if it's not very nice of me to take joy in
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-not letting those who wish ill will on me to have power over me
-ordering toner
-getting pet safe pesticide spray
-house feeling less gross and safer from things i did the last week
-taking care of my skin
-moisturizer
-getting my coat i ordered in the mail
-finding gratitude in getting humbled
-sleep
-blankets
-cleaning a little today
-my landlord being patient with me
-my outlets working once i awoke from my nap
-my mood lifting today
-being hired as an election judge
-having an interview tommorow
-drinking orange juice
-having vegan chicken tenders for dinner
-having enough money to get a pouch of cat food
-cat hugs
-cuteness
-finishing some of my election judge training
-my house feeling cozy from the heat
-clean clothes
-music
-being smart
-having nice eyes
-stretching
-klonopin
-having tapered down to half the amount of anxiety medication i was taking this year compared to the last 3 years which is actually huge
-brushing my hair
-setting intentions
-learning
-possibly talking to that nurse i kind of have a crush on yesterday on the phone(it sounded like him).
-poetry
-love
-my laptop
-the power of surrender
-nightskies
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-my mood being better and being more coherent than when i first left the hospital
-working again and exceeding my earnings from the last month before i stopped working again
-trying out my fitness app just now and doing some exercise
-showering
-my dad sharing his hbo login with me and watching some movies this past week
-clean clothes
-the blue joggers i wore today
-making efforts to fix my life
-makeup
-not letting my ex's wife get to me so much anymore
-prayer
-affirmations
-knowing my ex's wife is going crazy because she is jealous and that she's not stable
-fashion
-beautiful things
-the landlord coming to my place and fixing the radiators
-facing my fears
-seeing M's husband again and breaking the ice finally and seeing he seemed to want to talk for longer and see me
-blankets
-drinking water
-drinking orange juice
-new experiences
-fun and pleasant memories
-nightskies
-sunshine
-halloween decorations
-being smart
-halloween candy
-reflecting on things
-having ideas
-finding old flash drives
-pillows
-surrender
-gratitude
-how cute my cats are
-cat hugs
-becoming more patient
-compliments
-having a nice hair color
-reminiscing
-having a new coat for the season
-entertainment
-being compassionate
-having desires and goals
-moisturizers
-putting care into my appearance
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-getting paid
-hearing back from another boss
-having jobs coming up
-having clean teeth
-my new toner
-being smart
-ordering hair bleach
-ordering black hiking shoes with sparkles on them
-drinking water
-being rational
-mailing my dad's birthday card finally
-healthy digestion
-pet safe pesticide spray
-cool uses for technology
-having great taste
-redeeming a $75 off juvederm deal
-great ideas
-ordering an ipl certificate
-clean socks
-physical exercise
-getting an apple crisp macchiato yesterday
-my pink light
-sleep
-my beauty
-hot drinks
-things slowly returning to a new normal
-compassion
-being able to think for myself
-cat hugs
-cuteness
-being kind
-learning a lot this year
-being in the trends
-having goals
-colors
-comedy
-entertainment
-M being there for me
-nightskies
-babywipes
-style
-working through my feelings
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-Halloween candy
-M giving me money as a "happy Halloween."
-ibuprofen
-hydroxyzine
-seeing m's husband again as they dropped off ibuprofen for me and him actually talking to me and saying be safe etc.
-moisturizer
-fabrics
-having compassion
-handling my problems
-getting another gofundme donation
-having goals and desires
-ideas
-being productive
-my sore throat being gone
-fashion
-cold soda
-apple crisp macchiatos from Starbucks
-going back to my roots little by little by working again and bring around the things I like and that are my scene
-techno music
-parties
-nightclubs
-attractive people
-all the creativity people put in their Halloween costumes
-ravioli
-the cat starting to leave the pumpkin alone
-the cats getting so much attention in the window
-how cute and precious my cats are
-new experiences
-being friendly
-brushing my teeth
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-staying strong through the catastrophes
-getting my red-light wand in the mail
-doing affirmations today in the mirror
-watching movies
-wearing my new coat
-cleaning products
-nighttime walks
-realizing during emotional breakdowns there's good in there to come back to
-having nice hair
-clean sheets
-orange juice
-fasting some days
-being smart
-art
-style
-seeing m's husband with M again
-having ideas
-my mind being more clear, coherent
-taking less then half the anxiety medicine I did in the past
-my femininity
-finding grace in being humbled
-handling things maturely
-cute decorations
-hugging cats
-having compassion
-toner
-brushing my hair
-having goals
-playing with the cats earlier
-trying new things
-oneness
-spirituality
-following ones bliss
-music
-being attractive
-working on the basic pillars of peace and success
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-acknowledging my stress and anxiety levels
-being protected from any petty stuff from ex j and his wife happening
-my new coat
-my red light therapy wand
-sleep
-being proactive
-my little heater
-ordering garbage bags
-ordering cat litter
-the friendly neighbor chatting with me recently who likes my cats
-my sense of style
-brushing my hair
-bring 99% sure I found out who sent me prank the prank calls in july
-klonopin
-semi detoxing from anxiety meds and cosmetic injections
-working out my body
-sending out emails for work
-blankets
-watching movies, TV shows, documentaries
-having great taste
-having a plan
-the feeling of clean clothes
-talking to my cats
-my determination levels rising
-hot beverages
-music
-finding special old messages between r and I and the irony reading them and processing the specialness that was there
-when my clothes feel looser
-my hair color
-looking so young
-being beautiful
-working on bettering myself as a person
-bread
-something to grow from
-humility
-that my ex j's wife took down her pinned post with awful things about from being pinned
-staying strong
-being smart
-perspective
-drinking water
-paper towels
-baby wipes
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-ideas
-plans
-showering
-lights
-blankets
-water
-orange juice
-sleep
-motivating myself
-hope
-my red light therapy wand
-going through the past to remember peace, success and happiness
-hot tea
-destressing and decompressing techniques
-patience
-getting strict with myself on some things
-the litter heater
-cuteness
-b cat having such fluffy thick fur
-playing with the cats
-trying to be real with myself
-great design
-garbage bags
-sweeping
-prayer
-detoxing from cosmetic injections and anxiety medication
-my face skim feeling tighter
-compassion for myself
-learning new things
-working on becoming a better person
-fashion
-becoming more coherent
-sweaters
-style
-being smart
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-seeing my check will be $100 higher than expected
-finding the name of the number of who prank called me
-not being served legal papers from having to do with ex's wife and him, etc
-Chakra music
-red light therapy
-my skin looking so good and being incredibly smooth from red light therapy
-mood lifts from red light therapy
-hummus
-taking the cats out to experience the snow
-how pretty snow is
-how cute paw prints are
-watching movies
-blankets
-restful naps
-the boys loving the cat toys I got then
-my new coat
-my fashion sense
-hot beverages
-starting a digital vision board
-taking the garbage out
-looking for apartments online
-gold sharpie marker
-having nice curves
-compassion for self
-looking back on positive things to remember
-being smart
-drinking water
-joggers
-beautiful things
-feeling investment minded and focused on rebuilding
-reflection
-self forgiveness
-having a nice hair color
-not being afraid to take risks
-looking young
-when people show they care for me
-bread
-recertifying for my free internet
-getting positive responses from 2 agencies I emailed
-trying to eat less
-feeling in a bit of a good mood at random the last few days
-remembering my spiritual roots
-having desires
-listening to beach sounds the other day to decompress
-cats
-healing my inner demons
-wanting to focus on my health and recovery
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-restful sleep
-Journaling
-healing
-self awareness
-forgiving myself
-learning things about why I've felt the way I do
-being considered attractive
-not letting myself be silenced
-finding out if j's wife isn't lying I should have been served long ago in October and that it doesn't add up, and just seems like its fake. The court date is in a few days if what she posted isn't fake.
