IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Last night Dream I was in a new aparatement and a new job. My grandchild A come to visit me, and I show her around and it was a big apartament, I did quickly wash up a red skirt and a yellow top and put them to dry, and I said to A that she can come with me to see where I work, and she did follow me. I said hallo to my co-workers and told who A is to me, and I asked her if she find the way back to my apartament, she can not stay at my work, she looked at me with a sad face, so I said I go with her back, when we have come half way she wanted me to carry her, and I noticed that she was so Heavy, but she was so sad that I did not want first to tell her that she is too Heavy for me to carry her, but in the end I had to tell her, she was bigger than I was and hevier too, here I awoke myself.....

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In last night Dream I was with my whole family, all my relatives and we are many....I could very clearly see how I have aliened from them because I feel I have no Place among them, and this seam to be mutal...it did awaken rage in me, so here I can clearly see what I have to work with. My brothes son in this Dream did have a teen boy, (in reality he does not have Children yet) He was sad so I started to talk to him and asked what is the matter, he said he did not want to be here at all, he wanted to go out fishing, so I told him that he can go to fish here, he did at once become happier and I took his hand and said we have to find my brother, he know where the fishing items are...I did not even know his name, so I asked my brother what M´s boy´s name is...and he said....Huomio...(that means attention in Finnish)...so I yelled Huomio, to locate him and to tell him where the fishing items are...

Here I Went into a new Dream, I was in middle of like arabic selebration I Went through the crowd of them and I had a gourgeous White skirt on my, it was so Lovely and I felt like a Queen in it ....

Here I was back with my brother and my Father, I said this house needs cleaning, and I started to take the carpets out, and it was so much dirt on the floore, I did only go to get the vacum-cleaner and when I come back the carpets was back on the floor, it did make me angry, I asked, did you really Clean the floor´s ...and my brother did not answer me, said something else, and I said in anger....please answer my question, but he just smiled, he did send a meassage with his energy, that I should understand that they have cleaned the floor´s, that no-one puts the carpets back on Dirty floors....this did make me so angry that he did not answere me properly but that I had to read him....

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In last night Dream I was at my granparants house, when I start to go back, one Little puppy did follow me, I tried to stop the puppy to follow me but I did not succeed to stop it. When I came to like a pass through, I opened the door and it was like a barn, but a pass through like a passage, I tried not to let the puppy get inside, but it did slip through, I klimbed up to the top of the barn and sat on a log what keeps the roof up, and it was still night, I was thinking that someone must soon pass through here and see the puppy and maybe know who own´s it....soon the door opened on that end where I was supposed to go out, and in rushed 4-5 big dog´s in and one black big dog rushed at once to the puppy and grabbed it in his mouth, I was in chock....the man tried to take the puppy from the big dog´s grip but did not succeed and the puppy died....I here did awoke myself, it was too intense and horrible....

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In last night Dream I was in a scyscraper....I met a man and somehow I did notice his face, it Went some time and Another man did approace me, and I did see something I did recognize and in rememberance ...oh I did say...you have a brother, he looked at me and said, yes, but somehow this man was a man I did know from my past, not from this Life, but from my past...he did also recognize me, and he did come near me and wanted to kiss me, but I turned my head away and said...please, I have not brushed my teeth...here I awoke...

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In last night Dream my sister had invited me to visit her, when I arrive my sister (as usual) was occupied to do some lounary, she said she must do that first, I Went with her to the cellar where she had her washing-room, it was so dark, so I asked her how on Earth could she see anything in this darkness?? We were small talking and now she was finnished, and we Went upstairs, she told me that she will leave her work, and the replacement worker will come and see her to talk about the work she is leaving to her, my sister asked her if she will get paid monthly, no she said per hour, my sister told me that she have not got as good conditions as she had.

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Last night I had very strange Dreams...in the first Dream I was with my sisters husband and my teen bf (dead) we where to a house I was living with my family at the age of 13-14 yrs age....we were ready to leave and Went to the car, but they did left me behind, and I Went back to the house and I noticed that all lights was on and the cd-player also, I was trying to Close it down when unknown people entered the house, I knew this house was for rental and I understood that they have rented the house over the summer...So I started to walk and thinking that my sisters husband and my ex bf was just teasing me and will soon come to get me...but nothing happened but I entered a strange Town, it was Railway roads and travers roads, and I shouted to the working men how to get to Stocholm...they did Point a direction and I had to climb over trains and stuff and it was very hard, when I had come to a sertain Point I saw my sisters husband and ex bf in the car wawing to me and smiling...this time I climbed on a very dangerous Place it was hot and it was greesy and slippery and I did get stuck with my thies like between spirals, and the machine started to go on very high speed, I screemed ...help...but off course nobody did hear me...and I Went unconsious...

