CRW's Lucid Dream Journal 2007-2008 and 2011

[CRW3]

January 28th 2008
I had another LD last night

It started off as a ND and for some reason I had a cat and a dog, and we were walking through a forest. The cat was looking for something and the dog was protecting the cat. Later when I got home, there was a random dog in my backyard and my normal dog freaked out and threw it into the street. I went looking for it but couldn't find it, so I went inside to ask my mom where she think it landed, but her answer was drowned out by a really loud noise. Then I snapped into consciousness and realized that none of this made sense, and it would only happen in a dream.

Then my LD started. I went out into the road and started flying, but for some reason I couldn't control my rotation. I noticed that the houses seemed so detailed and life like. I decided to go into one, so I flew up to a second story window and went right through the glass as if it wasn't there. I ended up in a random room and there was a dad and his son. I didn't know what to do so I tried knocking them out with my mind and it worked. So I wandered through the house noticing how it all seemed so life like, and also that my mind had created the whole layout of the house and whatnot. I ended up in a living room where there was a mom, a daughter and another son. They didn't seem to notice me at all. I tried knocking them out with my mind, and it worked again. Then for a second I thought I recognized the mom, so I went to get a closer look but then in an instant I faded out and woke up.

[CRW3]

February 11th, 2008

This morning I had 2 LD's (one really short and another pretty short) and then I almost had another one but it didn't happen.

So first I had a false awakening and my house looked a lot different so I realized that I was dreaming. I immediately starting fading out but I started rubbing my hands. I felt myself lying in my bed, so I lightly tried opening my eyes. I could have sworn I was awake but I wasn't sure. I walked out of my room rubbing my hands and stuff, but then I realized that I'm probably not dreaming, so I went to my bathroom and the light wouldn't turn on and there was no mirror, so I knew I was dreaming. I did some stuff after that but I can't remember, but it didn't last long at all.

Then I woke up but kept my eyes closed. Eventually I fell back asleep. I was dreaming that I was watching a documentary on a cowboy and how he had a hard time trying to catch a certain bandit. Then I realized this made no sense because there aren't cowboys anymore. I realized I was dreaming so I tried changing the outcome of things in the movie by knowing it would happen, and it worked. Then I tried being the cowboy and It worked, but I sort of felt like I could easily wake up any second. I tried taking out a revolver, it was really heavy but I managed to aim it at the bandit guy and I shot and it killed him.

I started fading out, and I stared rubbing my hands. I felt once again like I was in my bed but I was in SP (but still dreaming). I opened my dream eyes a tiny bit and that same shadow creature from my other dreams crawled over my body and it felt insanely weird. It sort of went away, and somehow I managed to look at the doorway of my room. There was a lady standing there facing away from me. She started turning around and I expected her face to be really mangled or something but surprisingly she looked normal. She started saying something, probably something meaningful, but I couldn't make out what she was saying.

Then I woke up, and once again kept my eyes closed. After a while I started having a dream about some program called "CRAZY" or something, where I got free guns for no reason... it didn't make any sense but I woke up before I could become lucid.

[CRW3]

March 8th 2008

Yeah this morning I had a cool WILD, for most of it I was basically blind.

I was lying in bed and out of no where I felt my body start going into SP/WILD. I tried to visualize things hoping to induce a LD. I couldn't get anything to come up so, still seeing nothing, I tried reaching out to my wall. I could feel it in detail and when I pushed hard my hand went through it. I knew I was dreaming so I tried lightly opening my eyes. It took a lot of effort to open my dream eyes even slightly and I could barely see anything, so I just closed them. I tried going through my wall and it felt really cool, like I had vibrations all over my body. I kept trying to visualize things and eventually I visualized my room. As soon I started looking around, I faded out and woke up. I didn't open my eyes and eventually I started to go into WILD again. To make sure I was dreaming, I reached out to the wall and my hand went through it. This time I tried visualizing a street and I almost did, but as soon I it started to come in, I faded out again .

Anyways it was pretty cool. I think I would have been able to go into a full LD if I was more tired, because it was like 11:00-11:30 am and thats when I usually get up.

[CRW3]

May 2nd 2008, crazy LD

Yeah so I haven't had an LD in ages, but tonight I had a crazy dream that started off as a ND and turned into a LD.

At the start I was in a mall, and I was causing havoc. I can't remember what exactly I was doing but people wanted me in jail. At one point I felt myself fading out, and at that point I realized I was dreaming, but it wasn't like a huge "holy ***, I'm dreaming" thing, but I just kept looking around to stay in the dream. I sort of didn't fully consider the fact that I was dreaming, but I still knew it, I just didn't really think hard about it.

At this point I was lucid, I could control basically everything, but as I said I wasn't fully aware of the fact that I was dreaming. It really felt natural, almost like the LD's I had when I was 5-10, before I knew the full potential of LD's, back then I had LD's easily because I wouldn't get really excited when I realized I was dreaming.

