Asking for it is more like it. When the world seems chaotic and we seem to suffer upheaval , it can because we are ready to move on. It seems that you describe the Tower. The tower is the "we all fall down" card. But after the loss, life goes on and the secret is up to you. It will all get so much better or we can whinge and suffer the loss some more. It is always up to the magician to count their sufferings or to count their blessings. You are a good person. I believe that this destruction around you is to wake you up and move you to a different place and different lessons and I think you asked for it. Congratulations, the universe listened. Opportunity for great change is now in your hands. What will you do next ?