-prayer
-affirmations
-the catnip ball I got for my cats
-making the decision I did to detox from anxiety medication
-making the decision to detox from cosmetic injections
-fashion
-wanting to live a cleaner life
-motivation levels shooting up a little
-being somewhat cultured
-treating myself to two pieces of 7eleven pizza last night for dinner
-eating less
-M helping me
-blankets
-cleam socks
-friendly people
-baby wipes
-having goals
-relaxing beach sounds audio
-being more coherent
-Chakra music
-feelings tinges of more aliveness
-beauty
-appreciation
-the love I have for others
-fantasizing about what I want to manifest
-remembering positive memories and gorgeous details of them
-feeling like I'm getting my power back, it's going to come back
-being strong
-color
-having an artist mindset
-having great taste
-how beautiful the sky is
-compliments
-detoxing
-the power of appreciating the little things
-entertainment
-cuteness
-helping
-compassion for self
-my creativity
-decluttering
-humility
-entertainment
-flowers
-art
-growing as a person
-my accomplishments
-the cool things I've experienced in life
-being classy
-clothes feeling looser
-having a caring heart
-my hair color
-looking like a model
-my versace bright crystal perfume
-garbage bags to throw garbage out
-my beauty
-my femininity
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-the detox from my hospital stay
-feeling increased clarity after my hospital stay and peace
-M's husband watching my cats while I was at hospital
-tension breaking between me and M's husband showing he may see me soon
-food at hospital getting a little better
-losing weight
-sleep
-Ativan
-being brilliantly savage when needed
-my creativity
-seeing more truth of how much j's wife isn't stable and their lying
-having compassion
-being smart
-getting my long awaited check
-putting money aside for new place
-lighting
-showers
-socks
-red light therapy
-watching movies
-feeling ambitious and inspired to move toward goal
-how peaceful the rain was the other night
-prayer
-not being served legal papers from anything with J and his wife
-savoring the moments
-staying positive
-music
-feeling more feelings of aliveness
-beauty
-smiling
-baby wipes
-clorox wipes
-playing and cuddling with cats
-ideas
-fashion
-blankets
-my femininity
-eating less and appetite shrinking
-sunshine
-nightskies
-colors
-my abs flattening
-dental floss
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-getting prescribed weight loss medicine
-sleep
-my cat being in a calendar
-my new pusheen socks
-compliments
-movies
-starting my plan for getting money to move
-seeing my feral cats
-h cat being healed of his sniffling issues and getting antibiotics and bloodwork and sleeping on the front porch of m's husband's house with heat for 2 weeks
-babywipes
-playing with ai app and seeing my beauty in interesting ways
-having model like features
-cold water to drink
-vegan food
-blankets
-holding my cats
-taking p cat on a walk and him doing very well
-feeling my feelings
-cashapp
-great ideas
-reassurances
-cleaning my freezer
-gratitude
-enjoyment
-peace
-positive memories
-bras
-kind people
-plasma donating experience at new place going well
-being smart
-rest
-clean clothes
-newness
-being cultured
-having goals
-being kind
-unique beauty
-prayer
-positive intentions and affirmations
-learning
-reflecting
-colors
-inspiration
-lysol
-clean teeth
-beauty
-
Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-starting donating plasma at new place and how easy it is and nicer there
-lysol spray
-a good therapy session the other day
-starbucks
-my new pusheen socks
-great design
-beauty
-unique beauty
-hugging my cats
-playing with ai app the other day
-sleep
-compliments
-looking like a model
-pep talks
-inspiration
-fashion
-elevating myself
-realizing I'm not crazy and ex and his wife are below my level playing below my level games and jealous
-having a warm apartment
-vegan food
-blankets
-cuteness
-positive affirmations
-having money
-staying strong
-looking for joy
-people being kind
-looking back to my roots
-my accomplishments
-being able to think for myself
-having compassion
-having a phone
-being a kind person
-having things to be able to be proud of myself for
-
Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-clean socks
-patience
-being at 20% of what I need to move financially
-sleep
-movies
-entertainment
-friendly people
-blankets
-drinking water
-reassurances
-my cats
-mirror affirmations
-watching movies
-positive stories
-staying strong
-my red light therapy wand
-my givenchy bear
-joggers
-cat hugs
-being smart
-doing my part to make things better
-
Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-drinking water
-warmth
-recovering old pictures including a specific one I had been seeking which felt like a positive sign from the universe
-having lived a full life
-getting a stylish tote bag free with a shirt I bought
-my mom telling me she bought something she's been telling me she wanted ever since I was little so I'm happy she manifested that
-trying to penny pinch
-friendly people
-cleaning the litter box
-my beauty and realizing in hindsight just how exotic it is and how perfect my curves were and how thin I actually was
-preparing myself to just go for it and not make it a big deal about going to see my cats because they're mine too and feeling like this is somehow a key to freedom to peace and joy in my life in so many other ways
-finding some great stickers for cards I wanted to send out for the holidays the other day
-movies
-moisturizers
-my givenchy bear and laying with it in bed
-feeling my feelings and allowing myself to feel the heartbreak
-my ex and his wife possibly giving up on their petty revenge on me and seeing its a loss for them as his wife now unpinned the tweet she had about it
-appreciation
-fashion
-sleep
-having an interview for work
-when p cat lays by me
-lysol spray
-mirror affirmations
-that my parents seem to be doing well
-making my cats happy
-beauty
-having great taste
-my child like side
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-movies
-staying strong
-looking for help
-my leggings with the edgy side trim and front panels
-the chic leg warmers with buttons coming in the mail
-nostalgia
-moisturizer
-showering
-taking risks
-having a warm apartment
-seeing most of my feral cats the other day
-starbucks
-kind people
-the kind uber driver who gave me her number in case i need someone to talk to her after hearing my health stories
-my cats
-drinking water
-sleep
-hope
-remembering law of attraction and spirituality roots
-my beauty
-my pads
-my childlike side
-being happy for others
-being happy for my mom and dad
-ibuprofen
-setraline
-being smart
-being able to think for myself
-gift left on my door by landlord
-having empathy for others
-having lived my dreams
-movies
-
Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-brushing my teeth
-baby wipes
-lysol
-how cute my cats are and seeing them curl in a ball or tilt their or submissively let me pick them up
-the beauty of cats
-cleaning a little
-deciding to delete my gofundme
-drinking water
-starting my new years resolutions
-rewriting the story
-coffee
-blankets
-my coffee cake from starbucks
-art
-movies and production
-beauty
-my beauty
-botox
-moisturizer
-having things i want to do and accomplish and manifest
-having met interesting and accomplish people in my life and entangled myself with interesting and accomplished people who've inspired me and helped me better myself
-calming down
-prayer
-affirmations
-
Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-the friendly girl at the plasma center giving me a mini candy cane and being nice before christmas
-drinking my apple cider vinegar water
-starting up doing 10 minutes of heart opening yoga again last night
-M talking to me again
-nice weather and the wonderful way the breeze felt
-laying down, allowing my mind to empty and feeling almost a slight euphoric feeling and aliveness remembering all is well and will be well and the feeling of heart chakra opening surrender sensations if i were to just surrender fully enough and how amazing that would feel
-opening my front door to see a target bag on front stoop and peering in to what was a magic kit. it may have been for me and from a friend that got mad at me and had said he'd drop off a christmas gift he got me before he got mad but then said he'd hold onto it and wait. There was no name tag and it just looked opened but as if left for someone. It could have been from the wind or maybe someone opened it to see if it was for them or was nosy to see what it was then put it back realizing it was just a magic kit. I took it as a beautiful positive omen of magic! A magic kit. Walking right in front of magic, a magic kit. How dream-like. I didn't bring it in. Maybe i should have. I did try texting the one person and asking if he did stopped by but very awesome sign from the universe.