In the dream, I realized I could control everything around me. I could turn off the power by saying "Power On" and "Power Off". It was crazy. I could also say stuff like "Door Open", "Door Close", "Door Lock" and "Door Unlock" and even if I was 10 feet away from the door, it would still be affected. I was with a guy I know from school, we were just going around the mall turning things on and off. Then we got an idea. We realized that we could steal just about anything, so we wondered to a part of the mall that was closed. We planned to open the door of a store, and turn off the power so the alarm wouldn't sound, and then steal anything we wanted.

We walked up the stairs to the other part of the mall, and I actually started fading out again. It popped into my mind for a second that I was dreaming and I needed to stay, so I just kept focusing on things around me, but not too much that I would fully consider that I was dreaming and wake up. I didn't think much of it, but I knew I was dreaming. I think I sub consciously knew that if I got too excited or thought too much about the fact that I was dreaming, I would wake up.

So we were wondering around the top floor of the mall, and I decided to turn the power on, so that the lights would turn on. Somehow, someone saw this and then got a group of mall workers to chase us. We ran into a store and then for some reason there was like a bedroom inside it. I used "Door Close" and "Door Lock" on the door. There was a mini bathroom in this bedroom so we went in it and I used "Door Close" and "Door Lock" on it too (looking back, I don't know why I didn't just manually lock it, but this seemed to work better).

Eventually they somehow broke into the bedroom, but since we were hiding in the bathroom, they thought we must have left. I must have made a sound or something, because one of the mall guys said "They're in the bathroom". Then I got a really good idea on how to get rid of the mall guys. I busted open the door, and there was about 5 guys in the room. I went up to one of them and put my finger to them and said "Power Off" and the guy collapsed. Then I did this to the rest of them and me and my friend were free of people chasing us (for some reason this felt really relieving and satisfying that I thought such a seemingly perfect idea). I wanted to try and see if I could resurrect people so I touched one of the guys and said "Power on" and he came back to life, and ran away. I thought it was really cool and I wanted to try and kill someone normally and see if I could resurrect them. I took a spoon, and did "Power On" to one of the other guys and when he got up I started to beat him to death with a spoon (I swear I'm not insane) then I tried power on, and he came back to life perfectly healthy.

I think it was at this point that I started fading out again and I fully considered that I was dreaming, and thought too hard about it and it made me wake up.

It felt really good to have an LD again, and I hope I have more soon.

[CRW3]

June 14th 2008 WILD

So yeah I was just sleeping in. I was imagining what it feels like to let yourself fall of a cliff (like the feeling in your stomach when you're falling from a high place) and all of a sudden I felt myself going into a LD. It first felt like my body was spinning and vibrating and then it felt like i was forcefully being pulled by something.

When it stopped I knew I was dreaming, but I was blind. I rolled out of bed and stood up, still blind. I tried opening my eyes but it didn't work and I was afraid I'd wake up. So I walked around blindly, but aware of my surroundings. Eventually my vision came in and I just focused my vision really hard on things around me and my vision became clear. I was in my house. I walked down the stairs, and I was actually wondering whether this was a dream or not, because it was literally identical to my house. In the kitchen, my mom was making chocolate muffins. I didn't bother to try them because I find everything in LD's have the same awful taste that stays in my mouth even when I wake up.

So I went outside and there was a broken bike in front of my door. It had no handle bars for some reason. I sat on it and reached for the handle bars and to my surprise I felt some. When I looked down at the bike, it was completely fixed. I was thinking about going down my road (which is extremely steep) on the bike, but then I decided I was going to do it on a skateboard. I ditched the bike and I started stomping at the ground, hoping a skateboard would magically pop up. While I was doing this, I noticed there was a red car watching me. I looked over and it was a police car. For some reason a guy I know from school was driving it and he said "hey watch me speed down this hill". It didn't make any sense because he just drove down the hill really slowly and pulled into a driveway.

I went inside to get my skateboard and it was right there at my door. I grabbed it and ran into the street and started skating down the hill. It felt really weird, almost like snowboarding. I don't really remember what I did after this.

Theres a huge gap in my memory of this dream for some reason.

All I remember after that was at one point I was in a snowy lawn with some people. I hadn't really noticed who they were. I can't really remember what I was doing, but eventually I looked over a fence in the lawn and there was a huge drop and below there was a massive park, but it was pretty much empty. I decided that I'd try to fly so I jumped up and started hovering. Before I flew over the edge, I grabbed my friend and threw him off and he was like "what the ***!" but he started flying as well. The scenery was pretty amazing but I ended up waking up shortly after I started flying.

[CRW3]

August 19th 2011

I can't remember much from the start of the dream, but I remember fading out a bunch of times and bringing myself back.

Later on there was a point where I was getting distracted by something and I started to space out and lose my lucidity without even realizing it was happening, but then an orange cat said something like "forget about that!" and that completely brought me back to lucidity. I was very interested by this cat because I've never had a DC bring me back to lucidity, so I tried picking it up but I remember it scurrying off or something.

