IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Last night I did dream that a bat did flew into my hair....I asked several to help me to take out the bat from my hair...but no one helped me...but then I find one to hold up my hair so I could use my both hand´s to free the bat....then I could examine it and look very close at it...it was facinating.

[IA56]

Last night I did dream that some one asked me if he/she could enter my sphere and I said Yes, I was cuorious to see what happends...something very heavy did sink over me...I tried not to panic but I was very intimitated, suddenly I see and feel
something under my covering....the first what hit my mind was....neg´s...I do catch it and are now holding under the cover and
I shout to my sister....bring me water...I know my sister did go from the room but she never come back with the water,so I was
thinking what to do, my knowledge about these thing´s are limited, suddenly I see a litle foot and I am now sure it is not a neg but a child....I take it off the cover and I am now looking at a little cute girl...Hi I say....How did you come to my apartment and into my bed...??...She said...through the door, it was not locked...Oh I say...don´t you have any own place to go to?? No she said..I want to be here with you...I now see she has some mark´s on her face....like tribe´s has....she had pink dot´s and I was just about to ask how she get these when I woke up and I was in small chock.

This dream is about my sister trying to suffercate me she did like this to me often in my childhood...I am sure the work has begun to free me from this horror I still feel when I think about my sister and her treatment of me.
But now I was the one in charge here in this dream, even I thought it was neg´s first, and my knowledge was limited how to handle this so I think it turned to be about my fear from childhood what is first to be relesed in right way for me to get past this then I am sure rest of fear is more easy to handle for me, it think

[CFTraveler]

A word of caution:
Even though I do know that some magicians tell you to allow some(one/thing) else to use your inner self (such as in channeling) I do not think it's necessary- try to have built-in defenses against this- mainly the knowledge that if someone needs to give you information they don't have to possess you- there are other ways.
Please don't allow anything to ever possess you- even in dreams.

[IA56]

Thank you CFT for your caution note, so you think this was to possess me??
It did not felt like that for me...That something heavy did sink over me is this to be possessed??
I do not channel or let anyone use my body, ever
For me it was developing in right direction when be asked if he/she/it was allowed to enter my sphere, before they only did ente
without asking, now at least I was asked....I have said that I do not want to be walked over that they should ask me and also
say theire name, now I did forget to ask the name because I was so happy to be asked fore entering, I did feel very clearly
this was benefiting me so I allowed and I feel this was the first step to start working on my fear.

Love

[IA56]

Last night dream was what I would call a possessed dream....It was like this...
I was in a inviroment what was not naturally calm, it was fixed or made to look like a calm and like a secure zone...I could easy feel how all was playing secure and calm...now they did slowly coming closer to me...and like without making any fuss they like did movement´s like in slow-motion...and they look very friendly and nice in theire faces and started to put an machanical spider on my
hand...(as they have in scionfiction films what they put in an eye to make people tell the truth and give information)...They wanted me to believe all is good and nothing to worry....I had such a hard work to avoid the mechanical spider....so it ended that I awoke my self and I was totally schreaming....I was sleeing at my son´s house and he was so freakend out and said I did awoke him and feeling totall terror....So this was for me an possessing dream.

[CFTraveler]

Thank you CFT for your caution note, so you think this was to possess me??

I don't know, it could be a self aspect, however, I think it's a good 'mental habit' to not allow anyone to, just in case. It keeps your mental barriers up.

As to your possessing dream, it could have been a result of what I said, but it never hurts to be cautious, without being too suspicious.
Aunt Clair uses a phrase to describe what I'm talking about- "Open in Protection". Always receptive to good, never allowing intrusion. So it's the advice that I consider the best- a balanced approach.

ps. I always find it helpful to understand that I am always safe and protected, and no manner of appearance of nonphysical entities can hurt, because of this, and so far, so good.

[IA56]

Thank you again CFT for your reminder, it is never too many time´s said...and yes I believe this last night dream was to show the difference and I do believe it is my higher self showing me this....but as you say....to be causion and never allowing intrusion, and to keep a balanced approach...I am too trusing like a child who never have yet met any danger and therefore can not be or know to be causious....I appreachiate very much your kind reminder, thank you.

Love

[IA56]

Last night I was in a pool with many other´s, it was like a maskerad pool-party...I was very near a man who was dressed as a women,and I did bump into him and I appologised but he did not believe me that it was an misfortune...he looked at me and he said...you are not a women...oh yes I am I said...I asked him how tall is he....and he said...1.75 cm....when we got up from the pool he was shorter then me and I am 1.66 cm??

In this episode I was looking when 2 person´s was doing something I did or do understand what is the meaning, so please tell me if someone of you know what the meanin of this is...
I saw they have wrapped in several layer´s of plastic and the shape was a bunny....they did put it through the mouth of a cow
and pushed it into the cow´s stomach...and then back up??...and the wrapped one was a child...and it did survive this strange ritual...The cow was also alive.

I am in chock today.

[CFTraveler]

I would say they were showing transmigration, how the soul can go through phases of development until you get to human. Anyway, that's what I would interpret. A very symbolic-conceptual- mental projection, and the pool makes me think of a womb.

[IA56]

WOW...CFT...Thank´s...you are good.
The pool dream is about my birth....My mother did not believe I was born girl...she was so sure during whole preagnancy that she was carrying a boy...and when I was born she said to the nurse...you are misstaken...it must be a boy..

And yes I can buy the other dream of transmigration....I feel one of my goals in this incarnation was to understand how it is to become human...Thank you for your input.
The chock must be that I actually did get to know the whole process even when I did feel it in this dream it did chock me totally.