-doing a nice prayer and affirmation incense ritual the night before
-how cute and cuddly my cats
-my givenchy bear
-learning and growing as a person
-my mood's being more up and feeling less weighed down
-drinking water
-flossing my teeth
-reflection
-having great hair
-the sky
-music
-staying positive
-being productive
-socks
-having fulfilled all my dreams
-working on my new year's resolutions
-blankets
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-staying strong
-band aids
-being creative
-getting on board a new agency roster
-listening to heart chakra music
-movies
-sleep
-blankets
-cuddling my cats
-my black givenchy bear
-sending T cat a feral cat insulated weatherproof sizeable house
-hot tea
-fashion
-meeting up with my ex Ja and getting dinner in chinatown and him feeding me and taking the parts i thought were gross out of the food for me so i'd eat
-gritty, real experiences that feel cinematic
-new experiences
-the friendly phlebotomist who says hi to me and makes conversation when she sees me now
-working on my new years resolutions
-having a warm place to live
-my solawave red light therapy wand
-connection
-inspiration
-seeing other's i look up to having had gone through things i am going through or have
-happy moments or accomplished or peaceful moments of my past
-recovering a lot of cool pics from my past
-seeing i've lived a full life
-drinking water
-having apple cider water vinegar the other day
-so many beautiful pics from first career i did
-adding more light yoga routine to my routine
-colors
-nightskies
-mirror affirmations
-art
-being eceletic
-clean socks
-being smart
-moisturizer
-prayer
-reflection
-claritin
-makeup
-knowing trends and aesthetics
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-starting work again
-k at the plasma place vibing with me and noticing my subtle hair color change and giving me a tip so my heart rate stays low while they take it
-adding golden blonde to my hair which gives it a lovely strawberry blonde like hue that's a little different and nice
-J giving me $200 dollars
-my cats and how sweet and innocent they are
-J taking me to see my feral cats for a short bit recently
-being able to do a little laundry at J's house
-J giving me flowers the 2nd time we hung out again and then the 3rd
-having an amazing dinner at a place we found and J ordering us such a feast. We had shots of titos vodka, a Mai Tai, bottle of sparkling rose wine, salads, bread, charcuterie, gnocchi, he had octopus and salmon and we had the place to ourself. It was a lovely experience and all the stuff I ordered was amazing
-how good J is at ordering food for me
-walking
-being productive
-reflection and working on the last year of reflection and new year goals
-movies to watch on hbo
-pierogi
-fashion
-my cashapp tote bag and how stylish it is and that I got it for free
-staying strong and positive
-orange powerade
-being kind to others
-finding the nail clippers
-starting doing yoga at home again and how great it feels
-red light therapy and how great it is for my skin
-working on cleaning my blood
-cuddling with J's dog
-good therapy sessions
-my creativity
-makeup
-sleep
-m's husband cash-apping me twice recently
-new experiences
-remembering excitement, bliss, feeling alive and other great feelings
-muscle relaxants I found that make me feel relaxed
-getting more things organized to be packed away
-seeing more job openings pop up
-M talking to me more again
-the step tracker on my phone
-the foot balm I have to moistuirze my feet
-my face mist I use to add glow to my skin
-positive visualization
-moisturizers
-having great style
-recovering awesome older pics I haven't seen in awhile
-hair masks
-having great eyes
-changing the litter box last night
-doing some reading earlier
-colors
-design
-having character
-having integrity
-trying to reach new goals and overcome things
-J giving me gloves
-putting the abuse an animal go to jail bumper sticker on j's car
-an author friend gifting me a copy of his book
-beauty
-my cats becoming trained to let me have flowers out in my place
-cuteness
-flowers
-finding a green heart button on my buttons and pins leg warmers I bought
-unique beauties with gap teeth that look absolutely gorgeous
-compliments
-my intelligence
-my gray oversized winter coat
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-getting a storage unit
-having a nice valentines dinner with my ex
-feeling like the weight loss drugs are kicking in finally
-red light therapy
-changing the hair color direction I'm going in
-my ex changing the situation with other ex and his wife in my favor because of the power he has considering the dynamics(him being a police officer and working for the government and having worked at the courthouse for over 30 years)
-seeing how having no expectations turns things better sometimes
-having a little more money
-exercising my body
-getting stuff out of my apartment
-my ex treating me like a little girl
-getting some new experiences again and having a little fun
-the pink martinis I had at the restaurant the other night
-the mint green squishmallow my ex got me
-M giving me money to get a manicure and getting a peony pink color that turned out really nice
-feeling like my ex is taking care of me
-the phlebetomist being sweet noticing I added a subtle change to my hair color doing more self care
-finishing up one of the books I've been on since 2021 and about to be done with another one so ordering my next book
-working on my goals and reflecting on myself and the past year
-letting myself grieve
-watching movies
-listening to positive affirmations with beach sounds
-the neighbor leaving a friendly thank you note after I felt an urge to get their new dog I kept hearing a gift to welcome him to the building after he kept him making my cats curious
-becoming a little more productive
-b vitamins
-friendly people
-roses
-moisturizers
-orange powerades
-makeup
-my spirituality
-standing up for myself
-yoga
-new ideas
-strengthening my body
-seeing my past accomplishments again and smiling at them
-love
-my cats
-having a great eye for photos, art, fashion, etc
-laying down
-sleep
-my strength
-drinking orange juice
-having a kind heart
-becoming wiser
-growing as a person
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-deciding to shift my hair towards a more golden blonde,medium honey color.
-half the big stuff being in a storage unit and seeing my apartment start to empty.
-seeing my mom for the first time since our falling out and how healing that was for me
-working a job i confirmed after j ex dropped me and learning the joy of discovery and getting the money i need to money i move on it's way to me
-cleaning parts of the floor this week and noticing how it lifted my mood after
-my afterpay spend increasing
-my therapist writing a letter to my utility bill
-learning a bunch of the different train lines while working the other week
-reflecting on things
-detoxing from anxiety medication
-confirming work for the next several months
-getting in a lot of steps while working
-seeing my cats can handle me working well
-seeing my face start to slim out from all the extra steps and eating less when i was working a lot and eating very little
-vive supplements helping my raynauds and immunity
-vitamins
-being resourceful
-prayer
-electrolytes
-acquaintance who donated to my gofundme who may like me randomly giving me $100 recently on venmo
-friendly people
-going to the dentist finally and getting stains removed i was insecure about
-lysol wipes
-inspiration
-comedy and laughing
-romantic tv moments
-newness
-sunshine
-compassion
-art
-my accomplishments
-moisturizers
-stretching
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-someone i never met that i've been talking to online a little bit and in text randomly cash-apping me $500 and how at the time that was the perfect amount i needed to help me with things(of course then life happened and living is expensive)
-baby wipes
-ginger
-the guy that sent me the $500 sending me flowers delivered to my house less then a week later and how beautiful they were
-trying to drink more water
-my mom helping me move stuff into my storage unit and driving around to look for places on foot and cleaning my place for me which has all been a HUGE help for me.
-healing my relationship with my mom after over a year of us having estranged from her
-my apartment being about 1/3 of the way empty
-being so over the color i have for my hair now and wanting a new color fast
-being ready for a new me, whoever that will be and to surrender into that new era
-my food card determination being approved and reloaded.
-moisturizers
-raising my vibration
-feeling an excitement, almost aliveness after one of the times my mom left and the place was cleaner. The hope things were near.
-vegan protein shakes to go
-reflection
-remembering my roots
-remembering my ambition
-having great hair
-my liheap being approved in full so now my power in my apartment is good so i can move without any issues with that
-all the items in my checklist getting done
-seeing more places in the range i want opening up
-the other money gifts the guy sent me as well
-people finding me attractive
-trying to take care of myself just a little bit more
-my cats love for me
-my creativity
-holding my cats and when they cuddle with me or lay with me
-setting my intentions
-listening to root chakra music
-doing laundry at the laundromat and that they accept debit card
-taking action to make my life better
-yoga stretches helping to fix me up
-going for walks
-my freshly washed quilt and how cozy it is
-entertainment
-being able to think for myself
-being rational
-being open
-decluttering so much and minimalizing
-learning
-b vitamins for giving me energy
-hope
-being resourceful
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-my mysterious friend cash app-ing me $750 now. The exact amount I needed again. Randomly. My mind was blown. Perhaps I can be bought. It was the day i was supposed to be out by of my apartment, i had just messed up my 2 jobs i had that weekend and missed them and not really much coming so out of money and just a little short of what I need to move.Now I feel a little more confident. I still need a place, and more work but wow that was like a miracle and genie.
-the way the breeze felt in my window earlier tonight
-getting a cat carrier trolley in case we were going to end up homeless as an idea. It was a waste of money, but i was getting nervous and bought it thinking of things just in case.
-using my allergan gift cards for a botox touch up today. I haven't gone in so long, and it felt good for my morale to do something for my looks. I feel like little makeover things will be good for me.