There was another point where I was lucid in my room and it was really dark, as if it were night time. I remembered how I usually have more vivid and stable LDs if the world is light, so I tried flying up through my ceiling and I went through it and came out through the floor of the same room. It was still dark so i flew up through the ceiling about 3 more times and it was still dark, then I woke up. Either while I was waking up, or while I was falling back asleep from waking up, I pictured something that basically explained I should have flew through my ceiling about 8 times to have turned my dream world to daytime.

I also remember a bunch of times during the LD I would clap to stabilize myself rather than rub my hands together, since clapping would produce sound as well as physical sensation, and I was noticing at some points there was no sound in my LD. I also remember at one point I was at some sort of playground and no one was there, so I kept turning around and turning back with the expectation of someone being there, and eventually a person appeared in the distance.


I also remember this morning (August 20) I had another LD where I was flying through my ceiling a bunch of times and eventually I could see sun light coming through my window, but then I faded out.

[CRW3]

August 23rd 2011

It seems that since I've been going on this site more often, I'm starting to have more frequent LDs. I'm having a lot of trouble with dream recall, but I can remember a bit from some LDs I had this morning/last night.

At one point I was fighting people with a little knife, but I don't remember why. I was amazed at how accurate I could slash people. I could think of a precise spot where I wanted to slice them, and then when I swung I would hit them there perfectly.

There was another part where I went into WILD after waking up but keeping my eyes closed. Later on I was in some kind of hallway, and I started to realize it looked dark and haunted. Then I started to worry that some sort of scary DC would pop out and scare me and wake me up. Before turning around, I looked down to make sure there was a sword in my hands, and there was (there wasn't one there before I looked down though ). Then I turned around and a creepy DC ran past me. I'm not sure if it was some kind of monster or fast zombie, but I knew it was my enemy. I turned around again to face it. It came at me, but I easily sliced it to bits. I noticed when I was swinging my sword, it was leaving gray tracers behind it, which made it a bit hard to see. (By tracer I mean like in Zelda OOT when you swing and there's sort of a gray trail left behind like this). It didn't make it any harder to beat the monster though.

I can't remember much else after that, but if I do I'll edit this post. I'm glad I'm having more frequent LDs again and I have a feeling that I'll have a long vivid LD again soon.

[CRW3]

September 11th 2011

Astral Projection Attempts (not dreams I know but it was in my dream journal so I'll put it here for now)

Recently I've been trying to astral project rather than lucid dream. Some say they are the same thing, but others say the difference is clear once you've projected.

When I catch myself dreaming, I wake myself up but keep my body asleep. This allows for easy SP which I've heard is a good induction to astral projection. While in SP, I try to separate from my physical body. I've heard this can be achieved by attempting to or just imagining what it would feel like to roll out of bed or stand up, which leads to your astral body rolling out or getting up and separating. This is mostly what I've been trying, but no real success yet. I've also heard you can separate in SP by basically imagining what it would feel like to float out of your body or have wings. I've tried this as well, and there was one time where it looked like I was floating around my room, but my bed was empty and my bed sheets were the wrong colour so I knew it was just an LD (in AP you're supposed to be able to see yourself where you're lying down).

But one thing that has been happening while attempting astral projection that hasn't before, is hearing beeping which turns into voices.

The first time it happened, I was just in SP and the ringing/vibrations had just calmed down and I was hearing that white noise kind of sound I get once I'm in SP. I noticed there were also strange beeping noises, and I started to listen closer and it turned into a voice. I couldn't understand it at first, so I tried talking to it. I remember thinking my voice sounded really weird while I was "talking" to it. The first few responses I got was just the voice repeating what I was saying, but it started saying other things that I can't remember.

Another time a voice actually mentioned that it's name was Mark (which also happens to be my dad's name).

The voices could easily be just in my head, possibly a result of slipping into a LD, but I've never heard voices that originated from beeping noises while in SP before this.

Next time I hear it, I'm going to ask it to help me out of my body and see what happens.

I'm also thinking I'll start sleeping on my back. I have a harder time sleeping on my back but I've heard that it's easier to project while lying on your back, and I have a feeling it's easier to project when your body is in a simple position (no limbs crossing over each other, etc).

[Beekeeper]

You seem to be knowledgeable enough about OBE, CW3.

...there was one time where it looked like I was floating around my room, but my bed was empty and my bed sheets were the wrong colour so I knew it was just an LD (in AP you're supposed to be able to see yourself where you're lying down).

This isn't necessarily so. Essentially, if you felt an exit it's considered a projection. There are different theories on why people cannot always see themselves in the bed. Some suggest it's due to expectation and others suggest it might be the difference between being in the etheric body or a higher body. Reality fluctuations occur during projections as well. You're still in a mind responsive environment, even on the etheric level. Other things can be picked up too, such as past and future alterations to the environment. There is an argument, of course, that ALL the environments encountered in OBEs are dream environments.

[CRW3]

Thanks for the reply! I think I need to keep in mind that many things are ambiguous in OBE's and AP, such as you don't necessarily need to see yourself in your bed like you mentioned.

Do you think my June 14th entry could be an OBE/AP? Looking back, it seems it may have been.