IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was visiting my ex husbands sister...she was happy to see me..and she had invited her aunts who also wanted to meet me...(in the dream they had a yarn shop...but not in reality) ..so they asked about my interests...I told that I am passioned knitter...one of the aunts said...we have yarn...yes I said...I had planned to help you in the shop..but I had to choose health....(reason for my divorse)

[IA56]

In last night dream I was looking at myself...I had lost my front teaths...it looked horrible..

In this episode I was living together with some people both male and female...like in campus....we where going to eat lunch...and one of the men said...he want me to pay before we go to eat...and he wanted more than I was thinking to pay for a soup...20 kr...I asked why he wanted so much money from me...does it contain the payment for the room in it....he did vift with a bunch of money infront of my eyes...and off they went...and puched me outdoors...I noticed that I did not have my purse and no keys...and I do not know where they went...I tried to find the lunch room...so I come to a marketplace and I asked a old women where to find the campus lunchroom...she did show me a paper angel and forced me to buy it...I told her that I do not have any money but I can come back later to pay for it...she did go with me to show where the campus lunchroom was...I did awoke myself before we come to the campus lunchroom...

[IA56]

In last night dream a man had taken my debitcard...and bought like an x-box to a child...the child was so happy...I was so in chock because I knew that the man do not have own money...and before I noticed that he had used my debitcard...before knowing but my intuition did cause heart palpatation and that I nearly go into chock...so I confronted the man and told him that he have no right to do this...that now when I have to take the device back to store and cansle the buy...how sad this child will be.....but to my surprice the child was understanding the situation and followed with me to the store...and he told me that he do not want gifts this way...when they are not sincerely given...

[IA56]

In last night dream I met for the first time the man who abused me and my son...I told him that he have destroyed my son for all times...I was adult when this happened and I was therefore able to deal with this and process it but a child of 3 yrs is so deep down to his core destroyed...because he did not have any experience of life what so ever....the strange what happened when I am in his dream I am awoken by my sons cry...I at once started to cleanse him and his room...and this morning when he awoke he told me that he had a horrible dream....in the dream there was a man who told him that if he do not shoot himself he will do that...and he tried to call me but did not get hold on me....and this was the content about the abuse ..he told my son when he was 3 yrs old that he do not own his mother and that mother can vanish easy like that.....so this fear lives still strong in my son that I can vanish and he do not find me....how much I show my son that I will never leave him and I will always be there for him...he fails to trust me....so the man did succeed to plant this in my son and much more garbage...and it seams impossible to heal this trauma in my son....but I felt good to be able to tell him that he did destroy my son but I will continue to be there for my son as long as I live.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was living in an appartament groundfloor...I had several ruggs on my balcony...my mother come to me and asked what I am going to do with the ruggs...I told her that I will wash them and put them into the storage.....I was surprised over the fine quality ruggs I had...and I had a car and a trailer so apparnty I was moving....again the man was in the dream helping me...he never talks but acts...he did put the trailer after my car...he acts without me telling him what to do...he like knows what I want him to help me with??

[IA56]

In last night dream I was in a building few floors up...I heard some commotion outside..I looked out of the window and saw group of men with shilds and with war paintings meeting another group with war paintings and shilds...like original inhabitants??

[IA56]

In last night dream I was with a mother and her child ...a little girl....she wanted to be dressed like a bunny...and I was watching the mother and the girl play....after some day I was talking to the mother about the happening ...and the girl started to cry...and said...I was not got to be anything...please I said...but have you forgotten that you where dressed like a bunny....I said to the mother...show her the picture of her being a bunny..did .you did take a picture of her??The mother never answered...the girl she cried and cried....I tried to concole her....

[IA56]

In last night dream I had to go to the bathroom...I hear someone playing a harmonica....I go downstairs and to my surprise it is my father playning the harmonica...and I say....are you playing a piano harmonica...is it yours....yes now it is...it took it from and here he says an my ex boyfriends name.....father sayid he was going to take it with him when he left but I took it....(in reality this boyfriend did lend money from me and bought an piano harmonica but he never payed me back for the money lone I gave him)

[IA56]

In last night dream someone tried to crush me with what I first thought was a block of stone but when I calmed down it was only a big pillow...but to my surprise I called for mother...and it stopped....then I tried really to wake up in the dream but did not succeed so I had no choice but stay in the dream....and it continued to torment me...I tried to leave my bed and in the dream I had my robe on me and the one who wanted to stop me hold on to my robe so I let it glide off me...but still I was in the dream...and in bed....now I put my hand on my hip...I was lying on my left side...and suddenly I felt something solid lyin on me...and I at once punched it and it dissolved in black mist and I fight the mist off and I was able to wake up....

[IA56]

In last night dreams I had 2 dreams with horses...the first dream was that 2 men did kidnap a horse (my mothers birthhome this horse was my mothers brothers who did overtake the ranch, in real life this horse did die of old age) when I was wathching them take the horse with force...and bind him with rops..and I was hiding in the cellar and looking out of the cellar door when they passed by with the hors...I was horrifyed and in total panik and forzen.

In this dream my sisters daughter and her horse and me where together...my sisters daughter told about her horse that he like to play with rocks....and she had one round rock in her hand bounsing it up and down ...I had a sharp rock what I wanted to hide from the horse that it will not harm himself with it...and the horse did with its snout touch gently and sniffing what I did hide under my palm....the horse was so gently...