-hope
-my determination
-selling my celine sunglasses on poshmark
-kindness
-sleeping masks(skincare)
-blue shampoo and how nice my hair color is looking and altering it a little
-my cozy quilt blanket
-finding the other fendi sock the other day that had been missing for like over a year now
-trying to embrace what is
-processing things
-making progress on emptying my apartment
-almost having my affirm debt paid off
-focusing on strength building to get my strength up, build muscles and bone density, and tone and lose weight
-moisturizer
-focusing on kidney cleansing
-protein drinks
-playing with my cats
-how much my cats love me and i love them
-making efforts
-night skies
-sunshine
-hot guys
-beautiful design
-beautiful fashions
-great cinema
-music
-everyone at the lipo center remembering me and it not being awkward at all
-my last zoom interview, the interviewer being sweet and thinking i was cute even though i felt hideous and awful looking
-trying to ease at least some little by little bit back into normality
-baby wipes
-document cleaner
-lysol spray
-when things are cleaner
-learning
-eating less
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-the dopamine blast from my new medication making me feel more cheery,focused, and clear minded
-the nice sunny day's we've had
-my awesome friend i've been talking to randomly cash-apping me $100 the other day
-my hair looking great
-my weight going down a tad, hitting the weight of last year's norm the first half of the year
-strength training to get my body in shape
-eating less and drinking more protein shakes/eating more protein bars
-that I've detoxed from benzos so well
-my blanket quilt i've been sleeping with
-pillows
-serendipity
-learning new things and allowing myself to evolve and rejuvenate
-M's husband saying i can have his bike back
-how doll-like my cats are
-great film work
-ordering a new hoodie and getting it today
-ordering new sneakers
-getting a pedicure and how nice it feels to do nice things for myself again
-how nice it fees to be going to the laundromat regularly
-my mom cleaning my place today
-laughing
-going to the storage unit today and getting my place emptied more
-sweet messages from the friend who sends me money
-doing 2 interviews the last 2 days
-going through and throwing a lot of stuff away. decluttering and becoming new.
--p cat enjoying his wheatgrass
-having compassion
-kind people
-learning
-being resourceful
-having really smooth, young skin
-looking so much younger then my age
-my sense of style
-having desires
-deeper reflecting
-journaling
-easing into normality just a bit
-newness
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-getting a chemical peel today
-the way the breeze feels with my window open
-cats
-playing with my cats
-wellbutrin
-dopamine
-blue shampoo
-transitioning my hair color little by little to a new hair era
-my friend J and how sweet he is to me with the little things. like how i had a panic about my phobia that was something he posted and he said on his own he is going to stop posting it. Other little things too that show he pays attention to me and cares. the really nice word candy from him. the money he sends me. he offered me free botox once his friend is certified today. that he doesn't judge me.
-sunshine
-processing a lot of things and having new insights, reflecting. healing, new ideas. new clarity.
-ordering a new hoodie and wallet
-my mom helping me with some stuff
-people seeming friendlier lately
-my new michael kors bag
-ordering a four leaf clover keychain for good luck
-going to the dmv to start the process of getting my liscense fixed
-making a doctor appointment
-going to get my phone fixed and finding out how to fix my voicemail and that i will pick up a new phone that's ready today
-fashion
-strawberry lemonade powerades
-fasting
-sales
-my apartment being emptier
-losing some weight
-my accomplishments with first career
-people seeing me as very accomplished and a big deal
-getting my charge disputed from the idiots from the sticker website
-letting the cats go on the porch for a little bit earlier today
-inspiration
-film
-music
-entertainment
-greenery
-beauty
-laughing more
-easing into normality
-savoring a little bit more
-relaxing sounds
-compliments
-reassurances
-realizing things to be grateful for and abundance
-baby wipes
-having a nice hair color
-having smooth skin
-having the face of a model
-fascia blasting my stomach
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--playing with my cats and holding them and being affectionate with them
--having faith everything will work out
-my older friend J
--wearing clothes that aren't the usual t-shirt or tank like usual
-getting my beautiful four leaf clover key-chain in the mail today
-my new antidepressant providing me dopamine which is helping me a lot
-getting my fiorucci wallet i ordered in the mail today
-afterpay
-starting to pack more
-being almost done with the last closet
-my clothes fitting looser
-my stomach getting flatter
-caring about social issues and advocating for things
-powerades
-processing and healing things
-meditation
-getting some sun and walking and meditating yesterday
-opening myself up
-tv shows and movies to watch
-learning
-remembering core truths, spiritual truths
-the book i'm reading helping me to understand my sensitivity more and myself
-sanitizers
-being smart
-trying new things
-fascia blasting
-maturing as a person and evolving
-knowing and having met some amazing people
-stretching
-baby wipes
-being resourceful
-my arms looking slimmer
-my face looking slimmer
-my appetite shrinking and desire to drink soda, naturally drinking less soda without even trying
-not being as bothered by my harassers
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-finding my burberry scrunchie that i thought i left at an ex's house
-powerade's
-things i really want coming together beautifully and perfectly like magic
-losing weight
-seeing i lost another pound and that the weight is coming off without even trying
-my face getting thinner
-having such smooth, young skin
-my primary doctor prescribing me b-12 weekly injections since my b-12 is really low which will surely help me lose weight and makes sense as another kickstarter/piece of the puzzle since my metabolism has felt so slow the last few years
-clean clothes
-my friend J cash-apping me money
-working the other day which i needed after a stall of missing jobs due to anxiety and fear of things not going well and my boss being great to work with and that it wasn't awkward seeing him(i had worked with him before a few years ago and he knows an ex of mine) and my job going well
-prayer
-clean socks
-tibetan singing bowls
-positive affirmations
-fashion
-air conditioning
-my starbucks drink i like getting sometimes and how good it was today
-the book on hsp i've been reading and how helpful it's been for me
-learning
-enjoying myself a little at the festival i worked at the other day
-getting a mango colada at the festival i worked at the other day-
-makeup
-playing with my cats on the back porch and how impressed i am with them first for how they responded to a dog barking by going right back in the house and not being too shaken up, then today being able to sit a little and chill in between wandering and i could even turn away for a second or two and trust the other one not to go away but sit patiently and stay where he's at. how fun it was to let them have outdoor time and get some cute pictures of them
-enjoying a nice walk the other day and some sun
-lip flips
-relaxation
-massages
-marion being there for me at least somewhat
-how helpful my mom has been with cleaning my place
-sunshine
-how much more lifted my mood has been on wellbutrin
-finishing emptying the last closet in my apartment
-my creativity
-updating my resume
-music
-having desires
-feeling my feelings and processing things and healing
-perspective-staying
-staying determined and persevering
--sweet memories
--memories and feelings that feel pleasantly alive
--movies
-the breeze through my window
-sunsets
-baby wipes
-cuteness
-beauty
-the miracle of the church rental assistance coming through. I had been praying in distress for some kind of miracle and a day or two later, after having given up on the church assistance ever coming through and i think the landlord did too, i got an email saying it was approved and being sent! Which buys me more time, and has to relax my landlord at least a little bit.
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-drinking water and allowing it to cleanse my kidneys and hydrate me
-my new dopamine antidepressant wellbutrin and how effective it is for me
-moisturizer
-weight loss
-my face slimming out and how amazing that feels
-my food card finally being reloaded now
-getting my new phone, my voice mail fixed and a new charger and how great that feels
-gin gins
-seeing my feral cats yesterday and how wonderful it was to see t cat and to just sit and be with my cats
-my mom sending me money yesterday, even though I feel uncomfortable about it
-cuteness
-staying determined
-m's husband seeming to unblock me
-the way my Starbucks drink tastes in warmer seasons
-manifesting M's husband texting me yesterday morning which felt amazing and like I was understood and being treated fairly
-picking up the bike yesterday from M's house last night and riding it back home and how amazing it felt riding it home at night, so peaceful and nice
-my love for animals
-prayer
-laughing at the silly things my cats do
-clean socks
-baby wipes
-showering
-processing my feelings on things and healing
-meditating on the church stairs near my house
-night skies
-sunshine
-hot guys
-having smooth young skin
-getting my first b-12 injection today
-my beauty
-the mini series I just finished watching
-inspiration
-connection
-art
-great entertainment
-the breeze from my window
-my window air conditioner
-how amazing it is that I've detoxed as I have from anxiety medication
-sweet pleasant memories
-having gorgeous eyes
-becoming wiser
-cleansing myself of old and becoming new
-ordering myself a 24 pack of mountain berry powerade just because I want a lot of powerades in the house
-fashion
-beauty
-having goals
-piecing things together little by little such as new phone, bike, medical form for dmv, health check up, new antidepressant that helps weight and vitamin fixing, botox touch up, chemical peel etc and so on so I'm easing into normal little by little and moving forward. I should be working full time and in a new apartment right now but until then I just have to keep putting the pieces together on all I need to do and am behind on and before I know it, I'll look back and be like whoa I was just there and now I'm here. It already is starting to feel like things are moving forward slightly quicker.
