IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Tim, believed or not, I do feel loved and blessed and seen by the whole existence, and now of humanity by being here into the site, and specific now by you, thank you bright loving soul

[Tutor]

ai, I believe You.

you are welcome, and thanks to you too.

Ocean Floor: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DFeHik5lBBw

odd thing about the mouth of a river carrying loads of what isn't water, as it is received in the gaping mouth of the ocean, all of it that ain't water ends up on the ocean floor. Deborah "Swallows Back" "Bee"; as in Honey for the hardcore who weren't sufficed of Milk alone.

Jesus said, (paraphrase), "it is not what goes into the mouth that defiles one, it is what comes out of the mouth".

mouth to mouth, ya see?

a good read: The Palm Tree of Deborah: http://www.digital-brilliance.com/co...ah/deborah.htm

it has been scary writing all this to you ai, even over in another thread. why? well, because my friend, to be touched just so, deeply, makes me feel in kind. I too have been through my own traumas, twice over (turned over); and in this sharing with any other that I again by choice touch it in the commonality, it is thrice born to feel; but I know now that it cant hurt me, and in feeling it a-gain, it might articulatively help others as our gain.

so i've prayed today on it, and i've wept today over it. that it for you, would as it has been for me, be twice over.

be bright, unafraid to be afraid...

Into The Day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bu4T92Gm55k

and in your weakness, shine...

A Little More: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Owwnndp6x3c

[IA56]

ai, I believe You.

you are welcome, and thanks to you too.

Ocean Floor: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DFeHik5lBBw

odd thing about the mouth of a river carrying loads of what isn't water, as it is received in the gaping mouth of the ocean, all of it that ain't water ends up on the ocean floor. Deborah "Swallows Back" "Bee"; as in Honey for the hardcore who weren't sufficed of Milk alone.

Jesus said, (paraphrase), "it is not what goes into the mouth that defiles one, it is what comes out of the mouth".

mouth to mouth, ya see?

a good read: The Palm Tree of Deborah: http://www.digital-brilliance.com/co...ah/deborah.htm

it has been scary writing all this to you ai, even over in another thread. why? well, because my friend, to be touched just so, deeply, makes me feel in kind. I too have been through my own traumas, twice over (turned over); and in this sharing with any other that I again by choice touch it in the commonality, it is thrice born to feel; but I know now that it cant hurt me, and in feeling it a-gain, it might articulatively help others as our gain.

so i've prayed today on it, and i've wept today over it. that it for you, would as it has been for me, be twice over.

be bright, unafraid to be afraid...

Into The Day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bu4T92Gm55k

and in your weakness, shine...

A Little More: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Owwnndp6x3c

Thank you Tim, all is well with me and my son, it has bean such a fantastic experience...I will not go into details, but one week ago my son was brought to me...One year ago I did make such a hell for social service company, and he got 2 personal helpers to relief me a bit...so I have had small opprotunity to breath little more free...and I did get the feeling that I have to let go...totally...and I did find what life nurturing love is....I started to send this to my son...and I did behave like there is no problems or issues but love and wonderful peace....He did hit rock bottom and last monday the helpers did call me, my son does not want them to take him to hospital, he want´s to come to me...he wanted to talk to me...he said...Mother I have seen GOD I know now what I have done and bean doing so many years (19 yrs)...can I come home...I did hesitate for a sec....and I said...off course you can come home...My son and I have always had this wordless communication, we need only to look into each others eyes and we know...so he was in this trememndeous psychosis caused by drugs, I felt like a steady/calm/loving/firm mirror to him...he looked at me and I could see how haunted he was, I did not say anything but letting him look into my eyes and he did find his way out of the haunting horror and knowing it was not thrue and no truth, he wanted to have my protection (this is the 3 yrs old who did not get my protection because I was not able to give it to him, now I could)...I did put my gold cross around his neck..he used my cardigans for extra protection, we did pray togeather and I did child him......all is well today one week I have not slept so much but who cares...all is well, but I am not able to say what we did be through, but all is well.
Thank you Tim and thank you ALL.

I write better when all has seattled more down, it is too much going on at same time here

Love
ia