IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Last night I was visiting a heart doctor...it was one male and female...the male was my doctor...the nurses told me that they shall switch me to the female doctor because they knew the male doctor was fond of me and it is not ethical for him to do that because me being his patient....so the nurses wanted to help both of us....I was surprised how deeply they have understood the situation, more then me...it was critical when they shifted me to the female doctor if there willl be some difficulty if she would understand the dilemma...but all went well...

[IA56]

Last night was what was happening in my deam state informativ but I am so sad I do not remember more than this....when I was sleeping on my left side it was important for something i do not remember no....likewise when I was sleeping on my right side...or on my back....it was helping properties both in my body and energy levels or energy bodies....frustrating that I do not remember more...but I am sure it will be clear one day ...so patience be disired.

[IA56]

WoW..last night dream did take me to the place in me what I assume to be my personal belief world....as I see myself to be in acceptance of others without judging.....accept others choices in Life without judging....feeling happy for them and hope others not to judge me and let me make my choices and accept them as I accept others choices ....

The dream was me being present when people did be babtised into religions...I was happy with them they have taken stand and marking they path so to speak....I was total okay with that....but I become very angry when they sudgested me to also babtise me into theires religion....I said NO...

I have made my stand point as I have not heard about other than Jesus Christ to free all and not judge anyone...I know that His message was to say...to take heart in theires belief....and be faithful to it...because every religion has the same core...LOVE....Jesus did not come to start a religion at all...He had to come and show the way to freedom...a new way to be....free.

I have in this lifetime faced this dilemma...the first time was in the 90-ties with my second husband...I opened my heart for the LOVE and deliverance...we did move up North and that city had all kind of religions represented...they did visit us and asked us to join theires Church....I was so happy to get so much attention...and I did visit all of them....but my husband was furious...he did say with Power in his voice...that I was not allowed to join any other Church but the state Church...and it was end of discussion....I joined that Church what my husband apointed for me....
I am happy to have made this journey of religion...

Second time this happened for some years ago...now my personal stand point was developed in me....NOT to join ANY Church what so ever....because what I have learned it only make false signals to others....in my world all religions are the same....all religions have the same core...LOVE..not to judge and not to exclude....

So last night dream did make me angry that I was asked to be babtised into a specific Church....

I was also in one seequnce seen several bottles...and was asked to choose among them....I understand this symbol totally...it is to one by one release my up bound energies in me...and free them.

It has begun....

[IA56]

Last night dream I see a women left to sleep on the street...I decided to have an eye on her...I was nearly sure at one point that she is dead...I said so to several persons but no one reacted...I did not know what to do...but then one day she moved....oh...she is not dead....I approached her and she told me that she has terrible lower back pain...I asked if I can give her massage...and she said yes....I gentle moved her on her side and massaged her lower back...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was protecting my child...I hold him in my arms and I was bend down nearly to the ground...I was in a hut or under a tarpaulin...I did see throgh a little slit...a huge grizzly...putting his paw on my neck...I did tensen up and I was waiting for it to tear me apart...I relaxed..waiting...nothing happened..

In this part of the dream ...I was standing on a latter and looking down...it was a horse farm...a man asked me what I was doing there...what kind of chores I did...I smiled and said...no I am not a employee of yours...I just visit a friend here....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was asked what I am....I said I am bisexual...but I choose to be hetero...they said I have to give my clotings to them...first I said NO but they said I can´t resist, I have to do as they say....I noticed I hade a male shirt on me...this did surprise me...and I was little bit curious what I had under the shirt...I had my female body... felt relieved because I felt like female in the dream....I was very surprised over my clotings.

[IA56]

In last night dream I gave birth to a child...soon I was preagnent again....and it was time to give birth again...I was surprised because I had no stomach what so ever....I never saw the second birth...

soon I was in a new dream....

eating breakfast with a man who said something...that is good to my collection...I asked what is...he avoided to answere me...he said a womens name...I tried to ask because I was providing for him and he want to spend money on something he do not want me to know...he did become irritated and he called me fatzo...wow I said....I like to be fat...so I think it is better you go back to her...I followed him to the door...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was helping people who lived on the street...we collected things others have thrown away...I was looking at a mother with her child...the child found a branch with beautiful white flowers on....No, she said to the child...put it back...only gambolas are allowed to collect them...she was afraid that some kind of guard will see it and they will be puniched.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I reached out for help...some said you can call Mike and Roland...I did...but they did not want to help me....woke up this morning with sore throat??

[IA56]

Last night dream was crazy... I had rent a cabin for my holiday...when I come to the cabin there was the old owner of the house, sitting in a Wheel-chair...dement...and no Communication what so ever...I noticed there was Telephones on the table...olde ones with wire....I did take the old owner and did rent a Place for him in a nursinghome as long as I had the cabin...I was irritated how someone can do this to an old person....one day I noticed that someone have taken my car...and left behind same colore then mine...but it was an old Volvo...without engin...and without registrating plates....insted of an registrating plate there was a decal with some numbers and letters on...I tried to write it down to call a police...but I did not be able to write it down properly, I was so upset...one nabour did come and I asked for her help, but not eigher she could write it down properly...so I did take the decal what was as a registrating plate....and Went inside the cabin to call police....but those Telephones was not ordinary phones...it Went to one nursinghome ...they did not know this man´s cabin was out for rent...so those people who did rent this cabin to me was criminals ...

it was so stressful and awful Dream what was so hard to sort out so I did awake myself from the Dream....I still feel bad because this Dream do show how I have bean fooled many times in this Life and Money have bean taken from me in wrong way....I do still feel insecurity and wondering if I really can protect myself against the World....

I had now a Heureka moment....wow....now I see this Dream clearly...of the parts of me who are unconsious of the criminals/negative parts of me whom I have to awaken and bring out of the negative state to elevate them to positves....the dementia man in Wheel-chaire is part of me who have given in because of all hardship I have had in Life...also from other lives....parts whom I have not succeeded to awaken....and they have give up...and become dement and no mobile....sitting in Wheel-chaire....wow...I see it clearly now....but how to help all them??....I Believe yoga helps.