-my child like side
-serendipity
-learning more about myself more through the book I'm reading on hsp, as well as therapy, and reflecting
-feeling more open than I was a few m8nths ago
-feeling ready to be a new me
-embracing a thinner me, a new hair color me, a me more in tune with my hsp side and wiser
-cat cuddles
-compassion
-being able to think for myself
-having great taste and style
-having nice full lips
-getting honey gift cards
-how healthy b and p cat are
-my brother being out of the hospital now
-the love in my heart
-my self-growth
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-calming down perspective by looking at perspective from different angles
-going for bike ride yesterday
-getting my eyebrows threading yesterday
-compassionate people
-my cats
-getting my metabolism fixed and my face slimming out
-powerade
-nightskies
-starting my vitamin d supplementation
-having nice lips
-my eyes becoming healthier
-forgiving my brother
-my mom sending me money and saying she got me a fold up bed
-my arms looking slimmer
-going longer without eating and eating less
-music
-spirituality
-art
-appreciation
-social connection
-my femininity
-knowing myself
-learning
-evolving as a person
-the breeze through the window
-cleaning solutions
-baby wipes
-moisturizer
-newness
-touching up my hair color
-prayer
-not having bug issue or heat issue like last year
-applying for jobs
-having a little more energy than i did a few months ago and this time last year
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--television entertainment
-going for walks
-my face having thinned out
-my arms being slimmer
-my friend J and how sweet he is
-going for walks, and increasing my distance
-having great hair
-having really smooth, young skin
-my cats and how cute and funny and well behaved they are
-my mom showing me a kitten her bf rescued and the cute kitten pics i seen
-my cica sleeping mask
-ordering burberry sunglasses i really wanted because my birthday is coming up and you only live once
-ordering a chanel foundation that got really great reviews
-inspiring quotes and mantras
-updating my wardrobe and beauty regimen a little
-my pink steve madden sneakers
-peaceful sounds
-starting my vitamin d prescription
-deciding to start the taper off myself of sertraline after researching that ssri's affect metabolic function
-sunshine
-nightskies
-praying
-affirmations, repeating an intention in my head
-inspiration
-confirming a job the other day and working it
-friendly people
-people considerate towards animals
-seeing more and more my harassers are just losers that assume and have nothing going for them
-packing more stuff
-organizing and cleaning
-cleaning wipes
-baby wipes
-having style and trend knowledgable
-wellbutrin
-how much more coherent i am these days
-feeling more ambitious
-being productive
-music
-how great my lips look from a lip flip
-becoming stronger
-becoming wiser
-healing what needs to be healed
-morning skies
-colors
-sunsets
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-how great it feels to sleep on a bed, and how much it changes my perspective just sitting/laying on it versus being on the couch
-after a breakdown and crying on the church stairs, looking up at the fireworks going on in my neighborhood and having a feeling in the universe as if they were just for me, and the sky and outside being so quiet as if it was just me out there, and enjoying that moment of self and universe and fireworks
-how vivid the night felt tonight. the sky, the colors and my surroundings felt beautifully vivid in color, almost dream-like. i tried to savor it.
-pillows
-updating my look some with shopping, beauty, etc changes lately that fit the me i've become and am changing into. pics i look at of makeup and hair from last year are so undesirable to me now, such as brown eyeliner and the super light blonde hair i had.
-changing air filters in my air purifiers
-kindness and empathy in people
-M getting more reasonable about the cats
-becoming more objective and seeing other sides of things in new ways, even if it hurts
-drinking water
-getting prescription b-22 injections from my doctor
-how adorable my cats are and what wonderful listeners they are
-getting vitamin D prescription from my doctor
-how wonderful and beautiful my new burberry sunglasses look
-getting a touch up of botox in the dao area and how wonderful it looks
-letting go a little with my cosmetic injection appts in asking for doses and letting her decide and liking the results better that way
--moisturizers
-entertainment
-physical exercise
-trying a baja blast from taco bell tonight and how good it was, i loved the tropical lime flavor
-walking
-yoga
-showering
-going to therapy
-beauty
-sunsets
-the sky
-deciding to just order a new hoodie since i dont like the one i had ordered a month ago
-weaning off sertraline
-my acupressure slippers and how wonderfully relaxing the stabbing sensations feel when they hit into my feet
-having compassion
-things to be grateful for
-an ex wanting to work with me which felt really nice to hear from him again and still want to do things since i miss that scene
-acknowledging my problems
-cleaning wipes
-my creativity
-my intelligence
-having great eyes
-my laptop
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-doing more and having more energy to do more
-drinking water
-losing weight
-getting noticed more
-being strong and handling the confrontation with my landlord and the 5 day notice
-pretty things
-getting ahold of a tenant union
-getting ahold of a lawyers organization for tenants
-filing a complaint for no peephole to the city
-filing a discrimination complaint to department of housing
-makeup
-my face slimming out
-my arms getting slimmer
-my clothes fitting nicer on me
-my fresh advanced therapy sheer pink balm
-going to the e.r after the panic attack/anxiety attack from my mom's random verbal abuse attack
-stretching
-being down to taking only 50 mg of sertraline a day before i stop taking it completely
-my weight being lower than it was the last time i was at the primary doctor
-face wash
-trying new things
-reading more of my book today
-coming up with new plans
-packing up more of my pole into the pole bag
-therapy
-peaceful sounds
-being proactive
-kind people
-considerate people
-how adorable and loving my cats are
-M's husband dropping off a hammer and tension rod
-colors
-compliments
-my hair
-showering more often
-the breeze
-finally ghetto hanging up a shade after what happened with my landlord interaction and being quite pleased i was able to figure something out with covering up the window by myself
-ideas
-learning
-having grace
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-deciding to meet up with the neighbor i met a few months ago the night of my birthday, on half a hydrocodone and some flat hard seltzer and ending finding him attractive and interesting and us kissing and the experience kind of making me feel kind of alive again. being out in the middle of the night on the porch, until the sun came up was kind of romantic and a new experience.
-feeling feelings and emotion from music that made me want to cry and dance from the beauty of a song the other night and how lovely that was to feel.
-my ex from long ago showing up at my house while i was asleep, calling me 6 times and waiting for me for 20 minutes which would be aggravating and creepy, but i know how he is, after i made a joke when he said he was stopping by the night previous assuming he was kidding and knew better and why would he just show up but lesson learned i cant even joke a little with him but the gesture was nice.
-my older friend sending me a cash app gift for my birthday
-saying how i really feel to the 4 family who haven't been there for me, even though it didn't seem to accomplish anything
-dental floss
-my lint brush
-getting my hair cut and actually smiling after, that's how good it felt
-down to 16 pounds lost now which feels amazing
-the amazing letter for emotional support animal my therapist wrote
-my therapist
-confirming a job for next week
-submitting for jobs today
-getting my check for my job from a few weeks ago
-my wellbutrin being upped
-taking my last dose of setraline tommorow
-looking into ways now to help with bloating and puffiness,swelling
-face massage
-my red light therapy and microcurrent wand
-my new hyaluronic and rose face lotion/serum
-my legs and arms being thinner
-my face getting thinner
-compliments
-being treated nicer and noticed a little more lately
-sunshine
-nightskies
-peaceful outside sounds
-drinking water
-laughing and having a sense of humor
-moisturizers
-getting good uber deals on the rides i took today
-letting my cats on the porch for a short bit today and how well they listen to me with staying close
-entertainment
-finding a back support sleep headboard pillow cushion type thing online and ordering it to help with my sleep/pain issues
-checking out the drop in mental health peep support crisis center my therapist recommended after a panic attack
-colors
-hearing about an interesting opportunity of free college to become a peer support counselor which is something that is right my alley
-stopping the doordash ordering madness i was doing
-being persistent about refunds i should have gotten
-being in contact with paralegal for landlord issues and getting information about my situation
-going for walks and being back up to 3 miles again
-doing more things in a day because my energy levels are higher than 3 months ago, and 6 months etc.
