In last night dream has to do during the abuse time of me 1981...I was so thin and lifeless...the dream went like this....I saw this thin lady and I knew her...I was sure she also recognize me...but did not....I stood infront of her and said sarkastic matter but teasing too...By no means do not stand up for me....we hugged and she was so weak...I told her that I will carry her on my back...but she nearly fell off...so I asked...shall I take you to the doctor...she mummbled something ...but I could not make anything out of it...here I awoke..