IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was talking to a Young man who was suicidal...I told him that parenting does not come with a manual, everyone has to just be there for the children...I told him that he have got a divine responsibillity...he listened and started to put clothings on him....and he said...it is his feeding time...so he went to take care of his child.

In this episode someone called me by my name...I couldn´t locate it...so I asked...where are you....here the voice said...and I looked at the parking place and saw a man sitting in a car an wawing to me...I saw 2 cars with criminals....I felt it was a trap....He tried me to say that I know him....I looked at him...but I did not at all know who he is...I said...I don´t know you...so if I had said I know him...or pretended that I did...then something bad would have happened....but I did not lie...I did not know him...he wanted me to buy stolen things.....

In this episode all our relatives was having a some sort of celebration...I saw my sisters son outside the place...He did not dare to come in for some reason...I Went out to him and I hugged him and told him to come in...he hesitated...I embraced him and started to take him with me in...he said...stop...wait....I have no socks on me....??

One white cat tried to say something...but he just shook his head...I did not make anything out of it....??

[IA56]

In last night dream i was at my mothers birth-home...I was there with my gf...she told me that she have invited a friend of her to come over...I asked if she have bean togeather with her...she did not want to say...but I insisted and then she said...yes...but then she is your ex-lover...how on earth did you invite her to my relatives...I told her that pack her things and go with her before I make a huge scen...she tried to hit me...but I said...stop...do you want me to yell at you so my grandfather will hear and know about you....when I looked at them leaving...they where just mist...

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I was in shock in my dream last night...I felt arousal and suddenly a whole bunch of birds flow into my room and stopping my arousal??..they waited until I was normal again, before they left....

This seequnce I was looking at tools you use when skulpting...In the dream I knew how to use them...but in real life not...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was outside my house, I saw in front of the house a big beast..bear-like...huge like a grizzly...I knew my uncle T was back-side of the house...I run to him and told him to come inside the house...and when we entered inside the house I told him that in front-side was this huge beast...the big window wall we could see the beast but my uncle went outside..I was in panic...but to my surprise he did bend the beast jaws and overpowered the beast....I was flabbergasted and in awe...wow..I have never seen him as that strong and fearless.....

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Last night dream was about not letting me take the train...I tried on several way´s to get ombord the train...I was not getting the ticket, people did make it hard for me to get to the ticket booking office..and when I reached the booking office, train Went, and they told me that the next train tickets are not awileble yet, I need to come back...and when I come back it started agaian people making it hard for me to get the ticket and the train Went....

I tried to take Another way to get to buy the tickets, but it was so hard....and I did not get to travel...I had to stay....

I am sure this is a hint for me to stay and sort out what is bothering me...and I will get to it...seriuosly....the thread of Good and Evil....but I need more time to get to grief...I am crying inwardly...and must let it to surface outwardly to tears....I have a fear...that what is beyond is to get back to basic...and with it I mean...the atoms what my innermost is upbuild up from....when they have done all what they do when they manifest...when the manifestation is done in evey lever...it is done..and it retuns to its origin...tears is burning ...I will drown .....

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Last night dream I was to afterlife....My purpose was to map it out??...But I was distracted by my first husband A....He come so near me and I felt arousal...he called me Eva...I said...my name is not Eva....oh sorry he said....he started to plan our life together now when we met again....it was hard to keep focus what I was doing there and soon I forgot it ....I noticed that I had feelings still for him...I never thought I had....I was surprised.

I called me Eva in my teens, I never used my own name...but my first husbands first women whom he had 2 children with...they where never married...her name is Eva....he went back to her after our divorse...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was counting my birds...I had 8.....my cousins P had got one wild bird from nature to mate her birds...I had my balcony near her´s so this wild bird did flew into my apartament....I did notice that I had spruce trees in my apartament a whole wall, the wild bird did flew into it...I told my son and his son to get the bird out...but it was not easy...I told them to leave the balcony door open it will soon flew out.....

[IA56]

I awoke this morning with nausea and head-ache....The dream I had last night was about my meeting with the yoga instructor R.....in the dream he said...Close your eyes...and I did...I did see him more clear then with my open eyes....I told him that where shall I look...I see you so clear....he said...you are so talented??....he was pure kindness....it did chock me in positive way....as I am ready to meet un-kindness...I do believe he will do difference in me and my life....I am happy.

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I still have head-ache and nausea....Last night dream was bizarr....I was with my childhood friend T (she is no longer with us) we where on a Cruise liner...we was naked?? entering into a room where everyone was naked...my friend T did hug and kiss the nearest couple...and I backed out of the room....I thought we where going to sauna...so I Went back where whe have left our clothings...I had key to a cabin...but I was not able to see the number so I asked one man if he can see what number it is...he said it is number 10..I did find it and the key did fit....the man asked me if I was (he said my sisters name) I was so surprised so I did not correct him, I let him think he was right....the cabin was very small but it had 2 beds...I did see my white pants was wet...I notice there was a towel dryer, I did put the wet pants on it to dry....I started to make the beds, I was thinking she might come late and it is good if the bed is done so she can go to sleep easy.....

[IA56]

Last night I have slept bad...I was so easely choked and spooked??...like...I saw a green plant what wibrated....that scared me....I hear someone say...Tommy is not at home...and I felt fear?? ..like this was my whole night...I am exhausted....