-my eyes getting life to them again a little
-enjoying playing with my looks a little and femininity
-sleep
-my new burberry shades
-makeup
-fashion
-peaceful audios to listen to
-newness
-noticing that i need to tell a new story from a law of attraction point of view w/ those not supporting me and that i've repeatedly been telling the story of not being supported and focusing on it but i need to come out of that so i can create a new, and more positive reality
-realizing i dont even know how to have a relationship that isnt abusive
-face wash
-prayer
-cleaning the floor
-that there isn't a cat food shortage anymore
-cuteness
-innovation
-new ideas
-being smart
-having sophistication
-having a caring heart
-having beautiful eyes
-having beautiful cheekbones
-having a great face
-the neighbor i made out with complimenting my lips and seeming to like them
-kindness from others
-trying to be rational and reasonable
-applying for the credit builder secured card my bank offers
-believing in things being closer to my line of sight that i didnt before
-babywipes
-how great it feels for my clothes to be getting a little looser and to be feeling able to go out without a hoodie around my waist now
-pleasurable pain sensations
-inspiration and reassurance
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-good skincare products
-the couch and bed frame being out of my house and how good that feels
-losing 17 lbs so far
-realizing tat gaining 2 lbs right when i get my period is normal
-meeting a guy(my neighbor) who is funny and makes me laugh and is interesting and kind of edgy and someone that excites me from the stress and hum drum of of life. I feell more excited to play with my looks and get it together and it's been nice to have some kisses
-techno music
-working yesterday and how great that felt
-meeting a girl who had a similar experience with a creepy coworker that we bonded over and ended up having the same train route home
-M giving me money to uber to work
-confirming jobs for next month
-botox
-my accomplishments with my first career and beautiful pictures to show for it
-updating my wardrobe and beauty things i do
-being more productive
-having more energy
-my wellbutrin
-getting my four leaf clover bracelet in the mail and AGAIN the next morning manifesting a surprise random money that was very nice. it was my mom giving me a cash app for the movers for the couch and bed frame i asked for that she wouldnt give me or at least the amount that covered it and she never really gives me money and we aren't speaking again except for her being mean so this was really random waking up to see it
-having gorgeous big eyes
-my clothes starting to fit better
-my legs and arms being slimmer
-colors
-the breeze from my window at night
-filling out the court case rental assistance
-having legal assistance with this landlord stuff
-hud calling me the other day
-feeling like me and this new friend I'm hanging out with J are developing a bit of a connection
-how firm and rough J is with me with physical touch from holding to grabbing, etc
-donating plasma today
-cleaning
-decluttering
-trying out my spacepaste i bought and how amazing it looked on me
-doing squats
-walking
-dancing
-fashion
-inspiration
-good beauty products
-being kind
-prayer
-my new hoodie and how long and full the sleeves are
-enjoying the summer nights a little, the vividness, and feeling almost alive again
-starting to feel almost like i'm living again
-my cuteness and innocence
-blankets
-how cute my cats are and how loving
-art
-beauty
-drinking water
-biotene spray to help with medication side effect
-being off ssri's
-being determined to the rest of my weight off fast
-drinking a protein shake today
-sunshine
-having a shade on my front window
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-red light microcurrent wand therapy
-drinking water
-sleep
-quiet
-calm
-drinking water
-cozy cushioned socks
-my memory foam headboard pillow
-telling the guy i liked how i feel in a way that felt non baiting, and non-controlling after processing how i felt about things for a day or two
-music
-art
-movies
-walking
-stretching and yoga
-my new paint splatter hoodie with the awesome huge sleeves
-getting refunds
-magnesium helping my heart to feel better
-changing to less constrictive bra to make heart feel better
-night skies
-animals like bunny rabbits and cats in nature
-hyaluronic acid
-seeing a juvederm day deal coming up next month
-confirming a lot of jobs for agency i like and even double booking and having jobs for end of next month too
-losing weight and seeing stomach look flatter
-kindness from others such as someone has been bringing my mail to my door lately
-my arms and legs looking slimmer
-pulling it together
-how much thinner my face is than this time last year
-seeing light at the the end of the tunnel of my credit being able to get good again in a time frame that isn't super far off and is do-able
-new selfies of myself that werent too bad and getting compliments on them and how good my hair color looked with the latest touch up
-physical exercise
-massage
-therapy
-being productive
-the sound of crickets in the summer
-fun
-laughing
-play
-being resourceful
-getting approved for a new debit card by a bank i wanted
-my femininity
-having baby face features
-changing my perspective on things
-opening my mind
-being smart
-having beautiful eye color and shape
-new opportunities
-being stronger in some ways now
-prayer
-new bedsheet set i ordered
-my starbucks drink putting me in a better mood on bad days
-biotene spray helping my dry mouth issue i started having recently
-my new yoga mat and how thick it is and how nice that is
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-newness
-neighbor guy starting to talk to me again and apologizing saying he's been going through things and shutting people out
-deciding i need to just up my anxiety meds dosing as needed to get through everything that's going on and that i won't try and restrict that anymore or be resistant to it
-confirming a lot of jobs and being earning my pre-♥♥♥♥♥ income again
-feeling more attractive again lately
-drinking water
-free snacks and drinks at work
-getting a free manicure at work last weekend which was fun and nice
-meeting more new people lately
-feeling like i'm getting more attention from the opposite sex again
-doing some yin yoga tonight
-liquid magnesium supplement
-the extreme dry mouth i had going away
-being offered to extend my shift i have this weekend
-digestive enzymes i've been trying
-seeing clothes get looser on me, and that some clothes are just too bummy and frumpy for me to keep wearing now
-movies
-laughing
-how cute my cats are
-how soft my two house cat's fur is
-serendipity
-trying new things
-processing feelings on neighbor guy and realizing some positive things and just things i need to know about myself
-showering more often again and being more on top of my skincare again, hygiene again
-trying to help a small cat i seen yesterday
-kindness from others
-vibing with some people from work last week
-one of my boss's last week calling me beautiful
-being complimented more lately
-being told i look like a model
-juvederm day that is coming up that started
-my heart starting to feel stronger again
-hyaluronic acid and the hyaluronic acid and rose serum i've been using
-botox
-fashion
-adding copper toner on my hair and it working out like i wanted to bring my hair to a new copper blonde shade
-face charting what injections i want to get next
-reflecting on my new style and beauty changes i'm making and wanting to make
-hot guys
-art
-sunshine
-techno music
-night skies
-the sounds of summertime like crickets
-finally getting around to getting a picture from art basel retouched
-trying new things
-feeling my feelings and processing things
-the palmer's coconut body lotion i bought and how soothing and moisturizing it is
-my dad apologizing for going nuts on me
-people who help animals
-updating my work wardrobe and wardrobe in general little by little
-that my check has been sent to me
-hair ties
-my eyes looking healthier and my looks improving
-reflecting on situations that were unfair to me and what i can do, and how i can do better to advocate for myself
-managing to get to work and home all week transportation money-wise which was definitely a challenge
-uber gifts cards
-my older friend J giving me money last week to get my account back to being no longer negative and help me get work
-lysol
-things that are kind of unique and different
-clorox wipes
-activating my new debit card
-the info i've learned and reflected on with my landlord situation
-afterpay
-catching up on sleep
-physical touch
-birthday kisses
-face massage
-starting my birthday intentions(way late) with the wish kit i got
-my starbucks drink i like
-being around my peers and how good that is for me
-my agent fighting for me and being nice to me about unfortunate work situation that happened to me
-fascia blasting my stomach
-my burberry sunglasses
-trying out my new black shorts i bought in spring and how flattering they were on me
-my femininity
-being smart
-having beautiful eyes
-having nice lips
-lip flips
-M being there for me this last week while i worked
-inspiration
-learning new things
-coming back into my power again
-getting a $20 giftcard at one of the vendors at my job last weekend
-my waist slimming out
-being around and doing cool things
-massage
-staying strong
-trying to be more on top of cleaning
-having a compassionate heart
-my boys being good about being on the porch with me and staying close and behaving
-when p cat sits next to me. it's so cute
-my back cushion headboard pillow thing
-my new shower curtain changing the vibe of my place a little more positive
-legal assistance from lcbh
-prayer
-vegan fast foods
-having great style
-being an activist at heart
-great prices
-getting refunds i needed
-doing my positive affirmations yesterday
-having stories to tell
-beautiful pictures of myself
-my status
-having nice hands and fingers
-seeing my manicure posted on ig by the business who did it
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-listening to heart chakra music
-doing all the jobs i have this month
-my last job going pretty well
-confirming more jobs going into next month as well
-treating myself to a glass of wine break at my last job and how delicious that wine was and how nice it was to do something for me and do something like i used to do before my life got what feels like stolen from me
-drinking water
-going to whole foods again, and one of the better locations and how nice that was. The selections of food options.
