In my dream last night I went into stable with a young man, there was a very ill horse, the young man did hadle the horse very gentle and with very slowly gestures, he did not talk, and I felt that I must be so quiet and not make one sound...I felt that the horses nervous system was broken and if the movements was to quick or hars the horse will fall to the ground. The young man had to hand feed the horse to keep it alive and it will hopfully heal.....

If this is me on one level then I understand how injured I did become from the big beating in 1981.