Thank you CFT....Maybe I first do notice it outside of me and then understand the inner blockage how and why ...maybe.
I do have dream´s what are telling me also what is happening outside of me, because I am so childish trusting and all people are not kind or nice always....This too is a big thing for me to accept and understand, that there are people who are jelous and be-grudged and has done awful thing´s against me and even I have sort out many people who only exploited me specially when I had my own company.
But I do understand I think what you mean CFT...Thank you for your responce, it is very valuable for me.

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