-making the decisions to go back on topamax after noticing i've been snacking a lot and seeing my snacking has cut back and i'm feeling full quicker again and clothes are getting looser again and deducing the topamax works with my bupropion for me and being off an ssri is needed. It's all synergistic and i need to pay attention to how i react to these meds.
-new scrunchies i ordered for variety
-a nice journaling session the other day and filling out the journal to where it's out of pages now
-fashion
-learning about why things happen so i can troubleshoot such as my eyebrows issue i've been having with first deciding i needed a darker eyebrow makeup color then learning eyebrows lighten with age and i might need to get a procedure done soon such as microblading which i've been considering for awhile anyways
-getting flirted with more often and offered things again
-my angel friend J being there for me this year
-cleaning wipes
-baby wipes
-how smart, cute and beautiful my cats are
-ordering my buy one get one free juvederm card in time for the sale they were having
-budgeting and seeing what i was spending way too much on and to cut out
-how moisturizing the palmer's body lotion i use now is and that it does seem to repel bugs
-cleaning last night
-techno music to motivate me to be productive
-follow my higher self to take a break and not go to the job i had on saturday and sunday and finding out what a wreck it was and seeing i made the right decision
-blankets
-night skies
-friendly people
-peaceful sounds
-discovering new things
-botox
-deciding to get the botox brow lift to fix my eye area this week
-my abs being sore from working my abs the other day
-going to the laundromat
-getting my eyebrows threaded
-newness
-moving forward
-clean teeth
-the way summer sounds
-realizing i was swayed into thinking my anxiety meds are bad and i shouldn't be on them which made me want to prove i could be off of them which is why i tried to be off of them and i detoxed but ultimately with my ptsd, and severe panic attacks i am someone who should be on them and at a adequate dose. On them, i am physically comfortable, facial tics i sometimes get from anxiety go away. I can do things i normally have an extremely hard time doing with ease and i feel collected and coherent. These meds changed my life a few years ago, and i was brainwashed suddenly one day that i shouldnt be on them. I can't take care of my cats, and myself as well without them. At least not right now with everything going on. I troubleshoot better with them. It's the right thing to do to be on them. I'm a better me. I am glad i proved to myself i could be off them and examined the idea.
-sleep
-showering more often again
-hyaluronic acid serums
-perspective on things
-reflecting on things
-my acupressure slippers
-getting cat treats for my cats
-getting better at cutting out people who aren't doing anything for me
-my red light therapy wand
-face massage
-having beautiful eyes
-having a baby face
-social worker from lcbh reaching out to me
-updating my resume
-sunshine
-being resourceful
-my looks improving a little
-my eyes looking healthier
-having made a new female friend at work recently
-meeting new people
-looking a good amount younger than i am
-selling my perfume set on poshmark
-my lint roller
-my sense of humor
-lysol spray
-entertainment
-learning
-positive affirmations
-prayer
-colors
-good luck omens
-healing problems i've had
-growing as a person
-scalp massage
-my talents
-getting offers for first career opportunities
-fun ideas opportunities given to me
-trying to better myself
-fun
-things to be grateful for
-that this year has been better than last year
-canned mountain dew
-art
-great design
-creativity
-beauty
-my beauty
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-strong synchronicity that neighbor J is going to contact me and see me again
-pillows and my headboard pillow
-processing my feelings of why neighbor J was being the way he is and my attachment to him
-getting my botox brow lift
-sleep
-ativan
-going back on topamax and losing 2 lbs of weight from the extra snacking so far
-vitamin water
-the delicious protein bars i worked for that i had extra of and brought home the other day and had one of tonight
-entertainment
-making a new instagram post
-my new charms i got, the ring pop and another four leaf clover
-my beauty products
-compliments
-getting offered more things by guys
-the coppery tones in my hair looking really good
-blankets
-colors
-the church stairs where i like to sit down and reflect and meditate
-drinking water
-moisturizers
-hair ties
-sunshine
-love in my heart
-making decisions on things
-physical exercise
-toning exercises
-neck stretches
-budgeting my money to see where it went
-having a new checking account
-getting approved for secured credit cards and starting to feel like that might be the move
-feeling more ambitious and wanting to dress more feminine again and with more effort
-my cactus flower moisturizer
-cleaning the floor yesterday by where i have some clothes
-going to therapy today
-finding out the court date from paralegal
-having nice eyes
-applying to jobs
-lysol
-wine
-my friend sending me a microwave he ordered me off amazon since mine broke from the cats knocking it off the table
-having a nice chest
-music
-compassion
-working on raising my vibration
-working on getting my life back
-being more coherent
-being creative
-others finding me attractive
-making new friends
-being strong and doing what i want
-fashion
-having great taste
-socks
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-going to the hospital to find out what's wrong with me and get a doctor's note
-drinking water
-my fever breaking
-my power not shutting off and when logging off to pay it finding out that there was no longer a shut off notice, that a payment agreement had been made over a week or ago according to the electronic statement and i only owed a much lower amount and being able to pay that and how good it felt to be able to pay my utility bill, and a regular amount not just a teeny tiny amount for the first time in a while. a step towards normal, and getting back to my old life and building back.
-getting hummus at a store near the hospital since there is none in a 2 mile radius near my home for some reason
-my new hair color
-having baby face features
-moisturizers
-blankets
-my friend J randomly sending me money while i was sick for meds and using it to pay for my storage uniit
-my new black lace camisoles
-stretching
-my eyes looking no longer dead, really like they did this time last year or early this year even
-surrender
-clean clothes
-the lady at the laundromat giving me free detergent the other day saying i can owe her when i was going to just pay for the overpriced from her
-ativan for calming me down
-letting myself process my feelings of "neighbor boy" and that it makes me sad he ceased contact for me even if it doesnt make sense for me to be that sad, even if it's illogical. letting myself just feel it.
-my new unicorns in space journal for the new mood/vibe i wanted to go for
-socks
-cleaning wipes
-my new glow in the dark cash app debit card i designed in the app. it also no longer has cash out fees because i can just use it as the debit card.
-having my capital one debit card now too
-being approved for my capital one secured credit card, just need to put the deposit on it.
-listening to chakra music today
-sleep
-realizing more about my likes, from neighbor boy
-having at least a smidge of fun this year
-meeting new people this year and social connections
-walking a lot the other week and exploring some of the college campuses
-taking the bus to the post office with the hours i needed and being right by by nami deciding to walk over and finally accomplishing that goal by therapist wanted me to of knowing how to get there by bus, and deciding to walk home which was nice
-getting new inspiration from others
-great prices
-starbucks apple crisp macchiato
-fashion
-art
-friendly people
-helpful people
-compassion
-beauty
-having great cleavage
-making progress and change this year
-earning pre-♥♥♥♥♥ income in august
-starting to have source of income again to show for
-beauty products
-trying new things
-remembering fun
-trying to have a tad of joy here and there again
-M being a little more open,leniant with how much money she's been giving me lately
-my friend J sending me a new microwave right away after finding out my cats broke the one i had, and somehow a very similar one i had, similar color! I don't recall even showing him the color i had before but maybe i did.
