IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

I had a Dream that I was riding a redbrownish horse....it was Winter...we where on the ice and I did see that the ice was not thick enough to hold both of us...

I was shown a chicken leg??( I do not know what kind of symbol this is)

A women told me that doctor is refusing to give my son right medicin what would help him.....(this is real in real Life)

[IA56]

Night Before this I dreamt all night I had to visit bathrooms...I had a huge need all night to urinate....the last Place I Went into a building and I made noice not to scare people living in that building...I saw a siluet of a man coming to look who is coming...I said...it is only me like they do know me to calm him down....

Last night I dreamt visiting my sister and she told me she is taking care of a snake...it was huge...I had to visit the bathroom and I hear a noice coming from the drying cabin...I looked and the snake was in that cabin....I just run out of the bathroom and told my sister I have closed the door to the bathroom and the snake is there...she said must open the door...I said...yes when you have a Place to put the snake into...it can´t be free in the apartament...the snake was free in the apartament and soon I hear the cat Crying...the snake took the cat...I said to my sister...you have to catch the snake and put it into a terrarium...she did find a rather big box of glass...she like asked me...did it already be time for the snake to eat (refering to the cat)..this snake is only giving apples to eat and bananas....(never Heard in real Life snakes eat fruits)...so she was surprised it took the cat....my sister asked me if I can take the head when we move it into the glass box....no I said...father can take the head...I take the tail...you and others the body....here I awoke myself from the Dream...it was so stressful...

[IA56]

In last night Dream I saw a neck and it was written in gold...when I saw it I said....is it Egyptian hieroglypths....as answere it started to dissapeare like it was wiped away...so I said...okay it was not Egypthian.....

In this episode I knew I was working for Lisa Vanderpump...I was ordered to come to a cottage...I asked others who where there where Lisa was...they said she is still sleeping...so I Went upstairs and knocked on her bedroom door and she asked what I want.....I said I need working clotings...(she wanted us to dress in light blue tunik and long pants)...she said I can be in my personal clothings today....I had a room besides her bedroom so I started to organize my room...now I hear she is in the kitchen downstairs...I Went down...she had put fire in the stowe..I saw the flames come out from the stowe ...the lock was open still...I told her how nice open fire is...when I now looked aroundd the cottage...it was more old fasioned then I thought...she asked me if I think she is lazy when sleeping so late...no I said....I told her that this cottage is little bit smaller then my mothers birth home....and bigger than my fathers birth home....

[IA56]

I have hade many Dreams not Worth to record but last night I dreamt that a native American indian was Walking infront of me....he was shorter then me and had hair to his buttox...he turned around to see if I was going at his direction...in fact I was...not sure if we where going to same destination...but I was walking behind him??

[IA56]

I was happy about the Dream where I saw the open fire in the stove....as I see it as the inner fire what I have thought was gone....I have had now several Dreams where both men and women try to awake my sexual fire...as last night I was in Company of a very Beautiful women...she wanted me to feel her breasts...not bare but over her clothings...I told her that I am very flattered she want me to feel her...but I have no decire or want to do so....and I apologized for me being so totally not interested.....

I feel that my grief is so Deep that it has burried all fire in me so Deep....I need time to grief...really grief....

[IA56]

I have again dreamt about moving into a new appartament....this one was big but on the ground floore...It had a big balcony and it was inglassed...and it had locks on every window...I took the key out from the window and showed my mother who was with me to see the flat...she was happy to see the key, she felt more secure this way. I did look more closely and did see the window open but it still had a thin glas to protect and it did give me some thoughts that I do have protection even if I open my self totally....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was in a building where it was an escalator..I did see a black cow or bull in the escalaor going up..I made an halt and said to myself..I am not going to use that escalato but soon the cow/bull came Walking toward me I could not understand how he/she could be down staires again, what way did it take..I walked quickly into the escalator and it did stop so I had to use it as an ordinary steps, the cow/bull did walk towards me, I did panic and kicked towards it to go away...I did feel so much fear that I awoke myself from the Dream...

[IA56]

Last night dream I was with my sister and man..his qualitets was as a horse..he was in human man shape.. I helped my sister up on his shoulders...it was meant to be my turn when he first carry my sister to her destination...when I helped my sister down I thought to climb up on his shoulders to be carried...he took my hand and as I had already seen that he was rather tired..it was easy for me to accept when he said...you do not need to be carried....he did give me a strong feeling that we are equal partners...we stand for us selves.....no-one need to carry non of us...

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was talking to a women who had a green budgie...huge..I noticed that bird tried to take over the women, but she did avoide it and she let go of the bird, the bird fly to a lamp and did lift the lampshade off and looked into the lamp....I said to the women...I have had an blue budgie once but it was more than half of yours..yours is huge..she told me that her budgie is male and her ex have a female one like hers...
She let the bird be and started to look at some fotos..I noticed that one of my embroider was on the table..I took it and a thought come up..that I will put in a frame it and then I will give it back to whome I have made it for.

[IA56]

In last night dream I found a piece of me?? I do not know how to write about this...so I try to give a picture of it...I was on a railway station...I see a young man standing like a carbboard picture but alive....stiff and non moavble just standing ...I walked towards it and told him that I will take him with me...that he just have to trust me...I noticed that he was wearing a bright yellow jacket and that he have had it for a long time...I had to lift him up and I did put it under my armpit and carried it omboard the train to take it with me...I knew it was a piece of me what I have lost very early in life....