Now I am in Another Dream with my fathers parents (both dead and for the first time in my Dreams) we where visiting their house with my fathers Volvo (my grandparents did never have driving licens nor a car) the road to their house is very narrow so I said to grandpa that he might turn the car around for it will be very hard to go backwards 2 km....I did say to him where he can turn around the car not to damage it....It had to be in a Place where there was cow´s and bull´s and the fench had electricity on it...I did get help from the owners to the cattles....He did drive the car inside the fence and did drive very far away, it was like a car rally Place...I soon see the car driving like a rally driver but now I did see that both my grand parents are standing on the hill and someone else is driving the car...I wawed to them and yelled...we have to be going now if we are able to buy some food, my grandma did say she was hungry and that made us to leave the house to get some food....
Whilst we where in the house upstairs we where planning what furnitures must be bought to make the room comfortable...
It was much bigger than in reality....newer so to speak??

Maybe my grandparents has just now awakened?? I have bean wondering why they never be in my Dreams...so this night they where...I am happy.

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Last night in my Dream I was put an gun into my hands and forced to pull the trigger, the man did held my hand straight out at him and said repetedly, shoot, shoot, but my hand did not have any strength to pull the trigger, and the man did not Believe me when i told that I can´t kill anybody.....when he let my hands free, I shoot at a trash bin and it worked. People in the other room run to me and said I have to go with them to the police office. No I said, I have not done anything wrong, I will not go, and they could not do anything, I felt they have just waited me to do some error for them to report me and put me in jail??

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In last night Dream I was like a spectator ..seeing a father and his son who was working together doing restorations...I do not know over what, but I Heard the Word....restoration...several times....

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In last night Dreams I was sleeping and I was awakened by a feeling that someone was in the room, I also Heard someone saying something to me, so I said, sorry, can you repete it, I did not Catch it....Now I can see, it is my mother, and she is sad, she leanes her head on my chest, and I feel it is her time to go, I feel such Deep love towards her and at the same time my heart is breakeing because her departing, she sayes, if someone do see us they might get wrong impression, I said to mother, do not bother about that, we know what we are doing...she said she was afraid, I said, do not be afraid, just call upon me and I will come...go towards the light, it is nothing to be afraid of, you are totally protected....

In this seequenze my mother and her Brothers wife and me was entering into a dancing restaurant, I hear finnish dansing Music playing, and one man very toxicated greates me by saying...Hi pretty....mother askes me if I know him, and I say, yes...(but in reality I just do not know who he is)...I have to help him to stand straight, and I help him to his table and he is nearly missing the seat...I leave him....and go to mother and A they want to buy tea, and A takes Earl Grey...and I say I want more other tast, but the other tea bags do not have any labels so I try to smell them, but it was not easy so I just grab one and go to pay it, the cashier has poured up warm water in a tea cup for me and he have put an lilac colored tea bag in my cup??....I put my tea bag also in it ...it was black....I ask what one bun COSTs....3.50 she say´s..and I pay...mother put´s her tea cup in separate table from me and A and she say, I have to go to rest room...

In this seequenze I am in a room with 2 bed´s, I see my son in one and a dog on the floor....I go into Another room with 2 bed´s but soon I see my son back with the dog and I say to him, I can´t breath because of the dog´s fur in the air and I am inhaling it and that make´s me hard to breath, so he take the dog and go out for a walk.....

In this seequenze I am sitting in a Bentley with one of the Swedish Hollywood wife´s...she show me one hair slide, one part is missing and I tell her that we might find it in a second hand store, we both know one second hand store and we are going there, but it showed to be like industrial area and she do not want to go there, so we take a walk on a path way up to a hill, but in the middle of the road is many flies, and suitcase with blood on it, and 3 bird Cages coverd by a cloth...I tell her that we must call and report this to police...and one female police officer uncover´s the cageges and we get a big chock...she say...we ought to take better care of our pet´s and I agrea..One male police came with a parrot on his hand...alive...Oh I said, did he be alive, yes the male said, do you know who own´s it...No I said...but I´d like to have him, now the parrot tried to bite the police, so I said, No I change my mind, I do not dare to take care of him.....one male police uncovers the suitecase and it is a dead person in it....so horrible...

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I have looked upon geometrical patterns the whole night, when I awake this morning I thought that I have been awake the whole night, but then I re-called other Dreams too...I was arranging flowers so beautifully....this did help me to know that I have been awake in the Dream....

It was like a light ray that Went between the perfect pattern to a chaotic pattern, I could follow the light ray back and forth to understand the difference.....