-botox
-how cute and funny my cats are
-love
-goals
-expanding myself as a person
-finally ordering a soup pan after M decided to give me money to order one
-having a great sense of style
-powerades
-peaceful sounds
-ibuprofen
-being stronger than months ago, getting stronger
-being assertive
-ordering a new toy for my cats that looks so outrageous and fun that i think they'll like, a 4 way tunnel
-sunshine
-having a great sense of style
-going by the lake the other week while at work and how peaceful that was
-new adventures
-movies to watch that feel good or are interesting
-prayer
-affirmations
-sweeping the floor some yesterday
-febreeze room spray
-feeling close to being able to start looking for an apartment again
-riding my bike to visit my feral cats recently
-manifesting a text from M's husband after complaining in text to him why can't i get updates about the cats and then him giving me an update
-face massage
-allergan selling gift cards again so i can easily envelope my funds for services now by buying gift cards and stacking them up saving up
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-my work i used to do that i want to want to return to that gave me so many opportunities, clout, and ability to make an impression
-trying to be a good person and do the right thing
-new things and experimenting with new themes, moods and vibes, even colors
-trying out fall drinks and foods from starbucks and the like such as tonight the pumpkin spice iced latte
-finally getting a new pot so i can start making soups again and go on a soup
-becoming more assertive again now that i've gotten a little stronger again
-giving in and buying myself a marc jacobs bag
-having great fashion sense
-the job that let me go unfairly(the client) paying me for all the days even the ones i didn't work and my uber i sent receipt for which was a pleasant suprise
-new experiences
-getting neck botox
-compliments
-getting the black work sneakers i wanted to order
-soups
-my primary putting me back on b-12 prescriptions
-appreciating my cats
-being smart
-being creative
-being myself
-being open to new things-being smart
-being creative
-being myself
-being open to new things
-peaceful sounds like summertime sounds, middle of the night train sounds etc
-reassurances
-losing weight again
-hummus
-good bread
-getting perspective on things with my appearance
-cuteness
-reflection
-meeting a cat last night and hanging out with the cat and feeding the cat, petting the cat, etc
-cleaning wipes
-movies
-sleep
-having goals
-having nice eyes
-positive affirmations
-prayer
-walking more
-drinking water
-sunshine
-makeup
-social support
-music
-hyaluronic acid
-new ways of thinking of things
-evolving as a person
-scrunchies
-handwash
-moisturizers
-ibuprofen
-setting intention
-b cat wanting to cuddle with me and coming to sit on me sometimes
-my paralegal from lcbh
-blankets
-the power of love
-my sephora account finally getting fixed
-therapy sessions
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-things starting to flow a little more since deciding to listen to spirituality podcasts like wayne dyer on a almost daily basis. feeling people a little more drawn to me, and connected to me to i think.
-jobs opening back up
-my weight getting back down to it's lowest in the last 2 years, and that it was in late july again, finally
-being back on my b-12 shots
-making sure to go in and get my b-12 shot today believing it would help me
-not really eating cheese that i can remember for almost a week now
-the cat tunnel i got for my cats and b cat going in it more now too
-sending a cat bed and treats to l cat
-getting a cat bed for my cats
-getting a call from the agency that had the client want me off the job in early august want to book me for a job. I didn't get back to them in time, but it was good to see i really wasn't blacklisted.
-trying to drink more water
-eating soups with my new soup pot
-how much better it feels my place being clean and mopped and learning cleaning ideas from housecleaner coming here
-p cat calming down after whining a lot the day after housecleaner was here and stuff was moved around and taking him outside and walking with him like a baby to calm him down
-confirming 2 jobs the other day with an agency
-doing a training with another agency and then confirming 8 jobs with them
-getting a lip flip
-lip scrubs
-inspiration behind what can be done with antiaging with fillers, supplements, exercise, botox, and so on
-my new hair color
-posting a new current selfie of myself
-being over j neighbor guy, having processed my feelings on that
-vegan food
-going for a walk last night to ground myself
-doing a resistance training session at home and getting really sore from it
-sunshine
-babywipes
-techno music
-makeup
-my new eyebrow makeup i use that makes my eyebrows look thicker, darker, and longer
-lip sleeping masks
-fashion
-staying back on topamax to get my weight where i want it
-prayer
-scrunchies
-ativan
-finding papers i was looking for last night
-letting myself cry out my feelings of anger and hurt on my walk last night
-my new unicorn journal
-getting an email about work i've done and using that as an opportunity to follow up on my bonus i never got, and getting it today
-seeing my cats curled up together and deciding to lay next to them and waking up feeling very cozy
-therapy sessions
-trying to be productive despite how tired i've been feeling and unorganized
-making a plan to see l cat
-beauty
-peaceful sounds
-being in such a better place than i was 6-8 months ago
-having gorgeous eyes
-healing my metabolism
-my chanel foundation
-the positive changes i've made in my life this year
-tear trough filler
-having source of income now
-perspective about my flaws
-acupressure slippers
-deciding i need to get myself an inexpensive fall jacket and doing so the other day
-face massage
-the work i've put in to improve my circumstances
-trying to stay consistent and determined to change my circumstances
-having someone to help me with apartment relocating
-trying to be strong
-trying to be smart
-trying to be open
-trying to be positive
-newness
-friendliness
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-staying determined to do my walk despite my scare tonight
-loving my cats despite them driving me crazy and interrupting my sleep
-doing laundry
-my new hair color
-my weight being a little less and being less then it was this time last year
-hair ties and and doing high ponytails lately
-a new pic to post on social media
-skinny pop popcorn
-fashion
-listening to positive and spiritual audios to give my mind good brain food
-confirming more jobs today
-feeling like the world is becoming a little friendlier
-doing what i need to do, to take care of my cats
-b-12 shots
-writing more in my new unicorn journal
-entertainment
-hyaluronic acid
-having lovely eyes
-feeling more attractive than i did last year
-that i think a cashier at the walgreens might have a crush on me
-my new marc jacobs bag
-manifesting 2 marc jacobs, getting a 2nd one the very next day
-getting refunds on the things i need refunds on
-having elegance
-my past accomplishments
-my first career things i've done
-nightskies
-my new brown duster sweater
-my creativity and resourcefulness
-ativans to take to calm me down
-my sense of style
-meeting a pharmacist who was wearing a little four leaf clover who mentioned meeting a lady at the nearby school who knew of a place with a field of 4 leaf clovers and that she makes the thing she was wearing and she'd remember to get one for me for next time she seen me after telling her my story of how i always have good luck after seeing four leaf clovers. I already considered it good luck however just seeing hers.
-leveling up
-moisturizing
-washing my blanket to have since the weather is becoming cooler
-ordering a pet safe humidity adding plant just now since the last one i tried to order became unavailable and it happens to be called money tree which sounds like good luck
-organizing one of the piles and clearing a path that was blocking things for my cats and stressing me out a little too
-realizing and accepting i found out neighbor boy's secret and it's as simple as that
-clean clothes
-ordering a budget retinol from reputable trendy label
-trying to be productive
-inspiration
-being talented
-my neck being smaller
-meeting some of my goals
-topamax seeming to work for me in conjunction with wellbutrin
-trying to be a good person
-being healthier than i was this time last year
-having sophistication
-botox
-colors
-light
-my face getting more thinner
-learning things
-having a kind heart
-makeup
-updating things such as resume, social media's etc
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Re: GRATITUDE LIST
-having had cool and interesting life experiences
-taking care of my skin
-deodorant
-appreciating p cat
-my grounding walks i go on
-my new journal
-journaling
-how hot i find neighbor boy
-my new marc jacobs bag
-calculating my august earnings
-reflecting on things
-having a better perspective on things such as earnings for september
-having a job this week
-drinking water
-taking zinc and vitamin d
-trying to do more toning, strength exercises
-entertainment
-ativan
-moisturizer
-my hair ties and pulling my hair up in a high pony tail
-making an effort to do things despite how low and drained i felt today
-M saying M's husband would drop off stamps and ibuprofens today
-calling back the apartment locator lady today
-my abs feeling sore from toning work the other day
-my hair color
-botox
-having goals
-evolving as a person
-listening to spiritual/positive audios
-my neck looking smaller
-chivalry
-my arms looking smaller
-updating my linkedin
-trying out putting my cat's food on a plate vs bowl to see if they like that better
-getting a partial refund for the housecleaning job recently
-a check coming last night
-sunshine
-nightskies
-my elegance
-my creativity
-my intelligence
-getting my body stronger
-prayer
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