IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Last night I had a strong dream again....I was in a spa...the bathroom was both for male and female...I did shower in peace and without any fear...when I turned around I see a man looking at me...and he was fully dressed, it was strange because it was a shower-room....I feel bad for him to be that reserved not to dare to shower freely...he touches his privat parts to get my attention...it now awakens fear in me...I wrap a towel around me and I see the toilet door and I go rapidly to the toilet...before I am able to lock the door the man violently opens the door and I am not at all getting what he wants....I see him being unsure what he want´s to do next...I say....if you do not let the door go...I will shout for help...he does not let the door for me to close it...I shout on top of my lungs....help....and here I awakens from the dream.....

[IA56]

Last night dream was me looking into a scenery...like looking some play...I was neutral from beginning...and did not valuate what I was seeing from beginning ...until one women on my right side started comment and making me unsure....
The scenery was about a young women...her father and his girlfriend.....the adult daughter was in shower...the father did turn water to cold...and she off course was screaming on top of her lungs....and the father did laugh as his girlfriend too....the women on my right side asked me if I did notice the fathers erection...no I said...I did not...now when she did comment in this way I started to feel unconfortable and my fear starts to build up...the women on my right side is hinting that they are having a 3 sum....and I can´t believe that...I do not get any sexual vibes from the scenery at all....but when the women on my right side is commenting makes me unsure....and I do protect myself with...the daughter is grown up....she can protect her self and I do not think the father is abusive to her....and here I awoke myself....

[IA56]

Last night in my dream I was on a campus...we where waiting to get something to eat....the campus dining room had raised the prize from 50 to 68 so I decided to go outside the campus to get something to eat...one did give me a hint that the hospital have good food to very low prize...so I went there but it was not easy to find the dining room but I went lost...it took time to find my way out from the building and I had to go back to campus without eating anything.....

[IA56]

In writing moment I do not remember my dreams I know I did remember them before I wake up, I was shown a text in a book so this took my attention just before I got up ....so I was in the middle state...half sleep half awake when this man showed me the book and the text to read....I tried to fall to sleep to have a opportunity to remember my dreams, but the man was so determined so I awoke me and went up to make some breakfast....

I know what this symbol says to me, very clearly

I will take up my studies again in spirituality....I have never studied more than a bit here and there but never properly...but I will start now...

[IA56]

Yesterday was it again...awakened by someone who felt I ought to get up...I ignore it first but it was so determined so I listened and went to make some breakfast...

I have got more energy, my tiredness is gone, and I sleep very few hours??
I did last night have some dreams but nothing what I now remember.....

[IA56]

I do not know what to call this what has started in my life...when I go to bed, when I am in between sleep and awake, it starts to happen strange things to my body...I can make sounds with my mouth without my control, and I ask...where did that come from...no answers yet....I can feel like a hit on my lower back and at once the thought comes...is this Kundalini based??...No answers yet....this goes on and on...and it has awakened flight and fight mode in me...and fear...but maybe this is the real awakening of my inner and to train me to become in control of my ego´s?? I want to think it is my being showing me how it is...that I have no control what so ever yet....

[IA56]

This morning just before I awake I saw this dream.....I was inside a house and outside the atmosphere started to change....I said to the friends who was with me to look out....we looked out of the window and in the air it was a skull what was radiating so much energy so it became like a sun....but the radiation was silver.....and with him a horse with human head??
They called me out, my friends said not to go out...but I said I have to...so I stayed just outside the door and they approached me...I put up my hand for stop...I said...do not come too near...they wanted me to follow them but I said I will not....they did respect what I said...they went away...I did follow them with my eyes and a for me unknown women said to the horse...oh I have waited to meet you...and they kissed...

[IA56]

Last night the theme was that I was not properly prepared for my journey....the dream was like this....It was very easy to go from A to B...but not back from B to A.......I was out walking when a man did want to take my picture, but I just walked on....when I come back home I felt for a walk again....went outside but now I did see the snow on the top of the big mountain, I looked at myself and noticed that I did not have any shoes nor jacket on me, so I had to go back home....and here I awoke....

[IA56]

I was awakened in a strange way this morning....pulled from my hair on top of my head??...Might be because I overslept.....

[IA56]

Last night I did remember in a dream a dream I had some nights ago....I had this presence of mind what did astonished me so much...I did put some black leather gloves on me, and whilst I did it I did look around and I did see scared faces and they asked why I did put the gloves on me...I said...with total calmness and I enjoyed to see that they did think so bad about me??...I was just joking with them....and saying....so it will not leave any finger prints....and here I awoke myself...not in this life I have ever had that presence of mind nor wanted to joke with peoples fear....I am thinking here where did this come from?? other life?? or if symbol what does it want me to know...that I have this presence of mind in me...but it is hidden??