IA´s dream diary....

[CFTraveler]

Sounds like Tai Chi. (Taiji, Tai Qi, Tai Chi Chuan) I'd look into it if I were you.

[IA56]

Sounds like Tai Chi. (Taiji, Tai Qi, Tai Chi Chuan) I'd look into it if I were you.

Thank you CFT, I will look into it.

Love
ia

[Tutor]

the geisha [highly respected and wealthily kept prostitute/often the mothers of (bastard) children by (accountable-responsible) prominent men] has just such weapons tucked in her hair, and she is deady accurate with them. are they chop sticks or hair pins? both, and i imagine they are as well...weapons. change you? nah. awaken you to the fact that you would very well [humanly/motherly] respond in kind to an attack on your's? yes

to live respectful of all life being sacred [others] is as much to be prepared for death protecting [other]. such is love [you]...for your's.

"....(I rather die than rise my hand in battle)..." so yeah, just as you wrote, for holding your peace is protecting [other] from your very capable self.

this may go back to the time when you were unable to defend your's, this resolving as what you would have done if you were abled to do so. so, this dream is helping you to realize that you are not guilty by choice of what you could have done, as it were that you were unable; as well as releasing you from the shame you may feel, because you couldn't do anything to protect your's at the time, as it were, you were unable to. and this also reminds you, that even as much time has past since that time in the past, you are blessed to feel that you'd rather die than raise your hand to hurt. why is this a blessing? because most folks would feel to be hurtful from their hurtedness. so, this lil dream is packed full of personal resolve for you, as you have often [justifiably] felt that you and your's were ill-treated as if mere pieces of meat for someone else's hurtful/harmful pleasures. let go and let god; God whom righteously justifys You ~ respectfully as One who holds their peace.

[IA56]

the geisha [highly respected and wealthily kept prostitute/often the mothers of (bastard) children by (accountable-responsible) prominent men] has just such weapons tucked in her hair, and she is deady accurate with them. are they chop sticks or hair pins? both, and i imagine they are as well...weapons. change you? nah. awaken you to the fact that you would very well [humanly/motherly] respond in kind to an attack on your's? yes

to live respectful of all life being sacred [others] is as much to be prepared for death protecting [other]. such is love [you]...for your's.

"....(I rather die than rise my hand in battle)..." so yeah, just as you wrote, for holding your peace is protecting [other] from your very capable self.

this may go back to the time when you were unable to defend your's, this resolving as what you would have done if you were abled to do so. so, this dream is helping you to realize that you are not guilty by choice of what you could have done, as it were that you were unable; as well as releasing you from the shame you may feel, because you couldn't do anything to protect your's at the time, as it were, you were unable to. and this also reminds you, that even as much time has past since that time in the past, you are blessed to feel that you'd rather die than raise your hand to hurt. why is this a blessing? because most folks would feel to be hurtful from their hurtedness. so, this lil dream is packed full of personal resolve for you, as you have often [justifiably] felt that you and your's were ill-treated as if mere pieces of meat for someone else's hurtful/harmful pleasures. let go and let god; God whom righteously justifys You ~ respectfully as One who holds their peace.

Thank you Tim.


Love
ia

[IA56]

Thank you Tim.


Love
ia

Hi Tim,
I was not able to respond yesterday to your writing. Now I need to ask you few things.
Do you think I have bean in pre-life a geisha and maybe killed someone and in this life I feel as I do, not to raise my hand in battle??
I am rather sure I have done horribel things and suffer in this life still .....and I have difficulty to face the past too.
In this life I have faced so much ...and I am not able to rise my hand towards anyone...but I am learning that it is not nessessary to rise hand...I have rather strong voice too...and I have bean able to make big and tall men also to back off me......with you voice only.
And then I am also learning to read a situation before I am involved or too deep into it, so I can protect me not going into danger anymore.

Love
ia

[Tutor]

Hi Tim,
I was not able to respond yesterday to your writing. Now I need to ask you few things.
Do you think I have bean in pre-life a geisha and maybe killed someone and in this life I feel as I do, not to raise my hand in battle??

I have no idea.

as far as the rest of reply goes: to be honest with you, i am pretty sure that if i wrote the responce i felt were needed here, that it wouldnt be received as it were intended. as a matter of fact, i did write one, but deleted it. i am going to back away for a spell, but dont take it personal. i take care of me first, is all.

[IA56]

I have no idea.

as far as the rest of reply goes: to be honest with you, i am pretty sure that if i wrote the responce i felt were needed here, that it wouldnt be received as it were intended. as a matter of fact, i did write one, but deleted it. i am going to back away for a spell, but dont take it personal. i take care of me first, is all.

But Tim, you have an idea and I would very much to want to hear it...please.

Love
ia

[IA56]

In last night dream I was out locked from myself....the dream was like this...I was standing infront of a big door...I did see a sigh that I was out locked and put outside of myself...someone or some part of me was kept inside the door against my own will...I did stand outside the door with someone I do not know who...and I asked...what are they doing inside....He answered...She is holding court??....

[IA56]

Last night dream was more than comfusing...I dreamt that I had married my teen boy-friend...we did not tell
anyone we got married...and his mother did be so angry...he told me that she had given him an angry look, so I told him that she has never liked me and now you did dissobey her off course she is angry....I told him also that I have not ever bean able to build an relationship to her...so now when I won she will never forgive me....but at the same time I did have a near relationship with my father...I in the dream did say to my father...this is not right...I have to choose...and off course I choose my husband...but my father are trying to talk over me to be with him....I felt embarressed in the dream if my father was in the same room as my husband and more embarressed if he did kiss me...The dream continues...I meet my mother in law and she is saying....say something to me...I asked what it could be she want to hear...he say to me...to know prices of stuff...like suggar prices...I can´t understand this...and me and he has not bean in stores at all...I am not interested about stuff...I do buy if I need something...but I do not go to stores for fun to look at stuff...ever....but she does...so me being so different than her..we do not have much to say eachothers.....my husband is also somekind of teacher...we are gathered in a class-room and with lots of books on the table...now we are dressed up and he has given me a flower as they have in USA when they graduate and go to school bal...have the flower on the arm....he had bought total black flowers to me...and he had hung an jewelery to have on me too....one person gave me a black long skirt...I said I have a skirt on me...and it is black..but not long...so I asked my husband if it is okay me to have my own skirt...and I had a orange blause...the neacleass was blue and white jeweles....I did find it odd combination of colores...but I do feel this dream is deep and profound in many ways...The details in the skirt was also telling something...it was pink....but I do not remember more about it...I was very happy to be married to him....the feeling was....at last.

[IA56]

Last night dream it is hard to word it...but the content of the dream was....that I have hard time to make sence or to get a collected picture of who and why I am...I think I am not ready yet to know...but I am going steady to soon see and know.